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I Am My Own Worst Enemy

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    I always think the worst of myself -

    that I'm fat, that I'm ugly, that I'm a bad friend, a bad wife etc. I get so sick of these thoughts but they are so hard to shift and I don't believe people who tell me I'm not those things either. I feel like that makes it worse and drives people away from me.
    MrsRusty MrsRusty 31-35, F 6 Responses 3 days ago

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    Yes.. I'm my own worst enemy.

    Because the greatest & the hardest battle is to fight with our own soul i.e. To fight with the evil inside within ourselves.
    IntrovertGirl99 IntrovertGirl99 18-21, F 1 Response May 21

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    " You are your own worst enemy.

    If you can learn to stop expecting impossible perfection, in yourself and others, you may find the happiness that has always eluded you" - Lisa Kleypas , Love in the Afternoon I have to learn to remove all these negative thoughts in my head... And apply this quote more to my...
    Aubexile Aubexile 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 21, 2014

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    I need to start thinking about the consequences

    of my actions, because i've hurt too many people. And i've been careless. At the same time, I would appreciate if you could refrain from being passive aggressive, it is not something I tolerate. I didn't ask for you to love me. It's not my fault that I don't love you. Just...
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 18-21, F 2 Responses May 12

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    I feel like I can't trust anyone.

    I gave up on myself, so others gave up on me too. I did this to myself. I just hate that I did :/ I wish I could go back in time...I just wish there was a way to fix this. A way to not feel like a psychopath. Why the hell would I push everyone who cares about me away?! Why would...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 20

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    I love solitude. It leaves me with my thoughts

    and my daydreams. It lets me think of others and myself. In my mind it can either sound loud and boisterous or quiet and soundless. In solitude I can find myself and discover what I love and enjoy. In solitude I can discover what makes me furious and what makes me joyous. In...
    ZAP67 ZAP67 16-17, F Jul 16

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    My truck was just repossessed.

    I was told a few months ago that it could be done. Now I am trying to look online for the loan and it isn't there. Can I still payoff the full amount, if it is no longer there?
    JamesonOnRocks JamesonOnRocks 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Finding my self worth is probably my biggest

    struggle right now. The only time I seem to get mad anymore is when it's at myself. The other day I was so furious and frustrated that I punched the counter top really hard, hard enough to make me think I broke my hand.
    Corick Corick 18-21, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have got to stop letting people stress me out.

    But given a lifetime of shut up and take it it's easier said than done. I have keep how stressed and depressed I am a secret so long, that no one in my life really sees how past the breaking point I am
    Wantfreedom67 Wantfreedom67 46-50, F 3 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    I'm an extreme over thinker.

    (Call me pretty? I spend legit 2 hours over thinking if u just said that or u meant it) I have a low self confidence. (I really have no reason for it I just do dill with it) I tend to care for other more then myself leaving me at the point where I know nothing about myself (I...
    sixpackbookworm sixpackbookworm 13-15, F 8 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    I really wish I knew how to handle my emotions

    and situations better. -feeling really down on myself.
    createmeover createmeover 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    grungebby grungebby 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    Sometimes I think I'm the reason

    for the bad things that happen in my life. it's as if I'm having a mental war with my self my only enemy is me
    NiceGuyRi NiceGuyRi 18-21, M 4 Responses May 10

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    I do wrong when I want to do right.

    I hate when I want to love. I alienate when I want to draw nearer. I think it might be impossible to change when deep down I think I can't. Battling that doubt and fear is my constant struggle right now. Could love give me the security I need to change today?
    JoeMarvel JoeMarvel 22-25, M 4 Responses Jun 1

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    I judge and hurt myself more

    than any boy or girl could ever do to me I damage myself before anyone else can
    hashtagbitch hashtagbitch 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    So technically, that means

    that I am in fact sleeping with the enemy. hmmmm. Can't make this schtuff up I tell ya.
    LadyGallivanter LadyGallivanter 70+, F 5 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    I have everything I need to do anything I want.

    I am physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually strong. I am very witty and quick witted. I can learn any subject I take an interest in. If I succeed it will be through hard work and effort. The difference in being bad at something and being good at something is the time...
    Arorin Arorin 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 26

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    I have never like myself

    because all I see is a vague reflection barely visable in a cracked mirror as blood drips from my knuckles....
    samsthemann samsthemann 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 7

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    When a setback occurs,

    whether small or big. I catastrophize, overthink... then all the doubt creeps in and start thinking to myself why me. Self pity and believing i have no purpose in life and that i will never make it or amount to much. After a few days of calming myself down and try to get...
    Codianni Codianni 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 3

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    Darling, Open your eyes.

    You are not made up of those words that hurt you. Or that number on that scale. Or the expectations you feel you will never meet. You are made up of nothing more than you. Simply beautiful, wonderfully unique you. You are a lovely complex soul. An individually fascinating...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 7 Responses Feb 18

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    Unhappy yet can't seem to finally walk away

    for good... What's wrong with me?!
    LIgirl23 LIgirl23 22-25, F 8 Responses Jun 29

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    Yesterday again I chose to feel rejection

    and self-pity instead of just telling my partner '"I would like to talk to you" when she was doing something else. My indulgence for victimism, a tendency I have fought a lot lately against, is stronger than I believed. So I closed in my shell and made her feel worried and sad...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 30

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    I feel like I ruin things even

    before it gets started πŸ˜”πŸ˜”πŸ˜”
    kaykay199667 kaykay199667 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 1

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    The hardest part of waking up in the morning is

    remembering everything you were trying to forget last night. How can I run away from myself?
    raiee raiee 26-30 2 Responses Jul 19

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    I think I may be insane.

    Literally. For a little over 6 months now.. I have been sleeping with this older man. He he is 35 (in a week) and I am 23 ... He drives me insane. I have always been a very controlling person.. I wear the pants in the relationship.. Until I met this guy. He is exactly like me...
    LIgirl23 LIgirl23 22-25, F 10 Responses 4 days ago

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    I talk to myself in my head.

    ..daily...it seems like all the time. Most of it is negative crap. How stupid, fat, unloveable, pathetic I am...how I'm not pretty enough, smart enough, thin enough, good enough, etc. It's tiring. I can't imagine letting another person talk to me like that & putting up with...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 4 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    I would love to stop getting in my own way

    every time something positive happens in my life. To stop saying why and start saying why not! Stop over thinking situations. I mentally complicate everything. I am way too hyper sensitive. I can get way to high when things are good and just totally hit bottom if something...
    newlifeforme73 newlifeforme73 41-45, M 5 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    Don't you hate when you try to have a

    conversation with yourself and you are told to shut up. :/
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 3 Responses Aug 14, 2014

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    Because of my stupid mouth,

    i've lost my bestfriend, and i don't think anything will be the same.
    skyrrior skyrrior 16-17, F 4 Responses Jul 11

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    For the past few days I've been whatsapping my

    crush, the first day I asked him if I can join their event, and if yes what would be the appropriate time, he welcomes me and the next morning we were texting when arriving about location and time. Then after that I didn't bother him for a day, and on a second day, I came up...
    52hell 52hell 26-30, F Jul 23

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    I met someone online about six weeks ago.

    He's an amazing man almost too good to be true. We have talked every single day. And recently for the past month on the phone. He sends me photos he tells me about his day every single day he checks on me. We spent a lot of time talking about ex-girlfriend and someone that he...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Jul 17

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    silverxrose silverxrose 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 20

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    The only person I've ever fought in my whole

    life was myself. It will drive you mad!
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 8, 2014

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    How is it possible to be hurt before

    and yet crave this feeling when you know that this could never be happily ever after? Perhaps there is truth to the saying that pain is pleasure. Perhaps this is why i crave you and the pain that you could possibly bring.
    raiee raiee 26-30 Jul 3

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    Others judge me on what I show them.

    No matter how open or free speaking I am they will never know some things about me. But I know everything about myself. Some times, I can judge myself a little too roughly and be very critical about my actions and ideas. No one will ever know just how much I insult myself over...
    Schizotistic Schizotistic 22-25, M Jul 6

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    I was out with my cousin in Forbidden Planet

    (the coolest shop ever) and a really pretty woman walked past and of course being me I whispered 'damn' AFTER she had walked away and somehow my cousin heard me from the other side of the shop, grabbed me by my arm and dragged out the shop and repeatedly told me really loudly to...
    poppytippy poppytippy 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 19

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    I spend more time worrying about my life

    than doing anything to fix it.
    oceanwalker oceanwalker 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 19, 2014

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    I hate it when I make someone upset with by

    saying something bering way
    bruss32 bruss32 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 20

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    Maihowl Maihowl 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 9

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    How, do I word myself,

    how do I say for sure that I am what I am made out to be, when consistently I am forcing other people to carry an unnecessary
    okamikuso okamikuso 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 16

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    I have struggled all my life thinking

    and blaming others, then I finally accept my own part of my consequences... Yet here I am still losing to myself... The battles are different in each season of life, yet the enemy- myself seems to always win / and the irony is I don't feel any of my enemies victory! I am left...
    jaxon1975 jaxon1975 36-40, M 2 Responses Jul 10

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    Without a doubt, I am.

    I know exactly how to stop letting myself get used, it's easy, just don't go out alone to parties where I don't know anyone. If i'm at a party with friends, nothing happens. It's not even that they have to stop anything from happening, I'm simply a different person, I'm always...
    hayliepartychick hayliepartychick 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 19, 2014

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    I have anorexia and bulimia .

    I throw up what I do eat , which isn't even that much . Does anyone else do this ? I'm really fat . 180 pounds and I'm 5'6. I need to lose 80 pounds . I can't stand being fat . I punish myself when I eat a full meal and when I miss a workout .
    pompomsandbows pompomsandbows 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 29

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    Nothing scares me more

    than being alone with my own thoughts..
    OneMoreBrokenSoul OneMoreBrokenSoul 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 13

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    I love being alone, but I get

    so lonely, does anyone else feel this?
    melodyfey melodyfey 18-21, F 8 Responses Dec 9, 2014

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    Im 14 and I already have an addiction issue

    with drugs and alcohol and right now im crying and shaking because I keep thinking of everything that people have done to me and ive been sober for 11 months and right now I really want to get high and I just need some help and some experience to tise me back up
    ChrisDalmolin ChrisDalmolin 31-35, M 3 Responses Jul 10

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