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I Am My Own Worst Enemy

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    "You" he said "are a terribly real thing in a

    terribly false world, and that, I believe, is why your in so much pain"
    everythingburns everythingburns 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 12, 2014

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    In Neglect, Thank You Robert Frost.

    They leave us to the way we took, as two in whom they were proved mistaken, that we sit sometimes in the wayside nook, with mischievous, vagrant, seraphic look, and try if we cannot feel forsaken.
    SilentBluemoon SilentBluemoon 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2013

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    The only person I've ever fought in my whole

    life was myself. It will drive you mad!
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 8, 2014

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    Sometimes I just wish I was someone completely

    different.... Sometimes I just can't handle it.. :'(
    NessD98 NessD98 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 8, 2014

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    I feel so horrible all the time

    because I feel as if I'm not good enough. I feel so unattractive. I compare myself to other girls wishing i could look like them. It's gotten so bad. I don't know what to do anymore.
    LItalia15 LItalia15 22-25, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    When I hear them calling me fat.

    I carve fat. When I hear them saying I'll go to hell. I cut. When I want to hide from my friends so they don't worry. I carve hide. When my mom yells. I cut. When everyone's joking around or doesn't even mean it it doesn't matter... I mean it inside. I am my own worst enemy and...
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    My boyfriend (or ex now I suppose) left me a

    note leaving me during the week. We've had a really difficult weekend - both being petty but he was pretty cruel too. He has rang and apologised, even telling me my life is really good, he just wasn't happy. I've began moving back into my parents but my self esteem is shot. I...
    missdan missdan 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    I really don't know who I am anymore.

    I know changes in my life need to be made and so desperately want them but always end up finding an excuse or reason not to make them. I convince myself that things are ok for so long and then end up having a really bad night like tonight. I hate me for pitying myself and end up...
    lu3elle79 lu3elle79 31-35, F 14 Responses Aug 2, 2014

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    I have got to stop letting people stress me out.

    But given a lifetime of shut up and take it it's easier said than done. I have keep how stressed and depressed I am a secret so long, that no one in my life really sees how past the breaking point I am
    Wantfreedom67 Wantfreedom67 46-50, F 2 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    RainSword RainSword 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 16, 2014

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    I convince myself to believe

    that I am not worthy of things I've felt fully worthy of before. At times I truly don't believe in myself.
    clamthatjams clamthatjams 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    Maihowl Maihowl 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 9

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    I post pretty pictures of my life

    but inside I have no idea what I'm doing with it.
    jadiss1 jadiss1 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    Eggyegg Eggyegg 46-50, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I am trapped im my own insecurities.

    im so unsure of myself that I cant function unless I have to. Being gay has changed me from the person I used to be. I know its from living a lie and not wanting to hurt anyone. I feel lost and hopeless a lot of the times.
    monteJ monteJ 31-35, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I spend more time worrying about my life

    than doing anything to fix it.
    oceanwalker oceanwalker 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 19, 2014

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    Whatever I do, I do wrong.

    At least my gf tells me so... This all is hitting the relationship so hard, that now we just don't talk anymore. And I had strong intent to marry her, and gave her a ring.
    Shirokij Shirokij 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 10

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    Im a pilot in training,

    and i think i may be the worst pilot there is i. Im bearly starting my training but i cant land a plane and i have tried at leat 7 times to land it and i still cant. Then afterwards when me and my instructor debrief i feel sad and cry.
    pilot7 pilot7 18-21, M 4 Responses a week ago

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    Frustrating

    i do destructive things to myself all the time. not only do i abuse alcohol and drugs. i smoke, eat horrible foods, and tan. and these are just a few things. on top of all of this, i'm a self mutilator. i'm destroying myself. and right now. nothing of significance has happened...
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 17 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    I've struggled with drug addiction

    for over half of my 38 years of life. I've achieved some great things to ultimately ruin the situation. I have two beautiful kids with a women that I treated so poorly while together. Now I miss her so much, but she wants as little to do with me as possible. I'm lucky to have my...
    IAmElectric IAmElectric 36-40, M 3 Responses Feb 10

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    It's true; I'll never really like myself.

    Everyone else does and I'll never understand it. Sometimes I wish I would cease to exist.
    Sewmuch2do Sewmuch2do 41-45, F 3 Responses Feb 20

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    I am so ugly and fat

    and disgusting. No matter what I do I can't lose weight. I was at 140lbs which was average for my height and then when I attempted suicide I was put on a bunch of meds that caused weight gain and metabolic syndrome and my thyroid was messed up and I went up to 312lbs and I'm...
    Thatonegreyeyedgirl Thatonegreyeyedgirl 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 18

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    Sometime i feel like i have be in my comfor zone

    for so long that i feel scare or unmotivate to try new things
    Saranoia96 Saranoia96 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I follow my hearts desire

    and it usually ends badly. Knowing this it never stops me. I always have a lucid moment when I know I'm crossing a line and can go back. But I never do. I have had panic attacks during those lucid moments and try to do the right thing. My hearts desire is much to strong and only...
    bongbabexo bongbabexo 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 25

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    I found my boyfriend cheated on me a month ago.

    I have been with him for almost two years, and we were good friend of each other since high school. I am a very independent girl, who would not attached my partner too much physically or emotionally. I prefer more spaces and more rooms for as dating couple. Last month, I found...
    LanaTiffany LanaTiffany 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 8

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    It's easy to be my own worst enemy.

    I don't have other enemies, and I wouldn't necessarily say that I'm an enemy to myself, but I do know I have more valid reasons to hate myself. I'm always in my own mind, in my own body. I will be for my entire life- there is no escape. I know all that I know about myself...
    RhinosaurusRex RhinosaurusRex 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I've concluded that I am no longer celebrating

    Valentine's Day. Every Valentine's Day I have found myself making it to the end of the day only to be massively disappointed and crying or fighting with my significant other...except for 2011, but that doesn't count. So, I'm just going to boycott the holiday. I get my hopes up...
    SupernovaxxGirl SupernovaxxGirl 26-30, F 8 Responses Feb 15

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    lanna620 lanna620 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2014

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    Darling, Open your eyes.

    You are not made up of those words that hurt you. Or that number on that scale. Or the expectations you feel you will never meet. You are made up of nothing more than you. Simply beautiful, wonderfully unique you. You are a lovely complex soul. An individually fascinating...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 9 Responses Feb 18

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    I literally put myself into bad moods just by

    thinking. And usually it's extremely unexpected. I'll be having a decent day, but then something totally minor and not really a big deal at all happens and I get so down on myself. It's awful because I know I need to relax and brush it off but my mind won't stop. I viciously...
    brimc7 brimc7 16-17, F 11 Responses Nov 5, 2014

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    " You are your own worst enemy.

    If you can learn to stop expecting impossible perfection, in yourself and others, you may find the happiness that has always eluded you" - Lisa Kleypas , Love in the Afternoon I have to learn to remove all these negative thoughts in my head... And apply this quote more to my...
    Aubexile Aubexile 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 21, 2014

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    Eugh don't u just hate it

    when u bring others down when u just want to be lifted up? Can't win right now, gotta get that happy me back somehow... Saying sorry just seems to make things worse it's like my whole life is slipping away and I just can't catch it.
    jupiter222 jupiter222 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 14

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    Danceofhours Danceofhours 41-45, M 5 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I don't tell anyone I'm alone

    because I'm embarrassed.
    sheshere sheshere 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 9

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    Sometimes I find myself in a spiral of self

    doubt. I'm fighting it but having been in a 9-5 graduate job for a while I seem to be getting stuck more often. I'm struggling to get my head around the competitive colleague relationships and find it difficult to talk to my partner. I don't have any other close friends I can...
    jupiter222 jupiter222 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 12

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    Im 16 and suffer from trichotillomania,

    nothing like feeling like an outcast EVERYWHERE
    ifeelyourpainn ifeelyourpainn 16-17, F Jan 31

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    I am my darkest fear.

    I am my deepest, darkest secret. Deep down I'm a bad person. But don't I deserve a second chance too? Don't I deserve to be happy? What did I ever do to make everyone hate me?
    AmericaFischer AmericaFischer 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 15

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    I'm a bi girl, still in the closet.

    I have a crush on my female teacher and I'm in love with my best friend. I'm selfharm because of all of this and I just want someone to talk to? Anyone? x
    katemicheal katemicheal 16-17, F 10 Responses Feb 19

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    I have recently decided to stop being my own

    worst enemy. I have recently decided to try to change things for the better and care more about myself.
    saddeena saddeena 41-45, F 11 Responses May 3, 2014

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    I'm not suicidal but I think I beat myself down

    for all the mistakes I've done. For all the things I did and did not do. For what I am and what I am not. I am my own worst enemy and it's hindering my happiness.
    sugarprincess23 sugarprincess23 22-25, F 6 Responses May 30, 2014

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    I love myself at times ,

    But at times I hate myself
    nedyacbackwords nedyacbackwords 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    I'm always self harming

    and I'm only just admitting it after 3 years😓
    caits15 caits15 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    Without a doubt, I am.

    I know exactly how to stop letting myself get used, it's easy, just don't go out alone to parties where I don't know anyone. If i'm at a party with friends, nothing happens. It's not even that they have to stop anything from happening, I'm simply a different person, I'm always...
    hayliepartychick hayliepartychick 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 19, 2014

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    I saw myself today hanging from a pole with a

    rope tied around my neck. This is getting out of hand. Ropes were all around me.
    allie724 allie724 16-17, F 8 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    Don't you hate when you try to have a

    conversation with yourself and you are told to shut up. :/
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 3 Responses Aug 14, 2014

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    I'm an extreme over thinker.

    (Call me pretty? I spend legit 2 hours over thinking if u just said that or u meant it) I have a low self confidence. (I really have no reason for it I just do dill with it) I tend to care for other more then myself leaving me at the point where I know nothing about myself (I...
    sixpackbookworm sixpackbookworm 13-15, F 8 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    I have depression. It's so,

    so hard. Every day is a battle for survival against myself. The worst part is nobody seems to believe me.
    MasqueradeMe MasqueradeMe 13-15, F 5 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    I like to think that I am my worst critic,

    I think that's why people feel I'm really confident. I guess there's nothing you will say about me that I haven't told my self yet... Maybe even worse!
    waterfallll waterfallll 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 1

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    I really wish I knew how to handle my emotions

    and situations better. -feeling really down on myself.
    createmeover createmeover 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    everytime i look into mirror i would look

    directly into my teeth and critic why i doesn't appear like celebrity's teeth even i have used bracket for three years. Am i choosing a wrong dentist? or is it my dna that ugly? what am i supposed to do? i can't just ask my parent to give me money for bracket again.
    kikipopin kikipopin 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 19

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    After being in therapy

    for quite some time now, I see that other people think highly of me and I get told that I am cute and adorable. I spend so much time getting ready everyday to make myself look as good as possible and I spend so much time looking in the mirror (not in a conceited way) trying to...
    Missprincessgabby Missprincessgabby 16-17, F 9 Responses Aug 14, 2014

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    It's been almost 2 months.

    . I still love and miss my ex boyfriend who I was with AND living together for 5 years. He's got a new girl and I have a new guy. Does the pain ever stop?
    brokengirl2394 brokengirl2394 18-21, F 2 Responses