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I Am My Own Worst Enemy

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    I really wish I knew how to handle my emotions

    and situations better. -feeling really down on myself.
    createmeover createmeover 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I am trying to make myself a better person

    but I keep on stopping myself. I somehow just find it hard to change myself into a better person as I am already a horrible persons and can't get used to the positive side. Please give me tips cause I need to be my own best friend instead of enemy. I will hopefully become a...
    HermioneGlasse HermioneGlasse 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 19

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    lanna620 lanna620 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2014

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    I have done a lot of things in my life

    that I will never forget and will always hate myself for. Most people have done things that are bad but not horrible. I wish there wee such things as time machines cause it's more that people bullying me, I bully myself. I had many enemies in my life but now I realise it's...
    HermioneGlasse HermioneGlasse 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    Upon opening my eyes I saw complete darkness.

    A darkness so pitch black I couldn't make out which way was up nor down. I knew that I was on my back laying on what felt like baseballs, a rather uncomfortable feeling which probably had awaken me in the first place. I don't remember falling asleep though and tried to figure...
    FightingPhoenix FightingPhoenix 41-45, M 2 Responses Apr 21

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    I often have nightmares

    and most of them come true and turn into real life
    marvinking marvinking 13-15, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I feel guilty for wanting to live my own life

    because I feel like I am hurting the feelings of my family.. I am trapped 😔
    millylibscop millylibscop 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 24

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    " You are your own worst enemy.

    If you can learn to stop expecting impossible perfection, in yourself and others, you may find the happiness that has always eluded you" - Lisa Kleypas , Love in the Afternoon I have to learn to remove all these negative thoughts in my head... And apply this quote more to my...
    Aubexile Aubexile 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 21, 2014

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    I spend more time worrying about my life

    than doing anything to fix it.
    oceanwalker oceanwalker 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 19, 2014

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    Darling, Open your eyes.

    You are not made up of those words that hurt you. Or that number on that scale. Or the expectations you feel you will never meet. You are made up of nothing more than you. Simply beautiful, wonderfully unique you. You are a lovely complex soul. An individually fascinating...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 7 Responses Feb 18

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    I was inspired to dress my brown owl in a cap

    'n gown and round spectacles, but then it just scratched me and flew away with my cat. What an *******...
    biggunsatx biggunsatx 41-45, M 7 Responses Apr 21

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    I have recently decided to stop being my own

    worst enemy. I have recently decided to try to change things for the better and care more about myself.
    saddeena saddeena 41-45, F 11 Responses May 3, 2014

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    Sometimes I just wish I was someone completely

    different.... Sometimes I just can't handle it.. :'(
    NessD98 NessD98 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 8, 2014

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    I am my own worst bully.

    And I have NO MERCY on myself.
    LookingForTheSunshine LookingForTheSunshine 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 11

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    I post pretty pictures of my life

    but inside I have no idea what I'm doing with it.
    jadiss1 jadiss1 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    I saw myself today hanging from a pole with a

    rope tied around my neck. This is getting out of hand. Ropes were all around me.
    allie724 allie724 16-17, F 8 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    I talk to myself in my head.

    ..daily...it seems like all the time. Most of it is negative crap. How stupid, fat, unloveable, pathetic I am...how I'm not pretty enough, smart enough, thin enough, good enough, etc. It's tiring. I can't imagine letting another person talk to me like that & putting up with...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 4 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    RainSword RainSword 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 16, 2014

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    lonely with BPD. They didn't have that

    as a pre-like/me too selection except having a family member with schizophrenia...not me...not yet. 36, male, morbid sense of reality, predominantly misanthropic (which is a good push towards no *&#!, s'why I'm lonely, but it's not as simple as medicine and therapists and...
    SocialSurgery SocialSurgery 36-40, M 1 Response Apr 7

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    delusi0nal delusi0nal 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    Without a doubt, I am.

    I know exactly how to stop letting myself get used, it's easy, just don't go out alone to parties where I don't know anyone. If i'm at a party with friends, nothing happens. It's not even that they have to stop anything from happening, I'm simply a different person, I'm always...
    hayliepartychick hayliepartychick 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 19, 2014

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    Counting down the seconds till I crash

    and burn again.... No medication in almost a week... Oops? I'm not sorry because I'm sick of taking pills to seem alright.. When it's probably masking just as much as I do.. Nobody really seems to see through the mask... I don't think anyone will.. Not until it's too late...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 20

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    I am feeling empty...

    . feeling a horrible distance between Allah (the God) and myself. I am so sorry for everything I did to push myself away from Allah. I am my own worst enemy. O Allah, I want to return to your path. Please forgive me and please accept my repentance, amen.
    PikluRin PikluRin 31-35, M 1 Response Mar 25

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    After being in therapy

    for quite some time now, I see that other people think highly of me and I get told that I am cute and adorable. I spend so much time getting ready everyday to make myself look as good as possible and I spend so much time looking in the mirror (not in a conceited way) trying to...
    Missprincessgabby Missprincessgabby 16-17, F 9 Responses Aug 14, 2014

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    The whole month of March

    and April I was in and out of a mental hospital. I hear voices. I see things that aren't real but look so descriptive. I have severe depression, anxiety, and a very severe panic disorder. I am my own worst enemy.
    cassidywhatx cassidywhatx 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Maihowl Maihowl 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 9

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    "You" he said "are a terribly real thing in a

    terribly false world, and that, I believe, is why your in so much pain"
    everythingburns everythingburns 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 12, 2014

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    Not having a 'complete' childhood really ruined

    me. Seeing as I am ridiculously different from society destroys me. I don't know what every one else knows. I don't know how to do simple 'normal' things 'everyone' has ever done. My intelligence isn't up to date to society and my age.... This kind of thing has driven me mad and...
    legendofmustard legendofmustard 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 8

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    I pick and choose who I care about,

    and how I go about doing so is a reflection of whether they do something for me emotionally. I don't waste my time befriending people unless I have a solid reason to assume they will benefit me emotionally and be a help in my betterment. Maybe that's selfish, I don't know. What...
    RelianceOnScience RelianceOnScience 22-25, F Mar 8

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    I really don't know who I am anymore.

    I know changes in my life need to be made and so desperately want them but always end up finding an excuse or reason not to make them. I convince myself that things are ok for so long and then end up having a really bad night like tonight. I hate me for pitying myself and end up...
    lu3elle79 lu3elle79 36-40, F 14 Responses Aug 2, 2014

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    I continue to realize the choices I make aren't

    the best but I choose with my heart and I don't have regrets. I do wish at times I could make the logical sensible decisions but maybe my life would be boring or maybe I wouldnt be happy. I guess I'll never know. At least I have stories.
    OneStonedGirl OneStonedGirl 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    My boyfriend (or ex now I suppose) left me a

    note leaving me during the week. We've had a really difficult weekend - both being petty but he was pretty cruel too. He has rang and apologised, even telling me my life is really good, he just wasn't happy. I've began moving back into my parents but my self esteem is shot. I...
    missdan missdan 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    I can't stop them, these thoughts

    that rage in my head. They scream betrayal of those around me. They scream I'm worthless. They scream that there's no hope. They keep screaming and screaming and there's just no end. I wake up and corrupt myself thinking about how much I've let people down. I think back to the...
    bunnyXbunny bunnyXbunny 26-30, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm at that very discouraged mood again.

    I feel like no matter what I do, I'll never be successful because everyone's better than me. No matter what it is, modeling, photography or art in general. I'll never get recognition either; ****, most of my friends forget my name
    SammiSakura SammiSakura 13-15, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm wish I could stop overthinking everything.

    I finally got the guy I like to hang out with me. He asked me if he could kiss me instead of saying yes like I wanted to. I couldn't help but think why. Why does he want to kiss me; I mean I'm nothing special. This is our first time hanging out and you barely know me so why...
    Brimwalker Brimwalker 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    This was my first experience I shared on ep

    four years ago. Things about me has changed I am much more confident but apart me still carries this sadness. It sucks to say that I think it will always be with me. In certain aspects I am still my enemy. I've never been good at standing up for myself correctly and still shows...
    alostone alostone 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    In Neglect, Thank You Robert Frost.

    They leave us to the way we took, as two in whom they were proved mistaken, that we sit sometimes in the wayside nook, with mischievous, vagrant, seraphic look, and try if we cannot feel forsaken.
    SilentBluemoon SilentBluemoon 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2013

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    I feel like this because I admit I can be a bit.

    .. Well... Judgy. What I mean is I'm constantly judging people and I don't hide it well. I make a face sort of and I think if I just stopped I'd have a lot more friends or at least people would like me better so I try to work on it but it's hard.
    kenyakayabney kenyakayabney 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    My stupid decisions led to three people being

    imprisoned. I feel like a murderer.
    lex4593 lex4593 16-17, F 7 Responses 2 days ago

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    broken5940 broken5940 16-17, F 7 Responses Mar 10

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    I feel like I can't trust anyone.

    I gave up on myself, so others gave up on me too. I did this to myself. I just hate that I did :/ I wish I could go back in time...I just wish there was a way to fix this. A way to not feel like a psychopath. Why the hell would I push everyone who cares about me away?! Why would...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 20

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    Frustrating

    i do destructive things to myself all the time. not only do i abuse alcohol and drugs. i smoke, eat horrible foods, and tan. and these are just a few things. on top of all of this, i'm a self mutilator. i'm destroying myself. and right now. nothing of significance has happened...
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 17 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    I'm an extreme over thinker.

    (Call me pretty? I spend legit 2 hours over thinking if u just said that or u meant it) I have a low self confidence. (I really have no reason for it I just do dill with it) I tend to care for other more then myself leaving me at the point where I know nothing about myself (I...
    sixpackbookworm sixpackbookworm 13-15, F 8 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    I hate myself. I want to kill myself.

    Death feels like the one thing that could comfort me at this point. I'm overweight. I'm unattractive. I don't have nice things. The only thing I have going for me is that I'm reasonably smart and I am good at hiding emotions. A lot of people think they are my friends when I...
    DrGrilledCheese DrGrilledCheese 13-15, M 4 Responses Apr 6

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    aLadywithoutaclue aLadywithoutaclue 22-25, F Apr 26

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    2:25am I can't sleep.

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    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 4 Responses Apr 17

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