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I Am My Own Worst Enemy

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    RainSword RainSword 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 16, 2014

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    Caffeine will be the death of me.

    My heart gets sore and lungs get really sore somtimes, I can barely walk up a hill without being out of breath because of my weak heart. I'm too addicted to stop
    josef2000 josef2000 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 11

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    I live too much for pleasure,

    and it's interfering too much with my grades in college. I always seem to make time for things like video games by cutting into the time I should be sleeping, and then I have to focus on staying awake in class rather than focusing on what the professor is saying.
    KingLaserDestroyer KingLaserDestroyer 18-21, M 1 Response May 9

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    I recently started seeing someone

    as my marriage is not in a great place! I have a huge connection with this guy! So confused
    jennipenni78 jennipenni78 36-40, F 2 Responses May 6

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    The whole month of March

    and April I was in and out of a mental hospital. I hear voices. I see things that aren't real but look so descriptive. I have severe depression, anxiety, and a very severe panic disorder. I am my own worst enemy.
    cassidywhatx cassidywhatx 13-15, F 3 Responses May 3

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    I really wish I knew how to handle my emotions

    and situations better. -feeling really down on myself.
    createmeover createmeover 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    " You are your own worst enemy.

    If you can learn to stop expecting impossible perfection, in yourself and others, you may find the happiness that has always eluded you" - Lisa Kleypas , Love in the Afternoon I have to learn to remove all these negative thoughts in my head... And apply this quote more to my...
    Aubexile Aubexile 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 21, 2014

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    Darling, Open your eyes.

    You are not made up of those words that hurt you. Or that number on that scale. Or the expectations you feel you will never meet. You are made up of nothing more than you. Simply beautiful, wonderfully unique you. You are a lovely complex soul. An individually fascinating...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 7 Responses Feb 18

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    Whenever I try to tell myself

    that I would change for the better . Things just get so harder , seems like your too lazy enough to do task that can help you built a better you. I guess I really do sucks at planning things ..
    gowybry gowybry 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    After being in therapy

    for quite some time now, I see that other people think highly of me and I get told that I am cute and adorable. I spend so much time getting ready everyday to make myself look as good as possible and I spend so much time looking in the mirror (not in a conceited way) trying to...
    Missprincessgabby Missprincessgabby 16-17, F 9 Responses Aug 14, 2014

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    So I am in seventh grade

    and my friend is a freshman in high school,I sometimes over analyze things and think she hate's me and Nya our friend who's in my grade.
    alyssanar123 alyssanar123 13-15, F Apr 20

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    I love being alone, but I get

    so lonely, does anyone else feel this?
    melodyfey melodyfey 18-21, F 8 Responses Dec 9, 2014

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    I convince myself to believe

    that I am not worthy of things I've felt fully worthy of before. At times I truly don't believe in myself.
    clamthatjams clamthatjams 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I have got to stop letting people stress me out.

    But given a lifetime of shut up and take it it's easier said than done. I have keep how stressed and depressed I am a secret so long, that no one in my life really sees how past the breaking point I am
    Wantfreedom67 Wantfreedom67 46-50, F 3 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    I talk to myself in my head.

    ..daily...it seems like all the time. Most of it is negative crap. How stupid, fat, unloveable, pathetic I am...how I'm not pretty enough, smart enough, thin enough, good enough, etc. It's tiring. I can't imagine letting another person talk to me like that & putting up with...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 4 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    2:25am I can't sleep.

    .....................
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 4 Responses Apr 17

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    I really don't know who I am anymore.

    I know changes in my life need to be made and so desperately want them but always end up finding an excuse or reason not to make them. I convince myself that things are ok for so long and then end up having a really bad night like tonight. I hate me for pitying myself and end up...
    lu3elle79 lu3elle79 36-40, F 14 Responses Aug 2, 2014

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    When I was young, I used to read about Swami

    Vivekananda, and about Lord Gautam Buddha, that how Life should be lived, how they lived their lives, how I can set my future Goals. I used to think that One day, I will be a Monk like them. I also was inspired by Netaji Subhash Chandra Bose. They all made up my whole world till...
    Islav Islav 18-21, M Apr 26

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    I'm wish I could stop overthinking everything.

    I finally got the guy I like to hang out with me. He asked me if he could kiss me instead of saying yes like I wanted to. I couldn't help but think why. Why does he want to kiss me; I mean I'm nothing special. This is our first time hanging out and you barely know me so why...
    Brimwalker Brimwalker 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    I feel like I can't trust anyone.

    I gave up on myself, so others gave up on me too. I did this to myself. I just hate that I did :/ I wish I could go back in time...I just wish there was a way to fix this. A way to not feel like a psychopath. Why the hell would I push everyone who cares about me away?! Why would...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 20

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    Sometimes I think I'm the reason

    for the bad things that happen in my life. it's as if I'm having a mental war with my self my only enemy is me
    TedDoesntCompare TedDoesntCompare 18-21, M 4 Responses May 10

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    In Neglect, Thank You Robert Frost.

    They leave us to the way we took, as two in whom they were proved mistaken, that we sit sometimes in the wayside nook, with mischievous, vagrant, seraphic look, and try if we cannot feel forsaken.
    SilentBluemoon SilentBluemoon 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2013

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    Sometimes I just wish I was someone completely

    different.... Sometimes I just can't handle it.. :'(
    NessD98 NessD98 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 8, 2014

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    My stupid decisions led to three people being

    imprisoned. I feel like a murderer.
    lex4593 lex4593 16-17, F 7 Responses May 3

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    I'm at that very discouraged mood again.

    I feel like no matter what I do, I'll never be successful because everyone's better than me. No matter what it is, modeling, photography or art in general. I'll never get recognition either; ****, most of my friends forget my name
    SammiSakura SammiSakura 13-15, F 4 Responses May 4

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    I hate myself. I want to kill myself.

    Death feels like the one thing that could comfort me at this point. I'm overweight. I'm unattractive. I don't have nice things. The only thing I have going for me is that I'm reasonably smart and I am good at hiding emotions. A lot of people think they are my friends when I...
    DrGrilledCheese DrGrilledCheese 13-15, M 4 Responses Apr 6

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    I'm an extreme over thinker.

    (Call me pretty? I spend legit 2 hours over thinking if u just said that or u meant it) I have a low self confidence. (I really have no reason for it I just do dill with it) I tend to care for other more then myself leaving me at the point where I know nothing about myself (I...
    sixpackbookworm sixpackbookworm 13-15, F 8 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    I saw myself today hanging from a pole with a

    rope tied around my neck. This is getting out of hand. Ropes were all around me.
    allie724 allie724 16-17, F 8 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    Don't you hate when you try to have a

    conversation with yourself and you are told to shut up. :/
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 3 Responses Aug 14, 2014

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    This was my first experience I shared on ep

    four years ago. Things about me has changed I am much more confident but apart me still carries this sadness. It sucks to say that I think it will always be with me. In certain aspects I am still my enemy. I've never been good at standing up for myself correctly and still shows...
    alostone alostone 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    Owlslovetea Owlslovetea 18-21, M 1 Response May 6

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    I can't stop them, these thoughts

    that rage in my head. They scream betrayal of those around me. They scream I'm worthless. They scream that there's no hope. They keep screaming and screaming and there's just no end. I wake up and corrupt myself thinking about how much I've let people down. I think back to the...
    bunnyXbunny bunnyXbunny 26-30, M 3 Responses May 2

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    Without a doubt, I am.

    I know exactly how to stop letting myself get used, it's easy, just don't go out alone to parties where I don't know anyone. If i'm at a party with friends, nothing happens. It's not even that they have to stop anything from happening, I'm simply a different person, I'm always...
    hayliepartychick hayliepartychick 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 19, 2014

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    I have recently decided to stop being my own

    worst enemy. I have recently decided to try to change things for the better and care more about myself.
    saddeena saddeena 41-45, F 11 Responses May 3, 2014

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    Maihowl Maihowl 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 9

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    I need to start thinking about the consequences

    of my actions, because i've hurt too many people. And i've been careless. At the same time, I would appreciate if you could refrain from being passive aggressive, it is not something I tolerate. I didn't ask for you to love me. It's not my fault that I don't love you. Just...
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 2 Responses May 12

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    I cant tell the difference between those with

    good or bad intentions anymore so I push everyone away. Its easier to lose control and break down when there's no one around to watch.
    Socalsunset Socalsunset 22-25, F 4 Responses May 8

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    Owlslovetea Owlslovetea 18-21, M May 6

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    I hate myself. I hate the battles I have to

    put up with I cut to punish myself for being such a mistake But that doesn't even work If I killed myself, would it work?
    TheDemonsInside TheDemonsInside 13-15, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    I was inspired to dress my brown owl in a cap

    'n gown and round spectacles, but then it just scratched me and flew away with my cat. What an *******...
    biggunsatx biggunsatx 41-45, M 7 Responses Apr 21

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    Yes.. I'm my own worst enemy.

    Because the greatest & the hardest battle is to fight with our own soul i.e. To fight with the evil inside within ourselves.
    IntrovertGirl99 IntrovertGirl99 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I hate myself so much.

    Just when I think I'm getting better, I drag myself back down again. I don't know why I do this to myself. I try and try to be happy, and it never ******* works! I always have to ruin things for myself.
    IntoxicatedLies IntoxicatedLies 16-17, M 3 Responses May 10

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    Frustrating

    i do destructive things to myself all the time. not only do i abuse alcohol and drugs. i smoke, eat horrible foods, and tan. and these are just a few things. on top of all of this, i'm a self mutilator. i'm destroying myself. and right now. nothing of significance has happened...
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 17 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    I'm not suicidal but I think I beat myself down

    for all the mistakes I've done. For all the things I did and did not do. For what I am and what I am not. I am my own worst enemy and it's hindering my happiness.
    sugarprincess23 sugarprincess23 22-25, F 6 Responses May 30, 2014

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    The only person I've ever fought in my whole

    life was myself. It will drive you mad!
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 8, 2014

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    I've been thinking and i realize

    that im not worried about what other see in me and the haunting thought aren't my fear of what others think its what i think of myself... the only thing i worry that people think about me is that im fat. other then that all my dislikes about myself are my own. no ones ever told...
    Sagey47 Sagey47 18-21, F 2 Responses May 7

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