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I Am My Own Worst Enemy

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    Don't you hate when you try to have a

    conversation with yourself and you are told to shut up. :/
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 3 Responses Aug 14

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    Sometimes I think why can't I just end it

    but then I think about all my friends and family and then I think about kid who have died because of sickness abusers other reasons and I say they would have killed to stay alive why waste something that they could never have then isay I am selfish for thinking I could died...
    nimy29 nimy29 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 14

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    I really don't know who I am anymore.

    I know changes in my life need to be made and so desperately want them but always end up finding an excuse or reason not to make them. I convince myself that things are ok for so long and then end up having a really bad night like tonight. I hate me for pitying myself and end up...
    lu3elle79 lu3elle79 31-35, F 18 Responses Aug 2

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    Sometimes I just wish I was someone completely

    different.... Sometimes I just can't handle it.. :'(
    NessD98 NessD98 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 8

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    "Choose your battles wisely,

    for no battle is worth sacrificing your soul" The greatest battles fought are fought from within. When or why I decided to go to war with myself I have often thought about it. I have become my own worse enemy, the path of self destruction in this endless war with myself has...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 8

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    i hate myself strait out.

    i have not anxiety but i just wanna ughh... i hate being that one person no one really cares about and that one person that tries hard to like idk how to put but like to be seen and i just dont. i hate that about myself that i have all these issues that i feel like i just need...
    SexyBeazt96 SexyBeazt96 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    My boyfriend (or ex now I suppose) left me a

    note leaving me during the week. We've had a really difficult weekend - both being petty but he was pretty cruel too. He has rang and apologised, even telling me my life is really good, he just wasn't happy. I've began moving back into my parents but my self esteem is shot. I...
    missdan missdan 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 4

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    I'm horny & on my period.

    The struggle..
    jaylax13 jaylax13 16-17, F Jun 22

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    I have had a headache all day.

    My throat is sore and I'm angry at the world. Angry at myself(always).
    OriginalJuli3 OriginalJuli3 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 11

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    I spend more time worrying about my life

    than doing anything to fix it.
    oceanwalker oceanwalker 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 19

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    As far as I can remember,

    I have always believed I am extremely unattractive. As a young child (4-6) I would cry at night because I thought I was so ugly. Now I am 21 and it has only got worse. I still cry myself to sleep many nights thinking of how ugly I am. When men hit on me or look at me I feel as...
    dragthewaters4 dragthewaters4 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 13

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    Danceofhours Danceofhours 36-40, M 5 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I'm not suicidal but I think I beat myself down

    for all the mistakes I've done. For all the things I did and did not do. For what I am and what I am not. I am my own worst enemy and it's hindering my happiness.
    sugarprincess23 sugarprincess23 22-25, F 8 Responses May 30

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    Without a doubt, I am.

    I know exactly how to stop letting myself get used, it's easy, just don't go out alone to parties where I don't know anyone. If i'm at a party with friends, nothing happens. It's not even that they have to stop anything from happening, I'm simply a different person, I'm always...
    hayliepartychick hayliepartychick 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 19

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    I never take or accept criticism.

    ..I don't let it bother me, constructive is always accepted lol. But I am always the hardest on myself. I am always picking flaws in myself and my work especially. If I take too long doing something or if I don't get it first time. I know I can do it and that's what makes me...
    ultimatehacker ultimatehacker 26-30, M 3 Responses Oct 16

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    " You are your own worst enemy.

    If you can learn to stop expecting impossible perfection, in yourself and others, you may find the happiness that has always eluded you" - Lisa Kleypas , Love in the Afternoon I have to learn to remove all these negative thoughts in my head... And apply this quote more to my...
    Aubrey0914 Aubrey0914 22-25, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    Kellyqueen Kellyqueen 41-45, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Everything I Do Holds Me Down

    Everyone always tells me I am a nice person and everything, but I refuse to believe them, and instead choose to believe that they are just trying to be nice. All the things I tell myself keep me from really doing what I want to do, but I just don't see myself as good enough. Out...
    Distanced Distanced 16-18, M 13 Responses Jan 10, 2007

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    I really wish I knew how to handle my emotions

    and situations better. -feeling really down on myself.
    createmeover createmeover 18-21, F 7 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    terryb954 terryb954 46-50, T 5 days ago

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    I'm making a lot of bad decisions lately,

    consciously making them. What is my problem? Why do I feel the need to self destruct?
    lilHuman lilHuman 22-25, F 9 Responses Aug 20

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    I hate my life. I am a loser.

    No one loves and no will ever love me. In my 20's still living at home, have no degree, balding, and thin. The only thing I'm good at is drawing and writing songs well I think I am but no cares what I do. I mean that's all know I've been drawing since I was 4 and enjoyed but...
    nolovelost2388 nolovelost2388 26-30, M 9 Responses 1 day ago

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    I live a double life,

    I go to work in a good office act professional like I have my life together and when I leave I pop a few pills smoke some weed and stay out all night with the man I'm in love with.. We have rough passionate sex unlike anything I have ever experianced and I cover my bruises and...
    katharine8891 katharine8891 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 27

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    Yeah I pretty much hate

    who I've become... A disappointment and a screw up...And it's interesting because people seem to still stick around when I don't even want to be around myself.. I am literally my own worst enemy.. I hate myself and I let the voices in my head consume my life.. They pretty much...
    catho catho 16-17, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I don't know what I'm doing.

    I believe I am a smart easy going seventeen year old guy. I really hate conflict and negative things. I have very low self confidence and I really dislike a lot about me and it ruins what I feel like I'm capable of. I know it's a over used statement with adolescents, but I hate...
    SmartEasyGoingUpsetGuy SmartEasyGoingUpsetGuy 16-17, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    As of tonight my confidence level has hit 0.

    I feel like there should be firework or something....
    LostBoy9236 LostBoy9236 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 17

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    Frustrating

    i do destructive things to myself all the time. not only do i abuse alcohol and drugs. i smoke, eat horrible foods, and tan. and these are just a few things. on top of all of this, i'm a self mutilator. i'm destroying myself. and right now. nothing of significance has happened...
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 17 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    After being in therapy

    for quite some time now, I see that other people think highly of me and I get told that I am cute and adorable. I spend so much time getting ready everyday to make myself look as good as possible and I spend so much time looking in the mirror (not in a conceited way) trying to...
    Missprincessgabby Missprincessgabby 16-17, F 10 Responses Aug 14

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    nataly160 nataly160 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 27

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    If i think someone is coming to close to seeing

    my dark side and really getting to know me i push them away
    xallisaa xallisaa 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I convince myself to believe

    that I am not worthy of things I've felt fully worthy of before. At times I truly don't believe in myself.
    clamthatjams clamthatjams 22-25, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Why does everyone leave me ?

    I feel so alone that nobody likes me and everyone hates me but I'm starting to give up on myself everyday...
    Hazel888 Hazel888 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I pay support only time I always have

    and if I miss a payment I make it up asap. My ex is always reminding me that I need to pay even though I have reminders set and again never miss a payment. Is this to be expected or does anyone have suggestions to calm her down so she feels she does not have to remind me every...
    americoma americoma 26-30, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Hidden to go unnoticed.

    .. Hurt when no one notices.
    MissWorld33 MissWorld33 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 7

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    I used to always get upset

    and defensive quickly when people critisize me, sometimes I still do. even if they're joking around with me, some days I brush it off, other days I have a hard time getting over it. it's like, I feel like I'm being attacked when people do that, when in real life they're just...
    bbygrldifferent bbygrldifferent 13-15, F 13 hrs ago

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    I have anxiety and I unintentionally make my

    myself think the worst possible thing and It makes me paranoid
    sissyemmy13 sissyemmy13 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 12

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    Frankly speaking, I have learnt English

    for nearly 10 years, but I still can't talk with a foreigner in English freely. I'm really afraid of making mistakes in front of others. Although there are many students from American or Europe in my university, I don't even have the courage to make friends with them. I just...
    HankZhang HankZhang 22-25, M 18 hrs ago

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    He used me and I got hurt

    now I can't get over him
    ainepat ainepat 26-30, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    Overthinking, moodiness,

    laziness, procrastination, caring too much about what others may thing, difficulty to say no...these are my enemies in life.
    Danceofhours Danceofhours 36-40, M 1 Response Jul 30

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    I would love to stop getting in my own way

    every time something positive happens in my life. To stop saying why and start saying why not! Stop over thinking situations. I mentally complicate everything. I am way too hyper sensitive. I can get way to high when things are good and just totally hit bottom if something...
    newlifeforme73 newlifeforme73 36-40, M 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    RainSword RainSword 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 16

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    Whenever I get told I'm useless I hate my self

    for it. Whenever I try to defend myself It gets thrown back in my face...I can't win....
    jinxxedforlife jinxxedforlife 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    "You" he said "are a terribly real thing in a

    terribly false world, and that, I believe, is why your in so much pain"
    everythingburns everythingburns 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 12

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    I know one has to find inner confidence,

    but I find that almost impossible when I have no outside influences giving me any positive feedback. Not that I am receiving negative interactions, per se, but I always assume that nothing positive must mean something negative. Maybe from the old adage "if you can't say...
    1976meme 1976meme 36-40, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    lanna620 lanna620 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    austintsnelson austintsnelson 16-17, M 2 Responses Aug 4

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    It's completely true - I am my own worst enemy.

    I have never hated anyone as much as I hate myself. There's certain things I do that make me question my own hearts existence. Something has made me who I am today and it's not hard to know what. It's the people who I have let inside. I have built walls around my isolated...
    MsTedious MsTedious 16-17, F 4 Responses Aug 27

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    Goodbye

    Most people, here on ep wont care about this. But I am typing this just to get it off my chest, anyway. People (my friends, now former coworkers, etc) always love the 'fun' Joey. No one likes the 'sad Joey'. Suffering from depression sucks. Mostly for me because I have to live...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Aug 2, 2013

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    paranoia is the worst.

    obsessing over nothing. obsessing over others opinions and irrelevant thoughts.
    LonelyThoughts LonelyThoughts 18-21, F Oct 13

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    I have recently decided to stop being my own

    worst enemy. I have recently decided to try to change things for the better and care more about myself.
    saddeena saddeena 41-45, F 12 Responses May 3

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    I always try my best to try

    and understand people, but the real question is "have I tired my best to understand myself." People I've met have explained me to "dynamic" and never typical. I hate so many kinds of people but I realize when I fake to be someone else, the real me is everything I hate. Sure you...
    DexterPyro DexterPyro 13-15, M Oct 16

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    I talk to myself in my head.

    ..daily...it seems like all the time. Most of it is negative crap. How stupid, fat, unloveable, pathetic I am...how I'm not pretty enough, smart enough, thin enough, good enough, etc. It's tiring. I can't imagine letting another person talk to me like that & putting up with...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 6 Responses Sep 19

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    In Neglect, Thank You Robert Frost.

    They leave us to the way we took, as two in whom they were proved mistaken, that we sit sometimes in the wayside nook, with mischievous, vagrant, seraphic look, and try if we cannot feel forsaken.
    SilentBluemoon SilentBluemoon 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2013

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    It's so selfish I know,

    but the urge is just so strong. I'm beginning to be afraid of myself and how my impulsive actions might hurt the people around me. I don't know what's wrong with me, maybe I just need a release. But for now I will smile and try to be strong.