I Am Not a Good Person Sometimes

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 220 People

    I have many emotional problems stemming from

    past abuse. I oftentimes turn to drugs to ease my pain, still after having quit using them regularly. Every so often I'll slip and use. A lot of my past relationships have been based on need, not love. I oftentimes broke up with people because I found their caring to be...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 9, 2015

    Im Not a Good Person At All!

    I have been wanting to do something for over a year, haven`t done it because am too terrified. If i do it, im almost sure it might ruin my life because of something called karma. but if i don`t i don`t think i will ever be happy. If i do it, i am going to hurt too many...
    cozy cozy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 12, 2009

    Yeah

    I'm not a good person sometimes. I'm rude, a bit immature, bad temper, bad attitude.  
    mother1983 mother1983
    31-35, F
    7 Responses Jul 26, 2008

    Not Far

    To meet a not so good person one need not have to travel far As some like to tell us we are what we are Though we do have life choices as the more judgmental do say Many are doing it tough in the World of today From life we've been learning since before we've learned how to crawl...
    CMA1234 CMA1234
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Jan 18, 2012

    Im not a good person At all.

    There are people out there who help the needy and donate to charraties. And there are people who are just genuinely nice and good. That's not me. I mean I am a nice person. Im just not a good person. I am a terrible. I am impulsive. I am irrational. I am so messed up! And I...
    lexiab123 lexiab123
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Dec 23, 2013

    I May Not Be A Good Person, But I Am A Person.

    Sometimes i hold the knife in my hands while doing things like cutting onions, and i feel like taking it and putting it away. Hold that thought. Is that normal? My hope is that someone else will pick out the knife and the onion smell will make thier eyes water.
    LikeAcer LikeAcer
    13-15
    Nov 16, 2012

    i really don't get in touch with the people i

    met after i got done with school or quit a job. its like they're strangers to me now and i just ignore them as i pass them by.
    TheTofuMaster TheTofuMaster
    22-25, M
    1 Response Aug 24, 2014

    I don't believe I deserve sympathy from others.

    I'm not a good person. I'm not a good friend.. I'm not good for anyone's life. I think that's how it should stay.
    Safetysuit96 Safetysuit96
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 31, 2014

    But i keep trying to get better.

    I'm hoping to live long enough to work out all the kinks and knots. I figure, by the time i am 120 years old i just might be halfway decent. Meanwhile, I struggle along. Trying my best to be kind and loving. Maybe people will begin to think I am a good person. It's a tough...
    Serenitree1 Serenitree1
    70+, F
    2 Responses Mar 18

    Internal Dialogue

    For all intensive purposes I appear to be a nice enough person. I smile at people, I show interest in their lives and pay attention to what they say. In my line of work I have to be nice to strangers all day long no matter how bad I am feeling myself. But my internal dialogue is...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 24, 2012

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