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I Am Not the Person I Used to Be

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    You give and you give

    and they take. All they do is take. You put everything you are into something they don't even care about. You hope that one day they'll change their mind but they don't care about you the way you care about them. And this has happened what once? Twice? Too many times to count...
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F 3 Responses Dec 19, 2014

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    I was married & faithful

    for SO many years. We divorced. Now I don't care to be that person anymore. I was honest about it before I married my husband so he knows I want to be free to have other physical experiences if the right guy comes along at the right time. The young & ignorant will say WHAT...
    Walkalone9000 Walkalone9000 51-55, F 11 Responses May 27, 2015

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    I have had several abortions

    and I am not proud . More like so remorseful snd asking God for forgiveness. I can only say my parents would have disowned me if I had a child out of marriage.
    kickedtocurb kickedtocurb 51-55, F 9 Responses Jan 29

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    pirsh pirsh 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    My girlfriend if two amazing years recently

    died. She fought sarcoma for 6 years. I am sad and I miss her.
    AdAstra153 AdAstra153 51-55, M 8 Responses 4 days ago

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    I used to throw thngs in my temper

    but now im still abit fiery but i get more grumpy and huffy
    prettyflamingo prettyflamingo 41-45, F 5 Responses Jan 22

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    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 15 Responses Oct 30, 2014

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    ' i used to be genuinely happy

    but now .. life is to dull sometimes.
    sxhidxh sxhidxh 16-17, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    Disposable me Boys float in,

    Men drift out, I love each and every one of you. Still. Years later. In the darkness of night And in broad daylight. I am thankful for you. Touching me Taking my innocence my nativity Searing my skin Burning my heart alive Delightful wickedness has now arrived. There was one...
    loveCT loveCT 41-45, F 6 Responses Oct 12, 2015

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    Respect yourself enough to walk away from

    anything that no longer serves you, grows you, or makes you happy.
    BlackWidowBaby BlackWidowBaby 41-45, F 4 Responses Dec 11, 2014

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    I'm 36, married with 3 children.

    I regret some of the decisions I've made such as about putting off my career to stay home. It just isn't me. I love my kids dearly and do the best I can, but it never seems good enough. I've asked my husband for a divorce and he doesn't want to cooperate and says he'll have to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Sep 7, 2015

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    After being married for 17 years with 2

    beautiful children, my husband left. Mid life crisis I suppose. I suffered on an emotional roller coaster for a few years trying to figure out what was wrong. He was not a talker. Just avoided conflict and never knew how to communicate very well. It took lots of faith and...
    lrj519 lrj519 46-50, F 24 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    After being basically unemployed

    for over 2 years (minus a bullshit 4 hour a week job) I just got hired today for a full time cashiering job at a store I love to shop at. ALSO I AM 97 DAYS SOBER. Life is ******* great right now. :) To everyone who has had a hard time or who is going through a hard time- keep...
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    honestly i grew up not knowing what i want to be

    but now i still dont know what I'm goimg to do with my life I'm stuck in this loop and i can't get out my life sucks honestly
    GodlessWorld GodlessWorld 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    gentlyyours707 gentlyyours707 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 28, 2014

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    AHH! I've tried to control it.

    I've tried to let it out just screaming. trying to release the raw anger and emotion. but it isn't helping. I need to get my release the only other way I know how. I need into the cage, feeling the mat beneath my feet. focused, determined, ready.. mentally I'm as sparp as a...
    MasterKush25 MasterKush25 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    A few years ago I pretended to be a guy on this

    chat site, I loved it! being a guy is totally different! and I loved having a bro-ship! haha seriously, it was the best year of my life! and then I started feeling really bad about lieing to them all... n i told the truth, n broke a lotta hearts in the process... -i had to keep...
    BarelyAdulterated BarelyAdulterated 22-25, F 6 Responses Jan 25

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    finally divorcing my husband was the best thing

    that I ever did. I still sometimes cry and get scared, and I am a little crazy still but I am getting better. I feel more beautiful and happy and safe than ever before!
    VanValentina VanValentina 36-40, F 11 Responses Oct 13, 2014

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    the past life i had, was happy,

    nice, peaceful,talkative,confident and cool. but last year on my aunts birthday, i got a unique break on my femur and that changed me.... i am now gloomy,calm, quiet, medical problems interfere my body, i don't have a sense of humor any more, i am shy, and i am struggling not to...
    lourenjessop13 lourenjessop13 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    I used to be fun, crazy

    and energetic. I used to have wild adventures, inappropriate sex and sing like nobody could hear me. I used to dance and laugh. Now, now I'm old and tired. My life has taken away my desire to dance, I'm afraid to sing, and my adventures, if I have them, appear to be more...
    BookGrl BookGrl 41-45, F 7 Responses 4 days ago

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    i used to be a very, very happy young girl.

    i had a bright future ahead of me, i was a good kid, had many friends, healthy relationships with my family members, and was top of my class in school. however, i never felt special to anyone. people could go on and on about how they loved me and how unique i was but i never...
    littlemissblondie littlemissblondie 16-17, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    Today is 6 months, aka 184 days,

    since I stood up, took control of my life, and got sober from my drug addiction!
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 9 Responses Jan 20, 2015

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    I've evolved. I've grown

    and changed over the years and am coming back to who I am. I am letting go of the constraints, expectations, judgments, and projections that I have taken on over my adult life. This is a conscious choice and one that is empowering me to say I am not the person I used to be...
    rustyblueday rustyblueday 46-50, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    My journey hasn't been easy,

    but I'm still Standing Laughing Forgiving Loving Learning and Living I'm perfectly imperfect and unapologetically me!
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    I am SO sick of being silenced!

    And made to feel like my opinions don't matter
    bearinmind bearinmind 36-40, F 7 Responses May 4, 2015

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    If I was the person I was 16 years ago,

    I would still be in diapers.
    SamKatochirika SamKatochirika 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 3, 2015

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    I'm now just an ate up bipolar shell of what I

    once was. I've had some good jobs, traveled a lot, lived a lot, had good times and bad ones, was a decent bodybuilder in good shape, was a pretty accomplished amateur boxer, and artist, I had friend's, I had two beautiful daughters by my first wife, then after her, a...
    Abyssfull Abyssfull 51-55, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    i am defently not the person i used to be

    after i start to lestin to eminem now i can face my problems but back then i only imagind that life will be good
    SEDDIKMBM SEDDIKMBM 16-17, M 3 days ago

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    Moving anymore is arduous.

    Every muscle, every joint groans complaining on the attempts in getting out of bed. My morale has abandoned ship as I sit on the side while the alarm sounds angrily. Hastily I silence the villain that awoken me from my slumber and curse the afternoon sun that brightens my room...
    FightingPhoenix FightingPhoenix 46-50, M 5 Responses May 22, 2015

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    "A man who views the world the same at fifty

    as he did at twenty has wasted thirty years of his life" - Muhammad Ali
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    It's pretty insane how much you change over

    time slowly molded kinda like the waves of the ocean hitting the rocks and in a way sculpting the rock life is long and there will always be good times as well as bad but I'm glad. I'm glad I'm the person I was a couple years ago sometimes we change whether it be for the better...
    ReminiscentMistake ReminiscentMistake 16-17, M 6 days ago

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    I like the better ME right now.

    ..not as daunted by what lies ahead, but more hopeful, falling in love with life even, maybe falling in love. Still a work in progress, but have surpassed many, many milestones. Thank you, Lord.
    iCuriousBabe iCuriousBabe 41-45, F 7 Responses Oct 6, 2015

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    Why you? Where is the man I

    once knew? The one who I thought would never hurt me, especially not gonna make me cry? Where is the man that I fought for? Who's so gentle and loving. I used to look up to him. I used to pray that the one who I end up with will be like him. Full of love and kindness. I know he...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    sarahannemariie sarahannemariie 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    “Bad stuff does happen,

    sometimes. Always remember that. But remember that you have to move on somehow. You pick your head up and stare at something beautiful like the sky, or the ocean, and you move the hell on.” James Patterson
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jan 23

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    Many people in my life just don't interest me

    anymore. I care for them, but I'm tired of them. I'm tired of dealing with people that don't get me the way that I hope for. It's annoying. It's tough. Im tired. I'm just so tired of it all.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jan 7, 2015

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    I sincerely believe that we change a lot in our

    twenties and learn who we really are during that time. We sometimes try on different personas and eventually settle into who we really are deep down to our core. We are raised to be who our parents want us to be, but learn that in order to be happy, we need to find our own...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Apr 30, 2015

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    As i get older i really start to hate people

    more and more, i have never been a people person, a bad violent and abusive relationship changed me for the better or worse im really not sure
    ExtremeNext ExtremeNext 26-30 16 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    You don't deserve me.

    After you cheated I started to know myself and become independent. You don't know me anymore I'm not the same person bc you taught me how to face the real world. Never to trust, have confidence, nor think that someone truly cares . You don't deserve me, but I hope you're doing...
    gkaren gkaren 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8, 2015

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    Hi ! My first semester back in school is

    ending. I want to thank my Dad and Mom for taking their rebellious daughter back under their authority and roof. Thank you for bringing Discipline and Love back into my life. I also want to thank all my EP friends who are helping advise, discipline, encourage, and express my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses May 5, 2015

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    After extensive research

    and seeing a psychiatrist I have been diagnosed with narcissist abuse syndrome. Never in my life would I ever expect anything like this from someone but I became best friends and more with a somatic narcissist.I could write a book on how the last 5 years of my life has been but...
    theunknown1985 theunknown1985 26-30, M 8 Responses Jan 22

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    Today marks 123 days of sobriety

    for me! I thought this would be a fun day to celebrate just because the numbers line up. Haha.
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F Nov 22, 2014

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    I'm not okay with waking up.

    I do whatever necessary to prevent myself from sleeping. Sleep is supposed to be peaceful not an inevitable doom that forces me to start another day when I really just want to cease. I don't want to be me.
    Sunsetchaser01 Sunsetchaser01 22-25, F Jan 22

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    I've grown from an arrogant ***** to an

    understanding and patient man.. looking back at it I always just wanted to be an honest person, my flaw being that I was too close minded.
    iminyaface iminyaface 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 27

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    i used to be such a cute,

    innocent little girl that was a tomboy and had no onterest in boys but now im the complete opposite. I self harm because of depression and i starve myself due to lack of body confidence. i also have anxiety because ive been sexually abused after starting to become interested...
    Heyyitzmoi Heyyitzmoi 13-15, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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