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I Am Not Fully Alive

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    I'm here to be real! My feet want to run, but can barely walk. My brain wants to stay lit up, but seems to flip on and off. I try desperately to shut it off. When it does shut off...
    Susiedisney Susiedisney 56-60, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    my extremism wants me to fly, spill the blood start the ritual, hallucinate and reach the sky embrace the sun, burn myself alive so i could feel alive..for a while walk on...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M 9 hrs ago

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    Last one. While I have plenty of other things to be grateful for, I really only intended to write about them for a week. :p This one, I believe, is fragile gratitude. It's...
    TheBadgeringWitness TheBadgeringWitness 31-35 3 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I see giant crabs on Naked and Afraid and I feel chills. I don't know why they scare me so much. I remember the glass bottom tours. The fish and reefs. The time things forced...
    zax2 zax2 51-55, M 12 hrs ago

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    for wasting the earth's resources to keep me alive but still gonna end up in hell
    RedKarmin RedKarmin 26-30, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    How everyday was a new adventure. How the sun streamed through the window, projecting images on the wall that I added to late morning dreams. And the buzzing of bees. How much I...
    zax2 zax2 51-55, M 14 hrs ago

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    We may change,our society may change but God doesn't change. His moral law is just as alive today as it was 2000 years ago or even 3000 years ago. Study the 10 commandments, they...
    niceguycursed niceguycursed 31-35, M 3 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I am strong because I know my weaknesses. I'm alive because I'm a fighter. I love unconditionally because I have had hate directed towards me. I am wise because I've been...
    silverfox54 silverfox54 61-65, F 3 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Beat me. Punch me in the face. Bite. Kick me. Hurt me. Do anything so I can see you bother. If love hurts then nothing else I want just pain. If love is a heartache then give me...
    placeborealis placeborealis 41-45, M 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    He told himself to be brave, Reread his letter multiple times before putting it down. He never had a reason out of the hoi polloi, but now he did. Slowly, yet blissfully, he let it...
    absss absss 18-21, T 18 hrs ago

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    I've been thinking about committing suicide a lot lately, and was reading a lot of your stories. I just want to tell you all that you matter, that it is always better to keep on...
    Cyhyreath Cyhyreath 22-25, F 2 Responses 20 hrs ago

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    I want to tell my story on why I became a hunter. When I was 15 which was roughly 4 years ago I was at home babysitting my brother. My parents and my sister were out shopping I was...
    DemonHunterOswin DemonHunterOswin 18-21 20 hrs ago

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    My life consists on my working all the time and trying to take care of my momma and keep her alive....my momma is really sick and sometimes she doesn't wants to take her medication...
    IsMyStory IsMyStory 16-17, F 21 hrs ago

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    Every day of my life I want to jump into the car and just go anywhere, just drive until I can't anymore. I feel the most alive when I travel, and the most empty when I'm stuck. I...
    Jewels10022 Jewels10022 16-17, F 22 hrs ago

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    A few months ago I was mad at my mom and I was heart broken from my ex , it was 3 pm then I took some sleeping pills to sleep , after I took the pills I had visions and sounds of...
    mehran1993 mehran1993 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    I think of dying so often. People look at me and say how sweet, lovely, beautiful, but most days I can barely muster will to live let alone be everyone's angel. #iftheyonlyknew
    angelfoodcupcake angelfoodcupcake 31-35, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    As a Christian, I think the Christian thing to do is support the LGBT community, it's just the Christ-like thing to do.
    jeong9797 jeong9797 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Life is turning around for me. I woke this morning feeling so much joy. I believe other people can be happy and I wish it to be so. My therapist said to me there is always hope.
    equusrider equusrider 56-60, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I while back a co worker had passed away. So I was down as he was a friend outside of work. I had sent to the funeral ask dressed in a black suit, black dress shirt, wine this and...
    wetnmessyme wetnmessyme 46-50, M 3 days ago

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    Hi, I was walking home from work last week and I saw 2 white guys in a fistfight. One dude was getting beat up pretty bad (bloody nose and mouth). The thing with this fight was the...
    candy110 candy110 36-40, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    4 weeks ago there was a fire in a electrical cupboard in a above floor flat in the building I live in and luckily I was out on a night out with a friend, no one died but everyone...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 days ago

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    uh, yeah duh!!! the only way i leave the house is fully dressed.
    violet1698 violet1698 31-35, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    We were once close friends...now? I don't even know if he sees me as a classmate anymore, whether he sees me as nothing... With my emotions died away, I can't feel the hurt, the...
    colourflame colourflame 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time. We all are made from the same thing. We all originated from a mother. When...
    realsweetbaby realsweetbaby 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    Do not worry.. I am still alive... I still feel some breathing difficulties...but I am still alive.. Just days eat my hours.. Who knows where I would be after an hour or a day or...
    KAREEM77 KAREEM77 36-40, M 6 days ago

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    Greetings, Its been quite some time since my last post. Well, I've deleted it, but still. I had a nervous breakdown. I couldn't sleep, study basically i couldn't do anything for...
    BlakeUndefined BlakeUndefined 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    I always wanted to tell my mom that I love swimming fully clothed but I could'nt.last week we went to a place that there was a river and I had a T.shrit ,jeans,sneakers on. I...
    1377ahwb 1377ahwb 13-15, M 6 days ago

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    I had an accident last year in the month of September and i had almost gave up on myself as my eyes were completely damaged and i was in depression that whether i'am may be able to...
    Gladtobehere55 Gladtobehere55 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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    When I was 5 my mom and I were going to my aunts house to pick up some cake she cooked earlier. We were passing a rail road with a big Bush covering the right side of the tracks...
    davidvasquez davidvasquez 16-17, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    You'd think at 36 I'd be fully over the facy my father despises me...but no. Once again fathers day rolls around, just like Christmas or his birthday and a knot grows in my gut...
    andreanuse andreanuse 36-40 1 Response Jun 21

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    Was driving my jeep down a country road, probably speeding. I came over hill and there was a car stopped on the road, I though it was accelerating. It wasn't . I realized I had no...
    HarryOsbourne HarryOsbourne 56-60, M 3 Responses Jun 20

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    This is a really bad day I'm ready to just die and leave this world
    moorejt84 moorejt84 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 18

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    I understand this with people such as my Grandfather when he was 94, but I am only 57 years old, this is sad but this is true, all the people I am really close to are dead...
    severalanimals severalanimals 56-60, M Jun 17

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    I'll seek you out Flay you alive One more word and you won't survive And I'm not scared Of your stolen power I see right through you any hour I won't soothe your pain I won't ease...
    DeGustibus DeGustibus 26-30, M Jun 16

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    Even though quite recently I've decided to live again. There's still a part in me that feels lost, the part that once kept me alive but it's dead now. I feel dead and alive, I've...
    JamesAlcock JamesAlcock 18-21, M Jun 16

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    Well considering I nearly died last year and took my *** into rehab to get clean, lost all my friends and family and momenta in life, but on the up side I got clean, got myself a...
    stevenmichaelsawers stevenmichaelsawers 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 14

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    My dad doesn't Even Listen To What I Say, Thats Why i Can Never Come up With Anything To Say, Caus I Always End Up Forgetting It Caus He Tries To Talk over Me
    Tdollablind Tdollablind 26-30, M Jun 13

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    I've actually been feeling good lately! No depression, I've been with friends, I've been going places and doing things. Though I'm nervous for the winter, I think it's gonna be a...
    sassycastiel sassycastiel 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 12

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    My current girlfriend did it on holiday/vacation twice. :) We were staying at a private villa in Italy for her birthday (September 6th) and it was after we had been for a meal and...
    millsio millsio 31-35, M 2 Responses Jun 10

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    I sometimes think about having a little barbacue inside the garage. Close the windows, bring the grill in. Fire up the charcoal. Sit down in a chair with music on. Maybe a beer or...
    sadandpoor87 sadandpoor87 26-30, F Jun 9

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    My clothes are so dirty mmm
    IWantToBeBadlyTortured IWantToBeBadlyTortured 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 8

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