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I Am Not the Person I Used to Be

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    Shes Gone And So Am I

    i am not who i used to be. i used to be out every night getting drunk and being the happiest girl ever smiling and laughing all the time happy in my 1 year relationship making new friends and partying all night long but now, i can barely even speak to anyone. i am depressed and...
    aloneinadarkroom aloneinadarkroom 16-17, F 4 Responses Oct 10, 2013

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    I Am Me~

    No, I am not the person that I used to be. My values have shifted; my needs and desires have totally shifted. If you knew me well thirty years ago, I think you would find me a stranger to your eyes today. I have experienced certain significant emotional events that have changed...
    hillbillycrone hillbillycrone 51-55, F 5 Responses May 17, 2012

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    My Long Journey

    During my marriage, I was so consumed with making sure that ALL of my husband's needs were met and that I did everything to help and support his efforts in being the man that he wanted to be and needed to be. I spent all my time focusing on him that I didn't realize how...
    Mahal1023 Mahal1023 46-50, F 30 Responses Nov 14, 2010

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    I Have Changed

    I'm not always quiet and shy. I have close friends now. I express some of my craziness to them, and I'm not completely alone anymore. I'm not that girl who doesn't talk to anyone anymore. I have changed.
    emipurple emipurple 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 10, 2013

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    Happy With New Me

    Life brings to us both good and bad times. I used to be a quiet person who keeps everything inside. Was a pessimist type of person. Due to problems in my parents I was never happy. But now I am a different person. I like to socialise with people and try to see the positive side...
    littlestars littlestars 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 14, 2012

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    Does fear cause real diarrhea

    or does it cause the feeling only ? http://livelifetothefullest.live-panic-free.com/2014/03/03/does-fear-cause-real-diarrhea-or-does-it-cause-the-feeling-only-.aspx Hey guys, sorry if this seems spammy, not my intention at all. I used to just paste my experiences in several...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Mar 4

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    I used to be to overly obsessed with

    materialistic endeavors and open to anyone and almost everything, after being used for this I have changed dramatically and no longer intend to ever be used and taken granted again. My carelessness has effected my close loved ones around me, but no more as I strive to better...
    Life1sinteresting Life1sinteresting 18-21, M Mar 29

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    The Wicked Days

    Glass eyes behind the gilded glasses. To peer into nothing and see something that resembles a fortune for the wicked children.
    GuedeBokor GuedeBokor 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 28, 2013

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    Having panic attacks?

    Here's some advice from Tyler Durden
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Mar 7

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    Some Of The Changes

    I'm going to do it Top Ten List style again. After all there are quite a lot of them. 1. I can no longer sleep with the lights on. Sometimes when I'm really tired yes, I'll wake up and see that the lights stay on the whole night. But usually, no way. Before when I was still...
    june1999 june1999 31-35, F 26 Responses Oct 8, 2009

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    I am happy now. More confident.

    Very much in love. I've finally found who I am... The girl I was before was just a ghost of who I wanted to be, but didn't have the courage to become.
    yousillyboy yousillyboy 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 2

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    He said my anger was very scary.

    He's seen it. He knows. He said he's not scared for himself, but he's afraid for what I can do. What will I do to those around me who love me? What will I do to those around me who don't? But mostly he's worried what will I do to me. I'm finally seeking help. This has been a...
    Missjayne1 Missjayne1 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 29

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    I was at the library today.

    I went there to print out my 1040 A form. There was a guy going up to the printer the same time that I was. Seemed young. Maybe between 21 or 23 years old. As I was reaching for my own paperwork I saw his. He was printing out a job resume. He asked me how I was doing and I said...
    GyeNyame GyeNyame 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 28

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    If I Could Forget

    If I could forget all I have felt Allowing all the memories to melt Forgetting the anger and anguish inside Accepting the present and losing the pride If I could only erase these welts that you placed Feeling a glimmer of joy, comfort embraced If I could open myself to you...
    soulrunher soulrunher 41-45, F 7 Responses Aug 18, 2013

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    When I was young I was loud,

    I loved sports, I barely passed my classes, and I got in fights all the time Not sure what exactly happened but I got really quiet, started watching anime, started playing games, I'm an A B student, and the only fight I got into lately wasn't really a fight but just what...
    Kanpe Kanpe 16-17, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I am not the person I used to be.

    I thought I was a good person but the recent events that have occurred in my life prove that I'm not. I used to be jolly—yes I was depressed, I've always been a depressed person but not like this. This is too much. I've gone angrier, selfish, developed self-loathing and I...
    thatbritishchick thatbritishchick 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 6

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    Earlier I used to trust people like anything.

    Every person i used to meet, I always thought is my friend. Then I started going to college for my graduation. For almost 2 years, my life was like a hell. There I realised people use u, throw u, play with ur emotions, are nice to u only when they have some work otherwise they...
    Rozashah Rozashah 22-25, F Feb 20

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    I used to be really really happy

    and crazy and fun. I was the girl in the group of friends who always had the plan for what cool thing to do today. I was all about going to music festivals, road trips, and parties... Some not so awesome things happened during my wild young years (well I'm only 19 now) And now...
    SadKittenOnLine SadKittenOnLine 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 23

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    I use to be so out going

    but now i feel so with drawn why have i changed the other way ?
    kuklinski69 kuklinski69 31-35, M 2 Responses Feb 21

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    Um yeah I have changed a lot.

    I used to be mean and now I'm really nice. But I also make a lot more bad decisions. I don't know why I do I just do. I am trying to become an all around good person and I feel like the first step is accepting the decisions and things I cannot change. I feel that I have grown as...
    lexiab123 lexiab123 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 14, 2013

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    What is a Panic AttackA very important question

    if you're struggling with this condition. You should really understanding exactly what's going on behind the scenes.So what is a PA?A sudden feeling of acute and disabling anxiety.`Ok, that's the textbook definition, but i don't think that clears things up too much so let's go l...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 23

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    I Want to Be the Person I Used to Be

    I used to be this unbelievably creative, appreciative child. If I wanted to do something nobody else was doing, I did it. My worries didn't bother me the way they do today. I understand that we all change with time, especially when we go from childhood to adolescence. However...
    prettypaperlanterns prettypaperlanterns 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 5, 2007

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    I have changed so much

    since my first year of middle school, I used to be this sort-of-chubby girl with a bobbed hair cut and raccoon eyes. I am now a Junior in high school, I no longer wear globs of makeup, or dress like my grandma picked out my clothes. I used to be bullied a lot in middle school...
    ThatDarnKatz ThatDarnKatz 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 15

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    SilverSabotage SilverSabotage 26-30, M Feb 26

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    Well

    born as a man brought up as a boy married and became a father but all the time i yearned to be a woman to dress look after the home cook and clean and look after my partner (female lesbian prefered) when can it happen?
    christinemelody christinemelody 56-60, T 3 Responses Nov 19, 2013

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    How Times Have Changed

    Back in 1995, when I got my divorce I was lonely, scared, and exhilarated all at once living in rural Vermont...but trusting in God, I found my true calling as a screenplay writer...on my own, the Heavens parted and I was rewarded, by faith alone, a soul sister who guided me down...
    starryknight1999 starryknight1999 41-45, M 18 Responses Feb 9, 2012

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    Because of him and how he loves me His touches

    so tender His Kisses so sweet His Body so muscular His Joy so deep within I am not the cold unloving person I use to be My life has changed because he came into it
    CajunAngel CajunAngel 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    I used to be a happy girl

    but now im not l all i do is cry and worry
    Sara99xx Sara99xx 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    I don't have the motivation to keep living.

    The only reason life goes on for me is because I couldn't imagine the pain my parents would have to go through if I killed myself. I always look at families and groups of friends longingly when I see them on Facebook or when I'm out, and I always wonder if I would reach that...
    tryingtobeashappyasiappear tryingtobeashappyasiappear 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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    I used to have friends.

    I used to be so loud. I used to care what people thought or said about me. I used to let people just push me around. I used to watch as people were being bullied for being fat, or ugly, or stinky, or gross because as embarrassing as this is to admit, I either agreed or selfishly...
    waytoonormal waytoonormal 16-17, F Feb 26

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    Used to have friends I could talk to

    forever Used to love being surrounded by people Used to love dancing, swimming, chilling Used to love my family especially my sister Used to be one of the smartest people in my class, got an A for everything but sport Used to be a healthy happy person always Used to have fun...
    Radjad Radjad 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 22

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    I'm Changed

    People is used to say ''you're changed"..''you are not the same person anymore" but they never ask ''why are you changed?''
    charliejr charliejr 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    How any times during my life do I have to

    become a different me until I don't know who I am anymore? All I know now that I am able to say say about me, "I am" but how many of my "I am's" am I and why I am not just one "I am" once? And am I who I am really me now? Just because I can say, "I am" now, does that mean...
    MyLady9 MyLady9 46-50, F 12 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    Whenever I shop or drive long distance I get

    depressed and inside I cry so no one will see it. I know it sounds crazy.
    i2s2 i2s2 51-55, M 4 Responses Mar 22

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    This time last year, I was somewhat happy,

    my depression wasn't as bad and I had friends and I actually left my house on weekends by getting inviting out to the mall with friends but now it's the complete opposite
    tgrayson27 tgrayson27 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 14

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    I Changed,

    I remember looking in the mirror and thinking this whole world was out to get me, that i was simply an imperfection in this puzzle of life and i was not ever meant to fit in. Everyday all i could think about was the bruises growing on my arm from my abusive foster parents, the...
    onelittlecat onelittlecat 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 3, 2013

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    I was always the type of person

    that was emotional and I would always be attached to anyone I met. I would cry over anything and I was driven to this state easily. I really don't know what happened to me but now I can't feel anything. I don't feel sadness, angriness, or feelings. I've never felt this good...
    katherinejaneee katherinejaneee 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 24

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    I used to be a functioning alcoholic.

    I used to go out and party with my co workers every night then go into work hung over. It was not pretty. I also used to be a really mean person. But then I realized that the place I was working was teaching me these bad habits, so I quit that job and got a new one where I was...
    valerieounknown valerieounknown 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    I'm not the person I used to be.

    I used to play sports religiously. I used to have so many friends and we would go out and have so much fun. Now I'm chronically ill, off to college and can't play sports, can't do fun activities and have no friends. I am dying to find something I am passionate about doing that I...
    desereelynn desereelynn 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 2

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    I used to be a person

    that was so happy and enjoyed life but now i find that there is no meaning to life. I feel so numb, being depressed has made me push away those who care and love me the most. Its so hard for me to fight through this when i have no strength or courage to do it. But its hard...
    cnguyen1997 cnguyen1997 16-17, F 4 Responses Feb 20

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    Bullying can really leave it's scars,

    however slowly but surely we gradually become stronger!
    EbonyC EbonyC 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    I Once Was Found And Now Am Lost.

    I was a strong christian for a long time. My faith gave me strength, value, direction, and a moral compas. I got to the point where I really wanted to move forward and give my entire life to my faith in reality, give up my own desires so i could serve the poor and fight for...
    cloudedjourney cloudedjourney 26-30, M 6 Responses Jun 1, 2012

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    mariehere23 mariehere23 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    A Reason To Change.........

    When i was a kid,my father would sit by my bed every night  before i went to sleep and he would say to me-"son if you dont wake up tomorrow,if it turns out that today is your last day on earth,would you be proud of what you have done in this life?..........cause if you are not...
    Borne Borne 22-25, M 10 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    I used to battle with self hatred,

    anxiety and depression for about 10 years of my life and although I have an disorder that I will have to live with for the rest of my life. I love myself far more than I ever have before. I have come such a long way and I am living proof that if you want to change and improve...
    vialeivia vialeivia 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 7

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    KryBesideTheRiver KryBesideTheRiver 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    We Are As The River Flows

    I once heard from a man say that people don't change. I disagree as change occurs in every second and every cell in our body. Just as the river it never stays at the same time or location. Perhaps I'm an optimist but all we have to do is look at nature. Everything breath is...
    Calviv11 Calviv11 36-40, F 5 Responses May 9, 2013

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    This town has really changed me.

    Total population from 2.2 million to 40,000 in the whole county. I don't roll in a lowrider Cadillac anymore, now it's a rusty Caprice, t-top Camaro, and Chevy pickups. I hang out with a bunch of rednecks and wear Carharrts with work boots, I go shooting pretty much every...
    sturmgewher44 sturmgewher44 18-21, M Apr 9

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    When I was younger, I was more attractive,

    more judgemental of others, more tolerant of people, and loved with all my heart. Now, I am older and so dissapointed with the way I've become. My husband has beat me down so badly that I think I don't even belong anywhere. He isolates me, tries to control every moment of my...
    ridinabroom ridinabroom 51-55 Feb 22

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    Dallas Realizations

    I recently travelled to Dallas to meet some of my amazing ep friends. As seems to be the norm rather than the exception these days, my flights ran late and I ended up spending some time at George Bush International, in Houston, TX. Disembarking from the plane in Houston, I...
    PeachesGalore PeachesGalore 46-50, F 8 Responses Oct 8, 2012

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    I was very conflicted with myself at one point

    in my life. My heart believed in one thing and my mind chased another. For some reason my mind kept winning the tug of war. I began to feel numb... My heart seemed to be missing in the equation. After a series of events unfolded. Then My heart began to beat again
    xOneLovex xOneLovex 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 11

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    Is it me? Everything is crumbling.

    Nothing makes sense. Relationships are broken. Bonds that should be permanent are severed, leaving behind ragged edges of frayed cord. I know I'm not wrong in facilitating the brokenness. It is time for me to be surrounded by people in my life who truly do love me. Family is...
    Missjayne1 Missjayne1 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 17

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    The Best Of Me ~

    They say that I am not to be trusted because I have a sparkle in my eye. They say that I always want things that I cannot have. They say that I am hiding the best of me because if exposed then I am weak. They say that I am cold hearted and unloving because my selfisness haunts...
    zonus zonus 31-35, M 6 Responses Sep 25, 2012

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    lunalight21 lunalight21 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 11, 2013

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    When I was 12 years old I believe there was a

    demon that got me addicted to self injury. From the age of 12 - 17, I put myself and family thru hurt and heartbreak. But we are strong and I beat the addiction. I am 1.5 years clean of self injury after two trips to mental hospitals and a lot of tears. Today I am not the person...
    paige5677 paige5677 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 30

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    I Lost Me

    Somewhere along the line, I lost the person that I used to be.  I don't know when it happened.  It must have been a slow loss that wasn't as noticable.  Now I have become so far removed from who I really should be (or was) that I'm not sure how to get back there...
    flowrpowr flowrpowr 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 5, 2007

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    Thank goodness for that.

    If I were, that means I haven't grown up yet (I mean, I'm still a kid at heart, but...you know, a little more mature :P)
    Whoami30 Whoami30 26-30, M 3 Responses Mar 24

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