I Am Not The Same Anymore

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    With Love And Thanks.

    All my life I have always been very self-aware.  Very observant of changes in myself both physically and mentally.  I suppose you could say that I am very much in touch with my own body and my own feelings.   The past year or so has been remarkable for me in...
    womaninbliss womaninbliss
    51-55, F
    9 Responses Apr 12, 2010

    And It's Good

    My in-laws treat me with more respect now. They have learned that I can talk back.
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort
    36-40, F
    14 Responses Apr 3, 2010

    Ever since my husband decided he didn't want me

    anymore, I've been so devastated and sad. Our divorce will be final within a couple days and it's still so raw. People keep telling me to move on but I say to what? A life of being alone and having many regrets? I've stopped caring about myself, don't even recognize who I am...
    lionessstrong lionessstrong
    46-50, F
    1 Response Apr 21, 2014

    Turn Turn Turn

      After nigh on 30 years in a profession that causes one to see the darker side of peoples characters I have changed so much from that vulnerable innocent lad that I was once was.I have made every effort NOT to allow my profession to change my character however that proved...
    garvan garvan
    51-55, M
    4 Responses Mar 27, 2012

    Not The Inner Me

    Have you ever been surrounded by a crowd of friends but yet you couldn't feel more alone ? I feel like this alot it's like they couldn't be more far away but yet their so close by. Laughing along but dyeing alittle more with each laugh. Contributing to the conversation but that...
    Underthesurface13 Underthesurface13
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 5, 2012


    I am tired of this. I am tired of the single life. I am tired of the fly-by-night encounters with women. I want some consistency. I want to be happy with the person I am with. I want some stability with them. I have figured out who I am, I am wanting to figure out who the...
    unanimously unanimously
    26-30, M
    1 Response Mar 30, 2013

    Anybody Else...

    Did one experience in your life change you so much that sometimes you react and once it's all over, ask yourself (why?). Trauma is a ***** but after a couple of years now I know it was a lesson I had to learn. Just wish it wasn't the lesson I had learned
    DYamaJii DYamaJii
    26-30, M
    Nov 20, 2012

    I Just Want To Be Who I Really Am

    No one knows about me, I am afraid to come out to anyone, I am married with 2 children, i'm not in love with my husband anymore, I am attracted to women. Most days I feel like no one will ever love me, I might as well just die. I just want to love another woman, accept me for who...
    deleted deleted
    Apr 19, 2013

    Not The Same

    Not the same,No more,Things changed,So did I,Never standin' still,Guess,Life goes on.
    stormcape3 stormcape3
    Sep 8, 2012

    Nothing Will Ever Be The Same Or Ok Ever Again Especially Me

    She was my sister, my best friend, the person who knew me best in the whole world. I remember when I realized that she wasn’t going to survive her heart condition. I was visiting her and my mom in September 2009. She was so tiny and frail looking, her lips and fingernails...
    deleted deleted
    Jul 24, 2012

    Due to my unfortunate past,

    I have changed. I became numb, I blocked out most of my emotions to try and protect myself; I am breakable. Over the last two years, I found myself with a boyfriend who seemed to love me for me. He understood me, he slowly started to break down my hard exterior. I told him...
    TheOneAndOnlyZella TheOneAndOnlyZella
    16-17, F
    Jul 19, 2014

    Very Painful .... But Funny...

    41-45, M
    3 Responses Apr 3, 2012

    And when I see people

    who act stupid like I used to, I try and help. But I can't lay them bring me down to their level.
    Swiitchiix Swiitchiix
    26-30, F
    Dec 28, 2013

    Lots Has Changed...

    Well its been a while since I wrote my last story on EP. From the last time I wrote so much has changed in my life and I am not sure if it's for the better or for the worse. I like to think I'm happy with how things are going in my life but I do feel like something is missing and...
    thesuitelife285 thesuitelife285
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Dec 23, 2012

    I was normal and healthy

    but then suddenly my world crushed down i got narcolepsy it ruined my life im only 15 and my school starts to go worser cause im so tired and sad.i was depressed when i was thirteen but i gladly am over it but sometimes that depress come back like for a day and then it goes away...
    Dumle Dumle
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 1, 2014

    I Don't F***king Care!

    I'm done with caring.I'm NOT doing anything to please anyone else anymore!I'm JUST f***king D.O.N.E.Done.
    lisa36 lisa36
    36-40, F
    1 Response May 22, 2011

    We all change with experiences.

    ..the challenge is to not let die our essence.This is so hard...I am broken,burn out and sad.Melancholy feeds me everyday with the bittersweet memories and dreams never come true.Feeling all is a lie...feeling I always end same way.I need a spark.I wanna cry but I cannot,I wanna...
    4biandu 4biandu
    31-35, F
    Jul 19, 2014

    Jesus saved me my face looks the same my frames

    not rearranged but I'm changed I promise I'm not the same
    mt090 mt090
    22-25, M
    Apr 27, 2014

    Have I Changed?

    I enlisted in the US Marine Corp. right after high school in 1963, and, yes, I'm an old buzzard. In high school, I was the class clown and always had a smile on my face. Bu that all changed when i shipped out to Vietnam. I changed from a teenager to a man overnight, and lost my...
    fuddnuttzz fuddnuttzz
    66-70, M
    1 Response Sep 2, 2012

    Reactions, Changes And Growing Concerns

    I am different since the earthquake. Some things that used to bother me just really don't anymore. I have a perspective that isn't as short sighted as it was before. I guess thats not a bad thing. I don't take for granted in quite the same way the things I took for granted...
    jellibeanz jellibeanz
    26-30, F
    13 Responses Apr 23, 2011

    I Wander Yet I Am Lost

    I look in the mirror and I don't recognize myself. I used to love not looking or feeling like I did before. It usually meant that I was carrying on with me life. Now, I'm just hollow...and when I try to ignore the feeling, I become emptier still. Saying "I'm not the same person...
    iamrae22 iamrae22
    22-25, F
    Nov 3, 2013

    What Have I Become?

    I am the shadow of an unknown figure slowly fading away within time Numbness aches through out my body as my mind is tortured with memories of hate This constant feeling of sharp, rusty blades slicing across my stomach and heart is what I truly deserve Not a single...
    Miffy Miffy
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 7, 2009


    How did this happen. I used to be loving, caring, loyal, faithful. I was a great person who used to bend over backwards for anybody at anytime and help out as much as I can. My wife has said to me that I'm not the person she fell madly in love with about 20 years ago. WHAT...
    Andrew38205 Andrew38205
    36-40, M
    Aug 2, 2012

    I'm not the same person I was

    even 6 months ago...I was...more emotional...less numb. I let people in even if it crushed me. I didn't care if my heart got broken, I thought it never would. People have noticed I'm different...They've said they liked the old me better. I think I'm stronger now..In some ways...
    deleted deleted
    Aug 30, 2015

    Nothing More Than A Cold Shadow Of My Former Self

    I am no longer the jovial innocent little girl I can barely recall. I've grown into this perverse, intellectual young woman with nothing left to lose and a lot to gain. I desire nothing more than to go back and undo the madness I've wrought upon myself. Simply for the sake of...
    MadamSinwell MadamSinwell
    18-21, F
    Jul 13, 2013

    Not The Same Anymore And Loving It...

    My outlook on life is amazing these days. I battled depression and anxiety for years because of a life I wasn't happy living. I had an abusive marriage and surrounded myself with people I thought were friends, only to find they loved belittling me behind my back. After going...
    candace56 candace56
    31-35, F
    1 Response Apr 7, 2012

    When I made my decision,

    well we made our decision on what was best for us at this age and that we were still in college and didn't have the financial abilities to support another life in October I thought that I would find a relief when it was over. As sad or twisted as that sounds. I thought the pain...
    asmit188 asmit188
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 16, 2014

    My Personlaity Has Changed...........

    About 7 years ago a tv fell on my head. at  first i felt nothing then i felt my face expressions looked funny and the feeling on one side of my face felt different,tight almost. My head feels blank sometimes,i forget things easily,i became more withdrawn and insecure about...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Feb 12, 2010

    Perceptions Of Reality

    As many of you know I have a friend that is an athlete but he isn’t your typical “dumb jock stereotype” and not a week goes by that he doesn’t send me something profound and wonderful to think about in my free time.  Today he sent me...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    46-50, F
    26 Responses Nov 20, 2009


    I used to be fun,confident and out going but i fell for this boy,He's a great person, and i know that he loves me, I just feel like being in a relationship is suffocating me, and even when we broke up for like "two days", we went back together only 'cause i couldn't handle being...
    Capricorn94 Capricorn94
    22-25, F
    Mar 18, 2013

    I have changed a lot through these past years,

    with new experiences and new mistakes I've made, and yet to make. I used to be a lot more open minded about the world and everyone in it, but then again, most children are until their minds have been corrupted by the views of today's society. I hope to capture the essence of my...
    musicislife00 musicislife00
    18-21, F
    Apr 18, 2014

    Drain Bamaged Part 2

      I have been through emotional and psychological hell in my life. Constant repetionion of moving ( 78 times) and losing everything I own over and over.   Since the attack and subsequent brain damage I've noticed something. I no longer get depressed for any length...
    bitterdregs bitterdregs
    46-50, F
    7 Responses Mar 22, 2010

    People have changed my soul

    and ways of thought I am tired of being walked on and mother .uckers not respecting me or others I hate that I shows my sister and friend how to rap they turned into controlling monsters im the star .ucking learn and live with it I hate making music and sinking my heart into it...
    26-30, M
    Apr 27, 2014

    I will never be the same never,

    I had two loving women in my life true love left my wife my high school sweetheart for a girl I deeply fell in love with and she and I were perfect it was as if it were meant to be but I could not get how I hurt my wife my best friend out of my head so the past ruined me and my...
    almostperfectme almostperfectme
    41-45, M
    1 Response Dec 12, 2013

    I Am Very Happy.

    I am so thankful to God that I am not the same person anymore.It is for the better. I have changed and I am very much so at peace. This was along time coming. I have really been reading and studying and spending time with God. I have decreed things into my life. In Matthew Jesus...
    iamchanging iamchanging
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Nov 17, 2010

    The Day My Music Died

    I woke up this morning from a horrible dream. I feel empty inside, my soul seems to have left with you. Worse of all, you took my music with you. I made promises to you and to myself and don't seem to be able to keep, but I wonder why? It seems to me that If I made everything...
    deleted deleted
    Jul 31, 2013

    Experience Is The Best Teacher

      It has been a bit since I have posted here. This was one of those spur of the moment things that I was grasping rather frantically for something to pour some energy into. I was hoping to find a sanctuary for my thoughts. Someplace to come to, and unwind. It has now...
    unanimously unanimously
    26-30, M
    Dec 23, 2012

    I've Changed For The Better

    I am not the same anymore.  I feel lighter, hopeful, grateful,and more at peace with myself. I can finally take a compliment more easily, without having the need to bring myself down. I can finally speak to people more easily. I can finally wake up in the morning...
    ArabellaBlythe ArabellaBlythe
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Apr 12, 2010

    Change Back

    Once upon a time... There was a young fairy who lived in the world of creatures and beasts. The black dragons who blind with their acid breaths; the leviathans who attack and crushes; the gremlins who would work against you; the trolls who use unintelligent means of onslaught...
    Sylphy Sylphy
    41-45, F
    63 Responses Apr 4, 2010

    I wish I was. Now negativity is eating me up.

    It's starting to show. The past three weeks consisted of crying myself to sleep, and trying hard not to push people away. I worked on myself for more than a year just to not feel this way again and now I'm back to my old ways in just a month.
    jenna4xa jenna4xa
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 7, 2016

    If I Hadn't I Would Be Doing Something Wrong

    Of course I am not the same any more. I've changed, I've grown and I have learnt from life. If I hadn't I would be doing something wrong. I am not the same any more, but that's because I am growing as a person, learning from my past experiences and moving towards my future.
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp
    26-30, M
    Dec 5, 2012


    I'm not the same as yesterday, or even the day before. I've had many people enter my life, and lost a few more. Today you may see one facet of me, something that strikes a cord. Tomorrow I will have changed again, even if you haven't grown bored. The next day things will seem...
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody
    31-35, F
    8 Responses Sep 8, 2010


    I had an experience with hypnosis when I was in my late teens.  It unblocked many memories that were previously blocked.  Even though I was aware of these experiences the hypnosis had an effect on my personality and I was never the same afterwards.  Unfortunately...
    IamGone IamGone
    41-45, M
    4 Responses Nov 18, 2009

    She Is Gone....

    Once happy go lucky, her energy would flow around her, so much people around her would feel it and feel her warmth, made them feel good. Laughter and smiles across her face, showing everyone life was okay, as she would go about her day, expressions exhibited it all. She made...
    DarkThornedLilyRose43 DarkThornedLilyRose43
    46-50, F
    Aug 8, 2013

    Who Is?

    Again, lol, see title.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response May 30, 2010

    Things Won't Be The Same Again

    I haven't been on a walk, or baked one cookie in I don't know how long... Me and my dad used to go on walks ALL the time. For NO particular reason. If we were bored, we'd charge up our music, and go. It was that simple. Sometimes we talked. I remember we both had got tired of...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Aug 12, 2013

    my mom and siblings said

    before that I was very shy and sensitive and that I was afraid to stand up for myself but after everything I have been through I've become stronger now, I'm not so shy anymore, I usually stand up for myself and I am not sensitive anymore. And I like who I am today :) but I am to...
    hope02345 hope02345
    16-17, F
    Jan 25, 2015

    I'm Trying To Be "me".....

            <3 I have spent a lot of time trying to figure myself out. I never knew just how messed up & complicated I made things. lol. Everyday, I change a little bit more. Sometimes for the better, & sometimes not so much. It is a...
    MaidenWolf MaidenWolf
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 10, 2009

    My Journey

    I've changed a lot these past few years. I thought I knew what it was that I wanted, what path it was that i wanted to take. Yet here I am again. When I was younger I was angry at the world, but mostly at myself, I felt so sorry for myself, and I was searching for answers...
    CoolHearted CoolHearted
    36-40, F
    12 Responses Feb 3, 2011

    I Changed For The Better

    So Ill be honest my teen years were kind rough for me I mean the first obstacle I had to face was that I had a learning disability and to be honest at first it didn't make me feel so good and I just totally gave up. I also faced bullies at school who would make fun of me all the...
    Liz5589 Liz5589
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 8, 2010

    Life Changes People

    school, marriage, kids, careers, family, friends. just a few things that makes people change. i am not who i use to be. i am a new and improved me. a better person who has learned a lot in life. one who has lived. one who is still living with different views now. is anyone really...
    chey20002001 chey20002001
    31-35, F
    37 Responses Mar 7, 2011

    Experience Changed Me

    There was a time I would cry if you wanted to leave me, but now I say go ahead, I deserve better.
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort
    36-40, F
    19 Responses Nov 7, 2009

    No one knows the madness within me.

    No one bothers to notice. They don't feel what I feel. They don't see the darkness closing in around me. They see only what they want to see. The truth evades their senses, and exists only inside of myself. I'm the only one who knows the extent to which I am drawn out...the...
    iamrae22 iamrae22
    22-25, F
    Oct 3, 2015

    Im Not

    im a stronger person i dont let just anyone in i set boundries,wen ppl cross thm i gt rid of thm not in a evil way but they sure aint gonna be mi friend....ive had to bad realationships and they were serious relationships so mi solution dnt gt serious dnt fall in love nd tht way...
    Alwaysandforever29 Alwaysandforever29
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 19, 2011

    One Day Your Whole Life Can Change

    Everyone in the world has a story and all the things that happen to us make us who are today.  I don't think for a minute that I have more heartbreak and loss than other people.  It's just that i think I hit the wall on how much I could tolerate.  2 years ago when my sister...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses May 29, 2012

    This **** has changed me.

    To suddenly find myself completely alone at my age has hit me hard. I feel like no one cares. I feel like I do not matter. I feel no purpose. I feel like I do not matter to anyone. I do not even know why I am still alive. I mean, what's the point?
    campcrazy campcrazy
    51-55, M
    7 Responses Dec 28, 2013
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