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I Am Not Geting Better I Am Getting Worse

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    About 6 weeks ago, I attempted suicide. I went through partial hospitalization, and I am currently waiting to see a psychiatrist on a weekly basis. I feel like maybe I am worse than they thought I was, because I don't feel any different that I did that night. I still hate myself...
    akzoh11 akzoh11 16-17, M Feb 19, 2013

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