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I Am More Of The Suffer In Silence Type

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    The Mask.

    Sometimes I feel like a go through my days on autopilot, sucked into my own mind and begin to spiral. Somehow though I seem to go through the motions and fake my way through the day to family member and colleagues, almost like I have a mask on. My mask is lovely, always...
    thisoldroutine thisoldroutine 26-30, F 5 Responses Oct 21, 2013

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    Everyday I persuade myself to tell my parents

    that I am not okay. They think my depression is gone but only if they knew that this illness has consumed me. I have developed so many more problems since they refused to seek professional help. They don't know how much I have to lie to them to keep my secrets safe. They are...
    Ashbarg Ashbarg 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 22

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    My entire life I have been an emotional sponge

    for friends, parents, and others to dump their problems on, and I don't mind that role, I really don't- I like helping people. But I would never want it for anyone else and I would never want to put anyone in that position which is why I keep my problems to myself
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 22

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    I'm soooooo shy even

    if ur ugly i won't tell u but I always end up to be the one hurting it's soo weird how lies can get around soo fast
    Gjotafi Gjotafi 13-15, F Sep 12

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    I am selectively social.

    I don't tell specific people that I don't like them, I just bear the pain of being with them. I have a terrible habit, though: even if I'm not very skilled with verbally expressing my dislike, I tend to show it through my actions and gestures. This would make me reek an...
    irispres irispres 18-21, F Nov 15

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    I try not to release it on other people,

    though sometimes it comes out that way. Especially since my dad is that way too and will randomly explode at people, and my mom always screams at everything whether her argument makes any sense or not. Friends are strange too. So I cry a lot at night. I sleep with a stuffed...
    Dev4444 Dev4444 13-15, F Aug 15

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    sashakimi4 sashakimi4 13-15, F Sep 13

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    I don't want to suffer in silence anymore.

    What I'm going through is ripping me to pieces inside. I might go crazy if I keep this up...
    justanothersteph justanothersteph 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 14

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    Definitely This....

    I work in childcare and there is one parent which comes in and talks nonstop about her problems. She is often on the verge of tears. She is the opposite to me. When something is wrong, I keep silent especially on big topics. Like my depressed younger sister, the rejection of my...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    Emotionally and Physically.

    Whenever I have my feelings hurt or something goes differently than planned I may get upset about it but I won't tell anyone really. I will tell one person but she is all I tell. Physically though. If im hurt somewhere I don't tell anyone until I know for sure Like last chance...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M Oct 26

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    I honestly wish I could change the way a person

    is. Just snap my fingers. I just don't understand how people can change into such a monster. Even when you give them everything. Over and over and over again. It's exhausting and I feel like I will suffer in silence my entire life. Some times it's easier, but I think the pain is...
    Wifeneedingimprovements Wifeneedingimprovements 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 12

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    I am like this so much I can get

    so silent in public situation. Its hard to hide my true feelings but I do it anyway
    heartzs heartzs 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    Not Noticeable

    I struggled with serious depression for a good five or six years, and no one ever noticed, not really. My mother worried about me because she saw me the most, but she didn't realize its extent. She thought it was a phase, that it would go away with time. It didn't. If life hadn't...
    reciprocal reciprocal 16-17, F Nov 23, 2010

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    About two years ago my best guy friend started

    dating someone around where I lived even though he was residing some six and half hours away. I'd never tell anyone this but I was really hurt because the week before he and I had hooked up. I thought that maybe it was the next step and I had clearly been wrong. I was really...
    Canadianwithirish Canadianwithirish 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 19

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    So y is that i cant cry

    when i want to. This ever growing pain is unbearable now, i am not in control any more. Too much to handle. I am clearly not capable of dealing with emotion, i cant do any thng ryt, everyday there is sumthng i did wrong , i cant fix things nthng i cannot fix my self, i am such...
    furmal furmal 26-30 Oct 28

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    I Dont Think Someone Would Understand

    Ive always tried to do things myself. ive been taught that i should try to do things myself and rely on myself to get things done. but i know that i need help sometimes. but its been so long since ive had to rely on someone that i just suffer by myself. i dont know how to aproch...
    Silent20 Silent20 18-21, F Jan 21, 2012

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    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 12

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    Unless I stub my too.

    Then you will hear the rage.
    Cwitmer19 Cwitmer19 13-15, M 2 Responses Oct 22

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    Yep. I say nothing until one point

    where it's just too much and.... BAM!!!! And I just go off like a bomb.
    Matthews14 Matthews14 70+, M 2 Responses Oct 18

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    Lonely

    I didn't tell them how I felt I didn't tell them a word I kept it all inside my shell this shell I cannot even afford. I kept my face solid and straight when I was screaming aloud. I was feeling dreadfully lonely standing amidst this crowd. I didn't tell them anything not a...
    Yeshmanthi Yeshmanthi 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 29, 2011

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    Oh Yeah

    That's definitely me, i'm ******* stubborn when it comes to that. I will let it all build up, act like it's all ok, then i'll cave in. I'll do it behind closed doors, just quiet prolonged pain, oblivious to the outside world. I'd like to say that I don't know why I am the way...
    MiracleWhipTrickster MiracleWhipTrickster 18-21, M 4 Responses Mar 17, 2011

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    That's how I usually am.

    .. It's not the best to be so private but... No one is really trustworthy
    dashuria dashuria 13-15, F Oct 20

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    I don't like telling people my problems,

    I like keeping my demons inside where no one can see them. Which really works in my favor because no one expects me to cut myself or to drink and do drugs and stuff, just because I always have a smile on my face and the fact that I like to wear dresses and be all "girly". But...
    Lanigga14 Lanigga14 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    I think there are a lot of people

    who like to share their feelings/problems. But EVERYONE has had that moment where you just want to lock your doors, get into your bed, and cry for a while. Because sometimes crying alone with no judgment just feels so good. then after, you feel much better. Maybe even...
    abbbbbby abbbbbby 13-15, F Sep 16

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    The Outside

    To everyone who sees me, I laugh, I joke around, I smile. I look happy. You believe that I am, you think I have friends and everything is okay. But what I wish you would know is that when I go home, when I'm alone, I have only myself to talk to, and I cry almost every night. It...
    SolarBird SolarBird 16-17, F Sep 19, 2013

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    I never tell anyone what's bothering me

    until it boils over and I break down. It's hard to trust that people care and won't use your troubles against you so I keep to myself.
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    September 12, 2014 Friday Maybe

    if everytime you hurt her and you saw what you did you would understand. Maybe if you saw here crying on her bed you'd think a little. Maybe if you saw her all alone blaming herself you'd figure it out. Maybe if you see through her fake smile she puts on for you you'll finally...
    justwannabeliked justwannabeliked 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 12

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    Out of suffering have emerged the strongest

    souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars. -Khalil Gibran
    FullCircleO FullCircleO 31-35, M 2 Responses Aug 10

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    Its it quite a paradox to give light,

    to shine it into the world around and be in the shaded parts where the light doesn't quite reach... The last place anyone would expect to find shadows is the sun. The source is only a creator. It is not the creation itself. Therein lies the misconception of those like...
    TheShadowedGirl TheShadowedGirl 31-35 1 Response Sep 22

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    I used to be but i won't anymore.

    I'll say what i want to say.
    Itscookiemonster Itscookiemonster 16-17, F Jul 9

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    Seriously. Most days,

    I can wait until I have some alone time to think about things and stuff, but other days, I'm just a ticking time bomb, about to explode and break down into a ball of stress and teenage angst. o.o
    ThatAwkwardPanda ThatAwkwardPanda 13-15 2 Responses Sep 22

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    I feel like no one should worry about my

    feelings or problems,so I just stay silent
    metalchick18 metalchick18 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 28

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    I'm the type who holds all of my emotions inside

    until I'm ready to pop. I don't really tell anyone how I really feel because I feel as if no one understands me or no one even cares. I also don't want to come off as weak. I may look like this tough as a nail girl on the outside, but on the inside, I'm super vulnerable. So when...
    laubrown1 laubrown1 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    I don't bother telling people how I feel.

    I don't like burdening them with my issues. My signature saying is "I'm fine", or "I'm great, really". I don't like people making a fuss about me so I'll suffer in silence. Even when I'm sick, I'll lock myself up in my room and take care of myself. I hate bothering and...
    BobFrost BobFrost 36-40, M Apr 23

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    Such a scream, a power,

    an aura and vibe; Her silence deafening the hardest of souls. No one knows what on earth could be going on inside.. All they see is a ghost. If only someone took the time, peered into her eyes; The depth of an ocean, the volume of space. Come forth a revelation of sorrow...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 22

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    Looking At Me

    When you look at me, you might see a bit of weariness in my eyes, a bit of exhaustion in my face, yet you'll almost never know why. I can put on a brave face, grin and bare the pain, but there are times where I will just express my emotions. I won't tell you my problems, I won't...
    Sleaxor Sleaxor 18-21, M Oct 2, 2013

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    I Can't Handle It Much Longer

    My entire life I have been struggling with depression and self-esteem issues. I was bullied for part of middle school and even though years have passed since, the things that people said about me have stuck with me. It ruined my whole persona. Their words made me hate myself and...
    taylorietot taylorietot 16-17, F 8 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our

    school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my mind I was thinking "you know what, I'm gonna try to talk to her, I need to man up, I need to know how to talk to a girl and here's my first...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 8

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    At one point I was a Psychology major.

    I thought to myself, I'll hear people's problems and help them out because it's what I like to do. Then, one day, a man said to me, "You'll be hearing others' problems, but who will be willing to hear yours?" I said, "No one, because I suffer in silence. Until I've had enough...
    justanothersteph justanothersteph 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 14

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    Really I only talk about my problems on here,

    because I'm anonymous. I don't believe in putting your problems on other people.
    davidginsberg davidginsberg 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 14

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    I'm the type of person

    that stays bottled up most of the time. I cannot stand bothering people with my issues. I like people worrying about me, because it shows they care. But on the other hand, I hate it. Because I want to help them with their issues. I don't want someone else to worry about me when...
    Lanigga14 Lanigga14 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 18

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    I cant cry when I'm by myself

    but in public I feel like I can break down any minute. Ugh. I'm cluttered. Fighting with parents, scared I have an std, got in a car accident and hurt my head bad, ugh I'm just not doing good. Havin sex too much but now I feel like I found someone good so I'm not that worried...
    heartzs heartzs 16-17, F Sep 23

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    Seblett Seblett 13-15, F Sep 12

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    I just don't know why I can't talk to people

    about things. I'm so socially awkward and I don't want to bother anyone with what I feel. It's almost like they will be so sick of me telling them about my problems they will just give up. So I just keep it all locked up in this little brain of mine.
    margaret707 margaret707 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 27

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    dominick6 dominick6 13-15, M 2 Responses Sep 12

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    I dont think anyone can guess it.

    ..but I do suffer a lot in silence.I am talkative,speak all but the deep pain never comes out because it is so profound I am not able to find anyone able to understand it. It seems things doesnt affect me but it does.
    4biandu 4biandu 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 9

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    I have lupus i will die within the next 10 years. I have accepted my fate it cant b changed. I put up a very good wall holding back emotion at all cost. Im not scared of dying by...
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    Isolation. Firm solitude. Peace. Quiet of the night. I am here. Thoughts of complete externity, yes, externity. A word i have come to learn, familiarize myself with, feel, live. As...
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    How I wish I could sleep in utter peace, silence, and dreams of pure, ivory, melodies that make me feel complete calmness? I wish for once in a while my mind would be peaceful when...
    Xenasdreams Xenasdreams 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Not only can silence be louder, but it can also say much more.
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago