I Am Not the Person I Used to Be

I am no longer the person I used to be in that I'm no longer a callous, cruel, distrustful, untrustworthy, unkind, racist, fat, ignorant, annoying, obnoxious, unpopular, unlikable, manipulative, bullying child, who was even at times...

Back in 1995, when I got my divorce I was lonely, scared, and exhilarated all at once living in rural Vermont...but trusting in God, I found my true calling as a screenplay writer...on my own, the Heavens parted and I was rewarded, by...

I once heard from a man say that people don't change. I disagree as change occurs in every second and every cell in our body.
Just as the river it never stays at the same time or location.
Perhaps I'm an optimist but all we have to do...

I was a strong christian for a long time. My faith gave me strength, value, direction, and a moral compas. I got to the point where I really wanted to move forward and give my entire life to my faith in reality, give up my own desires...

No, I am not the person that I used to be. My values have shifted; my needs and desires have totally shifted. If you knew me well thirty years ago, I think you would find me a stranger to your eyes today.
I have experienced certain...

When i was a kid,my father would sit by my bed every night  before i went to sleep and he would say to me-"son if you dont wake up tomorrow,if it turns out that today is your last day on earth,would you be proud of what you have done...

I used to be this unbelievably creative, appreciative child. If I wanted to do something nobody else was doing, I did it. My worries didn't bother me the way they do today.
I understand that we all change with time, especially when we...

Before I venture into the meat of this Mother's Day casserole, I'll admit I overanalyzed where to post this. This IS the appropriate group for this story, but I am not-so-subtly hoping that my core group, the ILIASM'ers, will find it...

Once a child of  light and love, and laughter. Life has now dulled the very senses.
   Many years of diappontments, heart break, one after another, trapped in worlds where the life gets sucked out, leaving, running, moving, hiding...

Life brings to us both good and bad times. I used to be a quiet person who keeps everything inside. Was a pessimist type of person. Due to problems in my parents I was never happy. But now I am a different person. I like to socialise...

Most people from high school barely recognize me, or don't at all.

It's kinda hilarious considering I was the only natural redhead in their class and that's a pretty identifying feature.

Mostly it's because I learned to stand up for...

Around the age of 15
I had reached my peak

when a solution was needed indeed,
to lose some weight i had to seek
escape from the means in my life
and become normal in the eyes of the rest

The words of the ones who thought of me less...

All I have to do is look back at pictures of myself a year or two ago and I laugh
Not because it's funny but out of disbelief really
I'm so different now to how I was back then
I'm still the person inside but a lot of things about...

They say that I am not to be trusted because I have a sparkle in my eye. They say that I always want things that I cannot have. They say that I am hiding the best of me because if exposed then I am weak. They say that I am cold...

He gave us a glass pipe to use. He said he had another one. He was my cousin.

I could tell he had used it previously for meth, by the way the end of the little glass bulb was stained jet black. I didn't ask questions, I just accepted...

During my marriage, I was so consumed with making sure that ALL of
my husband's needs were met and that I did everything to help and support
his efforts in being the man that he wanted to be and needed to be.

I spent all my time...

I recently travelled to Dallas to meet some of my amazing ep friends. As seems to be the norm rather than the exception these days, my flights ran late and I ended up spending some time at George Bush International, in Houston, TX...

Over the years I've changed I use to be a girl that you could walk on but not any more one word and I will destroy your snobby little perky face.you can't hurt me any more I will fight back and I will hurt you as much as you have hurt...

I've made ALOT of stupid choices in my life. I don't even want to get into all of it . I didn't think things through. I did whatever I wanted at the moment and it was usually wrong. Now, I regret most things that I did, even though I...