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I Am Not Close With My Father

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    My relationship with my father is horrible.

    When I was about 3-4 my grandma (my dads mom) died of a heart disease. My dad didn't take it well so he started drinking. This drinking kept on getting worse and worse. My dad usually would tell me goodnight and that he loved me, but I didn't see him every night for a long time...
    Katie13M Katie13M 13-15, F Sep 17, 2015

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    I Think About It All The Time

    There are nights where I think about how our relationship would be if things were different If we could laugh if we could joke around if we could cry together and share our deepest thoughts, If I could tell you my secrets and you could tell me yours if you could hold me when...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 7, 2011

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    Three Little Stories

    Dad and Me and Grandad The Swimming Lesson ‘No, please, stop.’ I struggled in his arms. He held me tighter by the waist and legs. Rough palms, tight grip. Through my tears I could see...
    BeththeButterfly BeththeButterfly 46-50, F 3 Responses Mar 5, 2013

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    whatonmars whatonmars 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 1, 2015

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    Grew up being abused

    so I'm not close with him. He try's to stay in contact but I don't know if I should give him a chance or not.
    PyroMarine73 PyroMarine73 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 6

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    I can't say that I am very close with him.

    I know that he loves me but I am too afraid of him to talk about things. So I prefer to be in my room.
    erik2000erik200 erik2000erik200 16-17, M 2 Responses Nov 9, 2015

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    I never feel comfort

    when he is at home, mostly I get my anger when he is around, I'll just stay in my room and listen to music or anything. I rarely talk to him. Not sure if I hate him but everytime I heard about father things and he came on my mind, I get angry quickly but also sad at the same...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 7, 2015

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    My father passed away about 12 years ago,

    so this is reflective. My first real story on here and I am pretty sure that very few will read it, so not writing to impress or entertain. You should probably stop reading. For me this is an experiment to see if writing things that are partially public, although anonymous...
    runningsage runningsage 51-55, M 2 Responses Jun 22, 2015

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    I never really knew my dad he was out of the

    picture when I was 3. I've just decided to write a poem about him. (sorry if it's bad You want me to call you father but I hate the fact that I'm biologically your daughter where were you when I learned to ride a bike where were you when my best friend and I had our first...
    Suspect00 Suspect00 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 10, 2015

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    I need to say this: he is a good man.

    However, he made many choices in his life that created this distance between us. He worked really hard and provided to us , 6 children . He taught me how to have a work ethic. Circumstances and distance separated us. Besides, there was a generational and educational gap that...
    breathingeasy breathingeasy 41-45, M 3 Responses Aug 1, 2015

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    To a man I once called Father: I remember

    everything you did. The insults, the lies behind my back, the lies you told me about my mother, the manipulation, the controlling behavior, the way you allowed your girlfriend to dig through my personal belongings, the fits of temper, the times you would hit me, and that one...
    Stratosara Stratosara 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 6, 2015

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    and I'm not really sad about that.

    I mean he left since I was 7 years old and I had to live all those years without a father and now he wants to be back in my life, **** him! I'm glad he's gone and I'm sad he's back. I wish he go and never come back
    20ShadesOfBlue 20ShadesOfBlue 18-21, M Aug 1, 2015

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    The thing is: About 12 years ago,

    I reached the first grade. My mom was currently leaving away doing her second residence and my dad and I lived with her parents. My dad was under a lot of stress because the hospital he worked at was like an hour away, and living with someone like my grandmother, immersed into...
    Gorstone36 Gorstone36 18-21, M Jan 25, 2014

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    left me when I was 6 months old

    and I only talk to him once a year for court standards
    62katrina 62katrina 13-15, F Jul 31, 2015

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    I'm not close with my father.

    I don't willingly talk to my father. I don't love my father.
    PendulEmPlum PendulEmPlum 18-21, F 1 Response May 4, 2015

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    I seriously can't wait till I graduate high

    school so I can go to college or either leave and get my own place. So many fights have happened because he drinks so much and I'm getting tired of it.
    blackheartlover blackheartlover 16-17, F Sep 4, 2015

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    I love my dad I really do,

    but he sometimes to gets mad at me and make me feel like a screw up when I don't act like Little Miss Perfect. Eventually it got to the point where I am afraid to be myself around him. one time I knocked over a chair and he sent me to my room saying "I love you because I'm your...
    CheyCheyAislinn CheyCheyAislinn 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2015

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    Chang94 Chang94 18-21, M Jun 10, 2015

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    my father and I had a good relationship

    until my freshman year of high school. he became emotionally and verbally abusive. There is no way that I can cut ties and it affects me everyday. He talks to me as if I'm an object, not a human being.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 1, 2015

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    Today is extremely painful"fathers day" I was

    raised without a father, a few of my moms in between boyfriends, but not close to father figures. My dad finally found me when I just turned 18(probably avoiding child support) my mom never spoke bad of my father, but stressed how hurt I would be meeting him. So I met him at 18...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jun 21, 2015

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    I've Tried For Years............

         A "Daddy's Girl", I'll never be. I'm not sure why but it seems my father just doesn't know how to be a father. At least not to me. He's a great uncle, brother, but father seems to confuse him to no end. I use to think if I was just smart enough, thin enough, pretty...
    WynsHeart WynsHeart 36-40, F 3 Responses May 25, 2011

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    He was never really in my life

    and now that we live closer to each other, whenever we hang out it's incredibly awkward. We don't really say much. I try to ask him questions about what's going on in his life or he'll ask me some. But it's always the same questions. The same things we do. The same short...
    lookingtovent lookingtovent 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 5, 2014

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    (Sigh) Where do I even begin.

    ..............well I'm just a little confused about my dad? sometimes I don't even know if he cares about me, he always has this mean look to his face, he never expresses himself towards me, we lack in communication, we barely even talk it has always been like that, wish he was...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jun 7, 2015

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    And I distance myself from him.

    That's for the best. I fear I might explode one day and regret.
    CallMeShayYeah CallMeShayYeah 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 16, 2015

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    My dad was In the military

    until I was 3, my parents separated when i was 4 and divorced when I was 5. Once the divorced happened I did live with my father but stayed in my room. I hate my father for tearing me away from my mom. I grew up with guys in the house I didn't have a female to teach me anything...
    Backwoodsbeautyqueen Backwoodsbeautyqueen 13-15, F Jul 31, 2015

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    Not close is a massive understatement,

    I've never seen or heard from him my entire life and I hate it, all I want is to just meet him once that's all I want :(
    TakeYourSoul TakeYourSoul 18-21, M Jul 31, 2015

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    I was close to my dad.

    ... but one day I found my momcon Facebook and I never seen my mom for 16 years so I wanted to see her and I was talking to her and my dad found out and he got mad and broke my phone.... then we with to court cuz I wanted to see my mom and she got custody of me and he moved to...
    jojorigal jojorigal 18-21 1 Response Aug 1, 2015

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    There has always been something missing,

    it took me a long time to figure out that it was him, not me.
    TheFrozenSun TheFrozenSun 36-40, M 2 Responses Feb 22, 2015

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    Hi I'm new here so I'll just get going haha.

    So, I just don't really talk to my dad. Not because I can't but because I don't like to, his response 90% of the time is insensitive, or he just scolds me. That is not really healthy to me so I avoid letting him know anything so that way he has no arguments when conflict...
    mandarch mandarch 18-21 Aug 6, 2015

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    I wish if i could be close with him,

    we live at the same house, yet he is very cold towards us, he rarely smiles at us.... I really do not know much about him, what his likes and dislikes...etc heh..
    crazytank crazytank 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 31, 2015

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    My father and I have had a very.

    . Turbulent relationship. In the end it just comes out to I'm too forgiving of the **** he does. Recently he just got out of prison and with my mother and nana no longer being alive and my favorite and most supportive sister leaving the state, I'm very conflicted. Honestly he's...
    Kimi0 Kimi0 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 1, 2015

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    my father died when I was younger

    so I never had the chance to get close with him. my step dad, who has been apart of my life far a long time, has never been close to me either. he has problems with addiction(drugs,gambling, alcohol) and it was incredibly bad when I was younger. he would constantly scream...
    nicolieflowergirlie nicolieflowergirlie 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 31, 2015

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    My folks separated when I was 11.

    We stayed with my mother and my grandfather. The remainder if my childhood was taken up with a medical problem. New school, and all that teenage trauma could throw at me! Throughout the next 15 years I saw my father intermittently. We had periods when we wouldn't see each other...
    picklebobble picklebobble 46-50, M 2 Responses Aug 22, 2015

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    I was never really close to my father.

    My parents got divorced when I was 4. He was a stay at home dad and didn't want to get a job, so my mom worked to jobs. He was an alcoholic. He had physically abused my mother. I was too young to remember it. We would see him every other weekend. My mom would drop me and my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 31, 2015

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    me and my dad used to have an amazing

    relationship but then again that was when I was a kid and everything you said was like amazing everything he did for me was amazing are you still think you is the best person ever. still think he is in different ways I just wish me and him could connect better I don't not like...
    ili94 ili94 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 21, 2015

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    Sometimes I don't feel like he loves me.

    -_- I know i shouldn't be complaining as he does a lot for me. He is a busy man. I am his spoiled daughter, at least thats what people imply. He gives me $1500 a month, credit cards, a car, a house, a job, full college tuition, etc. But I would appreciate it if he just spent...
    JessieTheGreekGoddess JessieTheGreekGoddess 18-21, F 2 Responses May 14, 2014

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    The Old Grey Beard

    Recently, a woman whom I am not related to called me daddy. Quite a shocking experience that I attributed to my gray beard.  This comment immediately brought my father to mind.  I remembered him sitting in his red easy chair, reading his paper. He didn't have a beard but a...
    holloway64 holloway64 46-50, M 3 Responses Jan 30, 2013

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    I am not close with my dad.

    I don't really ever speak to him unless something is needed. I don't know why. Although sometimes I figure out why. My dad doesn't know how to say sorry. He only says sorry through food and buying us things we want. He also makes my mom pay all the bills in the house. And when I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 31, 2015

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    kar3649 kar3649 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 8, 2015

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    My dad just told me he's proud of me.

    He's never done that before ever. "I'm proud you're my son. Me and my dad are close but we never say 'I love you' it just doesn't happen. I'm happy to know I can tell you I love you when I have the chance. I know you're gonna make a lot of people happy in your life." We've...
    SkollHati SkollHati 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 25, 2015

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    Yes, as a father it is your obligation to

    provide us the brighter future thru sending us to a prestige school. When it comes with financial matters, I never questioned you because you definitely gave us the things we need and even what we want. But on contrary, I never felt like you've really gave the best for us. You...
    imerosiie imerosiie 18-21, F Aug 18, 2014

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    The man is an idiot. He cheated on my mom,

    and has an illegitimate child that is his favorite. I looked unintentionally at his history, because I needed to print something from his computer, and I saw a dating site, and male enhancement. He doesn't even get what was morally wrong with cheating on my mom. I resent the man...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 5, 2015

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    Continuing with the abuse .

    I am done with it . I am 15 , i am staying with my mother permanantly . **** my dads side . 😂 **** him also .
    NotMyselfAtAll NotMyselfAtAll 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 21, 2015

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    I have never been terribly close with my father,

    though it probably doesn't help that even my earliest memories I have are bad ones. When I was very very young, maybe three, my parents had a big fight causing them to separate temporary, I chose to stay with my father who went to live with my aunt during this separation. For...
    DemonFeyLove DemonFeyLove 22-25, F Sep 4, 2014

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    My father is so insensitive.

    He always yells around, gets angry very easily. Though he never hit me, he once hit my mom. It only happened once and it was years ago. But I simply hate his presence. He never stood for what a father figure should be. I feel like he was a negative example to me all along and I...
    dogperson9 dogperson9 18-21, F Sep 4, 2015

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