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I Am Not Myself When Im Mad

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    Fear

    I love my friends, they are the only good thing that has happened to me. I am terrified I might snap and lose control around them. I do not think they would ever intentionally make me angry, but when I am still recovering from a fight small things can set me off. I know I sound...
    outofwonderland outofwonderland 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2012

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    I Believe I'm In Some Way A Monster

    I am a horrible person and I know this. I shake and I'm just a mean person and I'm mad almost all the time so this doesn't help humans are idiots. I wish I could leave and never come back but I just can't ill have no ware to go. Like if I had a pack I'd just go live near them I...
    Druidwolf Druidwolf 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 1, 2013

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    I Rarely Get Mad...But...

    I very rarely get mad or irritated because I'm very tolerating & understanding, but when something really REALLY bothers me, like say someone bullying my little sister for example (never happened, it's an example), I will go monkey ape bananas!!!!I will turn from sweet, calm girl...
    SeraphicSoul SeraphicSoul 18-21, F May 22, 2013

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    My Destructive Words.

    This is a confession.... I have a problem with my anger. I really don't mean to become so verbally abusive, but when I am upset (Which is not often Thank God), but when it happens, I tend to go overboard with the things I say. I just become this enraged person who is NOT who i...
    DreamChristine DreamChristine 31-35, F 13 Responses Dec 25, 2012

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    It Started A While Ago

    last year i used to be very short tempered. after a while kids found out and started to make me angry so i could laugh. when they did this i was miserable and wished to die sometimes. i held in though. but a few months ago i started to cry thinking of all the torment and started...
    Poemer Poemer 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 24, 2012

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    When I'm mad I say hurtful things

    that I don't mean!!! It's just I bottle my feels so you get me mad enough I will say so many mean things and hurtful things my mouth can say!!!!
    FighterWolf FighterWolf 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    Like I'm this quite girl

    who keeps all her feelings inside and then wen u reach my levels I will f*cking cuss u out and I will beat u up until u bleed so don't mess with me
    SexyLez101 SexyLez101 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 13

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    Breathless;

    I'm breathless since past 3yrs because being a mock person. I don't like when people point me or laugh at me or talk about. I've returned some abusive or punches who threatened me or beat me. I tear thoughts of people who underestimate me.. I've self esteem. Everyone's esteem...
    mukezation mukezation 18-21, M Mar 16, 2013

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    haha i defiantly am not.

    i love it too, ive been told it scares people, i find that hilarious.
    Blissfulkissofdeath Blissfulkissofdeath 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 21

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    When I'm mad- I tend to overthink I become

    irritated by tiny things I have no filter and say what I want no matter what it is, I tend to throw things around (only in extreme cases) I either blame other people or I beat myself up (figuratively and sometimes literally)
    Jgottawee Jgottawee 18-21, M Mar 30

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    Lenmars Dark Lenmar

    Now Lenmar sais that HE didnt kill thoose wolves and pups but Dark Lenmar did it. He wants me to somehow rid him of dark lenmar. *growls* Damn **** Does this mean we forgive lenmar? How can we it was still his teeth around that wolves neck. *growls* I posted this to get advice so...
    Shadowscar Shadowscar 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 27, 2012

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    lmyrical lmyrical 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 8

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    I Am More Myself When I Am Like This

    I don't care lol One thing is what's you're dang problem wit dat yo 8 no thang up deyah oooooooohhhhh nawwww hoe you aint be bisso I think of here like a diary that people read and then pass judgement because they don't know any better or else just anonymous like lol...
    Acchbellon Acchbellon 18-21, M Dec 1, 2012

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    Evil

    Okay so today i got really mad again like always and turned into a complete b!tch to my boyfriend. I always do this. Im a different person, a complete evil b!tch when im angry and my mood changes really quickly. When im angry with someone i take it out on others, when im angry at...
    paigehickeyy paigehickeyy 18-21, F May 1, 2013

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    I'M Mad

    I hate when people try to compare their life with yours like it's the same when it's not and when I ask a question and they don't give me the answer I'm looking for or just think they know what's best for you I'm just so mad cuz people they don't understand I'm 16 and I'm in...
    tiadoe tiadoe 16-17, F Nov 10, 2013

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    Novemberman Novemberman 22-25, M May 12

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    I am not myself when I'm mad.

    Even at home, when my mother got me mad I was going to punch her but then I stopped. People where saying I acted like a Boxer Dog. Darn it. 😩
    Polobear17 Polobear17 16-17, F Jul 24

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    When I get really mad,

    I imagine doing very cruel and horrible things to the person or people I'm mad at like wripping them apart with my nails and teeth, drinking their blood as it flows from huge wounds in their bodies.
    devinprater devinprater 18-21, M Apr 21

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    I wish I had a dead animal right now

    so I could cut it up with rocks and carve things with its blood
    kayelani kayelani 16-17, F Jun 30

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    I can't think straight.

    I overanalyze. I'm too emotional. I shouldn't care. I need space. Why is it bugging me? I just need to let it go... It doesn't matter. Spinning myself into the ground...
    secretsnvrtobetold secretsnvrtobetold 31-35, F Mar 30

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    A lot of us do it, and

    so do I. I internalize, and bottle up all my anger, frustration, hate, and resentment. I just keep it inside, all to myself untill finally I can't take it anymore, and I just explode, and let it all out at once. I don't know how not to, its what ive always done, its part of...
    shaaka shaaka 26-30, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I wish I could just keep my mouth shut

    when I have an argument with someone. I don't care if it's with someone I don't know very wel, but when I argue with someone I care for or someone in the family I say things I shouldn't say. I tell them all the bad things that I think about them.
    Mahsa99 Mahsa99 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    I turn into this monster

    that cannot be kept contained, I must destroying who ever, whatever is in my way. I hate getting mad !!!
    Missymay72 Missymay72 22-25, F Jun 7

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    Ticking Time Bomb.

    I'm like a ticking time bomb. I can only take so much **** from someone untill I finally decide to blow up. Its pretty rare when I'm in full ***** mode. A lot of people think they know how I am when I'm mad when really they dont even know half of it. You really dont wanna **** me...
    AERogers92 AERogers92 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2012

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    I'm just like,.......

    crazy.....I usually only curse when mad or annoyed
    itsthisgirlagain itsthisgirlagain 13-15, F Jun 8

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    When I get mad the devil takes over me

    but I've learned to control it some what like now I don't hit people when they **** me off or shout at them. But I still get really tense and my adrenaline goes and then the devil takes over and I begin to guilt trip you and say hurtful things I don't actually mean
    Zalbaar Zalbaar 13-15, M Jun 27

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    I can't stand when people ask

    for permission to do something that they are going to do anyway. For that they should just say hey I'm going to do this.
    bub1982 bub1982 31-35, M Feb 27

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    Ugly Me...

    It's starting to happen more and more... where I lose my temper over the smallest things, like last month, I couldn't find my truck keys, I looked all over the house, found out they where in my hand the whole time, I was late for work and I felt completely stupid, I looked for...
    ADemonsFate ADemonsFate 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 8, 2013

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    Not Myself....

    The only time I've lost my temper... was when my mom slapped me and told me that I was a disappointment... I never talk back... but I exploded... I said, "THAT'S WHAT YOU'RE ******* MOM SAID ABOUT YOU!!! IS THAT WHY YOU HIT ME? AND CALL ME HORRIBLE NAMES?!?!! BECAUSE YOU KNOW I'M...
    DangerousLife DangerousLife 18-21, M 7 Responses Mar 6, 2013

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    I got in a huge fight with my sisters they got

    mad cause I'm buying tea they said it's a waste of money and I don't need it , why do they care if it's my money? Also I want the tea to help me with my health I don't know why they care so MUCH about me trying to be healthy
    marviemeow marviemeow 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    I ******* give up.!!!

    I can't do ******* anything right anymore.!!😭😭😭😡😤
    ison71 ison71 16-17, M 1 Response May 19

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    i LOST it. all SANITY was LOST.

    i was GONE. SOUL and SPIRIT BURNED too much. the BURNING took CONTROL of me. everything POUNDING inside my body and my mind. THUNDERING and ROARING. FLASHING like nothing ever before. HANDS SHAKING, HEART POUNDING, the DEVIL came out & didnt give a ****. he took over... didnt...
    bubbles543 bubbles543 16-17, F Jun 1

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    Actually, I Am

    I am myself, but I am my crazy, out-of-control self. A small part of my brain stands aside, looking on and shaking my head and saying STOP, but the vast part of me, is in a rage that I can't just stop when I tell myself to.
    Serenitree Serenitree 70+, F Oct 16, 2012

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    It's pretty hard to get me mad.

    Yeah sure, people can **** me off, but get me mad, that's a whole different story. I don't wanna sound dramatic and say "I completely change", but for that short amount of time that I'm mad, I change and I'm honestly not myself.
    Lokilover49 Lokilover49 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    You Won't Like Me When I'm Angry

    When I am irritated,i laugh and have comebacks for everything. When I am angry... I can't speak, I end up growling if I try. I have to really focus to remember what I do. I attack and I won't stop attacking until you back down,I'm out of commision, or I am satisfied. I am only...
    wulf4ever wulf4ever 18-21, F Dec 22, 2012

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    SO My Ex And I Were Broken Up Because Of His Mom. She Bullied Me On Facebook, Got Me Sent To A Mental Hospital And Harrassed And Threatened Me. This Is The Note I Sent To Her Because She Finally Threw Me Over The Edge.

    I think you are a stupid little *****. I hated you from the beginning anyways. Here are some things that made me come to realization that you are wacko in the head. You kiss your son on the lips, "Give mommy a kissy!" And man, that is ******* creepy. You post on your sons wall...
    NotTheAmericanAveragexx NotTheAmericanAveragexx 18-21, F Nov 1, 2013

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    I Am Not Me When I Am Mad

    When every time i am mad i can not control my anger. One day when i was mad at someone in my house hole i could not hold in all my anger i call that person a bad word and after that i was not proud of myself. On that some day i went to school i was still mad so if one person...
    shaym12345 shaym12345 16-17, F Jun 8, 2013

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    When I get man I don't care

    who u r or how old r u, I just do and say things withoud thinking and after a while I'm like wtf! what the hell did I do and then get sad Sometime when I argue with my mom I say things that I'm not suppose to say and It makes me so sad for saying that
    NazaNEYn NazaNEYn 18-21, F Jan 3

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