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I Am Not Close With My Father

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    I dislike my biological father.

    My mum admires his family and always puts effort into calling them and talking to them. She doesn't talk to him but she talks to his cousins and she made me talk to them on the internet even though I didn't know them. In the past , back in our home country when I was 3 years...
    T055 T055 16-17, F Dec 31, 2014

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    Why?

    Paul, Do you understand what you really did? Not just to our family…but to each of us individually? You won’t admit it…I know you won’t…you emotionally, mentally, and physically abused my sister and me. It was mostly me. Why did you? What did we do? What did your...
    yamihirugashi yamihirugashi 22-25, F Mar 6, 2011

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    I bought some cards today thinking I could play

    some with my dad while my mom was working. I deal and he starts going on about how “the ‘left’ has poisoned my brain”… And my mom says I never try to “bond” with him, and that I should let past arguments go. I try so hard, I really do. I just wish he would to.
    mysticalgem mysticalgem 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 23, 2014

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    I was never that close with my Father.

    I am sorry that we didn't have a closer daughter/father relationship. My father seem to be so consumed with his career that he never seem to have enough time for his family. It seem he was going there for holidays like Christmas, but that is all I remember he didn't seem to be...
    Sara600 Sara600 56-60, F Feb 20

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    Fool Me Twice

    Caution: This is a rant, and may not make sense to any reader.To this day I'm not sure why it went through my head to contact him. On social networking of all things in 2010. Sheer desperation more than anything else I suppose. From meeting in secret at a pool tournament, to the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 27, 2013

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    The thing is: About 12 years ago,

    I reached the first grade. My mom was currently leaving away doing her second residence and my dad and I lived with her parents. My dad was under a lot of stress because the hospital he worked at was like an hour away, and living with someone like my grandmother, immersed into...
    Gorstone36 Gorstone36 18-21, M Jan 25, 2014

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    Daddy's Little Girl

    Growing up Mom and Dad fought, a lot. And every time they got into it (that I can remember) I blamed myself. Something I still do to this day. My father was one of those men that were never ready to be a father. He lost his first daughter Renee when her mother kidnapped her. We...
    AngelofStone AngelofStone 22-25, F Apr 16, 2010

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    Sometimes I don't feel like he loves me.

    -_- I know i shouldn't be complaining as he does a lot for me. He is a busy man. I am his spoiled daughter, at least thats what people imply. He gives me $1500 a month, credit cards, a car, a house, a job, full college tuition, etc. But I would appreciate it if he just spent...
    JessieTheGreekGoddess JessieTheGreekGoddess 18-21, F 2 Responses May 14, 2014

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    didn't have my daddy on the scene

    so I had to listen to mommy.
    yrnjojo yrnjojo 16-17, M Feb 5

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    Yes, as a father it is your obligation to

    provide us the brighter future thru sending us to a prestige school. When it comes with financial matters, I never questioned you because you definitely gave us the things we need and even what we want. But on contrary, I never felt like you've really gave the best for us. You...
    imerosiie imerosiie 18-21, F Aug 18, 2014

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    I've Tried For Years............

         A "Daddy's Girl", I'll never be. I'm not sure why but it seems my father just doesn't know how to be a father. At least not to me. He's a great uncle, brother, but father seems to confuse him to no end. I use to think if I was just smart enough, thin enough, pretty...
    WynsHeart WynsHeart 36-40, F 3 Responses May 25, 2011

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    I used to be so close.

    .. Not anymore, I hate the way how he is always complaining. I feel like I am never good enough. It feels like he never understands me and is always judging me. Every time we talk about my future, and I say I want to do what I like, and he only thinks about making money later...
    GirlUnlimited GirlUnlimited 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 28, 2014

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    Untitled

    I was at 3rd grade when I started questioning my 'existence'(why am I here and so on). Well this was the time when i started being curious of 'cutting' (that made me attempt suicide at this age w/out anyone else knowing) My father works out of the country and mostly just comes...
    xenna2 xenna2 22-25, F Sep 28, 2013

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    Hell no. **** that man.

    I can't stand him. 3 more years , I'm kicking him out of my life completely.
    alyssabay alyssabay 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 29, 2014

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    I'm not very close to my dad

    but I would like to be. I know he's not perfect but he's honestly trying to be a better father. He's trying to stay clean and sober and he even has a job now. I hope we can be closer now that drugs are finally out of his life.
    JustinAlixander JustinAlixander 13-15, M Aug 28, 2014

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    My Father Molested Me For 9 Years

    Last year, 2 days before New Years, was the last time my father molested me. I don't live with him, but I did visit him every school break that I got. I first met him when I was 6. When I went to visit him, he'd be very nice and courteous. We'd do everything that I wanted to do...
    Biorayzz Biorayzz 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 17, 2012

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    I was "gifted" to a widow from Western

    Sahara[in Africa] as a little tiny baby since my mother couldn't look after a weak helpless baby AND work for 12 hours a night&6 days a week to take care of my big sister&brother who were already going to school. This woman had me speaking her 1st language Berber and calling...
    OmmisLove OmmisLove 13-15, F Feb 4, 2014

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    Dear Dad

    Dear Dad,  I can't help but get this feeling that I am burdening you.......however if that be the case..then that is fine..I don't mind to let you be...Calling you "dad" has never been easy for me to say anyway...always felt like I was saying something foreign.I just wish...
    decembertillmarch decembertillmarch 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 19, 2010

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    He doesn't realize how much he scares me.

    .. He doesn't realize how much his words hurt, how much I care about and remember everything he says... as well as everything he doesn't say. The best compliment I've ever got from him is "not bad". The worst insult... "irresponsible". "ungrateful". "pathetic". He gets angry at...
    TryingMyBestToSmile TryingMyBestToSmile 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 1, 2014

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    I used to be a daddy's girl

    when I was young. Not every a mamas girl. When I got older I stopped hanging with my dad. He got more into drugs and Drinking. I saw him get beat up one time right in front of me. Ever since that I become a mamas girl. I care about my mom more. I still care about my dad. Now I'm...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 6, 2014

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    I never feel comfort

    when he is at home, mostly I get my anger when he is around, I'll just stay in my room and listen to music or anything. I rarely talk to him. Not sure if I hate him but everytime I heard about father things and he came on my mind, I get angry quickly but also sad at the same...
    CloversMoon CloversMoon 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 7

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    He works a lot and I only see him on weekends

    and I'm usually busy then. He really stresses me out because he pressures me to get good grades and be well behaved and ladylike. I can't always be perfect and I feel like he always points out all my mistakes. I worked really hard to get an A in math and when I did I showed him...
    StillFlawless StillFlawless 13-15, F Feb 4

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    I Kinda Wish I Was Though

    I'm not sure when we started to grow apart. There have been a number of confrontations between us over the years for a lot of reasons. When I think about the relationship we have it bothers me that we aren't closer. And I think the worst part of it is that I don't know if my...
    wordsmith85 wordsmith85 22-25, M 4 Responses Oct 22, 2009

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    I Think About It All The Time

    There are nights where I think about how our relationship would be if things were different If we could laugh if we could joke around if we could cry together and share our deepest thoughts, If I could tell you my secrets and you could tell me yours if you could hold me when...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 7, 2011

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    When I contact him via email,

    I don't know what to say. That makes me feel stupid or something. It seems like no matter what I say, it's wrong. I can't seem to work on our relationship, because I can't even talk to him!!! It bothers me. I don't know what it means if I basically have nothing to say to...
    AmIAMaleHSP AmIAMaleHSP 26-30, M Nov 7, 2014

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    I Have Never Met My Real Father

    i have never met my real dad, must've decided i wasn't worth staying around for so he split. When i was a kid i screamed hi daddy! in the middle of the mall and he just ran, and after 14 years he finally decided to give me his address so i could get in touch with him. It's been...
    irishlassy98 irishlassy98 16-17, F Sep 6, 2013

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    Sadly. He left when I was 11.

    The summer I moved up to secondary school. My teen years were lonely and fairly miserable. I missed my dad.
    picklebobble picklebobble 46-50, M Sep 29, 2014

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    Three Little Stories

    Dad and Me and Grandad The Swimming Lesson ‘No, please, stop.’ I struggled in his arms. He held me tighter by the waist and legs. Rough palms, tight grip. Through my tears I could see...
    BeththeButterfly BeththeButterfly 46-50, F 3 Responses Mar 5, 2013

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    Today, he basically blamed me

    for his depression. Not in so many words, but that was the point. I'm almost twenty and he's fifty-seven, so how come I always have to be the mature one?
    CinnamonCat CinnamonCat 18-21, F Aug 29, 2014

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    I never have been close with my father,

    in fact as a child I never knew who he was. When he was home he was never around otherwise never spoke to us, one year he left for months- almost a year. I had just started pre-school and his absence didn't really make a difference to me, then one day my mother made me stand in...
    Itainteasybeinsleazy Itainteasybeinsleazy 18-21 1 Response Nov 14, 2014

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    Used To Be

    My dad and I have been really close from the day I was born. He saved me from a very bad situation in which my mother was abusing me (mostly verbal). However in the last couple years he has dragged me and my whole family back into a very similar (almost identical) situation. I'm...
    BandNerdLife BandNerdLife 13-15, F Jan 31, 2013

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    Would You Know Me, If I Saw You?

    I never remember my father. It was always my mom, and my uncle jorge and aunt hope as my family. Hope and jorge soon had a beautiful baby girl, her name was leah. Hope would pick me up from school with leah. I would tell everyone at school that leah was my beautiful and amazing...
    XtapoutX XtapoutX 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 4, 2013

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    The Old Grey Beard

    Recently, a woman whom I am not related to called me daddy. Quite a shocking experience that I attributed to my gray beard.  This comment immediately brought my father to mind.  I remembered him sitting in his red easy chair, reading his paper. He didn't have a beard but a...
    holloway64 holloway64 46-50, M 3 Responses Jan 30, 2013

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    He was never really in my life

    and now that we live closer to each other, whenever we hang out it's incredibly awkward. We don't really say much. I try to ask him questions about what's going on in his life or he'll ask me some. But it's always the same questions. The same things we do. The same short...
    lookingtovent lookingtovent 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 5, 2014

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    I didnt grow up around my dad

    but about theee years ago we started to get to know each other. Earlier this year I attempted suicide and when my dad found out he said i disappointed him I then started apologizing for letting him down and all he had to say was "i dont want to hear it" and he left the hospital...
    warriorfera warriorfera 18-21, F Oct 7, 2014

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    HappyWife16 HappyWife16 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    A Wall In Between Us

    In many ways I am just like my father. We share the same dry sense of humor, the same little quirks, the same taste in food, the temper. I was even born on his birthday. Unfortunately I was my father's first child, the unplanned child with the wrong woman, the daughter that...
    libraneyes libraneyes 22-25 1 Response Aug 24, 2013

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    And I distance myself from him.

    That's for the best. I fear I might explode one day and regret.
    CallMeShayYeah CallMeShayYeah 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    Not anymore. As a kid I remember waiting up

    for him when he came home from work. Then as I grew up and after my sister was born, specifically in my teenage years, I distant myself from him. Then at the end of last year he came clean about how he was cheating on my mom with another woman.
    OneWithTheSkies OneWithTheSkies 18-21, F Feb 5

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    ever since I was little i HATED smoking!

    I made my dad stop smoking, then about 6 years ago my dad's best friend died.. he started smoking, behind our backs again. it's been 6 years of him smoking behind our backs. I hate my dad.
    lllleeeesssbbbiiiaaann21 lllleeeesssbbbiiiaaann21 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 9, 2014

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    Once again, you have proved how self-centred

    you are. How you think that everything in this world concerns you, and just you. And for a self-proclaimed 'know it all'. You don't know even the simplest things about us or anything that has been going on in our lives. It angers me for giving you the benefit of the doubt. You...
    hopelessaddict hopelessaddict 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 20, 2014

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    It's like a curse on my father's side.

    My dad told me how my grandpa didn't get along with his dad, and I found out how my dad didn't get along with my grandpa a few years ago. Now, I don't get along with my dad. We have no common interests.
    MarioT96 MarioT96 18-21, M Feb 20

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    My father and I were close

    as ever until he dropped the bomb that he started talking to his other daughter again. I didn't mind it until I decided to go on Instagram and look at her since it's been 8 years since I've seen her. I saw a photo where she posted saying that my dad was "never there". Which I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 10, 2014

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    There has always been something missing,

    it took me a long time to figure out that it was him, not me.
    TheFrozenSun TheFrozenSun 36-40, M 2 Responses Feb 22

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    You're not the only one.

    I never met mine but I ain't mad at him because he believed i would be a better man growing up without him, without him I wouldn't be here. Don't get me wrong my mother too, she was the gateway to this world.
    kamachulu kamachulu 22-25, M Aug 6, 2014

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    I have never been terribly close with my father,

    though it probably doesn't help that even my earliest memories I have are bad ones. When I was very very young, maybe three, my parents had a big fight causing them to separate temporary, I chose to stay with my father who went to live with my aunt during this separation. For...
    DemonFeyLove DemonFeyLove 18-21, F Sep 4, 2014

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    My Damaged Relationship With My Father

    To Everyone Whom Cared Enough to Read This, I'd first like to thank