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I Am More Than Just Broken, I'm Damaged

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    I can relate to this

    because of my abusive upbringing in foster are childrens homes.where me and my brothers & sisters where subjected to daily beatings, and more abuse, many years have gone by and I'm trying to move on. It's easier said than done to find success in moving on .
    Scarletjaki Scarletjaki 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 19

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    A Little Fragile Doll~

    A small fragile china doll is dropped from a shelf, she shatters everywhere. Someone comes along and glues her back together. She's still perfect. The first savior drops her off of a higher shelf by accident and she shatters again. He walks away from the scene. Another person...
    KissesFromAngels KissesFromAngels 13-15, F Oct 21, 2013

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    I Don't know where to start,

    Before I do anything in my life (Specially if it's something new) I start to get really scared and i was always like that but it got even worse when the one girl that i truly cared about left me and stopped calling me without giving me ANY reason and all of a sudden am faced...
    SuperMessi007 SuperMessi007 22-25, M 3 Responses Feb 24, 2014

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    Lonelybrokenangel95 Lonelybrokenangel95 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 19, 2014

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    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 20, 2014

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    I've had probably the most amazing week ever.

    .. Yet somehow I can't find a way to stay happy... I feel happy... But I don't... Can't explain it
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 19, 2014

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    I'm so tired.... T - Ticked Off I - Irritated R

    - Ready to Cry E - Extremely Upset D - Done.
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Feb 17

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    That moment when you realize,

    you're so broken that you will need a miracle to get your pieces together again. What if miracles don't exist? Would you be broken forever?
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Apr 14

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    I really wish I was. I used to be

    so happy. No thoughts about suicide or self harm or what I looked like. It's was a simpler time where I thought about math homework and going to hang with friends until bed time. I have these racing thoughts about how I'm going to die. And what's the easiest and fastest way to...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 8

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    Old habits die hard..

    .. ****... I hate myself for even going back to this place.. I crave attention, and all I want to do is seek for it, but I don't allow myself to.. I won't let it happen.. After letting myself seek for attention many years ago, I ended up hurt, betrayed and hating myself... So I...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F Feb 9

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    Now that it's been just hours

    after she's gone I felt like I could've handled it but now I'm thinking this whole experience of 6 years and the care and love is gonna leave a mark which will not heal . Somewhere deep inside my mind and heart I'll still remember every good thing about her her eyes her smile...
    milind3012 milind3012 18-21, M Jul 3

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    Broken heart Bloodshot eyes Bleeding wrists

    Cold soul Confused mind Colorless face Dripping blood Drowsy body Death upon me Am I dead yet? Am I free from my demons? Or am I just another lifeless body.
    shecancareless shecancareless 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    I Feel so Lost & Disconnected with Myself.

    . I just Don't Recognise Myself Anymore.
    Mittsie Mittsie 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    We met online, talked

    for months, exchanged thousands of messages then decided to meet. I drove one hour to meet her. Given the relatively short distance, we had decided to take it slow and find out it felt right. And it felt right enough to want to meet. For me, it was love at first sight. She is...
    AbrahamL AbrahamL 41-45, M 1 Response Oct 14, 2014

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    My mind is broken. People say "it's the illness"

    but I'm having my doubts. It's not just an illness. This is who I am. This is who I will forever be.
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    I just saw The Internet's Own Boy.

    And I just posted this in response: EP Link But I really want to say something else. He was broken. He had his ideals, his life, he worked on whatever he thought was the most important issue in the world at that moment in time. Then he had the criminal justice system hammering...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 2

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    Last year, a classmate,

    a senior passed away. After saying his goodbyes, he jumped off a bridge. This year, I am exactly his age. I now know what he felt. Again. And I only wish to join him now.
    MangoMuffin MangoMuffin 18-21, F Mar 6

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    And that's why I cannot be positive.

    I feel bad that I have nothing positive to offer to anyone. I can't inspire people. And yet I love someone who inspires so many people with his positivity. I am just hopelessly waiting and craving for end of it all, through my death. The scars are too deep. They wouldn't heal...
    EternalWanderer EternalWanderer 31-35, F Dec 3, 2014

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    I broke up with this guy

    while ago and out of nothing he sent me this mail this morning ; " Don’t know how long you have be flirting with John Alexander on face book, for a guy you hardly know and introduced you too you leave kisses, like about 20 of his posts how much flirting do you actually want...
    flyingviking flyingviking 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 20, 2014

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    why do i always find myself going back to the

    thing i seem to do best.. seeking validation, especially from guys... no wonder i always feel so lonely when a relationship breaks down.. because i don't get validated anymore, and i feel worthless
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 16

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    I just want to be happy again.

    .like really happy. Not just smile on my face happy, but really really happy deep inside. 😔
    ashley0602 ashley0602 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    Dear brain, sorry for overloading with the

    thoughts of him. Dear tummy, so for all the butterflies. Dear pillow, sorry for all the tears, and Dear heart, sorry for all the damages.
    DeathThrone DeathThrone 22-25, F Mar 5

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    Sad Case

    Well, I am 23. Married with a gorgeous little boy... I love him soooo much. But I have come from a severely broken home over the years with my mom being alcoholic, my dad a version of Hitler and my childhood filled with broken dreams and broken promises. My parents divorced...
    silentdame silentdame 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 12, 2012

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    Don't think about whats bad in the world,

    stop using things and make everything around you better in whatever way possible, not by force just like "I'm upset that my car has no engine." "Hey I have a bicycle, and a chainsaw, we could make the pedals and the chainsaw chain and .......... heres a carmoterbike thing!"
    Denzebarrrn Denzebarrrn 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    What doesn't kill you,

    will fvck you up, and leave permanent mental damage.
    InvaderGashloog InvaderGashloog 70+, F Oct 22, 2014

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    I'll tell you a story.

    Hey, I'm Libby- yeah I'm kind of strange. I'm obsessed with old men,I lie about getting abused and I fantasise about being disabled. Do you still want to talk to me.? Oh, it's okay: I get that a lot. What do I do? Oh I just sit in my room, craving attention, but it's hormones...
    Libsy Libsy 13-15, F 4 Responses May 30

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    Today I realised just how screwed up I really

    am......maybe I have always beem like this......maybe she made me this way.....will I heal......who knows....time will tell.....will people walk away....possibly....time will tell.....will I ever find myself again.....maybe not.....Time will tell.....when I look in the mirror...
    huckleberrybunches huckleberrybunches 36-40, M 3 Responses Feb 14

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    How can I be so ****** up

    that I want to die on Christmas? How can I be so selfish... So many caring and giving people, yet I feel as if though they don't care.. Maybe it's just an act... Are you really caring for me? Or do you feel obliged? I want to die... It's the thought that crosses my mind daily...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 25, 2014

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    I've gone through so much in my short 20 years

    that its insane. My parents weren't around when I was a child. They were always at the bar and my brother and I were always at the neighbors house (she's now like a second mom and her children are like my brothers.) Due to their absence I developed a deep loneliness and I always...
    beautifullybrokengirl beautifullybrokengirl 18-21, F Mar 21, 2014

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    I'm so broken... People go on about this god

    and go on about church, but why would I want to be apart of that when I've been told the most stupid things.... I've been self harming is a sin.. Like **** off how is that a sin? How is being gay a sin :/ this so called "loving god" should lie everyone no matter who they are or...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F Apr 5

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    I wish I never was to come to this.

    When I was younger I was afraid of this happening, now I see what I was so afraid of. I've let the wrong people into my life and I wish I could take it back. They hurt me mentally and physically which sooner brought me into depression. I wish I would've asked for help when I was...
    fredlez2306 fredlez2306 13-15, M 3 Responses Aug 19, 2014

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    I loved him so much that my heart leapt over

    the moon, beyond the stars, and across galactic barriers at the sight of him. I loved him so much that I cried streams of sadness, rivers of joy, and oceans of prayers for him. I loved him so much that I walked through the most hellish mental anguish in order to hold his hand...
    chickabean chickabean 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 22

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    Damaged

    no one wants damaged or broken things. i think that goes for people too. people say they care and love you, but do they really? or is more going on in their own lives for them to worry about anyone else. i am broken. and cant be repaired. i know there are people out there...
    metalgirl99 metalgirl99 36-40, F 5 Responses Sep 19, 2012

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    I used to just brush it aside.

    ...but I can't...today I feel the whole world against me and nobody can or will help me....I feel like an alien on a new planet where I know nobody...why can't this nightmare just end?! Why can't I just wake up?! Every way I turn I get pushed and shoved and fall too the ground.
    LibertyFailure LibertyFailure 16-17, F May 14

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    When She Cries

    Little girl, terrified, She'd leave her room if only bruises would heal. A home is no place to hide. Her heart is breaking from the pain that she feels. Every day's the same, she fights to find her way. She hurts, she breaks, she hides and tries to pray. She wonders why Does...
    ashlynnx ashlynnx 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 4, 2010

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    I Feel Like Dying.

    Everything hurts me like hell. Even the rain stings. I feel like I have no skin.
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F Oct 13, 2010

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    Sometimes you can't help

    but feel lonely you feel hopeless,helpless,angry so confused..so broken you feel emotionally dead no matter how much you try you can't be happy... you become antisocial you don't feel like talking to anyone anymore.. you just wish to sleep and never wake up... getting up at...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Oct 30, 2014

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    this was a real eye opener

    for me. But in my office a long time ago somebody left me a San Carlos Chih. mug its been here for years its tiny and I was trying to clean up and it fell right off the desk. I literally picked it up and tried so hard to but it back together again. Most people would normally...
    kimbriaaa kimbriaaa 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    I'm so broken... Broken beyond repair.

    .. Who doesn't love taking a broken object, and breaking it even more.. - pulling apart a broken paper clip - crumpling up a ripped piece of paper - smashing a glass that's already chipped. - breaking a heart that's already broken. - cutting skin that's already fat - putting a...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 2

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    You Know They Don't Love You Back When.

    .. Symptoms of Lovesickness One Broken Heart Too Many Unwiped Tears That E m p t y Feeling Pain. Lots and lots and lots and lots of pain. So deep it cuts into your very being. Leaving scars that will last long after the pain. When more time is spent on the person...
    melXlo melXlo 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 30, 2014

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    Lyrics that explain so much cause I can't

    detail my whole story for it'll take so much time to read. I want to tell him that I haven't gave up, cause I noticed that he thought I already have and he looked upset when he was looking at me probably thinking my close guy friend was my boyfriend (but no he is not.) I love...
    XxCuTiE14xX XxCuTiE14xX 16-17, F Jul 3

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    So this message is really long.

    .. And If you actually finish it... I hope that you feel the same way I do... And that is that the next generation should be kinder to our people... Society I mean... So here's my rant... You wanna know why there are no nice guys out there?? I'll ******* tell you why... They're...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 25, 2014

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    You took me for what I was

    and broke me, destroyed me and brought me down nothing.... As I lay here crying, I think to myself, what did I do to deserve the way you have treated me... I only ever loved you and treated you right, I was faithful, understanding, caring and selfless... Yet you took my heart...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    I am broken. Ever since I was taken from my mom.

    ..i am not the same. She's in jail for letting her two kids get touched infront of her face! She can't see her kids until their 18 and that's means I have 5 years until I can see her! I can't have any communication with her and haven't which feels like forever😣 She made it to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 25

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    . They thought i'd get over the night they tore

    me from him, but they thought wrong I die everyday a million times over...yeah it was wrong to talk to someone older and yeah i'm 14 but to do something soooo unforgettable and mean will always remain cruel to me
    OsoGorgeousMiller OsoGorgeousMiller 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 8

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    I love too hard. I care too much.

    I hate too little. I always forgive even when I shouldn't. I bury my pain deep inside my heart. All the hurt I carry leads back to my faults. I am a weak person. I have let so many people hurt me throughout my life. I have been through so much, and I have learned so much from it...
    LoveandLoss17 LoveandLoss17 16-17, F 9 Responses Jul 10, 2014

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