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I Am Manic Depressive

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    I just need someone to sit in my room

    and do drugs with me all night. I need to be anaesthetized and placated. I want to blast music while so high I no longer recognize my corporeal form. I need to know that I am in the presence of something with a pulse. I feel unreal.
    WithoutChemicals WithoutChemicals 18-21, F Feb 8, 2014

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    Any Body Shared the Same Experience??

    hey! im 13! my dad went into hospital in january this year! we had been on holiday and because of the family that came with us,, my dad went on a high.. the holiday was a nightmare! the other family were rowing and very lazy! we had gone on holiday for a rest but when...
    bananapuff bananapuff 13-15 Aug 13, 2009

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    I Now Have Adhd As Well As Bipolar

    I WAS TOLD I HAD ADHD BECAUSE I FORGET WHERE I PUT THINGS AND I CAN NOT SIT STILL I HAVE TO BE IN CONSTANT MOTION.  I WAS OFF OF THE VYVNASE WHICH I TAKE FOR THE ADHD FOR 2 WEEKS AND I CAN TELL THAT I HAVE NOT BEEN TAKING IT.  I PICK UP THE PRESCRIPTION YESTERDAY AND...
    texas2005 texas2005 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 27, 2010

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    Semantics: I Call It Life

      Hmmm...what to say about bipolar. In true manic depressive fashion, both bipolar and the contemplation of it leave me hopelessly ambivalent. I can’t detach from it and simultaneously, I seem unable to reconcile bipolar with my self, with who I am. I guess my...
    LickingStamps LickingStamps 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 5, 2009

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    Where Do I Go From Here?

    I have been battling with manic depression for some 20+ years now.  Just the other day I started going back to Therapy with a Therapist that I had seen many moons ago.  The reason I wanted to get back to Therapy is because I had a my uterus removed this past March. ...
    texas2005 texas2005 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 28, 2009

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    Fired After Four Months

    My first manic episode happened to me during my first professional job after graduate school. I felt so happy and fulfilled in life and was working very hard to establish a career. When I moved into the city (2 months after starting work), I noticed that I was starting to...
    CW1715 CW1715 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 14, 2011

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    So... I was diagnosed at 17

    when I almost had a melt down in my sophomore English class. A lot of people think being "bipolar" means you have mood swings and that's it. It's not. Yes, you have mood swings but it's not like one would think. For me, it's being one extreme and then exchanging it for another...
    LadyApfel LadyApfel 22-25, F Apr 8

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