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I Am My Own Worst Enemy

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    My boyfriend (or ex now I suppose) left me a

    note leaving me during the week. We've had a really difficult weekend - both being petty but he was pretty cruel too. He has rang and apologised, even telling me my life is really good, he just wasn't happy. I've began moving back into my parents but my self esteem is shot. I...
    missdan missdan 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    It's easy to be my own worst enemy.

    I don't have other enemies, and I wouldn't necessarily say that I'm an enemy to myself, but I do know I have more valid reasons to hate myself. I'm always in my own mind, in my own body. I will be for my entire life- there is no escape. I know all that I know about myself...
    RhinosaurusRex RhinosaurusRex 18-21, F 5 Responses Feb 27

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    Not having a 'complete' childhood really ruined

    me. Seeing as I am ridiculously different from society destroys me. I don't know what every one else knows. I don't know how to do simple 'normal' things 'everyone' has ever done. My intelligence isn't up to date to society and my age.... This kind of thing has driven me mad and...
    legendofmustard legendofmustard 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 8

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    I feel like this because I admit I can be a bit.

    .. Well... Judgy. What I mean is I'm constantly judging people and I don't hide it well. I make a face sort of and I think if I just stopped I'd have a lot more friends or at least people would like me better so I try to work on it but it's hard.
    kenyakayabney kenyakayabney 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    Sometime i feel like i have be in my comfor zone

    for so long that i feel scare or unmotivate to try new things
    Saranoia96 Saranoia96 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 26

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    The only person that can tear me down is me

    always have been always will be
    LipsOfAnAngel89 LipsOfAnAngel89 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 2

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    RainSword RainSword 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 16, 2014

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    Im a pilot in training,

    and i think i may be the worst pilot there is i. Im bearly starting my training but i cant land a plane and i have tried at leat 7 times to land it and i still cant. Then afterwards when me and my instructor debrief i feel sad and cry.
    pilot7 pilot7 18-21, M 4 Responses Feb 21

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    I feel guilty for wanting to live my own life

    because I feel like I am hurting the feelings of my family.. I am trapped 😔
    millylibscop millylibscop 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I have recently decided to stop being my own

    worst enemy. I have recently decided to try to change things for the better and care more about myself.
    saddeena saddeena 41-45, F 11 Responses May 3, 2014

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    Frustrating

    i do destructive things to myself all the time. not only do i abuse alcohol and drugs. i smoke, eat horrible foods, and tan. and these are just a few things. on top of all of this, i'm a self mutilator. i'm destroying myself. and right now. nothing of significance has happened...
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 17 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    Eggyegg Eggyegg 46-50, F 3 Responses Feb 22

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    Danceofhours Danceofhours 41-45, M 5 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    Maihowl Maihowl 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 9

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    I have done a lot of things in my life

    that I will never forget and will always hate myself for. Most people have done things that are bad but not horrible. I wish there wee such things as time machines cause it's more that people bullying me, I bully myself. I had many enemies in my life but now I realise it's...
    HermioneGlasse HermioneGlasse 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    I would love to stop getting in my own way

    every time something positive happens in my life. To stop saying why and start saying why not! Stop over thinking situations. I mentally complicate everything. I am way too hyper sensitive. I can get way to high when things are good and just totally hit bottom if something...
    newlifeforme73 newlifeforme73 41-45, M 4 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    silverxrose silverxrose 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 10

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    In Neglect, Thank You Robert Frost.

    They leave us to the way we took, as two in whom they were proved mistaken, that we sit sometimes in the wayside nook, with mischievous, vagrant, seraphic look, and try if we cannot feel forsaken.
    SilentBluemoon SilentBluemoon 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2013

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    Sometimes I just wish I was someone completely

    different.... Sometimes I just can't handle it.. :'(
    NessD98 NessD98 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 8, 2014

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    The only person I've ever fought in my whole

    life was myself. It will drive you mad!
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 8, 2014

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    I talk to myself in my head.

    ..daily...it seems like all the time. Most of it is negative crap. How stupid, fat, unloveable, pathetic I am...how I'm not pretty enough, smart enough, thin enough, good enough, etc. It's tiring. I can't imagine letting another person talk to me like that & putting up with...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 4 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    Don't you hate when you try to have a

    conversation with yourself and you are told to shut up. :/
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 3 Responses Aug 14, 2014

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    I'm shackled by self inflicted emotional wounds.

    As if its not enough, i slash myself some more. I can't imagine any other way of life than self degradation. I'm speaking figuratively.
    ambrosia999 ambrosia999 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 3

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    I am trapped im my own insecurities.

    im so unsure of myself that I cant function unless I have to. Being gay has changed me from the person I used to be. I know its from living a lie and not wanting to hurt anyone. I feel lost and hopeless a lot of the times.
    monteJ monteJ 36-40, M 2 Responses Feb 23

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    I feel like I can't trust anyone.

    I gave up on myself, so others gave up on me too. I did this to myself. I just hate that I did :/ I wish I could go back in time...I just wish there was a way to fix this. A way to not feel like a psychopath. Why the hell would I push everyone who cares about me away?! Why would...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 20

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    I love myself at times ,

    But at times I hate myself
    nedyacbackwords nedyacbackwords 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    "You" he said "are a terribly real thing in a

    terribly false world, and that, I believe, is why your in so much pain"
    everythingburns everythingburns 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 12, 2014

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    I am feeling empty...

    . feeling a horrible distance between Allah (the God) and myself. I am so sorry for everything I did to push myself away from Allah. I am my own worst enemy. O Allah, I want to return to your path. Please forgive me and please accept my repentance, amen.
    PikluRin PikluRin 31-35, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I really don't know who I am anymore.

    I know changes in my life need to be made and so desperately want them but always end up finding an excuse or reason not to make them. I convince myself that things are ok for so long and then end up having a really bad night like tonight. I hate me for pitying myself and end up...
    lu3elle79 lu3elle79 31-35, F 14 Responses Aug 2, 2014

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    I'm an extreme over thinker.

    (Call me pretty? I spend legit 2 hours over thinking if u just said that or u meant it) I have a low self confidence. (I really have no reason for it I just do dill with it) I tend to care for other more then myself leaving me at the point where I know nothing about myself (I...
    sixpackbookworm sixpackbookworm 13-15, F 8 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    everytime i look into mirror i would look

    directly into my teeth and critic why i doesn't appear like celebrity's teeth even i have used bracket for three years. Am i choosing a wrong dentist? or is it my dna that ugly? what am i supposed to do? i can't just ask my parent to give me money for bracket again.
    kikipopin kikipopin 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 19

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    I am trying to make myself a better person

    but I keep on stopping myself. I somehow just find it hard to change myself into a better person as I am already a horrible persons and can't get used to the positive side. Please give me tips cause I need to be my own best friend instead of enemy. I will hopefully become a...
    HermioneGlasse HermioneGlasse 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 19

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    Oh god! I've been having this problem

    for ages. I just hate babies and I get pleasure by seeing them cry. Is this normal?
    shanss13 shanss13 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 8

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    I saw myself today hanging from a pole with a

    rope tied around my neck. This is getting out of hand. Ropes were all around me.
    allie724 allie724 16-17, F 8 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    I post pretty pictures of my life

    but inside I have no idea what I'm doing with it.
    jadiss1 jadiss1 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    It's true; I'll never really like myself.

    Everyone else does and I'll never understand it. Sometimes I wish I would cease to exist.
    Sewmuch2do Sewmuch2do 41-45, F 3 Responses Feb 20

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    I just thought of something.

    I keep my distance from people. truly I do. My friends say I'm too trusting. Thats what they see. what I want them to believe...sad thing is...my best friend doesn't truly know me. 14 years of her life and she's never saw the demon in me. she's never made eye contact with it or...
    ashuriiNikooru ashuriiNikooru 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    I have depression. It's so,

    so hard. Every day is a battle for survival against myself. The worst part is nobody seems to believe me.
    MasqueradeMe MasqueradeMe 13-15, F 5 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    Without a doubt, I am.

    I know exactly how to stop letting myself get used, it's easy, just don't go out alone to parties where I don't know anyone. If i'm at a party with friends, nothing happens. It's not even that they have to stop anything from happening, I'm simply a different person, I'm always...
    hayliepartychick hayliepartychick 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 19, 2014

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    I love being alone, but I get

    so lonely, does anyone else feel this?
    melodyfey melodyfey 18-21, F 8 Responses Dec 9, 2014

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    broken5940 broken5940 16-17, F 7 Responses Mar 10

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    After being in therapy

    for quite some time now, I see that other people think highly of me and I get told that I am cute and adorable. I spend so much time getting ready everyday to make myself look as good as possible and I spend so much time looking in the mirror (not in a conceited way) trying to...
    Missprincessgabby Missprincessgabby 16-17, F 9 Responses Aug 14, 2014

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    I convince myself to believe

    that I am not worthy of things I've felt fully worthy of before. At times I truly don't believe in myself.
    clamthatjams clamthatjams 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I'm a bi girl, still in the closet.

    I have a crush on my female teacher and I'm in love with my best friend. I'm selfharm because of all of this and I just want someone to talk to? Anyone? x
    katemicheal katemicheal 16-17, F 10 Responses Feb 19

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    I spend more time worrying about my life

    than doing anything to fix it.
    oceanwalker oceanwalker 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 19, 2014

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    Darling, Open your eyes.

    You are not made up of those words that hurt you. Or that number on that scale. Or the expectations you feel you will never meet. You are made up of nothing more than you. Simply beautiful, wonderfully unique you. You are a lovely complex soul. An individually fascinating...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 9 Responses Feb 18

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    lanna620 lanna620 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2014