I Am More Than Just Broken, I'm Damaged

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    For your own good, walk away.

    I **** everything up. I'll probably push you away. That's my thing. I just don't want to hurt you. So please, I'm begging you. Don't enter my life.
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile
    18-21, M
    Sep 2, 2015

    I'm so broken... People go on about this god

    and go on about church, but why would I want to be apart of that when I've been told the most stupid things.... I've been self harming is a sin.. Like **** off how is that a sin? How is being gay a sin :/ this so called "loving god" should lie everyone no matter who they are or...
    Catho Catho
    18-21, F
    Apr 5, 2015

    You took me for what I was

    and broke me, destroyed me and brought me down nothing.... As I lay here crying, I think to myself, what did I do to deserve the way you have treated me... I only ever loved you and treated you right, I was faithful, understanding, caring and selfless... Yet you took my heart...
    Catho Catho
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 16, 2015

    I feel like I'm damaged goods,

    and I can't be fixed. just broken, shattered and walked on
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    10 Responses Nov 19, 2015

    I don't cut myself, don't smoke,

    don't drink, and have yet to kill myself. None of that is because I'm not messed up. Most is because I'm a coward. I hurt enough on the inside that I don't want to hurt more by cutting myself and I'm too scared about hell and whatever to kill myself and see if all of the...
    meyhoffm meyhoffm
    22-25
    1 Response Sep 22, 2015

    why do i always find myself going back to the

    thing i seem to do best.. seeking validation, especially from guys... no wonder i always feel so lonely when a relationship breaks down.. because i don't get validated anymore, and i feel worthless
    Catho Catho
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 16, 2015

    How can I be so ****** up

    that I want to die on Christmas? How can I be so selfish... So many caring and giving people, yet I feel as if though they don't care.. Maybe it's just an act... Are you really caring for me? Or do you feel obliged? I want to die... It's the thought that crosses my mind daily...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile
    18-21, M
    Dec 25, 2014

    Last year, a classmate,

    a senior passed away. After saying his goodbyes, he jumped off a bridge. This year, I am exactly his age. I now know what he felt. Again. And I only wish to join him now.
    MangoMuffin MangoMuffin
    18-21, F
    Mar 6, 2015

    We met online, talked

    for months, exchanged thousands of messages then decided to meet. I drove one hour to meet her. Given the relatively short distance, we had decided to take it slow and find out it felt right. And it felt right enough to want to meet. For me, it was love at first sight. She is...
    AbrahamL AbrahamL
    41-45, M
    1 Response Oct 14, 2014

    I am broken. Ever since I was taken from my mom.

    ..i am not the same. She's in jail for letting her two kids get touched infront of her face! She can't see her kids until their 18 and that's means I have 5 years until I can see her! I can't have any communication with her and haven't which feels like forever😣 She made it to...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jun 25, 2015

    A Little Fragile Doll~

    A small fragile china doll is dropped from a shelf, she shatters everywhere. Someone comes along and glues her back together. She's still perfect. The first savior drops her off of a higher shelf by accident and she shatters again. He walks away from the scene. Another person...
    KissesFromAngels KissesFromAngels
    18-21, F
    Oct 21, 2013

    Damaged

    no one wants damaged or broken things. i think that goes for people too. people say they care and love you, but do they really? or is more going on in their own lives for them to worry about anyone else. i am broken. and cant be repaired. i know there are people out there...
    metalgirl99 metalgirl99
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Sep 19, 2012

    I just want to be happy again.

    .like really happy. Not just smile on my face happy, but really really happy deep inside. 😔
    ashley0602 ashley0602
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 8, 2015

    I'm so broken... Broken beyond repair.

    .. Who doesn't love taking a broken object, and breaking it even more.. - pulling apart a broken paper clip - crumpling up a ripped piece of paper - smashing a glass that's already chipped. - breaking a heart that's already broken. - cutting skin that's already fat - putting a...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jun 2, 2015

    I used to just brush it aside.

    ...but I can't...today I feel the whole world against me and nobody can or will help me....I feel like an alien on a new planet where I know nobody...why can't this nightmare just end?! Why can't I just wake up?! Every way I turn I get pushed and shoved and fall too the ground.
    LibertyFailure LibertyFailure
    18-21, F
    May 14, 2015

    Yeah. That's the right way to put it.

    Damaged goods. Or else I'm loosing my edge? Or else I try to understand what I'm ultimately clearly missing out in some people.... Whilst it's no news admitting this epic junk as much admitting I'm depressed - which my close relatives rebuke me for so I tend to not talk to...
    3kstazy 3kstazy
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 26, 2014

    Now that it's been just hours

    after she's gone I felt like I could've handled it but now I'm thinking this whole experience of 6 years and the care and love is gonna leave a mark which will not heal . Somewhere deep inside my mind and heart I'll still remember every good thing about her her eyes her smile...
    milind3012 milind3012
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jul 3, 2015

    imagine a girl with the worst abandonment

    issues ever.... here I am....
    XxLifelike XxLifelike
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 15, 2015

    My life got better and I have people

    that make me happy but it seems like I just can't be ok. When I'm with them I feel good and fine but something deep inside me hurts. Something tells me that I can't be happy. That I don't deserve that. No matter want happens, the moment I'm alone all of this pain that I feel get...
    elena1998 elena1998
    16-17, F
    1 Response Dec 9, 2014

    My ODD made it completely impossible

    for me to accept that there were lives I could not save. Then I spent several years as a firefighter/EMT in a very bad neighborhood.. I now have PTSD and vicarious Trauma
    alcid506 alcid506
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Oct 19, 2015

    When She Cries

    Little girl, terrified, She'd leave her room if only bruises would heal. A home is no place to hide. Her heart is breaking from the pain that she feels. Every day's the same, she fights to find her way. She hurts, she breaks, she hides and tries to pray. She wonders why Does...
    ashlynnx ashlynnx
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 4, 2010

    I've been there. I almost commuted suicide in

    3rd grade. I was extremely depressed for a long time and on and off depression for a long time. I was praying and I thought GOD left me and that it's his fault. I had much doubt in him. After I gave up and told GOD, I'm done trying an cried and have everything to him. It got...
    sashakimi4 sashakimi4
    16-17, F
    Jul 30, 2014

    I just saw The Internet's Own Boy.

    And I just posted this in response: EP Link But I really want to say something else. He was broken. He had his ideals, his life, he worked on whatever he thought was the most important issue in the world at that moment in time. Then he had the criminal justice system hammering...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife
    26-30, M
    1 Response Feb 2, 2015

    Today I realised just how screwed up I really

    am......maybe I have always beem like this......maybe she made me this way.....will I heal......who knows....time will tell.....will people walk away....possibly....time will tell.....will I ever find myself again.....maybe not.....Time will tell.....when I look in the mirror...
    huckleberrybunches huckleberrybunches
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Feb 14, 2015

    i can relate to this.

    Unfortunately a lot of my issues stem from abusive relationships with men. One raped me and beat me, the other kept lying to me and cheated on me. Now I find it hard to trust my current boyfriend because I feel so damaged and isolated that I am scared he will find a girl who...
    tinyheart8888 tinyheart8888
    18-21, F
    Sep 3, 2015

    Sad Case

    Well, I am 23. Married with a gorgeous little boy... I love him soooo much. But I have come from a severely broken home over the years with my mom being alcoholic, my dad a version of Hitler and my childhood filled with broken dreams and broken promises. My parents divorced...
    silentdame silentdame
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jan 12, 2012

    Broken heart Bloodshot eyes Bleeding wrists

    Cold soul Confused mind Colorless face Dripping blood Drowsy body Death upon me Am I dead yet? Am I free from my demons? Or am I just another lifeless body.
    shecancareless shecancareless
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 10, 2015

    I've been hurt too many times.

    When I need to show just how much I trust someone, I can't. I don't know how to.
    eemoo eemoo
    16-17, F
    Jan 14

    I loved him so much that my heart leapt over

    the moon, beyond the stars, and across galactic barriers at the sight of him. I loved him so much that I cried streams of sadness, rivers of joy, and oceans of prayers for him. I loved him so much that I walked through the most hellish mental anguish in order to hold his hand...
    chickabean chickabean
    22-25, F
    Mar 22, 2015

    Dear brain, sorry for overloading with the

    thoughts of him. Dear tummy, so for all the butterflies. Dear pillow, sorry for all the tears, and Dear heart, sorry for all the damages.
    DeathThrone DeathThrone
    22-25, F
    Mar 5, 2015

    So this message is really long.

    .. And If you actually finish it... I hope that you feel the same way I do... And that is that the next generation should be kinder to our people... Society I mean... So here's my rant... You wanna know why there are no nice guys out there?? I'll ******* tell you why... They're...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Nov 25, 2014

    I am so broken right now

    and it feels like I can never be fixed.
    mabuhayka mabuhayka
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Sep 16, 2015

    I can relate to this

    because of my abusive upbringing in foster are childrens homes.where me and my brothers & sisters where subjected to daily beatings, and more abuse, many years have gone by and I'm trying to move on. It's easier said than done to find success in moving on .
    Scarletjaki Scarletjaki
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Jul 19, 2015
    Lonelybrokenangel95 Lonelybrokenangel95
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Aug 19, 2014

    Sometimes you can't help

    but feel lonely you feel hopeless,helpless,angry so confused..so broken you feel emotionally dead no matter how much you try you can't be happy... you become antisocial you don't feel like talking to anyone anymore.. you just wish to sleep and never wake up... getting up at...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Oct 30, 2014

    I'm dying. I don't want to feel this aching

    pain in my chest anymore. I'm sick of being unsatisfied with my body, social skills, knowledge life. I don't want to be "okay" anymore. I was never okay. How does no one see past my broken smile? How can no one see I'm oh so damaged, broken beyond repair? How can no one see how...
    ashlenamya66359 ashlenamya66359
    22-25, F
    Feb 23

    I have a VERY deep emotional scar

    that has damaged me permanently.
    Wolflover1999 Wolflover1999
    16-17, M
    Oct 25, 2015

    I Feel so Lost & Disconnected with Myself.

    . I just Don't Recognise Myself Anymore.
    Mitzeie Mitzeie
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 4, 2015

    The moment that you died.

    .. my heart was torn in two. One side filled with heartache, the other died with you...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 5, 2015

    I'm at that point where I can't

    even bring myself to cry. At the point where I want to, but I can't. Crying is a release of everything you've held in, but lately, I haven't held anything. I have nothing left to hold in. I'm a hollow shell of worthlessness and pain. A shell of that once happy girl. I haven't...
    ashlenamya66359 ashlenamya66359
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 21

    That moment when you realize,

    you're so broken that you will need a miracle to get your pieces together again. What if miracles don't exist? Would you be broken forever?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 14, 2015

    Don't think about whats bad in the world,

    stop using things and make everything around you better in whatever way possible, not by force just like "I'm upset that my car has no engine." "Hey I have a bicycle, and a chainsaw, we could make the pedals and the chainsaw chain and .......... heres a carmoterbike thing!"
    Denzebarrrn Denzebarrrn
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Dec 11, 2013

    I love too hard. I care too much.

    I hate too little. I always forgive even when I shouldn't. I bury my pain deep inside my heart. All the hurt I carry leads back to my faults. I am a weak person. I have let so many people hurt me throughout my life. I have been through so much, and I have learned so much from it...
    LoveandLoss17 LoveandLoss17
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Jul 10, 2014

    Somehow I always manage to screw things up

    and make people hate me over the smallest things -.-
    Catho Catho
    18-21, F
    Oct 5, 2015
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile
    18-21, M
    1 Response Nov 20, 2014

    You Know They Don't Love You Back When.

    .. Symptoms of Lovesickness One Broken Heart Too Many Unwiped Tears That E m p t y Feeling Pain. Lots and lots and lots and lots of pain. So deep it cuts into your very being. Leaving scars that will last long after the pain. When more time is spent on the person...
    melXlo melXlo
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 30, 2014

    Lyrics that explain so much cause I can't

    detail my whole story for it'll take so much time to read. I want to tell him that I haven't gave up, cause I noticed that he thought I already have and he looked upset when he was looking at me probably thinking my close guy friend was my boyfriend (but no he is not.) I love...
    XxCuTiE14xX XxCuTiE14xX
    16-17, F
    Jul 3, 2015

    I think im broken because girls hardly want to

    talk to me and get to know me
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 31, 2015

    I really wish I was. I used to be

    so happy. No thoughts about suicide or self harm or what I looked like. It's was a simpler time where I thought about math homework and going to hang with friends until bed time. I have these racing thoughts about how I'm going to die. And what's the easiest and fastest way to...
    jackjack600 jackjack600
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 8, 2015

    I know I'm damaged. I'm scared every god damn

    day of my life to let someone know me. I guard my emotions and I let guys touch me and treat me like a toy. I know I'm a disappointment to my parents, may the rest in peace. I'm so screwed up, I haven't had a real boyfriend ever. I've never been someone's #1 best friend. My aunt...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Sep 20, 2015

    for just a moment I was feeling like I will get

    a life but I was wrong I forgot I only have to be alone with everyday killing hard lonely life
    abucoolboy abucoolboy
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Oct 18, 2015

    What doesn't kill you,

    will fvck you up, and leave permanent mental damage.
    InvaderGashloog InvaderGashloog
    70+, F
    Oct 22, 2014

    I wish I never was to come to this.

    When I was younger I was afraid of this happening, now I see what I was so afraid of. I've let the wrong people into my life and I wish I could take it back. They hurt me mentally and physically which sooner brought me into depression. I wish I would've asked for help when I was...
    fredlez2306 fredlez2306
    16-17, M
    3 Responses Aug 19, 2014

    I Don't know where to start,

    Before I do anything in my life (Specially if it's something new) I start to get really scared and i was always like that but it got even worse when the one girl that i truly cared about left me and stopped calling me without giving me ANY reason and all of a sudden am faced...
    SuperMessi007 SuperMessi007
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Feb 24, 2014

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