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I Am More Than Just Broken, I'm Damaged

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    I Have Polyfragmented DID

    My system is confused to the point where it never know who it is and switches thousands of times a day. The only time it slows down is when i am absolutely alone for a couple of days. My original is long gone. I know i can get it back but that will take decades. Why cant a stupid...
    Ifeeluberish Ifeeluberish 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 28, 2013

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    Beyond Repair

    The memories, the scars, emotionally and physically, will always be there. 
    reset reset 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 8, 2010

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    Never Had That Something

    I don't even know how to start this, but i'll dive right in. I fail every relationship with every women i've ever liked. It wouldn't bother meย if i had some wins and loses, but i lose every single time. Weather i try the friend approach, the assertive way, but most of the time i...
    bboydevs bboydevs 26-30, M Aug 16, 2013

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    I'm broken for life. I cut.

    I'm a recovering cutter. If you change your mind set, you can change yourself. We're all warriors. When you feel like cutting. You can message me. I'll listen and help you.
    Kailenalovesyou Kailenalovesyou 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 18

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    My Final Chapter

    I've been broken for so long and I'm tired to be strong Find me a reason to keep holding on all alone this time You canโ€™t find a reason to show me that I belong The death offers a beautiful end to me all the time Perhaps itโ€™s time for me to leave untouched years behind When...
    HakujitsuSeiten HakujitsuSeiten 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    It Was Always You

    How would I ever begin to tell you the damage you have done to me? I really don't think there are words to express what my heart feels. Different? Yes I am and have known so for a very, very long time. I have the capability to love from the heart. When I love, I love to the core...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 30, 2013

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    Well, I've Done It Again.

    My best friend left me, after being my best, and sometimes only friend for 15 years. My dad was in love with a woman. Unfortunately, he was in love with not my mother, but my mother's best friend, who was also my best friend's mother. They were together for two years and then...
    kissmeimgryffindor kissmeimgryffindor 18-21 Dec 9, 2012

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    Her Reality

    She escape her fear Only to be in a world We're lost and hatred there Her eyes turns to darkness Blinded from hope That once believed And once destroyed Red tears forming She whispered I'm damaged Her sight quickly turned Ghost of sadness appear She cannot take the loneliness...
    SecretWriter7 SecretWriter7 13-15, F Apr 3, 2013

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    I Can'T Just Take It Any More!

    I.. Once I had a dog, she was scared of everything, but of some reason, she trusted me. We became really good friends, and we shared a close bond. Once, I even saved her life, after that day, our bond was even stronger than before. But short after that, we were ripped apart, my...
    littlewolf1 littlewolf1 13-15, F Mar 1, 2013

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    I've gone through so much in my short 20 years

    that its insane. My parents weren't around when I was a child. They were always at the bar and my brother and I were always at the neighbors house (she's now like a second mom and her children are like my brothers.) Due to their absence I developed a deep loneliness and I always...
    beautifullybrokengirl beautifullybrokengirl 18-21, F Mar 21

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    Help

    I have been with my girlfriend for a long time now.loved her so much I would do just about anything if she said so.i still love her that way but its fading.she also loved me so much but sometime last year she started to change..i could feel it in the way she spoke,acted. All the...
    jbrads jbrads 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 27, 2013

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    Damaged Goods

    Yup.  Thats me.  I'm all kinds of ****** up. Don't believe me?   I have lived through almost 15 deaths of family and friends.  I am only 33.  I was blamed for my dad's death by his own mom, my grandmother.  I lived wtih an alcoholic mother...
    ChristineJones ChristineJones 31-35, F 7 Responses Oct 1, 2010

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    I been broken since my birth

    and I fight to change it but my ghost of the past creep in my soul.
    Organia Organia 46-50, F 1 Response May 23

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    Someone Will Probably Disagree.....

    but i feel that way. i fall into bad habits and stupid thoughts. and wonder if im worth the trouble at all.
    violet1698 violet1698 31-35, F 3 Responses May 12, 2013

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    debbruthy01 debbruthy01 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 18

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    Sad Case

    Well, I am 23. Married with a gorgeous little boy... I love him soooo much. But I have come from a severely broken home over the years with my mom being alcoholic, my dad a version of Hitler and my childhood filled with broken dreams and broken promises. My parents divorced...
    silentdame silentdame 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 12, 2012

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    A Little Fragile Doll~

    A small fragile china doll is dropped from a shelf, she shatters everywhere. Someone comes along and glues her back together. She's still perfect. The first savior drops her off of a higher shelf by accident and she shatters again. He walks away from the scene. Another person...
    KissesFromAngels KissesFromAngels 13-15, F Oct 21, 2013

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    I love too hard. I care too much.

    I hate too little. I always forgive even when I shouldn't. I bury my pain deep inside my heart. All the hurt I carry leads back to my faults. I am a weak person. I have let so many people hurt me throughout my life. I have been through so much, and I have learned so much from it...
    LoveandLoss17 LoveandLoss17 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 10

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    I just can't understand any of this.

    Why do I deserve to be treated this way time and time again. Its not like I'm asking for something crazy. I just want to love and be loved. Unconditionally. Why do people cheat? Why do the ones we love gge most hurt us the most?
    foreveralone9 foreveralone9 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 7

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    I broke up with this guy

    while ago and out of nothing he sent me this mail this morning ; " Donโ€™t know how long you have be flirting with John Alexander on face book, for a guy you hardly know and introduced you too you leave kisses, like about 20 of his posts how much flirting do you actually want...
    flyingviking flyingviking 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 20

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    I cut. I starve myself.

    I have trust issues. I can't function sometimes. I want to die sometimes. I was sexually abused but all of my brokenness can't be just from that. I have so much to say and get off my chest, but can't find the words to say it all. I just want to be better. I don't want to feel...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 24

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    Damaged

    no one wants damaged or broken things. i think that goes for people too. people say they care and love you, but do they really? or is more going on in their own lives for them to worry about anyone else. i am broken. and cant be repaired. i know there are people out there...
    metalgirl99 metalgirl99 36-40, F 4 Responses Sep 19, 2012

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    Making It Worse.

    Im not broken, Im not damaged, Im beyond repair. And to make the hell I call my life worse the one thing that was keeping me from scuicide just broke up with me. My boyfriend, my rock, my night in shining armour, stabbed his great big metal sword through my heart and then ran...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 14, 2010

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    ~Curse~

    Shadows from the past keeps worrying me Creeps the small fire of honesty With a mind of doubts what can i see Fog of lies and misery For quite sometime i feel damage When losing a person who can manage Who is perfect in my eyes That made my hope dies If this is the heaven i'm...
    SecretWriter7 SecretWriter7 13-15, F Mar 23, 2013

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    Completely Bewildered

    My fiance, the father of my two children, left me the 31st of December for his own sister in law. I don't understand it at all because the man hated her more than he hated anything in life for several years for not only destroying his brothers relationship with his family but...
    Deanna78 Deanna78 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 4, 2013

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    I am right now. gosh I'm

    so pathetic I messed it up. please give me around of applause. I deserve a standing ovation. :'<
    Ranessa Ranessa 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    My humanity was everything left of me,

    My feelings are long gone and my thoughts are ****** up.
    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    I Feel Like Dying.

    Everything hurts me like hell. Even the rain stings. I feel like I have no skin.
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F Oct 13, 2010

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    looking back over my life its always the same

    things that get bought up when talking about how i become so damaged. the Death of only sibling, the passing of all grandparents (one i truely remember more than others is the death of my favourite nan, she used to tell me stories, and was always smiling, going on holiday i...
    troubledlad troubledlad 31-35, M 3 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    From the abuse that I had gone through early

    childhood through my early teens, I was used as a human ash tray and drug testing dummy amongst the rape and beatings I got on a daily basis. I still can't stand being touched sometimes nothing against that person though. It's just the past makes it hard to stand whenever I feel...
    SkitLaberge SkitLaberge 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    When I get sad I have sex with people

    or I drink or I do something to take away that pain because it's unbearable at times. It's like I'm a cast and on the outside it's beautiful, untouched, clean n stainless from anything. But underneath there are these cracks that begin to form in random spots. They start to...
    lostwonders1221 lostwonders1221 16-17, F Mar 1

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    Broken..

    I have never been treated good my entire life. I'm wondering, is life really supposed to be this bad? Is everyone really bad?? Maybe it is just me. Maybe I'm not supposed to know happiness or especially love. I want to feel real love just one time before I die. Some ppl get to be...
    MsMidnite MsMidnite 31-35, F 4 Responses Mar 3, 2013

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    Yep...

    I'm not entirely sure how I feel about this topic, to be honest. I do try to stay upbeat and positive all the time, but due to marital stresses I've been finding myself sinking lower and lower into depression. It's been getting harder for me to try and stay positive. It's...
    Trinea Trinea 26-30 3 Responses Jul 13, 2010

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    When She Cries

    Little girl, terrified, She'd leave her room if only bruises would heal. A home is no place to hide. Her heart is breaking from the pain that she feels. Every day's the same, she fights to find her way. She hurts, she breaks, she hides and tries to pray. She wonders why Does...
    ashlynnx ashlynnx 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 4, 2010

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    I Can'T Stay Strong If I'M Already Broken

    Idk why people tell me to stay strong. I can't. I already broke down I'm not strong anymore, I broke down a long time ago and can't stay something I'm not. So to all who tell em to stay strong. Stop it. I can't disappoint another person. It's my problem and my issues that I can...
    SammyNeedsHelp SammyNeedsHelp 13-15, F 2 Responses May 8, 2013

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    I Don't know where to start,

    Before I do anything in my life (Specially if it's something new) I start to get really scared and i was always like that but it got even worse when the one girl that i truly cared about left me and stopped calling me without giving me ANY reason and all of a sudden am faced...
    SuperMessi007 SuperMessi007 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 24

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    You left me yet again.

    It doesn't seem fair. Every time I start living, you take my heart with you.. leaving me alone to suffer..Today when you held me in your arms, I thought nothing could ruin this moment.. But you had to go, as always.. I couldn't stop you last time, I won't stop you now.. I wish...
    SG08 SG08 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 5

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    Don't think about whats bad in the world,

    stop using things and make everything around you better in whatever way possible, not by force just like "I'm upset that my car has no engine." "Hey I have a bicycle, and a chainsaw, we could make the pedals and the chainsaw chain and .......... heres a carmoterbike thing!"
    Denzebarrrn Denzebarrrn 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    What does it feels like?

    It feels like your whole world is shattering around you yet no one notices. Like your heart has been broken torn from you, broken in half, broken into quarters, and then thrown all over the places uncontrollably. It feels like all your happiness has been taken away and you're...
    itsjennyjaa itsjennyjaa 18-21, F 1 Response May 23

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    Climbing the mountain....sometimes I am dragging myself up, feel like I'm going to fall back down again. Sometimes I am holding on by my fingertips...some days I want to give up...
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