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I Am Not Geting Better I Am Getting Worse

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    Edwardkarter Edwardkarter 36-40, M Apr 6

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    Trying To Recover

    About 6 weeks ago, I attempted suicide. I went through partial hospitalization, and I am currently waiting to see a psychiatrist on a weekly basis. I feel like maybe I am worse than they thought I was, because I don't feel any different that I did that night. I still hate myself...
    akzoh11 akzoh11 16-17, M Feb 19, 2013

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    depression is getting worse,

    I listen to music to rid of dark thoughts but I get dark thoughts about as often as the sun rises and sets. my self-hatred is getting worse. I soically isolated myself all my life and now I'm beginning to regret it...I'd love to beat myself...but the wounds would heal...
    omss omss 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    I really thought that being alone over a year

    now I would start feeling better about myself but you know what I don't if it could be possible to feel worse I Do. When I drove my husband last Jan to the airport I really wanted to get on with my life , but it is as if I had nothing but bad luck this year, my dad passed away I...
    monica0215 monica0215 51-55, F Jun 16

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    Please read !!!! I have osteochondritis in

    both my knees I was diagnosed 6 years ago at the age of 11, since then I have been prescribed to go to physio therapy and have done so for around 4 years - on 2 different occasions, I have seen 3 specialists and all have said to carry on with physio therapy however the last...
    jomariee jomariee 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 14, 2014

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    I don't know what's wrong with me yet.

    . But the past month everytime I feel I'm loosing my boyfriend I threaten my life.. And now he has gone.. I drove him away even more... Our families our saying it's better for him not to see or speak to me ARE THEY MAD I need him more than ever right now!! Lucky he pulls...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 6

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    StraCat StraCat 31-35, M 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I just want people to know, I am a 14 year old girl, and people don't usually listen to someone like me, but rn I want you to stop and listen up, because I'm going to say something...
    mxyxrxni mxyxrxni 26-30, F 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    Whenever I see kids at school pushing around other kids and bullying them it always makes me mad. Usually it's bigger kids pushing around and bullying kids who are smaller and...
    hannahphillips hannahphillips 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    For the past two years or so I've been extremely depressed. It seemed my life was just one catastrophe after another. Okay, not a catastrophe, but it was pretty ******. I've...
    Merciers Merciers 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I hate it when people think too much of themselves and think they are better than everyone else. I also hate it when people who have money think they are better than those who work...
    iamabigtease iamabigtease 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    I've been starving myself for the last week. This doesr happen often but I'm riding high on a wave of deep stress. I'm overweight again and this is my quick fix for getting down...
    RearrangedScars RearrangedScars 26-30, F 6 Responses 3 days ago

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    the bible is NOT to taken literally..... people who quote scripture in detail DRIVE ME CRAZY,its only a book ,pace 6 of the Comcast DVR manual reads 'ultra~VNC software...
    miimii0069 miimii0069 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    This will be a veryyyy long experience, but I need help. So I'll try to make it short. My dad was the leader of the church's band. He was there since the beginnings of our church...
    EarlPhantomhive EarlPhantomhive 18-21, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jZ3L-5o3VuQ It's a pretty world in this song but it wasn't a part of my marriage. It was overwhelming and beautiful in the beginning. I felt I...
    frspch frspch 51-55, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    So, there's a long time I don't share any more stories about my piggy, chunky, chubby, girlfriend, we broke up and after that, many people came to me and said: "Oh man what...
    jaymaly jaymaly 22-25, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I am surrounded by tortured souls who long for special attention that cunningly or cleverly demand it. The world, to them, doesn't care, so they resort to finding someone who will...
    SelfUnaware SelfUnaware 18-21 5 days ago

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    getting closer everyday, thanks to some good advice, support, and guidance from my wolf.
    evolnillef evolnillef 70+, F 5 days ago

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    Wedding planning is STRESSFUL. My fiance is a wonderful man and I am so glad to have him in my life. However, his family is another matter particularly his aunt. She had bombarded...
    VoodooChild9302 VoodooChild9302 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    In what I believe is an attempt to merge the MeToo app and the Experience Project....EP is currently rolling out a bastardization between the two. Some have it now, some have had...
    Extant1 Extant1 51-55, M 28 Responses 5 days ago

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    I love finding out more and more about myself - what makes me truly happy and the short cuts that make my life so much easier. I'm liking myself more and respecting and accepting...
    Magicalcarebear Magicalcarebear 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    I'm hanging out for my new life to start. First step was getting out of a loveless relationship, next move out of the place I once called home, I have rubbed heroin, ice and weed...
    WokenandOpen WokenandOpen 31-35, M 6 days ago

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    You know, the people who really suffer rarely tell people how much worse they have it than others. It's people who don't live with the pain who say things like "Well, your cousin...
    emperornorton47 emperornorton47 56-60, M a week ago

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    I was watching one of my favorite movies today and I realized I was a lot like one of the characters. She was kind. Very kind. She didn't hurt people with an words and she helped...
    Lilique Lilique 16-17, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    smoking weed for the first time was at the sweet age of 13 on the couch with my friends mom. I understand your outlook if you think "omg marijuana and parents wtf" but then again...
    blazinbree blazinbree 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    It really bugs me when people dismiss my or other people's struggles with a bit of whataboutery. Or even just saying things like "pull yourself together". I don't deny that there...
    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    Pretty much. I try and try to get better things, yet that break hasn't happened yet. Maybe I should just stop and not try, it won't necessarily get anything, but it'll avoid the...
    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M Jul 26

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    I apologize in advance if this is all over the place. I married a serial cheater who also happens to be the most amazing father to our children. I found out he was cheating when I...
    question253 question253 41-45, F Jul 26

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    In an effort to better myself physically, I decided to take my bike for a ride, however I did not get very far. My lack of coordination and balance caused me to crash and now I am...
    aardvark2u aardvark2u 56-60, M 1 Response Jul 25

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    If I've learned anything with the years is that "no one is better than you" no one is born in a different way ... and so those who believe that they are better than others and you...
    rb47 rb47 36-40, F Jul 25

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    There are days that even coffee won't even wake me up. Though it is doing it's best to try. A restless night's sleep has me in a daze. A storm came through at about 2am. Now a...
    llevame llevame 41-45, F Jul 24

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    I think I look alot better than when I was in my teens. And in general people look better with age, not to say that youthfulness is ugly or anything. But often in our teens and...
    mirkwood86 mirkwood86 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 24

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    kind of a silly group since lyrics are words....but i digress... Mettalica "Fade To Black" Life, it seems, will fade away Drifting further every day Getting lost within myself...
    ArnoldJRimmer ArnoldJRimmer 46-50, M 2 Responses Jul 24

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    When I get worse I have no energy to get in touch with anyone. This in turn makes me feel very guilty for obvious reasons. The guilt I can absolutely NOT cope with makes me even...
    becomeinvisible becomeinvisible 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    I have been away from this site for quite a long time...I would not say that I am at my best but I am a work in progress. I had a relapse last year and it almost cost me my job. It...
    jerome0518 jerome0518 31-35, F Jul 23

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    I've been eating like crazy lately and I'm really starting to feel the effects of it. My clothes are getting increasingly tight, especially my shirts. I can feel my belly jiggle...
    m3ltingsnow m3ltingsnow 22-25, F 7 Responses Jul 23

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    after finding my ex ap back on my friends list on a social network site I sat it out for 6weeks he never chatted or anything he was just there. Any way I sent him a pm saying I...
    lostcase75 lostcase75 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    My divorce and my insomnia are getting the best of me tonight. It's almost 3am and I can't sleep because I'm so angry. The soon to be ex-husband has been sending picture text of...
    TheNewClassic82 TheNewClassic82 31-35, F 9 Responses Jul 22

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    Nothing better than a little midnight snacking before bed lol
    FatGuyAndProud FatGuyAndProud 22-25, M Jul 21

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    - Pretty Hurts- Beyonce. Mama said, you're a pretty girl What's in your head it doesn't matter Brush your hair, fix your teeth What you wear is all that matters Just another...
    xItsChelsx xItsChelsx 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    All [my hairs] stand up Can't help but stare now Gotta feel that touch [His] kiss, my fix, so sweet Can't quit those lips are a habit to me Sweet intoxication and I'm never getting...
    nickels513 nickels513 26-30, F Jul 21

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    It's far easier, words flow a lot better. Granted, most of the things I think tend to sound better in my head, but it's easier to write than to speak.
    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 20