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I Am Not Anorexic Yet But I Really Want To Be

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 153 People

    An eating disorder should not be something you

    want. When I had anorexia, I did things that brought me closer to dying every day for two years. Recovery made me appreciate my life and you all should flaunt your individuality too.
    kissthedeadly kissthedeadly 18-21, F Jun 12, 2014

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    My body recovered but my thoughts did not.

    I want my willpower back. I want to be thin again.
    alison9413 alison9413 18-21, F Oct 6, 2014

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    thinspiration1031 thinspiration1031 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 20, 2014

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    :/

    I wanna be super thin, not just skinny but like I wanna have anorexia, just because, I love the feeling of my bones showing, it makes me feel skinny, I'm trying to achieve that now but I feel fat, I'm 14 and I'm very active, I have lots of muscle and right now when I flex I have...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 5 Responses Nov 6, 2013

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    I look at myself and feel sick,

    i want to kill myself but i think of my familly, i need to be thin!!!! I feel like a obese disgrace to the world!
    wannarexicSher1 wannarexicSher1 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 12, 2014

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    I didn't eat for a few days

    because I'm too poor to afford groceries, so I lost four pounds. I was so happy. But then, I had a can of soup and gained it all back. I felt awful...I'm 170 pounds and with my illness I'm not supposed to be this heavy...I'm disgusted...
    EmilyTheWise EmilyTheWise 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 5, 2014

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    I'm really sorry but it's true.

    . I want to be anorexic.. Yeah i know the risk of it, i've watched documentaries, movies and even have friends who are... Idk but i just wanna be anorexic.. I think its better than being 200lbs and getting called 'pig' or 'dumbo' My own opinion people, if ur gonna say how stupid...
    kmisfit123 kmisfit123 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 10, 2014

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    Anorexia is not a weight-loss strategy.

    It's a mental illness. Do you want to be unhealthy? Tired constantly? Lose your hair? Be constantly monitoring your body? Worry about food all the time? Be unable to have a normal meal with friends? Anyone who has had anorexia will tell you that it's hell. Saying you want to be...
    ElleEstJolieLaide ElleEstJolieLaide 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 18, 2014

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    I've been fasting a lot

    and when I don't I still restrict food and I don't know what to do with myself I just want to lose weight
    Kaylaana Kaylaana 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2014

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    I want to lose 80 pounds in 2 months.

    Let's see if I can do this
    beccers1522 beccers1522 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 2, 2014

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    I miss it when I used to be.

    .. I still skip meals, but not at all like I used to. I think about going back to doing it everyday. Lately I have been thinking more than ever... And in the past week I have averaged like a meal or less... I really want to go back to skipping days worth of food, I felt better...
    Chiisai425 Chiisai425 13-15, F Mar 3, 2014

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    I've always been the "bigger" friend.

    Right now I'm 5"4 146 pounds but all the weight goes to my stomach and none to my hips or butt. I try to not eat but I always give in thinking "a little more wont hurt" help! I need to lose weight. Really bad. I want to be really skinny.
    slothstafarian slothstafarian 18-21 4 Responses Nov 17, 2014

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    Okay so here's the deal.

    I don't want a buddy really... More like a coach or mentor or instructor. I'm not asking for someone to give me a disease, considering I already fast and purge and all of that horrible stuff. I just need someone to guide me and tell me what to do and be strict with me. I NEED to...
    inneedofana inneedofana 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 29, 2014

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    you want to be thin,

    but not anorexic. anorexic people have mental illness, no matter how thin they are they will always think that they are fat. thus no happiness and satisfaction for their body image. thats depressing
    mstud17 mstud17 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 20, 2014

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    Tips On Anorexia

    I hate myself. The last time I weighed myself I was like 8stone. I don't know what that is in lbs but it's like over 130lbs. I hate my body an I feel like I'm the attest person I know. Can anyone give me any tips on how to be anorexic please? X
    sazsmith sazsmith 16-17, F Nov 20, 2013

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    I don't want to eat anymore,

    I want to hate food and I hate myself. Any tips to lose weight, pro Ana and what not? I want to be skinny I hate myself I want to die
    allyc3t allyc3t 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 19, 2014

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    This thread makes me sad.

    The ignorance of everybody wanted to be anorexic is frustrating.
    TheAnonymousTroll TheAnonymousTroll 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 17, 2014

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    thinspiration1031 thinspiration1031 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 20, 2014

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    Ana-Buddy

    I'm not anorexic but I love the feel of my bones sticking out. I uses to be the skinny one now I'm just fat and ugly. I want to weigh 100lbs or less I just need someone I can message when I'm tempted to eat an just generally help me lose the weight. Message me xxx
    sazsmith sazsmith 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 20, 2013

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    All the girls in my school have thigh gaps

    and perfect bodies and i weigh 125 i have pudge everywhere and i couldnt fit into my semi dress so i didnt go 😭😭 i want to be thin but u need help
    thinspiration1031 thinspiration1031 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 19, 2014

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    Well this might not be the right topic

    for me because I was anorexic and bulimic for years. But I remember when I first started out I wanted to be anorexic. Like it was some prize. But then I found out it wasn't. I don't regret it at all. In fact I miss it! I'm recovered now. Almost two years. I still struggle. But I...
    JenMarie97 JenMarie97 16-17, F Dec 22, 2013

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    Last night, I dreamt I was in someone else's

    body and I was thin. It warmed my heart. <3
    EmilyTheWise EmilyTheWise 18-21, F Apr 6, 2014

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