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I Am Not the Person I Used to Be

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    i don't know what's wrong with me.

    i use to be fit and healthy and a social butterfly, now i am just fat, lazy, always locked in my apt and failing school. i use to love school, i was a straight A student and now i am not. i dont like going, or studying. i've had a lot of aweful experiences and i swear i try not...
    justmeN22 justmeN22 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I used to want to have my own life

    and be a independant woman but now that I get older I know that I'm meant to serve a man and that im not supposed to make my own decisions anymore
    need2Bcontrolled83 need2Bcontrolled83 31-35, F 6 Responses Mar 15

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    After being basically unemployed

    for over 2 years (minus a bullshit 4 hour a week job) I just got hired today for a full time cashiering job at a store I love to shop at. ALSO I AM 97 DAYS SOBER. Life is ******* great right now. :) To everyone who has had a hard time or who is going through a hard time- keep...
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    Sometimes it takes the right voice

    or the right words from that oh so right person to lift you back up :)
    TheMeBMini25 TheMeBMini25 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 17 Responses Oct 30, 2014

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    My mother is helping me find myself again.

    She stayed up with me all night explaining to me methods to get over being lost. She reminded me that I was born with an inner strength that will always be there for me. She just gave me hope that I can become a whole person again if I put the effort into it. She gave me classic...
    BunniesCry BunniesCry 31-35, F 8 Responses Nov 10, 2014

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    I used to be a friendly

    and talkative person when I was at school. I have changed so much now, I can't recognise myself anymore, I don't like to talk anymore and don't fun on almost anything. ....
    kkisms kkisms 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I just want to be numb.

    .. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
    WonderingOfTheSoul WonderingOfTheSoul 18-21 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    It's amazing how things change.

    It was only a couple of years ago that i was the naive girl who trusted almost everybody, and never had to worry about who would break her heart next. Now i hardly trust anyone besides a select few, and push almost everyone away for fear of getting hurt. The only positive...
    DropsofJupiter1 DropsofJupiter1 18-21, F 8 Responses Mar 16

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    Nor am I the person I will be tomorrow.

    .. I think of the girl I was... I think I liked her, I think life was easier for her. But the mind plays cruel tricks. She was not that different from me. In the dark moments of reflection. We are still the same her and I. But yet I am ever changing, trying to find a skin...
    Author1980 Author1980 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 1, 2014

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    I've been on holiday with my Mum to India

    for 3 weeks which is something I have always wanted to do. I was amazed that we actually went. I got a new job in July and have been saving for Unnversity and holidays since. I originally planned to go alone but my parents wouldn't let me in the end. But everyone at my job...
    WonderingOfTheSoul WonderingOfTheSoul 18-21 5 days ago

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    Loosing you was the second best thing to happen

    to me. Letting you go was the first.
    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 3, 2014

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    I was so open and trusting all the time.

    Those are not good traits to have especially online.
    redvelvetfairyx redvelvetfairyx 41-45, F 8 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    I think as human beings we all evolve over time.

    We take stock of what works, what doesn't, and then we adjust. Right now I'm in a serious adjustment stage. I am releasing so many things that hold me back and embracing the people, places, and things that lift me up. And it feels so good.
    justliss justliss 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    "A man who views the world the same at fifty

    as he did at twenty has wasted thirty years of his life" - Muhammad Ali
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    Respect yourself enough to walk away from

    anything that no longer serves you, grows you, or makes you happy.
    BlackWidowBaby BlackWidowBaby 41-45, F 5 Responses Dec 11, 2014

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    My Long Journey

    During my marriage, I was so consumed with making sure that ALL of my husband's needs were met and that I did everything to help and support his efforts in being the man that he wanted to be and needed to be. I spent all my time focusing on him that I didn't realize how...
    Mahal1023 Mahal1023 41-45, F 30 Responses Nov 14, 2010

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    Today is 6 months, aka 184 days,

    since I stood up, took control of my life, and got sober from my drug addiction!
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 10 Responses Jan 20

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    I'm not who I use to be

    for sure... I want to get out of the rat race and leave everything.. Get off the grid... Want to find passion again, want to feel alive again. Anyone else feel this way. I have plenty of money-- so that's not an issue. Trying to figure out what is holding me back.
    dignan1717 dignan1717 36-40, M 1 Response Mar 14

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    Not the old pathetic me anymore

    who was trying hard to fit in before. Not the one who was craving for love, acceptance, understanding and friendship I have learned to love and value myself first before others ☺️
    imsoflhai imsoflhai 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    My journey hasn't been easy,

    but I'm still Standing Laughing Forgiving Loving Learning and Living I'm perfectly imperfect and unapologetically me!
    silverfox54 silverfox54 61-65, F 3 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    i'm forever going to be in love with my life no

    matter what happens. things might bring me down but dead trees still stand & so can I
    candyaddicted1997 candyaddicted1997 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    As i get older i really start to hate people

    more and more, i have never been a people person, a bad violent and abusive relationship changed me for the better or worse im really not sure
    ExtremeNext ExtremeNext 26-30, F 16 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    After you're allowed back the only thing left

    is your shadow self. I know because you think you can find her, and she's in the abyss. You to have been there differently, yet our energies are combined. You fancy saving her. I entertain your notion, for I know your destiny is far greater than your quest. You saw it in my eyes...
    Isis27 Isis27 36-40 Mar 14

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    I'm not too sure who I used to be,

    but I know who I am right now. I spent the first 39 years of my life trying to be who and what I thought people wanted me to be. Trying to be a person they would want and cherish. Putting everyone else before me. Now I am me, no more pretending, no more trying. I needed to be me...
    silvera73 silvera73 41-45, F 4 Responses Feb 3

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    Today marks 123 days of sobriety

    for me! I thought this would be a fun day to celebrate just because the numbers line up. Haha.
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    I feel like I'm drowning.

    just a few months ago I realized that I was alive, when I realized that I'm living I started to realize what a socially awkward person I've become, and I start thinking to myself "what happening around me right know, what happened to the old me, when did I stop smiling, when did...
    theweirdotako theweirdotako 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 15

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    Harper101 Harper101 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    After being married for 17 years with 2

    beautiful children, my husband left. Mid life crisis I suppose. I suffered on an emotional roller coaster for a few years trying to figure out what was wrong. He was not a talker. Just avoided conflict and never knew how to communicate very well. It took lots of faith and...
    lrj519 lrj519 46-50, F 25 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    I used to do the schoolwork homework study thing

    and then I realized I'll still pass and graduate so why bother so yes I'm pretty lazy
    GoldieLocksGrahamCrackers GoldieLocksGrahamCrackers 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    the person i use to be was a coward i would

    never stand up for myself not to amyone or anything i got cheated on lied to etc but now i stand up for everyrhing i stand up for myself and for what i believe in i put my head held high with a smile on my face and now i am in a good relationship who knows if he will cheat on me...
    angelwolf18 angelwolf18 16-17, F Mar 17

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    I think everyone agree with

    that Pain changes people. Because without pain, you will never know how strong you are. Personally, I think positive people, who never felt any neglect and fear are the weakest of all, and people who suffers a lot, and sacrifice, will always have this higher self esteem.
    Manuala Manuala 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 23, 2014

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    I used to be that innocent kid,

    who minded his business all the time and I guess it all started during my softmore year of high school. Alejandra was her name, I was pushed around like a doll taken advantage of... But I got tired of it just in time to find her flirting with some guy... Let's say his face wasn...
    Jonaaas Jonaaas 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 17

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    In 2005, I met someone

    that I was convinced had only existed in my head up until that point,so 3 months later we married. I lost her suddenly to PTSD in spring of 2012. I'm slowly trying to rebuild myself. I want to honor her memory by trying to keep the qualities in me she loved and jettisoning the...
    budo30 budo30 41-45, M 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    I used to be happy..

    but it was for all of the wrong reasons. I was mean, I did mean things that I knew were bad but for whatever reason I couldn't stop myself. I fell into bad habits because of a bad household. Then my father, my bestfriend and only person who understood me. passed away. I was only...
    oddvow oddvow 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I love him but I hate him too.

    I am losing my mind being with him but I know I will be lost without him. He makes me cry. He ignores me. And worst of all he does not care.
    bakedpotato2015 bakedpotato2015 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 19

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    My dad recently killed himself I I just want

    other people to know to Never go down this road it causes so Much heartache and sadness it's no Answer to anything
    ekins09 ekins09 26-30, M 10 Responses Jul 26, 2014

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    It was The Kid that saw too much

    that led to The Teen who was blind, which gave me the ability to block what I wanted from my all seeing eyes
    SkollHati SkollHati 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 17

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    Starting today I'm going to forget you.

    I'm going to forget the feelings i have for you. And i will stop showing care for you. I won't talk to you anymore. I will not worry about you since you don't want me to. Good bye.
    KarenDew KarenDew 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    You don't deserve me.

    After you cheated I started to know myself and become independent. You don't know me anymore I'm not the same person bc you taught me how to face the real world. Never to trust, have confidence, nor think that someone truly cares . You don't deserve me, but I hope you're doing...
    gkaren gkaren 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    legal issues and jail have changed

    who i am and how i react. i feel such an urge to prove myself due to my past mistakes...it has become a negative issue in my life trying to be so perfect on paper to impress a prosecuter and the courts. i dont feel right and i just pray for strength to make it passed this...
    Djdan203 Djdan203 31-35, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    It was just another day.

    I used to be a librarian, but now I find myself doing technical support for Nintendo. I work 13 hour shifts just to make ends meet all the while caring for a woman whom I love so deeply that at points I cannot breathe, but who does not love me back. I am not the person I used to...
    Romanidancer Romanidancer 26-30, F 2 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    KarenDew KarenDew 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    How Times Have Changed

    Back in 1995, when I got my divorce I was lonely, scared, and exhilarated all at once living in rural Vermont...but trusting in God, I found my true calling as a screenplay writer...on my own, the Heavens parted and I was rewarded, by faith alone, a soul sister who guided me down...
    starryknight1999 starryknight1999 46-50, M 17 Responses Feb 9, 2012

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    finally divorcing my husband was the best thing

    that I ever did. I still sometimes cry and get scared, and I am a little crazy still but I am getting better. I feel more beautiful and happy and safe than ever before!
    VanValentina VanValentina 36-40, F 12 Responses Oct 13, 2014

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    gentlyyours707 gentlyyours707 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 28, 2014

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    Nor do I want to be. I've changed…I've

    learned…I've grown… long may it continue… No regrets…
    TouchofAutumn TouchofAutumn 70+, F 1 Response