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I Am Not the Person I Used to Be

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    As a kid, I never could've ever imagined I

    would have gone through what I've gone through. Especially at such a young age. I've dealt with alcoholism, drugs, suicide attempts, brain tumors, bullying, etc. I've never personally had to overcome these addictions/conditions myself except for bullying. However people whom I...
    EleanorSmithson EleanorSmithson 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 13

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    XxFuckYouxX XxFuckYouxX 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 20, 2014

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    Signing up for this app is an experience within

    itself. Let's see what happens. Friend me on here!
    scottieboy90 scottieboy90 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 22

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    The stars look a little duller

    and I've forgotten the look of the sky. I can't recall my last sunset, I don't know why I even try. It's been a while and I can't remember the month. I measure my time in the school seat changes and the people by which I rush. I forget the hallways I've wondered for a year. I...
    yourwhiterose yourwhiterose 13-15, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    A silhouette cannot exist in the dark.

    A shadow is not free to roam without the sun.My love for you must stay in the dark.You are the one I love and without you I have no sun.So I watch you from a distance. Sitting here in the dark waiting for my sun to shine again.
    MaskedOne MaskedOne 41-45, F 5 Responses Feb 24

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    Respect yourself enough to walk away from

    anything that no longer serves you, grows you, or makes you happy.
    BlackWidowBaby BlackWidowBaby 41-45, F 5 Responses Dec 11, 2014

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    gentlyyours707 gentlyyours707 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 28, 2014

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    The simplicity and narrowness of the minds of

    the people that surround me is sickening.
    Xplictt Xplictt 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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    "A man who views the world the same at fifty

    as he did at twenty has wasted thirty years of his life" - Muhammad Ali
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    I used to be so happy.

    Now I'm just angry all the time.
    BlackBuddafly88 BlackBuddafly88 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    How Times Have Changed

    Back in 1995, when I got my divorce I was lonely, scared, and exhilarated all at once living in rural Vermont...but trusting in God, I found my true calling as a screenplay writer...on my own, the Heavens parted and I was rewarded, by faith alone, a soul sister who guided me down...
    starryknight1999 starryknight1999 46-50, M 17 Responses Feb 9, 2012

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    I used to be happy. And I used to be at a

    normal weight of about 140lbs. And I had a lot of friends and I was motivated. But now I'm depressed and exhausted and I weigh 300lbs and I feel hopeless. And the sad part is I never even got to enjoy myself at 140lbs because I still saw nothing but fat in the mirror. Now I...
    Thatonegreyeyedgirl Thatonegreyeyedgirl 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 19

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    Today marks 123 days of sobriety

    for me! I thought this would be a fun day to celebrate just because the numbers line up. Haha.
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    necxo necxo 18-21, T 1 Response Aug 5, 2014

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    I was so open and trusting all the time.

    Those are not good traits to have especially online.
    redvelvetfairyx redvelvetfairyx 41-45, F 8 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    Loosing you was the second best thing to happen

    to me. Letting you go was the first.
    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2014

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    A Reason To Change.........

    When i was a kid,my father would sit by my bed every night  before i went to sleep and he would say to me-"son if you dont wake up tomorrow,if it turns out that today is your last day on earth,would you be proud of what you have done in this life?..........cause if you are not...
    Borne Borne 22-25, M 10 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    You give and you give

    and they take. All they do is take. You put everything you are into something they don't even care about. You hope that one day they'll change their mind but they don't care about you the way you care about them. And this has happened what once? Twice? Too many times to count...
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F 4 Responses Dec 19, 2014

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    I've changed quite a bit.

    I have grown and I feel better about myself than I used to.
    EmptyAgain EmptyAgain 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    My dad recently killed himself I I just want

    other people to know to Never go down this road it causes so Much heartache and sadness it's no Answer to anything
    ekins09 ekins09 26-30, M 10 Responses Jul 26, 2014

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    I've changed so much throughout the years of my

    youth, my behavior, my personality, my emotional nature and my likes and I suppose I could say my dislikes too
    Nightdude55 Nightdude55 18-21, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    For the vast majority of my life I was full of

    hate and anger, it took me to the brink of self destruction. I found peace. I found out the root of it all. And in the end I found that I can be a beautiful person that others like.
    CDragontamer CDragontamer 31-35, T Feb 17

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    The person I was one is gone.

    .. the hunter is gone.... the liar is gone... that part of my life has been gone for several years but it always hunts me.. it wants to be a part of me but I will not let it.
    SummerMacabre SummerMacabre 18-21, M Feb 15

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    I'm older,wiser,not as naive.

    Life can make one very thick skinned and much tougher,when it knocks you down over and over again. So I live one day at a time,expecting nothing,yet I will survive through it all,to live better days...
    AfanOfbigNaturals AfanOfbigNaturals 41-45, M 2 Responses Feb 20

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    i'm crazier and more daring.

    i never thought the little me would grow up to become this. when i was a kid i was a little impulsive and "dangerous" but i thought it vanished when i became a teenage. but it came back even worse. i hate it.
    SabiDarrio SabiDarrio 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 21

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    Today is 6 months, aka 184 days,

    since I stood up, took control of my life, and got sober from my drug addiction!
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 10 Responses Jan 20

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    I used to be a isolated co dependent selfish

    and other defects in the severe aspects. today's I am apart of kind supportive and others. I learned this through a 12 step program for addicts.
    bgirl1978 bgirl1978 36-40, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    societykillss societykillss 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 20

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    I think everyone agree with

    that Pain changes people. Because without pain, you will never know how strong you are. Personally, I think positive people, who never felt any neglect and fear are the weakest of all, and people who suffers a lot, and sacrifice, will always have this higher self esteem.
    Manuala Manuala 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 23, 2014

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    I'm a bi girl, still in the closet.

    I have a crush on my female teacher and I'm in love with my best friend. I'm selfharm because of all of this and I just want someone to talk to? Anyone? x
    katemicheal katemicheal 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    finally divorcing my husband was the best thing

    that I ever did. I still sometimes cry and get scared, and I am a little crazy still but I am getting better. I feel more beautiful and happy and safe than ever before!
    VanValentina VanValentina 36-40, F 12 Responses Oct 13, 2014

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    I'm really not the person I used to be.

    . I used to be naive.. I used to be shy and quiet.. Now? Not anymore.. I used to keep everything for myself, my thoughts, opinions etc.. Now? I don't do that anymore.. I used to change myself so other would like me. Now? Not anymore.. I finally understood, if they like me...
    Fofitupida Fofitupida 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 27, 2014

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    As i get older i really start to hate people

    more and more, i have never been a people person, a bad violent and abusive relationship changed me for the better or worse im really not sure
    ExtremeNext ExtremeNext 26-30, F 17 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    I don't miss who I used to be

    and I won't miss who I am now
    degavsser degavsser 18-21, F Feb 18

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    Ever since I got cheated I can't stand

    when people look at me bc I assume their noticing my flaws. My self esteem was never low before but now it's been so hard to hold my head up high. I've noticed I've become heartless as well and that's bc I don't ever wanna let anyone in again.
    gkaren gkaren 18-21, F 7 Responses 3 days ago

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    Not the old pathetic me anymore

    who was trying hard to fit in before. Not the one who was craving for love, acceptance, understanding and friendship I have learned to love and value myself first before others ☺️
    imsoflhai imsoflhai 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    Many people in my life just don't interest me

    anymore. I care for them, but I'm tired of them. I'm tired of dealing with people that don't get me the way that I hope for. It's annoying. It's tough. Im tired. I'm just so tired of it all.
    tabbi123 tabbi123 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 7

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    People tend to come and go.

    Some people stay. Some tend to change you in ways you never imagined. Or maybe you didn't really change.....maybe they simply exposed a different side of you that you didn't know was there. Maybe it's for the better or for the worse, but either way it's undeniable. You're just...
    tabbi123 tabbi123 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    I don't know what changed.

    Maybe i started realizing that everybody have those moment where they just fall apart.. Where they're not the same person! It's ok if people know that you're not feeling well! Jessie j said in one of her songs "it's ok not to be ok 😊"
    victorious25 victorious25 22-25, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Where I come from, the better you are at

    academics, the university you go to, what you study and where puts you at a certain level in society. This mindset is deeply engraved in my parents. I was the last child and only daughter. I did academically better than my brothers, seemed to be the brightest in the family and...
    swimswithcrocs swimswithcrocs 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 14

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    lilbiatch lilbiatch 16-17, F Feb 18

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    I've never been able to laugh at myself till

    now. Realizing that I am human and I bleed just like every else helped me come to terms with myself. I'm no different from the person next to me; we just have varying values, experiences and dreams. I can agree on my flaws and show my strengths. Now I much learn how to walk...
    Maihowl Maihowl 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Tomorrow would have been one year.

    . I miss him, but guess that's part of healing. So tired of feeling this way, but I'm somewhat hopefully happiness will come. With all these failed relationships, broken attachments, I'm not the person I use to be... I have lost my passion and zest for life. everyone that came...
    Storyteller29 Storyteller29 22-25, F 4 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    My Long Journey

    During my marriage, I was so consumed with making sure that ALL of my husband's needs were met and that I did everything to help and support his efforts in being the man that he wanted to be and needed to be. I spent all my time focusing on him that I didn't realize how...
    Mahal1023 Mahal1023 46-50, F 30 Responses Nov 14, 2010

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    Psychiatric meds and car wrecks

    and lust can change a person.
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 8 hrs ago

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    My mother is helping me find myself again.

    She stayed up with me all night explaining to me methods to get over being lost. She reminded me that I was born with an inner strength that will always be there for me. She just gave me hope that I can become a whole person again if I put the effort into it. She gave me classic...
    BunniesCry BunniesCry 31-35, F 8 Responses Nov 10, 2014

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    Nor am I the person I will be tomorrow.

    .. I think of the girl I was... I think I liked her, I think life was easier for her. But the mind plays cruel tricks. She was not that different from me. In the dark moments of reflection. We are still the same her and I. But yet I am ever changing, trying to find a skin...
    Author1980 Author1980 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 1, 2014

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