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I Am Not the Person I Used to Be

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    you can beat me down,

    break my heart, make me bleed out. but i will not fall. during the first 2 months of 2015 the most beautiful girl i know broke my heart. yes ill admit i self harmed but i had other issues then too. as i slowly spiralled to depression and got worse and worse i found hope in an...
    twoinnerwolves twoinnerwolves 16-17, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    But in a good way! I found the courage to change

    for the better, improve on myself, love myself. I'm not ashamed of who I used to be. My experiences have made me into the strong person I am today. It was difficult but I've left the past behind. My true self is now ready to come out and start living life!
    Lotusflower80 Lotusflower80 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 17

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    thedevilsfavouritedemon thedevilsfavouritedemon 41-45, M 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I'm not the person I used to be ever

    since you went away I feel like I'm barely hanging on From day to day The emotional pain is so strong, the anger is intense I could really use you right now Yet I sit here and think about how different life is since you passed away I am not the same person I was before...
    kshine27 kshine27 26-30, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    gentlyyours707 gentlyyours707 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 28, 2014

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    Hi ! My first semester back in school is

    ending. I want to thank my Dad and Mom for taking their rebellious daughter back under their authority and roof. Thank you for bringing Discipline and Love back into my life. I also want to thank all my EP friends who are helping advise, discipline, encourage, and express my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses May 5

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    My mother is helping me find myself again.

    She stayed up with me all night explaining to me methods to get over being lost. She reminded me that I was born with an inner strength that will always be there for me. She just gave me hope that I can become a whole person again if I put the effort into it. She gave me classic...
    BunniesCry BunniesCry 31-35, F 8 Responses Nov 10, 2014

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    Many people in my life just don't interest me

    anymore. I care for them, but I'm tired of them. I'm tired of dealing with people that don't get me the way that I hope for. It's annoying. It's tough. Im tired. I'm just so tired of it all.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jan 7

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    Sitting next to the reservoir watching the wind

    make ripples on the algae green water; the trees branches along the waters edge tend to grow downwards to the water instead of up to the sky like they want to dip in, and they do! theres a strong breeze it tries to pull my clothes along with it and i watch and wonder at this...
    iknowyouloveme iknowyouloveme 36-40, F 4 Responses Aug 21

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    I really don't know what I have become.

    .. I was looking for true love, and how this girl came... and cracked my conscience. I don't understand what She wants from me exactly, but I understand this much.. that she wants me every night, when her spouse is away, and family is sleeping.. I have been banging her since many...
    Tpax Tpax 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 17

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    I don't really know what happened to me.

    I use to be extra cheerful , very bubbly, very religious, thankful for each and every little thing in my life, but now it is all different. I want it to go back to how it was. I don't know how
    Lucylubbsgolda Lucylubbsgolda 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    finally divorcing my husband was the best thing

    that I ever did. I still sometimes cry and get scared, and I am a little crazy still but I am getting better. I feel more beautiful and happy and safe than ever before!
    VanValentina VanValentina 36-40, F 13 Responses Oct 13, 2014

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    I am definitely a different person

    than I used to be. I've survived a narcissistic, drug addicted mother, drug addicted father, death of spouse, single parenting. I am currently pregnant again at age 38. Yep, definitely different.
    Tenanye Tenanye 36-40, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    After being married for 17 years with 2

    beautiful children, my husband left. Mid life crisis I suppose. I suffered on an emotional roller coaster for a few years trying to figure out what was wrong. He was not a talker. Just avoided conflict and never knew how to communicate very well. It took lots of faith and...
    lrj519 lrj519 46-50, F 24 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    Respect yourself enough to walk away from

    anything that no longer serves you, grows you, or makes you happy.
    BlackWidowBaby BlackWidowBaby 41-45, F 5 Responses Dec 11, 2014

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    on July 1st I weighed 460lbs.

    today, Aug 29, 2015 I weigh 270 lbs. I am happy
    Sadjak Sadjak 51-55, M 8 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    How any times during my life do I have to

    become a different me until I don't know who I am anymore? All I know now that I am able to say say about me, "I am" but how many of my "I am's" am I and why I am not just one "I am" once? And am I who I am really me now? Just because I can say, "I am" now, does that mean...
    MyLady9 MyLady9 46-50, F 10 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    We are all meant for something : protecting,

    destroying, acting, loving. Only you may find that purpose and choose to follow it.
    DBrutis DBrutis 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 21

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    I am the sum of all my experiences,

    some go back to my early childhood,others much more recent.
    michael60t michael60t 61-65, M 1 Response a week ago

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    As i get older i really start to hate people

    more and more, i have never been a people person, a bad violent and abusive relationship changed me for the better or worse im really not sure
    ExtremeNext ExtremeNext 26-30, F 16 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    How patient can you expect another to be?

    How much **** is too much? How self centered is too self centered? I'm not sure what the answered are- But I know what the questions are... I know you, I know me, I know I'm nearing uncertainty. I used to know, I used to believe, I used to wait so patiently, I used to try, I...
    loveCT loveCT 41-45, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    But I am the person who I am meant to be.

    And I kinda like who I have become.
    Mrskatearch Mrskatearch 31-35, F 5 Responses Aug 18

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    so much pain ....so many disappointments.

    ... but through it all I am stronger, and know better than to let it happen again but I still stumble, I still falll
    speir3 speir3 22-25, M a week ago

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    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Aug 18

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    EP has corrupted me! Lol I am thankful

    for the experience though, have learned a lot and met many awesome ppl along the way... Even some really special friends to share some of life's ups and downs with... Who actually can relate and understand. It's been well worth it! I feel blessed to have had this experience! It...
    CuriousCutiePie CuriousCutiePie 36-40, F 11 Responses Jul 7

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    How Times Have Changed

    Back in 1995, when I got my divorce I was lonely, scared, and exhilarated all at once living in rural Vermont...but trusting in God, I found my true calling as a screenplay writer...on my own, the Heavens parted and I was rewarded, by faith alone, a soul sister who guided me down...
    starryknight1999 starryknight1999 46-50 16 Responses Feb 9, 2012

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    Moving anymore is arduous.

    Every muscle, every joint groans complaining on the attempts in getting out of bed. My morale has abandoned ship as I sit on the side while the alarm sounds angrily. Hastily I silence the villain that awoken me from my slumber and curse the afternoon sun that brightens my room...
    FightingPhoenix FightingPhoenix 46-50, M 6 Responses May 22

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    You don't deserve me.

    After you cheated I started to know myself and become independent. You don't know me anymore I'm not the same person bc you taught me how to face the real world. Never to trust, have confidence, nor think that someone truly cares . You don't deserve me, but I hope you're doing...
    gkaren gkaren 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    I am trying to pick up the pieces

    after splitting from my ex who is an abusive narcassistic sociopath .. I'm struggling to be the happy confident person I was before I met him.. I moved away from my family and bought a cottage to be with him but he was never happy eventually I had to get him out. he put me down...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I used to be super shy

    when i was younger but then i realized its better to be said then never hear so i am the most outgoing out of my friends now and i plan to stay that way.
    AnythingButLucky AnythingButLucky 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I think everyone agree with

    that Pain changes people. Because without pain, you will never know how strong you are. Personally, I think positive people, who never felt any neglect and fear are the weakest of all, and people who suffers a lot, and sacrifice, will always have this higher self esteem.
    Manuala Manuala 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 23, 2014

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    I care much much more about others feelings

    which made me totally forget about mine
    sedna123 sedna123 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 18

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    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 15 Responses Oct 30, 2014

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    I was beautiful, successful

    and confident. But making one big mistake changed my whole life.
    Gloriaboszaman Gloriaboszaman 26-30, F 6 Responses Aug 19

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    I am SO sick of being silenced!

    And made to feel like my opinions don't matter
    bearinmind bearinmind 36-40, F 8 Responses May 4

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    My journey hasn't been easy,

    but I'm still Standing Laughing Forgiving Loving Learning and Living I'm perfectly imperfect and unapologetically me!
    silverfox54 silverfox54 61-65, F 3 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    I used to so innocent,

    kind and trusting! Not anymore! Thanks to some a-holes!
    PsychMarshmallow PsychMarshmallow 26-30, F 10 Responses Aug 17

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    Today marks 123 days of sobriety

    for me! I thought this would be a fun day to celebrate just because the numbers line up. Haha.
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F Nov 22, 2014

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    You give and you give

    and they take. All they do is take. You put everything you are into something they don't even care about. You hope that one day they'll change their mind but they don't care about you the way you care about them. And this has happened what once? Twice? Too many times to count...
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F 3 Responses Dec 19, 2014

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    I'm really not the person I used to be.

    . I used to be naive.. I used to be shy and quiet.. Now? Not anymore.. I used to keep everything for myself, my thoughts, opinions etc.. Now? I don't do that anymore.. I used to change myself so other would like me. Now? Not anymore.. I finally understood, if they like me...
    Fofitupida Fofitupida 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 27, 2014

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    I used to be so open,

    innocent, happy, confident, lively and had a good self esteem. Ever since I started high school two years ago, it's changed me. I now have very little self esteem (apparently- that's what my counsellor keeps telling my mum) I'm not as confident, and oh has my innocence be long...
    taytay1401 taytay1401 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I can't even dance now!

    I'm so sick and sore from being sick I'm losing flexibility and motivation! I can't even do anything active without getting tired! I finally made it onto the dance team and I was in a movie but now I can't do anything!
    Brooke6813 Brooke6813 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    five years ago I left an extremely abusive,

    unhealthy relationship. I paid alimony to him for five years and very recently paid my last payment. I'm not that woman anymore. I am strong, happy,content, secure, and successful. I made it through the darkest part of the night, and now the sun is rising and I am ready to...
    surgchic surgchic 46-50, F 14 Responses Apr 21

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    Not the old pathetic me anymore

    who was trying hard to fit in before. Not the one who was craving for love, acceptance, understanding and friendship I have learned to love and value myself first before others ☺️
    imsoflhai imsoflhai 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    When I was 20 I thought I knew everything.

    Then when I was 30, I realised I knew nothing. Now I'm in my forties I'm starting to know one or two things LOL
    7lulu 7lulu 41-45, F 8 Responses Jul 20

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