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I Am Lying to Myself

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    Lying To Myself...when It Comes To Relationships

    I feel I settle for guys Im not attracted to but simply comfortable with. I cringe when they hold me but keep telling myself that I'll grow to like them more than a friend. Of course, resentment and anger and passive aggressiveness starts on their end cause they feel that I don't...
    ChocSwurl ChocSwurl 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2011

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    Am I Lying To Myself? I Don'T Know Anymore.

    What if I really aren't capable? the only reason I am still trying is that I imagine that moment when I finally succeed. But sometimes I wonder, is it really going to be that glorious? is it really going to be that important? What if it turns out bad and I end up with double...
    Shamandora Shamandora 18-21, F Mar 7, 2013

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    I've been doing this.

    I believed strongly that every human being is just that: a human being. Same as every other but for a few tiny genetic mods and the vastly different backgrounds of experiences and interactions that shape us. Athletes. Awesome people like Danny MacAskill and Sebastian Faucon...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife 26-30, M 3 Responses Jul 24, 2015

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    Oh Dear I Have Been Lying to Myself

    I have been lying to myself for quite sometime now. Not about everythig but one thug in particular. What is it? It's that I like women. And in fact I am in a lesbian relationship right now and I couldn't be happier. I have lied to myself in order to stay apart of what "they...
    Rainbowhappy13 Rainbowhappy13 18-21 Jul 20, 2009

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    Thoughts In The Room : The Lies I Tell Myself

    As we walk hand in hand, It is such a sweet lie.As you kiss me and tell me "you're everything to me", it is such a wondrous lie.As I lay in your arms telling myself "this time it's real", I'm just lying to myself.Just because I wish for love doesn't mean it will ever happen...
    LostInTime20 LostInTime20 18-21, F Dec 6, 2011

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    I Feel Like I'm A Monster

    There are numerous times in which i've had to lie to others in order to hide my real feelings. This is the example I regret the most, I lied to someone online saying that I crushed my cat to death with my butt and ate my cat's ashes. When in actuality I didn't, my cat Nico...
    Monstermaster13 Monstermaster13 22-25, M Oct 28, 2012

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    Afraid

    I lie to myself about everything pertaining to relationships. I make myself like any guy who shows interest in me. I am currently in a relationship where I continuously lie to myself. "yes I love him!" "he is great for me"...no. I am still in love with my ex but I just cannot let...
    Dipot Dipot 18-21, F Oct 17, 2010

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    At times I tell myself I can handle what Im

    feeling for that girl. I tell myself I can be friends with her and that its just only friendly love. I try to make myself believe all that. I know it isnt true. I can never let her go. I want to die. I even denied the fact that I hate myself for loving her and that i want to die...
    realandtrue realandtrue 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 30, 2014

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    i always tell people i do not give a **** about

    anyone or anything but in reality i care so much i'm gonna explode. i keep telling myself this boy is nothing but a temporary toy of mine when i'm actually falling madly in love.
    naomizz naomizz 18-21, F Oct 16, 2014

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    I'm So Stupid...

    I keep telling myself I have no reason to cut, and I have no reason to want to kill myself, and to be depressed. But I do, and ya, they might be stupid reasons to some. But to me they are horrible events or memories. I want to believe what I say to myself, but I know it's a lie...
    Emofox Emofox 18-21, T May 5, 2012

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    It's Not Getting Any Easier.

    I don't know if I would necessarily call it lying to myself or trying to trick myself. I am in a relationship that is not good for me. He is sweet and wonderful, he loves me but I do not feel the same about him. Why am I in this relationship? I do not know. It may have something...
    fs9834 fs9834 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2012

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    Lying

    - I would never, ever, do it again. Not after what I feel now. I'm haunted by the lies I've told in the past. I hurt a big amount of people and ended up having to drop out of high school because they were so bad. I don't know what to do anymore. All I feel anymore is guilt. Just...
    wanttobebetter wanttobebetter 22-25, F Nov 9, 2013

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    Whats Real

    i cant not trust myself anymore i dont know if im lying to myself or if im lying about lying i lost alot of friends because of it. It feels like i lie so much that i cant tell the difference between whats real and what is fake. Im tired of this if anybody got any ideas how i can...
    francis101 francis101 13-15 Feb 18, 2009

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    I should stop. I know I'm lying to myself

    but it's as if there are two sides to me - one sensible, wanting to be strong and smart and the other selfish, needing to keep up with the lie I tell myself every time I feel my eyes opening to what I really need. Selfish Me always wins.
    CleverName94 CleverName94 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 18, 2014

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    I live a life of lies

    and deceit. I sit on my throne of disgust and mistrust because I'm not man enough to face possible dis ownership. Nor and becoming an exile to my family. Ive failed them and myself all my conscious life and rebuilding credibility seems too great of a task. I need guidance... I...
    Dolosin Dolosin 22-25, M 1 Response May 4, 2014

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    I Wish It Wasn't So...

    I lie to myself every day and have been for a long time. I tell myself that I'm fine, that no relationship is perfect. I tell myself that I am doing the best thing for my children. I tell myself that someday things will be different. I convince myself that I am lucky to have...
    LG76 LG76 36-40, F 5 Responses Oct 5, 2011

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    I hate it when I do it.

    The normal lies I tell to myself are: It's going to be okay, Everything will be fine, Nothing's wrong with you.. Everyday I tell myself that I'm really just lying. When I think of something positive about myself, I think I'm lying about it until now..
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 10, 2014

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    I Feel Indifferent Pt 1

    I am a liar.  I told the person who i wanted to call me from work how i felt about it.  i told him that i just wanted to be his friend and listen to his problems. Why would i want to listen to his problems. i've got my own problems to solve.  I should feel better...
    redux redux 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 18, 2007

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    In My Inferior Zone, I Eloquently Speak Some Lies

    The quote that says “God is what you think you are” is.. 100% correct but I think it doesn’t conceal the possibility when sometimes the truth is “God is what you thought you were.. in term of someone whom you want to be like”. Yeah, He drives our mind through the visual...
    ddangkochimp ddangkochimp 22-25, F Oct 9, 2013

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    where i did.. I'm glad that part of my life is dead... i have to make a choice i won't regret because i won't feel ****... my emotions are destroyed, I'm with someone who cheated...
    GodlessWorld GodlessWorld 22-25, M 7 hrs ago

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    I feel dirty and slutty doing it and scold myself afterwards.
    VioletSea VioletSea 16-17, F 5 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Need pics to ^^^^^^ myself with. Girls wanna trade?
    hac01 hac01 13-15, M 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    I know Im not perfect and have many faults, but instead of belittling myself, I look at the funny side of things and have a good laugh
    EtTuJudas EtTuJudas 46-50, M 5 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I Finally Made It Too 19 Years Old .. The Age I Told Myself I Can Finally Get The Ball Rolling For My Life ... But I Feel Like A Failure , High School Was Hard ( Really Hard ) So I...
    SunnyMuffinsJr SunnyMuffinsJr 18-21, F 16 hrs ago

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    The first time they dropped rope at my feet I did not pick it up. Must have been my pride. Then as they spoke of faults which labeled my worth I thought I could do better. I could...
    Myplethora Myplethora 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    I feel like I lost who I am, but I can't figure out where. I need to find myself, I'm tired of being emotionless and watching everyone around me succeed and live their life. I feel...
    DaisyKaine DaisyKaine 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I feel that most people in my life are only there due to convenience. I don't feel any "bond" or connection with even my closest friends and family anymore. I know it's my fault...
    Sparklyblueunicorns Sparklyblueunicorns 22-25, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    As I take these 6 months to leave my husband and get myself on track, I think I am doing well so far. I am giving him and us 6 months. 6 months for him to seek a cure for his inner...
    majesticsea majesticsea 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    I'm ashamed of myself because I stopped going to school for awhile for no reason. I haven't been in days and feel ashamed about it because I know I should be and, I told my dad I...
    dhaith dhaith 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I made a promise to myself, one that I haven't kept. me and my mom never had a good relationship, and this particular day after picking me up from my dad's she went to shower after...
    pricklytickk pricklytickk 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    Today I almost lost my girlfriend and I never hated myself more than now. They diagnosed her with carbon monoxide poisoning. She tried to kill herself and it's my fault! I hate...
    LoloRegz LoloRegz 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    Despite leaving my partner and safe haven, I am still trying to find a sense of normalcy for the little one. I brought him out to the carnival last night. But it feels like a...
    majesticsea majesticsea 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Last week I told my mom I had done all my chores and I was going to my boyfriends house Well she came home and I didn't do anything she waited till I got home Then that's when she...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 days ago

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    I deal with a lot of self-hatred and disgust. I'm disgusted with myself for feeling awful all the time. I'm disgusted with myself for feeling broken. My life is practically perfect...
    Hush92 Hush92 18-21, F 9 Responses 6 days ago

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    It seems so simple, self-explanatory, and obvious, doesn't it? Loving oneself sounds like something that should come totally naturally. I have found that mindfulness helps me stay...
    rebekahanastasia rebekahanastasia 18-21, F 6 Responses a week ago

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    "Be happy with yourself." Right..how can I be happy with myself if I am not really. I've been truggling to lose weight but I might as well give up. I've failed too many times and...
    PassionForCreativity PassionForCreativity 26-30, F a week ago

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    I've gone two months without hurting myself. I've been happy, my anxiety is down, and I haven't even thought about hurting myself. Yesterday I colored my hair and got some dye on...
    SimplyEm SimplyEm 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    Honestly explaining myself to someone is the hardest thing, because nobody understands. I'm not like anyone In my family, my family always just thinks I'm a defective child who...
    bflyboo14 bflyboo14 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 26

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    I feel like I'd like myself at first but as I knew more, I would soon find myself disliking myself more and more
    10786y 10786y 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    I really have been struggling with this lately... well more like for the past 7 or so months. I ******* hate myself, I hate that I'm useless and can't bring home any income, I hate...
    GoldenHeart69 GoldenHeart69 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    I remember the wind was so strong , I struggled to push myself against it . The urge to end this was stronger. I kept moving across the icy shoreline , my feet sinking into frozen...
    Angelofthesilence Angelofthesilence 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 24