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    gentlyyours707 gentlyyours707 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 28, 2014

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    Celebrating my 17th year of sobriety this

    August. The best decision I ever made.
    7lulu 7lulu 41-45, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    As i get older i really start to hate people

    more and more, i have never been a people person, a bad violent and abusive relationship changed me for the better or worse im really not sure
    ExtremeNext ExtremeNext 26-30, F 16 Responses Aug 27, 2014

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    EP has corrupted me! Lol I am thankful

    for the experience though, have learned a lot and met many awesome ppl along the way... Even some really special friends to share some of life's ups and downs with... Who actually can relate and understand. It's been well worth it! I feel blessed to have had this experience! It...
    CuriousCutiePie CuriousCutiePie 36-40, F 11 Responses Jul 7

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    How Times Have Changed

    Back in 1995, when I got my divorce I was lonely, scared, and exhilarated all at once living in rural Vermont...but trusting in God, I found my true calling as a screenplay writer...on my own, the Heavens parted and I was rewarded, by faith alone, a soul sister who guided me down...
    starryknight1999 starryknight1999 46-50 16 Responses Feb 9, 2012

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    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 15 Responses Oct 30, 2014

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    Respect yourself enough to walk away from

    anything that no longer serves you, grows you, or makes you happy.
    BlackWidowBaby BlackWidowBaby 41-45, F 5 Responses Dec 11, 2014

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    "A man who views the world the same at fifty

    as he did at twenty has wasted thirty years of his life" - Muhammad Ali
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    jfear3 jfear3 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I was a really naive young married mom,

    my world revolved around my family. Dumb, blind to what my friends and relatives saw....now I am looking back, relieved they took action to get me out of a bad situation. I breathe a bit easier for my kids now...and wish I hadn't wasted my time, the consequences were...
    Paced73 Paced73 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    Who is though? We will be what we'll be.

    We are our choices, and I've made a lot of choices in my life. And hopefully more will come to change myself for the better.
    Gauntlets28 Gauntlets28 18-21, M 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    How any times during my life do I have to

    become a different me until I don't know who I am anymore? All I know now that I am able to say say about me, "I am" but how many of my "I am's" am I and why I am not just one "I am" once? And am I who I am really me now? Just because I can say, "I am" now, does that mean...
    MyLady9 MyLady9 46-50, F 10 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    I'm older,wiser,not as naive.

    Life can make one very thick skinned and much tougher,when it knocks you down over and over again. So I live one day at a time,expecting nothing,yet I will survive through it all,to live better days...
    thebustierthebetter thebustierthebetter 46-50, M 15 hrs ago

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    I have changed so much in the last 2 years in

    so many ways. Sometimes I don't even recognise myself but that stops now I am going to take control of my life. I am going to go back to who I was. I guess life changes and circumstances do too but you should never allow yourself to change unless it makes you better. I am...
    Tofi786 Tofi786 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    I had so much courage

    when I was young..I wanted to do anything and everything,but now...nope. There are too many people that will judge so I'm gonna stay in my room,eating junk food,playing video games and hating life all night...anyone want to join me?
    DeAsiaWhitten DeAsiaWhitten 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Today marks 123 days of sobriety

    for me! I thought this would be a fun day to celebrate just because the numbers line up. Haha.
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F Nov 22, 2014

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    When I was younger I used to like bad boys.

    Now I prefer gentlemen. I think I learned to love myself so I could relate to the way I was being treated.
    7lulu 7lulu 41-45, F 4 Responses Jul 20

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    Funny how you try to do a good deed

    and people stab you in the back, I guess it's human nature. Makes me want to take off to the collective unconscious
    7lulu 7lulu 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 21

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    How many times have I told myself I was done?

    How many times have I given others advise? You can not change them. You can only change you & the way you respond. I decided yesterday- he will get out what he puts in... Today is my day. I'm taking me back... and part of my heart back, too. Send me crap messages you will get...
    loveCT loveCT 31-35, F 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Someone I really cared about lied to me

    and now I have trust issues.
    biliterally biliterally 26-30, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    When I was 20 I thought I knew everything.

    Then when I was 30, I realised I knew nothing. Now I'm in my forties I'm starting to know one or two things LOL
    7lulu 7lulu 41-45, F 9 Responses Jul 20

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    I have no idea what happened to me,

    but I've had a constant state of arousal after finding out my husband had an affair.
    lunabonita lunabonita 31-35, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    it's more I'm a freak

    and can be very freaky
    nole29 nole29 26-30, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    My journey hasn't been easy,

    but I'm still Standing Laughing Forgiving Loving Learning and Living I'm perfectly imperfect and unapologetically me!
    silverfox54 silverfox54 61-65, F 3 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    As a teenager I had friends,

    good ones, I loved wearing makeup, going to the gym, reading, History, art, music, I was interested in having friends and knowing more about everything and anything. I would wake up thinking about what exciting experience was awaiting, I loved school and I dreamed about being a...
    Commononesense Commononesense 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 18

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    Not sure that it is a good

    or bad thing....but my experiences have changed me
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses a week ago

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    U know those lil girls

    who have the brightest smile and there just the cutest thing ever and u know that she is ganna be like that 4 ever and u feel like nothing can harm her to ruin her......wel that lil girl once was me ......she died 10 years ago ......**** can happen in life and some changes r not...
    Rae203466 Rae203466 16-17, F 2 hrs ago

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    These days when people try to attack my self

    esteem, it just makes me more arrogant, I figure there must be something good about me for all that fuss that is made
    7lulu 7lulu 41-45, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Not the old pathetic me anymore

    who was trying hard to fit in before. Not the one who was craving for love, acceptance, understanding and friendship I have learned to love and value myself first before others ☺️
    imsoflhai imsoflhai 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    finally divorcing my husband was the best thing

    that I ever did. I still sometimes cry and get scared, and I am a little crazy still but I am getting better. I feel more beautiful and happy and safe than ever before!
    VanValentina VanValentina 36-40, F 13 Responses Oct 13, 2014

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    I think everyone agree with

    that Pain changes people. Because without pain, you will never know how strong you are. Personally, I think positive people, who never felt any neglect and fear are the weakest of all, and people who suffers a lot, and sacrifice, will always have this higher self esteem.
    Manuala Manuala 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 23, 2014

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    I managed to be social today :D I'm still

    pretty awkward but I was more social!
    RealisticSmile RealisticSmile 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Many people in my life just don't interest me

    anymore. I care for them, but I'm tired of them. I'm tired of dealing with people that don't get me the way that I hope for. It's annoying. It's tough. Im tired. I'm just so tired of it all.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jan 7

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    I used to laugh and joke freely

    and was a terrible flirt. Somehow, being with the person I'm with now has taken that out of me. I feel like a balloon that has slowly been losing air. My fault though. I know no one can change my situation but me.
    LonesumnTx LonesumnTx 51-55, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Fade to bleak........

    ................
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 20

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    7lulu 7lulu 41-45, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Hi ! My first semester back in school is

    ending. I want to thank my Dad and Mom for taking their rebellious daughter back under their authority and roof. Thank you for bringing Discipline and Love back into my life. I also want to thank all my EP friends who are helping advise, discipline, encourage, and express my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses May 5

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    life, over 7 months sober finally learning

    who i am. its pretty nuts. this is my first post on this site, its really nice to find a place to be open and honest and not have to worry about all the judges with their powdered wigs and raised eyebrows haha i'm happy today.
    Kogane Kogane 26-30, M 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    So where do we put the I've had a **** day I

    just need to vent story? The one where we had a crap day at work story? Then tell our boss... Oh My Gosh... we are on the brink of greatness when we sorta want to slit our wrists? The story where our lover's Mom is dying & BC he is married you can't even openly grieve or help...
    loveCT loveCT 31-35, F 5 Responses Jul 21

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    After being basically unemployed

    for over 2 years (minus a bullshit 4 hour a week job) I just got hired today for a full time cashiering job at a store I love to shop at. ALSO I AM 97 DAYS SOBER. Life is ******* great right now. :) To everyone who has had a hard time or who is going through a hard time- keep...
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    I was married & faithful

    for SO many years. We divorced. Now I don't care to be that person anymore. I was honest about it before I married my husband so he knows I want to be free to have other physical experiences if the right guy comes along at the right time. The young & ignorant will say WHAT...
    Walkalone9000 Walkalone9000 51-55, F 10 Responses May 27

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    I'm really not the person I used to be.

    . I used to be naive.. I used to be shy and quiet.. Now? Not anymore.. I used to keep everything for myself, my thoughts, opinions etc.. Now? I don't do that anymore.. I used to change myself so other would like me. Now? Not anymore.. I finally understood, if they like me...
    Fofitupida Fofitupida 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 27, 2014

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    I used to be outgoing happy care free just

    loved the outdoors friends and life...now over the years of having children I let myself become fat!!!!  Like in todays society the one disgusting thing that can be fixed and yet it seems like its a virus that keeps eating away at myself of who I am....I am  not...
    ZoeyIsadora ZoeyIsadora 26-30, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Today is 6 months, aka 184 days,

    since I stood up, took control of my life, and got sober from my drug addiction!
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 9 Responses Jan 20

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    You give and you give

    and they take. All they do is take. You put everything you are into something they don't even care about. You hope that one day they'll change their mind but they don't care about you the way you care about them. And this has happened what once? Twice? Too many times to count...
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F 3 Responses Dec 19, 2014

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    A Reason To Change.........

    When i was a kid,my father would sit by my bed every night  before i went to sleep and he would say to me-"son if you dont wake up tomorrow,if it turns out that today is your last day on earth,would you be proud of what you have done in this life?..........cause if you are not...
    Borne Borne 22-25, M 10 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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