I Am Never Sure If I Am Welcome

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 218 People

    Right Before I Walk Into A Room Full Of People

    It's so strange. I don't have a fear of public speaking and I don't consider myself to be too socially awkward. But when I know  I'm about to walk into a room full of people, I get this huge wave of fear that comes across me. It's so strange. The entire day I'll be fine, even...
    GoingUnder88 GoingUnder88
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Dec 27, 2010

    To Enter

    Before entering the room, the party, the office, the bar, I need to conquer my insecurity. I'm not safe among people and people are not safe with me because I have no choice but being myself. I will not hurt anybody physically. I never did and I never will. But my...
    moreandless moreandless
    56-60, M
    Aug 23, 2010

    Because People Can Be 2 Faced....

    Like if a co worker calls me over to chat and is with another person, I always worry that they will say something mean once I am gone. In my workplace, people are very 2 faced and I am under no illusions that they aren't the same with me. It is hard at times as I start to feel...
    deleted deleted
    Jun 16, 2011

    Socially Spastic

    This is especially true for each and every new relationship I form... I know I can be way too much and full on, so I just restrain myself - but then I might seem too cold or awkward. I cannot get the hang of finding the perfect midway between being oblivious or intrusive...
    Blumcsi Blumcsi
    26-30, F
    Jul 16, 2008

    Im Not

    I never think i am welcome. I am fairly confident that i am not though.  At least in real life i know. I can judge by the way people react to me that i am not. I never get a "Im so glad you here" or any kind of warm welcome. I don't like being stuck with just me...
    Tacit Tacit
    22-25, F
    8 Responses Jul 15, 2008


    Even at my age I always seem to feel unwelcome.  Im sure its an insecurity within me that makes me feel this way.  But I always get the impression that no one really cares what I have to say, or whatever I say is not welcome.  It is difficult...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings
    6 Responses May 10, 2009

    People Sometimes Don't Even Grasp the Intrusion,

    ...even if it was invited.  All it takes is a moment of acceptance or a motion of revulsion.
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Apr 21, 2009

    Old Experiences I Don't Have To Carry With Me Any More

    Oh, this is such a silly aspect to myself.  It's all about feelings of self-doubt and insecurity I should have let go of long, long ago rather than hanging around me like some old, worn-out cloak.  It stems from my school day, when I often was treated like I wasn't...
    UnderEli UnderEli
    46-50, M
    1 Response Oct 9, 2010
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