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I Am My Own Worst Enemy

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    I have no motivation,

    lately. I don't see a future and it's been bothering me. I'm 25 and it's really hard to see my friends surpass me and I'm so behind I don't even want to try to catch up. I feel the mental energy to work to get somewhere respectable, I don't have anymore.
    SparrowBlue SparrowBlue 22-25, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I have recently decided to stop being my own

    worst enemy. I have recently decided to try to change things for the better and care more about myself.
    saddeena saddeena 41-45, F 13 Responses May 3

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    "You" he said "are a terribly real thing in a

    terribly false world, and that, I believe, is why your in so much pain"
    everythingburns everythingburns 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 12

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    I hate myself. I am a terrible person.

    I don't treat people as I should. I lie. I hate the way look. I feel like I have no real friends. I am completely isolated. I can't keep a job. I was a nanny, I wasn't paying attention and the child fell on his head. He was okay but he could have not been. I was so upset I quit...
    horriblydepressed horriblydepressed 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 4

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    I think way too much.

    Then I rethink about it and .......sigh, wish I could shut my brain off. I always assume things and I shouldn't... Then to top it off I'm extremely impatient.. it is not a good quality in a person :/ Unfortunately it is my nemesis! UGH ... ok now I'll post something positive...
    ionlywanthim78 ionlywanthim78 31-35, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    Everything I Do Holds Me Down

    Everyone always tells me I am a nice person and everything, but I refuse to believe them, and instead choose to believe that they are just trying to be nice. All the things I tell myself keep me from really doing what I want to do, but I just don't see myself as good enough. Out...
    Distanced Distanced 16-18, M 13 Responses Jan 10, 2007

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    "Choose your battles wisely,

    for no battle is worth sacrificing your soul" The greatest battles fought are fought from within. When or why I decided to go to war with myself I have often thought about it. I have become my own worse enemy, the path of self destruction in this endless war with myself has...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 8

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    I always carry a blade with me.

    ..I'm always triggered and I get the urge to let it out...
    suicideDepression suicideDepression 22-25, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    Life is too short to be feeling this way !

    ! Definitely need to do something about this asap !
    ArmaniTsunami ArmaniTsunami 18-21, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I need someone to talk to

    so bad. I ruin everything I touch and every friend I ever had left me because I'm such a mess. I'm so alone please help if you can.
    ambernolastname ambernolastname 13-15, F 8 Responses Jul 31

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    I'm not suicidal but I think I beat myself down

    for all the mistakes I've done. For all the things I did and did not do. For what I am and what I am not. I am my own worst enemy and it's hindering my happiness.
    sugarprincess23 sugarprincess23 22-25, F 8 Responses May 30

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    But It's Actually Quite A Positive Thing

    I actually get along great with myself. There's still a little subconscious clutter in there waiting to be burned through, but on the whole my brain is pretty cooperative. No thing and no person out there has the power to eff with my like my own brain can. Natural or...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 4 Responses May 24, 2012

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    zoe1118 zoe1118 18-21, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    flyyhigh21 flyyhigh21 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My boyfriend (or ex now I suppose) left me a

    note leaving me during the week. We've had a really difficult weekend - both being petty but he was pretty cruel too. He has rang and apologised, even telling me my life is really good, he just wasn't happy. I've began moving back into my parents but my self esteem is shot. I...
    missdan missdan 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 4

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    I'm going to start saying I've been bullied my

    whole life.its either I'm a ****,not good enough,or told to go ahead and hang myself already.therefore I starve myself and I'm very depressed and tearing my body up into pieces.i know it's not okay so you don't have to tell me it's not right but I'm getting at is I think the...
    ad5683 ad5683 13-15, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm so damn tired and have to go to work

    yet I can barely stand up :( fml I can't sleep for sh*t
    ArmaniTsunami ArmaniTsunami 18-21, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I have been pretty depress lately,

    I can not stop the crying.... So I call my boyfriend every time I cry ( we have been together for 7 years ), he is getting really tired of me doing this ... It's making him sad ... I do not want him too feel this way because of me ... I am trying not to call him as much, But he...
    jbello jbello 22-25, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Hidden to go unnoticed.

    .. Hurt when no one notices.
    MissWorld33 MissWorld33 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 7

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    After being in therapy

    for quite some time now, I see that other people think highly of me and I get told that I am cute and adorable. I spend so much time getting ready everyday to make myself look as good as possible and I spend so much time looking in the mirror (not in a conceited way) trying to...
    Missprincessgabby Missprincessgabby 16-17, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    It is really difficult

    for me to get along with people
    Hoenncreek Hoenncreek 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    I hate myself so much.

    ..I wish I would just disappear..never existed...my friends don't like me cause of my depression...my parents shun me for it...I'm done
    suicideDepression suicideDepression 22-25, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Why is it that we are our own worst enemy ?

    Makes no sense to me! We all should be confident with who we are! Accept yourself, like yourself and the rest will come naturally!
    123relax 123relax 46-50, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    austintsnelson austintsnelson 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 4

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    I find the one who makes me feel truly loved

    and appreciated, yet my paranoia from bad past experiences keeps me believing that he will abandon me.
    TheVoidWalker TheVoidWalker 18-21, T 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Sometimes I just wish I was someone completely

    different.... Sometimes I just can't handle it.. :'(
    NessD98 NessD98 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 8

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    Don't you hate when you try to have a

    conversation with yourself and you are told to shut up. :/
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I keep choosing the things in life,

    that make me unhappy. I am confused all the time, sometimes I get clearity... but get so scared I run back to the confusion. I know what I want. I want to move, I want to be near nature. I want 4 seasons, mountains and forest. I feel so at peace when I'm in the woods. It's like...
    buscameenelcielo buscameenelcielo 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 12

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    So I'm only 19 and for the past 4 months have

    been suffering from depression and extreme insomnia. Nothing I do seems to help me overcome this. I truly feel I am dieing :(
    ArmaniTsunami ArmaniTsunami 18-21, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I hate myself so much.

    ..going in public always reminds me of how much I hate myself..urg..
    suicideDepression suicideDepression 22-25, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I have bad luck with women,

    I'm only 19 and I mean I'm not a hot guy but I don't think I'm the ugliest guy out there you know? I am an intelligent person, I'm not a bad dude, I mean I can be cheesy I guess but in a funny clever way. I just feel like even the stupid douchebags get to be with whoever they...
    VelPez VelPez 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm making a lot of bad decisions lately,

    consciously making them. What is my problem? Why do I feel the need to self destruct?
    lilHuman lilHuman 22-25, F 7 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    So I'm 14 and I'm an extremely anxious person

    who overthinks everything. I never really thought much about how self destructive I am (physically&mentally) but recently I realized that its no way to live and I need to stop. I just don't feel happy about myself at all. Body, talents (none), etc. trying to get out of this rut...
    livyroro livyroro 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I really am my own worst enemy i hate how i

    have made my wife feel .since before we got married a year ago i havent been honest with her i have always gambled which she found out about which i had lied to her about i have under control now. I had been useing pay day loans to fund my gambling which i had lied to her about...
    missy118118 missy118118 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Whenever I go out or try something new,

    I always hope I will have some life changing experience or even meet someone special. I dream of the prince coming to save me but then I have to remind myself that I should be my own person... I'm ashamed that I'm waiting for someone else to save me because I don't feel like I...
    jest04 jest04 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 2

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    Goodbye

    Most people, here on ep wont care about this. But I am typing this just to get it off my chest, anyway. People (my friends, now former coworkers, etc) always love the 'fun' Joey. No one likes the 'sad Joey'. Suffering from depression sucks. Mostly for me because I have to live...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Aug 2, 2013

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    I hate that I will try

    and destroy myself. Any chance I have at being happy I will ruin it but I wish I wasn't. It's all down to two people how can they have made so insecure about myself I've now become my own worst enemy it confuses me.
    TashaJade TashaJade 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    So... I'm 22yrs old & it seems like I have a

    huge problem being faithful and being in a committed relationship. I have to say that I have been very fortunate to always come across GREAT/BEAUTIFUL girls that will be willing to love me unconditionally. But for some reason I have managed to mess all that up in the past by...
    Audri11 Audri11 22-25, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm horny & on my period.

    The struggle..
    jaylax13 jaylax13 16-17, F Jun 22

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    I live a double life,

    I go to work in a good office act professional like I have my life together and when I leave I pop a few pills smoke some weed and stay out all night with the man I'm in love with.. We have rough passionate sex unlike anything I have ever experianced and I cover my bruises and...
    katharine8891 katharine8891 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 27

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    In Neglect, Thank You Robert Frost.

    They leave us to the way we took, as two in whom they were proved mistaken, that we sit sometimes in the wayside nook, with mischievous, vagrant, seraphic look, and try if we cannot feel forsaken.
    SilentBluemoon SilentBluemoon 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2013

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    Without a doubt, I am.

    I know exactly how to stop letting myself get used, it's easy, just don't go out alone to parties where I don't know anyone. If i'm at a party with friends, nothing happens. It's not even that they have to stop anything from happening, I'm simply a different person, I'm always...
    hayliepartychick hayliepartychick 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 19

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    Thinking too much all the time is ruining my

    life. I constantly think everyone hates me or that I am stupid and worthless and go full on paranoid about everything. I overanalyse every situation and never fail to think about the worst thing that can happen. Every time I think about these things I feel sick to my stomach...
    MsParanoid MsParanoid 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Overthinking, moodiness,

    laziness, procrastination, caring too much about what others may thing, difficulty to say no...these are my enemies in life.
    Danceofhours Danceofhours 36-40, M 1 Response Jul 30

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    I really don't know who I am anymore.

    I know changes in my life need to be made and so desperately want them but always end up finding an excuse or reason not to make them. I convince myself that things are ok for so long and then end up having a really bad night like tonight. I hate me for pitying myself and end up...
    lu3elle79 lu3elle79 31-35, F 15 Responses Aug 2

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    So. This is what I thought about

    for quite a while. No one can really break me.. no one can actually hurt me. Except for myself. The things I say to myself are destructive, and when they came out of the mouths of others the words would be labeled as verbal abuse. I am the only one who can kill myself. And it...
    cjhakke cjhakke 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I post pretty pictures of my life

    but inside I have no idea what I'm doing with it.
    jadiss1 jadiss1 22-25, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Frustrating

    i do destructive things to myself all the time. not only do i abuse alcohol and drugs. i smoke, eat horrible foods, and tan. and these are just a few things. on top of all of this, i'm a self mutilator. i'm destroying myself. and right now. nothing of significance has happened...
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 17 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    I spend more time worrying about my life

    than doing anything to fix it.
    oceanwalker oceanwalker 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    2 years of therapy and heavy antidepressants

    have taught me that it's not the people around me that make me have negative feelings, it's not the grass or the clouds or the trees that make me feel the way I do. I've learned that I am my own worst enemy, I can break myself down and I learned that I can control my feelings...
    moonculture moonculture 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    When I was in seventh grade I looked like I was

    a boy, I had hair just past my ears and a unibrow but you know what, I was confident in who I was. I could stand up in front of the class and read pages out of the textbook no problem, but I got made fun of a lot. I had a speech impediment that involved my r's sounding like w's...
    haley1432 haley1432 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    The only thing I lied about to my friends is

    that I saw 2 different guys a few times which they didn't approve of. I didn't tell them because I knew they will yell at me. One of the ******** rings my girlfriend up and tells her everything. Now my friends like I am a compulsive liar. Wow. Things seem to escalate quickly.
    Mzwalker Mzwalker 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    It is difficult for me to have meaningful

    friendships... I kinda like a lot to be alone but then I find that my relationships with others decay easily. I have my two circle of friends but in none of them I feel completely part of. In college I know a lot of people and do all kinds of works with them...but when the...
    Hoenncreek Hoenncreek 22-25, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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