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I Am Never Happy

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    Why Can't I Be Happy?

    I diserve to be happy. I can't remember the last time that I was truly happy. I don't even know if I have ever been happy. Why can't I have this??
    mensrea mensrea 18-21, F Jan 21, 2009

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    Choice

    Each moment I can choose joy or misery. It is my choice and no one can make it for me. Sometimes people express anger when I choose joy while the hand of fate is slapping the stuffing out of me. I don't mean to offend but the absurdity of my best efforts to succeed are ridiculous...
    Katie6963 Katie6963 61-65, F 2 Responses May 26, 2013

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    No Matter What, I Am Never Happy

    It doesn't matter what I do, where I go, or where life takes me ... I am never happy. What else is there to say? Nothing is ever quite right or good enough for me, including myself. There's always something wrong with my job, my house, my friends, my religion, my finances, my...
    ConstantBattle ConstantBattle 36-40 8 Responses Apr 11, 2011

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    Weird Obstacles

    I always have this dream like once a week, if its not this dream then i dont have a dream. Its the only dream i always get, i remember that i was going to try and visit somebody, but then there is this big buff women telling me i have to pass these moving electrical barb wire so...
    casius casius 16-17 Dec 8, 2008

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    Why Can't I Just Be Like Everyone Else

    I honestly can't think of the last time I was truly happy. When I'm out with friends I just find myself watching them have fun while I sit there and wait for the night to end. Whenever I'm alone, I want to be around people. But whenever I'm around people, I just want the to leave...
    Princesstess12 Princesstess12 18-21 Oct 20, 2012

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    I Am Never Happy, And I Dont Tell Anyone.

    When it comes to the way a woman looks, I am never fully happy with the ones i get because i settle and i dont wait for what i truely want or desire.
    juncky juncky 26-30, M May 14, 2012

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    I walk around like nothing is wrong.

    Fake smiling has become routine. I don't know what to do with myself. Every attempt at being truly happy never works. I always hate myself. I always want to look skinnier, prettier, shorter, taller, etc. I always want to change myself on the outside, so I can feel comfort. I...
    adventuretimer adventuretimer 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 24, 2014

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    anf37 anf37 22-25, F Jan 25, 2010

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    Frustrated With Life

    I too am always unhappy, as a matter of fact that is how I found this site. I googled I am always unhappy and this site popped up. My husband is sitting at the end of our bed while I've been laying here on my phone for the last couple hours. The sad thing is I don't really care...
    ssuperwoman77 ssuperwoman77 26-30, F Sep 12, 2013

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    I don't remember the last time I was truly

    happy. Maybe sometimes before high school. Now I am 23 and miserable all the time. I feel like I am wasting my time, not doing what I love, not making my dreams come true. I had so many big plans and goals for myself and haven't made any of those come true. I feel like a failure...
    5sosfam 5sosfam 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 18, 2014

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    Fear

    I am not only never truly happy, I am afraid of happiness. I'm scared to death that even the smallest amount of happiness will be torn away from me by some set back or unfortunate event. I've become so suicidal in past months it's unbearable.
    gygamer gygamer 26-30 1 Response Apr 22, 2009

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    Nothing Is Ever Good Enough......

    I don't know why but nothing is ever good enough for me - ever.  I suppose it's what makes me good at sales?  Being greedy I suppose would be one way of looking at it I dunno for me it's like this... I have a decent life, a good job, great friends, all creature...
    lemonslice lemonslice 26-30 8 Responses Feb 11, 2009

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    Why

    I cant explain why I'm never happy about anything .               Yes, I went to a doctor. Yes, I am taking antidepressants.        Yes, they worked for a brief time & it...
    valy valy 36-40, F Jan 1, 2008

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    Not Anymore

    My pchsyciatrist asked me today if I can see myself becoming happy.  I diddnt reply for a long time.  Then finally after she stared me down I said "No". I can't see myself being happy.  Not ever.  I cant even remember the last time I was truly...
    FallingStarr FallingStarr 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 27, 2009

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    Well.. today makes 17 years ive been on the

    planet... I spent it in my bed crying just like last year.. I just want to get away!!!! I can never find Someone who makes me happy.. I always Think maybe if I get a boyfriend he will keep me occupied enough to not think about how crappy my life. I always want to fix other...
    susiehomemakur susiehomemakur 26-30 Mar 27, 2014

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    Is It Just The Ups And Downs Of Life Or Is Something Wrong With Me?

    I don't know where to begin really, I could list my whole life and explain away things but the situation for me at the moment is simply that I've met such an amazing women and been with her for roughly 5 months now. I love her completly and I know she loves me. This is a big deal...
    gazado gazado 26-30 3 Responses Nov 24, 2010

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    Now , when you hear my story you may think I am

    insane for being depressed and have anxiety... I am 18 and I recently just got a soccer scholarship to the states , NCAA d1... I am so scared to go, I don't want to at all and I feel stuck. I can't be away from family , I thought I could until now but as time gets closer, I...
    Confused1616 Confused1616 18-21, F Jun 22, 2014

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    Can't think of a time in my life

    when I've been happy and I'm 21. I am average looking, fairly quite but paranoid in front people who are popular or better looking then me especially girls. Sad I know. I have tried to be different on nights out or at work, college etc in hopes that I might feel happier but it...
    sporadicdark sporadicdark 22-25, M Aug 16, 2014

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    This life we all share is crazy. Their are people who believe in a god, people who believe we can from evolution, people who don't give a damn about where we came from. All I know...
    1Freeyourself1 1Freeyourself1 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 14

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    I lost my focus for so long. Wasted so many years waiting for someone else to make me happy. Allowing myself to be buried under negativity, isolation. It doesn't work that way...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 12

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    Never had a good relationship in my life. Don't think I will have one in future. Do I want one? Cuz I keep saying I don't think I'd have one because I'm in my early 40s. Sounds old...
    Myalee Myalee 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 19

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    Me too, I've been there before. I hated everyone. And because of that, I thought that I will never be happy like, forever. I thought that no one could ever save me, but this friend...
    nonexistencexxx nonexistencexxx 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    I've never truly loved my wife, nor do we have great sexual chemistry, but our relationship is otherwise very open and honest. I was mildly depressed getting into it almost a...
    Haplava Haplava 26-30, M Dec 31, 2014

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    So there was this guys I met one day when my friend introduce him to me, first I just found him attractive but wasn't interested in him. But when my friend introduce me to him, he...
    clobusan clobusan 16-17, F Jan 11

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    I am happy for you. I hope now that you have found that happiness with someone else that you can see what I was always trying to say. You didn't love me, you were infatuated with...
    IllusiveLittleMe IllusiveLittleMe 26-30, F Jan 4

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    I have been depressed for as long as I can remember. However, Today I felt kinda happy. When I woke up I came to accept the fact that I never had a girlfriend, no 1st kiss, no...
    KianZzy KianZzy 18-21, M Jan 12

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    Letter 4 Steve I'm so confused right now. What is it that you want? What is it that's important to you? It should be your daughters but again I fear it's not. You've had the dolls...
    Sunrise13 Sunrise13 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    You know, despite my ****** past and ****** situation, I think I'm finally happy. I have wonderful friends who care about me even though I'm an *******. I started talking to...
    RyderSebastian RyderSebastian 16-17, M Dec 30, 2014

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    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel 31-35, F 3 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    I honestly think I haven't been happy like this in my entire life. Since we signed the divorce papers and I moved back to my home country (4 days ago) the only thoughts about my...
    Brownie27 Brownie27 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    Things have a funny way of working themselves out in life, I never thought it would happen to me..but it did, eventually. I haven't been on ep in SUCH a long while and my life has...
    followthewhiterabbit followthewhiterabbit 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    I always forget things that I'm doing. Simple things like when I make a coffee, most of the time I always forget to drink it when I'm doing something or when I'm rushing to go to...
    Achelle07 Achelle07 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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    I know I tell my self and the world that I am NOT intrested in women because I always get rejected, and always was rejected and my feelings hurt for years and years ago. It hurts...
    Niko864 Niko864 41-45, M Jan 19

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    She look happy. She looks beautiful. I miss her but what to do? I dont think she even remembers me 😂 i dont want to cry over **** anymore. **** happens so **** it life didnt...
    gaypanda gaypanda 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 21

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    I grew up in a home where I never felt short of love. My dad passed when I was younger so my mom showed my brother and me more love than I can put into words. She taught me that...
    Dolor1312 Dolor1312 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    ... And I am trying not to be afraid of that! Tonight my kids are with their mom. my GFs child is with her ex. We could spend the evening together, but today I have felt that...
    OldNRusty OldNRusty 41-45, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 16 hrs ago

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    ambmo1 ambmo1 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    Looking up the ceiling all night just thinking about the STUPID things I did with my life and wishing I could change it and telling myself it shouldn't have never happen.. But it...
    DaOneandOnlyOne DaOneandOnlyOne 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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