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I Am Mentally Unstable

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    I'm starting to feel low again.

    I can feel it coming, like some black heavy sludge climbing up my body. It's sitting in my stomach now. I know it'll creep over me again until I want to kill myself. I have rapid cycles of feeling incredibly low and suicidal to feeling fairly level. It's seems to take something...
    illneverbenormal illneverbenormal 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 16, 2014

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    My actions make me feel like it more

    and more everyday. And I think people can see it and that's why they abandon me.
    CharmedAmour CharmedAmour 22-25, F 2 Responses May 7, 2014

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    I sometimes talk to my dead sister

    or an imaginary being I call Eaves (because he supposedly eavesdrops. I end up asking questions. Can anyone relate?
    theDoomProject theDoomProject 16-17, M 2 Responses Mar 10, 2014

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    When people say im a lunatic,

    unstable and depressed, I would feel lightheaded and I will act angry for a while and cry for no reason. And, no. I cant handle it. Its impossible for me to fight it.
    Annaambrose Annaambrose 16-17 1 Response Jan 21, 2015

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    Lately I've been having extreme mood swings.

    For example I'll be in the mood to be social and talk to people for maybe 30 mins and then BAM. I want nothing more than to be alone. What do I want? I'm so confused o.O
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 20, 2014

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    I'm pretty much healthy.

    . I rarely get fever, I've only vomited thrice in my entire life, I've never experienced sore eyes.. or other common diseases. Call me lucky? No. Because not all diseases can be seen. When teenagehood came to me, I faced another threat: Mental disorders. I don't know. Do you...
    Seaspiritaria Seaspiritaria 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 6, 2015

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    I haven't took my pills in two days

    and I'm in hysterics 💀💕
    Gorgeoushobo Gorgeoushobo 18-21, F Jun 30, 2014

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    I don't know if it's me

    or if it's my boyfriend. I'm a college student attending a 4 year university, my boyfriend and I started dating in 2011,which was the beginning of my sophomore year. He is so much different than I, but I never saw it to be a problem. Anyways............. He had a situation-ship...
    Latch Latch 22-25, F Jul 6, 2014

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    Am I?

    I'm 14 years old and I cut myself. I have a pritty bad family life. I often feel crazy, and always confused. I talk to a couple of friends, and all but one believes that I should get help. One says that all families have problems, and mine are just normal.... Though, this might...
    alexeprincess alexeprincess 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 14, 2011

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    THIS WORLD MADE ME BLEED AND ALL I WANT IS TO

    RETURN THE FAVOUR TO GIVE IT MY PAIN . TO PUNISH IT . IT SCARED ME , MUTILATED ME, MADE ME A MONSTER
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 8, 2014

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    well i am according to a therapist,

    because i am anti social and am changing... isn't that just part of growing up
    gingerninja96 gingerninja96 18-21, M Apr 28, 2014

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    Tired of Life and My

    i dont know how shall i begin my story,or even when has it begun!!! what i know now,that i reached a stage where i hate my father,i feel he is the person responsible for the unstability that im going through,he used to shout at my mother and try to hit her,but i was always defend...
    abomi abomi 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 29, 2009

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    I have been diagnosed with depression.

    I have been going to consolers and a mental health service since I was 13. I have strange thoughts, ones that people normally don't have. I also see things and hear things no one else does. I don't blame anyone for this. Although I don't think I'm weak because of this. God gave...
    supergirl01 supergirl01 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6, 2014

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    bisexkitten bisexkitten 18-21, F May 12, 2015

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    Every Day

    I want to scream and sob and cry because my cat just died. I know it's not a big deal but I got sad and these are the times I fall deeper into my depression. It's when I realize how truly unstable I am. These are the times I literally want to fall back into complete darkness and...
    lilianthegreat lilianthegreat 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 18, 2013

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    i am going to counseling

    and they havent diagnosed me with a disorder yet but i think i am histrionic and borderline because i take the online tests and read about it and see it on tv and i seem to have those disorders.
    nobumbump nobumbump 13-15, M Jun 19, 2014

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 22, 2015

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    Like i mentioned in my last post,

    i got sent home from school on monday for being a danger to myself & so i spent some more time in the emergency room & was almost admitted for the 3rd time into a hospital. But i went to my psychiatrist the next day to see what they were going to do & they decided i'm not...
    xxbangbangxx xxbangbangxx 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 7, 2015

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    I Don't Know.

    I dont know how i got this way. everything was going fine, better than finne, then all of a sudden, i can't feel good.iv cried myself to sleep on numerous ocassions. i feel like i cant do anything anymore. i cant look at myself in the mirror without wanting to break it because i...
    c0nfus3ds0ul c0nfus3ds0ul 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 20, 2012

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    I feel crazy right now :( I can't stop crying

    because I got a criticism. Wow that feels pathetic.
    aveliney aveliney 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 24, 2014

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    I have no control over my moods,

    I'm constantly suffering from anxiety attacks, and bouts of psychosis. I'm crazy needy, I overthink everything, and I can go from happy to pissed in mere seconds. I know some of this is from past abuse, but I can't keep up with myself, I'm just utterly lost.
    Serrara Serrara 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 28, 2015

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    I'm not suicidal, and I don't think I'd ever

    actually kill myself. I just think that if I was in a situation, for instance, a car was driving straight towards me I'm not sure if I'd get out of the way ..
    FelwaM FelwaM 18-21, F Mar 27, 2014

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    Understatement Number 127!

    Yeah unstable, but surround myself with others who are the same so we get along just dandy. LOL Anyone who is even all of the time is hiding something or just really good at faking it. And if not, could ya sell me your secret? I'm not sure normal really exists though.
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 21, 2009

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    BECAUSE MY MOTHER , THE PERSON WHO I WAS

    SUPPOSED TO TRUST BEAT ME, THEN BEAT ME, THEN BEAT ME THEN THREW ME OUT TO DIE, BUT I FORGIVE HER . I FORGIVE HER
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 8, 2014

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    Is it the psychosis? maybe its the BPD,

    plus having tourettes and urges to ******* hurt everyone, and you make this erratic, worthless piece of **** that has no control over himself
    wouldyoumissme wouldyoumissme 16-17, M Mar 16, 2015

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    Or emotionally disturbed.

    I've been called both many times. This past school year I was so "mentally unstable" I wasn't even allowed to attend school.
    blahlahblah599 blahlahblah599 18-21, F Jul 6, 2014

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    bisexkitten bisexkitten 18-21, F 2 Responses May 15, 2015

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    After almost being kidnapped I went into shock

    for days and I've still to recover. I feel weak, I felt scared, and I have no will power.
    markmark254 markmark254 18-21, M Jul 8, 2015

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    I am fudge up in the head I'm 16 I say it out

    allowed to people aka family and friends sometimes strangers but I think I'm mentally frustrated maybe both I don't cut or try and kill myself but I do hurt myself because I can't handle any of this mental stuff like instead of cutting I hit the walls and break either my...
    Porangiataahua Porangiataahua 31-35, F Jan 31, 2014

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    I'm not sure how common this is

    but I have random bursts of 5 to 30 minuets of painless ness. Afterwards I also always end up with a migraine. I'm only 14 and I'm very confused. I'm not completely complaining because it has kept me going in a rugby match or rare fight, I'm just a bit concurred. I'm assuming...
    Lovell101 Lovell101 16-17, M 2 Responses Mar 10, 2014

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    I have never said this out loud.

    I've never told another living soul. I am four people. I am carrying three 'others' with me all the time and I cannot tell anybody. I don't want to be locked up for being ill.
    BayBeeCakez BayBeeCakez 46-50, F 2 Responses Jan 20, 2015

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    I have an amazing ability to take any given

    positive situation/statement/thought and make it stressful and depressing. It's not that I want to. I just do it naturally lol. Anyone want someone to cast a shadow over your happiness? I'm your woman. Hit me with your best shot
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 31, 2014

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