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I Am My Own Worst Enemy

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    Unhappy yet can't seem to finally walk away

    for good... What's wrong with me?!
    LIgirl23 LIgirl23 22-25, F 4 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    " You are your own worst enemy.

    If you can learn to stop expecting impossible perfection, in yourself and others, you may find the happiness that has always eluded you" - Lisa Kleypas , Love in the Afternoon I have to learn to remove all these negative thoughts in my head... And apply this quote more to my...
    Aubexile Aubexile 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 21, 2014

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    I cant tell the difference between those with

    good or bad intentions anymore so I push everyone away. Its easier to lose control and break down when there's no one around to watch.
    armand3439 armand3439 22-25, F 4 Responses May 8

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    Frustrating

    i do destructive things to myself all the time. not only do i abuse alcohol and drugs. i smoke, eat horrible foods, and tan. and these are just a few things. on top of all of this, i'm a self mutilator. i'm destroying myself. and right now. nothing of significance has happened...
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 17 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    I do wrong when I want to do right.

    I hate when I want to love. I alienate when I want to draw nearer. I think it might be impossible to change when deep down I think I can't. Battling that doubt and fear is my constant struggle right now. Could love give me the security I need to change today?
    JoeMarvel JoeMarvel 22-25, M 4 Responses Jun 1

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 6

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    I convince myself to believe

    that I am not worthy of things I've felt fully worthy of before. At times I truly don't believe in myself.
    clamthatjams clamthatjams 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    misanthropicpessimist misanthropicpessimist 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    50 days ago I tried to die,

    but obviously failed it. I was in the hospital, psychiatric clinics, many doctors and therapists. I've been to churches, talked to religious people. I've read some books, watched videos, researched, searched, tried. I feel empty, useless, without perspectives. There is no...
    borderline140315 borderline140315 46-50, F 3 Responses Jun 2

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    I was a real jerk to my brother today.

    I'm disappointed in who I've become and it's so difficult for me not to criticize others out of that disappointment. I hate hurting my relationships like that and yet it comes so naturally lately. Can anyone relate?
    JoeMarvel JoeMarvel 22-25, M 8 Responses May 31

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    im scared of talking online with you guys 😉

    so dont even try cause im really scared of talking deep things with strangers...
    gongito gongito 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 1

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    I really should give myself more credit

    than I do, but I can't stop beating myself up. I analyze and criticize every single thing I do. I'm never good enough for myself, despite how highly others regard me. It's a bad habit that I really need to stop doing, but how does one even begin to change that way of thinking...
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 19

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    Whenever I try to tell myself

    that I would change for the better . Things just get so harder , seems like your too lazy enough to do task that can help you built a better you. I guess I really do sucks at planning things ..
    gowybry gowybry 16-17, F 1 Response May 24

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    My family constantly tells me "I need to be

    more open,and your so secretive" I just don't know have not to be. To have simple conversation with the people around me I have to fight with my self...the never-ending battle
    serenitiross123 serenitiross123 36-40, F 1 Response May 10

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    I have anorexia and bulimia .

    I throw up what I do eat , which isn't even that much . Does anyone else do this ? I'm really fat . 180 pounds and I'm 5'6. I need to lose 80 pounds . I can't stand being fat . I punish myself when I eat a full meal and when I miss a workout .
    pompomsandbows pompomsandbows 13-15, F 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I really wish I knew how to handle my emotions

    and situations better. -feeling really down on myself.
    createmeover createmeover 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    Darling, Open your eyes.

    You are not made up of those words that hurt you. Or that number on that scale. Or the expectations you feel you will never meet. You are made up of nothing more than you. Simply beautiful, wonderfully unique you. You are a lovely complex soul. An individually fascinating...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 7 Responses Feb 18

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    I spend more time worrying about my life

    than doing anything to fix it.
    oceanwalker oceanwalker 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 19, 2014

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    everytime i feel like i want to be happy

    and in love i always feel like im not good enough and i dont deserve it. i want to be in love with that special someone but if the chance were to ever come to pass im afraid i wont be able to give in to it and let myself fall completely for them. im just not good enough for the...
    ForgetableMe ForgetableMe 31-35, M 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I hate myself. I'd be better off dead.

    I'm sick of all of the stupid **** I have to deal with everyday. If others don't tell me the truth, I do it for them. 'Fat', 'ugly', '*****', 'emo', 'loser', 'freak' ect. *sighs*
    xbandgirlx xbandgirlx 13-15, F 4 Responses May 30

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    I'm not suicidal but I think I beat myself down

    for all the mistakes I've done. For all the things I did and did not do. For what I am and what I am not. I am my own worst enemy and it's hindering my happiness.
    sugarprincess23 sugarprincess23 22-25, F 6 Responses May 30, 2014

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    I hate myself so much.

    Just when I think I'm getting better, I drag myself back down again. I don't know why I do this to myself. I try and try to be happy, and it never ******* works! I always have to ruin things for myself.
    IntoxicatedLies IntoxicatedLies 18-21, M 3 Responses May 10

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    Maihowl Maihowl 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 9

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    I have got to stop letting people stress me out.

    But given a lifetime of shut up and take it it's easier said than done. I have keep how stressed and depressed I am a secret so long, that no one in my life really sees how past the breaking point I am
    Wantfreedom67 Wantfreedom67 46-50, F 3 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    The only person I've ever fought in my whole

    life was myself. It will drive you mad!
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 8, 2014

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    After being in therapy

    for quite some time now, I see that other people think highly of me and I get told that I am cute and adorable. I spend so much time getting ready everyday to make myself look as good as possible and I spend so much time looking in the mirror (not in a conceited way) trying to...
    Missprincessgabby Missprincessgabby 18-21, F 9 Responses Aug 14, 2014

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    I need to start thinking about the consequences

    of my actions, because i've hurt too many people. And i've been careless. At the same time, I would appreciate if you could refrain from being passive aggressive, it is not something I tolerate. I didn't ask for you to love me. It's not my fault that I don't love you. Just...
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 18-21, F 2 Responses May 12

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    I love being alone, but I get

    so lonely, does anyone else feel this?
    melodyfey melodyfey 18-21, F 8 Responses Dec 9, 2014

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    deleted deleted 26-30 May 6

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    I've been thinking and i realize

    that im not worried about what other see in me and the haunting thought aren't my fear of what others think its what i think of myself... the only thing i worry that people think about me is that im fat. other then that all my dislikes about myself are my own. no ones ever told...
    Sagey47 Sagey47 18-21, F 2 Responses May 7

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    I live too much for pleasure,

    and it's interfering too much with my grades in college. I always seem to make time for things like video games by cutting into the time I should be sleeping, and then I have to focus on staying awake in class rather than focusing on what the professor is saying.
    KingLaserDestroyer KingLaserDestroyer 18-21, M 1 Response May 9

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    I talk to myself in my head.

    ..daily...it seems like all the time. Most of it is negative crap. How stupid, fat, unloveable, pathetic I am...how I'm not pretty enough, smart enough, thin enough, good enough, etc. It's tiring. I can't imagine letting another person talk to me like that & putting up with...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 4 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    I post pretty pictures of my life

    but inside I have no idea what I'm doing with it.
    jadiss1 jadiss1 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    Yesterday again I chose to feel rejection

    and self-pity instead of just telling my partner '"I would like to talk to you" when she was doing something else. My indulgence for victimism, a tendency I have fought a lot lately against, is stronger than I believed. So I closed in my shell and made her feel worried and sad...
    Danceofhours Danceofhours 41-45, M 4 Responses May 30

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    I'm an extreme over thinker.

    (Call me pretty? I spend legit 2 hours over thinking if u just said that or u meant it) I have a low self confidence. (I really have no reason for it I just do dill with it) I tend to care for other more then myself leaving me at the point where I know nothing about myself (I...
    sixpackbookworm sixpackbookworm 13-15, F 8 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    grungebby grungebby 16-17, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Without a doubt, I am.

    I know exactly how to stop letting myself get used, it's easy, just don't go out alone to parties where I don't know anyone. If i'm at a party with friends, nothing happens. It's not even that they have to stop anything from happening, I'm simply a different person, I'm always...
    hayliepartychick hayliepartychick 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 19, 2014

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    I recently started seeing someone

    as my marriage is not in a great place! I have a huge connection with this guy! So confused
    jennipenni78 jennipenni78 36-40, F 2 Responses May 6

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    I would love to stop getting in my own way

    every time something positive happens in my life. To stop saying why and start saying why not! Stop over thinking situations. I mentally complicate everything. I am way too hyper sensitive. I can get way to high when things are good and just totally hit bottom if something...
    newlifeforme73 newlifeforme73 41-45, M 5 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I feel like I can't trust anyone.

    I gave up on myself, so others gave up on me too. I did this to myself. I just hate that I did :/ I wish I could go back in time...I just wish there was a way to fix this. A way to not feel like a psychopath. Why the hell would I push everyone who cares about me away?! Why would...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 20

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    Don't you hate when you try to have a

    conversation with yourself and you are told to shut up. :/
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 3 Responses Aug 14, 2014

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    Sometimes I think I'm the reason

    for the bad things that happen in my life. it's as if I'm having a mental war with my self my only enemy is me
    TedDoesntCompare TedDoesntCompare 18-21, M 4 Responses May 10

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    It may be time to kick my own ***!

    This could be quite funny....
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 24

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    My boyfriend (or ex now I suppose) left me a

    note leaving me during the week. We've had a really difficult weekend - both being petty but he was pretty cruel too. He has rang and apologised, even telling me my life is really good, he just wasn't happy. I've began moving back into my parents but my self esteem is shot. I...
    missdan missdan 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    if I cant make peace with my enemy,

    then one of us will die.
    LovingDead LovingDead 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 3

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    I hate myself. I hate the battles I have to

    put up with I cut to punish myself for being such a mistake But that doesn't even work If I killed myself, would it work?
    TheDemonsInside TheDemonsInside 13-15, F 2 Responses May 26

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