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I Am My Own Worst Enemy

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    I spend more time worrying about my life

    than doing anything to fix it.
    oceanwalker oceanwalker 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 19, 2014

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    I have recently decided to stop being my own

    worst enemy. I have recently decided to try to change things for the better and care more about myself.
    saddeena saddeena 41-45, F 11 Responses May 3, 2014

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    Don't you hate when you try to have a

    conversation with yourself and you are told to shut up. :/
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 3 Responses Aug 14, 2014

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    I need to start thinking about the consequences

    of my actions, because i've hurt too many people. And i've been careless. At the same time, I would appreciate if you could refrain from being passive aggressive, it is not something I tolerate. I didn't ask for you to love me. It's not my fault that I don't love you. Just...
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 18-21, F 2 Responses May 12

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    If people thought of me the way I do myself;

    they'd never associate with me.
    Disobey247 Disobey247 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 13

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    RainSword RainSword 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 16, 2014

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    Feel like I'm in a daze today.

    No particular reason why just feel detached. Apathy at its best.
    hidden7 hidden7 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 5

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    I can't sleep! Why is it my mind starts going

    crazy the second I try going to bed?
    lylely81 lylely81 31-35, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    I post pretty pictures of my life

    but inside I have no idea what I'm doing with it.
    jadiss1 jadiss1 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    I wish was was JUST my own worst enemy.

    I'm also others. Im ucky to have great people in my life. they are cursed with me. my self destructive ways have left me in the empty end of a 9 year marrige. the outside of a huge party where almost everyone was invited. And alone desprately looking for any form of...
    ugolliii ugolliii 36-40, M 6 days ago

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    Perhaps I'm too open in my writing on

    experience project. So many are unappreciative of a young woman expressing herself.
    Astrucbmt Astrucbmt 22-25, F 15 Responses Jul 20

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 8

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    I convince myself to believe

    that I am not worthy of things I've felt fully worthy of before. At times I truly don't believe in myself.
    clamthatjams clamthatjams 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I love being alone, but I get

    so lonely, does anyone else feel this?
    melodyfey melodyfey 18-21, F 8 Responses Dec 9, 2014

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    I talk to myself in my head.

    ..daily...it seems like all the time. Most of it is negative crap. How stupid, fat, unloveable, pathetic I am...how I'm not pretty enough, smart enough, thin enough, good enough, etc. It's tiring. I can't imagine letting another person talk to me like that & putting up with...
    RubyLane RubyLane 46-50, F 4 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    I do wrong when I want to do right.

    I hate when I want to love. I alienate when I want to draw nearer. I think it might be impossible to change when deep down I think I can't. Battling that doubt and fear is my constant struggle right now. Could love give me the security I need to change today?
    JoeMarvel JoeMarvel 22-25, M 5 Responses Jun 1

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    My truck was just repossessed.

    I was told a few months ago that it could be done. Now I am trying to look online for the loan and it isn't there. Can I still payoff the full amount, if it is no longer there?
    JamesonOnRocks JamesonOnRocks 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 29

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    I've recently been thinking about memories,

    and specifically how they validate a certain experience. It all started a while ago, I was listening to the radio, and an ad came on. The ad was for a dental clinic, they said that the pain you experience there, will be forgotten. Which made me realize something. Yesterday was...
    TheLastOfTheSassMasters TheLastOfTheSassMasters 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 3

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    I kno i **** people around me

    and im sorry for that ...
    zaynbaby12 zaynbaby12 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I have got to stop letting people stress me out.

    But given a lifetime of shut up and take it it's easier said than done. I have keep how stressed and depressed I am a secret so long, that no one in my life really sees how past the breaking point I am
    Wantfreedom67 Wantfreedom67 46-50, F 3 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    I really don't know who I am anymore.

    I know changes in my life need to be made and so desperately want them but always end up finding an excuse or reason not to make them. I convince myself that things are ok for so long and then end up having a really bad night like tonight. I hate me for pitying myself and end up...
    lu3elle79 lu3elle79 36-40, F 14 Responses Aug 2, 2014

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    it's confusing when you can't determine

    if the signs are for you to give up or just a test to see how long you could hold on
    raiee raiee 26-30 2 Responses Aug 23

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    I have a tattoo on my forearm

    that reminds me to not be so negative. if you watch me long enough you'll noticd me clench my fist and flex the forearm. this is my "shake off the negative vibe" reminder. somedays i dont think in bad looking. other days i know im ugly. somedays i think im smart. other days...
    ugolliii ugolliii 36-40, M 7 Responses Aug 21

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    Sometimes I'm so disappointed in myself

    and never know what i want. I hate myself for never being outgoing but....
    12emilio12 12emilio12 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 20

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    So today I had to let her go.

    It's only been a couple of months but it was doomed from the beginning. My life is so busy and emotionally draining, I had nothing left for her at the end of the day. I need solitude. An amazing woman who needs more than I have to give her, it's better now than disappointing her...
    Needstounleash Needstounleash 31-35, M 4 Responses Aug 10

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    Nothing scares me more

    than being alone with my own thoughts..
    OneMoreBrokenSoul OneMoreBrokenSoul 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 13

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    I guess these are my thoughts in a poetic way.

    ... My heart betrays me yet I, not my heart, choose to let it do this over and over... The only cure to this is faith. Faith that I will be discerning of who to let stay in my heart and who to push out. For now it seems it's not yet a matter of who... But what... And the choices...
    Clatterwithoutlove Clatterwithoutlove 26-30 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    I feel that I hate myself.

    I feel as though that everything I do is so I can stay alone. Every time I lash out a person I feel sick. I just want to tell them I am sorry. But it never helps. It makes me feel worse because all I want is to be with someone I am interested and the last three days I destroyed...
    Jack0fAllTrades Jack0fAllTrades 22-25, M 3 Responses Aug 11

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    I'm an extreme over thinker.

    (Call me pretty? I spend legit 2 hours over thinking if u just said that or u meant it) I have a low self confidence. (I really have no reason for it I just do dill with it) I tend to care for other more then myself leaving me at the point where I know nothing about myself (I...
    sixpackbookworm sixpackbookworm 13-15, F 8 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    The only person I've ever fought in my whole

    life was myself. It will drive you mad!
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 8, 2014

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    Sometimes I wish I believed in a religion of

    some sort so that I could at least have a sense of purpose and obligation, something that would give me the daily strength to do whatever it takes to fulfill my life, right now pretty much all the goals I've set are taken care of, so I guess I'm feeling pretty jaded, and I hate...
    NewBeginnings00 NewBeginnings00 18-21, M 4 Responses Aug 12

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    What doesn't kill you,

    makes you stronger... (Or, it makes you wanna kill someone else)
    Nae82 Nae82 31-35, F 4 Responses Aug 6

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    After being in therapy

    for quite some time now, I see that other people think highly of me and I get told that I am cute and adorable. I spend so much time getting ready everyday to make myself look as good as possible and I spend so much time looking in the mirror (not in a conceited way) trying to...
    Missprincessgabby Missprincessgabby 18-21, F 9 Responses Aug 14, 2014

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    I have never like myself

    because all I see is a vague reflection barely visable in a cracked mirror as blood drips from my knuckles....
    samsthemann samsthemann 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 7

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    So technically, that means

    that I am in fact sleeping with the enemy. hmmmm. Can't make this schtuff up I tell ya.
    LadyGallivanter LadyGallivanter 41-45, F 4 Responses Jul 30

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    Yes.. I'm my own worst enemy.

    Because the greatest & the hardest battle is to fight with our own soul i.e. To fight with the evil inside within ourselves.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 21

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    It's been about a year

    since I last cut myself... Today I got angry and made over 54 cuts on my thighs
    cutsandbruises cutsandbruises 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 8

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    Sometimes I look in the mirror

    and I seriously wanna fight the guy looking back at me. Until I realize, I already am. That's everyone's struggle. Some choose to drink, some choose drugs, some choose p.orn, some choose video games; some choose any addiction they can latch themselves onto to help them "numb...
    Logic34 Logic34 31-35, M 4 Responses Aug 3

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    Finding my self worth is probably my biggest

    struggle right now. The only time I seem to get mad anymore is when it's at myself. The other day I was so furious and frustrated that I punched the counter top really hard, hard enough to make me think I broke my hand.
    Corick Corick 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 27

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    I feel like I can't trust anyone.

    I gave up on myself, so others gave up on me too. I did this to myself. I just hate that I did :/ I wish I could go back in time...I just wish there was a way to fix this. A way to not feel like a psychopath. Why the hell would I push everyone who cares about me away?! Why would...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 20

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    I have everything I need to do anything I want.

    I am physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually strong. I am very witty and quick witted. I can learn any subject I take an interest in. If I succeed it will be through hard work and effort. The difference in being bad at something and being good at something is the time...
    Arorin Arorin 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 26

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    Self sabotage ... That's what one counselor

    said to me ... That I self sabotaged myself ... Yea, I've done that quite a bit ... I don't know why. Caroline Myss talks about it as part of one's archetypes.
    bleubyrd bleubyrd 26-30, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    " You are your own worst enemy.

    If you can learn to stop expecting impossible perfection, in yourself and others, you may find the happiness that has always eluded you" - Lisa Kleypas , Love in the Afternoon I have to learn to remove all these negative thoughts in my head... And apply this quote more to my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 21, 2014

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    My husband is working overseas

    and found out that he was cheating on me, I called him one day and it's the woman who answered the phone telling me that my husband love her now not me, I felt like my blood pressure just shoots up to the roof but can not say a word. This is the first time that I've experience...
    contemplating15 contemplating15 51-55, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I always think the worst of myself -

    that I'm fat, that I'm ugly, that I'm a bad friend, a bad wife etc. I get so sick of these thoughts but they are so hard to shift and I don't believe people who tell me I'm not those things either. I feel like that makes it worse and drives people away from me.
    MrsRusty MrsRusty 31-35, F 5 Responses Jul 28

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