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I Am My Own Worst Enemy

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    I convince myself to believe

    that I am not worthy of things I've felt fully worthy of before. At times I truly don't believe in myself.
    clamthatjams clamthatjams 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I have managed to screw up every aspect of my

    life and I can't figure out why I keep hurting the ones I love. It's as never ending cycle and can't figure out how to get my life back on track
    brokengirl2394 brokengirl2394 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 12

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    I easily sabotage myself getting places late,

    being lazy and not listening to my inner voice. It's me against myself. I make life harder than it needs to be and I know it.
    Emilyleahywho Emilyleahywho 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    I am always comparing myself to my sister!

    Everything that she did I want to do! Bc I guess I see how proud my family is of her that I want for them to be as equally proud of me! My sister is also beautiful, she's a mom! She's married! And so many other great things! But I put myself down all the time to where sometime I...
    AvaDay AvaDay 18-21, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    I think i do everything to sabotage myself,

    i feel like addicted to misery and even a small possibility of success cause a panic attack in my messed up brain. I wish I could at least stay on the ruins and ashes of my life and think “what a damn perfect catastrophe, beautiful disaster, touching devastation, but there...
    leuconoe leuconoe 31-35, M 2 Responses Jan 14

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    So lately I've been dealing with these creepy

    dreams and thoughts on killing myself. I don't know why but lately I've been super depressed and don't know why. It's like I have to fight myself everyday to not do it or think about killing myself.
    funnyboneo1 funnyboneo1 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 19

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    I really am, I'm an anxious mess prone to

    overreacting and creating scenarios in my brain that couldn't be farther from the truth which only feeds my anxiety. But I am changing for the better! I'm gonna quit smoking , quit all the energy drinks I drink and start running and lifting again 2 years ago I was in...
    steelers7fan steelers7fan 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    Sometimes I just wish I was someone completely

    different.... Sometimes I just can't handle it.. :'(
    NessD98 NessD98 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 8, 2014

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    I keep regretting my behavior

    and who I've been this past week. I've made so many mistakes and can't fix any of them. I can't fix them now and some I can't ever fix. I can't get out of my head. I haven't stopped crying this past week for it. I keep blaming myself for all the problems I've dealt with this...
    Baybae Baybae 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    Need to stop using my credit card

    for gosh sakes or at least pay it off before I use it again :(
    stitch182 stitch182 41-45, M 4 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    Goodbye

    Most people, here on ep wont care about this. But I am typing this just to get it off my chest, anyway. People (my friends, now former coworkers, etc) always love the 'fun' Joey. No one likes the 'sad Joey'. Suffering from depression sucks. Mostly for me because I have to live...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Aug 2, 2013

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    There is constantly a war going on in my head.

    Whenever I find the slightest hint of happiness my mind finds any reason it can to destroy it. There's always a little voice in my head, creating more and more insecurities every day. I just don't know how to handle this anymore.
    EmereyTragedy EmereyTragedy 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    I talk to myself in my head.

    ..daily...it seems like all the time. Most of it is negative crap. How stupid, fat, unloveable, pathetic I am...how I'm not pretty enough, smart enough, thin enough, good enough, etc. It's tiring. I can't imagine letting another person talk to me like that & putting up with...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 4 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    Kimberly543 Kimberly543 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    I am impulsive. My boyfriend

    and I were together 5 years and I found out the girl "friend" we always fought about is now with him since a week after we broke up. I have a huge drinking problem.. I disappoint my family. I brought a guy into my moms house last night and had sex.. She knows. Turns out my...
    brokengirl2394 brokengirl2394 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 17

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    For a while now, my mind has been beating

    itself up over self consciousness. I always feel that some one is just watching me, judging every single move I make, alone or out in public. Though I know this isn't true it hasn't stopped my mind from doing the exact opposite.
    JOJOMCGEEE JOJOMCGEEE 13-15, M Jan 11

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    " You are your own worst enemy.

    If you can learn to stop expecting impossible perfection, in yourself and others, you may find the happiness that has always eluded you" - Lisa Kleypas , Love in the Afternoon I have to learn to remove all these negative thoughts in my head... And apply this quote more to my...
    Aubexile Aubexile 22-25, F 5 Responses Oct 21, 2014

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    RainSword RainSword 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 16, 2014

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    I love being alone, but I get

    so lonely, does anyone else feel this?
    melodyfey melodyfey 18-21, F 9 Responses Dec 9, 2014

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    Frustrating

    i do destructive things to myself all the time. not only do i abuse alcohol and drugs. i smoke, eat horrible foods, and tan. and these are just a few things. on top of all of this, i'm a self mutilator. i'm destroying myself. and right now. nothing of significance has happened...
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 17 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    I guess I'm just posting this to let out my

    emotions. Never used this sight before but I've read plenty of experiences here and wish to share mine. As a child I had a great life until my parents got divorced. I didn't notice but I guess my parents did and they told me that I had started acting our; I was about 7...
    iasonfinnegan iasonfinnegan 18-21, M 5 Responses a week ago

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    I really don't know who I am anymore.

    I know changes in my life need to be made and so desperately want them but always end up finding an excuse or reason not to make them. I convince myself that things are ok for so long and then end up having a really bad night like tonight. I hate me for pitying myself and end up...
    lu3elle79 lu3elle79 31-35, F 16 Responses Aug 2, 2014

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    The only person I've ever fought in my whole

    life was myself. It will drive you mad!
    Salute2MyFlaws Salute2MyFlaws 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 8, 2014

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    I have got to stop letting people stress me out.

    But given a lifetime of shut up and take it it's easier said than done. I have keep how stressed and depressed I am a secret so long, that no one in my life really sees how past the breaking point I am
    Wantfreedom67 Wantfreedom67 46-50, F 2 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    AngelIsMyName AngelIsMyName 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 17

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    Don't you hate when you try to have a

    conversation with yourself and you are told to shut up. :/
    NoOneImportantNow NoOneImportantNow 46-50, M 3 Responses Aug 14, 2014

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    The past won't leave me alone.

    .. Playing over and over and over in my head... I haven't hurt myself in so long, I haven't drank or smoked weed... I haven't used any of my old coping methods in so long and I can't think of any other way to deal with it all lately... My counsellor decided not to bother replying...
    zozage zozage 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 7

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    i don't know why not just kill me I'm not

    afraid i can't even see tired of myself of saying anything maybe talks not enough but i can't sing i don't know why i keep doing it its just more pain within a deep pit i carry a load alone no one understands i just wish i lived on my own lands a dream filled with beauty...
    Jin777 Jin777 18-21, M Dec 26, 2014

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    I'm not suicidal but I think I beat myself down

    for all the mistakes I've done. For all the things I did and did not do. For what I am and what I am not. I am my own worst enemy and it's hindering my happiness.
    sugarprincess23 sugarprincess23 22-25, F 6 Responses May 30, 2014

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    I have depression. It's so,

    so hard. Every day is a battle for survival against myself. The worst part is nobody seems to believe me.
    MasqueradeMe MasqueradeMe 13-15, F 5 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    I follow my hearts desire

    and it usually ends badly. Knowing this it never stops me. I always have a lucid moment when I know I'm crossing a line and can go back. But I never do. I have had panic attacks during those lucid moments and try to do the right thing. My hearts desire is much to strong and only...
    bongbabexo bongbabexo 31-35, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Danceofhours Danceofhours 41-45, M 5 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    I post pretty pictures of my life

    but inside I have no idea what I'm doing with it.
    jadiss1 jadiss1 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 18, 2014

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    We all are. Accept yourself,

    love yourself and dominate your greatest vices to discover your unimaginable strength. Know thyself, I've heard it said.
    gazingbeyond gazingbeyond 31-35, M Jan 18

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    I constantly downgrade myself

    and no matter what others say to bring me down what I call myself is the worst. Tough love? Maybe. I think it's just sometimes when so many people refuse to love you, you learn not love yourself. And when people finally start to love you then sometimes move away because even...
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    SuperGhost SuperGhost 31-35, M 3 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    I'm an extreme over thinker.

    (Call me pretty? I spend legit 2 hours over thinking if u just said that or u meant it) I have a low self confidence. (I really have no reason for it I just do dill with it) I tend to care for other more then myself leaving me at the point where I know nothing about myself (I...
    sixpackbookworm sixpackbookworm 13-15, F 8 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    My boyfriend (or ex now I suppose) left me a

    note leaving me during the week. We've had a really difficult weekend - both being petty but he was pretty cruel too. He has rang and apologised, even telling me my life is really good, he just wasn't happy. I've began moving back into my parents but my self esteem is shot. I...
    missdan missdan 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    I saw myself today hanging from a pole with a

    rope tied around my neck. This is getting out of hand. Ropes were all around me.
    allie724 allie724 16-17, F 8 Responses Dec 10, 2014

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    I'm skyler I'm 15 and I can't do this anymore I

    need some one to talk to I have no one I need some one
    itsme1997 itsme1997 16-17, F 11 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    I think I'm cursed because everything I do

    or say is wrong... Nobody understands what I go through..I can be laughing on the outside but dying on the inside...Truth be told I'm so harsh on myself that I can make me burst into tears...I'm my own worst enemy.
    Alisha39 Alisha39 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 13

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    lanna620 lanna620 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2014

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    I'm ******* miserable

    and I can't put my finger on why.
    Dreamerrrrrrr Dreamerrrrrrr 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 14

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    It sucks. When I write I criticize myself way

    too hard, I put myself down in general like when I try clothes on or I see someone prettier. I don't know how to change that and be happy with how I am.
    Dunebug94 Dunebug94 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 17

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    "You" he said "are a terribly real thing in a

    terribly false world, and that, I believe, is why your in so much pain"
    everythingburns everythingburns 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 12, 2014

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    freemindcollegegirl freemindcollegegirl 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    I always f things up

    for myself. I'm scared to open up and have my guard up most of the time. Im sure I have run away when I could have gotten closer to others. But it feels stronger.
    theemercedes theemercedes 36-40, F 5 Responses Jan 9

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    I would love to stop getting in my own way

    every time something positive happens in my life. To stop saying why and start saying why not! Stop over thinking situations. I mentally complicate everything. I am way too hyper sensitive. I can get way to high when things are good and just totally hit bottom if something...
    newlifeforme73 newlifeforme73 41-45, M 4 Responses Oct 24, 2014

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    After being in therapy

    for quite some time now, I see that other people think highly of me and I get told that I am cute and adorable. I spend so much time getting ready everyday to make myself look as good as possible and I spend so much time looking in the mirror (not in a conceited way) trying to...
    Missprincessgabby Missprincessgabby 16-17, F 10 Responses Aug 14, 2014

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    Perpetually. Stupid brain.

    Self-critique can crank itself up into a constant, malicious background static inside one's skull.
    morea morea 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 23, 2014

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    I really am my own worst enemy.

    . I've had a good day, yet only I could possibly drag myself down to the point of tears... Why? Bringing up old memories, igniting old emotions and all over again find myself in pain and crying over nothing... I don't know why I have to do this.... But now I'm just lying here...
    catho catho 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 4

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