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I Am Mentally Damaged Due To My Past

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    What is the point of me living if I am just going to die anyways honestly if I died I would just be forgotten anyways everyone would be fine and eventually forget about me anyways...
    BrokenAngelx BrokenAngelx 18-21, F 16 Responses Feb 14

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    I had panic attacks every hour of every day in elementary school. It will scare me for the rest of my life, but I do not regret them. Having them has made me strong, and more...
    VioletCarroll VioletCarroll 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    Hello. Are you listening to me? Are you talking to me? Are you trying to give me a lesson? Just give me a sign.. I feel silly talking to myself in my head, and crazy when I hear...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 29

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    I'm So Damaged.... - I have no idea who I am anymore. I loved a guy to the extent of killing who I am for him. All this was for the day he left me for another woman. I have lost...
    confusdsoul12345 confusdsoul12345 18-21, F 38 Responses Dec 13, 2010

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    I no longer have any self esteem and have become withdrawn due to the bad treatment by others.
    DailyEdition DailyEdition 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 18

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    I stand true.. I stand tall... The things that have happened made me strong and more beautiful. I was not a victim of my past but a warrior fighting for my future....
    jojo777333 jojo777333 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    My childhood was a nightmare. I was the subject of my mothers evil ways. I took her abuse daily then the abuse of her " boy toys". I was put down, blamed for everything that went...
    lover4life33 lover4life33 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    Everyone has their own special damage. You know, the thing that creates them? Such a little thing, can create such a devastating affect on a person, especially at a younger age...
    Tman456789 Tman456789 16-17, M Dec 18, 2013

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    Five Years Of Being Serverely Verbally Bullied And Harassed - Hello, those of you who are reading this. My name is Samantha. I'm seventeen years old and a senior in high school. I...
    Blackbutterfly97 Blackbutterfly97 18-21 13 Responses Oct 6, 2010

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    He slips into my room at night, and climbs up to my bed. He acts like what he's doing is right, and I'm his only little toy. He touches me in places I dare not speak of, and each...
    boundbycuffs0613 boundbycuffs0613 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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    My parents gave me self-insecurity. I blame them 100%
    papasshortie papasshortie 18-21, F Mar 4

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    I was picked on in elementary school for being overweight. For three straight years I took those kids' crap. Now I have a severe social anxiety disorder. It really sucks.
    mongo275 mongo275 22-25, M Mar 30

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    People told me I'm worthless and I don't matter at all I'm always stuck doing the hose work And one day when I was younger my uncle was stick and when I walked in her screams...
    Frozensilence Frozensilence 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    Between be placed in foster care, being on welfare and employment insurance many times, friends always leaving me, facing discrimination because of my disability all contribute of...
    ChillyWilly82 ChillyWilly82 31-35, M 3 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    I think it's sad that I'm on this site posting things about my past, because everyone expects me to be the "strong one". So on other sites. If I say anything really crazy and sad...
    alice214 alice214 18-21, F Mar 8

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    What Therapists Don't Tell You... - ...I remember shopping in a used bookstore. Their self-help book section had a placard that said "All better now? Sell us your used self-help...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 9 Responses Sep 21, 2013

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    Everyday I cry. It's all because I used to do drugs a lot and my dad used to get really mad at me and talk to me for hours focusing on every little thing I did wrong in my life...
    ermirad ermirad 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 28

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    Bullying That Just Won't Mentally Go Away - As much as I try to move on, learn from experiences and grow stronger, it just doesn't seem to work.   I am suffering severe...
    ignored42long ignored42long 36-40, F 22 Responses Dec 14, 2009

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    My Past Is My Scars........ - As strange as this mood is, I am at peace with who I am & why I am the way I am. I have tried changing, tried losing weight to make myself more...
    WynterAngel WynterAngel 36-40 34 Responses Nov 29, 2009

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    I have been diagnosed with PTSD because of multiple sexual assaults from the age of 16-20 all the result of drinking with people who left me when I blacked out.
    kreativebelle kreativebelle 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    So many bad things have happened to me the last few years that I have self image problems, I battle depression, and I feel like if people find out about my past they will judge me...
    madydaniels madydaniels 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 30

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    Last year i was overthinking about everything. I was fighting with depression at the same time. Hurts.
    lindemannobsession lindemannobsession 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 21

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    A True Product Of My Environment - So I certainly dont want to turn this into a pity session. There was a time in my life when I felt sorry for myself & used my childhood as an...
    dublingal5 dublingal5 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 7, 2013

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    Depression, life is a *****, when I lost my company and investments, it was like a large weight magically materialized and started dragging me downward into a endless abyss, and I...
    httpdeathawaits httpdeathawaits 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 9

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    When You Are Grateful The Abuse Happened To You - Hi, ok this is different to be able to share sories and maybe give anyone some hope or see the light at the end of a long dark...
    Jaclarke Jaclarke 31-35, F 7 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    Abuse - He was my fathers friend. I trusted him. i was only 3 when it started, and my dad killed himself after finding out. I now have severe depression and post tramatic stress...
    TayGirl TayGirl 16-17, F 7 Responses May 13, 2012

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    The past 2 hours my new neighbour has been venting every 10-20 minutes, on his 17 year old daughter. It's nearing midnight and none of the neighbours have rang the cops yet. It...
    lonewolfgemini lonewolfgemini 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 8, 2013

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    Because of my dad I don't think I will ever be normal, brave or independent. I was beaten and raped by him many times when lived there. Even though it only been 8 months since I...
    misaka12 misaka12 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 29, 2013

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    Thursday, December 26th 2013. My third evaluation and papers from the doctor. I am officially and certifiably nuts. Diagnosis changes and additions, new therapies and medication on...
    Dantescircle Dantescircle 36-40, M 4 Responses Dec 28, 2013

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    It Came Crashing Back Today - A man met a women They fell in love She already had a son and a divorce under her belt But he didn't mind He loved her More than anything She loved...
    Reneetodd Reneetodd 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 30, 2013

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    Yeah, i had something horrible happen...and it's crazy to say it was nearly 5 years ago. I can't believe that much time has gone by. The world has moved on, while i've just wasted...
    08pbls 08pbls 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 19

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    There are many sayings about your future being whatever you want it to be. However, how does one get past a messed up childhood? I am having a hard time forgiving!
    AmethystMoon77 AmethystMoon77 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 11

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    I'm not that far into my life but more has happened than I like to think about. I let what a pour excuse for a man take advantage of me for months. The only way I got away was from...
    Cortney1016 Cortney1016 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 14

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    I tried to be myself. I got bullied endlessly. Rather than go on and say my life, let's all just agree that life isn't the same when you're older than it was when you were younger...
    jaycampos5423 jaycampos5423 16-17, M Feb 10

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    When I was in fourth grade my dad was involved in the Virginia Tech shootings. Luckily he survived but a fellow professor, who's room was directly next to his own, was shot and...
    Knyx Knyx 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 5

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    How can you kill yourself when your already dead inside?
    skye1984red skye1984red 26-30, F 7 Responses Dec 19, 2013

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    I had been bullied before in my life to a point where I wanted to commit suicide along side with being young and having other problems to deal with... I'm now living my life...
    ForeverLife ForeverLife 13-15, F 6 Responses Jan 28

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    PTSD, anxiety, trust issues etc. not fun but we can't change the past right?? It's part of who I am now. Some people can't accept who it's made me, even the ones who caused it. But...
    kaye23e kaye23e 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    I guess to understand the full depth of my story, it's best to start at the very beginning It all started when I turned 7. Up until that age, I has a great family. My mom and dad...
    heartsofgold22 heartsofgold22 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    I survived depression and self harm :) anyone else?
    emilyaddalung emilyaddalung 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 1

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    Please for my health and safety. Don't use the word rape towards me.
    jessixoxo4 jessixoxo4 16-17, F Apr 3

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    I'm not mentally damaged, I just can't trust people because of my past and what others have done to me.. :/
    Cheesyboy Cheesyboy 18-21, M 4 Responses Dec 20, 2013

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    Major Depressive Disorder - I have been very very depressed for a very long time and I've taken tests on psychiatric sites that always give me the same result "Major Depressive...
    Idealizer Idealizer 16-17, F 5 Responses Dec 27, 2012

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    My Zopiclone Overdose - I wanted to share with you my experience of zopiclone overdose which happened almost 10 months ago. I had drunk alot of vodka prior to taking 65 7.5mg...
    melancolique melancolique 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 30, 2012

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    Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh - THIS IS INSANE INSANE INSANE AND INSANE!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND SINCE THIS IS ALREADY INSANE, I'D PUSH IT TO THE HIGHEST LEVEL.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 14, 2013

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    Girls flirt with me but I don't pursue. In the end, I'm a reasonable and capable person. Whatever problems I do have, I'm aware they exist. But you can't simply say, "I'm coming...
    AtheistsForJesus AtheistsForJesus 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 16

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    My past has damaged my ability to believe in myself everyday I look at myself and think to myself I will never be good enough for anyone, whether it's a girl I like or a friend or...
    LatinoJ LatinoJ 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 27

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    Broken - Funny enough that...My abuse was pedestrian. Sadly not exceptionally bad. Evil is banal.  It really is. Every so often the world throws up a Hitler, a Stalin. But there...
    hylierandom hylierandom 41-45 7 Responses Jun 12, 2011

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    Life Has Made Me A Bitter Person - throughout my life, it has been one form of conflict to the next, and at some point, i just stopped caring all together now i can't seem to give...
    randomact100 randomact100 16-17, M 3 Responses Nov 17, 2012

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    Here I Sit-in My Box - so, here i sit- in my box on the verge of blacking out. a boy riddled as a father whittles a 'gentleman' from the devils mouth. intoxicated aggression...
    JAsEBASTIAN JAsEBASTIAN 31-35 6 Responses Jan 12, 2013

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    I have been abused, sexually, physically (5-13), I've abused drugs due to my mother dying (age 12) and being molested by my dad ( I abused alcohol, weed, pills until I was 14), I...
    KaiiSavage KaiiSavage 18-21, T 4 Responses Feb 9

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    Hey guys... I figured out how to feel better about myself, and be happier and I'd like to share it with you all. (I am aware this might all sound very hippie like...but I'm just...
    xxersabooxx xxersabooxx 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 29