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I Am Never Happy

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    I walk around like nothing is wrong.

    Fake smiling has become routine. I don't know what to do with myself. Every attempt at being truly happy never works. I always hate myself. I always want to look skinnier, prettier, shorter, taller, etc. I always want to change myself on the outside, so I can feel comfort. I...
    adventuretimer adventuretimer 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 24

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    Choice

    Each moment I can choose joy or misery. It is my choice and no one can make it for me. Sometimes people express anger when I choose joy while the hand of fate is slapping the stuffing out of me. I don't mean to offend but the absurdity of my best efforts to succeed are ridiculous...
    Katie6963 Katie6963 61-65, F 2 Responses May 26, 2013

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    Is It Just The Ups And Downs Of Life Or Is Something Wrong With Me?

    I don't know where to begin really, I could list my whole life and explain away things but the situation for me at the moment is simply that I've met such an amazing women and been with her for roughly 5 months now. I love her completly and I know she loves me. This is a big deal...
    gazado gazado 26-30 3 Responses Nov 24, 2010

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    No Matter What, I Am Never Happy

    It doesn't matter what I do, where I go, or where life takes me ... I am never happy. What else is there to say? Nothing is ever quite right or good enough for me, including myself. There's always something wrong with my job, my house, my friends, my religion, my finances, my...
    ConstantBattle ConstantBattle 36-40 7 Responses Apr 11, 2011

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    Nothing Is Ever Good Enough......

    I don't know why but nothing is ever good enough for me - ever.  I suppose it's what makes me good at sales?  Being greedy I suppose would be one way of looking at it I dunno for me it's like this... I have a decent life, a good job, great friends, all creature...
    lemonslice lemonslice 26-30 8 Responses Feb 11, 2009

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    Weird Obstacles

    I always have this dream like once a week, if its not this dream then i dont have a dream. Its the only dream i always get, i remember that i was going to try and visit somebody, but then there is this big buff women telling me i have to pass these moving electrical barb wire so...
    casius casius 16-17 Dec 8, 2008

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    Why

    I cant explain why I'm never happy about anything .               Yes, I went to a doctor. Yes, I am taking antidepressants.        Yes, they worked for a brief time & it...
    valy valy 36-40, F Jan 1, 2008

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    anf37 anf37 22-25, F Jan 25, 2010

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    I Am Never Happy, And I Dont Tell Anyone.

    When it comes to the way a woman looks, I am never fully happy with the ones i get because i settle and i dont wait for what i truely want or desire.
    juncky juncky 26-30, M May 14, 2012

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    Can't think of a time in my life

    when I've been happy and I'm 21. I am average looking, fairly quite but paranoid in front people who are popular or better looking then me especially girls. Sad I know. I have tried to be different on nights out or at work, college etc in hopes that I might feel happier but it...
    sporadicdark sporadicdark 22-25, M Aug 16

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    Why Can't I Just Be Like Everyone Else

    I honestly can't think of the last time I was truly happy. When I'm out with friends I just find myself watching them have fun while I sit there and wait for the night to end. Whenever I'm alone, I want to be around people. But whenever I'm around people, I just want the to leave...
    Princesstess12 Princesstess12 18-21 Oct 20, 2012

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    Fear

    I am not only never truly happy, I am afraid of happiness. I'm scared to death that even the smallest amount of happiness will be torn away from me by some set back or unfortunate event. I've become so suicidal in past months it's unbearable.
    gygamer gygamer 26-30 1 Response Apr 22, 2009

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    Well.. today makes 17 years ive been on the

    planet... I spent it in my bed crying just like last year.. I just want to get away!!!! I can never find Someone who makes me happy.. I always Think maybe if I get a boyfriend he will keep me occupied enough to not think about how crappy my life. I always want to fix other...
    susiehomemakur susiehomemakur 26-30 Mar 27

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    Not Anymore

    My pchsyciatrist asked me today if I can see myself becoming happy.  I diddnt reply for a long time.  Then finally after she stared me down I said "No". I can't see myself being happy.  Not ever.  I cant even remember the last time I was truly...
    FallingStarr FallingStarr 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 27, 2009

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    Frustrated With Life

    I too am always unhappy, as a matter of fact that is how I found this site. I googled I am always unhappy and this site popped up. My husband is sitting at the end of our bed while I've been laying here on my phone for the last couple hours. The sad thing is I don't really care...
    ssuperwoman77 ssuperwoman77 26-30, F Sep 12, 2013

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    Why Can't I Be Happy?

    I diserve to be happy. I can't remember the last time that I was truly happy. I don't even know if I have ever been happy. Why can't I have this??
    mensrea mensrea 18-21, F Jan 21, 2009

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    Now , when you hear my story you may think I am

    insane for being depressed and have anxiety... I am 18 and I recently just got a soccer scholarship to the states , NCAA d1... I am so scared to go, I don't want to at all and I feel stuck. I can't be away from family , I thought I could until now but as time gets closer, I...
    Confused1616 Confused1616 18-21, F Jun 22

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    I don't remember the last time I was truly

    happy. Maybe sometimes before high school. Now I am 23 and miserable all the time. I feel like I am wasting my time, not doing what I love, not making my dreams come true. I had so many big plans and goals for myself and haven't made any of those come true. I feel like a failure...
    5sosfam 5sosfam 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 18

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    I keep telling myself not to think or care too much about it, because I don't want to be that person whose happiness is dependent on another. At least whenever someone brings it up...
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    insidious2014 insidious2014 18-21, M 5 Responses Nov 8

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    If your brave enough to say goodbye, life will reward you with a new hello!! Don't be afraid of losing what was never yours to begin with!!
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    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 3 Responses Oct 22

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    WarmGoldenHeart WarmGoldenHeart 31-35, F Nov 11

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    unsaidhazel unsaidhazel 16-17, F 3 days ago

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