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I Am More Than Just Broken, I'm Damaged

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 814 People

    Lonelybrokenangel95 Lonelybrokenangel95 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 19

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    From the abuse that I had gone through early

    childhood through my early teens, I was used as a human ash tray and drug testing dummy amongst the rape and beatings I got on a daily basis. I still can't stand being touched sometimes nothing against that person though. It's just the past makes it hard to stand whenever I feel...
    SkitLaberge SkitLaberge 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    What does it feels like?

    It feels like your whole world is shattering around you yet no one notices. Like your heart has been broken torn from you, broken in half, broken into quarters, and then thrown all over the places uncontrollably. It feels like all your happiness has been taken away and you're...
    itsjennyjaa itsjennyjaa 18-21, F 1 Response May 23

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    Don't think about whats bad in the world,

    stop using things and make everything around you better in whatever way possible, not by force just like "I'm upset that my car has no engine." "Hey I have a bicycle, and a chainsaw, we could make the pedals and the chainsaw chain and .......... heres a carmoterbike thing!"
    Denzebarrrn Denzebarrrn 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    When I get sad I have sex with people

    or I drink or I do something to take away that pain because it's unbearable at times. It's like I'm a cast and on the outside it's beautiful, untouched, clean n stainless from anything. But underneath there are these cracks that begin to form in random spots. They start to...
    lostwonders1221 lostwonders1221 16-17, F Mar 1

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    Ehhh. Can't accurately describe it.

    Self inflicted mental damage doesn't count in my opinion and that's exactly what's wrong with me.
    ifearsnowmen ifearsnowmen 18-21, M Aug 19

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    I Don't know where to start,

    Before I do anything in my life (Specially if it's something new) I start to get really scared and i was always like that but it got even worse when the one girl that i truly cared about left me and stopped calling me without giving me ANY reason and all of a sudden am faced...
    SuperMessi007 SuperMessi007 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 24

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    Maybe I should just give up.

    ..I am so exhausted...
    irreelevance irreelevance 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    You left me yet again.

    It doesn't seem fair. Every time I start living, you take my heart with you.. leaving me alone to suffer..Today when you held me in your arms, I thought nothing could ruin this moment.. But you had to go, as always.. I couldn't stop you last time, I won't stop you now.. I wish...
    SG08 SG08 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 5

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    Making It Worse.

    Im not broken, Im not damaged, Im beyond repair. And to make the hell I call my life worse the one thing that was keeping me from scuicide just broke up with me. My boyfriend, my rock, my night in shining armour, stabbed his great big metal sword through my heart and then ran...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 14, 2010

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    We met online, talked

    for months, exchanged thousands of messages then decided to meet. I drove one hour to meet her. Given the relatively short distance, we had decided to take it slow and find out it felt right. And it felt right enough to want to meet. For me, it was love at first sight. She is...
    AbrahamL AbrahamL 41-45, M 2 Responses Oct 14

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    I've had probably the most amazing week ever.

    .. Yet somehow I can't find a way to stay happy... I feel happy... But I don't... Can't explain it
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 19

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    How do you ask for help

    when you know you are broken beyond repair? It just doesn't seem that there is a way to 'heal' anymore. Just have to endure the pain and bottle it up
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 5

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    I love too hard. I care too much.

    I hate too little. I always forgive even when I shouldn't. I bury my pain deep inside my heart. All the hurt I carry leads back to my faults. I am a weak person. I have let so many people hurt me throughout my life. I have been through so much, and I have learned so much from it...
    LoveandLoss17 LoveandLoss17 16-17, F 10 Responses Jul 10

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    Is this a support group

    for dyslexics or discarded produce? Because I'm more than broken and damaged, I'm slightly bruised. Like an apple. Because if I were broken, that would be so much better.
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F Oct 21

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 9

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    I've been there. I almost commuted suicide in

    3rd grade. I was extremely depressed for a long time and on and off depression for a long time. I was praying and I thought GOD left me and that it's his fault. I had much doubt in him. After I gave up and told GOD, I'm done trying an cried and have everything to him. It got...
    sashakimi4 sashakimi4 13-15, F Jul 30

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    Damaged Goods

    Yup.  Thats me.  I'm all kinds of ****** up. Don't believe me?   I have lived through almost 15 deaths of family and friends.  I am only 33.  I was blamed for my dad's death by his own mom, my grandmother.  I lived wtih an alcoholic mother...
    ChristineJones ChristineJones 31-35, F 8 Responses Oct 1, 2010

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    My humanity was everything left of me,

    My feelings are long gone and my thoughts are ****** up.
    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    Sad Case

    Well, I am 23. Married with a gorgeous little boy... I love him soooo much. But I have come from a severely broken home over the years with my mom being alcoholic, my dad a version of Hitler and my childhood filled with broken dreams and broken promises. My parents divorced...
    silentdame silentdame 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 12, 2012

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    You Know They Don't Love You Back When.

    .. Symptoms of Lovesickness One Broken Heart Too Many Unwiped Tears That E m p t y Feeling Pain. Lots and lots and lots and lots of pain. So deep it cuts into your very being. Leaving scars that will last long after the pain. When more time is spent on the person...
    melXlo melXlo 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 30

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    When She Cries

    Little girl, terrified, She'd leave her room if only bruises would heal. A home is no place to hide. Her heart is breaking from the pain that she feels. Every day's the same, she fights to find her way. She hurts, she breaks, she hides and tries to pray. She wonders why Does...
    ashlynnx ashlynnx 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 4, 2010

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    Yep...

    I'm not entirely sure how I feel about this topic, to be honest. I do try to stay upbeat and positive all the time, but due to marital stresses I've been finding myself sinking lower and lower into depression. It's been getting harder for me to try and stay positive. It's...
    Trinea Trinea 26-30 3 Responses Jul 13, 2010

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    I Feel Like Dying.

    Everything hurts me like hell. Even the rain stings. I feel like I have no skin.
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F Oct 13, 2010

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    I broke up with this guy

    while ago and out of nothing he sent me this mail this morning ; " Don’t know how long you have be flirting with John Alexander on face book, for a guy you hardly know and introduced you too you leave kisses, like about 20 of his posts how much flirting do you actually want...
    flyingviking flyingviking 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 20

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    I'm broken for life. I cut.

    I'm a recovering cutter. If you change your mind set, you can change yourself. We're all warriors. When you feel like cutting. You can message me. I'll listen and help you.
    Kailenalovesyou Kailenalovesyou 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 18

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    I wish I never was to come to this.

    When I was younger I was afraid of this happening, now I see what I was so afraid of. I've let the wrong people into my life and I wish I could take it back. They hurt me mentally and physically which sooner brought me into depression. I wish I would've asked for help when I was...
    fredlez2306 fredlez2306 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 19

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    I am right now. gosh I'm

    so pathetic I messed it up. please give me around of applause. I deserve a standing ovation. :'<
    Ranessa Ranessa 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    I cut. I starve myself.

    I have trust issues. I can't function sometimes. I want to die sometimes. I was sexually abused but all of my brokenness can't be just from that. I have so much to say and get off my chest, but can't find the words to say it all. I just want to be better. I don't want to feel...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 6 Responses Jun 24

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    debbruthy01 debbruthy01 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 18

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    I guess I don't know what to do anymore.

    ...no one tells you life will be this hard I mean wow sometimes I just want to give up and end it all..... Feeling meh 😞
    Icanstop31 Icanstop31 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 9

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    A Little Fragile Doll~

    A small fragile china doll is dropped from a shelf, she shatters everywhere. Someone comes along and glues her back together. She's still perfect. The first savior drops her off of a higher shelf by accident and she shatters again. He walks away from the scene. Another person...
    KissesFromAngels KissesFromAngels 13-15, F Oct 21, 2013

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    I need to change... I'm almost at a limp at

    work because of cutting and I'm starting to rely on caffeine (energy drinks or coffee) to boost my mood. It's not healthy.... Today, I'm going to start bettering myself... I promise I'm going to get better and today is going to be step one... I can't live this way anymore...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 21

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    What doesn't kill you,

    will fvck you up, and leave permanent mental damage.
    InvaderGashloog InvaderGashloog 70+, F 1 Response Oct 22

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    I've gone through so much in my short 20 years

    that its insane. My parents weren't around when I was a child. They were always at the bar and my brother and I were always at the neighbors house (she's now like a second mom and her children are like my brothers.) Due to their absence I developed a deep loneliness and I always...
    beautifullybrokengirl beautifullybrokengirl 18-21, F Mar 21

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    Christmas is still two months away

    but I'm dreading having to spend it with my family... I don't want to...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    Sometimes you can't help

    but feel lonely you feel hopeless,helpless,angry so confused..so broken you feel emotionally dead no matter how much you try you can't be happy... you become antisocial you don't feel like talking to anyone anymore.. you just wish to sleep and never wake up... getting up at...
    lovebug19980 lovebug19980 18-21, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    How can I be so f*cked up

    that I want to die on my Birthday?
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 26

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    I been broken since my birth

    and I fight to change it but my ghost of the past creep in my soul.
    Organia Organia 46-50, F May 23

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 11

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    Damaged

    no one wants damaged or broken things. i think that goes for people too. people say they care and love you, but do they really? or is more going on in their own lives for them to worry about anyone else. i am broken. and cant be repaired. i know there are people out there...
    metalgirl99 metalgirl99 36-40, F 5 Responses Sep 19, 2012

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