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I Am Mentally Ill

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    Last night when the cops came to "assess my

    safety" one of them asked my roommate if I was on anything. When she told me later that day what he'd asked her I had to laugh. It was 4:30 in the ************* morning. Of course I would act out of it. I was TIRED! Not ******* high. ******* law enforcement lol but...
    Degrassi94 Degrassi94 18-21, F Nov 16, 2014

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    Voices speak in my head,

    I'm depressed more than half of the time, I'm negative, I don't have any real friends, I see things that aren't there, I have delusions and "false" beliefs, I'm lonely, and I'm below 18, which is why I can't go to the doctor on my own. This can't get any worse, can it?
    Lily111 Lily111 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 21, 2014

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    I often feel really jealous of people

    who AREN'T mentally ill. Like now for example.
    Degrassi94 Degrassi94 18-21, F Nov 16, 2014

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    I dislike the title of this.

    I would much prefer it to say, I am a person who is mentally ill. I do not define myself as my illnesses anymore. I was professionally diagnosed by a psychiatrist with the following disorders: major depressive disorder, general and social anxiety disorder, and borderline...
    persephone100 persephone100 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 12, 2014

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    I'm so sad and scared,

    i hate myself more than anything. I have tried to end it twice already, i can't do this anymore. Sorry mom and dad, this is What is best.
    arielmadelen arielmadelen 22-25, F Dec 14, 2014

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    A bit morose right now.

    I think I just may be tired. Trying to play and write music to lift my spirits. I don't want to be depressed again. I was depressed for two months. I'm tired of playing catch up. I'm glad the mania's over. I wasn't really able to sleep or eat right. My adrenaline was too high...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 9, 2014

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    At least I think I am.

    Maybe I'm simply just too wise for the world.
    CompassionateCoffee CompassionateCoffee 13-15 1 Response Apr 23, 2014

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    Its something I live with on a daily basis.

    But its not something the defines me as a person. I have quite a few things 'wrong' with me. But they are what makes me me and in that respects I would not change them for anything. I like my life and I am happy with the choices I have made. They can sometimes make me anti...
    ultimatehacker ultimatehacker 26-30, M Oct 16, 2014

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    The depression is the worst It makes my

    drawings look like **** I feel like ****. God why would anyone brag about an illness? All I feel is shame. I wish I had more energy to do the things I want to do. And to always have coherent, organized thoughts. Most of my energy goes into translating my thoughts into human...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 19, 2014

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    So I just dropped my college course.

    I'm devastated and feel like a failure but I couldn't go on any longer with the way I feel mentally. I was missing too much time and studying became impossible with the crazy thoughts goin on in my head. Iunno exactly whTs wrong but I kno I have severe anxiety and mood swings...
    Yummylicious4ev Yummylicious4ev 18-21 2 Responses Mar 24, 2014

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    I honestly hate it so much

    when people tell me I don't need my medication and I'm "dependant " on it. They tell me to just think about stuff and that I "know what's real" . They think there helping but they have no idea about mental illness and it gets me so angry
    alphadecay alphadecay 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 5, 2014

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    I feel like people are watching everything I do,

    but through my eyes, not from the outside. I usually feel like it's somebody I know. I sometimes end up talking out loud, trying to explain any embarrassing things I do to the people watching me. Or acting differently based on who i feel is "in my head". what is this? is it...
    cme4u cme4u 22-25, F Feb 6

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    Lately I've been seeing how mentally ill I am,

    and how much it's been affecting my relationships and my family. My fiance has been by my side for 2 and a half years.. But it seems that I struggle to even make that relationship okay. I'm very mean due to my bipolar, and I often look in the mirror and see a monster. Half the...
    AbbieNoel AbbieNoel 18-21, F Jul 31, 2014

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    I Fear I Am Crazy

    I often see things in the corner of my eyes and later find they were not there... this afternoon i thought i seen a white creamy fluffy kitten ran across the patio but looked nothing ? usless hiding i often imagine things or is i reflections of things??? Oh well it runs in the...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 2 Responses May 3, 2011

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    i dont feel like myself!

    ! i havent been to the therapist in forever either.. my personality is like water it just fills whatever mold it wants to at the moment and i am SO confused. i might be going to the hospital tomorrow
    mysticalgem mysticalgem 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 27, 2014

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    i have struggled with mental illness (anxiety,

    depression, personality disorder) all my life. my grandma and my dad both had/have it too. I have no friends or partner, the only family I have are my parents and they aren't exactly sane either. I've always been sad and alone and i just can't take it anymore. i'm on meds and...
    mimirsseveredhead mimirsseveredhead 36-40, F Jun 15, 2014

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    I was locked in a hospital

    for the mentally ill for 2 years. I have been diagnosed schizoaffective bipolar type, social anxiety, general anxiety, multiple personality disorder, major depression and psychotic anxiety induced insomnia. I am heavily medicated by force of the state. If i do not take my...
    isitpossible83 isitpossible83 31-35, M 3 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    I will admit this is a little long,

    and despite not wanting to seem like I'm feeling sorry for myself, I'll post this at that risk. I am a 21-year old guy, and I guess I should be happy with where my life is at: I've got a very loving family of two parents and two older brothers, I just finished my second year...
    SalemSaberhagen SalemSaberhagen 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 9, 2014

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    I am autistic, bipolar,

    have moderate depression and asexual and a hispanic female who doesn't look white. There's a lot riding against me. I'm not saying I've given up but I am oppressed and my family doesn't see it and doesn't get it. They think in America everything is equal and fine. They're quite...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F Sep 28, 2014

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    Catch The Ring

    Hi everyone. I'm new here, and I'm looking for some friends. If someone could message me, that would be great. My name is Courtney Jean Summers. I am seventeen years old. I live in West LA with my single mom and three little sisters (November, Joan, and Skylar) . I have a...
    ThereWillBeRain ThereWillBeRain 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 5, 2013

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    i was so depressed/anxious last week

    that i kept calling my school's helpline. in order to get through to the counselors on the phone you have to call the campus police first. on thursday and friday i only called asking to talk to the counselor because i was incredibly depressed and wanted to talk to an adult face...
    Degrassi94 Degrassi94 18-21, F Dec 8, 2014

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    My Mental Disorders

    i am a manic depressive, antisocial personality disorder, ptsd and public anxiety disorder, ansomnia and i suffer from clinical depression I have no girlfriend and never have and my mental illness doesnt help that my family hates me beacuse of it ive been kicked out in the winter...
    jeancobeck jeancobeck 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 11, 2012

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    One thing I hate as a mentally ill person is

    people saying "it's not that bad." This is what people think is supportive but it's not. They have basically dismissed my struggle, made my pain seem invalid. I think about suicide and I'm unable to clearly verbally express how day to day life is hard for me so what comes out...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F Aug 7, 2014

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    I have been told I have major depressive

    disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, post traumatic stress disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, and borderline personality disorder. I'm only 16 years old, how sad.
    sunny97 sunny97 16-17, F 2 Responses May 30, 2014

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    I constantly feel so different

    than everyone else.. I feel like someone is pressing random keys on a keyboard somewhere and controlling me. Nothing I feel makes sense to me!!
    mysticalgem mysticalgem 13-15, F Dec 22, 2014

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    I have ADD. And depression with suicidal

    ideation. And social phobia disorder. And general anxiety disorder. So yep, I'm mentally ill.
    IAimForHonor IAimForHonor 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 26, 2014

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    I struggle with severe major depressive

    disorder, anorexia nervosa, generalized anxiety disorder, panic disorder, social anxiety disorder, and body dysmorphic disorder daily. I have never felt more alone in my life.
    CallMeCat44 CallMeCat44 22-25 Jun 9, 2014

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    Degrassi94 Degrassi94 18-21, F Nov 16, 2014

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    Where Does It Start?

    When I was 5, I saw insects crawling all over me.  I would swat at them and try to fight them off, but I couldn't because they weren't there. I got better. "But Dad, why do angels sing to me when I'm tired?" and dad said "I don't hear anything." "...
    dorgus dorgus 46-50 2 Responses Sep 14, 2008

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    the cops had to come

    and check on me at like 4:30 this morning. my mom doesn't know. i know i should tell her but i don't think i have the courage/energy to deal with her response. what do you guys think i should do?
    Degrassi94 Degrassi94 18-21, F Nov 16, 2014

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    I just trying understand it's like she never happy with anything? me and sisters keep our distance now but I feel bad about it? any advice?
    nmorrissey12 nmorrissey12 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I wish I never told anyone about my mental illness I only have anxiety and depression, but now that I have a mental illness it feels like there is a stigma that follows me...
    theincarnated1 theincarnated1 26-30 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I mean Mental Disorders, there is a difference. One is named Jenna, she is practically my sister. She has a rather severe case of bipolar disorder. She and I know each other from...
    AnonWesker AnonWesker 13-15, M 1 Response May 14

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    I am beginning to not worry as much about it. I guess you could say I choice not to treat it. I have borderline personality disorder. It ******* sucks because well, I just feel...
    ashless ashless 22-25, F 4 Responses May 13

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    By which I mean that I'm sure there is a group that refers to themselves as the illuminati. But I definitely don't take the illuminati seriously and LOVE illuminati jokes more than...
    PendulEmPlum PendulEmPlum 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Schizophrenia. Schizo. Schiz. The crazy. Avoid. Illness that you can catch. Just those words whispering as eyes peer at me makes me squirm. I know I have a problem. Hell, I am a...
    octoberlovely octoberlovely 16-17, F Apr 26

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    im 28 despite what my profile says idk it just seems like people in their mid 30s late 30s 40s they all treat mental illness with the old ''its an excuse'' or ''snap out of it...
    poopmaster1960 poopmaster1960 51-55, M 1 Response Apr 27

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    im 28 despite what my profile says idk it just seems like people in their mid 30s late 30s 40s they all treat mental illness with the old ''its an excuse'' or ''snap out of it...
    poopmaster1960 poopmaster1960 51-55, M 1 Response Apr 27

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    When others judge someone because of their mental illness and call them names, they don't understand that it hurts really badly for that person. In our generation, we have a...
    arcticxcx arcticxcx 13-15, F 1 Response May 8

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    To be fair, even people living with mental illness don't understand mental illness. and that's what makes it so hard to pin down and both treat, and understand. there's so much...
    room10101 room10101 26-30, M 3 Responses May 8

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    When I was a very young teen, I read a story that touched my soul ... I kept the pages of the magazine and when they began to perish, I copied it to the journal I now write in...
    shaggynz shaggynz 41-45, M 2 Responses May 15

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    INSANE Illuminati Mystery Revealed/Decoded (CERN,UFOs,Israel,Baphomet) . Illuminati spelled backwards.. internet search leads to the NSA and Much more. I pet goat google earth...
    Heavenbound5511 Heavenbound5511 36-40, F May 16

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    I'm not entirely sure how cast my illnesses are, but I know for a fact that I have more than anxiety and depression. I hear voices, I act a lot differently around a lot of people...
    MadiofAsgard MadiofAsgard 16-17, F 8 Responses Apr 28

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    Heavenbound5511 Heavenbound5511 36-40, F Apr 29

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    This is my first time in this year being so iLL. I feel aching all over my body I think I am catching the achiest cold of the year. I physically faked that I am okay all day and I...
    ErbiumbInTheEr ErbiumbInTheEr 16-17, F