I Am Not a Monster

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    Hi you will think I am a monster

    before the end of this experience an that's ok I feel like a monster. I am not a monster though and I need to keep telling myself that. I live in regina saskatchewan canada and I am considering at the age of 36 for the first time in my life .... Having an affair. Considering...
    TheLionGod TheLionGod
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Oct 3, 2014

    Real Friends

    I thought being friends meant hanging out together and just talking about one another's flaws or talking about how cute a guy is... but since I've parted from those friends who hurt me and made me a different person, I've made new friends who I've opened up to. It makes me...
    FinallyHeard FinallyHeard
    13-15, F
    Mar 15, 2010

    We went out and bought some black lights

    and party supplies for my daughter dance party, she is turning 7 this year. I picked up this stuff thinking it would be cool. My spouse has forbidden me from wearing this to the party..... Lol, while discovering how much I looked like Michael Myers I took a bunch of selfies...
    TheLionGod TheLionGod
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Mar 5, 2015

    "monster"........................

                I wonder why I cant be normal. Why is there a monster inside me that never leaves? Why am I never good enough? The disappointments. It scares me how everyday the monster takes more of me . Make me step closer to the ledge. When will this ledge. When will this...
    Anto815 Anto815
    46-50, F
    1 Response Oct 19, 2011
    VampireLoveBite VampireLoveBite
    18-21, F
    Nov 29, 2014

    I'm capable of some horrible things

    but I can assure you that I'm 100% human.
    Irvyy Irvyy
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jun 29, 2015

    I Tell This To Myself

        i tell myself you are not a monster . you just have health problems.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 5, 2009

    How could anyone be if they still have

    conscience? Guilt really kills. If a person who doesn't have a conscience then yes that person is probably a monster if you can't feel nothing and kept hurting others. I'm aware of my actions hurting others, just couldn't control it yet. Feel so guilty, maybe one day I'll...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jun 30, 2015

    Monster, how should I feel?

    Creatures lie here, looking through the windows...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 7, 2015

    At Times.....

    .....my anger overwhelms me and I say things I do not mean and lose my mind, but I am not a monster for it. However, I can be moody, vicious, mean, hurtful and down right awful....but a monster? I don't think so. Gosh it is tough to see my actions in black and white here. But I...
    MegJgeM MegJgeM
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Jun 21, 2009

    Obviously

    I can be mean but I have my nice side too.Come on Vampires are people too :P I am not a monster but I can't guarantee you I would not suck your blood lol
    bellas31 bellas31
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Nov 10, 2009

    Your memory is a monster; you forget - it

    doesn't. It simply files things away. It keeps things for you, or hides things from you - and summons them to your recall with a will of its own. You think you have a memory; but it has you!
    Baza69 Baza69
    18-21, M
    Jun 1, 2014

    Um

    I LIEDYESSS I AMGGROOOWWWWWWLLLLLLLLLRUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNNNNNNNN BEFORE I EAT YOUR ENTRAILS AND BUILD A COAT OF YOUR BONESAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRROOOOOWWWWWWWWLLLLLLLLLL
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Mar 30, 2011

    Maybe I Am.

    I've always seen my mother as a monster. I know I have some of her "qualities". The more like her I feel that I am, the more I want to shoot myself. I can't stand the idea of being like her. Shes mentally and emotionally abuse two of her "beloved" kids. She tended to physically...
    doritos1254 doritos1254
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jun 22, 2011

    That's What They Say...

    That's what my parents told me... I am an ugly monster. But, I'm not!!!! I am not an animal! I am a human being! I am a man!!!!
    drcynic drcynic
    26-30, M
    12 Responses Apr 16, 2009

    I probably just made it hard

    for someone to go to sleep tonight lol
    RainbowWolf13 RainbowWolf13
    13-15, F
    1 Response Dec 7, 2014

    Contrary to Popular Belief.

    No, I am not a monster.  IDK why so many people insist on thinking that.  I really am a nice, big hearted person.  I've just been hardened a bit by life, that's all.
    urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin
    22-25, F
    14 Responses Apr 15, 2009

    Not A Monster

    Not a monster,Not at all,Get to know me,I'm really quite soft!
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    Jan 18, 2012

    Perhaps, I look like Shrek,

    but I ain't a monster. Rawr. Lol.
    tawless tawless
    18-21, M
    Jun 29, 2015

    To Some I Am

    I can't understand why people feel that I am some kind of freak or monster.  I am a human being that bleeds when I'm cut, that feels real emotions when put down, who loves with all my heart and has compassion for others.  So what if my body doesn't conform to what...
    Michellewhois Michellewhois
    56-60
    4 Responses Jan 15, 2010

    i may get angry and shouts

    and screams a lot but im not a monster....
    yuush yuush
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jun 29, 2015

    'i'm Fine'................................

    I'm screaming, Moving frantically, I fear that I"m crazy, that I"ll Never be Loved and be Eterity alone I"m fine............................
    Anto815 Anto815
    46-50, F
    1 Response Oct 19, 2011

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