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I Am Lying to Myself

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    i always tell people i do not give a **** about

    anyone or anything but in reality i care so much i'm gonna explode. i keep telling myself this boy is nothing but a temporary toy of mine when i'm actually falling madly in love.
    naomizz naomizz 18-21, F Oct 16, 2014

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    I should stop. I know I'm lying to myself

    but it's as if there are two sides to me - one sensible, wanting to be strong and smart and the other selfish, needing to keep up with the lie I tell myself every time I feel my eyes opening to what I really need. Selfish Me always wins.
    CleverName94 CleverName94 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 18, 2014

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    Afraid

    I lie to myself about everything pertaining to relationships. I make myself like any guy who shows interest in me. I am currently in a relationship where I continuously lie to myself. "yes I love him!" "he is great for me"...no. I am still in love with my ex but I just cannot let...
    Dipot Dipot 18-21, F Oct 17, 2010

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    I hate it when I do it.

    The normal lies I tell to myself are: It's going to be okay, Everything will be fine, Nothing's wrong with you.. Everyday I tell myself that I'm really just lying. When I think of something positive about myself, I think I'm lying about it until now..
    PureLies PureLies 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 10, 2014

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    Lying

    - I would never, ever, do it again. Not after what I feel now. I'm haunted by the lies I've told in the past. I hurt a big amount of people and ended up having to drop out of high school because they were so bad. I don't know what to do anymore. All I feel anymore is guilt. Just...
    wanttobebetter wanttobebetter 22-25, F Nov 9, 2013

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    I Wish It Wasn't So...

    I lie to myself every day and have been for a long time. I tell myself that I'm fine, that no relationship is perfect. I tell myself that I am doing the best thing for my children. I tell myself that someday things will be different. I convince myself that I am lucky to have...
    LG76 LG76 36-40, F 5 Responses Oct 5, 2011

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    At times I tell myself I can handle what Im

    feeling for that girl. I tell myself I can be friends with her and that its just only friendly love. I try to make myself believe all that. I know it isnt true. I can never let her go. I want to die. I even denied the fact that I hate myself for loving her and that i want to die...
    realandtrue realandtrue 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 30, 2014

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    It's Not Getting Any Easier.

    I don't know if I would necessarily call it lying to myself or trying to trick myself. I am in a relationship that is not good for me. He is sweet and wonderful, he loves me but I do not feel the same about him. Why am I in this relationship? I do not know. It may have something...
    fs9834 fs9834 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2012

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    I'm So Stupid...

    I keep telling myself I have no reason to cut, and I have no reason to want to kill myself, and to be depressed. But I do, and ya, they might be stupid reasons to some. But to me they are horrible events or memories. I want to believe what I say to myself, but I know it's a lie...
    Emofox Emofox 18-21, T May 5, 2012

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    Whats Real

    i cant not trust myself anymore i dont know if im lying to myself or if im lying about lying i lost alot of friends because of it. It feels like i lie so much that i cant tell the difference between whats real and what is fake. Im tired of this if anybody got any ideas how i can...
    francis101 francis101 13-15 Feb 18, 2009

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    Lying To Myself...when It Comes To Relationships

    I feel I settle for guys Im not attracted to but simply comfortable with. I cringe when they hold me but keep telling myself that I'll grow to like them more than a friend. Of course, resentment and anger and passive aggressiveness starts on their end cause they feel that I don't...
    ChocSwurl ChocSwurl 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2011

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    I Feel Like I'm A Monster

    There are numerous times in which i've had to lie to others in order to hide my real feelings. This is the example I regret the most, I lied to someone online saying that I crushed my cat to death with my butt and ate my cat's ashes. When in actuality I didn't, my cat Nico...
    Monstermaster13 Monstermaster13 22-25, M Oct 28, 2012

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    I live a life of lies

    and deceit. I sit on my throne of disgust and mistrust because I'm not man enough to face possible dis ownership. Nor and becoming an exile to my family. Ive failed them and myself all my conscious life and rebuilding credibility seems too great of a task. I need guidance... I...
    Dolosin Dolosin 22-25, M 1 Response May 4, 2014

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    In My Inferior Zone, I Eloquently Speak Some Lies

    The quote that says “God is what you think you are” is.. 100% correct but I think it doesn’t conceal the possibility when sometimes the truth is “God is what you thought you were.. in term of someone whom you want to be like”. Yeah, He drives our mind through the visual...
    ddangkochimp ddangkochimp 22-25, F Oct 9, 2013

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    Thoughts In The Room : The Lies I Tell Myself

    As we walk hand in hand, It is such a sweet lie.As you kiss me and tell me "you're everything to me", it is such a wondrous lie.As I lay in your arms telling myself "this time it's real", I'm just lying to myself.Just because I wish for love doesn't mean it will ever happen...
    LostInTime20 LostInTime20 18-21, F Dec 6, 2011

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    Am I Lying To Myself? I Don'T Know Anymore.

    What if I really aren't capable? the only reason I am still trying is that I imagine that moment when I finally succeed. But sometimes I wonder, is it really going to be that glorious? is it really going to be that important? What if it turns out bad and I end up with double...
    Shamandora Shamandora 18-21, F Mar 7, 2013

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    I Feel Indifferent Pt 1

    I am a liar.  I told the person who i wanted to call me from work how i felt about it.  i told him that i just wanted to be his friend and listen to his problems. Why would i want to listen to his problems. i've got my own problems to solve.  I should feel better...
    redux redux 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 18, 2007

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    Oh Dear I Have Been Lying to Myself

    I have been lying to myself for quite sometime now. Not about everythig but one thug in particular. What is it? It's that I like women. And in fact I am in a lesbian relationship right now and I couldn't be happier. I have lied to myself in order to stay apart of what "they...
    Rainbowhappy13 Rainbowhappy13 18-21 Jul 20, 2009

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    I've been doing this.

    I believed strongly that every human being is just that: a human being. Same as every other but for a few tiny genetic mods and the vastly different backgrounds of experiences and interactions that shape us. Athletes. Awesome people like Danny MacAskill and Sebastian Faucon...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife 26-30, M 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I hate it.I have so many feelings.

    My boyfriend doesn't know he thinks I'm fine.No its like I'm stabbing myself every time I lie to myself or anyone.Alex doesn't know either.My family don't care they are worried about my sister.My so called friend stabbed me in the back.So I just keep stabbing myself until I die...
    MusicLover4Eternity MusicLover4Eternity 13-15, F 6 Responses Jun 25

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    I feel like my problems aren't as bad as other peoples. so I keep to myself. That or I have no idea how to start talking about my problems to people.
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    I hate myself but there's moments like this were I actually feel good!
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    I don't appreciate people pulling me down while I'm trying to build myself up , but I guess haters gonna hate !
    Jini25 Jini25 22-25, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    I sit on the edge of myself, tracing memories in the sand. Sad for no particular reason, happy for you. Finally alone with my thoughts...would you like to hear? I sit on the edge...
    timeout4me timeout4me 46-50, M 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I have been chatting and watching **** for the last 2 days without letting myself having an ****** so when I finally do it will be massive. Totally worth the torture
    shareitall shareitall 31-35, M 14 hrs ago

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    Every time go to sleep i wish to not wake up the next day. But unfortunately i do. I tried to kill myself 4 different times and every time in a different way but i keep surviving...
    MadCrafter MadCrafter 13-15, F 6 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    A few years ago I was very depressed. Just because I knew I am born in the wrong body. I am not a boy, I am a girl. But how should I tell my mom and dad? I was so confused about...
    GirlyGirl1993 GirlyGirl1993 18-21, T 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I am on a mission every day to become a better version of myself. Yesterday I felt a huge sense of accomplishment. I have about five major goals. Get my health in order, get my...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    Lost.. Try.. Okay.. Helps when I tell myself another lie.
    Kardia Kardia 36-40 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I always had a thirst for the center of attention without rationalizing what comes with it. I always wanted to be desired and looked up to. I always wished I could have better...
    CaraBlossom CaraBlossom 18-21, F 17 hrs ago

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    Im going to do couch to 5k indoors. Jogging in place during the allotted time. I just did 40 mins of it and im so proud of myself. Its not the same as jogging outside but its safer...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F 19 hrs ago

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    I have had this problem with myself since I was a kid. I think this may have something to do with my autism but I get a bit hard on myself and put myself down all the time. Every...
    WokenandOpen WokenandOpen 31-35, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    .. And it was like everything i did was falling apart.Everything i had was fleeting and everybody i loved ..they were losing trust on me.I couldn't find myself anywhere in their...
    anupamasatyarthi anupamasatyarthi 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I talk to myself all the time, it's a daily thing. I don't spend a great deal of time around people anymore. I feel I paid my face to face talking dues in my last job s I tend to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I hate myself more than you can know. Worthless doesn't even begin to describe how I feel. I smile and act happy just so people don't have to put up with my bullshit. I can't stand...
    NothingtoNoOne NothingtoNoOne 26-30, M 4 days ago

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    Sometimes I feel like I want to kill myself, that feeling just randomly hits me at full force and i feel like my life is out of control so i cut myself or burn or sometimes I...
    IHateYourSmile IHateYourSmile 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    emotional clearing is a gateway to the next level of development on the individual basis it seems. since yesterday; being emotionally triggered revealed many things perhaps i was...
    Solongotgon Solongotgon 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    I have to stop trying to connect with other people so hard instead of leaving myself laying there feeling sorry for myself and start connecting with my self and of course with my...
    Miriamjen Miriamjen 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I sure do. I take care of myself and my emotions. I cheer up myself whenever I'm sad. I go out to shop my favourite things.Sometimes I pamper myself standing in front of a mirror.I...
    lovemylife2210 lovemylife2210 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    I struggle with low confidence and low self esteem, but I'm definitely trying to put in the effort to build it all up again. I tend to compare myself with others, which I think...
    AcousticSoul17 AcousticSoul17 16-17, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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