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I Am Not the Person I Used to Be

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    Sometimes it takes the right voice

    or the right words from that oh so right person to lift you back up :)
    TheSimpleButterfly TheSimpleButterfly 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 11

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    I used to be a druggie,

    a sex addict, and didn't care about God. Within the past year, I've found God again and life is amazing!!
    drummerchic4Christ drummerchic4Christ 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31

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    As i get older i really start to hate people

    more and more, i have never been a people person, a bad violent and abusive relationship changed me for the better or worse im really not sure
    ExtremeNext ExtremeNext 26-30, F 17 Responses Aug 27

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    How Times Have Changed

    Back in 1995, when I got my divorce I was lonely, scared, and exhilarated all at once living in rural Vermont...but trusting in God, I found my true calling as a screenplay writer...on my own, the Heavens parted and I was rewarded, by faith alone, a soul sister who guided me down...
    starryknight1999 starryknight1999 41-45, M 17 Responses Feb 9, 2012

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    It threw me to abyss only to feel my demise.

    I am in no position to negotiate. Falling. Uninformed; Unaware. Chaos surrounds me. Noise. Different tones; I am not able to know silence. Thoughts are there, they constitute the dot I did not fell with. Questions are beginning to arise: Am I the only one who fell? Did anybody...
    Matoy Matoy 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I used to be quite a bit of a doormat quiet fly

    on the wall etc type always been a bit of a nerd mixed with a jock still struggling to find myself what matters to me and the people who are worth my time certain close friends are helping me shape who I am bring out more of the real me being less repressed and more just ftw and...
    shadowknight1226 shadowknight1226 22-25, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I keep my feelings to myself ,

    Yeah i get emotional but at the end of the day all I really have is myself . It may hurt me when he acts the way he does but hey that's life no one is bound to stay with you once you love yourself you'll start to realize what's best for you . Some of you females don't love...
    nicolee778 nicolee778 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 29

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    Dallas Realizations

    I recently travelled to Dallas to meet some of my amazing ep friends. As seems to be the norm rather than the exception these days, my flights ran late and I ended up spending some time at George Bush International, in Houston, TX. Disembarking from the plane in Houston, I...
    PeachesGalore PeachesGalore 46-50, F 8 Responses Oct 8, 2012

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    Sept. 17 , 5 years ago was the most amazing day

    of my life. I thought my time had finally arrived. i let it slip away and now... just a very sad day for me.
    karenmbrown karenmbrown 51-55, T 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I will say I was much more outgoing in public

    before Iraq, now I'm more reclusive.
    dirtydarkness dirtydarkness 26-30, F 5 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Recently I've been going to bed with my laptop

    next to me and I can't fall asleep unless I've got something playing. I've effed up my sleeping pattern by doing this because I've gradually been staying up later each night. Since I don't do anything during the day though, it's not a problem. I hate how I've lost all motivation...
    cptdelaquoi cptdelaquoi 16-17, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    March 21, 2013 my entire life can crashing on

    me all at once. My oldest and only brother took his own life due to PTSD from serving in the Military.. He was my idol, friend, hero. I now struggle to stay strong find myself hiding emotions because I feel as if I need to be strong for everyone else. Even though somedays I'm...
    NellieNike NellieNike 22-25, F 7 Responses 1 day ago

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    frannydoe frannydoe 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I know this is crazy

    but I want my older brother to be my boyfriend
    mindlessforever mindlessforever 26-30, F 9 Responses 5 days ago

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    It's like the 30 year old broom: All those new

    heads and handles. Same broom, or is it?
    SLdale SLdale 51-55, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    I feel amazing right

    now I used to be depressed and have loads of problems now I feel like I have come out as a better person!
    Morg28 Morg28 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 3

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    The experiences we face in life mold the person

    we ultimately become. Men come from boys and women from girls. No one is the same person they were as a child, life does that to us.
    jazsag19 jazsag19 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I lost my husband 5 months ago.

    I feel so lost and alone. But I have to keep moving forward. I miss him so much :(
    hanhphan86 hanhphan86 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 27

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    I am so proud of myself

    for letting go of the person I used to be. For allowing myself to change. I am sure I still have many changes to go through as my life goes on. I welcome them with open arms.
    piprimate piprimate 26-30, F 4 Responses Sep 3

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    Everything i just so ****** up.

    I dont know who i am. I let another person dictate that for far too long. Why did i ever let that to occur. Im not eve a real woman all i want to do is cry. Im so pathetic.
    jennaveivea jennaveivea 36-40, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    It kills me the more honest i am to a friend

    the more i get screwed over. Iv lost many friends over time for hearing them out and taking in there stories and issues. Not one time was there ever a time were anyone could let me vent.. When that time did come their only responses are " every one has issues" tired of holding...
    hmoussa hmoussa 18-21, M 5 Responses Sep 2

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    Si people always keep saying we all change

    for good or shouldn't really change at all. When people tell all the stuff they have been through I can't help but feel mine are just minimal. Although I wish I could still be that silly girl I was, I just can't seem to go back to her. A lot of people might relate to changing...
    simplyfuckit simplyfuckit 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I was out of shape, had really low immunity,

    and was suffering chronic joint & muscle pain for a couple of years. It sucked. Doctors just kept telling me it was all in my head. :-( A friend convinced me (after a year of talking to me) to try Shakeology and working out! Good nutrition totally changed my health and my life...
    ladymaverick31 ladymaverick31 31-35, F 9 Responses Aug 21

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    How can I go from being

    so sensitive to being emotionally numb? I am the person who used to be worried about each test at school and every tiny thing in the world. But now. It's gone. I no longer care. I've become numb, I have no feelings no emotions. I don't like this. What makes a person transform...
    bar206 bar206 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I Am Me~

    No, I am not the person that I used to be. My values have shifted; my needs and desires have totally shifted. If you knew me well thirty years ago, I think you would find me a stranger to your eyes today. I have experienced certain significant emotional events that have changed...
    hillbillycrone hillbillycrone 56-60, F 5 Responses May 17, 2012

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    I'm Brooke. 16 years old.

    I used to be a straight A student, honour roll etc. I played hockey on three teams and took flying lessons when I could. I had a part time job and I was happy. I was bullied at school though and one day I snapped. I just started hitting the girl over and over. I got in...
    BrookeSandhurst BrookeSandhurst 16-17, F 7 Responses Jul 7

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    I refuse to stand down

    or give in. I will not let them control me or give me orders. I refuse to bow and I will not break. When everyone stands against me, I can stand alone. I rather stand up for what I believe even if it isn't right, it's nobodies desire or business but my own. I deserve happiness...
    Deadlynightshade5 Deadlynightshade5 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 30

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    This is all a true story.

    I am 16 years old and this is how my foot ****** started. My grandmas feet were always smelly and one day I was home alone in her house and I just couldn't help myself. I opened her cupboard and there they were, the beautiful well worn 2 year old slippers. She wore them every...
    darrenf10 darrenf10 18-21, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    tayloralesia tayloralesia 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 8

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    I am not....everything has changed.

    ...some for the good...some for the bad....and some are neither..... I am stronger in my voice....I am guarded with my heart...I don't believe everything I am told....and I know there is BAD in everyone..... I don't trust like I did....and I don't love like I did..... Cruel...
    ladyamelia ladyamelia 41-45, F 6 Responses Jul 11

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    Have you ever got sick of being soft to people?

    The way they treat you, the way they say things and probably mean it. Well I'm going through things like that. I've had enough of being soft to people. The mount of things I've done for the person, the mount of kindness I've done for this person. All she ever done was through it...
    SarahTheHunter SarahTheHunter 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 6

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    Well i can very well tell

    that I am not me because I have keep running from my loved ones who keep trying to help me but I keep pushing them away idk why I would trust in my freinds and myself that I can make it on my own but no I refuse the help and don't care bout me wen I should... And used to do...
    amoriette amoriette 18-21, F 9 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I want to take an overdose,

    right now. I've done it before, and I think I could do it right. But that isn't who I am anymore. I can't think about my own death without thinking about its impact on everyone around me. I'm not that person anymore. Suicide doesn't make your problems go away. It passes them on...
    Fionndom Fionndom 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 27

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    My journey hasn't been easy,

    but I'm still Standing Laughing Forgiving Loving Learning and Living I'm perfectly imperfect and unapologetically me!
    silverfox54 silverfox54 56-60, F 3 Responses Sep 11

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    After being broken several times.

    .. I find it hard to trust now adays.
    itsveee itsveee 13-15, F 9 Responses Aug 24

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    I don't know what happened to the person I used

    to be....I was quiet, shy...now not so much. But I also didn't used to have such anger. Didn't used to be so cynical. I miss the days when I still had hope.
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Nor am I the person I will be tomorrow.

    .. I think of the girl I was... I think I liked her, I think life was easier for her. But the mind plays cruel tricks. She was not that different from me. In the dark moments of reflection. We are still the same her and I. But yet I am ever changing, trying to find a skin...
    Author1980 Author1980 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 1

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    I was a pretty great guy before.

    ..........but now.............I kinda wish I was hit by that but when I was 8 and ran into the road to get my fallen hat. I'm kind of a monster now...........I have secrets I will never and can never tell people and I have gone from being this amazing guy with the brain power to...
    lostdream4 lostdream4 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Alright, so.. Recently I feel like I am sort of

    losing myself and I don't know why. Over the past 3 months or so I guess, I feel like I'm becoming more axious, more perfectionistic, insecure and paranoid. I feel like I am no longer in control of myself and my life. Like I'm legit paranoid about everything cause I'm afraid it...
    MissClueless MissClueless 16-17, F 7 Responses a week ago

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    Found this just nosing around the internet,

    thought it would be fun. boy has it been! started talking with a great woman , It's been so awesome. I'm just holding my breath on how long she will put up with me. I'd love to be her friend forever. they say nothing last's forever, ha! her memory will.
    flex69 flex69 51-55, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Looking back on who I was

    before we met makes me laugh honestly I never imagined me being the way I currently am it's actually quite fascinating thinking of the transformation it must be odd to think of how much you've influenced me even though it wouldn't be the first time you've done something of the...
    inquisitore inquisitore 16-17, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    A Reason To Change.........

    When i was a kid,my father would sit by my bed every night  before i went to sleep and he would say to me-"son if you dont wake up tomorrow,if it turns out that today is your last day on earth,would you be proud of what you have done in this life?..........cause if you are not...
    Borne Borne 22-25, M 10 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    Obviously you can't be the person

    that you used to be, we're constantly changing, even if for some people that just means naturally aging. I just broke up with my boyfriend, of 2 years, 2 months ago. I can't say I'm really upset about it either. A little lonely, but I actually feel better. I find myself...
    lilHuman lilHuman 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 24

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    October 20, 2013 was the day I changed

    for good. I used to like pop music that played on the radio all the time. Now I like heavy metal, rock, screamo, Brit-pop, and punk. Some examples are Gerard Way, formally from My Chemical Romance, he's a Brit-pop artist now.
    bandlovermcr bandlovermcr 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am actually trying to understand what others

    observe of me. I would usually take everything as an insult but sometimes you have to step back and analyze the situation. Just because you do something wrong, it doesn't make you a bad person. Understand what's being said, gain all the information you can from that person, and...
    TheSimpleButterfly TheSimpleButterfly 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My dad recently killed himself I I just want

    other people to know to Never go down this road it causes so Much heartache and sadness it's no Answer to anything
    ekins09 ekins09 26-30, M 10 Responses Jul 26

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    Just picture it, A eighteen year old girl

    living on her own, had a job at a very playful furniture store, had no rules or limitations. Gets hit by a car. After Two and a half months of sleep, you wake up and you can't do ****. I miss that girl from before, she was wanted. This girl, the woman now, is everyone's pity...
    perilousindenvers perilousindenvers 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    After being married for 17 years with 2

    beautiful children, my husband left. Mid life crisis I suppose. I suffered on an emotional roller coaster for a few years trying to figure out what was wrong. He was not a talker. Just avoided conflict and never knew how to communicate very well. It took lots of faith and...
    lrj519 lrj519 46-50, F 27 Responses Aug 27

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    My Long Journey

    During my marriage, I was so consumed with making sure that ALL of my husband's needs were met and that I did everything to help and support his efforts in being the man that he wanted to be and needed to be. I spent all my time focusing on him that I didn't realize how...
    Mahal1023 Mahal1023 46-50, F 31 Responses Nov 14, 2010

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    darrenf10 darrenf10 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    I used to be such a "social butterfly,

    " but it's like now, I've become so much more of an introvert. I hate doing presentations because I get so anxious about them. I've lost so much confidence, though I really am not sure why. I felt so alone last year and broke down. That was the first time I had cried in about 3...
    cheyenne416 cheyenne416 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 hr ago

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    darrls darrls 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 25

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    i was always happy and cheerful.

    ..but now im sad and i have been stuck in this rut forever now...people always tell me they dont know who i am anymore like they just dont like me anymore is there something wrong with me am i just stupid why dont you know me we knew each other ever since now your just gonna...
    ifeellikeamonster123 ifeellikeamonster123 13-15, F 6 Responses 5 days ago

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