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I Am Not the Person I Used to Be

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    I hurt a heart that was already broken.

    ... And I feel terrible.. I couldn't say goodbye.... A friend that offered so many positives to my Life that is scared me to death so I ran away without a goodbye and I feel sick about it!
    Livinglife42 Livinglife42 41-45, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm trying hard to get my life together.

    I used to hang out with a rough crowd. Now I'm 6 months sober. I've finally taken the courage to abandon my old lifestyle and all those bad friends. I hope I can change my life around and have real friends in my life one day.
    LifeofLewis LifeofLewis 22-25, M 5 Responses Jan 20

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    Today is 6 months, aka 184 days,

    since I stood up, took control of my life, and got sober from my drug addiction!
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 10 Responses Jan 20

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    Sometimes it takes the right voice

    or the right words from that oh so right person to lift you back up :)
    TheMeBMini25 TheMeBMini25 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    After being married for 17 years with 2

    beautiful children, my husband left. Mid life crisis I suppose. I suffered on an emotional roller coaster for a few years trying to figure out what was wrong. He was not a talker. Just avoided conflict and never knew how to communicate very well. It took lots of faith and...
    lrj519 lrj519 46-50, F 25 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    Sure sign I am getting ancient.

    Can predict the weather now based on my sinuses and other aches and pains ;)
    minnadt minnadt 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 14

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    Living with something you don't have control of

    is ... life changing. Depending on what it is exactly you have no reign on. Drugs? Hate? Depression? Regret? Anger? Maybe all if it. Whatever it is, it changes us all. Most cases for the worse. In my case for the worst. I have these moments where I feel numb.. No feelings. I...
    terriblefixations terriblefixations 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I used to be happy-go-lucky,

    talk to anyone without getting nervous an a bit more. Just makes me wonder where that me went. I used to be quite a talker, and now im quiet, reserved, and shy. Can't help but wonder where the hell I went.
    FabledCity FabledCity 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 15

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    I'm not the person I used to be.

    I died to self yesterday. That old me was wicked and ugly. I'm on a transformation to beauty and meekness. Thank you God for the light you bestowed upon me. showing me your true love.
    Brandnue Brandnue 31-35 2 Responses Nov 3, 2014

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    I used to be a really happy person with lots of

    friends but now I'm depressed and alone
    charlottekb charlottekb 13-15, F 8 Responses Jan 17

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    That time when everything you have done becomes

    irrelevant, your family, old friends, old stories and the past ripples beneath the surface one last time. You look around and see empty picture frames and a dusty phone...where have the days gone. How did so much time pass without a single event. How can you be stood here with...
    WonderingOfTheSoul WonderingOfTheSoul 18-21 3 days ago

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    I'm well over fifty. closer to 60.

    been shot twice, stabbed three times, I was in a humvee that hit an ied n blown up. I've been burned, exposed to harmful chemicals, hit by a pick up and pinned under it on a motorcycle and took a 30 foot fall and fractured three vertabrae in my back. As a teen i was hit by a...
    aimjustjoe57 aimjustjoe57 56-60, M 4 Responses Jan 21

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    I used to be so fun to be around.

    Joking with people, be spontaneous and have a random adventure w friends. I had energy but now.... at 28, I'm drained. I hide my true feelings behind a mask but in actuality I'm no longer the person I used to be because I have been dealing with sibling abuse for the past 10 yrs...
    khushali11 khushali11 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Respect yourself enough to walk away from

    anything that no longer serves you, grows you, or makes you happy.
    BlackWidowBaby BlackWidowBaby 41-45, F 6 Responses Dec 11, 2014

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    As you grow up, as life ****** you over,

    you changed. You changed. You're not the person you used to be. You grow up. You became wiser. You are now a new person. Take pride in that.
    Ohheyteddy Ohheyteddy 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    Betrayal lives paying disappointment life has

    made me into someone I struggle to free myself from
    Lov3isEvoL Lov3isEvoL 26-30, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 14

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    Sometimes it's hard seeing girls I used to work

    with.... not that I don't love them or I don't love the time that I put in at the club we worked at together (cage dancing) because at one point it paid my bills and I made really great friends there its just embarrassing when they bring up old stories of things we used to do...
    Forbiddenkisses Forbiddenkisses 22-25, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    How Times Have Changed

    Back in 1995, when I got my divorce I was lonely, scared, and exhilarated all at once living in rural Vermont...but trusting in God, I found my true calling as a screenplay writer...on my own, the Heavens parted and I was rewarded, by faith alone, a soul sister who guided me down...
    starryknight1999 starryknight1999 46-50, M 17 Responses Feb 9, 2012

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    Today marks 123 days of sobriety

    for me! I thought this would be a fun day to celebrate just because the numbers line up. Haha.
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 22, 2014

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    So there was this car outside just facing the

    house with the lights on, freaked the hell out of me, turns out it was just my housemate getting a lift home. It made me have a panic attack and now I sit in my room with the door locked sort of ashamed with myself.
    edkelly2k edkelly2k 31-35, M 3 Responses Jan 14

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    I'm much nicer now than I was 20 yrs ago.

    I'm still confused about certain things. ..but working on it.
    tacobilly tacobilly 36-40 Jan 15

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    MusicJunkie666 MusicJunkie666 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 20, 2014

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    My boyfriend and I have been dating

    for almost five years and lately I'm not as sexually attracted to him as I used to be. Before I couldn't keep my hands off of him but now even the thought of having sex is like uuugggghh... At first I didn't think anything of it but recently he's been asking me why I don't want...
    booboo232 booboo232 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 18

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    I don't know why, but i just get upset alot

    faster. Theres nothing wrong, but i used to be so much happier. Sometimes i look at my problems and just say "**** It" and let it get worse, cuz i do not know what to do, or I feel like I have no power to change it. I don't gve up easily, its just i feel like i can't do...
    imashame imashame 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 20

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    After being basically unemployed

    for over 2 years (minus a bullshit 4 hour a week job) I just got hired today for a full time cashiering job at a store I love to shop at. ALSO I AM 97 DAYS SOBER. Life is ******* great right now. :) To everyone who has had a hard time or who is going through a hard time- keep...
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    My mother is helping me find myself again.

    She stayed up with me all night explaining to me methods to get over being lost. She reminded me that I was born with an inner strength that will always be there for me. She just gave me hope that I can become a whole person again if I put the effort into it. She gave me classic...
    BunniesCry BunniesCry 31-35, F 8 Responses Nov 10, 2014

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    Nor am I the person I will be tomorrow.

    .. I think of the girl I was... I think I liked her, I think life was easier for her. But the mind plays cruel tricks. She was not that different from me. In the dark moments of reflection. We are still the same her and I. But yet I am ever changing, trying to find a skin...
    Author1980 Author1980 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 1, 2014

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    As i get older i really start to hate people

    more and more, i have never been a people person, a bad violent and abusive relationship changed me for the better or worse im really not sure
    ExtremeNext ExtremeNext 26-30, F 16 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 19 Responses Oct 30, 2014

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    The way things are, today right

    now at this very second shows a lot from where I've been to where I am going. I am not who I used to be, there's a lot of things that over this last couple of years that I've learned to finally overcome. My past doesn't hold anymore regrets everything seems washed out and clean...
    Izzy143 Izzy143 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 20

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    I used to be a druggie,

    a sex addict, and didn't care about God. Within the past year, I've found God again and life is amazing!!
    drummerchic4Christ drummerchic4Christ 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31, 2014

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    I think everyone agree with

    that Pain changes people. Because without pain, you will never know how strong you are. Personally, I think positive people, who never felt any neglect and fear are the weakest of all, and people who suffers a lot, and sacrifice, will always have this higher self esteem.
    Manuala Manuala 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 23, 2014

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    You give and you give

    and they take. All they do is take. You put everything you are into something they don't even care about. You hope that one day they'll change their mind but they don't care about you the way you care about them. And this has happened what once? Twice? Too many times to count...
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F 4 Responses Dec 19, 2014

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    There was this boy whom i really liked

    so much and he made me feel worthless he said some really bad stuff about me how i was being so clingy and super annoying . Some days after he told me he said all those things bcs he wanted me to find another guy but i don't believe him and he has made me so weak and so unsecure...
    Boraboo Boraboo 13-15, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    hog867 hog867 16-17, F Jan 21

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    My dad recently killed himself I I just want

    other people to know to Never go down this road it causes so Much heartache and sadness it's no Answer to anything
    ekins09 ekins09 26-30, M 10 Responses Jul 26, 2014

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    After taking on a job

    that has had me locked in a room for 12hrs a day/night shift for 2 years , I feel like relationships with my friends and family have become tense. I find myself constantly getting annoyed with them for being themselves. It's obvious that I've changed.. I've become more reclusive...
    dannidontdothat dannidontdothat 22-25, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    Not the old pathetic me anymore

    who was trying hard to fit in before. Not the one who was craving for love, acceptance, understanding and friendship I have learned to love and value myself first before others ☺️
    imsoflhai imsoflhai 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    Many people in my life just don't interest me

    anymore. I care for them, but I'm tired of them. I'm tired of dealing with people that don't get me the way that I hope for. It's annoying. It's tough. Im tired. I'm just so tired of it all.
    tabbi123 tabbi123 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 7

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    I used to be... 1. A bully.

    2. Depressed and wanted to die. 3. Extremely introverted. 4. Envious. Now I'm.. 1. Kind. 2. Joyful. 3. More talkative. 4. Happy with who I am/ where I'm at in life.
    astrokitty4341 astrokitty4341 22-25, F 6 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    My Long Journey

    During my marriage, I was so consumed with making sure that ALL of my husband's needs were met and that I did everything to help and support his efforts in being the man that he wanted to be and needed to be. I spent all my time focusing on him that I didn't realize how...
    Mahal1023 Mahal1023 46-50, F 31 Responses Nov 14, 2010

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    well yes I changed a lot I mean I used to be a

    really nice guy but I'm going thro a rough time and I get stressed by a small thing!
    kaiovinicius kaiovinicius 13-15, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    necxo necxo 18-21, T 1 Response Aug 5, 2014

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    I don't know how I feel about this.

    when I was younger, all I wanted to be was different; pretty, confident, popular, smart, have boyfriends, party every weekend. I hated being the shy girl with glasses. Now everything has changed, and it's like sometimes when I look in the mirror I don't even recognise myself...
    minmins07 minmins07 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 21

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    "A man who views the world the same at fifty

    as he did at twenty has wasted thirty years of his life" - Muhammad Ali
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    "People say to you, 'you've changed',

    or something like that, well, I hope, for the sake of God, that you have changed, because I don't want to be the same person all my life. I want to be growing, I want to be expanding. I want to be changing. Because animate things change, inanimate things don&'t change. Dead...
    gyl123 gyl123 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    A Reason To Change.........

    When i was a kid,my father would sit by my bed every night  before i went to sleep and he would say to me-"son if you dont wake up tomorrow,if it turns out that today is your last day on earth,would you be proud of what you have done in this life?..........cause if you are not...
    Borne Borne 22-25, M 10 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    My journey hasn't been easy,

    but I'm still Standing Laughing Forgiving Loving Learning and Living I'm perfectly imperfect and unapologetically me!
    silverfox54 silverfox54 61-65, F 3 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    This isn't something

    that hit me today It's something I've known for a while but I've mourned and done a lot of damage along the way to those in my life and to myself and I've grown to be another person but secretly I yearn to be who I used to be Young ambitious had my life planned out. It's time...
    lilwil87 lilwil87 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 14

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    I'm really not the person I used to be.

    . I used to be naive.. I used to be shy and quiet.. Now? Not anymore.. I used to keep everything for myself, my thoughts, opinions etc.. Now? I don't do that anymore.. I used to change myself so other would like me. Now? Not anymore.. I finally understood, if they like me...
    Fofitupida Fofitupida 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 27, 2014

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