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I Am Married And Closet Lesbian

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 174 People

    Hi I been married for 10yrs an been with my

    husband since is was 18 now I'm 35. I just recently fell in love with a female an we been having a affair for a yr! I'm so stressed out an don't know what to do cause Im scared to leave my family but I can't let her go either!!:( this my first lesbian experience an I love it so...
    Nickyhoney Nickyhoney 36-40, F 5 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    I am 36 and am coming to terms

    that I am gay. I've never had a relationship with a woman. I am married with two kids and I'm freaking out. I don't know what to do.
    robotprincess robotprincess 36-40, F 7 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    Sometimes I Wonder

    I am married with kids. My husband knows I am bisexual. I dated around before he and I met. It isn't about the sex for me so much as it is the personality and chemistry. I often wonder about the what ifs in life. This is one if those ifs. I have several friends that are lesbian...
    momof3yahoos momof3yahoos 36-40, F 1 Response Sep 21, 2013

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    Cleaning Out The Closet...Starting With His Stuff

    I always said when my mom dies I would become lesbian. Become! I really meant when she does I will have the courage to live openly as a lesbian. I can't do it with her ugly twisted mouth looking at me like I'm a dirty lezzie. My mom was terrified, when I was in my teens, that...
    christinacrawford christinacrawford 46-50, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    I Am Bi. I...

    I am a 25 year old bisexual woman from US. I discovered that I was bi-curious when I was 17. I went out looking for one thing and found another. It took me a long time to come to terms with the fact that I am bi. After one experience with a woman (she was hot, passionate and...
    bisexuallucy bisexuallucy 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 4, 2012

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    Hi I'M Kimmy

    I'm a lesbian and out, and I just wanted to offer my support and companionship to anyone who needs it :)
    BabyDyke BabyDyke 18-21, F Nov 26, 2013

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    Chinese Gay Man Looking For Moc Marriage, Malaysia, Klang

    Hii, Simple intro. about myself. I am a gay man. Age 27. Chinese. Living in Malaysia (state- Selangor). I been thinking about my future a lot. Imagining the family and future that i would like to have. Going out of the closet is definitely not the choice that i will choose. This...
    readfile readfile 26-30 May 25, 2013

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    I have been married to a man

    for over a year and I can't stop thinking of being with a woman again. I had my first lesbian relationship 5 years ago with this great girl and then wound up getting married to my husband which is a major mistake because I really want to be with a woman. I don't know what to do...
    omeyeliner omeyeliner 26-30, F 6 Responses Jan 7, 2014

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    Attracted To Women?

    So I am married And I think That I may be attracted to women.... Although I have never been with a female intimately, I find that while watching...videos...I spend more time focused on the female and her features and it..makes me ...happy to say the least. Lol. But I think am...
    Neveragainsag Neveragainsag 22-25, F 10 Responses Oct 3, 2012

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    What I've Always Known But Never Told

    I was always a little tom-boyish. I always felt different. Even though most of my friends were guys I always had very strong feelings for women. I became very good at hiding my true self from the real world, masking my feelings so I could fit in. I married my HS sweetheart, I've...
    PseudoLyfe PseudoLyfe 26-30 8 Responses Oct 17, 2012

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    I am married to a man,

    but have recently realized I am a lesbian. I thought I was bi when we got married, but I think I was just in denial. A few weeks before my husband and I started dating my girlfriend of seven years left me. To say the least I was heartbroken and desperate to feel loved. Everyone...
    Onlyifyoucanguess Onlyifyoucanguess 26-30, F 7 Responses Jan 10, 2014

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    I Wanted You To Hear Me

    I wanted you to hear me out, To see things as I do, To understand things the way I did, I wanted us to talk out of the same mouth. Maybe I just really wanted to be understood by just one person in this world, I was confused you reminded me of a past lover who I never had the...
    indigowitch indigowitch 22-25, F Jun 1, 2013

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    Where Do I Go From Here.?

    Hello. I'm a married 23 year old female who thought she had her life all figured out! All my life, I've been a bit codependent and pleasing others genuinely used to make me happy, lately that hasn't been enough! As a child, I was molested on three different accounts. The first...
    Crazygirl489 Crazygirl489 22-25 4 Responses May 26, 2013

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    Married 30 Yr Old & In The Closet

    Hi there.. Im a 30 yr old mother of two and a closet lesbian. This has been a secret that Ive carried with me from my early teenage years. Let me start by saying I was raised by wonderful parents in a very conservative home and was taught that being "gay" meant that you were...
    janared janared 26-30, F 11 Responses May 1, 2012

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    Update: In A Closet No More!

    Well...God exists! My husband has decided it's better for us to just end the marriage. I'm very scared of what my future will be like without a provider but freedom comes with a price and I am willing to pay for it. It's been two weeks since he left and I have never felt better...
    turquoisehell turquoisehell 31-35, F 9 Responses Jun 6, 2013

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    Well....just home from a night out & it always

    happens to me ! There's always 1 girl I cnt take my eyes off... Perfect in every way only problem is I'm 'straight' so prob didn't even tough her radar...! She was out with us & we danced a lot im happy with that cos I didn't freak her but I'd have loved a kiss...
    Phoebe888 Phoebe888 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 7

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    Anyone Near 33541?

    I think I always knew that I liked women, so when I met my husband when I was 17 and he was starting his senior year of high school, I did not understand why I loved him so much. We lived together from 1992 to 1997 and got married in 1998. I have 20 + years of my life invested...
    deathsmiled deathsmiled 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 21, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I'm your typical closet case... Done 'gay things' with a couple of special friends who I'm pretty sure are closet cases too. I have had a boyfriend that was very serious but it...
    standardclosetcase standardclosetcase 18-21, F a week ago

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    I am a single mother of two looking for an MOC with a closet gay. I want someone who will help take care of my children and can support us financially. I want to pretend to date...
    LyraBennett LyraBennett 18-21, F Mar 23

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    Christian Gay Guy based in Europe looking for a serious MOC with a lesbian. PM me if interested. You don´t need to be from a Christian background, but you should be interested in...
    Studio54 Studio54 31-35, M Mar 22

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    I think, at least. I also prefer saying gay over lesbian but I don't mean to offend anyone. I'm 13 and I was so close to coming out to my best friend a few hours ago. For the past...
    PotatoesRAwesome PotatoesRAwesome 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    The girl I like n I had a chat. She asked me if why I always think "bend" (cause I always talk abt lgbt) and not straight? Why I always have a dirty mind? Then she asked me if...
    hildaq14 hildaq14 22-25, F Mar 7

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    Any lesbians or bisexual girls thats got blackberry messenger? If so what's your pins. You could message me here if you like:) just looking for a relationship a girl that I could...
    lilyyyyyyyxxx lilyyyyyyyxxx 18-21, F Mar 8

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    i m a lesbian and i would love to experience ******* once
    nj00001 nj00001 18-21, T 3 Responses Mar 8

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    Any lesbians or bisexual girls thats got blackberry messenger? If so what's your pins. You could message me here if you like:) just looking for a relationship a girl that I could...
    lilyyyyyyyxxx lilyyyyyyyxxx 18-21, F Mar 8

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    I'm sure loads of girls have posted about this, and I'm sorry if this is just another one of those stories. But I really need to get this out. I am currently in a relationship...
    goshawk8 goshawk8 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    Any lesbians or bisexual girls thats got blackberry messenger? If so then what's your pins? You could message me here if you like:) just looking for a relationship a girl that I...
    lilyyyyyyyxxx lilyyyyyyyxxx 18-21, F Mar 20

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    Any lesbians or bisexual girls thats got blackberry messenger? If so then what's your pins? You could message me here if you like:) just looking for a relationship a girl that I...
    lilyyyyyyyxxx lilyyyyyyyxxx 18-21, F Mar 21

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    Some days are harder than others... Today is one of them. Just keep fighting. Day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. Just keep fighting. It's my choice for it to be like this...
    Kayceyy Kayceyy 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    I am a prisoner. A sudden realization has blown away my foundation. 10 year relationship with a man who i cannot tolerate to touch me. 2 beautiful children and one giant secret. i...
    jrzseakret jrzseakret 36-40 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    The reason for this is because my family are strict Muslims and wouldn't allow me to be a lesbian. I remember once i was joking about it, just to see their reaction and they took...
    Sammim4lik Sammim4lik 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    I have been hiding being a lesbian from everyone friends/family. I feel like I can't talk to anyone or tell anyone. I feel extremely alone and can't stomach the thought of being...
    anli28 anli28 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Hello, I’m a guy in early 30s living in Switzerland. Looking for MOC with a sweet Indian girl who is up for great company, friendship, travelling, fitness. Write back if you want...
    Sumitlausanne Sumitlausanne 31-35, M Mar 18

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    My hse mate was giving me shots. I had abt 10 shots and she till wasn't letting me go. She wanted me to get drunk. So I texted my friend who was having a reunion to come save me...
    hildaq14 hildaq14 22-25, F Mar 4

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    my gay is showing and I am experiencing both fear and excitement.
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel 18-21, F Mar 11

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    I hate seeing a cute girl , but I can't say anything .
    hazellboo hazellboo 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 13

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    Sometimes I look at her real hard while she's looking away...lost in her own thoughts... That moment is a metaphor of my life. I'm right in front of her, already hopelessly in love...
    blasphemy666 blasphemy666 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    We finally went out together today, mainly because we needed to settle a few things for our trip. We spent 2 hours at a cafe to do what we planned to do, then I brought her to a...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    This guy is a threat. He would like every single photo that my crush posts and that to me is a major indicator that he likes her too. Well actually, I don't know. I have a guy...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F Mar 23

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    Someone please tell me it's normal for my sexuality (the fact I don't know what my sexuality is and don't want to decide on a label) to keep me awake at night, it's all I'm...
    standardclosetcase standardclosetcase 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    Am a 34 yr old with with a 4 yr old son who has spent most her life knowing shes gay but hiding it an being ashamed and frightened 6 mths ago I was gettin by living my lie...
    15max80 15max80 31-35, F 6 days ago

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    Erm I'm 19 now when I was 14 I had a friend who was a different kinda friend to all my other friends, we used to kiss and cuddle and fondle each other and it all just felt so right...
    standardclosetcase standardclosetcase 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I could've came out twice today, but didn't. My friends and I were sitting in our school hallway (pretty empty) and one of them asked, who are you going to marry? Us being girls...
    PotatoesRAwesome PotatoesRAwesome 41-45, F 5 days ago

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