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I Am Not Okay

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    I'm Really Not

    I'm really not okay. I try to be. I work hard to improve myself and to try to make my life better. To panic less. To handle life more. Not to fall into a deep depression over outside influences I can not control. But it's hard. I have no help from anyone and this life is so hard...
    ItchyWitch82 ItchyWitch82 26-30, F Oct 24, 2011

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    It Doesn't Go Away

    I seem happy.. and I'm not faking it, it's just my personality to be bubbly and bouncy, and singing and being aloof.. and unfocused, and looking generally blissful. Then I go home and cry because of how frustrating my life is. I have severe ADHD, I can't focus on anything...
    CaptainJenny CaptainJenny 22-25, F May 27, 2012

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    Day 11 And Its Not Getting Better

    I have suffered with suicidal thoughts and tendencies for many years and it had been getting better from the therapy and my coping techniques I learned in the hospital when I was admitted. I was able to overcome the attempts and many of the side effects of being clinically...
    c0nfus3ds0ul c0nfus3ds0ul 18-21, F Nov 20, 2013

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    I Don'T Know How Much Longer I Can Fake It.

    I'm not okay. I've been fighting this darkness for years. I've been fighting myself for years. Sometimes I win, sometimes I lose. Ha. Either way one side loses and wins every time. It's just which side. The said that says smile through it, you'll make it. Or the side that...
    lalalaarawrr lalalaarawrr 18-21, F Nov 9, 2013

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    I Am Half Way There

    I see it clearly in my head,Its not for the faint hearted,Yes i do i end up dead,With no one by my bed,I lay alone in the darkness,With a sheet over my head,I took my last breath,Now i lay on the metal bed,Waiting to be laid to rest! 
    BrokenAngel35 BrokenAngel35 31-35, F Nov 16, 2013

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    I Am Not Ok Most Of The Time.

    the first time i was in therapy i must have been about 6 years old. i was being treated for depression, night terrors and sleep walking, well running in my case. therapy was almost a constant til i was about 16 or 17. depression, anxiety, sleep disorders, eating disorders. i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 6, 2013

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    You Know

    you know..you know when people lie.. you know..you know when people change... you know but you don't know why.. in a sudden they begin to act strange.. you know..you know when you cry.. they pretend like they really care.. you know but you don't know why.. they still think you're...
    HakujitsuSeiten HakujitsuSeiten 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 23, 2012

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    I Am Not Okay.

    I am not okay, I am not okay, I am not okay, I am not okay, I am not okay, and **** I AM NOT OKAY!! And **** you people for not caring.  **** my friends, my family. And **** me, for pretending like they actually care, like I actually mean something...
    moonlit1 moonlit1 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 6, 2009

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    Yesterday I was talking to me best guy friend

    who I still like, and my best girl friend. He told me that he liked her.. I asked her if she liked him, and eventually she said yes. He has just recently broken up with one of our other friends. Neither one of them wanted to hurt her. Both of them asked me if it was wrong. Do...
    imjustemma imjustemma 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 13

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    i am not ok.. i feel like i really need someone

    and i have someone to talk to but he leaves every time but he tries.. I just want to be honest.. Tonight is the night i brake me and his promise.... Thomas I'm sorry for every thing.. and I'm sorry for taking a blade and cutting my wrist....
    loveyanoone loveyanoone 16-17, F Feb 10

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    I guess it's hard for me to say,

    but I'm not okay. I guess if I tell everyone that I'm okay, then I feel as if I am okay, but I'm not. I space out in the middle of people talking to me, questioning my own existence. I hug people just a little too long because it keeps me tied down on earth. I long to have...
    minidisaster minidisaster 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 23, 2013

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    im reallyyy horny right now

    and i want someone to turn me off cuz i dont want to **********..im quitting ************
    mostafa01998 mostafa01998 16-17, M 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    FrappAttack FrappAttack 13-15 2 days ago

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    I Hate Admitting It Too =/

    The hardest thing for me to admit to myself, to my friends, and even to people that I don't know, is that I am not okay. I want so badly to appear strong all the time, and like I can handle just about anything that life throws my way. I want to be the one that people feel like...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 19, 2010

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    "What's wrong" they ask.

    I'm just tired. Ha they all believe me when they don't know that I am secretly planning in suicide and you call me stupid.
    Thatgirl213 Thatgirl213 16-17, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Round And Round

    Nightmares, medications, hospitalizations, overdoses, group homes. i will never be okay..........just one more cog messing with the gears. I go around and around and get nowhere except where I began from.
    bluehaiku bluehaiku 41-45, F Nov 7, 2010

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    Nothing is going the way I thought it would be

    going. I'm only 18 I don't know where I thought Id be but it wasn't here. It makes me stressed just thinking about it all. I'm just not okay ...
    username1767 username1767 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 26

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    Sharp!

    Sharp ears, sharp pencils, sharp eyes, sharp scissors, sharp music key, sharp penknife. So many sharp things. So many different uses. I use sharp ears to listen out for compliments and insults. I use sharp pencils to draw brilliant things. Abstract art that no-one...
    KyokoSora KyokoSora 13-15, F Aug 2, 2013

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    I Love God, But I'm Not Okay With Him Right Now.

    I've been plagued by depression for nearly five years; the stress sometimes interferes with me trying to function. But that's not why I'm upset with God. I'm upset with God, because my Grandma died a couple weeks ago. And because my uncle died a week ago. And yesterday I found...
    Zerelja Zerelja 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 6, 2010

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    "Are you ok?" I hear this question at least

    once a day. Three little words, to which the obvious answer is "I'm fine", but I never am. There's no way to tell the people who call themselves my 'friends' how I really feel. I've become an expert at faking that I'm ok, when inside I'm hurting so bad.
    SevenWaysToFakeIt SevenWaysToFakeIt 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Everything is not okay! And sometimes I wonder "is it ever fogging to be okay?" "Is it ever going to get better?" I've been searching for the correct answer for so long! Sometimes...
    InMemoryOfMe InMemoryOfMe 16-17, F 5 Responses Mar 28

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    Saying your okay just so you don't have to be reminded of why you are not okay:/
    charbarx charbarx 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    I'm a teenager girl and I had a fight with my best friend almost three months ago, I wasn't feeling well that day and she didn't understand it, but I was just sad and all I wanted...
    sthelse sthelse 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    Toe everyone in here who is true to their word, good for you. You know yourself, that's more than a lot of people can say for themselves. But that doesn't make the fact that you...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    if your not having a good day check this song! it always makes me feel better :) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ADP65wbBUpc
    marilynn94 marilynn94 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 31

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