I Am Not Doing So Well Right Now

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    Every now and then I just want to run away

    and not come back. I want to see if anyone would even notice that I was gone. I want to be high everyday all day and cant deal with the strong urge to get high. I don't know what to do. I wish I could take all my pills now but I worry about that. I'm so lost and confused. My...
    Viciouspistols Viciouspistols
    26-30, F
    May 21, 2014

    By nature I've never been an unhappy

    or depressive person. My wife has always dealt with anxiety and depression and almost entirely through our marriage she's been able to rely on me to be her rock when she's having a tough time. Right now that rock is starting to crack a little. I learned a couple of days ago...
    BarvoDelancy BarvoDelancy
    36-40, M
    4 Responses Oct 18, 2015
    stardancer99 stardancer99
    18-21, F
    Dec 10, 2014

    Lost

    what do you do when youre so afraid that your mind is slipping away from you. everything is flipping around on you again. everything is a mess. things are messed up, nightmares and flashbacks are killing me, my family doesnt know me, and im so sick of life anymore. but i cant say...
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 24, 2012

    I'm 33 weeks pregnant

    and I'm in so much pain all the time that I can hardly walk. I've got over a month until I deliver and it's pretty much extreme pain leading up tp
    x0UnionJack0x x0UnionJack0x
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 23, 2014

    I need prayers and good luck,

    please guys. I am not having a very good life at the moment. I am currently in trouble with the police, and I don't even know which school I will go to. I am in PRU, lost all my friends for supporting a teacher, the worst is that I am never happy. Thank you.
    taytay1401 taytay1401
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Sep 11, 2015

    I'm sore, stressed, exhausted/sleep-deprived,

    I don't drink enough water and I'm not eating as healthily as I should. I'm not doing great and I need to take better care of myself.
    alphaomega95 alphaomega95
    22-25
    Nov 11, 2015

    I am kind of losing my ability to walk.

    Soon enough, I'm going to using a motorized scooter. The doctor doesn't think it's too serious, though. But we'll just have to wait and see.
    Wolflover1999 Wolflover1999
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Nov 10, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 6, 2015

    "let Go And Let God"....but I Really Don't Want To...

    As children bring their broken toys with tears for us to mend, I brought my broken dreams to God; because He was my friend. But then instead of leaving Him, in peace to work alone; I hung around and tried to help, with ways that were my own. At last I snatched them back and cried...
    PrincessInW8ing PrincessInW8ing
    36-40, F
    18 Responses Jan 29, 2010

    I am so ******* done right now!

    I can't stand it. she's constantly saying it's my fault she's depressed and it's my fault she'll end up in the hospital and everything negative is basically my ******* fault! this ***** was unstable even before we met. now she's got our best friend ready to cut me off!!! if I...
    Viciouspistols Viciouspistols
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 27, 2015

    Zzzzzzzz

    I'm sleeping way too much. I get up and stay up a little while, then want to go right back to bed. I'd say 6-7 am -3-4 pm and the evening too I'm asleep. It scares me. I don't have the motivation to read anymore or do much of anything. I used to be a fireball, now I'm just ashes...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Dec 5, 2009

    I am a student, my exams are coming up.

    I am trying to fake that I am studying. I want to study but I am not getting enough motivation. I need help. My life is really messy right now. I want to share my feelings with someone but I can't find anyone. Its just not the studying problem, I am facing other problems too in...
    RedDevil20 RedDevil20
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 11, 2014

    Actually, I'm Doing Quite Awful

    I'm so confused about everything right now. I don't know where I'm going with my life at all. I don't know what I want anymore, I don't know how to feel. I'm going to school to become a social worker, but that's just something I chose to do because I need to feel like I'm helping...
    TheRealJade TheRealJade
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 8, 2011

    Ever have one of them days

    where you want to do so many things but everything you do, you mess up? The frustration! It's turning into a mild aggression at this point.
    VoicesInTheShadows VoicesInTheShadows
    22-25, F
    Apr 3, 2016

    'update' Im Getting Worse And Nobody Knows :/

    Well, as stated in the title, i've gotten (and getting) worse. Here are some things I have going on in a short list, and things i've been struggling with. (with explanations) ~Parents are getting a divorce (eventually)... Okay so my mom is unhappy with her marriage to my...
    BrokenHallelujah412 BrokenHallelujah412
    13-15, F
    Sep 18, 2013

    "Refrain from anger,

    and forsake wrath! Fret not yourself; it tends only to evil." Psalm 37:8 Someone gave me a small bible last week and saw that haha.
    GummiBr GummiBr
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jan 21, 2016

    I wish I would've gone to the right park.

    .. I'm sorry I couldn't meet you at your house like I asked you too. Tbh I went back to my apt to get a phone with a number you would recognize; my mom called the cops on me for borrowing her car. Called it auto theft. Thankfully I won't be getting another charge.
    Alexdrunkunc Alexdrunkunc
    22-25
    May 23, 2014

    I want to get better,

    i really do. Im tired of these awful feelings, these urges to hurt myself, to binge, purge, all of it. i wish they would all go away. that would make it all so much easier. Im trying my best to change, but it seems as though someone in particular keeps me from doing better. why...
    fuzzyball056 fuzzyball056
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 29, 2016

    Mood changes hit over the slightest thought

    sometimes. I keep falling flat on my face 😪
    Sewmuch2do Sewmuch2do
    41-45, F
    1 Response Aug 3, 2015

    I'm trying to be optimistic about my current

    situation. I will be sleeping at our local cold weather shelter for homeless people since I couldn't find a new place and my parents are sick of me being in the house. so my only option is to sleep at the shelter and be outside all day until it opens again for the night. I need...
    Viciouspistols Viciouspistols
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 29, 2016

    Rock bottom never felt

    so welcoming...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 13, 2016

    Work And Health

    i feel that i am not doing so well right now . messing up really bad at work . constantly in pain that is thrubbing and or pulsing in my legs and arms . today my right arm hurt to keep straght . i had no strength at all . it hurt o life the little baskets about five or seven of...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 13, 2010

    Last August my wife got abruptly sick.

    At first we were convinced she'd developed a heart condition, but since that point her physical symptoms became increasingly mental and the two doctors' opinions were that she'd hit a major depressive episode. For a few months I was convinced she was developing schizophrenia...
    BarvoDelancy BarvoDelancy
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Feb 11, 2016

    My moods are all over the place!

    I can go to bed feeling perfectly fine and happy, then wake up in the morning in a terrible mood. I feel like I'm constantly saying the wrong thing. I know some of the things I've said in the past week have hurt people I care about. I never intended to do that. I can't explain...
    Hannah1100 Hannah1100
    16-17, F
    6 Responses Aug 4, 2015

    I met his guy. I was starting to get close to

    him each new day go by. Yesterday I wanted to go see him, stop by to say hello for a few minutes. I had some place to go for the whole day. I told him "I meet you where you live but I'm not coming to your place". Boom that's when he changed to a different person. He message me...
    lorrena19 lorrena19
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 2, 2015

    I Want To Cry

    I feel stupid for saying this, but i will feel worse if i dont. like, i am on a cliff, a cliff that will take me so far down that i will die. like, i want to hurt myself, but i find it weird that i want to hurt myself to live. just, i dont feel like i deserve to be alive while...
    SunkinLies SunkinLies
    18-21, T
    2 Responses Mar 24, 2012

    I feel dead i manage to stuff everything up all

    the time im a useless human being.
    JaymillBro JaymillBro
    16-17, M
    Sep 16, 2015

    I Feel Like Its Not Getting Any Better

    I feel like things are going bad. Im stressed out and work is going bad. I cant get over how depressed i am. Its hard to explain in words how i feel.
    eyeslikestars eyeslikestars
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Mar 26, 2010

    What's the point anymore?

    I'm sick of trying and helping others and when I'm in crisis nobody seems to know or tell the difference. I run off and nobody tries to talk to me but I'm begging others to stop running and to come back when they're in need. Then I'll feel guilty and it repeats itself over and...
    Viciouspistols Viciouspistols
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 21, 2014

    What I believed to be a situational depression

    may well be the return of Major Depression. I think I may have to get back on antidepressants. At least I've heard the side effects are less severe than the last class of SSRIs. I'm scared to death every single day that I'll spiral as before and lose everything again.
    AnonymouslyGeneric1 AnonymouslyGeneric1
    46-50, F
    1 Response Feb 29, 2016
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