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I Am My Own Worst Enemy

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    Without a doubt, I am.

    I know exactly how to stop letting myself get used, it's easy, just don't go out alone to parties where I don't know anyone. If i'm at a party with friends, nothing happens. It's not even that they have to stop anything from happening, I'm simply a different person, I'm always...
    hayliepartychick hayliepartychick 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 19

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    persononinternet persononinternet 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 12

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    ******* HELP ME. For a while

    now I keep dreaming about a kid who looks exactly about me. The only major differences are the fact that he has a **** and he has green eyes -- like my dad's. My mom used to tell me that my doctor screwed up and said I was going to be a boy. I used to dream about him when I was...
    ReesesPeaces ReesesPeaces 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    My Mind Is My Prison.

    Sometimes I am afraid that I am the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I feel like every time I try and do something that might make my life better, my mind says no. It keeps me from going out and doing things, from being social. For example right now, all I can think...
    thequietguy thequietguy 18-21, M 9 Responses Mar 2, 2011

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    I can feel your pain

    as I am suffering now from the little voices in my head that keep telling me that I am lost despite feeling so close to God at times and feeling the Grace of God and Christ Jesus so intensely at times that it's as thou he is standing there beside me. I have had many nights...
    vet1961 vet1961 51-55, M Jan 25

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    I am my own worst critic.

    I'm very good at making others feel good about themselves but when it comes to me, I'm not; however I'm getting better.
    toots01 toots01 56-60, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    I Am

    I am my own worst enemy. No one would possibly hate me, more than I hate myself. I get down on myself way too many times, and about some of the most stupidist **** in the world. I just hate that more than anything,  but I don't know how to escape myself!
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 30, 2009

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    i don't believe in myself enough.

    ;sometimes i don't believe i'm worthy anything.. i don't believe i can make it.. i want to go back to school but i keep on discouraging myself..
    dreammss dreammss 26-30, F 5 Responses Jan 12

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    Mirror

    look in the mirror and wonder how is it possiable for others  to see good in me or even think i am pretty ? I see someone thats ugly, nasty fryed hair, someone who is to skinny but yet fat if that makes since ? Wanting to lose my love handles and have a flater stomic...
    Underthesurface13 Underthesurface13 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 24, 2011

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    Denying myself the things

    that would benefit me; fearing uncertainty and "newness" along with failure. I do not physically harm myself, but it is purely emotional. I am seeking/wishing to leave this mentality being purely sick of it.
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 2

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    I Never Touched The Hot Stove

    I am twenty-one years old, and I feel like I missed out on those teenage years where I was supposed to do stupid things like sneak out of my house and make out with people and be a stupid teenager. I have always learned my lessons easily- like too easily. I learned not to touch...
    Nereida13 Nereida13 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 15, 2011

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    I have a monster that lives between my own two

    ears , I can hear him now unlike before, I understand where he comes from, for the longest time I just want him to disappear to go away, but now I've came to realize that my past experiences and environments and the way I've interpreted and responded to things put that voice...
    thislifeofours thislifeofours 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 18

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    My Biggest Enemy Is Me

    I'm 22 years old and Ive been depressed for about 2 years. It all began when I stopped being close friends with people who I thought were my best friends. Yea I do understand that people do grow apart but ever since I stopped being friends with them my social life has gone...
    alostone alostone 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 9, 2011

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    Sometimes i hate myself

    for doing some crazy and stupid things. But even though i did a lot of ****** things i know a lot if people also do. No ones perfect. And besides its kinda funny to think about those thing you did in the past. :)
    eyasamarie eyasamarie 18-21, F Jan 20

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    Beat Myself Down

    I have always been my own worst enemy.  I have been my toughest critic for years.  I'm not sure I have always deserved the way I beat up on myself but for some reason I felt/feel compelled to do it. I was asked, once, how I would feel if someone was beating up on...
    darlene darlene 41-45, F 8 Responses Nov 6, 2008

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    Never giving myself a chance; never believing

    in myself; usually scared. I want so bad to get out of this mentality and one new year resolution is going to be to do so.
    asert12345678 asert12345678 31-35, M 3 Responses Dec 31, 2013

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    Of course I am. I want to be a writer.

    I am obsessive to the point of insanity. I will spend hours rewriting the same sentence, rephrasing the same paragraph continuously until I either throw my hands into the air in disgust and leave it the way it was in a previous version, or just cut it out altogether. Or, when...
    BlackRosesTurnBlue BlackRosesTurnBlue 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 7

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    In many aspects this is true.

    In one of them is the social aspect, I can make conversation and laugh with stranger but then somehow In the back of my mind I think "they dont/wouldnt like me they are just following what Im saying just because they have to" , or I see hesitation or any facial expression that...
    RadRen RadRen 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    I always over think what people say to me

    and end up with everyone hating me because of it.
    AriesNinja AriesNinja 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 3

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    Revelation Of The Daemon Seed

    This is an old poem, the one poem I have ever felt has come close to my own expectations and criticisims, though still falling short. The relevance however still stands true. Of late I have been feeling an overwhelming desire to return to my old ways, once again drowning my...
    Lemartes Lemartes 31-35, M Sep 19, 2012

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    Tormented By My Sin And Failure

    Today I just want to find a refuge or a hole to crawl in. I wish I had known then what I know now. My sin haunts me. There isn't any relief to be found. How can u hide from god. He is always there always judging. I used to run to him with everything now I feel all my prayers...
    maranatha1985 maranatha1985 26-30, F 5 Responses Apr 29, 2013

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    I Fear Myself.

    I don't know what's wrong with me, really I don't. My mum thinks I'm a sociopath because I never show emotion. But, she's just dumb because I have STRONG hatred for her and I'm pretty sure that's an emotion. The only thing I ever feel is pain, tired, anxious, I've never really...
    DomsTuna11 DomsTuna11 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 13, 2012

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    My Character Flaws Are the ...

    My character flaws are the downfall of me.  My naivity lets people get the best of me.  I get hurt easily and let myself down.  I'm so afraid of failure that I sometimes don't even try.  That's why I set my standards and goals so low that I don't ever...
    theophania theophania 22-25, F 5 Responses May 13, 2007

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    Self sabotage. Isn't

    that the way that life tends to go? I here other people complimenting me and yet I can't help but automatically assume they're only saying those things to be nice. I'm not skinny, I'm just regular, maybe even a bit chubby. My hair isn't nice, it's irrationally difficult to...
    iceprincess95 iceprincess95 18-21, F Jan 31

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    I have high self esteem

    and and proud if who I am! But I can't help but being self conscious sometimes. Every teen is!
    ArtPaige ArtPaige 16-17, F Jan 20

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    I'm an enigma. I can't think of one word to

    describe me. I'm patient, but impatient when someone has my heart in the palm of their hands. I'm strong, but I don't have a ton of muscle mass. I'm a sophisticated young man, but I make mistakes that just frustrate me. I am my worst enemy at times, but every experience is a...
    misterverde misterverde 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 15

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    Where To Turn?

    sometimes i get so mad at myself for the stupid **** i keep doing that i want to hurt myself. i never learn im soo frickin mad at myself for getting into these situations.. i think ive learnt, everything is going smoothly then i do something to ruin it again. i cant cope with the...
    misindecisive misindecisive 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 23, 2012

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    Over analyzing and judging myself hardcore are

    my two issues. Anyone else believe their too hard on themselves?
    idkimchanz idkimchanz 16-17, M 2 Responses Feb 4

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    This is SO me!!!!! I am my own worst enemy.

    I am so unconfident and always see the worst in most situations. I have alopecia and i cant come to terms with it. I feel as if my life is over, and that nobody will love me or want to be with me. I imagine being on my own forever or having artificial insemination to have...
    AchingSoul AchingSoul 22-25, F Jan 19

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    An Island Kingdom

    As I close my eyes I see myself sitting on a throne in the middle of a desolate Island. Along the shores expand bridges leading to the mainlands, each bridge representing a relationship, past and present; friends, family, lovers and aquaintances, and one large arched bridge, a...
    Lemartes Lemartes 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 21, 2012

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    I am my own worst enemy.

    I constantly make my self feel worthless. I blame myself for everything bad that happens in my life.
    Angela1989 Angela1989 22-25, F 5 Responses Apr 6

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    You Can Hate Me- I Won'T Anymore

    Just done with hating myself. I know im a decent guy. NO regrets about who i am. Too long I let negative feelings because of failure with women and success of other men and women frustrate me. I know who i am and i have seen what i can do- time to start working on feeling a bit...
    startingpointguard33 startingpointguard33 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    I always wonder If I'm worth living at all

    because I do feel like a burden to society even a nuisance, I'll always try to stop these feelings from getting too much but I sometimes can't stop them.
    NinjaKitteh1999 NinjaKitteh1999 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 13

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    Having been emotionally abused in the past,

    I feel like the whole world is against me. If someone doesn't respond to me, it's because they don't like me. If the wifi isn't working, someone disconnected it so that I won't be able to use it. If someone talks to me, it's because they want to use me one way or another. I've...
    tryingtobeashappyasiappear tryingtobeashappyasiappear 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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    I ruined an 8 year marriage by cheating on my

    husband and sleeping with a black man who abused me. My children hate me and I lost custody of my daughter. I can't bring myself to speak to anyome of this. I just want my life back.
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jan 23

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    I am totally my own worst enemy.

    You would think that after making mistakes you would Learn from them....me...well I carry on regardless. In doing so I have hurt others ....wish I would learn old enough...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Dec 31, 2013

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    Relief

    As the blade run through my skin, I felt the familiar relief. I could still feel then, I wasn't the hollow shell I thought I was. I watched the blood ooze and smile. One day this would all be over.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 17, 2013

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    As a child,I often heard my mother say on

    countless occasions "Phillip your a glutton for punishment" meaning I willingly did things that were detrimental to my health and well being. Eating foods or drinking tea that was super sweet or super acidity that would later make me sick and go to the doctor or the emergency...
    AGothicOdyssey AGothicOdyssey 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 18

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    Hidden to go unnoticed.

    .. Hurt when no one notices.
    MissWorld33 MissWorld33 36-40, F 4 Responses Mar 7

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    Frustrating

    i do destructive things to myself all the time. not only do i abuse alcohol and drugs. i smoke, eat horrible foods, and tan. and these are just a few things. on top of all of this, i'm a self mutilator. i'm destroying myself. and right now. nothing of significance has happened...
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 16 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    I Wish

    i wish i could just stop thinking ! its all i ever do is think, even if i don't what I'm thinking about i till have to wrap my mind around every possibility till i cant even sleep, ugh.... idk i feel stupid saying it , i wish i could stop though, its like anyone else would...
    kissmeimamy88 kissmeimamy88 19-21 1 Response Mar 2, 2008

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    I Wish I Could Give Myself A Slap Sometimes...

    One thing I am very good at is sabotaging myself. When I am on to a good thing, you can almost guarantee that I can talk myself out of it, or do something to mess it up. Is it fear of rejection? Fear of the unknown? I don't know. It almost feels like if something seems to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 1, 2012

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    I Make Myself Ill.. With Stress.

    I make myself ill with stress.. but i dont realise I'm doing it, until it happens :( Every few months my body has a shut down, i cant walk properly, my back and shoulders ache and my arms feel like lead. And to top it all off i get jaw lock :( weird symptoms. My doctors tell me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 7, 2012

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    I am my own worst enemy

    because even though I am the one who has hopes and dreams, I am also the one with the power to hold myself back. I can give myself a million reasons why my ideas are good, my work is successful, I can accomplish my goals, etc. but then I can talk myself down from that high and...
    aylehn92 aylehn92 22-25, F Jan 14

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    Put Your Dukes Up

    I don't need any help from anyone .... when it comes to kicking my *** .... Thank ya very much. I do a fine job without any help!
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze 56-60, F 1 Response Jun 18, 2011

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    I'm constantly critical of myself

    because I think I can do better, which I can. However, there comes a time when one has to accept themselves as they are. It's not easy to just get to that conclusion. There are always obstacles that keep us from being who we want to be, but that's life. We all hopefully learn...
    agathashelly agathashelly 26-30, F Feb 4

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    all the time I feel like

    if I were a nuisance, a burden, and I think "why am I alive if I'm only a nuisance?". and hurts me think about that but sometimes I think that no one need me and I only filling a space, I feel like no one cares anything about me and that makes me think "What's the point of...
    sadoll sadoll 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 12

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    In Neglect, Thank You Robert Frost.

    They leave us to the way we took, as two in whom they were proved mistaken, that we sit sometimes in the wayside nook, with mischievous, vagrant, seraphic look, and try if we cannot feel forsaken.
    SilentBluemoon SilentBluemoon 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2013

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    Mistakes

    I have to admit that most of the mistakes in my life came from my own actions. Stupid mistakes that I could have avoided because I knew better. The consequences of some of these actions were huge. I'm tired of learning from my mistakes.
    pentupfreedom pentupfreedom 46-50, M Dec 12, 2012

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    I am my own worst enemy.

    I never think I can do anything and that if I try I will mess it up somehow. I hold myself back.
    saddeena saddeena 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 21

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    Im always losing my head,

    I comare to other people at my job and nit pick, ugh, my I can be happy and get along!! what is wrong with me!
    Starcraft119 Starcraft119 22-25, M Feb 14

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    But It's Actually Quite A Positive Thing

    I actually get along great with myself. There's still a little subconscious clutter in there waiting to be burned through, but on the whole my brain is pretty cooperative. No thing and no person out there has the power to eff with my like my own brain can. Natural or...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 4 Responses May 24, 2012

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    Everything I Do Holds Me Down

    Everyone always tells me I am a nice person and everything, but I refuse to believe them, and instead choose to believe that they are just trying to be nice. All the things I tell myself keep me from really doing what I want to do, but I just don't see myself as good enough. Out...
    Distanced Distanced 16-18, M 13 Responses Jan 10, 2007

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