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I Am Married And Closet Lesbian

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 173 People

    Where Do I Go From Here.?

    Hello. I'm a married 23 year old female who thought she had her life all figured out! All my life, I've been a bit codependent and pleasing others genuinely used to make me happy, lately that hasn't been enough! As a child, I was molested on three different accounts. The first...
    Crazygirl489 Crazygirl489 22-25 4 Responses May 26, 2013

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    Anyone Near 33541?

    I think I always knew that I liked women, so when I met my husband when I was 17 and he was starting his senior year of high school, I did not understand why I loved him so much. We lived together from 1992 to 1997 and got married in 1998. I have 20 + years of my life invested...
    deathsmiled deathsmiled 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 21, 2013

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    Being married and realizing Im lesbian has been

    the craziest roller coaster ride I have ever been on! Every day I'm learning just how strong I really am!
    sassy19822 sassy19822 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 13

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    I Wanted You To Hear Me

    I wanted you to hear me out, To see things as I do, To understand things the way I did, I wanted us to talk out of the same mouth. Maybe I just really wanted to be understood by just one person in this world, I was confused you reminded me of a past lover who I never had the...
    indigowitch indigowitch 22-25, F Jun 1, 2013

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    I Am Bi. I...

    I am a 25 year old bisexual woman from US. I discovered that I was bi-curious when I was 17. I went out looking for one thing and found another. It took me a long time to come to terms with the fact that I am bi. After one experience with a woman (she was hot, passionate and...
    bisexuallucy bisexuallucy 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 4, 2012

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    Hi I'M Kimmy

    I'm a lesbian and out, and I just wanted to offer my support and companionship to anyone who needs it :)
    BabyDyke BabyDyke 18-21, F Nov 26, 2013

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    Married 30 Yr Old & In The Closet

    Hi there.. Im a 30 yr old mother of two and a closet lesbian. This has been a secret that Ive carried with me from my early teenage years. Let me start by saying I was raised by wonderful parents in a very conservative home and was taught that being "gay" meant that you were...
    janared janared 26-30, F 11 Responses May 1, 2012

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    Chinese Gay Man Looking For Moc Marriage, Malaysia, Klang

    Hii, Simple intro. about myself. I am a gay man. Age 27. Chinese. Living in Malaysia (state- Selangor). I been thinking about my future a lot. Imagining the family and future that i would like to have. Going out of the closet is definitely not the choice that i will choose. This...
    readfile readfile 26-30 May 25, 2013

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    I have been married to a man

    for over a year and I can't stop thinking of being with a woman again. I had my first lesbian relationship 5 years ago with this great girl and then wound up getting married to my husband which is a major mistake because I really want to be with a woman. I don't know what to do...
    omeyeliner omeyeliner 26-30, F 6 Responses Jan 7, 2014

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    Cleaning Out The Closet...Starting With His Stuff

    I always said when my mom dies I would become lesbian. Become! I really meant when she does I will have the courage to live openly as a lesbian. I can't do it with her ugly twisted mouth looking at me like I'm a dirty lezzie. My mom was terrified, when I was in my teens, that...
    christinacrawford christinacrawford 46-50, F 2 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    I am married to a man,

    but have recently realized I am a lesbian. I thought I was bi when we got married, but I think I was just in denial. A few weeks before my husband and I started dating my girlfriend of seven years left me. To say the least I was heartbroken and desperate to feel loved. Everyone...
    Onlyifyoucanguess Onlyifyoucanguess 26-30, F 7 Responses Jan 10, 2014

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    I am 36 and am coming to terms

    that I am gay. I've never had a relationship with a woman. I am married with two kids and I'm freaking out. I don't know what to do.
    robotprincess robotprincess 36-40, F 7 Responses Jul 13, 2014

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    Hi I been married for 10yrs an been with my

    husband since is was 18 now I'm 35. I just recently fell in love with a female an we been having a affair for a yr! I'm so stressed out an don't know what to do cause Im scared to leave my family but I can't let her go either!!:( this my first lesbian experience an I love it so...
    Nickyhoney Nickyhoney 36-40, F 5 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    What I've Always Known But Never Told

    I was always a little tom-boyish. I always felt different. Even though most of my friends were guys I always had very strong feelings for women. I became very good at hiding my true self from the real world, masking my feelings so I could fit in. I married my HS sweetheart, I've...
    PseudoLyfe PseudoLyfe 26-30 8 Responses Oct 17, 2012

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    Sometimes I Wonder

    I am married with kids. My husband knows I am bisexual. I dated around before he and I met. It isn't about the sex for me so much as it is the personality and chemistry. I often wonder about the what ifs in life. This is one if those ifs. I have several friends that are lesbian...
    momof3yahoos momof3yahoos 36-40, F 1 Response Sep 21, 2013

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    Update: In A Closet No More!

    Well...God exists! My husband has decided it's better for us to just end the marriage. I'm very scared of what my future will be like without a provider but freedom comes with a price and I am willing to pay for it. It's been two weeks since he left and I have never felt better...
    turquoisehell turquoisehell 31-35, F 9 Responses Jun 6, 2013

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    Attracted To Women?

    So I am married And I think That I may be attracted to women.... Although I have never been with a female intimately, I find that while watching...videos...I spend more time focused on the female and her features and it..makes me ...happy to say the least. Lol. But I think am...
    Neveragainsag Neveragainsag 22-25, F 10 Responses Oct 3, 2012

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      I am 29 years old, closeted, straight acting gay man from South India and currently living in Germany. I am from a Hindu family, easy going and caring person. Now I am...
    ravanans85 ravanans85 26-30, M Feb 9

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    I'm only 16 and I'm already a closet lesbian. It started at school. I was 11 years old and I saw this beautiful girl across the room, and I felt something weird... I knew that...
    wholeticia wholeticia 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I am a friendly and decent Indian gay man living in Bangalore, India. I am 30 years old and well settled in life, with a good IT job and all the comforts in life. I am quite...
    homosapien84 homosapien84 26-30, M Feb 11

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    I am a friendly and decent Indian gay man living in Bangalore, India. I am 30 years old and well settled in life, with a good IT job and all the comforts in life. I am quite...
    homosapien84 homosapien84 26-30, M Feb 8

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    I have never met another lesbian. The only LGBT people I have met are all gay boys. I feel invisible and sad and lonely because I don't know I just to actually meet someone like me...
    baabara baabara 22-25, M a week ago

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    Hi. I am 27 , well-settled and well traveled Indian living in PUNJAB. My family is living in abroad. I am Self Employed. I am looking for a DECENT , good-looking, closet girl who's...
    decentlife decentlife 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 11

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    Is anyone going through the same thing as I am? Where I'm just hiding the fact I'm a lesbian.
    Melsilva Melsilva 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 2

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    I have been struggling with this for a while but have come to the conclusion that I am definitely a lesbian. Although I have admitted this to myself I really don't feel ready to...
    Ellie5293 Ellie5293 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 4

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    I'm a bi girl, still in the closet. I have a crush on my female teacher and I'm in love with my best friend. I'm selfharm because of all of this and I just want someone to talk to...
    katemicheal katemicheal 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Alright girl, what is wrong with you? You just sent me a slo-mo video of you flipping your hair (or attempting to) because you said you just wanted to embarrass yourself again...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    I surprised her with a birthday card that I made for her (all by myself) and a gift card from her favorite online store. She was so very touched and overwhelmed by such a...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F Jan 29

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    There are rumors going around school that I'm gay, and honestly I don't care, because I'd rather be outed than have to do it myself
    pansarecute pansarecute 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 31

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    I've been feeling so very alone. I don't have anyone I can talk to about this. I'm terrified that even saying it out loud will wind up hurting people I care about. I just wish I...
    bibliophileXlady bibliophileXlady 26-30 5 Responses Feb 1

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    Sometimes in order to protect my identity, I flirt with guys. It's not the same feelings like flirting with girls.
    hildaq14 hildaq14 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 6

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    So I'm confused. This girl either really likes me or she just happens to be one hell of an amazing friend. She surprised me with a special order of a new york cheesecake with lemon...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    Hey, I need a girl to talk to.... It's not about sex, I feel bad and need comfort.
    scarletlocks scarletlocks 18-21, T 2 Responses Feb 11

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    I think I have come to a conclusion that if a girl is so comfortable with you, if she shares almost everything with you, doesn't mind acting silly and embarrassing themselves with...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 13

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    Not completely as some friends and my parents know and have been fantastic! However a lot of people and my family don't know. Anyone feel free to chat but only clean talk please
    Turnturn Turnturn 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 13

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    I never reveal my affection towards a girl. I have strong urges to be with one but i never go for it. Its against my family and religion. I just want a girl who understands me and...
    Islandkween Islandkween 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 15

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    On my birthday we worked overtime till 930pm then she brought me out for dinner where she paid and we shared a cup cause it's bottomless drink. We chat till the shop closed at...
    hildaq14 hildaq14 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    A whatsapp conversation with her yesterday:- Me: it's okay, I still have other great and amazing people in my life like my mom, siblings, friends and you. ((I was trying to tell...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    I wish I could die right now. I swear it's the only way I can be happy. I have read these lines some where- "perhaps all pleasures are just reliefs". I want an immediate relief...
    blasphemy666 blasphemy666 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    I like her, we text each other till 4am on weekends. But she always deny she's into girls. I guess she's just too friendly.
    hildaq14 hildaq14 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    I've told about 8 people about me. that includes only 1 family member. I plan on fully coming out to everyone my freshman year but I feel dumb when I can't even tell my sister or...
    pansarecute pansarecute 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    She claims she's straight and she was annoyed at the fact a tomboy stole her first kiss. She kept pushing me to admit that I like girls yesterday but if I Say it, she might stop...
    hildaq14 hildaq14 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    So some of you suggested that I ask this girl to hang out with me. Okay guess what? I did. I mean, I didn't actually ask her, I suggested to her. I told her that maybe we should...
    whentostop whentostop 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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      I am 29 years old, closeted gay, well educated, Hindu from South India. Now, I am working in Germany and looking for MOC with closeted lesbian/asexual. I want to lead a...
    ravanans85 ravanans85 26-30, M Feb 9

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      I am 29 years old, closeted, straight acting gay man from South India and currently living in Germany. I am from a Hindu family, easy going and caring person. Now I am...
    ravanans85 ravanans85 26-30, M Feb 9

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    I am a closeted lesbian. I had a two year online relationship.I can honestly say I was soooooo I love and now its gone. I am beyond myself and hard time functioning. I need help
    lora2231 lora2231 46-50, F Feb 3

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    Everyone has skeletons in their closet. In a relationship the real question is if your skeletons and their skeletons can live in the same closet.
    Troutflies Troutflies 41-45, M 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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