I Am Not As Strong As You Think I Am

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    I put on a smile and positive attitude

    because im a goofy and positive person to be around in public . But I'm dying inside especially with things that I deal with that I thought I could handle but just can't 😔😔
    Jgrace07 Jgrace07
    18-21, F
    Mar 14, 2016
    pirsh pirsh
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Feb 3, 2016

    I suffer from depression

    and I do a damn good job at hiding it. I even trick myself sometimes at how scary good I am at concealing my true feelings.
    FayBee FayBee
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 2, 2015
    Sunshineandshowers89 Sunshineandshowers89
    26-30, F
    17 Responses Jun 28, 2015

    I AM STRONG I am strong,

    If dad hits mom, I'll step in the middle, I'll stop it as much as I can, I am strong, If mom have depression, Said she's Mary, mother of Jesus, I'll just nod my head and be quiet, I am strong, If classmates bullies me, I'll put on my poker face, Look straight ahead and ignore...
    sehunscott sehunscott
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 28, 2015

    I tried lifting up a feather

    and I broke my back.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Apr 14, 2016
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Dec 10, 2015
    mandershilt mandershilt
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 16, 2015

    I'm rather good at putting on a front

    that I can handle all the insanity that life has thrown at me over the years. Deep down though I'm so much more broken than 99% of the world knows I am.
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25
    31-35, M
    1 Response Mar 7, 2016
    Annazfu Annazfu
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jul 27, 2015

    if people only knew..

    ..that "shimmer" you see in my eyes are really just tears I've been choking back....this smile masks my fear and anxiety and sadness....i laugh so you can't hear my heart break...the hugs i give are selfishly for my own need hoping someone will squeeze out the pain. They say I'm...
    Shesashyone Shesashyone
    36-40, F
    Nov 18, 2015

    LAST CALL It was 2:30 am,

    i was sleeping. The call came in, single car mva (motor vehicle accident). Single car, roll over, 4 patients. We rolled and requested life flight be on stand by. On arrival we saw the car, rolled several times. Out of the squad and see 2 bodies ejected from the car. 2 kids...
    mrmoose1947b mrmoose1947b
    66-70, M
    5 Responses Jun 18, 2015

    I'm a football lineman build.

    6'4" 220 lb. Irishman. I look imposing and can frighten people with cop stance and the right facial expression. I melted into a pile of goo when I first saw my son in the delivery room. I have a softer spot for him than I even had for my soon to be ex wife. I'm trying...
    MAlright MAlright
    51-55, M
    3 Responses Jun 21, 2015

    I'm new to this whole experience of expressing

    myself to others- but I'm hoping it helps myself accept things the way they are and hopefully start to love myself again!
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 10, 2015

    Trying to be strong for all these emptiness

    and loneliness that I am feeling all the time. I am in a relationship with invisible boyfriend. My heart is screaming for LOVE.
    floweronfire floweronfire
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 25, 2016

    I try and be the strongest person

    for my friends, family, and people that I really care about. It's the hardest thing I have ever done, but I put a smile on despite how difficult it is. I laugh, smile, crack jokes, and listen when people need me... I'm just afraid that people won't do the same for me.
    MadiofAsgard MadiofAsgard
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 28, 2015

    the one thing I've learned about pain is

    that it demands to be felt.
    forevermyalways forevermyalways
    22-25, F
    Sep 3, 2015
    Kyleinfj Kyleinfj
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Jun 2, 2015

    you never know how strong you are

    until being strong is the only choice you have..holds true for me now..
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Feb 1, 2016

    the love of my life was murdered on January 11

    2015 and ever since my life has been so overwhelming. he isnt just my boyfriend but my best friend. the only one who was actually there through it all. for years. he never let me down. our relationship was perfect actually 5 days before i picked out my wedding ring. :( and now...
    ForeverMyAlwaysREH3 ForeverMyAlwaysREH3
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Jun 24, 2015

    some people think I strong

    because I smile, but deep inside its killing me though.
    netsss006 netsss006
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 4, 2015

    some people are like cigarette.

    .bad for health but difficult to quit
    saffr96 saffr96
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 20, 2016

    people make fun of me,

    they seem to think that it doesn't affect me at all, cause I act like I can take it, but inside; I'm dying.
    alowz alowz
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 21, 2016

    Today I am struck with sadness

    and guilt. I can barely move or talk. I have been staring the same four walls willing myself to sleep but sleep is defing me. and the day is almost over.
    RuthEli RuthEli
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Feb 28, 2016

    I'm losing it. I am tired of doing everything

    myself. Pretending I'm not bothered, it doesn't hurt. I'm exhausted. To top... I don't trust anyone b#repeatoffenders I feel lonely. So lonely.
    freeourmind freeourmind
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 28, 2016

    I am shy, awkward, and not

    as strong as people think. I tend to take rejection too hard and brood too often. I do not trust easily and have a hard time asking people for help. I long at times to have a shoulder to weep on. I do not mean to just cry on. I mean heart wrenching weeping. To be able to do...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Sep 30, 2015

    I'm nearly 50 I have a wife a mortgage

    and a responsible job, I should be an adult and strong but all I want to do run away and hide like a scolded dog. I can't share these feelings with anyone, I just get on with it. what else can I do.
    Deano66 Deano66
    46-50, M
    1 Response Mar 24, 2016

    Stressed out about becoming a mom.

    At 21 years old, I never thought I'd actually get to be a mom. In my heart I've always wanted to be a mom, I didn't care what else happened in life as long as I got to be a mom. Now that the time has come, I'm 26 weeks and 4 days pregnant with a little girl, the one I always...
    mommaAD mommaAD
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 25, 2016

    if you see me walking around school,

    I'm usually the one with my head held high. people know me and I know people. I'm friendly with everyone and come off with the impression that I don't give a hoot about anything, but that's completely wrong. I get made fun of a lot in my school, cause of my weight and my height...
    alowz alowz
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Mar 20, 2016

    I'm really tired of people assuming

    that I'm strong and can basically handle everything myself. What people don't know is that I would like it if someone would notice if I'm feeling down or need someone to talk to. I would like it if someone was willing to help me fight my battles. It's hard trying to handle...
    reesekitty14 reesekitty14
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jan 19, 2016

    I cry almost every day.

    I don't know what to do with myself. I don't know what I want to do with my life. I feel so alone and anxious and depressed. I feel like I'm going nowhere. I feel constant emotional pain. I feel like if I tell people about it they won't care or they won't understand; they'll...
    coollame coollame
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Sep 6, 2015

    So me and bf are engaged

    or so he says even though he hasn't technically asked. We have rings but it's like he chooses not to wear the ring. It hurts. A lot. There are so many things to accept and gives me nightmares. In my sleep I push him away disgusted. I know he lies about not watching **** and it...
    freeourmind freeourmind
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 29, 2016

    No I am not. Today I noticed,

    I still have complicated issued when sexualism is mentioned. Because I was abused by my ex, didn't reconcile, he ended up commiting suicide
    Katerinafaith Katerinafaith
    18-21, F
    Apr 20, 2016
    austinorf81 austinorf81
    36-40, M
    Apr 13, 2016

    I've wanted to just break down

    for a while now and let all of this pain go. Its hard to let you feel this pain not understanding. I want to start bawling my eyes out as some memories come back. But what do I do I go on pretend ing everything is alright. No its not ok and its not gonna be. But I know i can...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses May 28, 2015

    In public, I put on a smile,

    pretend that nothing hurtful bothers me, become friendly and talkative. But it's all an act, everything that they say, it hurts. I just try not to let it show. True, I'm short, ugly, wear glasses, and have a face full of acne. But when people say it to me, I try to blow it off...
    Haleystorm Haleystorm
    18-21, F
    4 Responses May 2, 2015

    I may look extremely (Emotionally) strong,

    and I am, but I'm not ice cold like I play to be sometimes. I never show my feelings, if they are negative, like sadness. I keep my composure, my pride and dignity haven't failed me yet. I'm not really emotional, but if one thing hurts me then it's someone I love hating me...
    MeanOrNice13 MeanOrNice13
    13-15, F
    1 Response Oct 20, 2015

    Domestic violence and suicide.

    As I have written about before my friend in June 2015 attempted suicide. A few months later she had attempted to take her own life a second time. She still has suicidal thoughts and has depression. But she has not attempted to take her own life again. Her second attempt forced...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 27, 2016

    nobody even knows about how painful the

    nighttime is for me, no one knows what I go through, just me myself and i
    taintedr0se taintedr0se
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 29, 2016

    Ask someone who knows me.

    They'll tell you I'm strong-willed, fiery, and immune to pain. Yeah, no. I'm either a brilliant actor, a chillingly-adept pathological liar, or a mixture of the two. I'm quiet, soft, emotional, not the person I say I am. Maintaining appearances is a full-time job in and of...
    AsYetNameless AsYetNameless
    16-17, T
    1 Response Apr 13, 2016

    People are always saying how STRONG I am.

    .. how inspirational they find me. I feel like screaming! I am NOT at all strong, they just can't see all the pain I carry constantly. I feel false & frustrated all the time! When I reach out to someone & instead of comfort I hear "oh you are strong...I feel invisible.
    fitmom808 fitmom808
    46-50, F
    4 Responses May 10, 2015

    i have really bad social anxiety.

    im homeschooled and have to attend college in the fall. I'm terrified because i think I'm gonna end up dropping out. i get really nauseous when im in a social environment and it's embarrassing. i have no life and I can't even get a job because I'm scared. sometimes I just want...
    jupitercx jupitercx
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 11, 2016

    The worst type of crying isn't the loud

    and continuous wave of crying. It's the crying where you can only manage one or two tears but you still have the feeling of crying... just not the relief of it. It's the type where you feel so much pain but nothing at the same time so tears appear as fast as they disappear and...
    emslife emslife
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 21, 2015
    ankyit ankyit
    31-35, M
    Mar 20, 2016

    People genuinely think

    that I'm so outgoing and so vibrant. I enjoy photography and writing. People think it's just because I have so many adventures. The truth is there's a darker story behind every photo, every poem, and every smile. It's not that easy being strong when everything around you is...
    NeverSaidHello NeverSaidHello
    18-21, F
    Feb 25, 2016

    Today is so damn heavy.

    I haven't felt right for days...I just don't feel like I belong or want to be here any longer. I hurt so bad for him and over him that I just want to die. I think I'm going to kill myself. Maybe tomorrow.
    OriginOfLove OriginOfLove
    41-45, F
    7 Responses Mar 28, 2016

    When I get really angry

    and mad ! I can't do anything but keeping silence ! I wish I could scream ! shout ! hit anyone or just to express my anger !
    Fatimahmk Fatimahmk
    22-25, F
    Apr 17, 2016

    I actually have no support from the family I

    grew up with and I've fought like a strongwilled kid to make our relationships to work but I've realize the past years that it won't happen. It feels like I've spent my life growing up in a fight to make people who don't understand, understand, and now my parents are getting...
    mercedes810 mercedes810
    26-30, F
    Apr 13, 2016

    I cant cope anymore, everythings going wrong,

    im in the wrong body, no one knows, im losing my mind, I cant do this anymore
    pierce013 pierce013
    16-17, M
    3 Responses Feb 25, 2016

    I'm not I'm stronger

    than you or I could ever think I am !!!!
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Apr 14, 2016

    I feel very insecure these days.

    My mind is my own demon and it's winning. I have no friends no one I can truly talk to and my bf... I don't think he's happy with me...
    freeourmind freeourmind
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Feb 29, 2016

    In one picture... and no,

    i'm not depressed - just crushed right now.
    LoneSouls LoneSouls
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Apr 17, 2016

    My strength is so ******* fragile.

    I can be fine for a second but one wrong word, one wrong picture, one wrong thought can bring everything crashing down around me.
    Sim90 Sim90
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 28, 2016
    kel1980 kel1980
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Mar 20, 2016

    I try to be happy and strong

    for those around me, but I'm breaking down on the inside. It's so exhausting to try to conjure strength for others when I have none for myself
    notthatoneguy notthatoneguy
    16-17, M
    4 Responses Dec 13, 2015

    Alot of people I know have heard about some of

    the aweful things I've been through as a child or adult and tell me how strong I am to continue living and wear a smile on my face. They see the scar on my face and think that I'm a tough girl for going through it. But I'm so scared. I wake up every other night, screaming and...
    CaylinBreaker CaylinBreaker
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Feb 27, 2016

    waterworks flood my surroundings .

    .. once again, me running to the bathroom at work to cry my eyes out. I know I shouldn't be but I am ashamed as I HATE crying, especially at work. mascara runs down my face and then I wipe it off and the waterworks just keep coming. all from hearing one song. that's all it takes...
    shadyshadow shadyshadow
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Nov 17, 2015

    Everyone thinks I'm such a happy person

    but I honestly want to ******* kill myself, there's legit like 3 or 4 people who might give a **** if I go, there the only ones holding me back
    mynameislily mynameislily
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Mar 1, 2016
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