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I Am Manic Depressive

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    I just need someone to sit in my room

    and do drugs with me all night. I need to be anaesthetized and placated. I want to blast music while so high I no longer recognize my corporeal form. I need to know that I am in the presence of something with a pulse. I feel unreal.
    WithoutChemicals WithoutChemicals 18-21, F Feb 8, 2014

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    So... I was diagnosed at 17

    when I almost had a melt down in my sophomore English class. A lot of people think being "bipolar" means you have mood swings and that's it. It's not. Yes, you have mood swings but it's not like one would think. For me, it's being one extreme and then exchanging it for another...
    LadyApfel LadyApfel 22-25, F Apr 8

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    I Now Have Adhd As Well As Bipolar

    I WAS TOLD I HAD ADHD BECAUSE I FORGET WHERE I PUT THINGS AND I CAN NOT SIT STILL I HAVE TO BE IN CONSTANT MOTION.  I WAS OFF OF THE VYVNASE WHICH I TAKE FOR THE ADHD FOR 2 WEEKS AND I CAN TELL THAT I HAVE NOT BEEN TAKING IT.  I PICK UP THE PRESCRIPTION YESTERDAY AND...
    texas2005 texas2005 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 27, 2010

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    Where Do I Go From Here?

    I have been battling with manic depression for some 20+ years now.  Just the other day I started going back to Therapy with a Therapist that I had seen many moons ago.  The reason I wanted to get back to Therapy is because I had a my uterus removed this past March. ...
    texas2005 texas2005 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 28, 2009

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    Fired After Four Months

    My first manic episode happened to me during my first professional job after graduate school. I felt so happy and fulfilled in life and was working very hard to establish a career. When I moved into the city (2 months after starting work), I noticed that I was starting to...
    CW1715 CW1715 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 14, 2011

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    Semantics: I Call It Life

      Hmmm...what to say about bipolar. In true manic depressive fashion, both bipolar and the contemplation of it leave me hopelessly ambivalent. I can’t detach from it and simultaneously, I seem unable to reconcile bipolar with my self, with who I am. I guess my...
    LickingStamps LickingStamps 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 5, 2009

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    Any Body Shared the Same Experience??

    hey! im 13! my dad went into hospital in january this year! we had been on holiday and because of the family that came with us,, my dad went on a high.. the holiday was a nightmare! the other family were rowing and very lazy! we had gone on holiday for a rest but when...
    bananapuff bananapuff 13-15 Aug 13, 2009

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    I can say that I am a person who lived a miserable life. I am not writing this out of pity, but I just want to get this off my chest. It started when I was a baby. My parents are...
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    fgtorres fgtorres 31-35, M Apr 22

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    I was diagnosed last November/December and am going thru treatment and am taking aripiprazole or abilify. Still been having deep depressive episodes for months so going to have my...
    HarrySavage96 HarrySavage96 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 23

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    I take medication but I will still have symptoms. No one tells you that the physical symptoms are as bad as the mental. Having major depressive disorder is exhausting. My bones...
    elephantwalk elephantwalk 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 25

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    Ironman2219 Ironman2219 18-21, M 1 Response May 1

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    dontyouunderstand dontyouunderstand 18-21 May 2

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    Hi guys, here’s my (rather lengthy) tale of woe. I lost someone to suicide. And I feel as if I will shortly go the same way. Early 2014, I was a 16 year old Junior (uh-oh). I had...
    sallyscallop sallyscallop 18-21, F 2 Responses May 4

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    I can believe this have been good and living with depression for over 3 years and last night I actually tried to hang myself. I had a extension cord tide around my neck and I...
    Lilylight Lilylight 13-15 3 Responses May 5

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    HelloLovelyPerson HelloLovelyPerson 18-21, F 2 Responses May 6

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    MissAutumn MissAutumn 18-21, F May 10

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    i wonder even the day is stretched into a 72 hours a day there will just not enough... we spent time, we waste time, we try to walk the walk of life, we consume time more than we...
    blackravencat blackravencat 22-25, M May 13

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    bro1234567890 bro1234567890 16-17, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    OneOfaKindWoman OneOfaKindWoman 18-21 3 days ago

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    littlejxoxo littlejxoxo 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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