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I Am My Own Worst Enemy

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    I have recently decided to stop being my own

    worst enemy. I have recently decided to try to change things for the better and care more about myself.
    saddeena saddeena 41-45, F 13 Responses May 3

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    My boyfriend (or ex now I suppose) left me a

    note leaving me during the week. We've had a really difficult weekend - both being petty but he was pretty cruel too. He has rang and apologised, even telling me my life is really good, he just wasn't happy. I've began moving back into my parents but my self esteem is shot. I...
    missdan missdan 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 4

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    I sit here at my house with family in all the

    other rooms yet at times I still feel completely alone... I don't like the feeling I get it's almost as if I need to get out an be around people... I should feel comfortable when I'm alone but I don't ... I haven't been able to.
    siciliana91 siciliana91 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    "Choose your battles wisely,

    for no battle is worth sacrificing your soul" The greatest battles fought are fought from within. When or why I decided to go to war with myself I have often thought about it. I have become my own worse enemy, the path of self destruction in this endless war with myself has...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 8

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    I hate when I put myself down.

    ..I really do. But I just do. I feel so worthless and alone sometimes I want to just run away from it all. I've been depressed for 3 years..since my dad died when I was 14, and I just can't get happy anymore, no matter how hard I try nothing helps.
    500years 500years 16-17, F 10 Responses Aug 24

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    Frustrating

    i do destructive things to myself all the time. not only do i abuse alcohol and drugs. i smoke, eat horrible foods, and tan. and these are just a few things. on top of all of this, i'm a self mutilator. i'm destroying myself. and right now. nothing of significance has happened...
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 17 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    So I realize now that

    when people from strong opinions I have this massochistic joy in asking a question that causes the foundation of their position to crumble leaving them dumbfounded as they ponder my question
    JamisonKs JamisonKs 18-21, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm making a lot of bad decisions lately,

    consciously making them. What is my problem? Why do I feel the need to self destruct?
    lilHuman lilHuman 22-25, F 9 Responses Aug 20

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    I'm horny & on my period.

    The struggle..
    jaylax13 jaylax13 16-17, F Jun 22

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    I've never said or written these words to

    anyone before. I think I'm depressed and possibly suicidal. I'm afraid. I'm so alone.
    Chelyngra Chelyngra 31-35, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am sad. :( I am so lonely,

    I am exhausted but I can't sleep.
    Tigerlily53 Tigerlily53 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I just go back and forth in my head all day.

    I hate myself. Why am I so indecisive? I need to pick who I want to build my life with but they are both so good. I feel terrible everyday. I need to set a date, make up my mind, and start being happy again.
    pink1110 pink1110 22-25, F 7 Responses 5 days ago

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    I wish that every day

    now I didn't have to question whether or not the actions i'm taking are from good intentions, or from the urge in my head to set myself up for another breakdown, and another chance to give in to my daemons.
    sevenforasecret sevenforasecret 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    austintsnelson austintsnelson 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 4

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    How do I stop being the victim to myself

    and feeling like I am to everyone around me?
    thatoneinpain thatoneinpain 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    I personally hate hypocrites more

    than anything else in this world,but as it turns out, I'm one. I am the biggest hypocrite I know. Corruption is one of the biggest problems of my country, and personally, I think that corrupt cops should be thrown off the force. So, Friday night the cops pulled me over because I...
    rubeestr00 rubeestr00 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have a terrible overthinking complex

    that tears me apart when left to its own devices. I just recently started college and thought I was making progress towards being happy but my mind has been left to destroy me on several occasions. I just wish that I could love myself more but I have a hard time seeing myself as...
    brettrocks96 brettrocks96 18-21, M 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    That feeling of pure remorse,

    after eating junk late at night. The worst.
    imabouttoloosemymind imabouttoloosemymind 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    After being in therapy

    for quite some time now, I see that other people think highly of me and I get told that I am cute and adorable. I spend so much time getting ready everyday to make myself look as good as possible and I spend so much time looking in the mirror (not in a conceited way) trying to...
    Missprincessgabby Missprincessgabby 16-17, F 8 Responses Aug 14

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    I live a double life,

    I go to work in a good office act professional like I have my life together and when I leave I pop a few pills smoke some weed and stay out all night with the man I'm in love with.. We have rough passionate sex unlike anything I have ever experianced and I cover my bruises and...
    katharine8891 katharine8891 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 27

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    I spend more time worrying about my life

    than doing anything to fix it.
    oceanwalker oceanwalker 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 19

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    How do I dress like this

    for a costume
    sexyhot34 sexyhot34 18-21, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Laying here telling myself

    that he won't text me back because I'm a worthless piece of ****, that I do not deserve him, that I'm a **** up and shouldn't let him waste his time on me. In reality he is probably sleeping but my mind won't let me think rationally about anything anymore:(
    fallout07 fallout07 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    "You" he said "are a terribly real thing in a

    terribly false world, and that, I believe, is why your in so much pain"
    everythingburns everythingburns 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 12

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    I really don't know who I am anymore.

    I know changes in my life need to be made and so desperately want them but always end up finding an excuse or reason not to make them. I convince myself that things are ok for so long and then end up having a really bad night like tonight. I hate me for pitying myself and end up...
    lu3elle79 lu3elle79 31-35, F 16 Responses Aug 2

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    It's completely true - I am my own worst enemy.

    I have never hated anyone as much as I hate myself. There's certain things I do that make me question my own hearts existence. Something has made me who I am today and it's not hard to know what. It's the people who I have let inside. I have built walls around my isolated...
    MsTedious MsTedious 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    marissabrun803 marissabrun803 13-15, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    Hidden to go unnoticed.

    .. Hurt when no one notices.
    MissWorld33 MissWorld33 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 7

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    Sometimes I wonder what I'm doing with myself.

    I wonder am I going in the right directions? Is there a right direction? Is it even a matter of right or is it just a matter of mind. Does that even make sense? I kno what I want to do but I feel I'm too cowardly to go forward with it. The easy way. Why must it hurt the most?
    gypsisoul gypsisoul 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    So. This is what I thought about

    for quite a while. No one can really break me.. no one can actually hurt me. Except for myself. The things I say to myself are destructive, and when they came out of the mouths of others the words would be labeled as verbal abuse. I am the only one who can kill myself. And it...
    cjhakke cjhakke 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 16

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    Goodbye

    Most people, here on ep wont care about this. But I am typing this just to get it off my chest, anyway. People (my friends, now former coworkers, etc) always love the 'fun' Joey. No one likes the 'sad Joey'. Suffering from depression sucks. Mostly for me because I have to live...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Aug 2, 2013

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    My parents say there at the end of there wicket.

    I've put them through enough, but I don't know how to improve because I keep ruining things again. They don't deserve this, I've put them through so much, the guilt in my heart absolutely breaks, they say they don't know what to do, there ashamed, they will hardly speak to me. I...
    wei1ner wei1ner 13-15, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    IT'S NO SUPRISE TO ME I AM MY OWN WORST ENEMY!

    !!! *cough*... That's a song. So, uh, yeh. I'm my own worst enemy. I hold myself back and bring myself down when I know I shouldn't. I can't help it. I have two people inside me.
    LeonardFinch LeonardFinch 16-17, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    But It's Actually Quite A Positive Thing

    I actually get along great with myself. There's still a little subconscious clutter in there waiting to be burned through, but on the whole my brain is pretty cooperative. No thing and no person out there has the power to eff with my like my own brain can. Natural or...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 4 Responses May 24, 2012

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    I need someone to talk to

    so bad. I ruin everything I touch and every friend I ever had left me because I'm such a mess. I'm so alone please help if you can.
    ambernolastname ambernolastname 13-15, F 9 Responses Jul 31

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    Sometimes I just wish I was someone completely

    different.... Sometimes I just can't handle it.. :'(
    NessD98 NessD98 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 8

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    Everything I Do Holds Me Down

    Everyone always tells me I am a nice person and everything, but I refuse to believe them, and instead choose to believe that they are just trying to be nice. All the things I tell myself keep me from really doing what I want to do, but I just don't see myself as good enough. Out...
    Distanced Distanced 16-18, M 13 Responses Jan 10, 2007

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    I pull my own hair it's been going on

    for over a year and I don't know how to stop but I'm scared at how thin my hair has been getting
    borsch borsch 18-21, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Don't you hate when you try to have a

    conversation with yourself and you are told to shut up. :/
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 3 Responses Aug 14

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    Sometimes I look at myself

    and think...no wonder no one wants you around...
    suicideDepression suicideDepression 13-15, M 4 Responses Aug 24

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    I debate. With myself all the time

    and i get lost in my thoughts i let anger become my only emotion and i push everyone. Away i have one friend can someone help me im scared. And afraid i will be alone forever
    BloodDemon395 BloodDemon395 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    I'm 17, I'm gay, I can't be alone.

    I am incapable of expressing myself appropriately, I can be anti social, I am sarcastic, I am emotionally selfish, I am surrounded by the opportunity of amazing relationships, I find the most amazing friends, I find the most amazing guys, I am intelligent, I am athletic, I have...
    Zakarevsky Zakarevsky 16-17, M 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Without a doubt, I am.

    I know exactly how to stop letting myself get used, it's easy, just don't go out alone to parties where I don't know anyone. If i'm at a party with friends, nothing happens. It's not even that they have to stop anything from happening, I'm simply a different person, I'm always...
    hayliepartychick hayliepartychick 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 19

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    I was diagnosed with chronic depression about a

    year ago, along with schizophrenia. I am completely and utterly alone inside the oblivion that is my own mind.
    jess010869 jess010869 13-15, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    XSimplyXSuicideX XSimplyXSuicideX 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I sometimes feel like I live a double life.

    At work I'm the happy confident girl that always has a smile on her face and is always laughing. On my own I look in the mirror and feel disgust. I feel miserable all the time. The fake smile isn't even fooling me anymore
    bluesgem bluesgem 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 27

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    If I had the chance to drop off the face of the

    earth with nobody having any memory of me I would take it
    suicideDepression suicideDepression 13-15, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    In Neglect, Thank You Robert Frost.

    They leave us to the way we took, as two in whom they were proved mistaken, that we sit sometimes in the wayside nook, with mischievous, vagrant, seraphic look, and try if we cannot feel forsaken.
    SilentBluemoon SilentBluemoon 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2013

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    If tomorrow woman woke up,

    and decided they liked their bodies. Just think of how many industries would go out of business. We are all put on this earth to feel like absolute ****. Too bad it works.
    imabouttoloosemymind imabouttoloosemymind 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    It is difficult for me to have meaningful

    friendships... I kinda like a lot to be alone but then I find that my relationships with others decay easily. I have my two circle of friends but in none of them I feel completely part of. In college I know a lot of people and do all kinds of works with them...but when the...
    Hoenncreek Hoenncreek 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 16

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    I am so ****** up I always seem to ****

    something up I do not know what is wrong with me everyone hates me and I am wanting to get back at the people who destroyed me what is wrong with me. My kids are gone and I have nothing life is hell....
    dmsme dmsme 31-35, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Guys I had recently attempted suicide

    and was in Hospital I am now back to reality sorry everyone
    ticklishvampire ticklishvampire 13-15, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    I'm not suicidal but I think I beat myself down

    for all the mistakes I've done. For all the things I did and did not do. For what I am and what I am not. I am my own worst enemy and it's hindering my happiness.
    sugarprincess23 sugarprincess23 22-25, F 8 Responses May 30

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