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I Am My Own Worst Enemy

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    I am being really hard on myself at the moment.

    I feel like everything is collapsing around me, failed business relationship that isn't working out, no permanent place to stay, recently lost an elderly loved one. I feel extremely mixed up and emotional. I am wondering if anyone has any tips for low mood and to stop me feeling...
    scunnered scunnered 26-30, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Without a doubt, I am.

    I know exactly how to stop letting myself get used, it's easy, just don't go out alone to parties where I don't know anyone. If i'm at a party with friends, nothing happens. It's not even that they have to stop anything from happening, I'm simply a different person, I'm always...
    hayliepartychick hayliepartychick 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 19

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    I've almost killed myself 3 times

    and I have scars on my left forearm
    xlxyelliexlx xlxyelliexlx 13-15, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Everything I Do Holds Me Down

    Everyone always tells me I am a nice person and everything, but I refuse to believe them, and instead choose to believe that they are just trying to be nice. All the things I tell myself keep me from really doing what I want to do, but I just don't see myself as good enough. Out...
    Distanced Distanced 16-18, M 13 Responses Jan 10, 2007

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    Hidden to go unnoticed.

    .. Hurt when no one notices.
    MissWorld33 MissWorld33 36-40, F 4 Responses Mar 7

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    I never let anyone in.

    Putting a block over myself to prevent further damage even know I know that's stopping me from having real relationships
    francesca223 francesca223 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Revelation Of The Daemon Seed

    This is an old poem, the one poem I have ever felt has come close to my own expectations and criticisims, though still falling short. The relevance however still stands true. Of late I have been feeling an overwhelming desire to return to my old ways, once again drowning my...
    Lemartes Lemartes 31-35, M Sep 19, 2012

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    My Mind Is My Prison.

    Sometimes I am afraid that I am the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I feel like every time I try and do something that might make my life better, my mind says no. It keeps me from going out and doing things, from being social. For example right now, all I can think...
    thequietguy thequietguy 18-21, M 9 Responses Mar 2, 2011

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    Okay so this is going to be really long

    but I need some advice. How do I stop hating my boyfriend's ex? The first time I met my boyfriend was at a friends birthday party and he was there with his girlfriend that I've known of for years. Her and I have never really been friends but I've known of her. I thought he was...
    sailormoon417 sailormoon417 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Mistakes

    I have to admit that most of the mistakes in my life came from my own actions. Stupid mistakes that I could have avoided because I knew better. The consequences of some of these actions were huge. I'm tired of learning from my mistakes.
    pentupfreedom pentupfreedom 46-50, M Dec 12, 2012

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    I live a double life,

    I go to work in a good office act professional like I have my life together and when I leave I pop a few pills smoke some weed and stay out all night with the man I'm in love with.. We have rough passionate sex unlike anything I have ever experianced and I cover my bruises and...
    katharine8891 katharine8891 22-25, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Put Your Dukes Up

    I don't need any help from anyone .... when it comes to kicking my *** .... Thank ya very much. I do a fine job without any help!
    MorningBreeze MorningBreeze 56-60, F 1 Response Jun 18, 2011

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    I Never Touched The Hot Stove

    I am twenty-one years old, and I feel like I missed out on those teenage years where I was supposed to do stupid things like sneak out of my house and make out with people and be a stupid teenager. I have always learned my lessons easily- like too easily. I learned not to touch...
    Nereida13 Nereida13 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 15, 2011

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    I feel like I will never enough.

    Today actually my friend told me that she bet that I haven't ever had a boyfriend and that even if someone would ask me out I would be quick to say yes cause I'm basically desperate. It hurt when she said that I really never had a boy friend before and I'm 16 and skinny and flat...
    leelo46 leelo46 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I need someone to talk to

    so bad. I ruin everything I touch and every friend I ever had left me because I'm such a mess. I'm so alone please help if you can.
    ambernolastname ambernolastname 13-15, F 6 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    In Neglect, Thank You Robert Frost.

    They leave us to the way we took, as two in whom they were proved mistaken, that we sit sometimes in the wayside nook, with mischievous, vagrant, seraphic look, and try if we cannot feel forsaken.
    SilentBluemoon SilentBluemoon 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2013

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    I hate myself, I feel like a worthless piece of

    crap. I'm overweight and ugly. I'm in a show choir so everytime someone else's dress fits perfectly and they add a panel to my dress cause it's not even close to zipping it just makes me feel worse plus we do workouts where I will always be the slowest gasping for a breath and...
    melkate16 melkate16 16-17, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    Overthinking, moodiness,

    laziness, procrastination, caring too much about what others may thing, difficulty to say no...these are my enemies in life.
    gio36 gio36 36-40, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm constantly critical of myself

    because I think I can do better, which I can. However, there comes a time when one has to accept themselves as they are. It's not easy to just get to that conclusion. There are always obstacles that keep us from being who we want to be, but that's life. We all hopefully learn...
    agathashelly agathashelly 26-30, F Feb 4

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    An Island Kingdom

    As I close my eyes I see myself sitting on a throne in the middle of a desolate Island. Along the shores expand bridges leading to the mainlands, each bridge representing a relationship, past and present; friends, family, lovers and aquaintances, and one large arched bridge, a...
    Lemartes Lemartes 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 21, 2012

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    I've lived a life beyond my years.

    I've been hospitalized twice , have been inpatient once, I had to do partial care for 2 1/2 months which is a half a day inpatient program , have done outpatient therapy once , and now I have to do intensive outpatient where the therapist comes to my house. I have numerous scars...
    Kaylaana Kaylaana 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    I have recently decided to stop being my own

    worst enemy. I have recently decided to try to change things for the better and care more about myself.
    saddeena saddeena 41-45, F 13 Responses May 3

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    I've never tried to share my deep thoughts with

    anyone. Why? I don't think any one will understand, or they might just think it's stupid. But I'm giving this app a try, because I knows it's good to share your thoughts, someone out there might feel the same. My self esteem is very low, although the people around me can't see...
    StarBerryAdi StarBerryAdi 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I sometimes feel like I live a double life.

    At work I'm the happy confident girl that always has a smile on her face and is always laughing. On my own I look in the mirror and feel disgust. I feel miserable all the time. The fake smile isn't even fooling me anymore
    bluesgem bluesgem 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Goodbye

    Most people, here on ep wont care about this. But I am typing this just to get it off my chest, anyway. People (my friends, now former coworkers, etc) always love the 'fun' Joey. No one likes the 'sad Joey'. Suffering from depression sucks. Mostly for me because I have to live...
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Aug 2, 2013

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    Lately I just can't enjoy anything,

    people try to cheer me up and I'm just like yeah, blah. Whatever. Leave me alone heh....not at a happy place in life right now, its frustrating.
    lucidity91 lucidity91 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Eyes popped open at 4:30 am.

    Now I'm wide awake. Dammit
    biggunsatx biggunsatx 36-40, M 2 days ago

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    My boyfriend mum text is ex bf sayin she misses

    some times they had and is ex gf rote all never forgot the 4years I spent with your son n your family does that mean she still likes him
    lauratourney lauratourney 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm not suicidal but I think I beat myself down

    for all the mistakes I've done. For all the things I did and did not do. For what I am and what I am not. I am my own worst enemy and it's hindering my happiness.
    sugarprincess23 sugarprincess23 22-25, F 8 Responses May 30

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    I walk outside into a perfect day.

    I feel the sun on my cheeks. I hear faint bongos carried by laughter floating through the yards. There is a black and yellow butterfly dancing through my garden, standing out amongst the pink, white and green. As I watch her, I envy her. Her freedom. If I was not here, if my...
    themancontent themancontent 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    My Character Flaws Are the ...

    My character flaws are the downfall of me.  My naivity lets people get the best of me.  I get hurt easily and let myself down.  I'm so afraid of failure that I sometimes don't even try.  That's why I set my standards and goals so low that I don't ever...
    theophania theophania 22-25, F 5 Responses May 13, 2007

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    I am my own worst enemy

    and I can't change that. I want to be able to show my real self but my body keeps me from doing so. I am a free and happy soul but being FAT makes it all hard.
    Fatimatam Fatimatam 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    I was in treatment a few months ago

    when one of the ladies was said to the group "have you ever been bullied" almost every person raised their hands. Except me. I honestly have never been bullied by other people I've always prided myself on being loveable.. But the lady turns to me and says "Destiny, you have...
    WhatABeautifulMess97 WhatABeautifulMess97 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Relief

    As the blade run through my skin, I felt the familiar relief. I could still feel then, I wasn't the hollow shell I thought I was. I watched the blood ooze and smile. One day this would all be over.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 17, 2013

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    But It's Actually Quite A Positive Thing

    I actually get along great with myself. There's still a little subconscious clutter in there waiting to be burned through, but on the whole my brain is pretty cooperative. No thing and no person out there has the power to eff with my like my own brain can. Natural or...
    slow4speed slow4speed 22-25, F 4 Responses May 24, 2012

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    I hate the way I look,

    I've lost over 140lbs and the more I lose the more I hate myself. Really trying to embrace me and my accomplishments but all I see is the flaws. I've been single for years then dated someone three months before they told me that they were settling with me and that they didn't...
    jedimistressg jedimistressg 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    TheEnemyWithin TheEnemyWithin 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    dr0wining dr0wining 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Oh how I have regrets.

    Oh so many regrets.
    NoMoreTearsToni NoMoreTearsToni 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I am totally my own worst enemy.

    You would think that after making mistakes you would Learn from them....me...well I carry on regardless. In doing so I have hurt others ....wish I would learn old enough...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Dec 31, 2013

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    I can tells person to love themselves

    unconditionally, to not let others opinions contribute to their confidence and self esteem, to be confident and love their body, personality, sense of humor, everything... But I absolutely despise myself...
    WhatABeautifulMess97 WhatABeautifulMess97 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    I'm sure you heard this saying.

    Your worst enemy is yourself. It's so true. You need to fix your own problems. Before you try to fix someone else's problems.
    Deeperthinker Deeperthinker 31-35, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I feel like I'm in the worst dream ever,

    and I'm trying to wake up, but the more I try, the more I cry and realize that this is my reality. And it really sucks!!!
    wishingforabetteroutcome wishingforabetteroutcome 31-35, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Frustrating

    i do destructive things to myself all the time. not only do i abuse alcohol and drugs. i smoke, eat horrible foods, and tan. and these are just a few things. on top of all of this, i'm a self mutilator. i'm destroying myself. and right now. nothing of significance has happened...
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 17 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    I am my own worst enemy My own personal

    adversary When thoughts run amok inside of me And my mind no longer feels free ? I am my own worst enemy When I wrestle with my sanity And succumb to my own vanity Finding no internal sanctuary ? I am my own worst enemy When serenity escapes me Giving way to doubt...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M 17 hrs ago

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    I keep choosing the things in life,

    that make me unhappy. I am confused all the time, sometimes I get clearity... but get so scared I run back to the confusion. I know what I want. I want to move, I want to be near nature. I want 4 seasons, mountains and forest. I feel so at peace when I'm in the woods. It's like...
    buscameenelcielo buscameenelcielo 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 12

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    Scenario/Question: True story: I went to a

    routine physical last year on my birthday, which is on Halloween. My doctor, a young female doctor, was dressed as a housewife with curlers and a robe. We got through all the routine stuff quickly enough. Then she sat on a stool and wheeled herself over to me and asked me to...
    biggunsatx biggunsatx 36-40, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I have a loving husband,

    a good job, and three almost grown children. Why do I want to leave it all? I just want to be left alone, be quiet and not deal with every ones problems or conflicts. Must be the age/life situation. Four of my coworkers are in divorces, soon to be empty nesters, looking at...
    niffy50s niffy50s 51-55, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm horny & on my period.

    The struggle..
    jaylax13 jaylax13 16-17, F Jun 22

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    Wake up and realize that I have no life

    and go back to sleep all day. All I do is sleep and eat all day.
    BrainsBeautyBrianna BrainsBeautyBrianna 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Somehow everyone else can believe in me

    and see the potential that I have. I wish I had there eyesight because all I see is a lazy teenager who complains about everything.
    WinterSkyout WinterSkyout 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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