I Am Not Myself When Im Mad

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    I always get really mad I've become better at

    it over the years but occasionally I will go back into the old cycle of getting a little too angry and doing something I regret
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Aug 14, 2015

    Hi dear!! after a long time I am going to write

    my feelings here on EP. Dear! you won't believe me but I am really going mad tonight. I am afraid of everything now. I thought my life will change when I will get admission in MBBS but I was wrong. All that I passed through tonight was really very painful.. I am not in my senses...
    TheMostHandsomeGuyMe TheMostHandsomeGuyMe
    18-21, M
    Dec 25, 2015

    Haha I gotta say I'm MAD whem I'm mad yes.

    Cause it feels like I lost touch of any humanity that's in me and I start abusing people with the mind of self protection. Guess that's actually the real me... but then I would be in the mental hospital or something by now
    Giammybear Giammybear
    13-15, F
    Nov 16, 2015

    I got pissed off because my friend decided to

    ditch me and his personality has changed a lot, he has become this egotistical ******* and when I confronted him about it it's like my whole mind changed. My voice got deeper and I started yelling at him and I feel so bad. I wasn't feeling it today and I just want to apologize...
    deleted deleted
    Apr 8

    I Am Not Me When I Am Mad

    When every time i am mad i can not control my anger. One day when i was mad at someone in my house hole i could not hold in all my anger i call that person a bad word and after that i was not proud of myself. On that some day i went to school i was still mad so if one person...
    shaym12345 shaym12345
    18-21, F
    Jun 8, 2013

    I suffer from psychosis

    and when I get mad, I am violent and I have no regard for.. humanity. I can't hold down a friendship cos of this **** and I hate it so much, I just wanna stab myself again.
    wouldyoumissme wouldyoumissme
    16-17, M
    Mar 2, 2015
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Aug 31, 2015

    When I'm mad its like the whole world exploded

    and I'm the scariest thing on Earth. I'm even scared of myself sometimes o.o
    Himidio Himidio
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jan 6

    A lot of us do it, and

    so do I. I internalize, and bottle up all my anger, frustration, hate, and resentment. I just keep it inside, all to myself untill finally I can't take it anymore, and I just explode, and let it all out at once. I don't know how not to, its what ive always done, its part of...
    shaaka shaaka
    26-30, M
    1 Response Aug 24, 2014

    I'm never mad often, I am very chill.

    When I am mad though. I turn cold on who I'm mad at. Although if i am mad at myself I get a little afraid of what punishment I bring myself.
    deleted deleted
    Jul 30, 2015

    I want to dig my teeth into your neck

    and rip out all your flesh. I am a monster. I will taste your blood one day.
    andrewh252 andrewh252
    18-21, M
    Nov 5, 2014

    When I get mad you should back off

    and give me space I change from sweet and nice to full ***** mode no one should try to come near me when I'm like that only certain people have been able to calm me down when I'm in full ***** mode but I advise you not to come near me cause I will go off on you
    ashley254 ashley254
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 26, 2015

    Or is it that I am my true self

    when angered? What if my calm self is all a facade? Who can say, really?
    yourguardingangel yourguardingangel
    22-25, M
    1 Response Sep 22, 2014

    It's pretty hard to get me mad.

    Yeah sure, people can **** me off, but get me mad, that's a whole different story. I don't wanna sound dramatic and say "I completely change", but for that short amount of time that I'm mad, I change and I'm honestly not myself.
    Lokilover49 Lokilover49
    16-17, F
    Jul 16, 2014

    You don't want to see me

    when I'm mad. I don't think until the action is past completion.
    HELPTAKENhelpused HELPTAKENhelpused
    26-30, M
    Nov 9, 2015

    When I'm mad- I tend to overthink I become

    irritated by tiny things I have no filter and say what I want no matter what it is, I tend to throw things around (only in extreme cases) I either blame other people or I beat myself up (figuratively and sometimes literally)
    Jgottawee Jgottawee
    18-21, M
    Mar 30, 2014

    Ugh! I hate this guy.

    He's on here and messaged me and such a sudden he talks about how nice my lips are so I changed my profile picture for full photo cause it always cuts off my eyes! -_- So, he wanted a picture of my lips next to something like a hair brush but no! I already thought that he'd save...
    XxCuTiE14xX XxCuTiE14xX
    16-17, F
    3 Responses May 23, 2015

    Like now for instance depends on how mad IM

    if I'm really mad I'm quiet if I'm not as mad then I get really really smart *** Like I am now
    she7lby5 she7lby5
    22-25, F
    Jul 11, 2015

    I'm f****ing pissed right

    now I thought a shower would calm me down but I'm still pissed off
    ashley254 ashley254
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 28

    When I get pissed watch out!

    Ill burn u down to the ground
    gabby121212 gabby121212
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 23, 2015

    when i got mad its like the beast inside me in

    unleashed & now it can do one thing that is destroy whatever it is relation , friendship and more. but if we able to control our anger it can be our powerful weapon and help us 2 reach the top of our dreams but wid a plan
    grovernik grovernik
    18-21, M
    Nov 15, 2015

    I am pissed at my hubby right now!

    It's been hours and I'm still in a bad mood.
    wildbeauty26 wildbeauty26
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 4

    I've been upset about relationship difficulties

    and something he said pushed me over the edge and I lost it. I flipped out and told him how unhappy I am with him and this relationship.. And honestly that is how I have been feeling. Alone in a relationship. And he doesn't even care.
    katie1123 katie1123
    18-21, F
    Aug 14, 2015

    There's actually pros

    and cons to me getting mad.. Pros : Extremely strong Extremely agile Cons : -I can't think straight -No limits - when I'm mad, my only thought is putting you in a casket -If I'm mad overall I might snap at someone else just because IM in a bad mood. -Adrenaline isn't always...
    akaShaun akaShaun
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Sep 21, 2014

    Me-- (sitting on bench at school looking

    pissed) Guy-- (pokes me) what's wrong with you? Your stomach to heavy? Me-- (looks at him) first of all. Screw you. Second, no. It just hurts Guy-- ohhhhhhhhhhh you PMS'n *****!! How's dat blood flow gurrrrrlllll?? (Hits my stomach) Me-- you know what? You'd be pissy to if...
    jessijessi1234 jessijessi1234
    18-21, F
    Jan 13

    My Destructive Words.

    This is a confession.... I have a problem with my anger. I really don't mean to become so verbally abusive, but when I am upset (Which is not often Thank God), but when it happens, I tend to go overboard with the things I say. I just become this enraged person who is NOT who i...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine
    31-35, F
    11 Responses Dec 25, 2012

    I don't hate my friend,

    they're the most wonderful person I've met. However...I'm mad at them. Really, really mad, and I knew if I confronted them, we wouldn't be friends anymore. I was looking forwards to an event, and now I'm ******* dreading it because they can't think of anyone else but themselves...
    wrongideas wrongideas
    18-21, F
    Jul 8, 2015

    Actually, I'm almost the same just by looking

    at me. It takes A LOT to really flat out p I s s me off. When I am offended, most of the time people wouldn't know because I remain as calm as a cucumber. But there are a few things that change when I'm seething with anger. I sweat profusely. This is coming from the girl who...
    TheEnduringSunrise TheEnduringSunrise
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 2, 2015

    I can't stand when people ask

    for permission to do something that they are going to do anyway. For that they should just say hey I'm going to do this.
    bub1982 bub1982
    31-35, M
    Feb 27, 2014

    i want to kill this kid

    that was abusing my ex gf and he was her best friend but not anymore
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Dec 7, 2014

    TheNerdYouLove As I start this off I highly

    recommend that you try to limit your correspondence with someone as bigoted and arrogant as this wonderful specimen of a human being. We'll start with the bigoted part. While I completely support people having their own opinions, there's a certain place to draw the line...
    gayin98 gayin98
    16-17, M
    1 Response May 23, 2015

    I have had sexual abuse

    for five years from my brother and no one in my family(mom) don't understand me! Why is this so hard? I feel like it's my fault! I's live some feedback with what I should do. I am sixteen and I always show a happy face but I'm really sad!
    Unknpreso24 Unknpreso24
    18-21, M
    Apr 4, 2015

    Not Myself....

    The only time I've lost my temper... was when my mom slapped me and told me that I was a disappointment... I never talk back... but I exploded... I said, "THAT'S WHAT YOU'RE ******* MOM SAID ABOUT YOU!!! IS THAT WHY YOU HIT ME? AND CALL ME HORRIBLE NAMES?!?!! BECAUSE YOU KNOW I'M...
    DangerousLife DangerousLife
    18-21, M
    6 Responses Mar 6, 2013

    I'M Mad

    I hate when people try to compare their life with yours like it's the same when it's not and when I ask a question and they don't give me the answer I'm looking for or just think they know what's best for you I'm just so mad cuz people they don't understand I'm 16 and I'm in...
    tiadoe tiadoe
    18-21, F
    Nov 10, 2013

    im a weird yet cool person

    but when im mad i have the capability of doing extreme things. i was having fun w some friends n some guy made me mad to the point where I was about to stab one of his carotid arteries. im not that type of person i hate hurting people in any type of way.
    wolfgurl2 wolfgurl2
    16-17, F
    May 26, 2015

    Sometimes I get irrational

    when I get upset. Like over the top ridiculous because I want to be right. I have to step back and give myself a chance to cool off before I say anything I don't really mean.
    deleted deleted
    Mar 19, 2015

    Like I'm this quite girl

    who keeps all her feelings inside and then wen u reach my levels I will f*cking cuss u out and I will beat u up until u bleed so don't mess with me
    SexyLez101 SexyLez101
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Mar 13, 2014

    I can be a total *****

    if no one pays attention to me If I'm in the same house and I hear two people laughing together I want to leave in not gonna ******* watch you like tf
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Apr 20, 2015

    I ******* give up.!!!

    I can't do ******* anything right anymore.!!😭😭😭😡😤
    ison71 ison71
    18-21, M
    1 Response May 19, 2014

    It's not so much being mad.

    It's after I've gone past mad that things change.
    imnotyourfriend imnotyourfriend
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Nov 26, 2015

    I look like I'm about to murder every single

    person in the room when I'm mad Usually I get angry around big social gatherings (I'm not too social) If I'm forced to be there for more than 2,5 hours I'll start fuming so badly it feels like I'm going to scream and explode Today we went to a restaurant with some friends...
    Roguene Roguene
    18-21, F
    Jul 13, 2015


    I love my friends, they are the only good thing that has happened to me. I am terrified I might snap and lose control around them. I do not think they would ever intentionally make me angry, but when I am still recovering from a fight small things can set me off. I know I sound...
    outofwonderland outofwonderland
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 16, 2012

    I am not myself when I'm mad.

    Even at home, when my mother got me mad I was going to punch her but then I stopped. People where saying I acted like a Boxer Dog. Darn it. 😩
    Polobear17 Polobear17
    18-21, F
    Jul 24, 2014

    Especially if it's someone I don't like.

    My friends all see me as all cheerful and immature and stuff but when I am angry, I am serious, my heart starts to pound quite fast and I feel like my blood is boiling. And for some reason, afterwards I start shaking a little and I realise I've been breathing a bit too fast and...
    nobodynumbah8 nobodynumbah8
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 9
    dezi1124 dezi1124
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 19, 2015

    When I get really mad,

    I imagine doing very cruel and horrible things to the person or people I'm mad at like wripping them apart with my nails and teeth, drinking their blood as it flows from huge wounds in their bodies.
    devinprater devinprater
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 21, 2014
    Peedripping Peedripping
    18-21, F
    4 Responses May 16, 2015

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