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I Am Not a Monster

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    Hi you will think I am a monster

    before the end of this experience an that's ok I feel like a monster. I am not a monster though and I need to keep telling myself that. I live in regina saskatchewan canada and I am considering at the age of 36 for the first time in my life .... Having an affair. Considering...
    TheLionGod TheLionGod 36-40, M 4 Responses Oct 3

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    At Times.....

    .....my anger overwhelms me and I say things I do not mean and lose my mind, but I am not a monster for it. However, I can be moody, vicious, mean, hurtful and down right awful....but a monster? I don't think so. Gosh it is tough to see my actions in black and white here. But I...
    MegJgeM MegJgeM 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 21, 2009

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    Not A Monster

    Not a monster,Not at all,Get to know me,I'm really quite soft!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Jan 18, 2012

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    I Tell This To Myself

        i tell myself you are not a monster . you just have health problems.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 5, 2009

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    That's What They Say...

    That's what my parents told me... I am an ugly monster. But, I'm not!!!! I am not an animal! I am a human being! I am a man!!!!
    drcynic drcynic 26-30, M 12 Responses Apr 16, 2009

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    Contrary to Popular Belief.

    No, I am not a monster.  IDK why so many people insist on thinking that.  I really am a nice, big hearted person.  I've just been hardened a bit by life, that's all.
    urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin 22-25, F 15 Responses Apr 15, 2009

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    Maybe I Am.

    I've always seen my mother as a monster. I know I have some of her "qualities". The more like her I feel that I am, the more I want to shoot myself. I can't stand the idea of being like her. Shes mentally and emotionally abuse two of her "beloved" kids. She tended to physically...
    doritos1254 doritos1254 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 22, 2011

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    To Some I Am

    I can't understand why people feel that I am some kind of freak or monster.  I am a human being that bleeds when I'm cut, that feels real emotions when put down, who loves with all my heart and has compassion for others.  So what if my body doesn't conform to what...
    Michellewhois Michellewhois 56-60 4 Responses Jan 15, 2010

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    Real Friends

    I thought being friends meant hanging out together and just talking about one another's flaws or talking about how cute a guy is... but since I've parted from those friends who hurt me and made me a different person, I've made new friends who I've opened up to. It makes me...
    FinallyHeard FinallyHeard 13-15, F Mar 15, 2010

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    Your memory is a monster; you forget - it

    doesn't. It simply files things away. It keeps things for you, or hides things from you - and summons them to your recall with a will of its own. You think you have a memory; but it has you!
    Baza69 Baza69 16-17, M Jun 1

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    Obviously

    I can be mean but I have my nice side too.Come on Vampires are people too :P I am not a monster but I can't guarantee you I would not suck your blood lol
    bellas31 bellas31 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 10, 2009

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    "monster"........................

                I wonder why I cant be normal. Why is there a monster inside me that never leaves? Why am I never good enough? The disappointments. It scares me how everyday the monster takes more of me . Make me step closer to the ledge. When will this ledge. When will this...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 19, 2011

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    Um

    I LIEDYESSS I AMGGROOOWWWWWWLLLLLLLLLRUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNNNNNNNN BEFORE I EAT YOUR ENTRAILS AND BUILD A COAT OF YOUR BONESAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRROOOOOWWWWWWWWLLLLLLLLLL
    Punk1n Punk1n 31-35, F 13 Responses Mar 30, 2011

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    'i'm Fine'................................

    I'm screaming, Moving frantically, I fear that I"m crazy, that I"ll Never be Loved and be Eterity alone I"m fine............................
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 19, 2011

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