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I Am Not the Person I Used to Be

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    I used to be this confident woman

    that loved life and embraced everything with joy and excitement. Now I am different because I caught my husband texting a young woman old enough to be his daughter. It sent me over the edge mentally. He told me he would never hurt me like that again and that was three years ago...
    kelly121994 kelly121994 41-45, F 7 Responses 2 days ago

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    I feel pathetic and a waste of space I

    constantly have thought of wanting to be dead, but I go back and think of how selfish it would be to leave the people that actually care about me, but at the same time I believe nobody cares not even my own boyfriend... I believe all he wants is to make "love" to me atleast that...
    Rkfj Rkfj 18-21, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    My dad recently killed himself I I just want

    other people to know to Never go down this road it causes so Much heartache and sadness it's no Answer to anything
    ekins09 ekins09 22-25, M 11 Responses 3 days ago

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    When I was a little girl my mom told me I use

    to talk to ghost, specifically my uncle. I don't remember talking to him I don't remember anything about him. As I grew up I was never interested into boys until 5 grade then I moved and dated a boy in 6 grade then one in 7 and one in 8 but in 7 grade I got bullied for being...
    sunshinealex sunshinealex 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I used to be loved and adored by all

    and now I'm an old fad. I had my time in the sun and now I've dried up. No one answer my calls, texts me or even cares about what I'm feeling so **** it. If everyone wants to forget me then I'm not gonna be in the position to be forgotten anymore.
    Chpt16 Chpt16 13-15, M 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    I used to be the girl

    that would tattle on everyone and the one who knew all the answers to all the questions. But now there's some new questions I can't answer. Who am I? Who will I become? If I ever do figure out who I am will I be accepted?
    Drhooves Drhooves 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    A Reason To Change.........

    When i was a kid,my father would sit by my bed every night  before i went to sleep and he would say to me-"son if you dont wake up tomorrow,if it turns out that today is your last day on earth,would you be proud of what you have done in this life?..........cause if you are not...
    Borne Borne 22-25, M 10 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    I am not....everything has changed.

    ...some for the good...some for the bad....and some are neither..... I am stronger in my voice....I am guarded with my heart...I don't believe everything I am told....and I know there is BAD in everyone..... I don't trust like I did....and I don't love like I did..... Cruel...
    ladyamelia ladyamelia 41-45, F 4 Responses Jul 11

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    darrls darrls 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I Changed,

    I remember looking in the mirror and thinking this whole world was out to get me, that i was simply an imperfection in this puzzle of life and i was not ever meant to fit in. Everyday all i could think about was the bruises growing on my arm from my abusive foster parents, the...
    onelittlecat onelittlecat 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    I've been depressed for 4-5 years.

    I've been suicidal for 2. I've been selfharming for 1 and a half. And I've been having an on and off eating disorder going on a year. But I've been getting a lot better.
    toxicteen toxicteen 13-15, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I remember when I was in Elementary School.

    Just playing everywhere. Until I hit 6th grade. That's when everything changed. A girl changed me. She made me feel like the luckiest guy in the world, until I found out her dirty secret when we were 3 months. Turns out she was dating another guy behind my back. Ever since day I...
    justinbartolome justinbartolome 13-15, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I used to be strong, thin,

    and confident. Now I'm old, weak, overweight and afraid of life. I lost my job in 2008 and it has taken me all this time to really get halfway stable. I have a chronic illness that makes it difficult for me to do the things I need to do, especially since I don't have a car. I...
    Zennish Zennish 61-65, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm Brooke. 16 years old.

    I used to be a straight A student, honour roll etc. I played hockey on three teams and took flying lessons when I could. I had a part time job and I was happy. I was bullied at school though and one day I snapped. I just started hitting the girl over and over. I got in...
    BrookeSandhurst BrookeSandhurst 16-17, F 8 Responses Jul 7

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    Ever feel like you've been

    so judged by everyone somewhere that it seems crazy when someone is nice to you? Well that's me. I just recently graduated high school and honestly I wasn't to sad to leave the place. I was miserable. I was bullied to no end and so many people judged me from stupid things I did...
    firecancatchme firecancatchme 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 17

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    Hey be like the 4 seasons,

    but obviously you won't forget what's been put in your memory bank which has made you aware.
    kamachulu kamachulu 22-25, M 21 hrs ago

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    These seem to be mostly negative.

    .. But my experience is positive. My life isn't perfect but for the past 5 years I've been working on self improvement and I see a change. I'm open minded, happy, smarter even. I have the drive to learn new things, to better myself even more. And during the past 5 years not only...
    FrozenIceAndSnow FrozenIceAndSnow 18-21, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    How is it that a child

    so kind hearted, selfless, hopeful and loving can become a sociopathic logical thinking realist and yet still see everyone as no more special or broken then one another, accepting of one and all as long as they are kept at arms length... Makes me wonder sometimes
    XulThuan XulThuan 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    With all the truama I've been through

    and all the mistakes I've become very angry and irritable and impulsive. I'm not sweet and caring like I used to be and I was so open and not judgmental and I was so many good things. I feel like I've just taken a real beating and my strong sense if empathy has totally dissolved...
    followthem00n followthem00n 18-21, F 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    I am so not the person I used to be any more.

    Parts of her I miss, but for the most I am not the same, and do not think I can ever get back there. I had a lot of issues that were undealt with...had a lot of psychological issues which were coming out on other people, I had no real idea that I was hurting people, when I...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 7 Responses Jul 16

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    I want to take an overdose,

    right now. I've done it before, and I think I could do it right. But that isn't who I am anymore. I can't think about my own death without thinking about its impact on everyone around me. I'm not that person anymore. Suicide doesn't make your problems go away. It passes them on...
    Fionndom Fionndom 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I Am Me~

    No, I am not the person that I used to be. My values have shifted; my needs and desires have totally shifted. If you knew me well thirty years ago, I think you would find me a stranger to your eyes today. I have experienced certain significant emotional events that have changed...
    hillbillycrone hillbillycrone 51-55, F 5 Responses May 17, 2012

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    I don't know what got into me.

    I have grown courage in myself. I'm able to stand up for what I believe in and not fear the reactions of others when I get angry. :P I guess that comes when you grow older. When I was little, I used to be scared shitless of people when they insulted me or cyber bullied me. Now I...
    HighOnMisery HighOnMisery 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 13

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    Um yeah I have changed a lot.

    I used to be mean and now I'm really nice. But I also make a lot more bad decisions. I don't know why I do I just do. I am trying to become an all around good person and I feel like the first step is accepting the decisions and things I cannot change. I feel that I have grown as...
    lexiab123 lexiab123 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 14, 2013

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    We Are As The River Flows

    I once heard from a man say that people don't change. I disagree as change occurs in every second and every cell in our body. Just as the river it never stays at the same time or location. Perhaps I'm an optimist but all we have to do is look at nature. Everything breath is...
    Calviv11 Calviv11 36-40, F 4 Responses May 9, 2013

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    Happy With New Me

    Life brings to us both good and bad times. I used to be a quiet person who keeps everything inside. Was a pessimist type of person. Due to problems in my parents I was never happy. But now I am a different person. I like to socialise with people and try to see the positive side...
    littlestars littlestars 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 14, 2012

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    Heap... Thank goodness

    for that, otherwise I'd still be the open hearted sod sad s hit standing with my heart in my hands while she takes a pi as on it
    Atromitos Atromitos 31-35 2 days ago

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    After I went to study acting

    and when I noticed in the age of of 19 that this might be it. After the age of 20, I really decided to become an actor. There's no possible way to deny that matter of passion and love for acting, I have acquired. Everything in me flourished that point on. And I turned to become...
    Kimchie Kimchie 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    I semi used to be happy.

    I used to laugh with my friends but now I shut them out. I once could smile for no reason but a true smile has only crossed my lips when I thought I was taking my last breath.
    sluggo111 sluggo111 16-17, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Since my ex blamed me

    for his suicide attempt 4 months ago, i've become a completely different person - closed off from friends and family, struggling to trust anyone on the earth... No interest in anything anymore, no motivation!!
    Gallowbaby Gallowbaby 18-21, F 4 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    How Times Have Changed

    Back in 1995, when I got my divorce I was lonely, scared, and exhilarated all at once living in rural Vermont...but trusting in God, I found my true calling as a screenplay writer...on my own, the Heavens parted and I was rewarded, by faith alone, a soul sister who guided me down...
    starryknight1999 starryknight1999 41-45, M 18 Responses Feb 9, 2012

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    She was from England,

    I am from NY. We met online and got swept up in a romance of epic proportions. She was older, more worldly, and very reserved in her ways which drove me wild. She was drawn to my impulsive, romantic nature and the fact I was so open about everything with her. We had 3 years of...
    Indigolesbian70 Indigolesbian70 41-45, F 1 Response May 22

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    How any times during my life do I have to

    become a different me until I don't know who I am anymore? All I know now that I am able to say say about me, "I am" but how many of my "I am's" am I and why I am not just one "I am" once? And am I who I am really me now? Just because I can say, "I am" now, does that mean...
    MyLady9 MyLady9 46-50, F 10 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    I'm definitely not the person I used to be.

    I was married for 20 years. I thought I was happy, and I really did love raising my kids. They are 18 and 21 now, and they are awesome! My son is a welder and my daughter is getting ready to go to college. I was so busy raising them, so it took a while to realize that I never...
    lovesandybeaches lovesandybeaches 46-50, F Jul 20

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    Well, I'm trans, but

    that means I was not really the person I was pretending to be before
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I used to be one of those people

    that everyone just walked all over and wouldn't say no to anyone. I have now been able to "grow a pair" and say no to people, but and still afraid I come across as bitchy.
    OPbeachgirl OPbeachgirl 22-25, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    A year ago. I came to this place a year ago.

    I was this glum teenager girl pissed off at the world. I was trying to live in a delusion of being this cocky-cutter girl. You know, straight good, Christian girl, although it was just a mask. I met some wonderful people here. Like my friends FARN and Sam. There are also a lot...
    MayaMoonShadow MayaMoonShadow 16-17, F 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    ashapryce ashapryce 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    My Long Journey

    During my marriage, I was so consumed with making sure that ALL of my husband's needs were met and that I did everything to help and support his efforts in being the man that he wanted to be and needed to be. I spent all my time focusing on him that I didn't realize how...
    Mahal1023 Mahal1023 46-50, F 30 Responses Nov 14, 2010

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    jimboslice501 jimboslice501 18-21, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I lost my husband 5 months ago.

    I feel so lost and alone. But I have to keep moving forward. I miss him so much :(
    hanhphan86 hanhphan86 26-30, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I keep my feelings to myself ,

    Yeah i get emotional but at the end of the day all I really have is myself . It may hurt me when he acts the way he does but hey that's life no one is bound to stay with you once you love yourself you'll start to realize what's best for you . Some of you females don't love...
    nicolee778 nicolee778 16-17, F 4 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Is it okay to change?

    I feel like when I was young I wanted to be this girl I am now but now sometimes I just try so hard to be the girl before. It puzzles me
    presseve presseve 18-21, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    If I Could Forget

    If I could forget all I have felt Allowing all the memories to melt Forgetting the anger and anguish inside Accepting the present and losing the pride If I could only erase these welts that you placed Feeling a glimmer of joy, comfort embraced If I could open myself to you...
    soulrunher soulrunher 41-45, F 7 Responses Aug 18, 2013

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    I used to be happy and cheerful about 6 years

    back. 2 years later, i became quiet and reclusive and distant from most people and my family sometimes. It got worst and worst as time passed and I was wondering why is this happening to me? As if I was going down a downhill spiral.. Now i completely don't talk to any of my...
    Letsdothiss Letsdothiss 18-21, M 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    Dallas Realizations

    I recently travelled to Dallas to meet some of my amazing ep friends. As seems to be the norm rather than the exception these days, my flights ran late and I ended up spending some time at George Bush International, in Houston, TX. Disembarking from the plane in Houston, I...
    PeachesGalore PeachesGalore 46-50, F 8 Responses Oct 8, 2012

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    In fact I am stronger,

    wiser, and more conscientious than I was. I grew because of the person I used to be.
    xalcyone xalcyone 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 25

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    Ive been thinking about this (me being the

    thinker i am) & i cant figure out how to word it. Here goes.. 14,party,roofied,stuffed in a trunk,beaten senseless by 6 military guys,then raped by everyone of them (i only know these things because i woke up in a field miles away from civilization with a note that said "if you...
    twodeadbrothers twodeadbrothers 22-25, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    A couple days ago, a friend of mine was telling

    me about 2 waitresses at a cafe he likes to go to. One of them is this super energetic young thing who takes "bubbly" to a whole other level - beyond anything that could be genuine (some people are naturally bubbly, but not THIS bubbly). the other one is a bit older and has a...
    SilverSearching SilverSearching 26-30, M 3 Responses Jun 15

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    I Lost Me

    Somewhere along the line, I lost the person that I used to be.  I don't know when it happened.  It must have been a slow loss that wasn't as noticable.  Now I have become so far removed from who I really should be (or was) that I'm not sure how to get back there...
    flowrpowr flowrpowr 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2007

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    The Best Of Me ~

    They say that I am not to be trusted because I have a sparkle in my eye. They say that I always want things that I cannot have. They say that I am hiding the best of me because if exposed then I am weak. They say that I am cold hearted and unloving because my selfisness haunts...
    zonus zonus 31-35, M 6 Responses Sep 25, 2012

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    I used to be happy ,nice

    and caring. I'm still nice but I have mood swings too much now. I would go out everyday but now I just don't want to go out for anything I'm always crying laying in my bed, sometimes just overthinking everything. I suffer from anxiety and depression I have no one supporting. My...
    stephanyee stephanyee 18-21, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have changed so much

    since my first year of middle school, I used to be this sort-of-chubby girl with a bobbed hair cut and raccoon eyes. I am now a Junior in high school, I no longer wear globs of makeup, or dress like my grandma picked out my clothes. I used to be bullied a lot in middle school...
    ThatDarnKatz ThatDarnKatz 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 15

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