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I Am More Of The Suffer In Silence Type

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    Seriously. Most days,

    I can wait until I have some alone time to think about things and stuff, but other days, I'm just a ticking time bomb, about to explode and break down into a ball of stress and teenage angst. o.o
    ThatAwkwardPanda ThatAwkwardPanda 13-15 2 Responses Sep 22, 2014

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    Looking At Me

    When you look at me, you might see a bit of weariness in my eyes, a bit of exhaustion in my face, yet you'll almost never know why. I can put on a brave face, grin and bare the pain, but there are times where I will just express my emotions. I won't tell you my problems, I won't...
    Sleaxor Sleaxor 18-21, M Oct 2, 2013

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    your in my mind in my dreams your all I think

    about I hate it I just want to curl up in a ball and die all the memories all these ****** memories take them.away I don't want to remember I cry every stupid night I angrily wipe my tears away I curse I scream I cry I hate you I hate how u did this I hate how u left and now...
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 13

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    I Can't Handle It Much Longer

    My entire life I have been struggling with depression and self-esteem issues. I was bullied for part of middle school and even though years have passed since, the things that people said about me have stuck with me. It ruined my whole persona. Their words made me hate myself and...
    taylorietot taylorietot 16-17, F 8 Responses Feb 2, 2013

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    I Dont Think Someone Would Understand

    Ive always tried to do things myself. ive been taught that i should try to do things myself and rely on myself to get things done. but i know that i need help sometimes. but its been so long since ive had to rely on someone that i just suffer by myself. i dont know how to aproch...
    Silent20 Silent20 18-21, F Jan 21, 2012

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    My entire life I have been an emotional sponge

    for friends, parents, and others to dump their problems on, and I don't mind that role, I really don't- I like helping people. But I would never want it for anyone else and I would never want to put anyone in that position which is why I keep my problems to myself
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 22, 2014

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    The Outside

    To everyone who sees me, I laugh, I joke around, I smile. I look happy. You believe that I am, you think I have friends and everything is okay. But what I wish you would know is that when I go home, when I'm alone, I have only myself to talk to, and I cry almost every night. It...
    SolarBird SolarBird 18-21, F Sep 19, 2013

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    I will never tell anyone in person my pain,

    only online like this, with no face or way to know who I am.
    2b5h 2b5h 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 26

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    I'm.trying to stop.crying I'm trying

    so hard but it all comes back and every day I face the same thing those people being so damn cruel in l feel invisible I just want to skip the bad and just go to when I feel happy and I feel like everything isn't gonna go against me I'm sorry for how I haven't tried hard enough...
    neonpinkcupcakelover neonpinkcupcakelover 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 27

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    This actually goes with my last post :P I

    didn't know I had this :P but yea if I'm in pain i'm not going to bring it up. I prefer to just let people go about their business :) Like in my last post. If someone forgets they said they'd do something with me then it just won't happen because I don't want to seem like a...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M Dec 7, 2014

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    I dont think anyone can guess it.

    ..but I do suffer a lot in silence.I am talkative,speak all but the deep pain never comes out because it is so profound I am not able to find anyone able to understand it. It seems things doesnt affect me but it does.
    4biandu 4biandu 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 9, 2014

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    Is it wrong too not always share things

    that make you feel depressed most? I just feel like no one will ever know 100% how you're feeling. I feel like in order to make it out stronger we have to fight our battles alone sometimes, or am I wrong? I'm hoping brighter days start coming for me soon, been followed by this...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Apr 17

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    Because Id rather suffer

    than be in the illusion of fake and pointless happiness.
    Wheresmywayout Wheresmywayout 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    At one point I was a Psychology major.

    I thought to myself, I'll hear people's problems and help them out because it's what I like to do. Then, one day, a man said to me, "You'll be hearing others' problems, but who will be willing to hear yours?" I said, "No one, because I suffer in silence. Until I've had enough...
    justanothersteph justanothersteph 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 14, 2014

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    Unless I stub my too.

    Then you will hear the rage.
    Cwitmer19 Cwitmer19 13-15, M 2 Responses Oct 22, 2014

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our

    school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my mind I was thinking "you know what, I'm gonna try to talk to her, I need to man up, I need to know how to talk to a girl and here's my first...
    elugo123456789 elugo123456789 18-21, M Apr 8, 2014

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    I am like this so much I can get

    so silent in public situation. Its hard to hide my true feelings but I do it anyway
    heartzs heartzs 16-17, F Nov 26, 2014

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    Lonely

    I didn't tell them how I felt I didn't tell them a word I kept it all inside my shell this shell I cannot even afford. I kept my face solid and straight when I was screaming aloud. I was feeling dreadfully lonely standing amidst this crowd. I didn't tell them anything not a...
    Yeshmanthi Yeshmanthi 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 29, 2011

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    I don't want to suffer in silence anymore.

    What I'm going through is ripping me to pieces inside. I might go crazy if I keep this up...
    justanothersteph justanothersteph 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 14, 2014

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    I don't let others really in on my pain,

    whether it is physical or mentally...I will express it here, but life me, everyone just thinks I am doing so well...but little do they know what is going on in the inside..... I am tired of hearing the cliques ...it gets mentally exhausting after a while hearing the same...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F Mar 18

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    I do and don't when I'm upset

    or mad I either keep it all in because words can't describe or I scream and shout. People just don't understand why I go silent when I'm mad even I don't understand why.
    lela201465 lela201465 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    Yep. I say nothing until one point

    where it's just too much and.... BAM!!!! And I just go off like a bomb.
    YouCantEscapeMyDemons YouCantEscapeMyDemons 13-15, M 2 Responses Oct 18, 2014

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    Definitely This....

    I work in childcare and there is one parent which comes in and talks nonstop about her problems. She is often on the verge of tears. She is the opposite to me. When something is wrong, I keep silent especially on big topics. Like my depressed younger sister, the rejection of my...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 14, 2013

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    Its it quite a paradox to give light,

    to shine it into the world around and be in the shaded parts where the light doesn't quite reach... The last place anyone would expect to find shadows is the sun. The source is only a creator. It is not the creation itself. Therein lies the misconception of those like...
    TheShadowedGirl TheShadowedGirl 36-40 1 Response Sep 22, 2014

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    I have just been so stressed out lately with

    school and home and what I'm gonna do with my life and just everything. I don't know how much longer I can do this. I hide my feelings from everybody and pretend everything's ok. But its not.. It hasn't been ok for a really long time. I haven't been...
    Butterflyyana Butterflyyana 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 16

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    About two years ago my best guy friend started

    dating someone around where I lived even though he was residing some six and half hours away. I'd never tell anyone this but I was really hurt because the week before he and I had hooked up. I thought that maybe it was the next step and I had clearly been wrong. I was really...
    Canadianwithirish Canadianwithirish 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 19, 2014

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    My problems aren't important enough to bother

    other people with. So I don't bother with it. Instead I just keep to myself and don't talk to anyone about what is wrong with me.
    ThousandFootKrutch ThousandFootKrutch 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    too many people ridicule

    and prey on those who are worse off than them. that doesnt mean we don't need understanding or at least a sympathetic ear
    zydeko zydeko 18-21 Feb 25

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    I feel like no one should worry about my

    feelings or problems,so I just stay silent
    metalchick18 metalchick18 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 28, 2014

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    That's how I usually am.

    .. It's not the best to be so private but... No one is really trustworthy
    dashuria dashuria 16-17, F Oct 20, 2014

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    No one knows how I really feel.

    the pain, the sadness, the emptiness, it's all a secret. No one knows I self harm and no one knows how bad it gets. im affected by everything and take it so personally so much that sometimes I hate myself for it. this site is the only place where I share these thought and...
    tamsin100 tamsin100 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 5

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    I'm the type of person

    that stays bottled up most of the time. I cannot stand bothering people with my issues. I like people worrying about me, because it shows they care. But on the other hand, I hate it. Because I want to help them with their issues. I don't want someone else to worry about me when...
    Lanigga14 Lanigga14 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 18, 2014

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    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 12, 2014

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    Not Noticeable

    I struggled with serious depression for a good five or six years, and no one ever noticed, not really. My mother worried about me because she saw me the most, but she didn't realize its extent. She thought it was a phase, that it would go away with time. It didn't. If life hadn't...
    reciprocal reciprocal 16-17, F Nov 23, 2010

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    Emotionally and Physically.

    Whenever I have my feelings hurt or something goes differently than planned I may get upset about it but I won't tell anyone really. I will tell one person but she is all I tell. Physically though. If im hurt somewhere I don't tell anyone until I know for sure Like last chance...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M Oct 26, 2014

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    Oh Yeah

    That's definitely me, i'm ******* stubborn when it comes to that. I will let it all build up, act like it's all ok, then i'll cave in. I'll do it behind closed doors, just quiet prolonged pain, oblivious to the outside world. I'd like to say that I don't know why I am the way...
    MiracleWhipTrickster MiracleWhipTrickster 18-21, M 4 Responses Mar 17, 2011

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    I wish I could talk to someone,

    but I don't even know where to begin
    Flyyer73 Flyyer73 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 23, 2014

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    i used to complain alot

    when i was younger and it drove people crazy so i starting keeping things to myself. the only outlet was my journal and now ep. in real life ill smile and act like things are okay when its not. i seldom complain in real life.
    zade95 zade95 18-21, M Dec 8, 2014

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    How is it silence could pound

    so loud in your head?
    LoveOverHatred LoveOverHatred 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    I am selectively social.

    I don't tell specific people that I don't like them, I just bear the pain of being with them. I have a terrible habit, though: even if I'm not very skilled with verbally expressing my dislike, I tend to show it through my actions and gestures. This would make me reek an...
    irispres irispres 18-21, F Nov 15, 2014

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    and nobody care to notice.

    I'm in despair vulnerable state. I am lonely and it's killing me. even the strongest person in the world has a time when a hand and a warm hug are needed.
    meandmythought meandmythought 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 24, 2014

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    So y is that i cant cry

    when i want to. This ever growing pain is unbearable now, i am not in control any more. Too much to handle. I am clearly not capable of dealing with emotion, i cant do any thng ryt, everyday there is sumthng i did wrong , i cant fix things nthng i cannot fix my self, i am such...
    furmal furmal 26-30 Oct 28, 2014

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    The Mask.

    Sometimes I feel like a go through my days on autopilot, sucked into my own mind and begin to spiral. Somehow though I seem to go through the motions and fake my way through the day to family member and colleagues, almost like I have a mask on. My mask is lovely, always...
    thisoldroutine thisoldroutine 26-30, F 5 Responses Oct 21, 2013

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    Out of suffering have emerged the strongest

    souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars. -Khalil Gibran
    FullCircleO FullCircleO 31-35, M 2 Responses Aug 10, 2014

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    I think there are a lot of people

    who like to share their feelings/problems. But EVERYONE has had that moment where you just want to lock your doors, get into your bed, and cry for a while. Because sometimes crying alone with no judgment just feels so good. then after, you feel much better. Maybe even...
    abbbbbby abbbbbby 13-15, F Sep 16, 2014

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    I honestly wish I could change the way a person

    is. Just snap my fingers. I just don't understand how people can change into such a monster. Even when you give them everything. Over and over and over again. It's exhausting and I feel like I will suffer in silence my entire life. Some times it's easier, but I think the pain is...
    Wifeneedingimprovements Wifeneedingimprovements 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 12, 2014

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