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I Am Not the Person I Used to Be

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    As a teenager I had friends,

    good ones, I loved wearing makeup, going to the gym, reading, History, art, music, I was interested in having friends and knowing more about everything and anything. I would wake up thinking about what exciting experience was awaiting, I loved school and I dreamed about being a...
    Commononesense Commononesense 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 18

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    My Long Journey

    During my marriage, I was so consumed with making sure that ALL of my husband's needs were met and that I did everything to help and support his efforts in being the man that he wanted to be and needed to be. I spent all my time focusing on him that I didn't realize how...
    Mahal1023 Mahal1023 46-50, F 29 Responses Nov 14, 2010

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    I used to be all emo

    and goth and that.. kind of an scary jerk. Then I realized how stupid I was being.... and anyways that wasn't the real me. People like reality more... don't lie and try to be cool, don't lie and not try to be cool, do what you want and quit being intimidated and scared. "I...
    Denzebarrrn Denzebarrrn 18-21, M 2 Responses May 11

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    I wish I was the person I was

    when I was 18. Not fat, (fairly) confident, optimistic, secure and mostly, self-contained. Although, some of the elements of my current personality I actually do like.
    RealLifePerson RealLifePerson 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I was scared of sex once.

    Now it's rough or not at all.. Two years can bring out the best experiences in a relationship, for sure!
    LifeChangedMe LifeChangedMe 18-21, F May 11

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    my ex girlfriends kinda messed me up.

    I was the great awesome person and over the years of being cheated on, picked apart, and downed all the time, I started feeling like I was the bad person. then now I'm just an *******. I'm afraid to approach women cause I don't believe in myself nor think I am attractive. I don...
    playr435 playr435 22-25, M 9 Responses 4 days ago

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    finally divorcing my husband was the best thing

    that I ever did. I still sometimes cry and get scared, and I am a little crazy still but I am getting better. I feel more beautiful and happy and safe than ever before!
    VanValentina VanValentina 36-40, F 13 Responses Oct 13, 2014

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    Sometimes it takes the right voice

    or the right words from that oh so right person to lift you back up :)
    TheMeBMini25 TheMeBMini25 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    If we all didn't change

    and grow, life would be monotonous.
    2323Anonymous 2323Anonymous 51-55, F 1 Response May 11

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    TCL009 TCL009 41-45, F 3 Responses May 8

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    Not the old pathetic me anymore

    who was trying hard to fit in before. Not the one who was craving for love, acceptance, understanding and friendship I have learned to love and value myself first before others ☺️
    imsoflhai imsoflhai 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    Where is the "off"-switch

    for emotions? Does anyone else get those really badddd headaches after crying? Hate those!😖
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 12

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    Today marks 123 days of sobriety

    for me! I thought this would be a fun day to celebrate just because the numbers line up. Haha.
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F Nov 22, 2014

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    I'm not the sweet girl

    who would jump at the chance for anyone to talk to me anymore. I feel wiser and more responsible to my heart. I still get lonely of course but that hole isn't always filled with strangers.
    OohlalaMimi OohlalaMimi 16-17, F 1 Response May 9

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    I don't believe you have to be better

    than everybody else. I believe you have to be better than you ever thought you could be. :)
    PazzoG PazzoG 18-21, M May 3

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    LifeIsShitLetsEndIt LifeIsShitLetsEndIt 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 20, 2014

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    I Used To Be Happy And Lucky To Get Everything

    I Wanted But After My Mom Died And My Gram And Pop Got Custody Of Me .. I Just Changed Somehow And I Feel Like I'm Not Loved Enough And I'm Not Happy When I Get Things From My Dad And My Family.......
    Ariannah164 Ariannah164 13-15, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    I have been sexually assaulted twice

    and nearly almost rapped. I find it so hard to connect with men, even my boyfriend. I don't do lovey dovey things. I don't let him hold my hand or cuddle with me. If we have sex we have sex it's not making love to me. I don't think I'll ever find a man to truly love... I have...
    AttachmentIssues AttachmentIssues 16-17, F 9 Responses May 9

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    I am SO sick of being silenced!

    And made to feel like my opinions don't matter
    bearinmind bearinmind 36-40, F 10 Responses May 4

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    I had an anurisim fixed in my brain a couple

    months ago. Everything seems ok except food no longer tastes good. Anyone else familiar with this? What to do to fix?
    andrewbuss andrewbuss 51-55, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    My journey hasn't been easy,

    but I'm still Standing Laughing Forgiving Loving Learning and Living I'm perfectly imperfect and unapologetically me!
    silverfox54 silverfox54 61-65, F 3 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    You don't deserve me.

    After you cheated I started to know myself and become independent. You don't know me anymore I'm not the same person bc you taught me how to face the real world. Never to trust, have confidence, nor think that someone truly cares . You don't deserve me, but I hope you're doing...
    gkaren gkaren 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    I think everyone agree with

    that Pain changes people. Because without pain, you will never know how strong you are. Personally, I think positive people, who never felt any neglect and fear are the weakest of all, and people who suffers a lot, and sacrifice, will always have this higher self esteem.
    Manuala Manuala 18-21, F 6 Responses Sep 23, 2014

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    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 16 Responses Oct 30, 2014

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    How Times Have Changed

    Back in 1995, when I got my divorce I was lonely, scared, and exhilarated all at once living in rural Vermont...but trusting in God, I found my true calling as a screenplay writer...on my own, the Heavens parted and I was rewarded, by faith alone, a soul sister who guided me down...
    starryknight1999 starryknight1999 46-50, M 17 Responses Feb 9, 2012

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    Many people in my life just don't interest me

    anymore. I care for them, but I'm tired of them. I'm tired of dealing with people that don't get me the way that I hope for. It's annoying. It's tough. Im tired. I'm just so tired of it all.
    tabbi123 tabbi123 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 7

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    I'm just lying here wondering what happened.

    Reevaluating every single decision I've ever made that could've let up to this very moment where the best solution I could think of is to swallow a hand full of pill with vodka with no one home but my toddler who is in the other room. I'm not sure if this time there's no turning...
    bunszmcgee bunszmcgee 22-25, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    Loosing you was the second best thing to happen

    to me. Letting you go was the first.
    catherineeac catherineeac 13-15, F Dec 3, 2014

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    No matter how weird or lonely you feel

    which isn't a nice feeling I'm sure your all too aware...... It's nice to know your just another pea in a pod waiting or your other who is out there somewhere just waiting to be connected! #high5tonew4rends
    23yolo 23yolo 22-25, M May 10

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    I have become this evil women,

    I wish I could be happy again.
    Ridemywavvvve Ridemywavvvve 31-35, F 3 Responses May 11

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    Respect yourself enough to walk away from

    anything that no longer serves you, grows you, or makes you happy.
    BlackWidowBaby BlackWidowBaby 41-45, F 4 Responses Dec 11, 2014

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    After being basically unemployed

    for over 2 years (minus a bullshit 4 hour a week job) I just got hired today for a full time cashiering job at a store I love to shop at. ALSO I AM 97 DAYS SOBER. Life is ******* great right now. :) To everyone who has had a hard time or who is going through a hard time- keep...
    kittentoes kittentoes 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    Moving anymore is arduous.

    Every muscle, every joint groans complaining on the attempts in getting out of bed. My morale has abandoned ship as I sit on the side while the alarm sounds angrily. Hastily I silence the villain that awoken me from my slumber and curse the afternoon sun that brightens my room...
    FightingPhoenix FightingPhoenix 41-45, M 8 Responses 3 days ago

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    Nope, not the person I used to be

    and I'm glad. I am happy with the new me. :) :)
    EarlPhantomhive EarlPhantomhive 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    "A man who views the world the same at fifty

    as he did at twenty has wasted thirty years of his life" - Muhammad Ali
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Nov 11, 2014

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    I thought love is simple

    and could be found everywhere but that ain't the case. I thought love can overlook looks but clearly it couldn't in my case, cuz it ain't true love. I thought I am indestructible, justified and strong when in fact I'm weak and hide it with anger and being rude to others. I...
    Nual Nual 22-25, F 8 Responses 6 days ago

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    I want to go back to being the person I used to

    be strong , independent and self sufficient not scared and weak.
    amador01 amador01 46-50, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Seriously I'm no where to the person I used to

    be. I used to be the most innocent girl ever, and that changed. Know that song "She got her daddy's tongue and temper, her mouth could use a filter, god shook is head the day he built her, of but I bet he smiled." Yeah that describes me. I just love to raise h***. I raise a 2...
    DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt 16-17, F 1 Response May 8

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    I'm really not the person I used to be.

    . I used to be naive.. I used to be shy and quiet.. Now? Not anymore.. I used to keep everything for myself, my thoughts, opinions etc.. Now? I don't do that anymore.. I used to change myself so other would like me. Now? Not anymore.. I finally understood, if they like me...
    Fofitupida Fofitupida 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 27, 2014

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    A Reason To Change.........

    When i was a kid,my father would sit by my bed every night  before i went to sleep and he would say to me-"son if you dont wake up tomorrow,if it turns out that today is your last day on earth,would you be proud of what you have done in this life?..........cause if you are not...
    Borne Borne 22-25, M 10 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    gentlyyours707 gentlyyours707 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 28, 2014

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    My mother is helping me find myself again.

    She stayed up with me all night explaining to me methods to get over being lost. She reminded me that I was born with an inner strength that will always be there for me. She just gave me hope that I can become a whole person again if I put the effort into it. She gave me classic...
    BunniesCry BunniesCry 31-35, F 8 Responses Nov 10, 2014

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    I had a bad experience with my ex-best friend.

    Because of her, I shuttered. Because of her, I changed how I view friends. I hated friends and do not believe in it. Although, it has already been almost 3 years, I still hold a grudge against her. First year, we were besties, and always together. Second year, we were in...
    yinying7 yinying7 16-17, F 4 Responses May 12

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    am a God fearing man

    because of what have seen in life
    daviddante daviddante 51-55, M 1 Response May 13

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    batoulosama batoulosama 18-21, F 6 Responses May 11

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    I used to be very happy,

    hopeful and full of light but life dragged me down. it turned me into someone I don't like. I want to be that person again but I don't know how....
    mpthatsme mpthatsme 26-30, F 4 Responses May 4

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