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I Am Not the Person I Used to Be

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    A Reason To Change.........

    When i was a kid,my father would sit by my bed every night  before i went to sleep and he would say to me-"son if you dont wake up tomorrow,if it turns out that today is your last day on earth,would you be proud of what you have done in this life?..........cause if you are not...
    Borne Borne 22-25, M 10 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    Loosing you was the second best thing to happen

    to me. Letting you go was the first.
    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 3

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    You know what? Yes, I've changed.

    I'm not as nice as I used to be, because I don't want to get used or walked over. I don't trust everyone and tell them my secrets, because behind every fake smile there's a backstabber. I distance myself from people because in the end, they're only going to leave. I have changed...
    JustSomeTeenagerr JustSomeTeenagerr 13-15, F 6 Responses Nov 16

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    Respect yourself enough to walk away from

    anything that no longer serves you, grows you, or makes you happy.
    BlackWidowBaby BlackWidowBaby 41-45, F 6 Responses Dec 11

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    As i get older i really start to hate people

    more and more, i have never been a people person, a bad violent and abusive relationship changed me for the better or worse im really not sure
    ExtremeNext ExtremeNext 26-30, F 16 Responses Aug 27

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    Sometimes it takes the right voice

    or the right words from that oh so right person to lift you back up :)
    TheMeBMini25 TheMeBMini25 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 11

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    My Long Journey

    During my marriage, I was so consumed with making sure that ALL of my husband's needs were met and that I did everything to help and support his efforts in being the man that he wanted to be and needed to be. I spent all my time focusing on him that I didn't realize how...
    Mahal1023 Mahal1023 46-50, F 31 Responses Nov 14, 2010

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    I got depression tablets

    and I haven't took em yet is dat good ???
    babel123456 babel123456 26-30, M 6 Responses Dec 13

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    When I was young I used to watch the old

    Dracula films, hiding under a duvet. Now I am old and realise there are people that suck the joy out of life and crush the hope and dreams you have with cruel word or the odd slap, just as Dracula sucked blood and drained life
    littlelostlife littlelostlife 46-50, F 5 Responses Dec 14

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    I can be as sweet as an angel

    but i can be as ***** as an evil. Try to messed me up and you will understand why storm is named after people. So better think million times before you add me to your circle and befriend me. I don't ******* care if you don't like me. I don't need you anyway. -_-
    Thiswillbethelast Thiswillbethelast 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I can not find happiness,

    it looks for me but I reject it, been doing this for years, I don't understand it...
    rayraynah rayraynah 31-35, F Dec 14

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    My mother is helping me find myself again.

    She stayed up with me all night explaining to me methods to get over being lost. She reminded me that I was born with an inner strength that will always be there for me. She just gave me hope that I can become a whole person again if I put the effort into it. She gave me classic...
    BunniesCry BunniesCry 31-35, F 8 Responses Nov 10

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    I am the Phoenix. I have risen from the ashes

    of my former self. I have been renewed, revitalized, and reinvigorated. The person you use to know is but a shadow compared to the person i have become. Tremble in fear all those you sought to hold me back, to defeat me, for you have failed and you shall feel my wrath. Worry not...
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Well I seem to make everyone laugh.

    ..tho I seem to be the one who actually needs to laugh
    alannis3733 alannis3733 18-21, F Dec 13

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    You may mess up, but you are not a mess up.

    You may make a mistake, but you are not a mistake. You may screw up, but you are not a screw up. You may fail, but you are not a failure. You are not defined by your weaknesses You are not the only one who has missed the shot Or the...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F Dec 15

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    Dallas Realizations

    I recently travelled to Dallas to meet some of my amazing ep friends. As seems to be the norm rather than the exception these days, my flights ran late and I ended up spending some time at George Bush International, in Houston, TX. Disembarking from the plane in Houston, I...
    PeachesGalore PeachesGalore 46-50, F 8 Responses Oct 8, 2012

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    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 20 Responses Oct 30

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    I don't have patience

    for nonsense anymore. What I mean is I will not let anyone get underneath my skin about anything...well...I will do everything in my will not to. Also, Communication is everything. THE END
    TheMeBMini25 TheMeBMini25 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 12

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    "A man who views the world the same at fifty

    as he did at twenty has wasted thirty years of his life" - Muhammad Ali
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 11

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    finally divorcing my husband was the best thing

    that I ever did. I still sometimes cry and get scared, and I am a little crazy still but I am getting better. I feel more beautiful and happy and safe than ever before!
    VanValentina VanValentina 36-40, F 12 Responses Oct 13

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    kangaroo02 kangaroo02 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 12

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    cl0udyskies cl0udyskies 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 18

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    After being basically unemployed

    for over 2 years (minus a bullshit 4 hour a week job) I just got hired today for a full time cashiering job at a store I love to shop at. ALSO I AM 97 DAYS SOBER. Life is ******* great right now. :) To everyone who has had a hard time or who is going through a hard time- keep...
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 27

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    So, I used to identify with my good side

    and project my bad side onto others... This is deep stuff, which took me thirty years to fathom... I used to think I wanted to be happy. Now I just want to be authentic and damn right happiness will follow, as long as I can also allow complete and utter misery to happen...
    Loufree Loufree 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 15

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    I can't feel any connection between the person

    I used to be say 5 years ago and now. it's often frustrating to look at old photos and be like -who the hell is that? I don't recognize myself in that person at all. there is only the not-understanding-people-at-all thing which is consistent ,that keeps me from believing that I...
    vintervandraren vintervandraren 18-21 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    My journey hasn't been easy,

    but I'm still Standing Laughing Forgiving Loving Learning and Living I'm perfectly imperfect and unapologetically me!
    silverfox54 silverfox54 56-60, F 3 Responses Sep 11

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    My dad recently killed himself I I just want

    other people to know to Never go down this road it causes so Much heartache and sadness it's no Answer to anything
    ekins09 ekins09 26-30, M 11 Responses Jul 26

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    I think everyone agree with

    that Pain changes people. Because without pain, you will never know how strong you are. Personally, I think positive people, who never felt any neglect and fear are the weakest of all, and people who suffers a lot, and sacrifice, will always have this higher self esteem.
    Manuala Manuala 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 23

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    A couple days ago, a friend of mine was telling

    me about 2 waitresses at a cafe he likes to go to. One of them is this super energetic young thing who takes "bubbly" to a whole other level - beyond anything that could be genuine (some people are naturally bubbly, but not THIS bubbly). the other one is a bit older and has a...
    SilverSearching SilverSearching 26-30, M 3 Responses Jun 15

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    I use to be this very shy antisocial guy

    who could not talk to any girl and always sat in the back of the bus had no friends always sat alone at lunch and I'm not writing about this to make you feel bad for me but to understand how much I've changed and now I talk to just about everyone and have a good amount of...
    PabloBoyyyy PabloBoyyyy 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 18

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    She finally understood

    why she no longer was completely and wholeheartedly happy on her birthdays, Christmas or on New Years eve. Even though she was surrounded by people whom she loved. It reminded her of too much. Too much love, too much joy and too many hurtful memories. These event made her think...
    thoughtsinwords thoughtsinwords 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    MusicJunkie6794 MusicJunkie6794 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 20

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    There was two sides of her feelings,

    at times she felt that she was strong, powerful and that she had control over her feelings, she felt that nothing mattered, that nothing not a single sadness could stop her, because she could overcome it, she was stronger than that. This was a feeling she was so proud of, a side...
    thoughtsinwords thoughtsinwords 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    The **** you hear about me might be true,

    but then again it could be as fake as the ***** who told you.
    Thiswillbethelast Thiswillbethelast 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    Who is this person staring at me through

    shattered glass?She is different than before.She is more accepting of others, even if it hurts her heart at times.Love has taken control and clouded her mind.It has pushed away the normal behaviors in her life.At one time a strong women who would stand up for what is hers, but...
    heartinbloom heartinbloom 46-50, F 1 Response Dec 18

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    Can you remember who you were

    before the world told you who you should be?
    JustSomeTeenagerr JustSomeTeenagerr 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I managed to beat social anxiety

    and depression on my own. And develop social skills from level zero in a couple of years. Sometimes I don?t want to remember who I?ve been. Today I?m almost exactly where I wanted to be with my character development so to speak. As a kid for years I?ve been the weird one. The...
    vintervandraren vintervandraren 18-21 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    ronnkron ronnkron 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 12

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    I used to be... 1. A bully.

    2. Depressed and wanted to die. 3. Extremely introverted. 4. Envious. Now I'm.. 1. Kind. 2. Joyful. 3. More talkative. 4. Happy with who I am/ where I'm at in life.
    astrokitty4341 astrokitty4341 22-25, F 7 Responses Nov 13

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    necxo necxo 18-21, T 1 Response Aug 5

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    Just quick update on me

    and my grandma. I have now moved on to f*cking her and now facialing her.
    darrenf10 darrenf10 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 12

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    You give and you give

    and they take. All they do is take. You put everything you are into something they don't even care about. You hope that one day they'll change their mind but they don't care about you the way you care about them. And this has happened what once? Twice? Too many times to count...
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    Nor am I the person I will be tomorrow.

    .. I think of the girl I was... I think I liked her, I think life was easier for her. But the mind plays cruel tricks. She was not that different from me. In the dark moments of reflection. We are still the same her and I. But yet I am ever changing, trying to find a skin...
    Author1980 Author1980 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 1

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    You don't like me? it's fine,

    i don't like you either -_-
    Thiswillbethelast Thiswillbethelast 18-21, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    I used to be a druggie,

    a sex addict, and didn't care about God. Within the past year, I've found God again and life is amazing!!
    drummerchic4Christ drummerchic4Christ 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31

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    I definitely am not the woman I

    once was and still trying to determine if that's good or bad. I'm not in denial anymore so my life is more real but sometimes wish I could un-know what I know!
    Cyndie67 Cyndie67 46-50, F 1 Response a week ago

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    gentlyyours707 gentlyyours707 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 28

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    Today marks 123 days of sobriety

    for me! I thought this would be a fun day to celebrate just because the numbers line up. Haha.
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 22

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    I used to be to happy,

    problem free, nice, and sweet. Now im the opposite of that, but now with even more problems. funny how everything can change within a blink of an eye.
    EmoAngelOfLight EmoAngelOfLight 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 13

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    Once upon a time I was someone's number two.

    I absolutely loathed myself at the time because I know she wasnt treating me right but I loved her so much I let her use me to get over her ex-lover. I needed to get out but each time I made up my mind to do so she always puts in the extra effort to keep me from executing my...
    AcousticAnne AcousticAnne 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 23

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    Truth is, I don't even know

    who I am anymore. I used to be the shy quiet wallflower. Then I slowly came out of that shell and became someone different. Now I'm a girl who dies her hair, has a nose ring, wears mostly black and combat boots and wants a couple tattoos. I just don't know anymore, especially...
    BeYou321 BeYou321 13-15, F 4 Responses Dec 11

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