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I Am Lying to Myself

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    It's Not Getting Any Easier.

    I don't know if I would necessarily call it lying to myself or trying to trick myself. I am in a relationship that is not good for me. He is sweet and wonderful, he loves me but I do not feel the same about him. Why am I in this relationship? I do not know. It may have something...
    fs9834 fs9834 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 1, 2012

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    Afraid

    I lie to myself about everything pertaining to relationships. I make myself like any guy who shows interest in me. I am currently in a relationship where I continuously lie to myself. "yes I love him!" "he is great for me"...no. I am still in love with my ex but I just cannot let...
    Dipot Dipot 18-21, F Oct 17, 2010

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    In My Inferior Zone, I Eloquently Speak Some Lies

    The quote that says “God is what you think you are” is.. 100% correct but I think it doesn’t conceal the possibility when sometimes the truth is “God is what you thought you were.. in term of someone whom you want to be like”. Yeah, He drives our mind through the visual...
    ddangkochimp ddangkochimp 22-25, F Oct 9, 2013

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    Am I Lying To Myself? I Don'T Know Anymore.

    What if I really aren't capable? the only reason I am still trying is that I imagine that moment when I finally succeed. But sometimes I wonder, is it really going to be that glorious? is it really going to be that important? What if it turns out bad and I end up with double...
    Shamandora Shamandora 16-17, F Mar 7, 2013

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    I live a life of lies

    and deceit. I sit on my throne of disgust and mistrust because I'm not man enough to face possible dis ownership. Nor and becoming an exile to my family. Ive failed them and myself all my conscious life and rebuilding credibility seems too great of a task. I need guidance... I...
    Dolosin Dolosin 22-25, M 2 Responses May 4

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    I Wish It Wasn't So...

    I lie to myself every day and have been for a long time. I tell myself that I'm fine, that no relationship is perfect. I tell myself that I am doing the best thing for my children. I tell myself that someday things will be different. I convince myself that I am lucky to have...
    LG76 LG76 36-40, F 6 Responses Oct 5, 2011

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    I Feel Indifferent Pt 1

    I am a liar.  I told the person who i wanted to call me from work how i felt about it.  i told him that i just wanted to be his friend and listen to his problems. Why would i want to listen to his problems. i've got my own problems to solve.  I should feel better...
    redux redux 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 18, 2007

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    Oh Dear I Have Been Lying to Myself

    I have been lying to myself for quite sometime now. Not about everythig but one thug in particular. What is it? It's that I like women. And in fact I am in a lesbian relationship right now and I couldn't be happier. I have lied to myself in order to stay apart of what "they...
    Rainbowhappy13 Rainbowhappy13 18-21 Jul 20, 2009

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    I'm So Stupid...

    I keep telling myself I have no reason to cut, and I have no reason to want to kill myself, and to be depressed. But I do, and ya, they might be stupid reasons to some. But to me they are horrible events or memories. I want to believe what I say to myself, but I know it's a lie...
    Emofox Emofox 18-21, T May 5, 2012

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    Lying To Myself...when It Comes To Relationships

    I feel I settle for guys Im not attracted to but simply comfortable with. I cringe when they hold me but keep telling myself that I'll grow to like them more than a friend. Of course, resentment and anger and passive aggressiveness starts on their end cause they feel that I don't...
    ChocSwurl ChocSwurl 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2011

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    Whats Real

    i cant not trust myself anymore i dont know if im lying to myself or if im lying about lying i lost alot of friends because of it. It feels like i lie so much that i cant tell the difference between whats real and what is fake. Im tired of this if anybody got any ideas how i can...
    francis101 francis101 13-15 Feb 18, 2009

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    Thoughts In The Room : The Lies I Tell Myself

    As we walk hand in hand, It is such a sweet lie.As you kiss me and tell me "you're everything to me", it is such a wondrous lie.As I lay in your arms telling myself "this time it's real", I'm just lying to myself.Just because I wish for love doesn't mean it will ever happen...
    LostInTime20 LostInTime20 18-21, F Dec 6, 2011

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    At times I tell myself I can handle what Im

    feeling for that girl. I tell myself I can be friends with her and that its just only friendly love. I try to make myself believe all that. I know it isnt true. I can never let her go. I want to die. I even denied the fact that I hate myself for loving her and that i want to die...
    realandtrue realandtrue 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 30

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    I Feel Like I'm A Monster

    There are numerous times in which i've had to lie to others in order to hide my real feelings. This is the example I regret the most, I lied to someone online saying that I crushed my cat to death with my butt and ate my cat's ashes. When in actuality I didn't, my cat Nico...
    Monstermaster13 Monstermaster13 22-25, M Oct 28, 2012

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    Lying

    - I would never, ever, do it again. Not after what I feel now. I'm haunted by the lies I've told in the past. I hurt a big amount of people and ended up having to drop out of high school because they were so bad. I don't know what to do anymore. All I feel anymore is guilt. Just...
    wanttobebetter wanttobebetter 18-21, F Nov 9, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    Even thought im in a casual relationship i still prefer to do things by myself, im not a people person i have friends but still prefer to go catch a movie by myself even a bit of...
    ExtremeNext ExtremeNext 26-30, F 23 mins ago

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    I'm not looking for attention, I'm just trying to vent out my emotions I've been bottling up. But to get to the point, I'm a happy go lucky dude that loves to put a smile on...
    NigNog96 NigNog96 16-17, M 20 mins ago

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    I'm not looking for attention, I'm just trying to vent out my emotions I've been bottling up. But to get to the point, I'm a happy go lucky dude that loves to put a smile on...
    NigNog96 NigNog96 16-17, M 20 mins ago

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    That may eventually change. I feel I should cry until my eyes are swollen and bloodshot for the last time. I feel I shouldnt care and put my heart into helping others feel better...
    Lov3intheasylum Lov3intheasylum 31-35, F 2 hrs ago

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    They lie all the time. They say i am unable to love others until I love myself. Tell me, if that were true, why does the sadness of others hurt me?
    ButtersTheMerciful ButtersTheMerciful 13-15, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I hate myself the pain and humiliation I caused my parents by marrying outside my religion. I hate myself for for forcing my husband to convert to my religion albeit for show...
    Hbee1980 Hbee1980 31-35, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    They say that in our teenage years we become more sensitive towards what we are told, what is said about us and how we perceive what others think. We become aware that are actions...
    xogymfish xogymfish 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 15

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    Hello. I am Bailey. I am seventeen years old. I started cutting myself when I was fourteen. The first time I did it, I used a key. I carved someone's initials into my forearm...
    Baileywelch12 Baileywelch12 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 15

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    It's actually a line from a song, gothic metal. No doubt there was a particular reason when I joined the group, but as the lyrics imply it's actually always topical. I...
    Faust76 Faust76 36-40, M 1 Response Aug 7

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    I honestly hate lying. But i haven't had the best track record with jobs. I have a very low tolerance for people who talk down to me in a unprofessional way. Well moving on i had a...
    Lovlee46 Lovlee46 26-30, F Aug 15

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    I accepted my lying and took responsibility for that. But the hard truth is i could not repair the damage. The guy whom i love more than anything in world ended it. I know that i...
    jayatri17 jayatri17 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 6

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    What's the lying game? What's that about
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F Aug 10

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    since I was small I was created to lie about my life because of the events I went through my mom would tell me not to say what happen but to say something else it has been since...
    celali celali 18-21, F 7 hrs ago

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    I cut myself today. I am so ashamed. I haven't done something like that since I was a teenager. I used to cut myself all the time when I was younger. I had some issues growing up I...
    Thinkofme Thinkofme 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 10

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    My story is that I have a sickness inside that I don't know how to make go away. It's hard to define this sickness other than a pervading poison that is eating me from the inside...
    Shellybelle Shellybelle 41-45, F 3 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    It all started about 4 years ago in junior high. I started growing up, going through hormonal changes, and some adjustments in life. And in the process I started dating (Late I...
    kittybabe100 kittybabe100 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 2

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    I am really bad due to self punishment and can be really negative on myself! I beat myself up, hate myself when i make a mistake or say something wrong or annoy someone or do...
    MilweePetite MilweePetite 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 4

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    Today I talked like "a guy" to my friend who's a girl, and she didn't like it. She told me so.... actually she didn't. She said she had some things to do and she wanted to go. I...
    MCxxOPREVxxOG MCxxOPREVxxOG 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 6

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    I hurt myself again. After several years, I hurt myself again. I chose to hurt myself rather than hurt others. Everything is coming back to me. The pain, agony, self-pity and...
    purplefreespirit purplefreespirit 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    I don't have money for food, a place to stay. So I'm going homeless, no family and nobody who can help me. My drug addiction doesn't really help either. I am having a tough time...
    YoungRidah YoungRidah 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 9

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    i appreciate my own company. i always have but ive been lonely too. now im making a bit of effort because ive left myself alone or in someone elses hands for too long. its weird...
    luckylassie luckylassie 51-55, F 1 Response Aug 16

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    Since I was young I enjoy having conversations with myself. Sometimes it's just me scolding myself or I pretend there is somebody asking me questions and I imagine myself in...
    yetanotherhuman yetanotherhuman 26-30, M Jul 27

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    The other day at work I had an epiphany that I really truly love myself. I was thinking of a party that I went to..my first one. I refused to drink any alcohol when all of my best...
    londontravella londontravella 18-21, F Jul 29

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    what i have for myself is beyond hate. i hate everything about myself. i hate my own existence. i hate my parents for having me. i hate god for creating such a weak helpless being...
    SlaveToMyBullshit SlaveToMyBullshit 18-21 1 Response Aug 1

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    I love spending time by myself. Probably mostly because of my social anxiety, but also because of the way I was raised. As a teenager with high school parents, I was never allowed...
    Skywalker1979 Skywalker1979 31-35, M Aug 8

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    There is a saying that everything in life comes as a blessing. It's part of our destiny and our path towards our life. We perceive events in our lives as good or bad, we make...
    xogymfish xogymfish 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 15

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    It's therapy to me. The relaxing part of the day. If I don't talk to myself, I think that would make me even crazier than how society already sees me. I'm an introvert. I hate...
    dustyoldclock dustyoldclock 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    Often times we are our own worst enemy. In my case I push myself way too hard. Whatever I do I want to be the best at in the competitive sense, but just so that I can feel content...
    Pacificdiem Pacificdiem 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 27

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    I met an amazing girl yesterday. I don't think it was the first time I had seen her but it was the first time we were introduced. At first I thought she was a couple years older...
    persononinternet persononinternet 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 29

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    Most people wouldn't understand and I don't expect you too. No one knows I hurt myself not even my closest friends, I only punch myself in the ribs and punch walls and throw...
    heyapple69 heyapple69 66-70, F 2 Responses Jul 30

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    What to hate about me? I'm too perfect to live in this world XD jk! Seriously.. Sometimes i love myself like a lover other times like a best friend Sometimes I hate myself but...
    AutoLove0 AutoLove0 22-25, F Aug 3

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    I grew up in a fairly conservative Midwest town, and as such told myself when I was younger that I would never be one of "those girls who makes out with other girls at parties or...
    hottiewithabody94 hottiewithabody94 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 4

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    I have been out of work for over a year. I am trying to find work but it is very difficult. Lately I have been mad at myself and feeling down. I started spanking myself. I get nude...
    mmccoy43 mmccoy43 41-45, M Aug 7

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    I'm having those feelings again. I've been trying hard to believe in myself and be productive. Doing that I feel requires self-esteem of some sort. So I'd like to let these...
    StokesQuirky StokesQuirky 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 9