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I Am My Own Worst Enemy

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    In Neglect, Thank You Robert Frost.

    They leave us to the way we took, as two in whom they were proved mistaken, that we sit sometimes in the wayside nook, with mischievous, vagrant, seraphic look, and try if we cannot feel forsaken.
    SilentBluemoon SilentBluemoon 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2013

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    I can never seem to make

    and keep friends. I've never had anybody that I would consider my best friend and that makes me sad. The thing is, I'm not that shy. I talk to people and make sort-of friends that way but whenever they suggest doing something I shut down. I've never really had much free time...
    PinKrossbow PinKrossbow 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 18

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    My boyfriend (or ex now I suppose) left me a

    note leaving me during the week. We've had a really difficult weekend - both being petty but he was pretty cruel too. He has rang and apologised, even telling me my life is really good, he just wasn't happy. I've began moving back into my parents but my self esteem is shot. I...
    missdan missdan 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 4

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    So I have never really had sex with someone

    that I wasn't intending on being in a relationship with but I don't want to be in a relationship at all. I do want to have sex but I am either uncomfortable or self conscious or maybe both. I really don't know what's stopping me. I want to just be like **** it and do it but I...
    ynobe ynobe 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 18

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    I live a double life,

    I go to work in a good office act professional like I have my life together and when I leave I pop a few pills smoke some weed and stay out all night with the man I'm in love with.. We have rough passionate sex unlike anything I have ever experianced and I cover my bruises and...
    katharine8891 katharine8891 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 27

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    Hi guys I'm that hatersinc girl I made a new

    account to Chang my age I really want to get rape someone tell me want should I do I don't know why I wish that apon myself I just want to experience it
    hatersbehating hatersbehating 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 21

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    After being in therapy

    for quite some time now, I see that other people think highly of me and I get told that I am cute and adorable. I spend so much time getting ready everyday to make myself look as good as possible and I spend so much time looking in the mirror (not in a conceited way) trying to...
    Missprincessgabby Missprincessgabby 16-17, F 9 Responses Aug 14

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    I am lost. I have been diagnosed with major

    depression and I am not close to my family. My best and closest friend was my son's father -- we are now separated -- and he as well as my family say the most cruel things to me when I am paralyzed in bed with depression. I can't function -- I can barely breathe -- and they...
    adagiowilde adagiowilde 31-35, F 8 Responses 4 days ago

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    I don't even know i even bother staying alive.

    It's not that it matters, it's not like anyone would care. I'm fighting so hard.. against myself. I don't know how much i can take this. My head is slowly filling its self with so many negative thoughts. My other side tries so hard to fight it all off. I know it's wrong for me...
    DreamingSouls DreamingSouls 13-15, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    "You" he said "are a terribly real thing in a

    terribly false world, and that, I believe, is why your in so much pain"
    everythingburns everythingburns 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 12

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    I really don't know who I am anymore.

    I know changes in my life need to be made and so desperately want them but always end up finding an excuse or reason not to make them. I convince myself that things are ok for so long and then end up having a really bad night like tonight. I hate me for pitying myself and end up...
    lu3elle79 lu3elle79 31-35, F 17 Responses Aug 2

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    Everything I Do Holds Me Down

    Everyone always tells me I am a nice person and everything, but I refuse to believe them, and instead choose to believe that they are just trying to be nice. All the things I tell myself keep me from really doing what I want to do, but I just don't see myself as good enough. Out...
    Distanced Distanced 16-18, M 13 Responses Jan 10, 2007

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    I'm horny & on my period.

    The struggle..
    jaylax13 jaylax13 16-17, F Jun 22

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    I've accepted the fact

    that I have an addiction and I know, when the time comes, Im going to need professional help to try & break free from it. Im not at a point where I'm ready to reach out for help...not only out of selfishness, but also knowing that I will have to reveal this truth to my friends...
    TinaMarie88 TinaMarie88 22-25, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Tired of crying and yelling.

    Tired of being sad, alone, different, and angry. Tired pretending. Tired of feeling crazy,worthless,empty and stuck. Tired of having to lie about my happiness just to keep someone in my life. Tired of needing help and remembering.tired of missing things and people. Tired of not...
    anonymouss2014 anonymouss2014 18-21, F 4 Responses Sep 18

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    I'm making a lot of bad decisions lately,

    consciously making them. What is my problem? Why do I feel the need to self destruct?
    lilHuman lilHuman 22-25, F 8 Responses Aug 20

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    Hidden to go unnoticed.

    .. Hurt when no one notices.
    MissWorld33 MissWorld33 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 7

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    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 28

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    Frustrating

    i do destructive things to myself all the time. not only do i abuse alcohol and drugs. i smoke, eat horrible foods, and tan. and these are just a few things. on top of all of this, i'm a self mutilator. i'm destroying myself. and right now. nothing of significance has happened...
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 17 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    No ones ever hurt me

    or did anything bad and negative to me no more then what I've done to myself. I've literally have drove my own self crazy. Who wants to live life like this? I don't. So it came down to two things, embrace my enemy, or be rid of her for good. I chose to embrace her. Why? She...
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Sometimes I just wish I was someone completely

    different.... Sometimes I just can't handle it.. :'(
    NessD98 NessD98 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 8

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    Without a doubt, I am.

    I know exactly how to stop letting myself get used, it's easy, just don't go out alone to parties where I don't know anyone. If i'm at a party with friends, nothing happens. It's not even that they have to stop anything from happening, I'm simply a different person, I'm always...
    hayliepartychick hayliepartychick 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 19

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    My world is tasteless

    and void. I am selfish and self centered. I do not fear death but gods judgement. I like to give advice but not take my own. I am not perfect. But I try to show that I am human. That I feel pain and love like others. But yet I feel nothing. I have craving to want but do I need...
    kickthewall kickthewall 26-30, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    It is difficult for me to have meaningful

    friendships... I kinda like a lot to be alone but then I find that my relationships with others decay easily. I have my two circle of friends but in none of them I feel completely part of. In college I know a lot of people and do all kinds of works with them...but when the...
    Hoenncreek Hoenncreek 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 16

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    What am I living for?

    Is there like a finish line we're all striving towards where we're all finally be happy? I don't have a goal, I don't look forward to anything, I don't have relationships I have to fight for, I despise myself, feel like I've let down my family, I feel like such a failure.
    whatsthepointt whatsthepointt 18-21, F 4 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I do the dumbest things.

    I can't get over some of the decisions I make, but yet, I continue to do them.
    BellaLuna70 BellaLuna70 41-45, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I honestly want to die.

    And I have no one to tell. Not one friend, family member, ***** of a boyfriend who would honestly care. Which just makes the feeling worse.
    keke23 keke23 16-17, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    lanna620 lanna620 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    nataly160 nataly160 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Sometimes I look at myself

    and think...no wonder no one wants you around...
    suicideDepression suicideDepression 13-15, M 4 Responses Aug 24

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    Don't you hate when you try to have a

    conversation with yourself and you are told to shut up. :/
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 3 Responses Aug 14

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    Sometimes I wonder what I'm doing with myself.

    I wonder am I going in the right directions? Is there a right direction? Is it even a matter of right or is it just a matter of mind. Does that even make sense? I kno what I want to do but I feel I'm too cowardly to go forward with it. The easy way. Why must it hurt the most?
    gypsisoul gypsisoul 22-25, F Aug 26

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    Sometimes you have to stop

    and think before you judge someone. You need to look at your corruption, before you try to expose someone elses. You need to see if your on the right path, before you guide someone in the wrong direction.
    keepitreal78 keepitreal78 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 18

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    I have been going through a lot of stressful

    situations lately. I always think it's my fault, or I did something wrong, or I'm just not a like able person. I feel like I am though. But I don't know what I have done to deserve some of the treatment I've been given. It's frustrating as hell. I just have to fight that...
    LilBoyBluu LilBoyBluu 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I talk to myself in my head.

    ..daily...it seems like all the time. Most of it is negative crap. How stupid, fat, unloveable, pathetic I am...how I'm not pretty enough, smart enough, thin enough, good enough, etc. It's tiring. I can't imagine letting another person talk to me like that & putting up with...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 7 Responses Sep 19

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    I wish for an embrace to squeeze out all the

    pain and darkness, yet it is impossible because the moment you let go, all the candles are blown out.
    peanutman27 peanutman27 22-25, M a week ago

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    Where does it all start?

    How can I put this down on here in one paragraph? I'm confused.lol. It's been well over 10 years now that I've been out. Yes I did time, 5 years, all for a women that I would of did everything for. She crushed me. Turned out to be the biggest drama queen in history. So much I...
    sickem sickem 36-40, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I don't think this is normal at all,

    but say that I am really interested in someone. The thought that someone is more beautiful always crosses my mind. I know beauty is in the eye of the beholder but I don't want to be like this. I think I am average but how to shake my thoughts? My brain is way too hyperactive!!
    ynobe ynobe 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm going to en up starving myself to death,

    and I don't care. I've only recently started starving myself but I feel better and worse. I hate that I'm not as skinny as other girls. it's selfish of myself to want to be the skinniest person in the room. I've always been the chubbier friend and I hate that. I'm striving to be...
    sendhelp sendhelp 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I am. It's so easy for me to say it.

    I hate myself so much i quit my kemo. I know I shouldn't have but I did.
    0famouslastword0 0famouslastword0 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Ok long story short list all my friends woman I

    loved and I got shelldoms(2/3) of a brain kinda like brain damage but the other 2/3s work fine and 2 personality's and I hate the other side so I really bring the I hate myself to a new level and he hurt her a lot and I don't know what to do I'm not that close with family so I...
    eadwyn74 eadwyn74 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 22

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    Most say they are their own worst enemy,

    but never really take into consideration that your worst enemy is someone who does everything they can to tear you down and bring you to your knees every chance they get. All day long I beat myself up inside saying these awful things that really screw up my thinking during my...
    ihatemypclife ihatemypclife 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 17

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    At first blush, this seems quite depressing.

    I sometimes make poor choices and then have to deal with the consequences. I can beat myself up pretty bad. When I allow myself to make mistakes, just like I would a good friend. It becomes easier to make better choices, which in turn usually makes my life more enjoyable. I also...
    Luvhugeuptop Luvhugeuptop 46-50, M 1 Response Sep 18

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    This is hard for me to express my feelings.

    .. I've always been the "big girl" even when I was younger.. Now, I'm losing weight lost 7 pounds already.. But, I still beat myself for gaining so much weight then having guys say " oh you have a pretty face and a great personality but, you're not my type" then have family...
    lina1208 lina1208 22-25, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    So I keep overbooking myself

    so that i constantly obligated to do a job for somebody.... that way have a good excuse to get up in the morning.....because if it's just up to me I think I'd rather just grab the 45...... It seems so much easier... Wish I believed I could get away with it on the other side...
    longingone longingone 41-45, M 4 days ago

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    Goodbye

    Most people, here on ep wont care about this. But I am typing this just to get it off my chest, anyway. People (my friends, now former coworkers, etc) always love the 'fun' Joey. No one likes the 'sad Joey'. Suffering from depression sucks. Mostly for me because I have to live...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Aug 2, 2013

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    I have recently decided to stop being my own

    worst enemy. I have recently decided to try to change things for the better and care more about myself.
    saddeena saddeena 41-45, F 12 Responses May 3

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    Sometimes i do things just to hurt myself.

    Sometimes its like i push myself to my limits for whatever reason i can come up with. I am trying to chase a dream that i finally have. I finally have direction in my life but i feel awful. I constantly feel weak these days. I have difficulties being alone. And i left the best...
    needtogobutnot needtogobutnot 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 18

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    "Choose your battles wisely,

    for no battle is worth sacrificing your soul" The greatest battles fought are fought from within. When or why I decided to go to war with myself I have often thought about it. I have become my own worse enemy, the path of self destruction in this endless war with myself has...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 8

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    I am very happy, yet still can't stop feeling

    like I want to die. 26 - and tired of being alive.
    booo87 booo87 26-30, F 5 Responses Sep 13

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    I'm not suicidal but I think I beat myself down

    for all the mistakes I've done. For all the things I did and did not do. For what I am and what I am not. I am my own worst enemy and it's hindering my happiness.
    sugarprincess23 sugarprincess23 22-25, F 8 Responses May 30

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    My right wrist hurts,

    and the styloid process of ulna is much larger than my left's. I'm afraid it could progress to a mobility problem in the future. I hope not. I won't do anything stupid that could physically harm my body again.
    RainSword RainSword 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 21

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    I haven't been somewhere in over a year

    that feels like home. I don't feel happiness anymore & I have nobody to talk to. My family hates me and I'll never be apart of anything :'(
    luckynumber32 luckynumber32 18-21, M 1 day ago

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