I Am Not Geting Better I Am Getting Worse

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    I don't know what's wrong with me yet.

    . But the past month everytime I feel I'm loosing my boyfriend I threaten my life.. And now he has gone.. I drove him away even more... Our families our saying it's better for him not to see or speak to me ARE THEY MAD I need him more than ever right now!! Lucky he pulls...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 6, 2015

    I really thought that being alone over a year

    now I would start feeling better about myself but you know what I don't if it could be possible to feel worse I Do. When I drove my husband last Jan to the airport I really wanted to get on with my life , but it is as if I had nothing but bad luck this year, my dad passed away I...
    monica0215 monica0215
    51-55, F
    Jun 16, 2015

    Trying To Recover

    About 6 weeks ago, I attempted suicide. I went through partial hospitalization, and I am currently waiting to see a psychiatrist on a weekly basis. I feel like maybe I am worse than they thought I was, because I don't feel any different that I did that night. I still hate myself...
    akzoh11 akzoh11
    16-17, M
    Feb 19, 2013

    Please read !!!! I have osteochondritis in

    both my knees I was diagnosed 6 years ago at the age of 11, since then I have been prescribed to go to physio therapy and have done so for around 4 years - on 2 different occasions, I have seen 3 specialists and all have said to carry on with physio therapy however the last...
    jomariee jomariee
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 14, 2014
    Edwardkarter Edwardkarter
    41-45, M
    Apr 6, 2015

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