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I Am Not a Monster

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    At Times.....

    .....my anger overwhelms me and I say things I do not mean and lose my mind, but I am not a monster for it. However, I can be moody, vicious, mean, hurtful and down right awful....but a monster? I don't think so. Gosh it is tough to see my actions in black and white here. But I...
    MegJgeM MegJgeM 36-40, F 3 Responses Jun 21, 2009

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    i may get angry and shouts

    and screams a lot but im not a monster....
    yuush yuush 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2015

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    Contrary to Popular Belief.

    No, I am not a monster.  IDK why so many people insist on thinking that.  I really am a nice, big hearted person.  I've just been hardened a bit by life, that's all.
    urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin 22-25, F 14 Responses Apr 15, 2009

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    To Some I Am

    I can't understand why people feel that I am some kind of freak or monster.  I am a human being that bleeds when I'm cut, that feels real emotions when put down, who loves with all my heart and has compassion for others.  So what if my body doesn't conform to what...
    Michellewhois Michellewhois 56-60 4 Responses Jan 15, 2010

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    How could anyone be if they still have

    conscience? Guilt really kills. If a person who doesn't have a conscience then yes that person is probably a monster if you can't feel nothing and kept hurting others. I'm aware of my actions hurting others, just couldn't control it yet. Feel so guilty, maybe one day I'll...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 30, 2015

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    VampireLoveBite VampireLoveBite 18-21, F Nov 29, 2014

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    My violent urges dont make me one.

    Me fights them. Even after heart attacks. And will walk away If no crime has been committed. But dont use that in my presence Since last time me blacked out. And jerks got tossed.
    JustBipolarMe JustBipolarMe 46-50, M Jun 28, 2015

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    Perhaps, I look like Shrek,

    but I ain't a monster. Rawr. Lol.
    tawless tawless 18-21, M Jun 29, 2015

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    That's What They Say...

    That's what my parents told me... I am an ugly monster. But, I'm not!!!! I am not an animal! I am a human being! I am a man!!!!
    drcynic drcynic 26-30, M 12 Responses Apr 16, 2009

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    But the crisis line likes to lock me up

    for asking to get help with urges. Stupid morons cant talk us down but they can help other morons eat fancy meals by locking us up.
    JustBipolarMe JustBipolarMe 46-50, M Jul 7, 2015

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    Fear can make us look like monsters.

    But we love like you love. Or better. As long as love outweighs pain. And no meds warp our restraint.
    JustBipolarMe JustBipolarMe 46-50, M Jun 28, 2015

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    I'm capable of some horrible things

    but I can assure you that I'm 100% human.
    Irvyy Irvyy 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 29, 2015

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    'i'm Fine'................................

    I'm screaming, Moving frantically, I fear that I"m crazy, that I"ll Never be Loved and be Eterity alone I"m fine............................
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 19, 2011

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    Not A Monster

    Not a monster,Not at all,Get to know me,I'm really quite soft!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Jan 18, 2012

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    We went out and bought some black lights

    and party supplies for my daughter dance party, she is turning 7 this year. I picked up this stuff thinking it would be cool. My spouse has forbidden me from wearing this to the party..... Lol, while discovering how much I looked like Michael Myers I took a bunch of selfies...
    TheLionGod TheLionGod 36-40, M 2 Responses Mar 5, 2015

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    Monster, how should I feel?

    Creatures lie here, looking through the windows...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 7, 2015

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    Hi you will think I am a monster

    before the end of this experience an that's ok I feel like a monster. I am not a monster though and I need to keep telling myself that. I live in regina saskatchewan canada and I am considering at the age of 36 for the first time in my life .... Having an affair. Considering...
    TheLionGod TheLionGod 36-40, M 3 Responses Oct 3, 2014

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    A bully father tried.

    Moronic employers tried. And assorted bullies tried. But all failed. Because i am not a monster. And the fights caused. Are just proof that they broke me But couldnt free my monster for long.
    JustBipolarMe JustBipolarMe 46-50, M 1 Response Jun 28, 2015

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    I Tell This To Myself

        i tell myself you are not a monster . you just have health problems.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 5, 2009

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    Your memory is a monster; you forget - it

    doesn't. It simply files things away. It keeps things for you, or hides things from you - and summons them to your recall with a will of its own. You think you have a memory; but it has you!
    Baza69 Baza69 18-21, M Jun 1, 2014

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    Real Friends

    I thought being friends meant hanging out together and just talking about one another's flaws or talking about how cute a guy is... but since I've parted from those friends who hurt me and made me a different person, I've made new friends who I've opened up to. It makes me...
    FinallyHeard FinallyHeard 13-15, F Mar 15, 2010

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    I probably just made it hard

    for someone to go to sleep tonight lol
    RainbowWolf13 RainbowWolf13 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 7, 2014

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    Am a lethal wussy. Who just wants world peace.

    Despite how my mind wants to maim.
    JustBipolarMe JustBipolarMe 46-50, M 1 Response Jun 28, 2015

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    Havent been since 20.

    In fact my pals call me lethal wussy. Because me will toss yall around But then beg you to stop being dumb. And almost cry. Which makes the tossed Wonder how lethal i am. And why i am close to tears. Or so pals say. By talking to the tossed. After i go smoke...
    JustBipolarMe JustBipolarMe 46-50, M Jul 7, 2015

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    Obviously

    I can be mean but I have my nice side too.Come on Vampires are people too :P I am not a monster but I can't guarantee you I would not suck your blood lol
    bellas31 bellas31 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 10, 2009

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    Maybe I Am.

    I've always seen my mother as a monster. I know I have some of her "qualities". The more like her I feel that I am, the more I want to shoot myself. I can't stand the idea of being like her. Shes mentally and emotionally abuse two of her "beloved" kids. She tended to physically...
    doritos1254 doritos1254 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 22, 2011

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    They hurt me real bad.

    Me planned revenge. Me watched them. Learned plenty. But on the day to get paid me left. My pals need me free. My peers need hope And less damage to our image. So no hostages. No victims aside from me But not ded yet. And planning a job. Plus better...
    JustBipolarMe JustBipolarMe 46-50, M Jun 28, 2015

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    Um

    I LIEDYESSS I AMGGROOOWWWWWWLLLLLLLLLRUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNNNNNNNN BEFORE I EAT YOUR ENTRAILS AND BUILD A COAT OF YOUR BONESAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRROOOOOWWWWWWWWLLLLLLLLLL
    Punk1n Punk1n 36-40, F 9 Responses Mar 30, 2011

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    JustBipolarMe JustBipolarMe 46-50, M 1 Response Jun 28, 2015

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    "monster"........................

                I wonder why I cant be normal. Why is there a monster inside me that never leaves? Why am I never good enough? The disappointments. It scares me how everyday the monster takes more of me . Make me step closer to the ledge. When will this ledge. When will this...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 19, 2011

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