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I Am Not Geting Better I Am Getting Worse

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    Edwardkarter Edwardkarter 36-40, M Apr 6

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    depression is getting worse,

    I listen to music to rid of dark thoughts but I get dark thoughts about as often as the sun rises and sets. my self-hatred is getting worse. I soically isolated myself all my life and now I'm beginning to regret it...I'd love to beat myself...but the wounds would heal...
    omss omss 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    Trying To Recover

    About 6 weeks ago, I attempted suicide. I went through partial hospitalization, and I am currently waiting to see a psychiatrist on a weekly basis. I feel like maybe I am worse than they thought I was, because I don't feel any different that I did that night. I still hate myself...
    akzoh11 akzoh11 16-17, M Feb 19, 2013

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    Please read !!!! I have osteochondritis in

    both my knees I was diagnosed 6 years ago at the age of 11, since then I have been prescribed to go to physio therapy and have done so for around 4 years - on 2 different occasions, I have seen 3 specialists and all have said to carry on with physio therapy however the last...
    jomariee jomariee 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 14, 2014

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    I don't know what's wrong with me yet.

    . But the past month everytime I feel I'm loosing my boyfriend I threaten my life.. And now he has gone.. I drove him away even more... Our families our saying it's better for him not to see or speak to me ARE THEY MAD I need him more than ever right now!! Lucky he pulls...
    Butterflyfairy23 Butterflyfairy23 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    So I'll explain a bit about myself first, I suffer a bit from depression and was diagnosed with a mild of aspergers. I tend to keep track of good days and bad days as part of a...
    AlbertTesla AlbertTesla 22-25 Apr 30

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    I feel like killing myself I just don't have the courage ... If a car was coming I wouldn't move out of the way ... But my family wouldn't care anyways
    SecretKeeper01 SecretKeeper01 16-17, F 1 Response May 6

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    I've just been up and down daily.
    PendulEmPlum PendulEmPlum 18-21, F 2 Responses May 6

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    i've had more bad days recently... only 6 days until i get to go see my psychiatrist and get a diagnosis... I am nervous, scared and excited, I will finally have it under control...
    InAnInstant InAnInstant 18-21, F 1 Response May 8

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    Just joined investment banking ... I m learning a lot but at the same time losing sleep and friends ... I miss the old days when I can go drinking and meet with interesting people...
    thousandcuts thousandcuts 22-25, F 3 Responses May 8

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    You had all the time in the damn world to answer me, but apparently you were too busy. Thanks for nothing.
    Kkgunny Kkgunny 16-17, F 2 Responses May 8

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    I always have better days but the worse feeling is having the worse days.
    Shansai84 Shansai84 26-30, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I've put on a little over 10 pounds in the past month. I'm sure the pizza I just finished off will only make that worse... or better? ;)
    docroxxo docroxxo 26-30, M 3 Responses Apr 27

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    My fiance and I will be getting married in 2 weeks. I suppose I am beginning to over think everything at the moment including how his family feels about me. His mother hates me...
    rlspeck rlspeck 31-35, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Things are Getting Better Things are getting better. Although they aren't all good. At least I am alive and breathing like I should. Things are getting better even if sometimes...
    Masterskitten503 Masterskitten503 46-50, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Today's the day. I am meeting with my attorney to talk about settlement then we are going to meet my husband and his attorney for the settlement meeting. My husband still has his...
    LRMommyof3 LRMommyof3 36-40, F 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    You could bring additional food, groceries or snacks from outside for storage if you wish. During anchorage you might be cost-free to get something you want to be cooked by our...
    Joshua8383gcy4 Joshua8383gcy4 31-35, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I attempt but I'm weak. If I'm really into you, you're probably getting in anyway, or I'm just too late to protect myself.
    H8M4CH1N3 H8M4CH1N3 13-15, M 10 hrs ago

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    It was a Friday night when we all as a family were exited that it was my sweet sixteenth birthday. It was a windy day in May and through the night. When i woke up this morning it...
    random07 random07 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I am feeling better today. I cut off of the medication that was making me anxious irrational and just plain feel weird. I am feeling more like myself. I have begun to stand on my...
    Hockeyplayer56 Hockeyplayer56 46-50, M Apr 29

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    Suffering in Silence I’m the girl everyone envies-smart, pretty, financially stable, American. I have the “good life.” Like any other “suburban brat,” I annoy people...
    kiarrafire kiarrafire 18-21, F 3 Responses May 7

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    I recently found out that I have a rare disease which causes me to feel weak and tired all the time. I am a 13 year old girl and I used to have tons of energy but lately my 10 year...
    hannahphillips hannahphillips 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Me and my boyfriend love to hang out in the woods and get freaky. When we hang out we make out and there's kids and people who walk by with they're dog 10 feet away. They can't...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 1 Response May 1

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    I've been having suicidal thoughts more than often now God I hope things start getting better soon ...
    tupaclover tupaclover 16-17 May 16

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    When I was younger I was playing hide and go seek with my friends. I was hiding with my friend Timmy. I told him to hide under the trampoline my friend had in his backyard. It...
    jtbaseball024 jtbaseball024 18-21, M May 7

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    So I played Golf in most of high school so you know that we play in any weather that's not dangerous or extreme including a torrential downpour. This is where I got into the whole...
    GoldenCJ GoldenCJ 18-21, M May 17

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    My body is worse. Society is too. So fears are sane.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 28

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    But they do. Am proof. Was mentally gifted minor. But raised by covertly drunken lawyer. In a place where greedy egos rule. And upset thugs abuse. Freely. Or...
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M May 5

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    My husband and I are in the process of getting a divorce through mediation. I am the one who asked for the divorce. Every since our wedding two years ago, our marriage steadily...
    Alili2124 Alili2124 26-30, F 3 Responses May 13

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    A lot of things have changed for me in a short time. I got very suicidal, a person close to me took letters I'd been writing them and have them to my parents to get me help (which...
    waterwolflover waterwolflover 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Had an incredibly painful migraine today. I was supposed to be hosting family dinner tonight and I had to cancel. I feel awful about it. But I realize that the migraine is my body...
    Searchingformyshalom Searchingformyshalom 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    After a very long day at work, it was always really nice to read messages from my friend. They we would talk all the way home and many times into the evening. Now, I get off work...
    ijustneed2talk ijustneed2talk 41-45, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I think that it is just better not to get close at all anymore. No hurt feelings, no getting too close. No, issues with others getting angry.
    Trying2FixIt1 Trying2FixIt1 36-40, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    Today has been a good day. I have finally started to take myself back, and take my time back from a particular situation with a person in my life. I am getting stronger and...
    Hockeyplayer56 Hockeyplayer56 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 28

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    I think I was in a really dark place for a while. I couldn't accept things I had no power to change and though it's still hard for some things, I think I'm getting there. I tried...
    TheDefaultIllusion TheDefaultIllusion 22-25, M May 5

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    So finally we are getting a divorce. I found out he cheated 4 years ago while I was pregnant after having gone through a year of infertility treatments to have our child and the...
    jazzybelle53 jazzybelle53 36-40, F 7 Responses May 7

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    oh my God yes! There really is nothing better than laying across a strong mans thighs and getting a thorough warm up! I love our leather paddle, it can be punishing or soothing...
    RobertaSunset RobertaSunset 36-40, F 7 Responses 6 days ago

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    Well, I have a new story I think you might enjoy ;) Today was the last day of class and we had a shortened day. I was tired this morning and pulled on pretty much the first clothes...
    wandamagical wandamagical 18-21, F 3 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    Peaceful protest haven't seemed to bring forth much change. Maybe violent ones will show that people mean business. They have had enough. People should just be glad angry rioters...
    theslyfox theslyfox 36-40, M Apr 29

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    I decided to buy this since my real ones useless I am a female cuck love being humiliated called used up useless forced to watch u with better woman
    misspiggy456 misspiggy456 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 28

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    love the way you lie- Just gonna stand there and watch me burn But that's alright, because I like the way it hurts Just gonna stand there and hear me cry But that's alright...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 4

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