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I Am Not the Person I Used to Be

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    How any times during my life do I have to

    become a different me until I don't know who I am anymore? All I know now that I am able to say say about me, "I am" but how many of my "I am's" am I and why I am not just one "I am" once? And am I who I am really me now? Just because I can say, "I am" now, does that mean...
    MyLady9 MyLady9 46-50, F 10 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    I'm the type of person

    that always try's her best,always try's to do the right thing, I've loved and lost the love of my life due to being to far away, I never felt so heart broken in my life and I'm only 23 years old, I never try make trouble, I'm easy to get along with and always do right by my...
    charliex91 charliex91 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    As i get older i really start to hate people

    more and more, i have never been a people person, a bad violent and abusive relationship changed me for the better or worse im really not sure
    ExtremeNext ExtremeNext 26-30, F 16 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    Moving anymore is arduous.

    Every muscle, every joint groans complaining on the attempts in getting out of bed. My morale has abandoned ship as I sit on the side while the alarm sounds angrily. Hastily I silence the villain that awoken me from my slumber and curse the afternoon sun that brightens my room...
    FightingPhoenix FightingPhoenix 46-50, M 6 Responses May 22

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    I used to be out-going,

    never wanting to stop or sleep, and always wanting to know what is going on. I wanted to be in the middle of the spotlight. . . I wanted the attention, the love, the powerful glory. I loved to help people and I liked being the authority . . . the alpha bull-dog. Now I rather...
    RebekahWriter13 RebekahWriter13 31-35, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    .apsforpc.. so check it and enjoy many times with used apps and games.
    addyz addyz 22-25, M 6 days ago

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    luixa luixa 46-50, M 12 hrs ago

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    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 16 Responses Oct 30, 2014

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    Used to rarely be mad.

    Sad yes. Amused yes. But hardly ever mad.
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Jun 27

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    Why do people feel the need to tear someone

    down??? I've been through so much already in my life. I went through a lot of crap when I 5 till I was 18. then I had my kids in my kids in my earlier twenties with a man I thought cared about me but really only cared about his precious alcohol. So I ended up going through hell...
    Ldylvlylcks2002 Ldylvlylcks2002 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    I'm really not the person I used to be.

    . I used to be naive.. I used to be shy and quiet.. Now? Not anymore.. I used to keep everything for myself, my thoughts, opinions etc.. Now? I don't do that anymore.. I used to change myself so other would like me. Now? Not anymore.. I finally understood, if they like me...
    Fofitupida Fofitupida 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 27, 2014

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    A year ago, I would not have pictured my self

    the way it is now. Well, I know things may not always go as planned but that's life, and as long as I'm on my way, that's all that matters.
    TinkerbellChica TinkerbellChica 36-40, F Jun 27

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    I think everyone agree with

    that Pain changes people. Because without pain, you will never know how strong you are. Personally, I think positive people, who never felt any neglect and fear are the weakest of all, and people who suffers a lot, and sacrifice, will always have this higher self esteem.
    Manuala Manuala 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 23, 2014

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    five years ago I left an extremely abusive,

    unhealthy relationship. I paid alimony to him for five years and very recently paid my last payment. I'm not that woman anymore. I am strong, happy,content, secure, and successful. I made it through the darkest part of the night, and now the sun is rising and I am ready to...
    surgchic surgchic 46-50, F 14 Responses Apr 21

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    CNMB CNMB 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    Loosing you was the second best thing to happen

    to me. Letting you go was the first.
    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F Dec 3, 2014

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    I've been falling out of feeling,

    out of reading, out of dreaming, I feel nothing, at times food does not appeal to me, I can't sleep, You know. I just keep listening to music, and I've lost my sense of self. Sometime's I forget that I'm real. I'm not suicidal, but the idea of dying doesn't scare me. My...
    FirefallRose FirefallRose 16-17, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    I've changed alot thanks to my parents ?

    ? I've had lots of issues with them they overreact all the time wat ever happens (bad) the blame is always on me....these kind of things has totally changed me I'm not the person as I always used to be
    Reacher2436 Reacher2436 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm looking inside nowadays.

    . Into the well.. And it's empty. It returns but sometimes I'm afraid it will never come back. I open my eyes.. This is reality
    Coranpharel Coranpharel 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 25

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    In four years, I've completely changed

    as a person. 4 years ago, not long after I turned 18, I came out as a lesbian to my parents. They kicked me out of the house, and I moved in with my aunt and uncle. I struggled with depression for a long time, and still do. But losing them has made me stronger. Now, I'm in...
    kristabell123 kristabell123 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 27

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    After being married for 17 years with 2

    beautiful children, my husband left. Mid life crisis I suppose. I suffered on an emotional roller coaster for a few years trying to figure out what was wrong. He was not a talker. Just avoided conflict and never knew how to communicate very well. It took lots of faith and...
    lrj519 lrj519 46-50, F 24 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    Respect yourself enough to walk away from

    anything that no longer serves you, grows you, or makes you happy.
    BlackWidowBaby BlackWidowBaby 41-45, F 4 Responses Dec 11, 2014

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    You give and you give

    and they take. All they do is take. You put everything you are into something they don't even care about. You hope that one day they'll change their mind but they don't care about you the way you care about them. And this has happened what once? Twice? Too many times to count...
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F 3 Responses Dec 19, 2014

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    After being basically unemployed

    for over 2 years (minus a bullshit 4 hour a week job) I just got hired today for a full time cashiering job at a store I love to shop at. ALSO I AM 97 DAYS SOBER. Life is ******* great right now. :) To everyone who has had a hard time or who is going through a hard time- keep...
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    My mother is helping me find myself again.

    She stayed up with me all night explaining to me methods to get over being lost. She reminded me that I was born with an inner strength that will always be there for me. She just gave me hope that I can become a whole person again if I put the effort into it. She gave me classic...
    BunniesCry BunniesCry 31-35, F 8 Responses Nov 10, 2014

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    My journey hasn't been easy,

    but I'm still Standing Laughing Forgiving Loving Learning and Living I'm perfectly imperfect and unapologetically me!
    silverfox54 silverfox54 61-65, F 3 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    Today is 6 months, aka 184 days,

    since I stood up, took control of my life, and got sober from my drug addiction!
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 9 Responses Jan 20

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    Sometimes it takes the right voice

    or the right words from that oh so right person to lift you back up :)
    TheMeBMini25 TheMeBMini25 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    Today marks 123 days of sobriety

    for me! I thought this would be a fun day to celebrate just because the numbers line up. Haha.
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F Nov 22, 2014

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    How Times Have Changed

    Back in 1995, when I got my divorce I was lonely, scared, and exhilarated all at once living in rural Vermont...but trusting in God, I found my true calling as a screenplay writer...on my own, the Heavens parted and I was rewarded, by faith alone, a soul sister who guided me down...
    starryknight1999 starryknight1999 46-50 16 Responses Feb 9, 2012

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    I feel lost. I feel like nothing can help me

    find myself. That's just a feeling though. Logically I know I can do it. I just feel like it will never happen. Staying on track is the hardest things I have ever had to do.
    laur53426 laur53426 22-25, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    After going through what I did with my abusive

    ex, I am not the same YET. What used to be a strong willed and happy woman has been changed to a cowering puppy like creature who jumps at the sound of a door shutting too hard or dishes being clanged together. I am completely surprised that after I kicked him out, there was an...
    LadyValeska LadyValeska 41-45, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I used to be a friendly,

    happy, out-going, caring girl. Now I hate going out to see people, am quiet and more reserved and don't care about offending anyone anymore. I feel like I died and this is a whole different person living my life.
    InsaneWeirdo InsaneWeirdo 16-17, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    finally divorcing my husband was the best thing

    that I ever did. I still sometimes cry and get scared, and I am a little crazy still but I am getting better. I feel more beautiful and happy and safe than ever before!
    VanValentina VanValentina 36-40, F 13 Responses Oct 13, 2014

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    The last person that had the best of me took

    the rest of me so how do i show love when it anit no love left in me ?
    desistories desistories 18-21, F 3 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    I spent much of my past eagerly awaiting change

    and the arrival of the future. As I write this, I've put myself into a position where I dwell on the past and wish to return to relive the moments and opportunities I'll never have again. Just rather funny to me how quickly my mindset has changed now that I've gotten exactly...
    thatkidinblack thatkidinblack 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    1 year today we moved out of our house.

    I went to stay with a friend ...who later decided my kids couldn't stay overnight. Ended up sleeping at our church a couple nights when I had them or couch surfing at a friends place, he had kids so understood. Then my 2nd place....crammed into 1 bedroom on the nights my kids...
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    I used to be very closed off.

    Didn't let anyone get close to me. Years of being bullied and ridiculed by folks at home, in the neighborhood, and school left me hollow and alone. And then I fell in love and all that changed, only for that person I fell in love with to be just like everyone else. And I want so...
    justliss justliss 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    It is okay to change yourself

    for the better. Some people don't appreciate you, and now they regret. Just let them be and feel how we suffered the last time.
    Hi1890 Hi1890 13-15, M Jun 25

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    Hi ! My first semester back in school is

    ending. I want to thank my Dad and Mom for taking their rebellious daughter back under their authority and roof. Thank you for bringing Discipline and Love back into my life. I also want to thank all my EP friends who are helping advise, discipline, encourage, and express my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses May 5

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    If we are not evolving,

    we become stagnant. I enjoy being more different today, than even yesterday.
    Olivia1962 Olivia1962 51-55, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    This morning I felt really good about myself

    until a couple coworkers remind me of stupid things that I say. I am not perfect. I am nervous when I don't feel I have enough information or confidence to speak about certain subjects at work. I wish I didn't feel like the office idiot! Everybody around me appears to always...
    Saphirediamonds Saphirediamonds 31-35, F 5 Responses Jun 26

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    "A man who views the world the same at fifty

    as he did at twenty has wasted thirty years of his life" - Muhammad Ali
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    I am SO sick of being silenced!

    And made to feel like my opinions don't matter
    bearinmind bearinmind 36-40, F 9 Responses May 4

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    It is the absolute worst feeling

    when someone hurts you and they have no idea they're breaking your heart into a million pieces...
    DeathThrone DeathThrone 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 27

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    You don't deserve me.

    After you cheated I started to know myself and become independent. You don't know me anymore I'm not the same person bc you taught me how to face the real world. Never to trust, have confidence, nor think that someone truly cares . You don't deserve me, but I hope you're doing...
    gkaren gkaren 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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