I Am Not Okay, But I'll Manage

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    I know I am not ok yet,

    but I am a little better than I was a week ago. I still get sad sometimes. I still sense you slipping away from me even though the tighter I try to hold on to you the faster you slip away. But, there is this insensible calm that has wrapped itself like a blanket over me. I'm all...
    saraandherfoxes saraandherfoxes
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 15, 2015

    Since I met her, I haven't been able to get her

    off my mind. Last night, she had sex with my best friend. I guess they're a thing now. I know he'll treat her right, and that they're both happy. I know I'll eventually come to terms with it, and that everything will be okay. I hope someday I can stop feeling awkward around them...
    HopelessRomantic6 HopelessRomantic6
    18-21, M
    Sep 21, 2014

    The salt in my wounds don't hurt anymore

    but they don't hurt any less.
    saraandherfoxes saraandherfoxes
    26-30, F
    Apr 23, 2015

    Mixed Emotions

    How I managed to overcome every tragedy that life has thrown my way this year, It's a miracle. When you feel your lowest, people expect of you to just jump up and be okay. But I'm not okay, but I'll manage because I don't give up not without a fight. Whatever happened yesterday...
    Jay04Sch Jay04Sch
    41-45, F
    1 Response Nov 26, 2013
    Rhea03811 Rhea03811
    13-15, F
    Nov 20, 2015
    hiself hiself
    16-17, M
    Aug 7, 2014
    ImAlivingParadox ImAlivingParadox
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 4, 2015

    Toe everyone in here

    who is true to their word, good for you. You know yourself, that's more than a lot of people can say for themselves. But that doesn't make the fact that you aren't okay go away. I don't know what to type to help you because I don't know any if your stories. But I do know that...
    kxCobra kxCobra
    18-21, F
    Mar 28, 2014

    A Quick Fix To My Indistinguishable Fire

    I’m attending counselling again. I’ve also been recommended for group therapy.  I like one-on-one counselling.  For me, it’s a good way to  work out my issues.  The group therapy I’m going to have to work on harder.  I imagine it will do nothing but good for me, but...
    UnderEli UnderEli
    46-50, M
    Oct 24, 2012

    http://youtu.be/6pZ9HaXBrTM priscilla ahn,

    I'll be fine on the outside from the movie when marnie was there
    hildaq14 hildaq14
    26-30, F
    May 30, 2015

    Soooo much crazy **** happening,

    but ehhh there's really nothing I can do about it :/
    ACyanideSurprise ACyanideSurprise
    18-21, M
    Nov 28, 2014

    I am 23 years old and about to graduate college.

    I had an abortion September 3rd. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think about it. I feel like it had to have been the worst decision of my life. I feel absolutely awful, it has changed my whole aspect about life. I went on vacation to my native country and slept with...
    suelen0507 suelen0507
    22-25, F
    Dec 6, 2015

    I'm Not Okay, I Promise

    I'm not okay, as a matter of fact. I have more issues than a magazine stand, and I happen to be quite stuck in terms of health, finances, and relationships. I can't bear to write yet another story that lists every single one of my problems, but I will assure you that I have tried...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jul 17, 2013

    Sometimes it is physical pain,

    other times it is just emotional... Life is rough, but I feel like I can continue, just let my have my space, my mood swings, and I will get over it ;) Caffeine and candy will help, bring those NOW lol jkjk :D
    TK13 TK13
    22-25, M
    May 19, 2015
    Gloria8214 Gloria8214
    16-17, F
    Nov 22, 2014

    You say you have no idea what you are doing

    as you stop me bare once again and tear my whole world apart with your eyes. I'm afraid now. I'm afraid and I know I shouldn't be. The answer is simple: Run Run from you're train wreck because you only give me sorrow. Run from you're...
    saraandherfoxes saraandherfoxes
    26-30, F
    Dec 26, 2015

    Sometimes I have to just put my own needs to

    the side and put a smile on my face while everyone else actually is serene. I am slowly becoming emotionless in a bad way.
    TheMeBMini25 TheMeBMini25
    26-30, F
    Sep 22, 2014

    The Truth About Love

    Maybe I'm wrong but all I've ever known about love is pain. I've fallen in love only to get cheated on. I've reinstated my faith in love only to become disappointed as I watch others around me cheat and lie to the ones they say they love. They all have the audacity to throw that...
    angelique422 angelique422
    26-30, F
    Jan 30, 2013

    Aww, another day goes past

    and dunno what to do. A positive for today was that I got some "alone" time for once. Been forever since I had some time out. Anyway, I went to go and see my all time favourite uncle. As soon as I got to his place, the first thing I did was go out and see how my car was going, I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 12, 2014

    I think this group just may be the story of my

    life. this is what I always end up telling people.
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic
    36-40, F
    Sep 26, 2015

    Nope

    Right now, I am not okay, I am very far from okay right now, but I am mangaging. I am waking up. I am doing what I have to do to get through the day. I am manging.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 12, 2013

    Tears don't help. People are d*cks

    and that's never going to change so I just might as well do whatever the hell I want to.
    hebrokemyheart99 hebrokemyheart99
    16-17, F
    Jul 30, 2014

    As long as you remain

    who you are, no need to compromise for others.
    fitwealth fitwealth
    26-30, F
    Sep 27, 2014

    Literally just been thrown off completely,

    am I that sensitive to words...
    MrUnmotivated MrUnmotivated
    22-25, M
    Sep 3, 2015

    Every day is the same.

    Get up, try to find some meaning in school, try to laugh at my friends jokes, try to give advice on their high school drama. But I'm so very tired, and it's still not warm outside. He still hasn't texted me back, I'm not okay.
    livslife livslife
    16-17, F
    Apr 10, 2015

    That's what I say to myself.

    Everyday I tell a lie about how I feel. I do it so much it's a routine. If I say I am not ok to someone I will feel guilty and worse about myself. I hate myself every day now. I don't believe in life anymore. I don't want love, don't want kids or anything. I just want death to...
    cloudycarnage cloudycarnage
    16-17, M
    Sep 21, 2015

    I am struggling with a lot right now.

    .. but I've gotten through every other struggle I've had so I know I'll get through this... just seems really hard right now though.
    oyhoy oyhoy
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 27, 2015

    I Want To Be Real

    This is hard for me, I am almost 35, but I just found a book my wonderful grandparents gave me on my 7th birthday. I don't think I read it until now, but it really hit me hard. I love my grandparents, and they both passed away in the past few years. Anyway, I miss them...
    jr5827 jr5827
    31-35, M
    Nov 12, 2012

    I'm a single mum. My ex diss appeared

    and left me and my little girl for nearly a year and then came swanning back in. He sees her every 3 weekend for a day and I want him to see her but he dictates what he should be able to do and throws his rights in my face and it makes me hate him. It gives me such bad anxiety...
    lauren53 lauren53
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 25, 2015
    cashetty69 cashetty69
    51-55, M
    Aug 21, 2015

    When you have Tourette's,

    you can't pretend to be okay, even when you're not. People notice and understand there's something wrong with you. When you have social anxiety and you park your car in front of the mall, but end up driving home rather than shopping, then you're not okay. When you're deeply...
    Skywalker1979 Skywalker1979
    36-40, M
    1 Response Aug 17, 2014

    Sometimes you are the only person you can rely

    on. Your actions then, will define what kind of person you are.
    ZacharyLarson ZacharyLarson
    18-21, M
    1 Response Sep 27, 2015

    It was my birthday yesterday.

    And I used to love birthdays now birthdays make me sad. Perhaps I just miss being "home". I live 4000kms from my loved ones. Sure makes a person lonely when no one that lives close even knows it's your birthday. Way to celebrate a life.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 17, 2015

    Pretty much went to college

    for something I thought I'd love but now I hate it. It started months ago but I worked to hard to get here to quit now. If I quit I'll be in massive debt and have to owe money back ASAP. I'm mad and wish I would have thought about it more. At the time I was okay with this quick...
    catlady777 catlady777
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 6, 2014

    I'm pretty sure that nobody remember

    or care that tomorrow is my birthday.
    JulieK8 JulieK8
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 12

    Cry myself to sleep every night

    but everyone thinks I'm fine if only they could see behind my fake smiles
    Keyana136 Keyana136
    13-15
    1 Response Oct 28, 2015

    Tonight I'm not okay.

    Tonight I'm stiring here writting this and crying so much I have to stop every few words because I can't see from the tears.. Tonight everything is too much. I don't know how I can manage everything...how I can keep going on every day and face the same problems, the same bumps...
    Blanche08 Blanche08
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Aug 30, 2015

    I just got married-after a long struggle to

    immigrate to my new husbands country.Im 23 in May and he just turned 35.Im jealous,irritated and feel like I have to defend myself all the time!Im smarter than he is when it comes to money and responsibility but he always bashes me!I feel ugly,fat,insecure!And I'm sleeping in...
    thesadnadine thesadnadine
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 27, 2014

    My skin is a bit thicker today

    than it was yesterday but one thought of you is enough to send me over the edge.
    saraandherfoxes saraandherfoxes
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 15, 2015

    Everyone always talks about their collection of

    "families"..Their work family, their school family, their church family, their Facebook family, their actual family...I have none of that. I have a husband that I'm too scared to talk to bc everything I do is wrong or stupid. I have two kids who are always yelling at or hitting...
    blisster blisster
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Mar 27, 2014

    I feel like when I cry out

    for help no one cares enough to listen.
    MissAma MissAma
    26-30, F
    Apr 10, 2014

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