I Am Not Fully Alive

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 10 People

    I've always operated with mindset/philosophy, essentially, that the respect you want to be treated with by others......should first be given by you to them. A "you get what you...
    kk1874 kk1874
    31-35, F
    Apr 21
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    InvestCloud InvestCloud
    36-40, F
    Apr 21
    See you on ep2👊👌😄👍☝️🤗😊👊👊👊☝️👍👊
    LGootzeit LGootzeit
    16-17, M
    Apr 21
    Wam and wet look. LGootzeit
    LGootzeit LGootzeit
    16-17, M
    1 Response Apr 21
    I love this song from Parkway Drive... Vice Grip Parkway Drive Lyrics A system of complete control The pressure builds It wraps its hands around your throat A constant battle...
    Unsatisfiedstace2 Unsatisfiedstace2
    46-50, F
    Apr 21
    if there was anything I could have stepped up and done including make 300 dollar donations etc and my personal check for the month I would have done it to keep this place alive. I...
    ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix
    26-30, M
    Apr 21
    no more green dot... the only way I was able to tell when you woke up... since you often ignore me. At least I could see your stupid green dot and know you were alive. no more...
    Missjayne1 Missjayne1
    36-40, F
    Apr 20
    My name is Lupin, and I am alive. I am big into symbolism, not the kinds that you talk about in high school English classes, but the more authentic kind. The little moments in...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming
    18-21, T
    Apr 20
    ok, I'm glad I get to end with this experience... (I wonder if I never stop typing this, if it will force them to continue? lol ) I just finished getting the second small roof...
    Nateindenver Nateindenver
    31-35, M
    Apr 20
    When I was 19, I was hospitalized and shared a room with an unhappily woman fifteen years older than me. We hit it off. She was funny and later became a good friend. As time went...
    raccoon12 raccoon12
    46-50, M
    Apr 20
    With EP closing, have a look at http://super-slutty-is-fun.tumblr.com/ for some smoking (and other) stuff :) Also, http://pub35.bravenet.com/chat/show.php/2978566655 is good for...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 19
    If anyone wants to talk about getting muddy, message me to talk on yahoo messenger
    winkyxface winkyxface
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 17
    I am a United States Marine. Not currently active duty. Although As the saying goes once a Marine always a Marine. It is tattooed in my brain and my heart. Just a little back story...
    arhg arhg
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 17
    If I can help anybody with suicidal thoughts to change their thoughts or depression or anxiety who do not want to kill theirself..right to me I'm here. When I see your question or...
    spiritinblack spiritinblack
    41-45, M
    Apr 17
    I know I am meant to be because God and the Universe won't let me leave.
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies
    18-21, F
    Apr 17
    I have tried in my lifetime to die 16 times. This last one, put me in the hospital four months. It is in that time that I grew closer with the Lord. That is after I came out of my...
    spiritinblack spiritinblack
    41-45, M
    Apr 16
    Try to win the war over depression n suicide.Everyone in life has a purpose. A reason for being alive on this earth. And their unique story needs to be heard ,to help someone else...
    spiritinblack spiritinblack
    41-45, M
    Apr 16
    suppppeeeerr!! t ha nk You Lord! :D
    yayepisoverimsad yayepisoverimsad
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 16
    I hate him. I dont even like his name.He is not worth me. He lost my trust. He spoiled my life. This marriage is a terrible mistake. He is not fit for marriage at all. He is a...
    hopelesslyromantic hopelesslyromantic
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 16
    I am decrepit. Leg arteries replaced. Quite a few teeth gone. Surgical scars (several). Ab muscles shot due to several surgeries. Waist growing as a result as well. Ditto weight...
    Robert09 Robert09
    61-65, M
    1 Response Apr 15
    Wluld be nice to trust someone for once
    ThinxAna ThinxAna
    16-17, F
    6 Responses Apr 15
    Hello :) my name is Aurena, Im 13 and I have emetophobia. (fear of vomit) Here's my story. So lets go back late 2015, two days before I got sick for the first time in 10 years...
    Aurena Aurena
    13-15, F
    Apr 15
    Landon Austin - Armor I'm not bulletproof When it comes to you Don't know what to say When you made me the enemy After the wars done There's always the next one I'm not bulletproof...
    Dafhunter Dafhunter
    22-25, M
    Apr 15
    We were just kids, barely out of high school. We all wanted was to be an Army nurse, but they needed drivers more than nurses and because I was taller and more fit than the rest of...
    Boomer80hd Boomer80hd
    70+
    Apr 14
    Fight - Icon For Hire https://youtu.be/ixwc5LCmL-g?list=PLarPurFgxeHUtJy2LQkgYCqcxB_KlAntN I don’t know how I got here but I refuse to stay I betrayed myself when I let...
    Redstar86 Redstar86
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 14
    Sometimes, I probably come off as cold. My personality definitely changes around them. My mother and sister especially. When I’m around them, I’m more closed off. I don’t...
    emilyflys26 emilyflys26
    31-35
    Apr 14
    Sometimes, I probably come off as cold. My personality definitely changes around them. My mother and sister especially. When I’m around them, I’m more closed off. I don’t...
    emilyflys26 emilyflys26
    31-35
    1 Response Apr 14
    Welcome 400! Very thanks to the fast effect of ice cream  ! Some hours ago I met a gf for a bicycle trip. She wanted to see me and have a look on my gain progress, so we...
    psirider psirider
    36-40, M
    Apr 14
    This isn't the first time it's happened to me, but I get in the state of mind of where I'm right to fall asleep & still able to be conscious. Before this, I was having a dream of...
    stacyflowers stacyflowers
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 13
    I have to say that as the day nears, it seems to be getting worse, so many good memories. People just feeling alive and expressing themselves with out the worry of being judge. I...
    Original23 Original23
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 11
    The flavor of life can be bitter to so many, and I'm here to vent as the bad guy of my situation. There's a lot to be said. I sometimes don't realize why I talk so much when I do...
    RagiRam RagiRam
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 9
    The heart The heart is a wild thing The ribs a bone prison Not easily tamed The mind has a sense of reality The heart is led by passion Yet the heart and brain depend on one...
    Smileydork Smileydork
    16-17, F
    Apr 9
    I just really wish that you was still alive right now and that nobody hurt you and that they found you alive instead of finding you not alive because it hurt me and my family hurt...
    stephanie751 stephanie751
    13-15, F
    Apr 8
    If it wasn't for my kids, and the fear of going to hell I would kill myself.
    Jimakay Jimakay
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 8
    I'm about to buy my own breast forms! I'm getting one step closer to going out dressed! Lol
    drChampster drChampster
    18-21, T
    Apr 8
    this guy is japanese,she is chinese,they met Shanghai,he had a dark past and trouma(his ex gf fell in love with his best friend and they got car accident,his ex died.his best...
    genjiipiexx genjiipiexx
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Apr 8
    Wow I can't believe that I'm even writing about this they say writing is therapeutic and I always used to write but haven't in 5 years when my life changed forever. I always knew...
    Danielleirisgene Danielleirisgene
    31-35, F
    Apr 7
    I'm not going to miss being 15. Not one of the worst years of my life. I've had worse. A lot worse. My 15 years alive was entirely recovering from the worst years of my life. Low...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee
    70+, F
    8 Responses Apr 7
    Try hard to find out what you’re good at and what your passions are, and where the two converge, and build your life around that.
    Mcinacann Mcinacann
    41-45, F
    Apr 7
    http://www.islamcan.com/stop-complaining.shtml#.VwbN--yXec0
    asifasifme asifasifme
    26-30, M
    Apr 7
    Ring my bell, ring my bells Ring my bell, ring my bells Ring my bell, ring my bells Ring my bell, ring my bells Sometimes you love it, sometimes you dont Sometimes you need it...
    Lucifer63 Lucifer63
    16-17, M
    Apr 7
    Ring my bell, ring my bells Ring my bell, ring my bells Ring my bell, ring my bells Ring my bell, ring my bells Sometimes you love it, sometimes you dont Sometimes you need it...
    Lucifer63 Lucifer63
    16-17, M
    Apr 7
    Paramore - Emergency I think we have an emergency I think we have an emergency If you thought I'd leave Then you were wrong Cause I won't stop holding on So are you listening So...
    Dafhunter Dafhunter
    22-25, M
    Apr 7
    07/04/2016 - I really am. Born way too prematurely (24 weeks). Major car accident. Difficultly breathing. I'm lucky and grateful to be here even if it means having a trachy to...
    shecanonlydream shecanonlydream
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Apr 6
    I ******* hate feeling like this I hate feeling stupid I hate feeling like I can never do anything right. All I do is ******* fail at everything I can never do One simple thing...
    carazami carazami
    16-17
    Apr 6
    Everyone please send in all ideas, thoughts, criticism and love about our efforts to keep EP alive by recreating the site as a non for profit www.re-experienceproject.org. It's a...
    Infinyte Infinyte
    36-40, M
    1 Response Apr 6
    I never ever thought about love much until last year. I am a commitment phobe. I hated commitment but I was always curious to see if people would help me get over it. I was always...
    lifeseemstosuck lifeseemstosuck
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 5
    I have been this way all my life except I didn't realize this is who I am until after I was married and had children. I have kept this part of me hidden even after I went and...
    HannahMarie13 HannahMarie13
    66-70, T
    Apr 4
    Three Days Grace - Never Too Late This world will never be What I expected And if I don't belong Who would've guessed it I will not leave alone Everything that I own To make you...
    Dafhunter Dafhunter
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 3
    I lost a bet about "Downton Abbey" and had to get naked. I own a rental property and have a female friend, Felicity, who sometimes drops by to keep me company when I am fixing the...
    tacomareacher tacomareacher
    46-50, M
    1 Response Apr 3
    There is a meme going around… I think it originated on whisper… that says, “If you married someone who has kids from a previous relationship they are now your kids and should...
    thistledown thistledown
    31-35
    1 Response Apr 3
    Because at night, my sins can't be seen...<3
    Saya024 Saya024
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 2
    Right now I feel that suicide is the answer. goodbye
    xxAlexBridgerxx xxAlexBridgerxx
    13-15, T
    2 Responses Mar 31
    that makes me shooouttt.. im alive!! xD
    yayepisoverimsad yayepisoverimsad
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 30
    I have always been a shy girl. The one who never really spoke up or tried to make new friends. Throughout preschool, I didn’t talk to anybody. I met this one girl, her name is...
    ashleybushey ashleybushey
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Mar 30
    Me: Aye fuzzyayyyyyy !!!!! - Alias : What's happening mannnnn , darn no cooking gas , what's really happening Mannnn ( American accent ) I would laugh and carry on the...
    Stephenrko Stephenrko
    36-40, M
    Mar 30
    Both A Heaven & Hell. Most would find stepping into a jailhouse a curse, a personal hell, a punishment to be avoided at all costs. While others have the ability to see it as a...
    Missluhvlee Missluhvlee
    18-21, F
    Mar 30
    We play a game called dare roulette. This day there was 9 of us playing. When it is your turn, if you want to chicken out, you can text a friend. If that person says no you don...
    MLanders97 MLanders97
    41-45, M
    Mar 30
    I used to meet criteria for borderline personality disorder. Borderlines and almost borderlines understand the urge to self harm. As I get older it becomes more subtle. I used to...
    Doomflower Doomflower
    31-35, F
    Mar 30
    No reason to stay is a good reason to go..
    mehak91 mehak91
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 30
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