i live a lie, everything i thought i knew?? turned out to be a lie. i spend my days in la la land. i smile to everyone just to hide my pain. i look for any excuse to not be in this house. all i see and hear all day and night are the ghosts of yesterdays past.
I am I ok??
I hope in one day I will be able to be who I am without caring about what people say.
I wanna do what I feel to do!
I wanna say what I think!
I wanna do things without fear to be judge by the others!
I hope in one day I'll be more confidence in myself!
Sorry for my bad English!
Slipping slowly into frustrating self made madnessFinding it hard to breathCan’t see the lightYet, still I know it’s thereSearching for hopeBelieving that it existsTrying to break free of all this hatredPleading with my mind to stop spewing this vile stuffFinding it hard to...
on. I have so much inside on me like a storm. I actually talk more to people on the internet more than in person. Dear god, i think, maybe they wouldn't even talk to me in person. What am I doing out here in the woods smoking mj in this tent in the rain? How what why? ****!
You ask and I lie.
I'm great. Just don't delve deeper.
I'm not okay. Not even close.
I've been on autopilot so long I'm scared to turn it off. I'll be like a blank page. blinking stupidly at myself in the mirror, not sure who is looking back at me.
I'm on the verge of...
My whole life has been one thing after the other. I think its just all added up to make one badly ruined person. I am alone in the house I bought so I could start a family with my girlfriend who left me today, because I am to depressing. I feel like I...
I just can't find the wordsThey don't come easy like they usually dojust staring at a blank page wondering what words should fill itmy heart is on the brink of breaking into a million piecesHow can I be happy on the day it may all end?There is no happiness to be found.Hope is...