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I Am Not Okay

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    divinitydragon divinitydragon 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 24

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    this weekend me, my mom

    and my two brothers are moving to a nother place and my step-dad and step-sister are staying at the house that I'm about to move out of
    snbreeden20000 snbreeden20000 13-15, F Jul 29

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    I am sad that our former President Prof.

    A PJ.Abdul Kalam has passed away.May he rest in peace .
    whitesunshine87 whitesunshine87 51-55, F 6 Responses Jul 27

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    I was good for a few days

    but I guess I'll never be free from this.....
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 2

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    If somebody asks me "how are you?

    " or "Are you ok?" I WILL respond with "I'm fine!! How are you?" I will plaster that smile on my face and avoid talking about myself at all costs. But I'm lying. I'm not okay. I wonder if I have ever been okay. I am hurting inside and I don't even know what's wrong with me. I...
    ToBeAnOtaku101 ToBeAnOtaku101 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 22, 2014

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    I can't sleep.. I've barely been eating.

    . I feel like such a ******* failure to everyone.. ugh this is ******* great..
    WeighMeDown WeighMeDown 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    Its pathetic how people think they can comment

    on your profile nasty things or target someone personally. EP is here to post experiences and/or ask for advice or help. Yet people are using it to target people and be nasty or harass the vulnerable. EP needs to change its rules
    HarrietAC HarrietAC 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 7, 2014

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    My siblings all three of them make me feel like

    I should just disappear . My little and only brother makes me feel like I have on control. That might sound horrible but I can even get him to clean when he's suppose to he just look at me like I'm weak and I can make him do anything.my little sister make me feel like I'm just...
    BecomingBrave BecomingBrave 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 30

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    How is it possible that someone

    who I gave everything to just dropped me for someone else?
    gabbieceleste gabbieceleste 18-21 Jun 28

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    TURNS OUT MY BF was with 3 girls last night

    getting up to no good! Better than him! I'm better than this :)
    HarrietAC HarrietAC 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 29, 2014

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    Sometimes, being not okay is okay.

    We grow. We learn new things. Most importantly, being okay means we try to be OK and this means, we're getting stronger. I guess this life is just making me stronger. Maybe it'll keep making me strong until I'll be lifeless..
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 24

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    I guess it's hard for me to say,

    but I'm not okay. I guess if I tell everyone that I'm okay, then I feel as if I am okay, but I'm not. I space out in the middle of people talking to me, questioning my own existence. I hug people just a little too long because it keeps me tied down on earth. I long to have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 23, 2013

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    Everything was going

    so well but now I stay up all night overthinking things and it's driving me insane
    camasf camasf 13-15, F 3 Responses May 24

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    daylieexperience daylieexperience 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 23

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    My dads in the hospital.

    .. His heart is ****** up... I can't keep listening o the words "chest pains again..." My friends are broken and I can't help cause I am the same... My stomach aches cause the cuts that run deep... My mom yells and I can't take it... She's stressed I know.. I am scared they'll...
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 20

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    Not at all. I really am not okay.

    I'm not. But ask me and I'll tell you I'm just fine. I'm fine. But...I'm not really.
    ImagineA ImagineA 16-17 1 Response Aug 27, 2014

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    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 15, 2014

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    I’m not okay. I’ve said some things

    that I regret. I had let my thoughts and feelings get the best of me. I was feeling doubtful, insecure, and still being belittled. I realized my wrong doings and confessed but it was too late to take any of it back. Last night, and all day today, I’ve been upset and crying. It...
    pumkin106 pumkin106 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I've gotten so good at faking a smile.

    It's hard for me to determine if my smiles are genuine, I've gotten so good at faking. It's always kind of funny when I talk to people and smile, because they think it's real. It's very rare that my smiles are genuine
    ZiggyZebra ZiggyZebra 13-15, F Jul 4

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    I'm bossed around all the time

    and I feel like crap. I understand how I can't express how I feel because what I feel is never important to anyone else but me. I keep everything to myself and it seems better that way.
    BecomingBrave BecomingBrave 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    i want to feel accepted by my mum.

    .. I'm gay and she treats me like I'm a murder, a dealer or prostitute.
    jeruo jeruo 18-21, F Jul 21

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 22

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    Why can't people love me back.

    ..? Do I just always fall for unaffectionet people or people that will never love me back... I feel like I am always in a one sided relationship with people that know exactly what I want but don't care about how I feel...
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 16-17, F Mar 24

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    Actually, I'm worst than not ok.

    I would say depressed but that word is so overused. People use it to express their sadness. I thought I was depressed, because I thought about suicide all the time. My life sucks, worthless, lonely, that's always the common theme. For years, I've use my sadness as an excuse to...
    feint30 feint30 26-30, M 4 Responses Nov 16, 2014

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    I hope that it doesn't matter I'm posting this

    so late at night. I need it to do this to calm down a bit, even though I'll talk about it "tomorrow" (today) with my psychotherapist. Some months ago, I had a pretty much traumatic experience with a jackass who unfortunately happened to buy the house next to mine. It's a family...
    somniatorlupus somniatorlupus 18-21, M 1 Response May 15

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    I'm not okay. I'm so scared.

    I'm so lost at the moment, constantly telling myself that everything will be back to normal. But the more I tell myself it will be okay the more it hurts. I can't mentally handle this. If what happened happens again I have to leave. Just the thought of that makes me sick to my...
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    This darkness is suffocating me.

    It’s killing me slowly and I feel it. I feel the numbness rush through my soul, the cracks tearing at my heart. It’s trapping me and I see no escape. I want this suffering to end, I don’t have patience to wait it out. It’ll kill me before I kill it. I want to breathe...
    BeingSara BeingSara 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 15

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    I wasn't yesterday but I am today.

    Tomorrow might be rain and by Sunday raging fires. I'm all over the showroom selling you something to admire, take you for a test drive to deliver to another buyer. I am Not Okay; too much has gone wrong, I've started writing rhymes while humming my own song. I am...
    SoberingBabySteps SoberingBabySteps 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 7

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    I put on a smile everyday

    but no one can actually tell that I'm dying inside.
    LittleBeelzebub LittleBeelzebub 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 5, 2014

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    I hide in shame for what you did to me.

    These scares are from you. I didn't want them or the words that you yelled at me. We were best friends but what happened. Was it because of my lover or that you loved me. But I'm sorry that you left. But now that your back I don't think I can let you back. I hear what they say...
    kamikoshinok kamikoshinok 16-17, F Jun 15

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    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 15

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    gabbieceleste gabbieceleste 18-21 2 Responses Aug 15

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    All there's left to do

    for me is complaining. I can't stand it anymore, this city, these people. Everybody disappoints, in one way or another, they all do. And people will never turn out the way you think they would. One moment they might seem to be your shelter, your best friend, lover or even your...
    BMTH99 BMTH99 16-17, F Apr 5

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    Today I lost a best friend.

    At the same time I sit here holding the hand of my mother as she is dying. This is so overwhelming. It feels like my world falling apart. I am not ok!!
    sml4 sml4 46-50, F 5 Responses Mar 23

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    I hate being ignored.

    It hurts like eating broken glass! I'm so sick of trying to be friends with people who CLEARLY don't want to be. And everytime I give up on this guy I always get the urge to speak to him to try again. It never works. And he loves to play mind games by not replying to me, when I...
    Fierrrrce Fierrrrce 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 21

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    again. oh how doctors ?

    how nurses ? how how how ??? I am just so scared
    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow 16-17, F 2 Responses May 8

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    I don't usually like making a big deal out of

    things. But I am seriously depressed..
    Thenamesjess Thenamesjess 16-17, F 6 Responses May 7

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    I am not okay. I haven't been okay.

    Everytime something good happens, something worse happens. I am not okay. My manic depression has been going crazy, and I can't even keep up with myself. I am not okay. I have never been okay
    RxpperGirl RxpperGirl 18-21, F Mar 24

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    I am not. And when everyone asks I say I am.

    I am tired of saying I am not, and even though I am still not, I say I am. Maybe if I continue to say I am then I will be. Fingers crossed, I hope some day I will not feel like crying.
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 16-17, F Nov 11, 2014

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    Anxiety and stress are hugging me today.

    I need help. I don't even know where to begin.
    asinc5157 asinc5157 16-17 1 Response Jun 14

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    I'm getting the urge to self harm ): I last

    self harmed 7 months ago today
    Genexus Genexus 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 1, 2014

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    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 22

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    At one point or another.

    We must all face the monsters inside. And whether they do good or bad depends on the kind of person you are. Starve them and you'll never know, but feed them and you'll regret it. It's time I faced facts. I am not okay. I never will be. Let me explain why. For as long as I can...
    Darktooth41 Darktooth41 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 8

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    thickmadame25 thickmadame25 22-25, F Jun 15

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    "Are you ok?" I hear this question at least

    once a day. Three little words, to which the obvious answer is "I'm fine", but I never am. There's no way to tell the people who call themselves my 'friends' how I really feel. I've become an expert at faking that I'm ok, when inside I'm hurting so bad.
    SevenWaysToFakeIt SevenWaysToFakeIt 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 21, 2014

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    Started college today

    and it some what helped my heartache but I still thought about you
    gabbieceleste gabbieceleste 18-21 2 Responses Aug 24

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