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I Am Not Okay

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    I’m not okay. I’ve said some things

    that I regret. I had let my thoughts and feelings get the best of me. I was feeling doubtful, insecure, and still being belittled. I realized my wrong doings and confessed but it was too late to take any of it back. Last night, and all day today, I’ve been upset and crying. It...
    pumkin106 pumkin106 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 31, 2015

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    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F Jun 14, 2015

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    Irvyy Irvyy 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 9, 2015

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    I'm really not. And I haven't been,

    and I don't really know when I stopped being okay. But it has been building and building, and I feel like I am going to have a break down and crash and burn at some point in the not-so-distant future. I have been trying to find a therapist that will accept my insurance for...
    thecutestpanda thecutestpanda 26-30, M 2 Responses Nov 20, 2015

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    If somebody asks me "how are you?

    " or "Are you ok?" I WILL respond with "I'm fine!! How are you?" I will plaster that smile on my face and avoid talking about myself at all costs. But I'm lying. I'm not okay. I wonder if I have ever been okay. I am hurting inside and I don't even know what's wrong with me. I...
    ToBeAnOtaku101 ToBeAnOtaku101 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 22, 2014

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    I keep blabbing on about how life sucks to

    everyone. I need to stop. FFS! When did this happen?!?! There was a time when no one knew a thing about me IRL. No one could even suspect that I had a miserable life. Now look at me!!! I practically f***ing broadcast it. I don't even feel comfortable with it because I hate...
    js246 js246 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 14, 2015

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    I'm sad, angry.... I've been scratching my

    wounded arm all day, I can't eat, just the smell of food makes me sick, I don't know how I'm working, or smiling
    Rustedarmor Rustedarmor 22-25, M Jan 12

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    I am sad that our former President Prof.

    A PJ.Abdul Kalam has passed away.May he rest in peace .
    whitesunshine87 whitesunshine87 51-55, F 5 Responses Jul 27, 2015

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    I feel like I will never be okay.

    Not matter how hard I try, it will never be enough to deserve the truth. I wish I was worthy of the truth. I wish I didn't have to dig and beg for it. I wish I was okay.
    oddpodd oddpodd 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    I am not okay. I haven't been okay.

    Everytime something good happens, something worse happens. I am not okay. My manic depression has been going crazy, and I can't even keep up with myself. I am not okay. I have never been okay
    RxpperGirl RxpperGirl 18-21, F Mar 24, 2015

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    Invisible-Hunter Hayes It's been a huge

    explanation on my life right now and it sucks. I was called a lesbian today and got made fun of since I hang out with a lot of guys but haven't dated them yet so they kinda stopped talking to me for a "while" and it's been a week! The same stuff happened to me in 1st-6th grade...
    musicspeakstome musicspeakstome 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 14, 2015

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    daylieexperience daylieexperience 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 23, 2015

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    At one point or another.

    We must all face the monsters inside. And whether they do good or bad depends on the kind of person you are. Starve them and you'll never know, but feed them and you'll regret it. It's time I faced facts. I am not okay. I never will be. Let me explain why. For as long as I can...
    Darktooth41 Darktooth41 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 8, 2015

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    lately I've just been fighting over people

    about my depression etc. hardly anybody will talk or try helping me anymore the once person I did really like gave up on me I'm stressing at 6 f,s family problems missing my sister etc. I'm just really not okay
    imlivingbutdead imlivingbutdead 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 9, 2015

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    I have been feeling off all week.

    I know that I've been in the midst of relapsing. Yesterday was horrible. I was up until 5 crying, and I just really needed to cut. But I didn't. I've been clawing at myself since I've woken up though. I really need to get back on the pills, and I just really really need to cut...
    tmoonie tmoonie 18-21, F Nov 6, 2015

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    How is it possible that someone

    who I gave everything to just dropped me for someone else?
    gabbieceleste gabbieceleste 18-21 Jun 28, 2015

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    I'm not okay. I'm so scared.

    I'm so lost at the moment, constantly telling myself that everything will be back to normal. But the more I tell myself it will be okay the more it hurts. I can't mentally handle this. If what happened happens again I have to leave. Just the thought of that makes me sick to my...
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson 18-21, F Aug 25, 2015

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    I guess it's hard for me to say,

    but I'm not okay. I guess if I tell everyone that I'm okay, then I feel as if I am okay, but I'm not. I space out in the middle of people talking to me, questioning my own existence. I hug people just a little too long because it keeps me tied down on earth. I long to have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 23, 2013

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    Had another break down two days ago.

    It was bad. I was angry and the tears wouldn't stop coming. God, I'm glad it didn't last for hours.
    ZiggyZebra ZiggyZebra 13-15, F Dec 3, 2015

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    Why am I attracted to women

    that other guys consider ugly?
    shvn shvn 36-40, M 2 Responses Nov 8, 2015

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    Why can't people love me back.

    ..? Do I just always fall for unaffectionet people or people that will never love me back... I feel like I am always in a one sided relationship with people that know exactly what I want but don't care about how I feel...
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 16-17, F Mar 24, 2015

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    Sometimes, being not okay is okay.

    We grow. We learn new things. Most importantly, being okay means we try to be OK and this means, we're getting stronger. I guess this life is just making me stronger. Maybe it'll keep making me strong until I'll be lifeless..
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 24, 2015

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 15, 2015

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    SarcasticBitch1738 SarcasticBitch1738 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 9, 2015

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    end of 32--yr marriage.

    oldest son in heaven.middle son alcoholic and homeless. husband abusive. need major dental work but have no money. i give up.
    sarahgiles sarahgiles 51-55, F 1 Response Nov 9, 2015

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    I am ruined. Broken. My counsellor has ruined

    me! I used to be good at bottling things up and just getting on or some how coping. But she made me trust her and open up to her and then she left. Just like that. Left without telling me how to put the lid back onto Pandora's box. Yeah in some way it's good, but I can't stop...
    js246 js246 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 10, 2015

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    I can't sleep.. I've barely been eating.

    . I feel like such a ******* failure to everyone.. ugh this is ******* great..
    WeighMeDown WeighMeDown 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 4, 2015

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    I used to cut looking away fast

    and quick but the pain is so intense that I look I go extra slowly over my arm I watch as the line goes from intense red to bloody in seconds I watch the blood run down still no tears
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 4, 2015

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    Xynia Xynia 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 17, 2015

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    This darkness is suffocating me.

    It’s killing me slowly and I feel it. I feel the numbness rush through my soul, the cracks tearing at my heart. It’s trapping me and I see no escape. I want this suffering to end, I don’t have patience to wait it out. It’ll kill me before I kill it. I want to breathe...
    BeingSara BeingSara 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 15, 2015

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    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 9, 2015

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    Since high school started,

    I've been feeling more sad than usual. And it's not because of the school work, I don't really mind that. It's because I get to see all these people who have so many friends that you can obviously tell care about them. And then there's me. The awkward, lonely girl who can't even...
    ZiggyZebra ZiggyZebra 13-15, F Oct 19, 2015

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    I am the cause of somebody's death.

    I am at fault. It's written right there. Rest in peace. Long live your soul.
    TurnOutTheLight TurnOutTheLight 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    My dads in the hospital.

    .. His heart is ****** up... I can't keep listening o the words "chest pains again..." My friends are broken and I can't help cause I am the same... My stomach aches cause the cuts that run deep... My mom yells and I can't take it... She's stressed I know.. I am scared they'll...
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 20, 2015

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    SilverSapphire SilverSapphire 16-17, M 3 Responses Dec 14, 2015

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    No, I'm not. Even though this is a site

    where you can share your feelings and experiences people always bash me and rudely comment on my posts. You know what, if you're just going to be mean and negative and take your damn problems and anger out on others, you can **** off
    EssScissorHands EssScissorHands 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 9, 2015

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    i am not okay... i don't

    even know how to deal with my self
    imurs11 imurs11 18-21, F Oct 5, 2015

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    Started college today

    and it some what helped my heartache but I still thought about you
    gabbieceleste gabbieceleste 18-21 2 Responses Aug 24, 2015

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    Brianaaaaa Brianaaaaa 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 9, 2015

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    I'm not okay. I'm breaking

    and I can barely live life happily and sanely
    EssScissorHands EssScissorHands 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 4, 2015

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    Today I lost a best friend.

    At the same time I sit here holding the hand of my mother as she is dying. This is so overwhelming. It feels like my world falling apart. I am not ok!!
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Mar 23, 2015

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    I wasn't yesterday but I am today.

    Tomorrow might be rain and by Sunday raging fires. I'm all over the showroom selling you something to admire, take you for a test drive to deliver to another buyer. I am Not Okay; too much has gone wrong, I've started writing rhymes while humming my own song. I am...
    SoberingBabySteps SoberingBabySteps 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 7, 2015

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    All there's left to do

    for me is complaining. I can't stand it anymore, this city, these people. Everybody disappoints, in one way or another, they all do. And people will never turn out the way you think they would. One moment they might seem to be your shelter, your best friend, lover or even your...
    BMTH99 BMTH99 16-17, F Apr 5, 2015

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    I am stressed,sad,lonely,

    worried and feel soooo ******* down today so yes obviously I'm not okay. I'm emotionally and physically not okay.
    akirayuuki akirayuuki 26-30, F 4 Responses Mar 24, 2015

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