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I Am Not Anorexic Yet But I Really Want To Be

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 237 People

    I miss it when I used to be.

    .. I still skip meals, but not at all like I used to. I think about going back to doing it everyday. Lately I have been thinking more than ever... And in the past week I have averaged like a meal or less... I really want to go back to skipping days worth of food, I felt better...
    Chiisai425 Chiisai425 16-17, F Mar 3, 2014

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    I m starting a 21 day water fast from today

    onwards . I didn't eat anything since morning and its already evening here . used a lot of tricks to trick my brain . I am a disgusting 143 pounds n 5'3 . I hate doing this to myself but I want to lose weight . I love food . I seriously love it . cooking is my life . I want to...
    fortheloveofscales fortheloveofscales 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    All the girls in my school have thigh gaps

    and perfect bodies and i weigh 125 i have pudge everywhere and i couldnt fit into my semi dress so i didnt go 😭😭 i want to be thin but u need help
    thinspiration1031 thinspiration1031 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 19, 2014

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    I feel so fat and out of shape,

    I can't run a mile without puking. I am going to stop eating q
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 26

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    I don't want to eat anymore,

    I want to hate food and I hate myself. Any tips to lose weight, pro Ana and what not? I want to be skinny I hate myself I want to die
    allyc3t allyc3t 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 19, 2014

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    My friends have started calling me anorexic

    but I'm not even close. dont they see my love handles and thighs? or my tummy? people or blind. or maybe I just can't see straight
    thebladeisbae0718 thebladeisbae0718 13-15, F Feb 20

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    I look at myself and feel sick,

    i want to kill myself but i think of my familly, i need to be thin!!!! I feel like a obese disgrace to the world!
    wannarexicSher1 wannarexicSher1 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 12, 2014

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    I want to lose 80 pounds in 2 months.

    Let's see if I can do this
    beccers1522 beccers1522 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 2, 2014

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    :/

    I wanna be super thin, not just skinny but like I wanna have anorexia, just because, I love the feeling of my bones showing, it makes me feel skinny, I'm trying to achieve that now but I feel fat, I'm 14 and I'm very active, I have lots of muscle and right now when I flex I have...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 5 Responses Nov 6, 2013

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    is it weird that I envy aneroxic girls?

    that I love the way the ribs look so elegant and fragile and beautiful I want my outside to look like my insides feel. I feel huge and I'm trying not to eat and then I binge and I'm afraid to do the purge part. then I starve again then I end up eating because I hate turning down...
    thebladeisbae0718 thebladeisbae0718 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    I'm really sorry but it's true.

    . I want to be anorexic.. Yeah i know the risk of it, i've watched documentaries, movies and even have friends who are... Idk but i just wanna be anorexic.. I think its better than being 200lbs and getting called 'pig' or 'dumbo' My own opinion people, if ur gonna say how stupid...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 10, 2014

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    Ana-Buddy

    I'm not anorexic but I love the feel of my bones sticking out. I uses to be the skinny one now I'm just fat and ugly. I want to weigh 100lbs or less I just need someone I can message when I'm tempted to eat an just generally help me lose the weight. Message me xxx
    sazsmith sazsmith 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 20, 2013

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    thinspiration1031 thinspiration1031 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 20, 2014

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    Hi everyone! ☺️😊 I'm Little Pilot.

    I noticed something as I skimmed past all of the experiences on this category and I realized that almost every experience starts with a complaint, or a reason to be unhappy. I don't understand it! Girls come on! Let's be happy! We call ourselves strong for always starving and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 5

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    I've been fasting a lot

    and when I don't I still restrict food and I don't know what to do with myself I just want to lose weight
    Kaylaana Kaylaana 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 25, 2014

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    ramdomgirl02 ramdomgirl02 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 19

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    I'm always concerned about my weight

    and sometimes it's all I can think about. I spend my free time looking at skinny girls on Pinterest and I want to be just like them. I also look at diet tips and sometimes I skip meals. I can go a day without eating and just drink water. I don't feel hunger or sick and I makes...
    ucookie ucookie 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    My body recovered but my thoughts did not.

    I want my willpower back. I want to be thin again.
    alison9413 alison9413 18-21, F Oct 6, 2014

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    I'm so sick of looking at myself in the mirror,

    in fact I usually avoid looking at it. I want to lead a pro Ana lifestyle and stop looking disgusting.
    isadoreraven isadoreraven 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    Well this might not be the right topic

    for me because I was anorexic and bulimic for years. But I remember when I first started out I wanted to be anorexic. Like it was some prize. But then I found out it wasn't. I don't regret it at all. In fact I miss it! I'm recovered now. Almost two years. I still struggle. But I...
    JenMarie97 JenMarie97 16-17, F Dec 22, 2013

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    An eating disorder should not be something you

    want. When I had anorexia, I did things that brought me closer to dying every day for two years. Recovery made me appreciate my life and you all should flaunt your individuality too.
    kissthedeadly kissthedeadly 22-25, F Jun 12, 2014

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    I didn't eat for a few days

    because I'm too poor to afford groceries, so I lost four pounds. I was so happy. But then, I had a can of soup and gained it all back. I felt awful...I'm 170 pounds and with my illness I'm not supposed to be this heavy...I'm disgusted...
    EmilyTheWise EmilyTheWise 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 5, 2014

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    Okay so here's the deal.

    I don't want a buddy really... More like a coach or mentor or instructor. I'm not asking for someone to give me a disease, considering I already fast and purge and all of that horrible stuff. I just need someone to guide me and tell me what to do and be strict with me. I NEED to...
    inneedofana inneedofana 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 29, 2014

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    thinspiration1031 thinspiration1031 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 20, 2014

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    I've always been the "bigger" friend.

    Right now I'm 5"4 146 pounds but all the weight goes to my stomach and none to my hips or butt. I try to not eat but I always give in thinking "a little more wont hurt" help! I need to lose weight. Really bad. I want to be really skinny.
    slothstafarian slothstafarian 18-21 5 Responses Nov 17, 2014

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    This thread makes me sad.

    The ignorance of everybody wanted to be anorexic is frustrating.
    TheAnonymousTroll TheAnonymousTroll 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 17, 2014

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    My parents think that I need to gain weight

    and that I'm way to thin but I couldn't disagree with them more. I'm scared to become anorexic but I don't know what else to do. I'm tired of waking up and feeling fat. I can eat as healthy as the food my parents can afford to buy but that's not helping my weight at all. I also...
    GeenieWeenie12 GeenieWeenie12 13-15, F Jun 19

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    Anorexia is not a weight-loss strategy.

    It's a mental illness. Do you want to be unhealthy? Tired constantly? Lose your hair? Be constantly monitoring your body? Worry about food all the time? Be unable to have a normal meal with friends? Anyone who has had anorexia will tell you that it's hell. Saying you want to be...
    ElleEstJolieLaide ElleEstJolieLaide 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    Last night, I dreamt I was in someone else's

    body and I was thin. It warmed my heart. <3
    EmilyTheWise EmilyTheWise 18-21, F Apr 6, 2014

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    Tips On Anorexia

    I hate myself. The last time I weighed myself I was like 8stone. I don't know what that is in lbs but it's like over 130lbs. I hate my body an I feel like I'm the attest person I know. Can anyone give me any tips on how to be anorexic please? X
    sazsmith sazsmith 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 20, 2013

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    I hate to see this. Ive had problems with

    anorexia for over years now. And the only thing i want to tell now is; it doesnt make you happy in the end. It makes you even worse then you were before. It destroys your whole life. It's not a "lifestyle" you really want. Your choice to believe me or not.
    chimerah chimerah 22-25, F Mar 26

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