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I Am Not the Person I Used to Be

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    I am SO sick of being silenced!

    And made to feel like my opinions don't matter
    bearinmind bearinmind 36-40, F 8 Responses May 4

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    You give and you give

    and they take. All they do is take. You put everything you are into something they don't even care about. You hope that one day they'll change their mind but they don't care about you the way you care about them. And this has happened what once? Twice? Too many times to count...
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F 3 Responses Dec 19, 2014

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    it's more I'm a freak

    and can be very freaky
    nole29 nole29 26-30, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    After being basically unemployed

    for over 2 years (minus a bullshit 4 hour a week job) I just got hired today for a full time cashiering job at a store I love to shop at. ALSO I AM 97 DAYS SOBER. Life is ******* great right now. :) To everyone who has had a hard time or who is going through a hard time- keep...
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    gentlyyours707 gentlyyours707 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 28, 2014

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    As i get older i really start to hate people

    more and more, i have never been a people person, a bad violent and abusive relationship changed me for the better or worse im really not sure
    ExtremeNext ExtremeNext 26-30, F 16 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    How any times during my life do I have to

    become a different me until I don't know who I am anymore? All I know now that I am able to say say about me, "I am" but how many of my "I am's" am I and why I am not just one "I am" once? And am I who I am really me now? Just because I can say, "I am" now, does that mean...
    MyLady9 MyLady9 46-50, F 10 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    Today is 6 months, aka 184 days,

    since I stood up, took control of my life, and got sober from my drug addiction!
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 9 Responses Jan 20

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    Someone I really cared about lied to me

    and now I have trust issues.
    biliterally biliterally 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 24

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    I can't feel anything anymore.

    I'm not trying to be angsty or anything but my emotions are just not there. Even sadness and pain feels off. I've been reclusive for about 8 years, during which time I've gained weight, fallen into a deep depression, and developed social issues. It's hard to think like I used to...
    fatneet fatneet 22-25, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    These days when people try to attack my self

    esteem, it just makes me more arrogant, I figure there must be something good about me for all that fuss that is made
    7lulu 7lulu 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    How Times Have Changed

    Back in 1995, when I got my divorce I was lonely, scared, and exhilarated all at once living in rural Vermont...but trusting in God, I found my true calling as a screenplay writer...on my own, the Heavens parted and I was rewarded, by faith alone, a soul sister who guided me down...
    starryknight1999 starryknight1999 46-50 16 Responses Feb 9, 2012

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    After being married for 17 years with 2

    beautiful children, my husband left. Mid life crisis I suppose. I suffered on an emotional roller coaster for a few years trying to figure out what was wrong. He was not a talker. Just avoided conflict and never knew how to communicate very well. It took lots of faith and...
    lrj519 lrj519 46-50, F 24 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    It's funny, isn't it?

    The notion that we don't change over time, that we all stay exactly the same. Nothing challenges that like reconnecting with someone you haven't seen in a while. Truth is, we all change over time, but that's not a bad thing. I think the more we are willing to adapt, embrace...
    lavendersea lavendersea 41-45, F 2 Responses 31 mins ago

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    You don't deserve me.

    After you cheated I started to know myself and become independent. You don't know me anymore I'm not the same person bc you taught me how to face the real world. Never to trust, have confidence, nor think that someone truly cares . You don't deserve me, but I hope you're doing...
    gkaren gkaren 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    I hate feeling this way,

    I hate it! I want to change and go back to being my normal self, but idk if I can :"(
    Arianny1 Arianny1 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    EP has corrupted me! Lol I am thankful

    for the experience though, have learned a lot and met many awesome ppl along the way... Even some really special friends to share some of life's ups and downs with... Who actually can relate and understand. It's been well worth it! I feel blessed to have had this experience! It...
    CuriousCutiePie CuriousCutiePie 36-40, F 11 Responses Jul 7

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    i was bullied, i have

    now been diagnosed with issues. i am sick of being the helpless and self destructive freak i have become. i am trying to help people so i dont destroy myself further. i am a dark teen i will admit that. i am a self harmer and i am trying not to give into my craving for...
    twoinnerwolves twoinnerwolves 16-17, M 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Well u may think that werewolfs are just a

    legend, a myth....but I assure u they are not...they are as real as ever. I myself was transformed and if u have any questions about werewolfs please, do ask.
    WerewolfGirl5112 WerewolfGirl5112 13-15, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    In its brilliance the moon hung low low in the

    night sky just barely above the trees in the near distance. Below in its light I meandered through the faceless crowds as they made their way to the various amusements along the midway. I felt invisible when they blankly stared past me, while some seemed to look right through me...
    FightingPhoenix FightingPhoenix 46-50, M 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    Today marks 123 days of sobriety

    for me! I thought this would be a fun day to celebrate just because the numbers line up. Haha.
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F Nov 22, 2014

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    I have changed so much in the last 2 years in

    so many ways. Sometimes I don't even recognise myself but that stops now I am going to take control of my life. I am going to go back to who I was. I guess life changes and circumstances do too but you should never allow yourself to change unless it makes you better. I am...
    Tofi786 Tofi786 22-25, F Jul 24

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    jfear3 jfear3 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I think everyone agree with

    that Pain changes people. Because without pain, you will never know how strong you are. Personally, I think positive people, who never felt any neglect and fear are the weakest of all, and people who suffers a lot, and sacrifice, will always have this higher self esteem.
    Manuala Manuala 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 23, 2014

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    Many people in my life just don't interest me

    anymore. I care for them, but I'm tired of them. I'm tired of dealing with people that don't get me the way that I hope for. It's annoying. It's tough. Im tired. I'm just so tired of it all.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jan 7

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    7lulu 7lulu 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    I had so much courage

    when I was young..I wanted to do anything and everything,but now...nope. There are too many people that will judge so I'm gonna stay in my room,eating junk food,playing video games and hating life all night...anyone want to join me?
    DeAsiaWhitten DeAsiaWhitten 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    Hi ! My first semester back in school is

    ending. I want to thank my Dad and Mom for taking their rebellious daughter back under their authority and roof. Thank you for bringing Discipline and Love back into my life. I also want to thank all my EP friends who are helping advise, discipline, encourage, and express my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses May 5

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    So, when I was about 10 my dad got remarried to

    my now Step-mom, at first she acted like she liked me. She was trying to be my best friend or whatever, but I noticed that she treated my older cousin (who was about 17 at the time) like complete ****. Well, I just passed it off as my cousin not liking her very much, because to...
    IcySongBird IcySongBird 18-21, F 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I used to be the really happy

    and energetic outgoing type of kid, but through the hardships I've been through I became calm, sensitive, and quiet. Color of blue
    lily36912 lily36912 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    life, over 7 months sober finally learning

    who i am. its pretty nuts. this is my first post on this site, its really nice to find a place to be open and honest and not have to worry about all the judges with their powdered wigs and raised eyebrows haha i'm happy today.
    Kogane Kogane 26-30, M 4 Responses Jul 24

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    U know those lil girls

    who have the brightest smile and there just the cutest thing ever and u know that she is ganna be like that 4 ever and u feel like nothing can harm her to ruin her......wel that lil girl once was me ......she died 10 years ago ......**** can happen in life and some changes r not...
    Rae203466 Rae203466 16-17, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I sincerely believe that we change a lot in our

    twenties and learn who we really are during that time. We sometimes try on different personas and eventually settle into who we really are deep down to our core. We are raised to be who our parents want us to be, but learn that in order to be happy, we need to find our own...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Apr 30

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    Respect yourself enough to walk away from

    anything that no longer serves you, grows you, or makes you happy.
    BlackWidowBaby BlackWidowBaby 41-45, F 5 Responses Dec 11, 2014

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    I feel myself changing in amazing ways.

    Someone on here had a deep impact on my life. I love what they did for me....they made a better father, son, business leader, neighbour, and lover....awhiteorchid..Angel ..thank you. I love what you did....and the man in those dreams of yours that you truly helped :-)
    drooniedat drooniedat 36-40 2 days ago

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    I'm older,wiser,not as naive.

    Life can make one very thick skinned and much tougher,when it knocks you down over and over again. So I live one day at a time,expecting nothing,yet I will survive through it all,to live better days...
    thebustierthebetter thebustierthebetter 46-50, M 4 days ago

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    My mother is helping me find myself again.

    She stayed up with me all night explaining to me methods to get over being lost. She reminded me that I was born with an inner strength that will always be there for me. She just gave me hope that I can become a whole person again if I put the effort into it. She gave me classic...
    BunniesCry BunniesCry 31-35, F 8 Responses Nov 10, 2014

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    I have no idea what happened to me,

    but I've had a constant state of arousal after finding out my husband had an affair.
    lunabonita lunabonita 31-35, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    five years ago I left an extremely abusive,

    unhealthy relationship. I paid alimony to him for five years and very recently paid my last payment. I'm not that woman anymore. I am strong, happy,content, secure, and successful. I made it through the darkest part of the night, and now the sun is rising and I am ready to...
    surgchic surgchic 46-50, F 13 Responses Apr 21

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    I used to be outgoing happy care free just

    loved the outdoors friends and life...now over the years of having children I let myself become fat!!!!  Like in todays society the one disgusting thing that can be fixed and yet it seems like its a virus that keeps eating away at myself of who I am....I am  not...
    ZoeyIsadora ZoeyIsadora 26-30, F 3 Responses Jul 23

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    I was married & faithful

    for SO many years. We divorced. Now I don't care to be that person anymore. I was honest about it before I married my husband so he knows I want to be free to have other physical experiences if the right guy comes along at the right time. The young & ignorant will say WHAT...
    Walkalone9000 Walkalone9000 51-55, F 10 Responses May 27

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    AdoraGel AdoraGel 31-35, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    As a teenager I had friends,

    good ones, I loved wearing makeup, going to the gym, reading, History, art, music, I was interested in having friends and knowing more about everything and anything. I would wake up thinking about what exciting experience was awaiting, I loved school and I dreamed about being a...
    Commononesense Commononesense 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 18

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    I used to be this happy,

    bright, outgoing, loving, sweet girl. Everything changed. Grew up and realize this world is so messed up and that my family isn't the family I once knew. I am now this emotionless, dark, bitter, rude, sarcastic girl. I see dark and negativity in everything. I find horrible...
    PrincessSkulls PrincessSkulls 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 23

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    Not the old pathetic me anymore

    who was trying hard to fit in before. Not the one who was craving for love, acceptance, understanding and friendship I have learned to love and value myself first before others ☺️
    imsoflhai imsoflhai 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    Is anyone else tired of waking up everyday

    and doing the same thing. A constant cycle of nonsense
    Brooke6813 Brooke6813 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 23

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