I Am Not Sure If Im Getting Better Or Worse These Days

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    i've had more bad days recently.

    .. only 6 days until i get to go see my psychiatrist and get a diagnosis... I am nervous, scared and excited, I will finally have it under control... I can't remember the last time I felt normal... (I am pretty sure I have Bipolar 1 with psycotic tendencies)
    InAnInstant InAnInstant
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 8, 2015

    I feel like killing myself I just don't have

    the courage ... If a car was coming I wouldn't move out of the way ... But my family wouldn't care anyways
    SecretKeeper01 SecretKeeper01
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 6, 2015

    Life has no colour.There's no a motion.

    I wake up and sleep as if nothing happened.Whenever I have a good moment,whenever I share my happiness with some of my friends .. Everything is getting worse.So ,should I be silent? But I hate silence! Everybody who don't deserve happiness is happy ,but I'm not.I'm so tired.I don...
    xxzoom xxzoom
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 20, 2015

    I'M Getting Worse

    I've fallen back into old habits, but I'm worse than before. I haven't eaten a full real meal in 4 days. I've been trying to lose weight fast. I want to cut as deep as I can. Suicide almost never leaves my mind. I'm constantly paranoid. Before I could ignore it, but not anymore...
    justanothertroubledgirl justanothertroubledgirl
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 14, 2013

    Really not sure......

    .....................................!
    xxzoom xxzoom
    18-21, F
    Feb 27, 2016
    SomeGuyNamedBlue SomeGuyNamedBlue
    18-21, M
    Jan 17, 2016

    I'd been doing so well,

    but now the ******* sadness is back. Could you stop? Like where are you coming from? I feel like **** and dont know why. ****
    drowninginsaltwater drowninginsaltwater
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 12, 2015

    She says she loves me

    but needs the time. she says she wants me but is still angry for what I have done. she says she misses me but the pain is gone. My anger has shifted to pain and depression...I miss her with every ounce of my soul. her face of an angel and body of a goddess. lips so sweet...
    IDestroyMyself IDestroyMyself
    31-35, M
    1 Response Dec 1, 2015
    PendulEmPlum PendulEmPlum
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 6, 2015

    I'm finding my own strength,

    moving forward, and opened up to people withholding nothing. But, at the same time, I've been sneaking around, lying to my mom so I won't disappoint her (which isn't going to well), and doing/thinking things I wouldn't usually. I devised a plan to runaway. What the heck is wrong...
    jellolia jellolia
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 28, 2015

    i honestly don't know i have been getting a lot

    better as a person and now i have health issues so am kinda lost right now
    ReallyConfusedTeen ReallyConfusedTeen
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 4, 2016

    Just joined investment banking .

    .. I m learning a lot but at the same time losing sleep and friends ... I miss the old days when I can go drinking and meet with interesting people. Almost 2am now I m still at the office ... Tomorrow is weekend and I will still be coming back for work
    thousandcuts thousandcuts
    26-30, F
    3 Responses May 8, 2015

    My emotions aren't always

    so stable but I feel like I am kinda over her but then out of nowhere I just start crying cuz I miss my ex. I mean she was my first serious gf and the first girl I fell in love with .. And I opened up to her. I am used to people leaving me with in 1-3 years (sometimes less) but...
    brokenprincess08 brokenprincess08
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 14, 2016

    A few of my EP friends have suggested I use the

    nc method.I hope it works and my guy will wonder why he hasn't heard from me and contact me.....I miss him
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Mar 14, 2016

    This title just says it all really.

    . I hit a real low point recently due to a bad relationship and then bad break up too.. and some days I feel like fighting and getting back up and changing my life and then some days I just give up. I've put on even more weight, I haven't done any work for university.. I'm been...
    cupcakes1995 cupcakes1995
    22-25, F
    Apr 4, 2016

    My procrastination has gone overboard this time.

    I was supposed to wake up early because I have documents to be updated but then I woke at 5am and I spent a good couple minutes bargaining my tasks before then i went back to sleep. Unbelievable. I just feel utterly disappointed at myself because I didn't make it in my...
    drunkpotato drunkpotato
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 29, 2015

    You had all the time in the damn world to

    answer me, but apparently you were too busy. Thanks for nothing.
    Kkgunny Kkgunny
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 8, 2015

    i overcome only to come up short,

    i owe my last breath a thank you and the one that follows
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 22, 2015
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