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I Am My Own Worst Enemy

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    I spend more time worrying about my life

    than doing anything to fix it.
    oceanwalker oceanwalker 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 19, 2014

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    Every time I get close to someone

    and get to know them, I end up screwing everything up and sabotage any relationship. Takes me anywhere between 5 days to 5 years. No matter how hard I try, there will always be something I say that eventually makes the person (or myself) freak out and run for the hills. Help...
    eivyde eivyde 22-25 3 Responses Jan 3

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    I hate going to bed at night I mean I love my

    dreams but it's the silence before I go to bed the time when my mind decides to take dark turns and go down ways I don't want it to
    silentwolf3 silentwolf3 16-17, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Why do I feel my ex is lying to me just to have

    me back in his life.... Would you believe you ex if he says he doesn't sleep with his baby mother but yet says its you he wants.... He seriously must think I'm some fool
    jml5 jml5 31-35, F 8 Responses Dec 29, 2015

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    Its funny how love can change people.

    Seriously, i have become a stalker. I'm a bad person.
    oriondelyx oriondelyx 26-30, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    RainSword RainSword 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 16, 2014

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    " You are your own worst enemy.

    If you can learn to stop expecting impossible perfection, in yourself and others, you may find the happiness that has always eluded you" - Lisa Kleypas , Love in the Afternoon I have to learn to remove all these negative thoughts in my head... And apply this quote more to my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 21, 2014

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    I have never like myself

    because all I see is a vague reflection barely visable in a cracked mirror as blood drips from my knuckles....
    samsthemann samsthemann 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 7, 2015

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    But before I went to bed I knew I'd dream of

    you... And I knew I'd wake up distressed and restless. Because in my dream you come to me just like you do every time; and when I wake you're no where in sight and it disheartens me to know that fact.. Even before I even closed my eyes. I hate that I knew that you'd come to me...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 18

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    I really don't know who I am anymore.

    I know changes in my life need to be made and so desperately want them but always end up finding an excuse or reason not to make them. I convince myself that things are ok for so long and then end up having a really bad night like tonight. I hate me for pitying myself and end up...
    lu3elle79 lu3elle79 31-35, F 13 Responses Aug 2, 2014

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    I tend to be kinda rough on myself

    and brutal and critical on my performance and appearance
    CallMePonyTail CallMePonyTail 13-15, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    User1039 User1039 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 19

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    I'm an extreme over thinker.

    (Call me pretty? I spend legit 2 hours over thinking if u just said that or u meant it) I have a low self confidence. (I really have no reason for it I just do dill with it) I tend to care for other more then myself leaving me at the point where I know nothing about myself (I...
    sixpackbookworm sixpackbookworm 13-15, F 8 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    I honestly think I criticize myself way too

    harsh. I always down talk myself and I guess that's not good for me
    alexandrajoliexx alexandrajoliexx 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 18

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    I am slowly trying to change that.

    I am liking myself more each day.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 19, 2015

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    I have recently decided to stop being my own

    worst enemy. I have recently decided to try to change things for the better and care more about myself.
    saddeena saddeena 41-45, F 11 Responses May 3, 2014

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    10th grade: As I sat there in English class,

    I stared at a girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed...
    Andreyus Andreyus 16-17, M 9 Responses Dec 2, 2015

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    I have everything I need to do anything I want.

    I am physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually strong. I am very witty and quick witted. I can learn any subject I take an interest in. If I succeed it will be through hard work and effort. The difference in being bad at something and being good at something is the time...
    Arorin Arorin 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 26, 2015

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    Absolutely yes... I just hate

    who i am right now and i want to beat hil so bad... But i can't win the fight. This is so frustrating!
    Potchii Potchii 22-25, M 18 hrs ago

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    I critique myself so badly.

    There is nothing that anyone can say to me that I haven't already said or thought about myself. I demand some level of perfection of myself that is unrealistic, and I know that but I can't stop. I am constantly disappointed in myself. I can't find a way out of it and it bothers...
    QueenVenus QueenVenus 18-21, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    User1039 User1039 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    I would love to stop getting in my own way

    every time something positive happens in my life. To stop saying why and start saying why not! Stop over thinking situations. I mentally complicate everything. I am way too hyper sensitive. I can get way to high when things are good and just totally hit bottom if something...
    newlifeforme73 newlifeforme73 41-45, M 6 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    Just binged on books

    and movies. Now all I want is to run away and be loved. Why do I do this to myself? In moderation (as with everything) I guess it's ok. But in huge does I just get pangs of loneliness and feelings of what I'm missing out on. My heart is just fluttering away like a restless...
    js246 js246 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2015

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    I don't consider myself a strong person

    because I don't have the strength to give up and tell myself that I cannot do something or change someone
    mikhan1337 mikhan1337 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Dear Me, I hate you,

    You deserve the pain, Your imperfect, You'll never be good enough I hope you die.
    CharlieLoveIrwin CharlieLoveIrwin 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 18

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    Perhaps I'm too open in my writing on

    experience project. So many are unappreciative of a young woman expressing herself.
    Astrucbmt Astrucbmt 22-25, F 15 Responses Jul 20, 2015

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    I'm always hating on myself.

    I over think things and act like they are so much worse then they are. I don't know why I do this. It makes me feel annoying.
    katelynn210 katelynn210 18-21, F 7 Responses Oct 2, 2015

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    I hate my overactive imagination.

    . . I am also jealous, worrisome, insecure, and I have self-esteem problems. . . this mixture is a bad. . . combo in new relationships. I can easily picture the guy I like with some other girl, even if I am the only one he sees. I am trying my best to trust people. . . to stop...
    RebekahWriter13 RebekahWriter13 31-35, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    Priorities and boundaries are an unknown

    spectrum I have yet to define.   The what and who to put first  The where and where not to explore.  Constantly comparing  the life I have and the life I soon wish to posess.  I am more than what meets the eye and I have mountains of wisdom to embark on this world.  I...
    thedopestdrug thedopestdrug 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2015

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    Is it possible to be addicted to finding new

    rock bottoms? Just when I think I've hit one and start to get back up I somehow end up finding a new rock bottom. It's flipping exhausting. I should kick my self in the *** and just get on with life but I feel so unmotivated. I can not be bothered with life anymore. I can't even...
    js246 js246 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 15

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    Motivation is very low at the moment

    and just dragging myself out of bed is becoming a chore...
    UnusualFrosch UnusualFrosch 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 15

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    Don't you hate when you try to have a

    conversation with yourself and you are told to shut up. :/
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 3 Responses Aug 14, 2014

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    Yesterday I made a post in the "I Am My Own

    Worst Enemy" group concerning a man that is too self involved to care about me for more than a few days at a time. I've always put the blame on myself for not being good enough for him over and over again. He's the same guy I made a "I Miss You" post about a couple of months ago...
    MsJessicaRabbit MsJessicaRabbit 26-30, F 6 Responses Jan 19

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    Yesterday again I chose to feel rejection

    and self-pity instead of just telling my partner '"I would like to talk to you" when she was doing something else. My indulgence for victimism, a tendency I have fought a lot lately against, is stronger than I believed. So I closed in my shell and made her feel worried and sad...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 30, 2015

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    I don't want my happiness to depend on someone,

    which was the case with my ex and probably why I'm so broken now. My best friend said she is worried about me. That since my ex I have been constantly down, I've shut myself off and she thinks I'm going to do something stupid. Her words hit me hard because she is 100% right...
    EverlyLeex EverlyLeex 18-21, F Jan 23

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    Nothing scares me more

    than being alone with my own thoughts..
    OneMoreBrokenSoul OneMoreBrokenSoul 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 13, 2015

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    I just feel so broken inside

    and Im dying and no one can see it. And at the same time I don't want them to see it. I got used to hiding my pain so much and I knew it caused more pain inside than asking for help. I used to cry a lot as a child. I made a lot of problems and I caused chaos and stress to my...
    58maria85 58maria85 18-21, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I can't sleep! Why is it my mind starts going

    crazy the second I try going to bed?
    lylely81 lylely81 31-35, F 6 Responses Aug 30, 2015

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    I need to start thinking about the consequences

    of my actions, because i've hurt too many people. And i've been careless. At the same time, I would appreciate if you could refrain from being passive aggressive, it is not something I tolerate. I didn't ask for you to love me. It's not my fault that I don't love you. Just...
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 18-21, F 2 Responses May 12, 2015

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    I've lost the old me

    and I miss her dearly... So hyper, so happy and had no care in the world...
    UnusualFrosch UnusualFrosch 18-21, F 9 Responses Sep 22, 2015

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    I love being alone, but I get

    so lonely, does anyone else feel this?
    melodyfey melodyfey 18-21, F 8 Responses Dec 9, 2014

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    I, I.In school i act bitchy

    and confident and conceded because, I don't want anyone to know I'm insecure or weak.
    CharlieLoveIrwin CharlieLoveIrwin 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 18

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    Without a doubt, I am.

    I know exactly how to stop letting myself get used, it's easy, just don't go out alone to parties where I don't know anyone. If i'm at a party with friends, nothing happens. It's not even that they have to stop anything from happening, I'm simply a different person, I'm always...
    hayliepartychick hayliepartychick 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 19, 2014

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    Dear.... Remember when you created me?

    You said you needed a friend; you needed a support system. You needed a place to get away..from yourself. You wanted peace; you wanted stability and compassion because nothing and no one in the world was capable enough to see you for you, understand you, tolerate you, sit with...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 29, 2015

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    I put myself down a lot :(

    and people put me down :( I take medication for it :(
    MinnyMouses MinnyMouses 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 11

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