I Am Not The Person I Want To Be Just Yet

I'm no where near the person that I would like to be but I'm always trying.

Kitti, we need this here so I'm adding it!  Great Idea!!!   Viva La Vida!

I have moments where I'm quite confident that I will be okay and be able to get past my problems and have a decent life.
I need to work on having more of those confident moments. I'm not terribly sure how I should be doing that...

I look in the mirror at this person staring back and at times I don't recognize my own reflection.  What I have become is nothing like the person that is inside of me trying so hard to break free.  Breaking free requires the...

I do have moments where I'm quite confident that I will be okay and be able to get past my problems and have a decent life.I need to work on having more of those confident moments. I'm not terribly sure how I should be doing that...

I was coming to write this down for you, so that you would stumble across the words and pull them up over yourself like a security blanket made of me.
I was planning of putting the words in the path that you would walk along so that you...

So on this 10th day of the 10th month of the year 2010, I pause for a moment to reflect on where I am/who I am as of right now. While I am not the person I want to be just yet, I AM getting there! This time last year I was down and out...

I guess I'll keep changing until I die, right?
it would be hard to be a person that you really wanted to be and then have to live out your life not discovering new things about yourself and not letting your experiences shape you.

Unfortunately, I am not the person I want to be just yet.  There's many things I would like.  I don't know if it'll happen or not and for now, dreams is all I can do.  Not a bad thing after all.  :)

But it is a work-in progress.  I hope to be who I want to be very soon.  It's hard to change though.  But I know I need to.  I want to be happy, and to do that, I need to make changes within myself.

I'm actually confused as to who I am right now.I guess I'm still trying to find out who I am.I used to be this good little girl who never did anything wrong, or well nothing really all that bad anyway. Never swore, drank, smoked, etc...

I look at myself, and I'm disgusted. I hate what I've become. I've let myself do this. I go out and drink, I cut, I have a terrible family life.... I don't even try anymore. I hate it. I've lost almost everyone I love... 
-- No...

I am slowly becomming the person I want to be. I have just recently graduated from collage at my ripe age :)...and have a career that I enjoy. My kids are well on their way to doing what they want and now I am slowly starting to work...

I am not sure if I ever will be...
But I think it is more about the "wanting to be better" which is more of the point...