I Am Mentally Ill

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 190 People

    I feel like people are watching everything I do,

    but through my eyes, not from the outside. I usually feel like it's somebody I know. I sometimes end up talking out loud, trying to explain any embarrassing things I do to the people watching me. Or acting differently based on who i feel is "in my head". what is this? is it...
    cme4u cme4u
    26-30, F
    Feb 6, 2015

    I often feel really jealous of people

    who AREN'T mentally ill. Like now for example.
    Degrassi94 Degrassi94
    22-25, F
    Nov 16, 2014

    A bit morose right now.

    I think I just may be tired. Trying to play and write music to lift my spirits. I don't want to be depressed again. I was depressed for two months. I'm tired of playing catch up. I'm glad the mania's over. I wasn't really able to sleep or eat right. My adrenaline was too high...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 9, 2014

    So I just dropped my college course.

    I'm devastated and feel like a failure but I couldn't go on any longer with the way I feel mentally. I was missing too much time and studying became impossible with the crazy thoughts goin on in my head. Iunno exactly whTs wrong but I kno I have severe anxiety and mood swings...
    Yummylicious4ev Yummylicious4ev
    2 Responses Mar 24, 2014

    At least I think I am.

    Maybe I'm simply just too wise for the world.
    CompassionateCoffee CompassionateCoffee
    1 Response Apr 23, 2014

    I am a mentally ill parent with a child

    who has emotional and psychological issues. We are both on meds. My son means the world to me. Sometimes, he drives me nuts, though. Today I forgot to give him his morning meds at first and he was very hyperactive and talkative. He kept putting on these glasses and saying...
    Srb77 Srb77
    36-40, F
    Aug 5, 2015

    I have been told I have major depressive

    disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, post traumatic stress disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, and borderline personality disorder. I'm only 16 years old, how sad.
    sunny97 sunny97
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 30, 2014

    Lately I've been seeing how mentally ill I am,

    and how much it's been affecting my relationships and my family. My fiance has been by my side for 2 and a half years.. But it seems that I struggle to even make that relationship okay. I'm very mean due to my bipolar, and I often look in the mirror and see a monster. Half the...
    AbbieNoel AbbieNoel
    22-25, F
    Jul 31, 2014
    Degrassi94 Degrassi94
    22-25, F
    Nov 16, 2014

    Okay so this is my story.

    .. it's a little strange and people may find parts of it strange. I grew up,in an abusive family, in a tough place to live, where I was always expected to fight and prove myself to others. At 13 my mum beat me badly... I ended up in hospital and later in Foster care, I was...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jan 16, 2016

    I was locked in a hospital

    for the mentally ill for 2 years. I have been diagnosed schizoaffective bipolar type, social anxiety, general anxiety, multiple personality disorder, major depression and psychotic anxiety induced insomnia. I am heavily medicated by force of the state. If i do not take my...
    isitpossible83 isitpossible83
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Aug 4, 2014

    I'm so sad and scared,

    i hate myself more than anything. I have tried to end it twice already, i can't do this anymore. Sorry mom and dad, this is What is best.
    arielmadelen arielmadelen
    26-30, F
    Dec 14, 2014

    Since I was 8 years old I have been in

    and out of severe depression. I was medically neglected as a child, and emotionally abused. I have Complex PTSD, Major depressive Disorder, and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I haven't been able to support myself for most of my life. I have spent the last couple of years...
    scumbagwill scumbagwill
    31-35, M
    Apr 6, 2016

    the cops had to come

    and check on me at like 4:30 this morning. my mom doesn't know. i know i should tell her but i don't think i have the courage/energy to deal with her response. what do you guys think i should do?
    Degrassi94 Degrassi94
    22-25, F
    Nov 16, 2014

    fml,I'm mentally ill

    and have no help or support, on top of that I suspect I have a disability or personality disorder,I'm also struggling with suicidal thoughts daily,im sick of this.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Nov 23, 2015

    I am so f ucking sick of being mentally ill it

    really really really sucks. You can't explain yourself people get tired of you and I'm also tired of me. I just hate this.
    abigailevelyn21 abigailevelyn21
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 11, 2015

    I will admit this is a little long,

    and despite not wanting to seem like I'm feeling sorry for myself, I'll post this at that risk. I am a 21-year old guy, and I guess I should be happy with where my life is at: I've got a very loving family of two parents and two older brothers, I just finished my second year...
    SalemSaberhagen SalemSaberhagen
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Jul 9, 2014

    Voices speak in my head,

    I'm depressed more than half of the time, I'm negative, I don't have any real friends, I see things that aren't there, I have delusions and "false" beliefs, I'm lonely, and I'm below 18, which is why I can't go to the doctor on my own. This can't get any worse, can it?
    Lily111 Lily111
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 21, 2014

    I am autistic, bipolar,

    have moderate depression and asexual and a hispanic female who doesn't look white. There's a lot riding against me. I'm not saying I've given up but I am oppressed and my family doesn't see it and doesn't get it. They think in America everything is equal and fine. They're quite...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable
    22-25, F
    Sep 28, 2014

    i dont feel like myself!

    ! i havent been to the therapist in forever either.. my personality is like water it just fills whatever mold it wants to at the moment and i am SO confused. i might be going to the hospital tomorrow
    mysticalgem mysticalgem
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Dec 27, 2014

    Its something I live with on a daily basis.

    But its not something the defines me as a person. I have quite a few things 'wrong' with me. But they are what makes me me and in that respects I would not change them for anything. I like my life and I am happy with the choices I have made. They can sometimes make me anti...
    ultimatehacker ultimatehacker
    31-35, M
    Oct 16, 2014

    i was so depressed/anxious last week

    that i kept calling my school's helpline. in order to get through to the counselors on the phone you have to call the campus police first. on thursday and friday i only called asking to talk to the counselor because i was incredibly depressed and wanted to talk to an adult face...
    Degrassi94 Degrassi94
    22-25, F
    Dec 8, 2014

    Last night when the cops came to "assess my

    safety" one of them asked my roommate if I was on anything. When she told me later that day what he'd asked her I had to laugh. It was 4:30 in the ************* morning. Of course I would act out of it. I was TIRED! Not ******* high. ******* law enforcement lol but...
    Degrassi94 Degrassi94
    22-25, F
    Nov 16, 2014

    I dislike the title of this.

    I would much prefer it to say, I am a person who is mentally ill. I do not define myself as my illnesses anymore. I was professionally diagnosed by a psychiatrist with the following disorders: major depressive disorder, general and social anxiety disorder, and borderline...
    persephone100 persephone100
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 12, 2014

    I have ADD. And depression with suicidal

    ideation. And social phobia disorder. And general anxiety disorder. So yep, I'm mentally ill.
    IAimForHonor IAimForHonor
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Mar 26, 2014

    Where Does It Start?

    When I was 5, I saw insects crawling all over me.  I would swat at them and try to fight them off, but I couldn't because they weren't there. I got better. "But Dad, why do angels sing to me when I'm tired?" and dad said "I don't hear anything." "...
    dorgus dorgus
    2 Responses Sep 14, 2008

    My Mental Disorders

    i am a manic depressive, antisocial personality disorder, ptsd and public anxiety disorder, ansomnia and i suffer from clinical depression I have no girlfriend and never have and my mental illness doesnt help that my family hates me beacuse of it ive been kicked out in the winter...
    jeancobeck jeancobeck
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Nov 11, 2012

    About 15 months ago, I was diagnosed

    as having major depression, and anxiety disorder. I got on meds, and a better mindset, and all was well in the world. Now flash forward to these days, I feel like my husband took advantage of my agreeable attitude. He thinks its okay to tell me what i can and cant do, as if i...
    mrsmadhatter mrsmadhatter
    26-30, F
    Jul 9, 2015

    One thing I hate as a mentally ill person is

    people saying "it's not that bad." This is what people think is supportive but it's not. They have basically dismissed my struggle, made my pain seem invalid. I think about suicide and I'm unable to clearly verbally express how day to day life is hard for me so what comes out...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable
    22-25, F
    Aug 7, 2014

    I am most definitely sure my brain does not

    function correctly, I have had a mental issue in the past (BDD) but a year later it luckily completely went (thanks for the help from a brilliant councillor). Anyway, I've realised I have thoughts ect which I do not know if are normal or not. For example, I am too scared to go...
    SilkyDoughnut SilkyDoughnut
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 10, 2015

    i have struggled with mental illness (anxiety,

    depression, personality disorder) all my life. my grandma and my dad both had/have it too. I have no friends or partner, the only family I have are my parents and they aren't exactly sane either. I've always been sad and alone and i just can't take it anymore. i'm on meds and...
    mimirsseveredhead mimirsseveredhead
    41-45, F
    Jun 15, 2014

    I Fear I Am Crazy

    I often see things in the corner of my eyes and later find they were not there... this afternoon i thought i seen a white creamy fluffy kitten ran across the patio but looked nothing ? usless hiding i often imagine things or is i reflections of things??? Oh well it runs in the...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    2 Responses May 3, 2011

    I honestly hate it so much

    when people tell me I don't need my medication and I'm "dependant " on it. They tell me to just think about stuff and that I "know what's real" . They think there helping but they have no idea about mental illness and it gets me so angry
    alphadecay alphadecay
    31-35, F
    1 Response Sep 5, 2014

    Sane privilege is the power of those

    who are not mentally ill to define how our illness is perceived and what we need as a consequence. I wrote on my blog: "The sane are not like you or me, nor, understandably, do they want to be. But they also don’t want us to be like we are and they have the power to thwart...
    emperornorton47 emperornorton47
    56-60, M
    Sep 29, 2015

    Catch The Ring

    Hi everyone. I'm new here, and I'm looking for some friends. If someone could message me, that would be great. My name is Courtney Jean Summers. I am seventeen years old. I live in West LA with my single mom and three little sisters (November, Joan, and Skylar) . I have a...
    ThereWillBeRain ThereWillBeRain
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 5, 2013

    I struggle with severe major depressive

    disorder, anorexia nervosa, generalized anxiety disorder, panic disorder, social anxiety disorder, and body dysmorphic disorder daily. I have never felt more alone in my life.
    CallMeCat44 CallMeCat44
    Jun 9, 2014

    I constantly feel so different

    than everyone else.. I feel like someone is pressing random keys on a keyboard somewhere and controlling me. Nothing I feel makes sense to me!!
    mysticalgem mysticalgem
    16-17, F
    Dec 22, 2014

    I am mentally ill.I don't feel well.

    I can't describe how I feel.
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Feb 14, 2016

    The depression is the worst It makes my

    drawings look like **** I feel like ****. God why would anyone brag about an illness? All I feel is shame. I wish I had more energy to do the things I want to do. And to always have coherent, organized thoughts. Most of my energy goes into translating my thoughts into human...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 19, 2014
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