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I Am Not Suicidal

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 239 People

    I used to be very suicidal

    when I was younger. I was about eight when the self-harm started, and by ten it turned into an eating disorder. By 14, I was making almost monthly attempts at my life, which my undiagnosed Bipolar mother passed off as harmless accidents or bouts of the flu, even when I told her...
    Poppyfields72 Poppyfields72
    26-30, F
    Apr 1, 2014


    It has passed my mind before. 3 years ago. Now I am not, the thought never crosses my mind. I'm content with life, and pretty happy. Sure some things I don't like. But nothing that can't be changed
    xScreamOfTheButterflyx xScreamOfTheButterflyx
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 16, 2008

    Homicidal Maybe

    but i have never ever been suicidal. my life might suck at times....who am i kidding, it usually sucks all the time (or atleast here lately), but i want to live......plain and simple. i hope anyone who does have suicidal tendencies finds  a way to overcome them...no one...
    antiyou antiyou
    26-30, F
    7 Responses Dec 19, 2008

    Never Have Been

    I have at times thought that it would be better to just not be alive but I then think if I'm going to die my life had better have been something better than what I've had so far. I think in some twisted way I would be more inclined to commit suicide if my life were going exactly...
    DelightfulBabe08 DelightfulBabe08
    3 Responses Sep 22, 2008

    Ha I'm not suicidal at least any more

    but I just steped on a bunch of nails it oddly felt good lol
    drew725 drew725
    16-17, M
    1 Response Sep 2, 2014

    Why be suicidal? Is life really

    that hard? It's only hard if you let it bother you. Look at the beauty surrounding you. Actually see it! It's fascinating. And amazing. Suicide does not get rid of the pain, it merely gives it to someone else. There is far too much to live for once you push all the...
    RazorbladeKisses81 RazorbladeKisses81
    36-40, F
    Jul 18, 2014

    I just have rough patches.

    I could never kill myself.
    watermelonbliss watermelonbliss
    26-30, F
    Nov 5, 2014

    More Like A Death Wish

    Nope, not suicidal, just wish I wasn't alive.
    NobodysGirl NobodysGirl
    2 Responses Nov 23, 2011

    Never Have Been

    And I've had plenty of reasons in my life.  Life may be full of laughter, fun, excitement, love, pain and hurt all in one day or spread among many.  And I still want to awake each morning.   The surprise of what a new day can bring is enough for me.
    shuttermagic shuttermagic
    36-40, F
    Feb 21, 2008

    I have thought about ending my life a ton of

    times. What do I have to stay in the world? Nobody really love me for me what on the inside. So what because I'm ugly and fat I'm unlovable. I would have a lot to offer a person. I can cook, I love to laugh, I'm always open to new things, and I love to read and cuddle. But no...
    deleted deleted
    May 4, 2015

    I'm not here because I'm having huge problems

    like depression, but I'm here just to get things off my chest. :3
    Bonshaquitalafondria20 Bonshaquitalafondria20
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 3, 2015

    Ambrosia Rice Pudding At Room Temperature.

    I was once out of nowhere but it had no reason and I got over whatever it was in a second, before that I like helping people and hate pity or anything like that like: A social worker to a 23 year old "Mentally disabled" woman that just drew a duck in a tuxedo.. "Oh bless...
    Acchbellon Acchbellon
    18-21, M
    1 Response May 7, 2013

    I deal with anxiety and depression.

    Every once and a while I think about killing my self or cutting. Today I picked up a kitchen knife but I couldn't do it. I know all the people that love me and what goals I have set for myself. I always talk myself out of it. I know I would never do it but I still think about...
    deleted deleted
    Aug 23, 2015

    I'M The Lifeline Of Hundreds Of Teenagers

    I'm just one 14 year old saving hundreds of lives. People from all over the world contact me for help and ask me to give them strength. I help men and women addicted to cutting, drugs, and alcohol. Many call me telling me that they are in the hospital because they were shot...
    21nee 21nee
    18-21, F
    May 7, 2013
    Armyhopeful Armyhopeful
    18-21, M
    Nov 24, 2014

    Not Anymore....

    I wish I could say something like... "I saw the light! I don't try suicide anymore, because I had realized I wanted to live" and so forth. But... the REAL truth of it all is this. I had tried to kill myself over twenty times... none of the attempts worked. They all...
    deleted deleted
    Jun 11, 2009

    I used to have suicidal thoughts all the time

    while growing up.... But in recent years I've not really considered it, probably because of my son more than anything. But today I was cleaning out a cabinet and I came across an assorted pack of razor blades and box cutters and I was entranced .... I kept looking at the blades...
    Orangerocket Orangerocket
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Feb 7, 2015


    I can't say that it has never passed my mind, but I am not suicidal. I went through a very bad period in my life, that took a lot to come to grips with. After that, I never looked back. I AM NOT SUICIDAL.
    Percheron Percheron
    41-45, M
    1 Response Jun 7, 2008

    "I'm not suicidal, but

    if a car came while I was crossing the street, I don't think I would move out of its way. And if someone held a gun to my head, I wouldn't exactly beg for my life. In fact, I'd laugh and tell them to go for it. No, I'm not suicidal. But if I had an opportunity to die without...
    deleted deleted
    Sep 19, 2015

    I Changed

    I was being bullied and it made me suicidal. Now it all changed. Now I'm free.
    BeckyMcClure BeckyMcClure
    18-21, F
    Nov 27, 2013
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