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I Am Not the Person I Used to Be

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    Dallas Realizations

    I recently travelled to Dallas to meet some of my amazing ep friends. As seems to be the norm rather than the exception these days, my flights ran late and I ended up spending some time at George Bush International, in Houston, TX. Disembarking from the plane in Houston, I...
    PeachesGalore PeachesGalore 46-50, F 8 Responses Oct 8, 2012

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    My life was perfect till October 2004!

    My dad pass away due to a massive heart attack! That's when I realize my life been hitting rock bottom! Divorce in 2010 and I'm okay with it now since I've caught him cheating numerous of times! Moved back with my mom and siblings and working for them made my life even more...
    mddlestrn mddlestrn 31-35, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    It was today evening

    when my mother came to me and said that your behaviour towards father was very rude today. She said he loves you a lot and if you will behave like this then he will lose hope in you and start drinking again. I realised that I am changing. I realised I need to give his respect...
    emperorme emperorme 26-30, M 2 Responses Oct 12

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    My journey hasn't been easy,

    but I'm still Standing Laughing Forgiving Loving Learning and Living I'm perfectly imperfect and unapologetically me!
    silverfox54 silverfox54 56-60, F 3 Responses Sep 11

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    I'll be honest, I am depressed

    and an unhappy person, but when I think about how I was an a**hole only a few years ago, I am happy I changed my life. I lost my self trying to fit in in college. In high school I was a geek, and a late bloomer. So in college I took advantage and like a lot of people, to excess...
    Ozz210 Ozz210 26-30, M 6 Responses Oct 7

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    jovanite jovanite 13-15, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I used to say that the one thing

    that I couldn't live without was memories. I held them close for warmth, I hid behind them instead of facing forward, I used them as justifications for my actions, reasons to do as I have always done. Now I wish I could forget as if I was a newborn babe and life was still...
    fadedmind fadedmind 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 15

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    After being married for 17 years with 2

    beautiful children, my husband left. Mid life crisis I suppose. I suffered on an emotional roller coaster for a few years trying to figure out what was wrong. He was not a talker. Just avoided conflict and never knew how to communicate very well. It took lots of faith and...
    lrj519 lrj519 46-50, F 27 Responses Aug 27

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    I dated a girl who was the most amazing person

    I've ever known, she made me such a great person and now that I've lost her I've gone back to the same old terrible person I was before I was with her
    Visualoutlaw45 Visualoutlaw45 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 12

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    I need to be placed in rehab

    for road rage....please forgive me..I'm going to now tape my middle fingers to my index finger. đź’ś
    NotVibrant NotVibrant 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 12

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    A couple days ago, a friend of mine was telling

    me about 2 waitresses at a cafe he likes to go to. One of them is this super energetic young thing who takes "bubbly" to a whole other level - beyond anything that could be genuine (some people are naturally bubbly, but not THIS bubbly). the other one is a bit older and has a...
    SilverSearching SilverSearching 26-30, M 3 Responses Jun 15

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    I think everyone agree with

    that Pain changes people. Because without pain, you will never know how strong you are. Personally, I think positive people, who never felt any neglect and fear are the weakest of all, and people who suffers a lot, and sacrifice, will always have this higher self esteem.
    Manuala Manuala 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 23

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    Ignore how horrible I looked with my bleached

    hair in 2006. 2006- I would have been 9 which means I was really into all this nerdy stuff like comic books and friggen pokemon and wwe trading cards. I was a huge loser back then. I was like in the popular group but not really considered popular because I was so weird. I...
    LandonS LandonS 16-17, M 5 Responses Oct 13

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    I'm so glad, Im stronger

    and more self confident and I can look at my self in the mirror again and not want to look away ashamed at myself. I'm slowly improving as each day passes :)
    tigersfan195 tigersfan195 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I used to be outgoing

    and carefree. But I hid my insecurities,denied my problems, and pushed my main issues aside. Now that I'm older, I'm dealing with everything I ignored. Everything I had is now lost. I'm no longer the outgoing person I once was. It takes all I have in me to step out among people...
    kc07 kc07 36-40, F 7 Responses Sep 28

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    Sometimes I wish I wasn't

    so damaged so I could see things in a different light.
    whatsthepointt whatsthepointt 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 8

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    I am a 13 year old girl in Australia.

    I know my friends don't wanna hear this and neither do my family. I have nowhere to go and I honestly find it easier to talk about this stuff through social media. For no specific reason, I hate my life. Every morning seems like a burden for me. I am actually quite good at...
    leilaellaz leilaellaz 13-15, F 7 Responses 6 days ago

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    How Times Have Changed

    Back in 1995, when I got my divorce I was lonely, scared, and exhilarated all at once living in rural Vermont...but trusting in God, I found my true calling as a screenplay writer...on my own, the Heavens parted and I was rewarded, by faith alone, a soul sister who guided me down...
    starryknight1999 starryknight1999 41-45, M 17 Responses Feb 9, 2012

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    I used to be a druggie,

    a sex addict, and didn't care about God. Within the past year, I've found God again and life is amazing!!
    drummerchic4Christ drummerchic4Christ 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31

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    I was out of shape, had really low immunity,

    and was suffering chronic joint & muscle pain for a couple of years. It sucked. Doctors just kept telling me it was all in my head. :-( A friend convinced me (after a year of talking to me) to try Shakeology and working out! Good nutrition totally changed my health and my life...
    ladymaverick31 ladymaverick31 31-35, F 11 Responses Aug 21

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    Obviously you can't be the person

    that you used to be, we're constantly changing, even if for some people that just means naturally aging. I just broke up with my boyfriend, of 2 years, 2 months ago. I can't say I'm really upset about it either. A little lonely, but I actually feel better. I find myself...
    lilHuman lilHuman 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 24

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    I feel amazing right

    now I used to be depressed and have loads of problems now I feel like I have come out as a better person!
    Morg28 Morg28 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 3

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    I recently deleted my Grindr account.

    I love sex, but random hook-ups just don’t cut it anymore. Intimacy is the real deal.
    invertedgod invertedgod 26-30, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    Ever since I started my first serious

    relationship a few months ago I'm a nervous wreck! I worry constantly and need constant reassurance that my girlfriend hasn't randomly started hating me for no reason!
    Turtleisland97 Turtleisland97 16-17, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    I Am Me~

    No, I am not the person that I used to be. My values have shifted; my needs and desires have totally shifted. If you knew me well thirty years ago, I think you would find me a stranger to your eyes today. I have experienced certain significant emotional events that have changed...
    hillbillycrone hillbillycrone 56-60, F 5 Responses May 17, 2012

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    But thank god, i changed!

    My cousins and everyone used to call me ugly and i believed them but i changed, i don't care anymore ;)
    mahdiraza mahdiraza 16-17, M 3 days ago

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    Two years ago I would never guess how happy

    and how much further along in life I would be. I'm glad that I've moved on from my past.
    Woods93 Woods93 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    While I can admire and believe in men such

    as Gandhi and Dr. King; I have come to realize through my various experiences that sometimes, some people, are better off dealt with using the sharp end of the stick.
    Cautiouslyr3ckless Cautiouslyr3ckless 41-45, M 3 Responses Oct 8

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    I'm Brooke. 16 years old.

    I used to be a straight A student, honour roll etc. I played hockey on three teams and took flying lessons when I could. I had a part time job and I was happy. I was bullied at school though and one day I snapped. I just started hitting the girl over and over. I got in...
    BrookeSandhurst BrookeSandhurst 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 7

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    tayloralesia tayloralesia 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 8

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    After being broken several times.

    .. I find it hard to trust now adays.
    itsveee itsveee 16-17, F 9 Responses Aug 24

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    I keep all this pain inside myself.

    I grasp my anger and loneliness hold it in my chest. It has changed me into something I never meant to be. It has transformed me into a person I do not recognize, but I don't know how to let it go.
    secretdestiny secretdestiny 18-21, F 14 Responses Sep 23

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    I remember the feeling of wanting something

    so badly it's like you're starving. I don't feel it anymore. I miss it.
    ayeshaketchum ayeshaketchum 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    Nor am I the person I will be tomorrow.

    .. I think of the girl I was... I think I liked her, I think life was easier for her. But the mind plays cruel tricks. She was not that different from me. In the dark moments of reflection. We are still the same her and I. But yet I am ever changing, trying to find a skin...
    Author1980 Author1980 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 1

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    I am a male, 15 years of age,

    but don't feel the way I look. Everyday I'm laughed at by others for this, everyday I get called down but when I look to the girls, I always smile, they are always so happy and don't care what you do, as long as you are being yourself. All the time I wish I too could wear...
    FreyaFright FreyaFright 13-15, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I use to be such an extrovert I use to be

    so passionate, outgoing, adventurous, sociable & to an extent crazy. I suffered a lot in the past year from many things but my sensitivity increased extremely & I became insecure, sensitive and paranoid believing that everyone was judging me. I miss how I didn't care and just...
    mia90333 mia90333 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 13

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    Well i can very well tell

    that I am not me because I have keep running from my loved ones who keep trying to help me but I keep pushing them away idk why I would trust in my freinds and myself that I can make it on my own but no I refuse the help and don't care bout me wen I should... And used to do...
    amoriette amoriette 18-21, F 10 Responses Sep 19

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    I refuse to stand down

    or give in. I will not let them control me or give me orders. I refuse to bow and I will not break. When everyone stands against me, I can stand alone. I rather stand up for what I believe even if it isn't right, it's nobodies desire or business but my own. I deserve happiness...
    Deadlynightshade5 Deadlynightshade5 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 30

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    My Long Journey

    During my marriage, I was so consumed with making sure that ALL of my husband's needs were met and that I did everything to help and support his efforts in being the man that he wanted to be and needed to be. I spent all my time focusing on him that I didn't realize how...
    Mahal1023 Mahal1023 46-50, F 31 Responses Nov 14, 2010

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    I used to be super talkative

    and made friends easily I was confident and sure of myself i didn't let anyone get to me but over the last couple of years things have changed I'm now very sensitive and emotional i lost all my friends and I find it hard to relate to people my age I'm always alone even when I'm...
    flightofthenavigator flightofthenavigator 16-17, F 6 Responses Oct 8

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    Surgery changed my life in a bad way.

    I had a thyroidectomy and para thyroidectomy 3 years ago. Taking the usual calcium, vitamin d and thyroxine for life. Because it is a rare condition and not something physical I have experienced a lot of doubt with family, friends and work. Today I find out from my...
    katrinad36 katrinad36 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 8

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    I am not....everything has changed.

    ...some for the good...some for the bad....and some are neither..... I am stronger in my voice....I am guarded with my heart...I don't believe everything I am told....and I know there is BAD in everyone..... I don't trust like I did....and I don't love like I did..... Cruel...
    ladyamelia ladyamelia 41-45, F 6 Responses Jul 11

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    H3lloK1tty H3lloK1tty 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    A Reason To Change.........

    When i was a kid,my father would sit by my bed every night  before i went to sleep and he would say to me-"son if you dont wake up tomorrow,if it turns out that today is your last day on earth,would you be proud of what you have done in this life?..........cause if you are not...
    Borne Borne 22-25, M 10 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    As i get older i really start to hate people

    more and more, i have never been a people person, a bad violent and abusive relationship changed me for the better or worse im really not sure
    ExtremeNext ExtremeNext 26-30, F 16 Responses Aug 27

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    I remember when I was younger,

    I used to be a normal kid, always having fun, but then September 13th, 2010 came around, as a male I wore a dress as a first time ever, but ever since then, I've been wanting constantly to be treated as a girl, to wear dresses and skirts and everything as much as I can, but I...
    FreyaFright FreyaFright 13-15, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Was in a relationship

    for 6 years, been lot of it for 7 months and I've never been more depressed in my whole life. I feel incredibly alone
    LazyBrainz LazyBrainz 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 12

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    I am not the person I used to be.

    I survived his grasp. I broke free of his psychological hold. I crawled out of the depths of hell on my hands and knees not knowing where to go, and I broke free. I am not the person I used to be. I am better.
    Mm8335 Mm8335 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    I used to be open to people,

    tell them about my life. I used to laugh and love. I used to have friends and be in contact with them. I used to be full of life and be ashamed of everything. Now I don't open up to anyone. I can't remember the last time I really laughed. I only have a few friends with whom I'm...
    BlaBla01 BlaBla01 16-17, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    Sometimes it takes the right voice

    or the right words from that oh so right person to lift you back up :)
    TheMeBMini25 TheMeBMini25 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 11

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    After a while, I no longer give a ****.

    Yet they ask me why I'm different. Ask yourself that question.
    GoldenJen8 GoldenJen8 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    i keep so much pain inside myself ,

    i grasp my anger and loneliness holding it in my chest. it has change me into something i never meant to be .. i don't recognize ME ... i don't know how to forgive myself :( please i need your advice :,(
    brokenheartandlife brokenheartandlife 26-30, F 6 Responses Oct 13

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    I lost my husband 5 months ago.

    I feel so lost and alone. But I have to keep moving forward. I miss him so much :(
    hanhphan86 hanhphan86 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 27

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