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I Am Not Fully Alive

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    2 years ago I tried to commit suicide and failed... I am still alive yet after all this time... I really only regret staying alive. That's it really, I regret not dying all that...
    SinisterShadow SinisterShadow 18-21, M Jun 30

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    Scratch the crust – blood, Pick your nose – blood, Brush your teeth – blood, Sew the sock – blood, Every 28 days – blood, Are we alive? Since rubbing rusty iron makes the...
    NchK NchK 31-35, F Jul 12

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    I am incredibly lucky to be alive I was born premature 2 months before I was supposes to be born I was born 19 days after my parents got married on November 1st 1997 So I was born...
    ECrierie ECrierie 16-17, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I really thought I was facing the real possibility of death with this one, but thank you God I'm alive! 😁 Going to be healing for a long time and it hurts like crazy to laugh...
    Mirandaluvslife Mirandaluvslife 36-40, F Jul 13

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    I am alive and that's enough for me! Air giving me oxygen for living! When I am lonely, my heart speak with me! I started my own story, so I want to complete it! I want to die...
    Jms04 Jms04 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm trying to establish my own identity and live life my own way slowly but I really struggle with that. Between living in my family's house and the small minded area I live in, it...
    ajrestless ajrestless 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Still alive and kicking and now roaming around EP to let all people know how crazy and AWESOME I am! You doubting? Don't care! :P (haters gonna hate!) giggles* JK ;) I'm AWESOME...
    akirayuuki akirayuuki 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 27

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    What happens to me is that I'll feel weird being alive at all. I'll feel "weird" being a human being. I'll feel hyper-aware of my existence, and I'll feel like I'm in a vast...
    59Ballons 59Ballons 13-15 Jun 29

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    I've been walking through a fog for too long. I can't remember the last time I felt this alive. Quiet 7am Sunday morning, cold fresh air, bright sun poking its head over the...
    Diabo1ique Diabo1ique 70+ Jul 5

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    I know this sounds stupid, and I am not ever going to commit suicide so dont think that, but I got to thinking the other day, why are we alive? Why are we here? Whats the purpose...
    emmy63637 emmy63637 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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    I work with the elderly and everyday after listening to their stories I am more grateful to be alive and well. I strive to utilize my time wisely to maximize my existence.
    lovinlife27 lovinlife27 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    I'm tired and so sick of being alive I want to end up this sadness ****.
    jumanachan jumanachan 16-17, F Jul 12

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    I feel it in my existence. As a human and for being on this planet and even living or existing. Endless pain. Nothing make sense and everything makes me unhappy, I could never even...
    DrowninginFear DrowninginFear 18-21, F Jul 16

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    If I say “it’s a great day to be alive,” it’s because those are literally my only plans.
    PinkP0werRanger PinkP0werRanger 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    Even though my life is in shambles I am grateful to be alive. I am grateful for those moments that cause you to stop and think "wow, this is amazing!" I am grateful for the...
    RiseAbove222 RiseAbove222 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    Looking in the mirror I always had a huge scar on my right side of my face. I never knew a day when I didn't see it and I can't imagine my face without it. I got it in a car...
    rukesh3 rukesh3 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm here because I got persuaded to get into a large tank of mud to raise money for charity. It happened at my place of work, we have a long tradition of messy stunts for...
    Lisamuddy Lisamuddy 22-25, F 3 Responses Jun 25

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    Please,I have trust issues!!!!
    Ashleybabe28 Ashleybabe28 26-30, F 5 Responses Jun 28

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    Adding to my previous post. Once we became comfortable with being naked is was a free for all. If I was in the shower and no one was home she would just walk in and we would talk...
    scottjd27 scottjd27 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 29

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    I came to this site with that announcement on a search engine and low and behold I see where others experience this as well. Oddly, in my dreams it's on the radio and I always...
    lynnsong lynnsong 46-50, F Jul 1

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    We gotta get passed fears to be able to trust.Trust it is not only to hope for the best and wish we wont get hurt...we gotta start trusting ourselves too. This means...if you...
    4biandu 4biandu 26-30, F Jul 6

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    I fell in a swamp once :| that counts doesn't it ?
    Mi5h Mi5h 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 10

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    With the warm weather at the moment, I've found myself cooling off in the mud very regularly. I am using a wonderful new place. It's a tidal river and there are literally acres of...
    amywam amywam 26-30, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    I find this quite difficult because we are conditioned to always reflect and think ahead... Studying for a test, making money, achieving goals, work tasks etc... Whilst all this is...
    dafunkofamadhatter dafunkofamadhatter 26-30, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I was on a bridge( there was water under the bridge) with no railings and it was covered with ice. My shoes had no grip and i was pretty stupid to even go on the bridge in the...
    christinaL6 christinaL6 13-15, F 4 days ago

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    any gus live in south Carolina in the Anderson area around Anderson? If so hmu. im 17/f looking for some fun
    persuadedgoose4 persuadedgoose4 18-21, F Jun 24

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    People die all the time and most of the time it's not even from old age.
    stardancer99 stardancer99 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    I'm sorry but I have to leave this Earth. Nobody even supports me in my everyday life. By that I mean no one even makes me happy and encourages me when I'm sad or depressed. They...
    BloodRedDarkness1 BloodRedDarkness1 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 27

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    I really have nothing going for me. My mum constantly insults me calling me weak/selfish/lazy/etc and says she wishes she didn't come home some nights because of me. I have no...
    Lstoneheart Lstoneheart 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    I'm a night owl. I've always been since I've been a young child . I feel more energized. I only wish more places were open at that time. IHOP is open but I don't feel like hoppin...
    AquariusLife AquariusLife 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    They have a concert in November, but I need an 18+ year old to go because some of my friends aren't 16 and won't be by the time of the concert. Dilemma.😢😔
    QuietIsViolent QuietIsViolent 13-15, F Jun 29

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    for me, love is a suitjacket in an over air-conditioned room.. when I'm freezing and other women are putting the dinner napkins over thier arms to try to keep themselves warm, and...
    SweetKiester SweetKiester 36-40, F 5 Responses Jun 29

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    I can't help it, it's like I feel worthless and I have a million things going on in my mind. Then I cut and I can breathe again and I never noticed I couldn't till I could again...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    It's very easy to concentrate on what is wrong in our lives. I am trying to focus on all of the good, just to see how very lucky I am.
    SheenaLove4U SheenaLove4U 36-40, F Jul 2

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    I believe in God, and I've heard many wonderful things about my life.... But frankly, I want to give up. I've been down for so long that I don't even know what to do anymore...
    Vanessairie Vanessairie 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 3

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    An awesome man in our school system and community passed away from a heart attack recently and I just received that news. As I'm taking it all in, this experience comes up as the...
    landhoee landhoee 18-21, M Jul 3

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    I feel an entire world on my shoulders, and it hard to hold it up when I am hollow inside, both my stomach and my heart. I am behind a glass wall, on the other side is the world. I...
    HoldingOnToAir HoldingOnToAir 16-17, F Jul 5

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    Sometimes We complain about something we have or don't have. About our body anything. And there's people out there who wish they had what we have.. Be Thankful Er'Body...
    LaJaylen15 LaJaylen15 16-17, F Jul 6

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    Because **** you, that's why.
    GreenManley GreenManley 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    Inspiration is what gets people to invent new things, come up with new ideas, etc.a I am inspired my many people, because of he great things that they do. Now i believe in the idea...
    Aram8361 Aram8361 18-21, M Jul 10

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    Take the time to break down. If it burns then burn it to the ground and remember that the roots are good. I've rebuilt myself from the ashes. I feel good, strong, and powerful...
    LastofmyKind LastofmyKind 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    Yeah. Hell my ancestors weren't in the US during those times. My mom's side was in Mexico during those times and my dad's side were in Europe and North Africa. And I also have no...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F Jul 11

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    Last year I was diagnosed with Primary Mediastinal Large B-Cell Lymphoma, a type of cancer. Three months of aggressive chemotherapy wiped it out taking my luscious locks and...
    jacqolantern jacqolantern 22-25, F Jul 12

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    He broke up with me. I'm about to cut.
    stillYDGN stillYDGN 13-15, F Jul 12

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    I'm trying to raise money to help dig out from under Student Loans http://www.gofundme.com/bgi2nw
    mre88 mre88 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 12

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    I was born one pound when I was born! I was 5 months early and spent more than 100 days in the incubation chamber, I could've died because of my lungs. But I didn't.
    apathyiswinning apathyiswinning 16-17, M Jul 14

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