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I Am Not Fully Alive

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    What is a Mother? For me I was lucky I had a friend’s mother stand up for me when I was young, and even before I fully understood what was being done I knew she loved me like her...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M May 9

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    BON JOVI "Wanted Dead Or Alive" It's all the same, only the names will change Everyday it seems we're wasting away Another place where the faces are so cold I'd drive all...
    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M 2 Responses May 16

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    There are times I wished I had of done something and regret it now. That was to be fully dressed as the person I am when I was going to university. I know I would have relieved a...
    bmg1kel bmg1kel 61-65, T May 12

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    I want to meet new friends and have fun and feel alive again. I've been in a loveless passionless marriage for too long now. Lead separate lives and I've been stagnant for too long...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 26

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    I know it's hard right now, I know you want to just give in because it seems easier. But it's not, being alive is one of the most painful experiences of our existence. Yet being...
    chelsealea97 chelsealea97 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    My best friend I already know since 10 years is someone I can really fully trust. Whatever he says is the truth. He would never lie to me, I know that. And that's something I...
    BiNiceBoy BiNiceBoy 22-25, M May 2

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    Trust is a virtue that only birds have in their wings, tigers have in their claws, and gators have in their jaws. The trust they have in their self. There is no one on this planet...
    tornsin tornsin 31-35, M 1 Response May 5

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    My aunt always made sure I was fully naked before she spanked me.
    DanRobb DanRobb 46-50, M 3 Responses May 15

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    I want to have fun, dance crazy and laugh and enjoy being alive
    missynona missynona 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    Lucky. Grateful? Sometimes. Lonely, all the time. I have only my dog and what broken pieces of my family remain. Friends I see and chill with? Chilling as it is, I have only one...
    MissAutumn MissAutumn 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 29

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    I'm keeping to myself more than normal. All my best friends were worried they all told me how much they cared and that they were all so happy that that man saved me.A girl on ep...
    MusicLover4Eternity MusicLover4Eternity 13-15, F Apr 30

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    Happy Mother’s Day This is a first for me sorry: This is to my first mother or birth mother, while we never talked in the 12 years I was with you I want you to know I Had nothing...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M 1 Response May 8

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    A bit of a morbid experience, but i should be dead many times over. Through heart issues, burst artery, meningitis, and numerous suicide attempts, i an lucky to be alive.
    tomb33 tomb33 18-21, M 1 Response May 14

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    Morons on the Internet and around the world defend terrorist acts and bombings, going as far as to spread lies and claim Israel initiated conflict. Ignorance is alive and well...
    ElectricErn ElectricErn 26-30, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I hate being alive having to deal with bullies
    lonelybutfriendly lonelybutfriendly 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I hate being alive.....i hate that i have to get up every day to just suffer through every day with a fake personality and fake emotions...i hate that i cant even kill myself...
    TheDarknessInsideM3 TheDarknessInsideM3 18-21, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Not a lot of clothes are made for curvy girls so they don't always fit right but when I am naked I am as confident as ever. Who says all thick girls have low self esteem? Haha
    arirose43 arirose43 16-17, F Apr 29

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    I have loved several women in my life but after a certain amount of tine they all would run off and cheat.Its hard to believe any woman's words anymore all I hear is lies and...
    LoztSoul LoztSoul 26-30, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Everything seems so hazy when there's no pain. Not that it brings clarity, but the pain itself is in such vivid colour and detail. It's your link to reality.
    ambivalentFriability ambivalentFriability 18-21 2 Responses Apr 27

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    I put faith in my beliefs and feel this elevated existence once I accept my faith and that it is a part of me, my faith goes straight into my heart, like the best high you ever...
    seikofontay seikofontay 18-21, M Apr 28

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    An azure blue sky, an adirondack chair, a glass of lemonade with lots of ice, surrounded by blooming flowers and birdsong on a warm, lazy Saturday afternoon in May. This is way...
    growgirl growgirl 22-25, F 4 Responses May 2

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    Grandpa thinks uppers are dentures...
    1chuck2 1chuck2 31-35, M 2 Responses May 3

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    the only reason that i am still living despite being so miserable almost everyday with little positive thoughts is because i am a coward. i am afraid of death so killing myself or...
    perxatkins perxatkins 18-21, F 1 Response May 5

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    I want to die what's the point of being in this world? It just makes me feel so god dam ****** it's either people hurting me or me hurting them I've pushed everyone away because I...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 2 Responses May 5

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    Told him I don't wanna be friends and I'm moving on to better things couldn't be happier because I know he'll never find better
    flowergirl97 flowergirl97 18-21, F 1 Response May 6

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    isolation and self punishment from PTSD coping and treatment first time w social networking??
    server911 server911 31-35, M 1 Response May 7

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    Today is the birthday of my departed friend killed by cancer ---leukaemia.He was named Tri’wür Shah who was a very good person.
    HJinjing HJinjing 18-21, M 3 Responses May 7

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    Tomorrow will be a difficult day...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses May 8

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    I hate mothers day....it's just another reminder that mines dead. I lost my best friend that day......
    Fix1975 Fix1975 36-40, F 6 Responses May 9

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    Yes, all day Im so drained and sleepy no matter how much rest I get but at nigt 10-11pm, BAM its like I had 3 energy drinks
    HeyThereHeather HeyThereHeather 26-30, F May 10

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    Today is Mothers Day but I won't be spending my day with her since now she is gone first mothers day without her, my daughter wants me to go to lunch with her and I don't want hurt...
    kathrineh kathrineh 46-50, F May 10

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    She had polio as a child and her body was so frail. She passed two weeks ago...leaving a hole in my heart and big shoes to fill as a family matriarch. She did everything anyone...
    gigglebunnysparklebottom gigglebunnysparklebottom 46-50, F May 10

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    I married but lonely it's easy the answer why you lonely
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 11

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    My dad is a three time cancer survivor and my mom is a hepatitis survivor. Prayers she can somehow overcome Lupus also. Both are such amazing and inspirational people.
    Silc Silc 26-30, F 2 Responses May 11

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    I wish I could close my eyes and fall into a deep peaceful sleep and never awaken. All my worries would be washed away and I would finally feel at ease. My mind would become...
    busybrain busybrain 26-30, F 3 Responses May 12

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    and pretty hurt. forgot how this felt like.
    olahjagger olahjagger 22-25, F May 12

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    warped tour last year.....kinda sucked because of the people i went with but the mosh pits for attila and falling in reverse were insane. would love to go again.
    kinkystapler kinkystapler 18-21, F May 12

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    I feel fantastic! Truthfully that is the only way to feel. An increased presence has come from exercising my own consciousness, and now I am more awake than ever before! Colours...
    MayaKing MayaKing 31-35, F May 14

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    Mocha before 7 and I'm feeling great! Already ran on the treadmill, showered and fixed breakfast, I have a FULL day ahead :)
    DeborahLiving DeborahLiving 18-21, F 1 Response May 15

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    Just so I can make everybody else's lives a living hell
    BackgroundCharacter BackgroundCharacter 22-25, M May 16

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    I wish I could travel back in time and go back to the 70s as a hippie musician. I love everything about music back then, and the free spirit that that time empowered. I feel like...
    graypat graypat 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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