I Am Not a Memory

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 22 People

    But My Brothers Treat Me As Such

    they never talk to me.they never even notice me.when i had surgery,they did not come.my oldest brother i have not seen in six years.but,he lives four blocks away.if i go,his fiance will meet me and say he is not home.if i call,he will not answer.they never give it a second...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself
    36-40
    Apr 19, 2011

    I Am Not A Memory

    I am a part of memories. The memories other people have of me. My parents, friends, sister. I am not a memory. I am still here, still me, still creating new memories of myself in other peoples minds. I am not a memory! Maybe if I keep saying it I will believe it.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Oct 25, 2009

    Nope

    I am flesh and blood standing here before you waiting and still waiting more.  I am not a memory because I see the future.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jan 5, 2010

    Not Even That

    for those I have had contact with in my life, I wonder if I am a memory to them....I wonder if they think about me...I WANT to be a memory....since I don't really exist to anyone in real time
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 26, 2009

    A Memory

    A memory,Not yet,I'm still here,As far as I know,I'm still alive.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    Feb 8, 2012

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