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I Am Lying to Myself

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    I'm So Stupid...

    I keep telling myself I have no reason to cut, and I have no reason to want to kill myself, and to be depressed. But I do, and ya, they might be stupid reasons to some. But to me they are horrible events or memories. I want to believe what I say to myself, but I know it's a lie...
    Emofox Emofox 18-21, T May 5, 2012

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    Am I Lying To Myself? I Don'T Know Anymore.

    What if I really aren't capable? the only reason I am still trying is that I imagine that moment when I finally succeed. But sometimes I wonder, is it really going to be that glorious? is it really going to be that important? What if it turns out bad and I end up with double...
    Shamandora Shamandora 16-17, F Mar 7, 2013

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    Lying

    - I would never, ever, do it again. Not after what I feel now. I'm haunted by the lies I've told in the past. I hurt a big amount of people and ended up having to drop out of high school because they were so bad. I don't know what to do anymore. All I feel anymore is guilt. Just...
    wanttobebetter wanttobebetter 18-21, F Nov 9, 2013

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    Oh Dear I Have Been Lying to Myself

    I have been lying to myself for quite sometime now. Not about everythig but one thug in particular. What is it? It's that I like women. And in fact I am in a lesbian relationship right now and I couldn't be happier. I have lied to myself in order to stay apart of what "they...
    Rainbowhappy13 Rainbowhappy13 18-21 Jul 20, 2009

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    Afraid

    I lie to myself about everything pertaining to relationships. I make myself like any guy who shows interest in me. I am currently in a relationship where I continuously lie to myself. "yes I love him!" "he is great for me"...no. I am still in love with my ex but I just cannot let...
    Dipot Dipot 18-21, F Oct 17, 2010

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    Lying To Myself...when It Comes To Relationships

    I feel I settle for guys Im not attracted to but simply comfortable with. I cringe when they hold me but keep telling myself that I'll grow to like them more than a friend. Of course, resentment and anger and passive aggressiveness starts on their end cause they feel that I don't...
    ChocSwurl ChocSwurl 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2011

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    Whats Real

    i cant not trust myself anymore i dont know if im lying to myself or if im lying about lying i lost alot of friends because of it. It feels like i lie so much that i cant tell the difference between whats real and what is fake. Im tired of this if anybody got any ideas how i can...
    francis101 francis101 13-15 Feb 18, 2009

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    I Feel Like I'm A Monster

    There are numerous times in which i've had to lie to others in order to hide my real feelings. This is the example I regret the most, I lied to someone online saying that I crushed my cat to death with my butt and ate my cat's ashes. When in actuality I didn't, my cat Nico...
    Monstermaster13 Monstermaster13 22-25, M Oct 28, 2012

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    I Wish It Wasn't So...

    I lie to myself every day and have been for a long time. I tell myself that I'm fine, that no relationship is perfect. I tell myself that I am doing the best thing for my children. I tell myself that someday things will be different. I convince myself that I am lucky to have...
    LG76 LG76 36-40, F 6 Responses Oct 5, 2011

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    I Feel Indifferent Pt 1

    I am a liar.  I told the person who i wanted to call me from work how i felt about it.  i told him that i just wanted to be his friend and listen to his problems. Why would i want to listen to his problems. i've got my own problems to solve.  I should feel better...
    redux redux 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 18, 2007

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    It's Not Getting Any Easier.

    I don't know if I would necessarily call it lying to myself or trying to trick myself. I am in a relationship that is not good for me. He is sweet and wonderful, he loves me but I do not feel the same about him. Why am I in this relationship? I do not know. It may have something...
    fs9834 fs9834 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2012

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    Thoughts In The Room : The Lies I Tell Myself

    As we walk hand in hand, It is such a sweet lie.As you kiss me and tell me "you're everything to me", it is such a wondrous lie.As I lay in your arms telling myself "this time it's real", I'm just lying to myself.Just because I wish for love doesn't mean it will ever happen...
    LostInTime20 LostInTime20 18-21, F Dec 6, 2011

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    I live a life of lies

    and deceit. I sit on my throne of disgust and mistrust because I'm not man enough to face possible dis ownership. Nor and becoming an exile to my family. Ive failed them and myself all my conscious life and rebuilding credibility seems too great of a task. I need guidance... I...
    Dolosin Dolosin 22-25, M 2 Responses May 4

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    In My Inferior Zone, I Eloquently Speak Some Lies

    The quote that says “God is what you think you are” is.. 100% correct but I think it doesn’t conceal the possibility when sometimes the truth is “God is what you thought you were.. in term of someone whom you want to be like”. Yeah, He drives our mind through the visual...
    ddangkochimp ddangkochimp 22-25, F Oct 9, 2013

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    So I need some feedback. My mom and sister have been fighting since may this year because she didn't tell my mom that she switched churches. I do not think it was lying when my...
    ilmafam ilmafam 26-30, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Lies. Lies. Lies. The worse form of lying is lying to yourself. It is so poising, yet we resort to it. I've been thinking about this today.. Why do we resort to lies? Especially...
    nadsxo2 nadsxo2 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    When I was 14 I was raped, there was two lads in the room and when I went to the police it was my word against there's, the police said I was lying and they wouldn't believe me and...
    shannonnicole5189 shannonnicole5189 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 30

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    It's a depressing thought when this sort of thing comes to my mind, but I've been thinking about it a lot lately, and the more I think about it, the more hopeless my cause seems to...
    TheBratPrince TheBratPrince 16-17, F Jul 10

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    Let me say this as just hate me for loving so sincere and have no return treat from the one i am in love with. OK! I found out that my girl friend can walk and protest and do...
    Egyptianguy34 Egyptianguy34 31-35, M 10 hrs ago

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    I hate myself. I immediately regret everything I say or do, or don't say or don't do, from the deepest conversations to the tiniest facial expressions I might make while ordering a...
    biggoron biggoron 26-30, M Jul 8

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    Why cant i get over him? I cant stop thinking about him and I cant sleep or eat! I need help. I need to stop lying to myself saying I'm over him when I'm clearly not. Why cant my...
    angelbaby8 angelbaby8 13-15, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    So I got caught in my lies recently and decided it was best that I owned every last one. After 7 yrs of being with this person I divulged every secret I had. I then took the...
    OnlyOneMe1979 OnlyOneMe1979 31-35, M Jul 7

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    I hate lying. I hate liars. But for some reason for some reason, I seem to lie to others (including friends and family) to avoid embarrassment. They're such obvious lie as well...
    Ceallsach Ceallsach 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I am trying hard to heal myself from the recent bad incidents. I mostly don't share my pain with others so it's hard for me to write this aswell. But i want to change myself for...
    Anujk8 Anujk8 26-30, M 5 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    I felt like my first year in high school I didn't really try my best. I've been slacking off and lying to my mom. I got good grade 'A' , 'B', and 'C'. But I never get c and when I...
    FighterWolf FighterWolf 13-15, F Jun 22

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    Who cares? I'm going to stand by my beliefs. I just don't see the point in lying anymore. The tendency is that a lie would eventually lead to even more lies until you can't handle...
    starbuddy starbuddy 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    i'd wish people stop lying about how they love me.
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 22-25, F Jun 29

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    i can't stop lying about everything. i lie about big things and things as small as if i went to the gym that day. i really think i have a problem and i don't know how to fix it...
    yellow3 yellow3 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 5

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    stop asking if I'm ok... I'm tired of lying.
    marafaunt marafaunt 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 14

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    I got out of the shower and decided to weigh myself and I am completely shocked at what it said.. I weigh 112 pounds.... There is no ******* way... this time last year i was 175...
    Daddysdirtyslave Daddysdirtyslave 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I once met someone, I fell in love with this someone. We were fighting to be together off and on for about three and a half years. At the end, I told him I was done, that I didn't...
    saatansnipples saatansnipples 22-25, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    I just love touching myself between my legs. It feels great. I do it at least three times a day. A great way to make it better is fantasizing.
    Samaccino Samaccino 16-17, F 4 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I guess I need to look at myself in a better light. Maybe I'm not so terrible
    TryingToImprove TryingToImprove 16-17, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    Apparently the mandatory overtime I thought I had was canceled, so I left early. Now, I have the house to myself, and you know what that means!
    purposebuilt purposebuilt 22-25, M 10 hrs ago

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    It isn't my fault of what happened when I was 11. And it isn't my fault about how the aftermath affects me. I'm tired of beating myself up always, over everything. What could I...
    AnnRhodes AnnRhodes 18-21, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    Im falling down and down You reached out to offer me help But i refused to ever stop myself Falling further in love with you
    ItsAnnaLena ItsAnnaLena 26-30, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    This is exactly what I need to do. Dig deep, find out who I am, rediscover what I've lost about myself. Here we go.
    gottabebettertoo gottabebettertoo 31-35, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I've come to a point where my disappointment in myself has turned to disgust and my meager vocabulary fails to describe how I feel so all I can do is make sounds that vaguely...
    Ridiculousity Ridiculousity 18-21 3 hrs ago

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    A shell in which to sneak away When the truth is too hard Peeking around the fragile walls Thinking I'm being smart But my body always wants out Freedom and release Relishing in...
    Accebere Accebere 36-40, F 1 Response 55 mins ago

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    I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself...
    Ashley1421 Ashley1421 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 13

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    I think ive always hated myself, from the age of about 11 all I can remember is judging myself constantly and putting myself down. I think this is a big part of why I suffer with...
    Emma93 Emma93 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 23

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    "If I can't beat them, I might as well join them. I know it's going to be tough and it will but I won't quit, I'm not going to stop and I'm not planning to. I won't fall behind and...
    blissnpiss blissnpiss 16-17, F Jun 23

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    Life sucks. I feel like I have no purpose here. I want to die on the floor. If I had acess to a gun, I would be dead. I hate the fact that I can't like myself. I hate that whenever...
    kitkat923 kitkat923 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 30

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    Yes, I truly do. Before I go on, the purpose of this story is not to brag. Heavens no, I’m not like that. I’m not conceited. I’m not full of myself. I’m not a douche...
    BewareTheGonzo BewareTheGonzo 13-15 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    I dont even have a valid reason to hate myself, im actually a really nice person. I wouldnt say ive done anything that evil or inhumane to give myself a reason to hate myself this...
    Emma93 Emma93 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 30

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    As of late, my life hasn't been what I would consider to be optimal; I distanced myself from the only person that I have had any inkling of romantic attraction to, bickered with my...
    woahwoahpotato woahwoahpotato 13-15 Jul 5

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    This both a good and bad thing for me. The good: whenever I'm alone or with someone I don't like for example my fake *** friend I tend to talk to my self. When I need to make a...
    FighterWolf FighterWolf 13-15, F Jul 9

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    Why do I hate myself? I look deep inside myself to answer the question and all I see is a monster staring back at me. In my eyes, I see Frankenstein without the scars and body...
    scooterp23 scooterp23 36-40, M 3 Responses Jul 12

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