I Am Never Happy

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 94 People

    I don't remember the last time I was truly

    happy. Maybe sometimes before high school. Now I am 23 and miserable all the time. I feel like I am wasting my time, not doing what I love, not making my dreams come true. I had so many big plans and goals for myself and haven't made any of those come true. I feel like a failure...
    5sosfam 5sosfam
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 18, 2014

    I hate where I live. I hate my family,

    my school, my personality, my body, myself and my life. I have a foot infection that will never go away, a very weak immunity system and I want to just die...
    FoxFan64 FoxFan64
    16-17, M
    Mar 1

    Why

    I cant explain why I'm never happy about anything .               Yes, I went to a doctor. Yes, I am taking antidepressants.        Yes, they worked for a brief time & it...
    valy valy
    36-40, F
    Jan 1, 2008
    anf37 anf37
    22-25, F
    Jan 25, 2010

    Why Can't I Be Happy?

    I diserve to be happy. I can't remember the last time that I was truly happy. I don't even know if I have ever been happy. Why can't I have this??
    mensrea mensrea
    18-21, F
    Jan 21, 2009

    Frustrated With Life

    I too am always unhappy, as a matter of fact that is how I found this site. I googled I am always unhappy and this site popped up. My husband is sitting at the end of our bed while I've been laying here on my phone for the last couple hours. The sad thing is I don't really care...
    ssuperwoman77 ssuperwoman77
    26-30, F
    Sep 12, 2013

    Choice

    Each moment I can choose joy or misery. It is my choice and no one can make it for me. Sometimes people express anger when I choose joy while the hand of fate is slapping the stuffing out of me. I don't mean to offend but the absurdity of my best efforts to succeed are ridiculous...
    Katie6963 Katie6963
    61-65, F
    1 Response May 26, 2013

    Why Can't I Just Be Like Everyone Else

    I honestly can't think of the last time I was truly happy. When I'm out with friends I just find myself watching them have fun while I sit there and wait for the night to end. Whenever I'm alone, I want to be around people. But whenever I'm around people, I just want the to leave...
    Princesstess12 Princesstess12
    18-21
    Oct 20, 2012

    No Matter What, I Am Never Happy

    It doesn't matter what I do, where I go, or where life takes me ... I am never happy. What else is there to say? Nothing is ever quite right or good enough for me, including myself. There's always something wrong with my job, my house, my friends, my religion, my finances, my...
    ConstantBattle ConstantBattle
    36-40
    10 Responses Apr 11, 2011

    Can't think of a time in my life

    when I've been happy and I'm 21. I am average looking, fairly quite but paranoid in front people who are popular or better looking then me especially girls. Sad I know. I have tried to be different on nights out or at work, college etc in hopes that I might feel happier but it...
    sporadicdark sporadicdark
    26-30, M
    Aug 16, 2014

    Now , when you hear my story you may think I am

    insane for being depressed and have anxiety... I am 18 and I recently just got a soccer scholarship to the states , NCAA d1... I am so scared to go, I don't want to at all and I feel stuck. I can't be away from family , I thought I could until now but as time gets closer, I...
    Confused1616 Confused1616
    18-21, F
    Jun 22, 2014

    Weird Obstacles

    I always have this dream like once a week, if its not this dream then i dont have a dream. Its the only dream i always get, i remember that i was going to try and visit somebody, but then there is this big buff women telling me i have to pass these moving electrical barb wire so...
    casius casius
    16-17
    Dec 8, 2008

    Nothing Is Ever Good Enough......

    I don't know why but nothing is ever good enough for me - ever.  I suppose it's what makes me good at sales?  Being greedy I suppose would be one way of looking at it I dunno for me it's like this... I have a decent life, a good job, great friends, all creature...
    lemonslice lemonslice
    26-30
    8 Responses Feb 11, 2009

    I Am Never Happy, And I Dont Tell Anyone.

    When it comes to the way a woman looks, I am never fully happy with the ones i get because i settle and i dont wait for what i truely want or desire.
    juncky juncky
    26-30, M
    May 14, 2012

    I can never be happy,

    especially for other people. Something good happens to my closest friends, and all it does is create jealousy and makes me feel bad. I should be happy with what I have, but I just can't force myself to feel that way.
    AWalkingCliche AWalkingCliche
    16-17, M
    Jul 1, 2015

    I walk around like nothing is wrong.

    Fake smiling has become routine. I don't know what to do with myself. Every attempt at being truly happy never works. I always hate myself. I always want to look skinnier, prettier, shorter, taller, etc. I always want to change myself on the outside, so I can feel comfort. I...
    adventuretimer adventuretimer
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 24, 2014

    Fear

    I am not only never truly happy, I am afraid of happiness. I'm scared to death that even the smallest amount of happiness will be torn away from me by some set back or unfortunate event. I've become so suicidal in past months it's unbearable.
    gygamer gygamer
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 22, 2009

    Is It Just The Ups And Downs Of Life Or Is Something Wrong With Me?

    I don't know where to begin really, I could list my whole life and explain away things but the situation for me at the moment is simply that I've met such an amazing women and been with her for roughly 5 months now. I love her completly and I know she loves me. This is a big deal...
    gazado gazado
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 24, 2010

    Well.. today makes 17 years ive been on the

    planet... I spent it in my bed crying just like last year.. I just want to get away!!!! I can never find Someone who makes me happy.. I always Think maybe if I get a boyfriend he will keep me occupied enough to not think about how crappy my life. I always want to fix other...
    susiehomemakur susiehomemakur
    26-30
    Mar 27, 2014

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