I Am Mentally Damaged Due To My Past

Ahhhh shit...i really am :( :( but thats ok i like green ham.

Funny enough that...My abuse was pedestrian.
Sadly not exceptionally bad.
Evil is banal.  It really is.
Every so often the world throws up a Hitler, a Stalin. But there's a tinpot torturer behind many ordinary doors.
I even had one...

  I am mentally damaged due to my past, as well as other contributing factors. I have been taking a few weeks to assess myself and I have arrived at some pretty interesting conclusions that I would like to share here, so here they are...

I wanted to share with you my experience of zopiclone overdose which happened almost 10 months ago. I had drunk alot of vodka prior to taking 65 7.5mg tablets of zopiclone. I counted them out then shoved handfuls in my mouth. It took...

My mind is engulfed with a putrid smog of fear and hatred. It comes without warning and is comprehensively paralysing. Frozen in the moment I struggle to find a way out of the darkness. Time slows to prolong the pain. My mind stuck in...

Not sure if i could say i'm mentally damaged or just heavily mentally scarred due to my past, or maybe a little of the two, years of verbal mental and emotional abuse by family members telling me i'm useless worthless ugly retarded...

Hi, ok this is different to be able to share sories and maybe give anyone some hope or see the light at the end of a long dark tunnel. I am 33yrs old. my first memories before 5, are of violence between my father horribly beating my...

throughout my life, it has been one form of conflict to the next, and at some point, i just stopped caring all together now i can't seem to give a damn about anyone or anything, im like the walking dead, just unable to be fased or...

But I can feel it.. the weight of my thoughts... the way i work.. the way my mind works..

That's the reason I am becoming childish here, coz I want to feel and experience it... even just for moment...

When I was younger my father was a controlling and emotionally draining influence in my life.He put me down, made fun of me, screamed at me as well as other things. The whole family were a victim of his terrible and volcanic temper.

He...

This is a hard month for me to cope with. I almost forgot about it until I had some stupid nightmare the other night. I was beginning to explain it to a friend here through a text message and the summer air hit my nostrils and it all...

Yes, I will always be damaged because of my past. The things I went through, by myself, were not as bad as many of the other peoples' suffering on this earth. I managed to get through a lot of crap, sure. But the consequences of doing...

My past full of a lot of abuse and taking advantage of me by my closest people including member of my family, and most of what brings me to sorrow is that i am open to the girl who i am in love with and i try my best when be vacant and...

              My whole life story is just pathetic, in my opinion it was never my fault and I was always the victim. I really need some advice and in need of friends. I just want someone to finally tell me that their proud...

so, here i sit-
in my box
on the verge
of blacking out.
a boy riddled
as a father whittles
a 'gentleman'
from the devils mouth.
intoxicated aggression
unhealthy obsession
teaches the boy
a mans clout.

a young man with the
world at...

I am 43. When I was young, I cant remember when it started, my older brother by about 8 years than. He used to ask me for 'favour' such as playing around like do a 'hand job' in return I would get prizes such as trip to the snow...

As strange as this mood is, I am at peace with who I am & why I am the way I am. I have tried changing, tried losing weight to make myself more 'attractive'. I've tried to bury the fears, & work through the ghosts of my past. I...

I was 11 years old when it happened. Now I'm 13. He was the best friend of my brother and knew me since I was 7 or 8. He was like a third brother to me and I loved him like one. He was at my school too and always protected me from bad...

I have no idea who I am anymore. I loved a guy to the extent of killing who I am for him. All this was for the day he left me for another woman. I have lost who I was and I cant seem to find myself. I grew so dependent on him,he was my...

I was 14 years old, young & dumb. & he was 21 stupid & looking for a girl to fool. I was innocent, I was gullible & anything & everything was love to me. He text me one night I didn't know him, I knew him around town but not real good...