I Am More Of The Suffer In Silence Type

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    My life isn't shìtty

    or anything. I just think it's easier to keep it to myself. It's...
    AliasSapien AliasSapien
    18-21, M
    Jan 14

    This actually goes with my last post :P I

    didn't know I had this :P but yea if I'm in pain i'm not going to bring it up. I prefer to just let people go about their business :) Like in my last post. If someone forgets they said they'd do something with me then it just won't happen because I don't want to seem like a...
    Raptax231 Raptax231
    22-25, M
    Dec 7, 2014

    Its it quite a paradox to give light,

    to shine it into the world around and be in the shaded parts where the light doesn't quite reach... The last place anyone would expect to find shadows is the sun. The source is only a creator. It is not the creation itself. Therein lies the misconception of those like...
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    1 Response Sep 22, 2014

    Why bother others with feelings they care

    nothing for. I don't need your pitty.
    jaymoe79 jaymoe79
    36-40, M
    Nov 12, 2015
    roxyy22 roxyy22
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 3

    This Song I am singing

    for my Family and Friends of Boston and Hawaii Honolulu and Tempe... Apni to jayse tayse ! Thori ayshe oh ayshe apka keya hoga jonabe ali? ap ka keya hoga ? jonabe ali? apkeya age na pise? na koi upar niche?.
    shamimjain shamimjain
    41-45, F
    Dec 31, 2015

    For those of you who have lost your desire to

    pray, to sing,I'm asking God to put that melody back in your hearts tonight; cause you to lift your voice, even though you don't understand. Your Father in Heaven loves you, do not forsake Him...do not forget the benefits of the Lord. God bless you.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 1

    I Can't Handle It Much Longer

    My entire life I have been struggling with depression and self-esteem issues. I was bullied for part of middle school and even though years have passed since, the things that people said about me have stuck with me. It ruined my whole persona. Their words made me hate myself and...
    taylorietot taylorietot
    16-17, F
    7 Responses Feb 2, 2013

    When life is rough, pray.

    -----:------:------:----- Pray, when life is great.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 1

    (I refer this to Christians going through

    TRIALS or/and TEMPTATIONS, lest a fellow wishes to wrongly counter the write-up) Dear Christians and whomever this may concern, God doesn't give us what we can handle but helps us handle what we are given, because, just as impure gold is passed through fire and made pure, we...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 10

    If you call to Him, He will answer you If you

    run to Him, He will run to you If you lift your hands, He will lift you up Draw near to Him, He is here for you Give Him your love, He's in love with you He will heal your heart, He will cleanse your hands If you rend your heart, He will heal your land. Come now praise His name...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Mar 31

    Out of suffering have emerged the strongest

    souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars. -Khalil Gibran
    FullCircleO FullCircleO
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Aug 10, 2014
    adianoeta adianoeta
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Sep 12, 2014

    But i do know that in the end

    that builds up and you will explode.. I am dealing with that and I tend to be very unstable when it comes to my emotions. I don't know how to express myself and I hate that.. I have so much in me that I kept to myself over the years that now it is driving me crazy and I can't...
    EternityF EternityF
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 14

    The Mask.

    Sometimes I feel like a go through my days on autopilot, sucked into my own mind and begin to spiral. Somehow though I seem to go through the motions and fake my way through the day to family member and colleagues, almost like I have a mask on. My mask is lovely, always...
    thisoldroutine thisoldroutine
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Oct 21, 2013

    It's not the thought

    that no one would understand, or no one cares that keeps me silent. It's the thought that it's my problem, it isn't theirs. I should deal with it, I should cope with this, I should exhaust myself trying to figure out a solution. I don't want them to feel my pain, no one needs to...
    RandomExistence RandomExistence
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Nov 11, 2015

    Definitely This....

    I work in childcare and there is one parent which comes in and talks nonstop about her problems. She is often on the verge of tears. She is the opposite to me. When something is wrong, I keep silent especially on big topics. Like my depressed younger sister, the rejection of my...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Sep 14, 2013

    I've never been the kind

    that expresses easily. Im more of the kind that bottles up emotions over time then explodes over a minor issue. I keep so many things within myself. Im scared to get close to people but i hate being alone.
    chipconyurson chipconyurson
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Dec 30, 2015

    Which is a curse,bec

    if you can't say what you don't approve or like or appreciate in full words or sentences to everyone who matters you or whom you matter,its more like tolerating the cause and the effects out of it. Some ppl cannot handle the truth,so you need to sugar coat your words,or don't...
    KosmicKonnection KosmicKonnection
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 3

    Yep. I say nothing until one point

    where it's just too much and.... BAM!!!! And I just go off like a bomb.
    YouCantEscapeMyDemons YouCantEscapeMyDemons
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Oct 18, 2014

    I'm.trying to stop.crying I'm trying

    so hard but it all comes back and every day I face the same thing those people being so damn cruel in l feel invisible I just want to skip the bad and just go to when I feel happy and I feel like everything isn't gonna go against me I'm sorry for how I haven't tried hard enough...
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Mar 27, 2015

    I never tell anybody anything

    because people always try to throw stuff in my face when they get mad. Relationships, finances, and heartbreaks are all kept to myself
    Blair12 Blair12
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Sep 2, 2015

    For with God nothing will be impossible (Luke

    1:37). There yet is hope for you in Christ. Whatever your problem may be, and however seemingly grave the situation miay be, it is nothing to the Age of Ages. There yet is hope for you in Christ. All other things are void of actual help. Some may help in soothing the problem...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 3

    I think there are a lot of people

    who like to share their feelings/problems. But EVERYONE has had that moment where you just want to lock your doors, get into your bed, and cry for a while. Because sometimes crying alone with no judgment just feels so good. then after, you feel much better. Maybe even...
    abbbbbby abbbbbby
    16-17, F
    Sep 16, 2014

    Every body has problems,

    why burden anyone with mine!
    lookforafriend lookforafriend
    51-55, F
    4 Responses Mar 18

    I don’t think people understand how stressful

    it is to explain what’s going on in your head when you don’t even understand it yourself.
    Moe18 Moe18
    26-30, M
    5 Responses Oct 8, 2015

    Looking At Me

    When you look at me, you might see a bit of weariness in my eyes, a bit of exhaustion in my face, yet you'll almost never know why. I can put on a brave face, grin and bare the pain, but there are times where I will just express my emotions. I won't tell you my problems, I won't...
    Sleaxor Sleaxor
    18-21, M
    Oct 2, 2013

    You never know how strong you are

    until being strong is the only thing you can do. I'll be dying on the inside but still look you dead in the eyes and say I'm fine. (:
    ReminiscentMistake ReminiscentMistake
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jan 14

    It was a day full of depressing moments.

    Hopefully, tomorrow will be better.
    deleted deleted
    Mar 31

    I won't show you my pain I won't give you the

    satisfaction of seeing how much you hurt me I'll smile through gritted teeth The tears fall only when I'm in a safe place My payback to you will be indifference
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Dec 19, 2015

    I have spent my short life doing what is

    required. When you are the youngest in a large family no one's interested in knowing your opinion. Sit down and shut up squirt. My survival technique was to be sweet, demurring, but verbally persuasive. In a bilingual household things get interesting. English is a combination...
    9minute 9minute
    18-21, M
    Mar 11

    I tend to support people through their

    struggles better than dealing with my own. I just kind of internalize everything and find a way to work it out.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 12, 2015

    I will never tell anyone in person my pain,

    only online like this, with no face or way to know who I am.
    2b5h 2b5h
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 26, 2015

    The Outside

    To everyone who sees me, I laugh, I joke around, I smile. I look happy. You believe that I am, you think I have friends and everything is okay. But what I wish you would know is that when I go home, when I'm alone, I have only myself to talk to, and I cry almost every night. It...
    SolarBird SolarBird
    18-21, F
    Sep 19, 2013

    At one point I was a Psychology major.

    I thought to myself, I'll hear people's problems and help them out because it's what I like to do. Then, one day, a man said to me, "You'll be hearing others' problems, but who will be willing to hear yours?" I said, "No one, because I suffer in silence. Until I've had enough...
    justanothersteph justanothersteph
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Nov 14, 2014
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    1 Response Apr 14

    I am selectively social.

    I don't tell specific people that I don't like them, I just bear the pain of being with them. I have a terrible habit, though: even if I'm not very skilled with verbally expressing my dislike, I tend to show it through my actions and gestures. This would make me reek an...
    irispres irispres
    18-21, F
    Nov 15, 2014

    o, here Will i set up my everlasting rest And

    shake the yoke of inauspicious stars From this world-wearied flesh! Eyes, look yourlast.  Arms, take your last embrace. And, lips, O, you The doors of breath, seal with a righteous kiss  A dateless bargain to engrossing death.'
    anonymous7766554437 anonymous7766554437
    22-25, M
    Dec 14, 2015

    I guess I'm used to it.

    Used to it because I have done so at a very young age. Probably because I felt like no one else should know my family/life troubles and now I'm used to not saying anything and just say it all and deal with so much problems in my head. And when I do try and talk, I'm not used to...
    GiddyX GiddyX
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 7

    Unless I stub my too.

    Then you will hear the rage.
    Cwitmer19 Cwitmer19
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Oct 22, 2014

    why can't I just tell people how I feel

    and get over it? why do I think internalizing will always be better? It never is. Eventually everything comes crashing down. And I'm too tired for another round.
    mirrorimage99 mirrorimage99
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Dec 30, 2015

    Is it wrong too not always share things

    that make you feel depressed most? I just feel like no one will ever know 100% how you're feeling. I feel like in order to make it out stronger we have to fight our battles alone sometimes, or am I wrong? I'm hoping brighter days start coming for me soon, been followed by this...
    deleted deleted
    8 Responses Apr 17, 2015

    At an early age I was taught not to voice my

    thoughts. Don't upset people. Don't let them know how you feel. I feel like I've got so much to say and nothing to say all at once. I could rant about my life but I know nobody really wants to hear about it. When people ask "how are you?" I always smile and think "you want the...
    RachelDare RachelDare
    2 Responses Mar 7

    Today has been such a long day.

    .. I understand you want to play your games, but I really want to talk...
    redpanda1997 redpanda1997
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 30, 2015

    My entire life I have been an emotional sponge

    for friends, parents, and others to dump their problems on, and I don't mind that role, I really don't- I like helping people. But I would never want it for anyone else and I would never want to put anyone in that position which is why I keep my problems to myself
    kxCobra kxCobra
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 22, 2014

    It makes me so happy to have found this site It

    makes me so happy to know that I can be fully myself, that if I m pretty or not really doesn't matter, what matters its what I have to say my voice.... my message.... We live in a world where control appearance, power & belonging rules and finding a spot as this one to be free...
    PeaceofArt PeaceofArt
    36-40, F
    Nov 13, 2015

    I've done something I should

    if done years ago. Last night (or early this morning) I finally brought myself to tell mother. For as long as I can remember, I have been sexually assaulted and molested by my cousin. I don't know exactly the amount, but it's happened for many times in the past, and has happened...
    redpanda1997 redpanda1997
    18-21, F
    Dec 30, 2015

    Because Id rather suffer

    than be in the illusion of fake and pointless happiness.
    Wheresmywayout Wheresmywayout
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 26, 2015

    I am only because people told me I was

    so depressing and brought them down. I was called an attention seeker and had no friends or anyone to talk to. never included in any plans that were discussed in front of me either. now it forever ruined me. I don't tell anybody anything. it's safer that way. you won't lose...
    Viciouspistols Viciouspistols
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 27, 2015

    I don't have a bad life I just don't like to

    bother other people with my problems
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jan 16

    I'm the type of person

    that stays bottled up most of the time. I cannot stand bothering people with my issues. I like people worrying about me, because it shows they care. But on the other hand, I hate it. Because I want to help them with their issues. I don't want someone else to worry about me when...
    Lanigga15 Lanigga15
    16-17, F
    1 Response Oct 18, 2014

    I am too considerate,

    I hate burdening people emotionally, financially etc so I just keep things bottled up, I keep things from my parents, from everyone, sometimes I wish I could share my pain but I hate being a burden so I think this is the root of it all
    nicky411 nicky411
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 1, 2015

    Everyone needs compassion,

    a love that's never failing, let mercy fall on us. Everyone needs forgiveness, the kindness of a Savior, the Hope of nations. Savior, He can move the mountains My God is mighty to save. He is mighty to save. Forever, author of Salvation He rose and conquered the grave. Jesus...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 3
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