I Am Not the Person I Used to Be

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    Hi ! My first semester back in school is

    ending. I want to thank my Dad and Mom for taking their rebellious daughter back under their authority and roof. Thank you for bringing Discipline and Love back into my life. I also want to thank all my EP friends who are helping advise, discipline, encourage, and express my...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses May 5, 2015

    Respect yourself enough to walk away from

    anything that no longer serves you, grows you, or makes you happy.
    BlackWidowBaby BlackWidowBaby
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Dec 11, 2014
    etibahu etibahu
    22-25, F
    Mar 13
    OrangeCaramel OrangeCaramel
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 23

    I find it interesting how

    when I was younger I had my life planned out. I would be a popular kid with nice, long hair and a beautiful face that would enchant others. I would be with a handsome boyfriend who would treat me like a queen, and, eventually I would graduate and become a Veterinarian. Oh how...
    Sanghelios Sanghelios
    13-15, T
    Apr 16

    I Am Far From The Person That I Once Was,

    I Use To Be So Full Of Anger and Was Cold Heartless and Really Didn't Give Two F**ks About Whether I Lived or Died. It Is ONLY By The Grace and Mercy Of Our Most High GOD Jesus Christ That I'm Still Here. He Gave Me Two Beautiful and Healthy Son's. Who From The Very Moment I...
    JusBri JusBri
    46-50, M
    1 Response Mar 14

    I've smoked marijuana twice,

    both for sh'its and giggles. First time didn't do sh'it to me, and the second one was only a buzz. So, I thought I'd try it a third time. During a summer afternoon between the Sophomore and Junior years of school for me. The dealer gave me the joint, really weird looking joint...
    jasonBK1 jasonBK1
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 3

    Not a chance in hell.

    My belief in humanity has been dwindling since they tried selling me on the "facts" in history books in school; but, these past few weeks? My goodness how much we've learned. You can depend on no one. I make very very poor choices in life. No more. There will be only 2 others...
    Savannah76Starr Savannah76Starr
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Mar 22

    I was young. I was innocent.

    And I was a hell of a different person than I am now. I used to go home and do my homework. I used to think that all I needed to be happy was my Gameboy and some stuffed animals. I used to enjoy being smart. I used to tell my mom, " I will never drink or do drugs in high...
    swimswamrun swimswamrun
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Apr 18

    I don't know if I'm quite there yet

    or not, but I know I'm real tempted to become someone that treats relationships like a business. You want something from me? it's going to cost you, my **** isn't free anymore. I have this urge, yet I have this voice in my head talking me down.....but that voice is getting...
    kk1874 kk1874
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Apr 13

    Some people, you just wake up to realize,

    will never be the same. And you never know if it's a good or a bad thing.
    psychopathically psychopathically
    13-15, F
    Mar 28

    Moving anymore is arduous.

    Every muscle, every joint groans complaining on the attempts in getting out of bed. My morale has abandoned ship as I sit on the side while the alarm sounds angrily. Hastily I silence the villain that awoken me from my slumber and curse the afternoon sun that brightens my room...
    FightingPhoenix FightingPhoenix
    46-50, M
    3 Responses May 22, 2015

    And this saddens me. I know it's

    because of everything I've been through and it's my way of protecting myself but at the same time I HATE it. I'm just this ugly version of myself, this person I never wanted to become. I pray God takes this from me, quite the nightmare.
    Sonlasnubes Sonlasnubes
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 17

    Today is 6 months, aka 184 days,

    since I stood up, took control of my life, and got sober from my drug addiction!
    kittentoes kittentoes
    22-25, F
    8 Responses Jan 20, 2015

    Not the old pathetic me anymore

    who was trying hard to fit in before. Not the one who was craving for love, acceptance, understanding and friendship I have learned to love and value myself first before others ☺️
    imsoflhai imsoflhai
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jan 16, 2015

    I'm done being so miserable.

    Nobody deserves that. Happiness is a choice and I'm choosing it now. You should too. The heck with the people who kick us to the ground and enjoys it. You want to get back right? You want vengeance? Well the best vengeance is for us to be happy. Smiling at their faces with...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 17

    I am but it's been buried inside be- oppressed

    and I'm just too tired to express or be who I am.
    QuestionMarks QuestionMarks
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Mar 14

    I am a member in AIESEC in INDIA .

    I am having a experience that i never felt like before.I am working here and i have a offer for all the people those who are below 30 yrs.My organisation do send people on interships from all over the world.This is the largest youth running organisation.It is in existence for 65...
    Rishabh4443 Rishabh4443
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 30

    people do change.... I don't know

    if that's good or not.
    Cocrispy Cocrispy
    22-25, M
    5 Responses Feb 25

    I'm sick of my son and husband whinnying like

    females. But when I show that mean side of me they ask what's my problem? So I just gave them both the middle finger and told them stop acting like a baby and literally grow some balls. Last time I checked both your birth certificate it said male in bold letters . So why do I...
    twinkie33 twinkie33
    31-35, F
    Mar 20

    Funny how things can turn out

    so much differently than you expect them to..
    StrangeMotions StrangeMotions
    16-17, M
    1 Response Mar 24

    I like the better ME right now.

    ..not as daunted by what lies ahead, but more hopeful, falling in love with life even, maybe falling in love. Still a work in progress, but have surpassed many, many milestones. Thank you, Lord.
    iCuriousBabe iCuriousBabe
    41-45, F
    6 Responses Oct 6, 2015
    Missgwenxo Missgwenxo
    46-50, F
    4 Responses Mar 13

    You chased after me until I finally fell head

    over heels for you. Then you just let it all burn to the ground. Congratulations 👏🏼😒 You lost out on someone who actually cared for you. Hope he was worth it.
    MirusMe MirusMe
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Mar 31

    I sincerely believe that we change a lot in our

    twenties and learn who we really are during that time. We sometimes try on different personas and eventually settle into who we really are deep down to our core. We are raised to be who our parents want us to be, but learn that in order to be happy, we need to find our own...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Apr 30, 2015

    I'm really not the person I used to be.

    . I used to be naive.. I used to be shy and quiet.. Now? Not anymore.. I used to keep everything for myself, my thoughts, opinions etc.. Now? I don't do that anymore.. I used to change myself so other would like me. Now? Not anymore.. I finally understood, if they like me...
    Fofitupida Fofitupida
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Nov 27, 2014

    After being married for 17 years with 2

    beautiful children, my husband left. Mid life crisis I suppose. I suffered on an emotional roller coaster for a few years trying to figure out what was wrong. He was not a talker. Just avoided conflict and never knew how to communicate very well. It took lots of faith and...
    lrj519 lrj519
    46-50, F
    21 Responses Aug 27, 2014

    finally divorcing my husband was the best thing

    that I ever did. I still sometimes cry and get scared, and I am a little crazy still but I am getting better. I feel more beautiful and happy and safe than ever before!
    VanValentina VanValentina
    36-40, F
    8 Responses Oct 13, 2014

    So this is what is happening with me at one

    moment I m really happy for no reason n other I m irritated for nothing again... I ask frequent questions to myself what am I not happy with.. let's try changing it for good, but I end up finding no answer for everything as if I just have some extreme mood swings... am I the...
    smile123sush smile123sush
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 20

    five years ago I left an extremely abusive,

    unhealthy relationship. I paid alimony to him for five years and very recently paid my last payment. I'm not that woman anymore. I am strong, happy,content, secure, and successful. I made it through the darkest part of the night, and now the sun is rising and I am ready to...
    surgchic surgchic
    51-55, F
    12 Responses Apr 21, 2015

    I used to let my partner control me

    and be horrible to me, i was overweight abused and miserable! He had sucked my life and sucked out of me! Then with the support of my best friends i ended my 10 year relationship with the man id been with since 16 years old. For once i said no! And put my damn foot down. He...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    9 Responses Sep 15, 2015

    in our lifes we all had those moments

    when u feel lost , so lost ...nothing around you is familiar your standing in the middle of people you dont feel a connection, your alone everything is colapsing you feel tiny, a stranger.... im happy that those moments passed, when i see into my daughters eyes 4 months old...
    nevergiveupyourdreams nevergiveupyourdreams
    31-35, F
    6 Responses Jan 20

    After being basically unemployed

    for over 2 years (minus a bullshit 4 hour a week job) I just got hired today for a full time cashiering job at a store I love to shop at. ALSO I AM 97 DAYS SOBER. Life is ******* great right now. :) To everyone who has had a hard time or who is going through a hard time- keep...
    kittentoes kittentoes
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Oct 27, 2014

    I've evolved. I've grown

    and changed over the years and am coming back to who I am. I am letting go of the constraints, expectations, judgments, and projections that I have taken on over my adult life. This is a conscious choice and one that is empowering me to say I am not the person I used to be...
    rustyblueday rustyblueday
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Feb 1

    https://www.change.org/p/ep-keep-ep-open-don-t-close-ep?recruiter=515242832&utm_source=share_petition&utm_medium=copylink Please Go fill in the link above to keep EP going!!! (This is a petition!)
    Arinae Arinae
    13-15, F
    Mar 24

    I'm 36, married with 3 children.

    I regret some of the decisions I've made such as about putting off my career to stay home. It just isn't me. I love my kids dearly and do the best I can, but it never seems good enough. I've asked my husband for a divorce and he doesn't want to cooperate and says he'll have to...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    10 Responses Sep 7, 2015

    So... this young guy (25) liked me.

    Young, stupid, with a chip on his shoulder, thinks he knows everything. Asked him what his MBTI was... he said submissive. You know the type... finally got tired of trying and fighting with him. So... he got mad and... said something that really hurt. He said "Well at least I'm...
    VeronicaPond VeronicaPond
    26-30, F
    17 Responses Apr 14

    I'm turning 40 next week & considering the

    stigma related to age, I feel great! I'm taking better care of myself, eating healthy, & working out regularly.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    6 Responses Mar 13

    I trust. I feel. I love.

    Somewhere along the way I learn about doubts. Inconsistency and some discrepancy triggers it. Even the slightest simplest of things that don't add up can push me to back off and turns into the most negative of thoughts and feelings. I miss those times that I have my full...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 13
    gentlyyours707 gentlyyours707
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 28, 2014

    I think this is the same

    for everyone. I chamged at the age of 14 { still am } 13 and on I wasnt as dirty minded as i am now. Mostly what changed was my brain and not my self. Darker and darker, dirty to very filthy. I love my mind~
    CuriousTurtle CuriousTurtle
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Mar 16

    I was married & faithful

    for SO many years. We divorced. Now I don't care to be that person anymore. I was honest about it before I married my husband so he knows I want to be free to have other physical experiences if the right guy comes along at the right time. The young & ignorant will say WHAT...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    11 Responses May 27, 2015

    it is true I am much different

    and more open. I am proud of who I am now
    MyLove20 MyLove20
    16-17, F
    Mar 13

    As i get older i really start to hate people

    more and more, i have never been a people person, a bad violent and abusive relationship changed me for the better or worse im really not sure
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    15 Responses Aug 27, 2014

    I think everyone agree with

    that Pain changes people. Because without pain, you will never know how strong you are. Personally, I think positive people, who never felt any neglect and fear are the weakest of all, and people who suffers a lot, and sacrifice, will always have this higher self esteem.
    Manuala Manuala
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Sep 23, 2014

    A Reason To Change.........

    When i was a kid,my father would sit by my bed every night  before i went to sleep and he would say to me-"son if you dont wake up tomorrow,if it turns out that today is your last day on earth,would you be proud of what you have done in this life?..........cause if you are not...
    Borne Borne
    22-25, M
    9 Responses Jan 27, 2012
    AustinRabenold AustinRabenold
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Mar 15

    I am SO sick of being silenced!

    And made to feel like my opinions don't matter
    bearinmind bearinmind
    36-40, F
    6 Responses May 4, 2015

    Today marks 123 days of sobriety

    for me! I thought this would be a fun day to celebrate just because the numbers line up. Haha.
    kittentoes kittentoes
    22-25, F
    Nov 22, 2014
    kittentoes kittentoes
    22-25, F
    14 Responses Oct 30, 2014

    My journey hasn't been easy,

    but I'm still Standing Laughing Forgiving Loving Learning and Living I'm perfectly imperfect and unapologetically me!
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Sep 11, 2014

    You don't deserve me.

    After you cheated I started to know myself and become independent. You don't know me anymore I'm not the same person bc you taught me how to face the real world. Never to trust, have confidence, nor think that someone truly cares . You don't deserve me, but I hope you're doing...
    gkaren gkaren
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 8, 2015

    The older I get the harder it is

    for me to like people... Lol
    Annurban Annurban
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 4

    I'm just going to throw this out there.

    I'm not going to have erotic exchanges with others in EP. There is someone very special that holds my heart and deserves my devotion and loyalty. I wish to maintain my friendships on a platonic level. I also wish to continue to express myself openly here. Feel free to remove me...
    domagedangel domagedangel
    41-45, F
    5 Responses Mar 19

    "A man who views the world the same at fifty

    as he did at twenty has wasted thirty years of his life" - Muhammad Ali
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Nov 11, 2014

    This is something we all grow up to realize how

    much we change as a person. Some people don't change which is alright to you know not many people see themselves changing. In my opinion I have change throughout the years I grew to be this person who isn't afraid to stand up for something I believe or strongly feel about. For...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 24

    If I was the person I was 16 years ago,

    I would still be in diapers.
    SamKatochirika SamKatochirika
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Nov 3, 2015

    Time's nearly up on EP

    so I thought I would say a few things. To my first EP friend,AshleyakaPebbles, if you reading this I hope you are doing well. To the budding artists, keep going. Only constructive criticism is useful. To my fans, I may not have added you to my circle but I hope I kept you...
    comfi comfi
    56-60, M
    1 Response Apr 21

    I used to m'asturbate onto birds at a local

    park. Not a thing that I'm particularly proud of but I became quite good at it. I was taking zinc supplements so I was shooting massive loads and it became something of a sport to me. For anyone interested here is your best strategy. first, you need to find an isolated spot so...
    jasonBK1 jasonBK1
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Mar 24
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