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I Am Mentally Ill

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    A bit morose right now.

    I think I just may be tired. Trying to play and write music to lift my spirits. I don't want to be depressed again. I was depressed for two months. I'm tired of playing catch up. I'm glad the mania's over. I wasn't really able to sleep or eat right. My adrenaline was too high...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 9

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    One thing I hate as a mentally ill person is

    people saying "it's not that bad." This is what people think is supportive but it's not. They have basically dismissed my struggle, made my pain seem invalid. I think about suicide and I'm unable to clearly verbally express how day to day life is hard for me so what comes out...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F Aug 7

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    My Mental Disorders

    i am a manic depressive, antisocial personality disorder, ptsd and public anxiety disorder, ansomnia and i suffer from clinical depression I have no girlfriend and never have and my mental illness doesnt help that my family hates me beacuse of it ive been kicked out in the winter...
    jeancobeck jeancobeck 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 11, 2012

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    I was locked in a hospital

    for the mentally ill for 2 years. I have been diagnosed schizoaffective bipolar type, social anxiety, general anxiety, multiple personality disorder, major depression and psychotic anxiety induced insomnia. I am heavily medicated by force of the state. If i do not take my...
    isitpossible83 isitpossible83 31-35, M 3 Responses Aug 4

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    I struggle with severe major depressive

    disorder, anorexia nervosa, generalized anxiety disorder, panic disorder, social anxiety disorder, and body dysmorphic disorder daily. I have never felt more alone in my life.
    CallMeCat44 CallMeCat44 22-25 Jun 9

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    I have ADD. And depression with suicidal

    ideation. And social phobia disorder. And general anxiety disorder. So yep, I'm mentally ill.
    IAimForHonor IAimForHonor 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 26

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    i was so depressed/anxious last week

    that i kept calling my school's helpline. in order to get through to the counselors on the phone you have to call the campus police first. on thursday and friday i only called asking to talk to the counselor because i was incredibly depressed and wanted to talk to an adult face...
    Degrassi94 Degrassi94 18-21, F Dec 8

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    Where Does It Start?

    When I was 5, I saw insects crawling all over me.  I would swat at them and try to fight them off, but I couldn't because they weren't there. I got better. "But Dad, why do angels sing to me when I'm tired?" and dad said "I don't hear anything." "...
    dorgus dorgus 46-50 2 Responses Sep 14, 2008

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    Catch The Ring

    Hi everyone. I'm new here, and I'm looking for some friends. If someone could message me, that would be great. My name is Courtney Jean Summers. I am seventeen years old. I live in West LA with my single mom and three little sisters (November, Joan, and Skylar) . I have a...
    ThereWillBeRain ThereWillBeRain 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 5, 2013

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    I have been told I have major depressive

    disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, post traumatic stress disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, and borderline personality disorder. I'm only 16 years old, how sad.
    sunny97 sunny97 16-17, F 2 Responses May 30

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    I will admit this is a little long,

    and despite not wanting to seem like I'm feeling sorry for myself, I'll post this at that risk. I am a 21-year old guy, and I guess I should be happy with where my life is at: I've got a very loving family of two parents and two older brothers, I just finished my second year...
    SalemSaberhagen SalemSaberhagen 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 9

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    So I just dropped my college course.

    I'm devastated and feel like a failure but I couldn't go on any longer with the way I feel mentally. I was missing too much time and studying became impossible with the crazy thoughts goin on in my head. Iunno exactly whTs wrong but I kno I have severe anxiety and mood swings...
    Yummylicious4ev Yummylicious4ev 18-21 2 Responses Mar 24

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    Voices speak in my head,

    I'm depressed more than half of the time, I'm negative, I don't have any real friends, I see things that aren't there, I have delusions and "false" beliefs, I'm lonely, and I'm below 18, which is why I can't go to the doctor on my own. This can't get any worse, can it?
    Lily111 Lily111 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 21

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    I often feel really jealous of people

    who AREN'T mentally ill. Like now for example.
    Degrassi94 Degrassi94 18-21, F Nov 16

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    Lately I've been seeing how mentally ill I am,

    and how much it's been affecting my relationships and my family. My fiance has been by my side for 2 and a half years.. But it seems that I struggle to even make that relationship okay. I'm very mean due to my bipolar, and I often look in the mirror and see a monster. Half the...
    AbbieNoel AbbieNoel 18-21, F Jul 31

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    I honestly hate it so much

    when people tell me I don't need my medication and I'm "dependant " on it. They tell me to just think about stuff and that I "know what's real" . They think there helping but they have no idea about mental illness and it gets me so angry
    alphadecay alphadecay 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 5

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    I Fear I Am Crazy

    I often see things in the corner of my eyes and later find they were not there... this afternoon i thought i seen a white creamy fluffy kitten ran across the patio but looked nothing ? usless hiding i often imagine things or is i reflections of things??? Oh well it runs in the...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 2 Responses May 3, 2011

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    the cops had to come

    and check on me at like 4:30 this morning. my mom doesn't know. i know i should tell her but i don't think i have the courage/energy to deal with her response. what do you guys think i should do?
    Degrassi94 Degrassi94 18-21, F Nov 16

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    and its funny because i didnt

    even think it was this bad untill i literally wiped off the beauty from my face.
    msworstlife msworstlife 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 16

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    Its something I live with on a daily basis.

    But its not something the defines me as a person. I have quite a few things 'wrong' with me. But they are what makes me me and in that respects I would not change them for anything. I like my life and I am happy with the choices I have made. They can sometimes make me anti...
    ultimatehacker ultimatehacker 26-30, M Oct 16

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    The depression is the worst It makes my

    drawings look like **** I feel like ****. God why would anyone brag about an illness? All I feel is shame. I wish I had more energy to do the things I want to do. And to always have coherent, organized thoughts. Most of my energy goes into translating my thoughts into human...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 19

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    i have struggled with mental illness (anxiety,

    depression, personality disorder) all my life. my grandma and my dad both had/have it too. I have no friends or partner, the only family I have are my parents and they aren't exactly sane either. I've always been sad and alone and i just can't take it anymore. i'm on meds and...
    mimirsseveredhead mimirsseveredhead 36-40, F Jun 15

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    I am autistic, bipolar,

    have moderate depression and asexual and a hispanic female who doesn't look white. There's a lot riding against me. I'm not saying I've given up but I am oppressed and my family doesn't see it and doesn't get it. They think in America everything is equal and fine. They're quite...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F Sep 28

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    I dislike the title of this.

    I would much prefer it to say, I am a person who is mentally ill. I do not define myself as my illnesses anymore. I was professionally diagnosed by a psychiatrist with the following disorders: major depressive disorder, general and social anxiety disorder, and borderline...
    persephone100 persephone100 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    Last night when the cops came to "assess my

    safety" one of them asked my roommate if I was on anything. When she told me later that day what he'd asked her I had to laugh. It was 4:30 in the ************* morning. Of course I would act out of it. I was TIRED! Not ******* high. ******* law enforcement lol but...
    Degrassi94 Degrassi94 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 16

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    I'm so sad and scared,

    i hate myself more than anything. I have tried to end it twice already, i can't do this anymore. Sorry mom and dad, this is What is best.
    arielmadelen arielmadelen 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    At least I think I am.

    Maybe I'm simply just too wise for the world.
    CompassionateCoffee CompassionateCoffee 13-15 1 Response Apr 23

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    THERE IS HOPE! New meds, new therapist, good advice and fresh hope. My 21 year old son is bipolar, he self diagnosed when he was 12, and told his doctor. The doctor was...
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    it was my bday a day ago... My hubby made no effort what's so ever... his text messages were so informal, the writings in the card too...No attempt make me special, as my GP and...
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    Hi, I'm new to EP but feel I need to talk about the mentally and emotionally abusive relationship I was in for 7 years. I thought he was the love of my life. But pretty well from...
    Pridestar73 Pridestar73 41-45, F Nov 19

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    I am mentally tired, border line do not care any more......I don't care if I am no longer enough, I am tired if I am not giving YOU what you need, I have given my all and nothing...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F Nov 29

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    Hi everyone. I never saw myself as the type to join any sort of online forum. Truth is, it makes me very uncomfortable to read my own words. I felt like I needed to join today...
    TheGeiser TheGeiser 18-21, F Nov 25

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    Feel ill or something just so tired all I want to do is sleep probably coz I stayed up so late I might do something I very rawly do and that's nap
    Aireagoir94 Aireagoir94 18-21, M Nov 28

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    I am in the process of recovering from chronic depression, severe anxiety, and anorexia nervosa. I've attempted suicide more than 30 times but am no longer suicidal. I've been...
    losingNemo losingNemo 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 28

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    I visited a psychiatrist for the first time today because I have an attention problem and she prescribed me an attention deficit medicine without screening me so anxiety washed all...
    psychedelicblues psychedelicblues 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 29

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    I have an idea for a children/teen book. It will be called: I Have Hair Where?! It will be about puberty and I will will illustrate body parts that become fuzzy after puberty. I...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    Well looks like it's time for my yearly deadly illness... Thank you doctors for not allowing me to get my tonsils taken out. (Sarcasm)
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F Dec 2

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    I have an array of mental illnesses, such as schizophrenia, dissociative identity disorder, OCD, anxiety, autism, etc. Sometimes it's hard to live, but I've learned to cope with...
    CaliginousHeart CaliginousHeart 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 3

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    I have been told I may need heart bypass surgery. That is not the hard part. I also may have cardiomyopathy. If I do, I know I have a short time to live. This illness is known to...
    oldclerk oldclerk 61-65, M Dec 8

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    With Wings is a group on Facebook which offers help and support for those who need it. It is a safe space for members to come together, make friends and help others as well as...
    withwingsgroup withwingsgroup 18-21, F a week ago

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    So I went to the elementary school with my sister, her boyfriend, and my nephew for a movie event. My Tourettes was acting up while I was there to the point I had a tic where my...
    MlNUET MlNUET 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I have recently been diagnosed manic depressive, bipolar, and split personality. I'm overwhelmed and don't know what to do. I would like to talk with some people who experience...
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    Homejames Homejames 51-55, M 1 day ago

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    its irreversible and i miss how things were before i was broke down into nothing.
    zanityone zanityone 18-21, M 1 hr ago

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    I feel so isolated and worthless, I've struggled with these feelings since I was a child.. I've grown so used to it I'm comfortable feeling this way which is sad, I can't keep...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 1 Response 20 hrs ago