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I Am Not the Person I Used to Be

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    ronnkron ronnkron 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 12

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    Respect yourself enough to walk away from

    anything that no longer serves you, grows you, or makes you happy.
    BlackWidowBaby BlackWidowBaby 41-45, F 6 Responses Dec 11

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    As a youth I was naïve,

    but I lost that young man in the tall grass of Viet Nam. I use to oppose prostitution, until I saw women that engaged in prostitution to survive and care for her family. I use to oppose mercy killing, until I watch many people die a slow painful death. I use to believe...
    Jones47 Jones47 61-65, M 1 Response Dec 7

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    Life seems so awful. Its

    so awful when you don't have anyone that cares for you. I desperately need to know it will be alright. I am so scared of life these days. How do people keep going. When will i find someone who wants to stay by my side
    Johnnyrotten1 Johnnyrotten1 31-35, M 9 Responses Dec 11

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    I used to be... 1. A bully.

    2. Depressed and wanted to die. 3. Extremely introverted. 4. Envious. Now I'm.. 1. Kind. 2. Joyful. 3. More talkative. 4. Happy with who I am/ where I'm at in life.
    astrokitty4341 astrokitty4341 22-25, F 7 Responses Nov 13

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    I don't have patience

    for nonsense anymore. What I mean is I will not let anyone get underneath my skin about anything...well...I will do everything in my will not to. Also, Communication is everything. THE END
    TheMeBMini25 TheMeBMini25 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 12

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    Truth is, I don't even know

    who I am anymore. I used to be the shy quiet wallflower. Then I slowly came out of that shell and became someone different. Now I'm a girl who dies her hair, has a nose ring, wears mostly black and combat boots and wants a couple tattoos. I just don't know anymore, especially...
    BeYou321 BeYou321 13-15, F 4 Responses Dec 11

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    You know what? Yes, I've changed.

    I'm not as nice as I used to be, because I don't want to get used or walked over. I don't trust everyone and tell them my secrets, because behind every fake smile there's a backstabber. I distance myself from people because in the end, they're only going to leave. I have changed...
    JustSomeTeenagerr JustSomeTeenagerr 13-15, F 6 Responses Nov 16

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    You may mess up, but you are not a mess up.

    You may make a mistake, but you are not a mistake. You may screw up, but you are not a screw up. You may fail, but you are not a failure. You are not defined by your weaknesses You are not the only one who has missed the shot Or the...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    kangaroo02 kangaroo02 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 12

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    Today marks 123 days of sobriety

    for me! I thought this would be a fun day to celebrate just because the numbers line up. Haha.
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 22

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    I used to be to happy,

    problem free, nice, and sweet. Now im the opposite of that, but now with even more problems. funny how everything can change within a blink of an eye.
    EmoAngelOfLight EmoAngelOfLight 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    You give and you give

    and they take. All they do is take. You put everything you are into something they don't even care about. You hope that one day they'll change their mind but they don't care about you the way you care about them. And this has happened what once? Twice? Too many times to count...
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I think everyone agree with

    that Pain changes people. Because without pain, you will never know how strong you are. Personally, I think positive people, who never felt any neglect and fear are the weakest of all, and people who suffers a lot, and sacrifice, will always have this higher self esteem.
    Manuala Manuala 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 23

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    Who is this person staring at me through

    shattered glass?She is different than before.She is more accepting of others, even if it hurts her heart at times.Love has taken control and clouded her mind.It has pushed away the normal behaviors in her life.At one time a strong women who would stand up for what is hers, but...
    heartinbloom heartinbloom 46-50, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    My mother is helping me find myself again.

    She stayed up with me all night explaining to me methods to get over being lost. She reminded me that I was born with an inner strength that will always be there for me. She just gave me hope that I can become a whole person again if I put the effort into it. She gave me classic...
    BunniesCry BunniesCry 31-35, F 8 Responses Nov 10

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    Nor am I the person I will be tomorrow.

    .. I think of the girl I was... I think I liked her, I think life was easier for her. But the mind plays cruel tricks. She was not that different from me. In the dark moments of reflection. We are still the same her and I. But yet I am ever changing, trying to find a skin...
    Author1980 Author1980 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 1

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    seeing myself slowly turn into ***** .

    . knowing that there are no turning back .. but I can't help it .. I don't want to be the old weak me ..
    Jacque1994 Jacque1994 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 9

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    A couple days ago, a friend of mine was telling

    me about 2 waitresses at a cafe he likes to go to. One of them is this super energetic young thing who takes "bubbly" to a whole other level - beyond anything that could be genuine (some people are naturally bubbly, but not THIS bubbly). the other one is a bit older and has a...
    SilverSearching SilverSearching 26-30, M 3 Responses Jun 15

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    Loosing you was the second best thing to happen

    to me. Letting you go was the first.
    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 3

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    I would like to say that I used to be happy,

    laughing, enjoying life no matter what hardships I was dealing with at the time. I've since become fairly hardened. Not bitter, mind you, never that. But I've created a bullshit shield. I push people away, and those that I've let enter my circle are precious to me. That being...
    acidpixiedust acidpixiedust 36-40, F 6 Responses Dec 10

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    How Times Have Changed

    Back in 1995, when I got my divorce I was lonely, scared, and exhilarated all at once living in rural Vermont...but trusting in God, I found my true calling as a screenplay writer...on my own, the Heavens parted and I was rewarded, by faith alone, a soul sister who guided me down...
    starryknight1999 starryknight1999 46-50, M 17 Responses Feb 9, 2012

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    I got depression tablets

    and I haven't took em yet is dat good ???
    babel123456 babel123456 26-30, M 6 Responses Dec 13

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    Dallas Realizations

    I recently travelled to Dallas to meet some of my amazing ep friends. As seems to be the norm rather than the exception these days, my flights ran late and I ended up spending some time at George Bush International, in Houston, TX. Disembarking from the plane in Houston, I...
    PeachesGalore PeachesGalore 46-50, F 8 Responses Oct 8, 2012

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    Far from the person I used to be.

    Pain makes me feel alive. I'm falling into my own vortex and have issues to get out of it. One minute I'm OK Another I'm not Another I feel like screaming Another I feel like crying Another Im just emotionally frozen. I don't know why I'm actually feeling this way I hate...
    Ic3Queen Ic3Queen 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm in a relative new relationship I've known

    him for years but I was married there was always a spark, when I divorced we got together pretty quickly and things where pretty awesome, I was happy to just spend all my time with him, we moved in together and straight away my whole world changed I can't go see my friends no...
    billybaby5 billybaby5 31-35, F 5 Responses Dec 10

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    My journey hasn't been easy,

    but I'm still Standing Laughing Forgiving Loving Learning and Living I'm perfectly imperfect and unapologetically me!
    silverfox54 silverfox54 56-60, F 3 Responses Sep 11

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    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 20 Responses Oct 30

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    My Long Journey

    During my marriage, I was so consumed with making sure that ALL of my husband's needs were met and that I did everything to help and support his efforts in being the man that he wanted to be and needed to be. I spent all my time focusing on him that I didn't realize how...
    Mahal1023 Mahal1023 46-50, F 31 Responses Nov 14, 2010

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    After being married for 17 years with 2

    beautiful children, my husband left. Mid life crisis I suppose. I suffered on an emotional roller coaster for a few years trying to figure out what was wrong. He was not a talker. Just avoided conflict and never knew how to communicate very well. It took lots of faith and...
    lrj519 lrj519 46-50, F 26 Responses Aug 27

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    Well I seem to make everyone laugh.

    ..tho I seem to be the one who actually needs to laugh
    alannis3733 alannis3733 18-21, F a week ago

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    "The Money Tree" The forest of self-worth

    opens to a clearing once you meet the center. For me, it took many licks to get to the center of the universe. A constant learner and starved for attention, I thrived in the shadows of belonging to a man. The path lit up when he waltzed in. I decided to live for myself. I...
    JaneAusten8 JaneAusten8 46-50, F 3 Responses Dec 12

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    A Reason To Change.........

    When i was a kid,my father would sit by my bed every night  before i went to sleep and he would say to me-"son if you dont wake up tomorrow,if it turns out that today is your last day on earth,would you be proud of what you have done in this life?..........cause if you are not...
    Borne Borne 22-25, M 10 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    Looking back on my past,

    I wonder where did I go wrong. Was it the addictions, the ****** up feelings or was it just me, who I was then and who I am now. I can get over the fact that I've caused the damnation and pain, I've brought only doom and gloom. A part of me feels guilt and sadness for what I've...
    NightwolfBlackheart NightwolfBlackheart 26-30, M 7 Responses Dec 10

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    I lost my husband 5 months ago.

    I feel so lost and alone. But I have to keep moving forward. I miss him so much :(
    hanhphan86 hanhphan86 26-30, F 4 Responses Jul 27

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    Just quick update on me

    and my grandma. I have now moved on to f*cking her and now facialing her.
    darrenf10 darrenf10 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 12

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    Sometimes it takes the right voice

    or the right words from that oh so right person to lift you back up :)
    TheMeBMini25 TheMeBMini25 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 11

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    I used to be a druggie,

    a sex addict, and didn't care about God. Within the past year, I've found God again and life is amazing!!
    drummerchic4Christ drummerchic4Christ 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31

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    gentlyyours707 gentlyyours707 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 28

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    Really wish I could be the fun bubbly girl I

    once was, being grown up hurts a bit plus guys are so hard to find well nice ones anyways 😓
    crossbowantik crossbowantik 22-25, F Dec 9

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    Having you so close to my hurt is dangerous i

    better push you away before you can hurt me.
    BloodyVictim BloodyVictim 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    MusicJunkie6794 MusicJunkie6794 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 20

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    In all honesty, who is?

    If we were the same as we were, it means we haven't lived. Haven't experienced what life has to offer... the good, bad and extremely ugly.
    BrokenHeartedOlicityShipper BrokenHeartedOlicityShipper 70+, F Dec 9

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    After being basically unemployed

    for over 2 years (minus a bullshit 4 hour a week job) I just got hired today for a full time cashiering job at a store I love to shop at. ALSO I AM 97 DAYS SOBER. Life is ******* great right now. :) To everyone who has had a hard time or who is going through a hard time- keep...
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 27

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    TNDO95 TNDO95 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 10

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    I definitely am not the woman I

    once was and still trying to determine if that's good or bad. I'm not in denial anymore so my life is more real but sometimes wish I could un-know what I know!
    Cyndie67 Cyndie67 46-50, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I use to be this very shy antisocial guy

    who could not talk to any girl and always sat in the back of the bus had no friends always sat alone at lunch and I'm not writing about this to make you feel bad for me but to understand how much I've changed and now I talk to just about everyone and have a good amount of...
    PabloBoyyyy PabloBoyyyy 16-17, M 3 days ago

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    "A man who views the world the same at fifty

    as he did at twenty has wasted thirty years of his life" - Muhammad Ali
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 11

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    I'm really not the person I used to be.

    . I used to be naive.. I used to be shy and quiet.. Now? Not anymore.. I used to keep everything for myself, my thoughts, opinions etc.. Now? I don't do that anymore.. I used to change myself so other would like me. Now? Not anymore.. I finally understood, if they like me...
    Fofitupida Fofitupida 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 27

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    finally divorcing my husband was the best thing

    that I ever did. I still sometimes cry and get scared, and I am a little crazy still but I am getting better. I feel more beautiful and happy and safe than ever before!
    VanValentina VanValentina 36-40, F 12 Responses Oct 13

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    I can not find happiness,

    it looks for me but I reject it, been doing this for years, I don't understand it...
    rayraynah rayraynah 31-35, F a week ago

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