when I'm awake and asleep
In the day it's his well being I think of
At night a more intimate realm he fills
I know there is no future there
We're both obligated to others
Still the thought of his closeness
Renews a delight of awareness to my body
I long to hear his voice in...
that maybe I won't text her.
I deleted the phone number,
But I can't delete it from my ******* photographic memory.
I'm ready to move on.
Ready for a new girl, or a new boy, a new love.
A tourniquet to stop the bleeding.
I don't want to break my sobriety to stop this pain...
who causes all
outward earthly beauty to exist.
Whatsoever is perceived by sense He annuls,
But He establishes that which is hidden from the senses.
The lover's love is visible, his Beloved hidden.
The Friend is absent, the distraction he causes present.
Feel that sweet connection
Bodies pressed together
I don't want to be tied down
But, at the same time
There's only one man who makes me melt in his arms
In his arms I find release
I find a sweet song
He's my melody
The harmony that matches mine
for the second time last night.. I feel so weird .. Especially because i have a family who loves me .. I want to be cleansed .. I want to stop this .. I am ashamed of my actions. In the middle of the act i realized that i didnt enjoy it like i thought ..
something I cannot just let go. its like I am addicted to it. I'm holding on to memories that I should just let go of. But I Have to. Even though I tried getting rid of those feeling with one of the most perfect guys I could ever be for now. I can still not get over him. The...
Cascading over me like a blanket covering the eyes of a child
It's as if all real emotion evades me
The more I feed into temptation
Seems like this abyss gets wider
This burn to feel needed
Putting passion into something that's meant to be a promise
I disregard all...