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I Am My Own Worst Enemy

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    My family constantly tells me "I need to be

    more open,and your so secretive" I just don't know have not to be. To have simple conversation with the people around me I have to fight with my self...the never-ending battle
    serenitiross123 serenitiross123 36-40, F 2 Responses May 10

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    Caffeine will be the death of me.

    My heart gets sore and lungs get really sore somtimes, I can barely walk up a hill without being out of breath because of my weak heart. I'm too addicted to stop
    josef2000 josef2000 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 11

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    Yes.. I'm my own worst enemy.

    Because the greatest & the hardest battle is to fight with our own soul i.e. To fight with the evil inside within ourselves.
    IntrovertGirl99 IntrovertGirl99 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I've been thinking and i realize

    that im not worried about what other see in me and the haunting thought aren't my fear of what others think its what i think of myself... the only thing i worry that people think about me is that im fat. other then that all my dislikes about myself are my own. no ones ever told...
    Sagey47 Sagey47 18-21, F 2 Responses May 7

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    I spend more time worrying about my life

    than doing anything to fix it.
    oceanwalker oceanwalker 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 19, 2014

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    In Neglect, Thank You Robert Frost.

    They leave us to the way we took, as two in whom they were proved mistaken, that we sit sometimes in the wayside nook, with mischievous, vagrant, seraphic look, and try if we cannot feel forsaken.
    SilentBluemoon SilentBluemoon 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2013

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    Don't you hate when you try to have a

    conversation with yourself and you are told to shut up. :/
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 3 Responses Aug 14, 2014

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    I'm an extreme over thinker.

    (Call me pretty? I spend legit 2 hours over thinking if u just said that or u meant it) I have a low self confidence. (I really have no reason for it I just do dill with it) I tend to care for other more then myself leaving me at the point where I know nothing about myself (I...
    sixpackbookworm sixpackbookworm 13-15, F 8 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    I saw myself today hanging from a pole with a

    rope tied around my neck. This is getting out of hand. Ropes were all around me.
    allie724 allie724 16-17, F 8 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    I often have nightmares

    and most of them come true and turn into real life
    marvinking marvinking 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 30

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    I'm at that very discouraged mood again.

    I feel like no matter what I do, I'll never be successful because everyone's better than me. No matter what it is, modeling, photography or art in general. I'll never get recognition either; ****, most of my friends forget my name
    SammiSakura SammiSakura 13-15, F 4 Responses May 4

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    aLadywithoutaclue aLadywithoutaclue 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    This was my first experience I shared on ep

    four years ago. Things about me has changed I am much more confident but apart me still carries this sadness. It sucks to say that I think it will always be with me. In certain aspects I am still my enemy. I've never been good at standing up for myself correctly and still shows...
    alostone alostone 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    I recently started seeing someone

    as my marriage is not in a great place! I have a huge connection with this guy! So confused
    jennipenni78 jennipenni78 36-40, F 2 Responses May 6

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    I hate myself. I want to kill myself.

    Death feels like the one thing that could comfort me at this point. I'm overweight. I'm unattractive. I don't have nice things. The only thing I have going for me is that I'm reasonably smart and I am good at hiding emotions. A lot of people think they are my friends when I...
    DrGrilledCheese DrGrilledCheese 13-15, M 4 Responses Apr 6

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    " You are your own worst enemy.

    If you can learn to stop expecting impossible perfection, in yourself and others, you may find the happiness that has always eluded you" - Lisa Kleypas , Love in the Afternoon I have to learn to remove all these negative thoughts in my head... And apply this quote more to my...
    Aubexile Aubexile 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 21, 2014

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    lonely with BPD. They didn't have that

    as a pre-like/me too selection except having a family member with schizophrenia...not me...not yet. 36, male, morbid sense of reality, predominantly misanthropic (which is a good push towards no *&#!, s'why I'm lonely, but it's not as simple as medicine and therapists and...
    SocialSurgery SocialSurgery 36-40, M 1 Response Apr 7

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    Owlslovetea Owlslovetea 18-21, M 1 Response May 6

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    Frustrating

    i do destructive things to myself all the time. not only do i abuse alcohol and drugs. i smoke, eat horrible foods, and tan. and these are just a few things. on top of all of this, i'm a self mutilator. i'm destroying myself. and right now. nothing of significance has happened...
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 17 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    I have recently decided to stop being my own

    worst enemy. I have recently decided to try to change things for the better and care more about myself.
    saddeena saddeena 41-45, F 11 Responses May 3, 2014

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    I feel guilty for wanting to live my own life

    because I feel like I am hurting the feelings of my family.. I am trapped 😔
    millylibscop millylibscop 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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    RainSword RainSword 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 16, 2014

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    Owlslovetea Owlslovetea 18-21, M May 6

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    I need to start thinking about the consequences

    of my actions, because i've hurt too many people. And i've been careless. At the same time, I would appreciate if you could refrain from being passive aggressive, it is not something I tolerate. I didn't ask for you to love me. It's not my fault that I don't love you. Just...
    CaitlinBuchan97 CaitlinBuchan97 16-17, F 2 Responses May 12

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    I talk to myself in my head.

    ..daily...it seems like all the time. Most of it is negative crap. How stupid, fat, unloveable, pathetic I am...how I'm not pretty enough, smart enough, thin enough, good enough, etc. It's tiring. I can't imagine letting another person talk to me like that & putting up with...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 4 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    I feel like I can't trust anyone.

    I gave up on myself, so others gave up on me too. I did this to myself. I just hate that I did :/ I wish I could go back in time...I just wish there was a way to fix this. A way to not feel like a psychopath. Why the hell would I push everyone who cares about me away?! Why would...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 20

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    I'm not suicidal but I think I beat myself down

    for all the mistakes I've done. For all the things I did and did not do. For what I am and what I am not. I am my own worst enemy and it's hindering my happiness.
    sugarprincess23 sugarprincess23 22-25, F 6 Responses May 30, 2014

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    2:25am I can't sleep.

    .....................
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 4 Responses Apr 17

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    Darling, Open your eyes.

    You are not made up of those words that hurt you. Or that number on that scale. Or the expectations you feel you will never meet. You are made up of nothing more than you. Simply beautiful, wonderfully unique you. You are a lovely complex soul. An individually fascinating...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 7 Responses Feb 18

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    delusi0nal delusi0nal 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    My stupid decisions led to three people being

    imprisoned. I feel like a murderer.
    lex4593 lex4593 16-17, F 7 Responses May 3

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    Sometimes I think I'm the reason

    for the bad things that happen in my life. it's as if I'm having a mental war with my self my only enemy is me
    TedDoesntCompare TedDoesntCompare 18-21, M 4 Responses May 10

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    I love being alone, but I get

    so lonely, does anyone else feel this?
    melodyfey melodyfey 18-21, F 8 Responses Dec 9, 2014

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    Sometimes I just wish I was someone completely

    different.... Sometimes I just can't handle it.. :'(
    NessD98 NessD98 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 8, 2014

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    I was inspired to dress my brown owl in a cap

    'n gown and round spectacles, but then it just scratched me and flew away with my cat. What an *******...
    biggunsatx biggunsatx 41-45, M 7 Responses Apr 21

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    I really wish I knew how to handle my emotions

    and situations better. -feeling really down on myself.
    createmeover createmeover 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I really don't know who I am anymore.

    I know changes in my life need to be made and so desperately want them but always end up finding an excuse or reason not to make them. I convince myself that things are ok for so long and then end up having a really bad night like tonight. I hate me for pitying myself and end up...
    lu3elle79 lu3elle79 36-40, F 14 Responses Aug 2, 2014

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    The whole month of March

    and April I was in and out of a mental hospital. I hear voices. I see things that aren't real but look so descriptive. I have severe depression, anxiety, and a very severe panic disorder. I am my own worst enemy.
    cassidywhatx cassidywhatx 13-15, F 3 Responses May 3

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    I cant tell the difference between those with

    good or bad intentions anymore so I push everyone away. Its easier to lose control and break down when there's no one around to watch.
    Socalsunset Socalsunset 22-25, F 4 Responses May 8

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    I convince myself to believe

    that I am not worthy of things I've felt fully worthy of before. At times I truly don't believe in myself.
    clamthatjams clamthatjams 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I hate myself so much.

    Just when I think I'm getting better, I drag myself back down again. I don't know why I do this to myself. I try and try to be happy, and it never ******* works! I always have to ruin things for myself.
    IntoxicatedLies IntoxicatedLies 16-17, M 3 Responses May 10

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    I can't stop them, these thoughts

    that rage in my head. They scream betrayal of those around me. They scream I'm worthless. They scream that there's no hope. They keep screaming and screaming and there's just no end. I wake up and corrupt myself thinking about how much I've let people down. I think back to the...
    bunnyXbunny bunnyXbunny 26-30, M 3 Responses May 2

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    Maihowl Maihowl 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 9

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    Counting down the seconds till I crash

    and burn again.... No medication in almost a week... Oops? I'm not sorry because I'm sick of taking pills to seem alright.. When it's probably masking just as much as I do.. Nobody really seems to see through the mask... I don't think anyone will.. Not until it's too late...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 20

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    I post pretty pictures of my life

    but inside I have no idea what I'm doing with it.
    jadiss1 jadiss1 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    My boyfriend (or ex now I suppose) left me a

    note leaving me during the week. We've had a really difficult weekend - both being petty but he was pretty cruel too. He has rang and apologised, even telling me my life is really good, he just wasn't happy. I've began moving back into my parents but my self esteem is shot. I...
    missdan missdan 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    I am feeling empty...

    . feeling a horrible distance between Allah (the God) and myself. I am so sorry for everything I did to push myself away from Allah. I am my own worst enemy. O Allah, I want to return to your path. Please forgive me and please accept my repentance, amen.