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I Am Not The Same Anymore

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    What Have I Become?

    I am the shadow of an unknown figure slowly fading away within time Numbness aches through out my body as my mind is tortured with memories of hate This constant feeling of sharp, rusty blades slicing across my stomach and heart is what I truly deserve Not a single...
    Miffy Miffy 16-18, F 3 Responses Nov 7, 2009

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    Firepit Epiphany

    The other day I was sitting around a campfire with a friend of mine from many years ago. We were talking about high school and all the people we know when I suddenly looked at her and asked her of a year ago she saw herself being the way she was. I remembered that a year ago I...
    Canadianwithirish Canadianwithirish 16-17, F Jul 6, 2012

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    I Changed Allot This Year

    I have changed allot from the start of this year to this current date. Some people that know me have notice that with me too. The reason for this change is all these different events that happen to me. I learn I have very limited trust in people and it won't be easy for me to...
    ChillyWilly82 ChillyWilly82 31-35, M Aug 24, 2013

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    If I Hadn't I Would Be Doing Something Wrong

    Of course I am not the same any more. I've changed, I've grown and I have learnt from life. If I hadn't I would be doing something wrong. I am not the same any more, but that's because I am growing as a person, learning from my past experiences and moving towards my future.
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 22-25, M Dec 5, 2012

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    Not The Same

    Not the same,No more,Things changed,So did I,Never standin' still,Guess,Life goes on.
    stormcape3 stormcape3 46-50 Sep 8, 2012

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    Enough.

    I am tired of this. I am tired of the single life. I am tired of the fly-by-night encounters with women. I want some consistency. I want to be happy with the person I am with. I want some stability with them. I have figured out who I am, I am wanting to figure out who the...
    unanimously unanimously 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 30, 2013

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    Weak.

    I used to be fun,confident and out going but i fell for this boy,He's a great person, and i know that he loves me, I just feel like being in a relationship is suffocating me, and even when we broke up for like "two days", we went back together only 'cause i couldn't handle being...
    Capricorn94 Capricorn94 18-21, F Mar 18, 2013

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    My Journey

    I've changed a lot these past few years. I thought I knew what it was that I wanted, what path it was that i wanted to take. Yet here I am again. When I was younger I was angry at the world, but mostly at myself, I felt so sorry for myself, and I was searching for answers...
    CoolHearted CoolHearted 36-40, F 12 Responses Feb 3, 2011

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    I Will Do What I Feel >>>i Will Not Changed For Anyone

    be myself do take all the life i a funny way even life problems i will find a way to resolve my problems. i found that every day every one will be in a mood. today i am so nerves today i want to make love softly toady i am lazy *** today i want you beside me every moment today...
    mataroly mataroly 31-35, M Jul 27, 2012

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    My world has changed

    and has opened my eyes to life the out there. Everyday I have the gift of life inside of me. I intend to be grateful for everyday and what it bestows upon me. It does not matter if it is dark or light, cold or warm, or if I am alone or surrounded by my fellow man. God has given...
    Graceful22 Graceful22 26-30, F Feb 9

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    I'm Trying To Be "me".....

            <3 I have spent a lot of time trying to figure myself out. I never knew just how messed up & complicated I made things. lol. Everyday, I change a little bit more. Sometimes for the better, & sometimes not so much. It is a...
    MaidenWolf MaidenWolf 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 10, 2009

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    Lots Has Changed...

    Well its been a while since I wrote my last story on EP. From the last time I wrote so much has changed in my life and I am not sure if it's for the better or for the worse. I like to think I'm happy with how things are going in my life but I do feel like something is missing and...
    thesuitelife285 thesuitelife285 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 23, 2012

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    Just Exisiting

    Once upon a time I was happy, outgoing, I loved swimming, skiing, camping, was in martial arts, I had dreams and looked forward to the future, foster care changed that, changed me.Today I am 33 and a shell of a person. I don't really no who I am. I am incredibly shy and when...
    NobodiesDaughter NobodiesDaughter 31-35, F Oct 16, 2013

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    Socialy Awqward

    i used to be the loudest girl and i was never shy i had a tone of friends and made at least 1 new friend every day for about 3 years. but then i went out with this guy for 2 years who broke my personality, people used to call me Dizzi now nobody knows my name. i feel overly...
    DizziMay DizziMay 18-21 1 Response Jul 12, 2010

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    I will never be the same never,

    I had two loving women in my life true love left my wife my high school sweetheart for a girl I deeply fell in love with and she and I were perfect it was as if it were meant to be but I could not get how I hurt my wife my best friend out of my head so the past ruined me and my...
    almostperfectme almostperfectme 36-40, M 1 Response Dec 12, 2013

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    Very Painful .... But Funny...

       I WANT TO SHARE SOMETHING I DID, & I DIDN'T KNOW WHICH OF THE "GROUPS" TO POST IT IN, SO I JUST DECIDED TO POST IT IN THIS GROUP.    I WAS 19 AT THE TIME. I FELT SO TIRED & DOWN ALL THE TIME. I WANTED TO FEEL "PERKY & ALIVE" I WANTED A NEW ME. I'M A PRETTY CRAFTY KIND OF A...
    LITTLEBOYINSIDE LITTLEBOYINSIDE 41-45, M 3 Responses Apr 3, 2012

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    And It's Good

    My in-laws treat me with more respect now. They have learned that I can talk back.
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort 36-40, F 15 Responses Apr 3, 2010

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    My Personlaity Has Changed...........

    About 7 years ago a tv fell on my head. at  first i felt nothing then i felt my face expressions looked funny and the feeling on one side of my face felt different,tight almost. My head feels blank sometimes,i forget things easily,i became more withdrawn and insecure about...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Feb 12, 2010

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    I have changed a lot through these past years,

    with new experiences and new mistakes I've made, and yet to make. I used to be a lot more open minded about the world and everyone in it, but then again, most children are until their minds have been corrupted by the views of today's society. I hope to capture the essence of my...
    KT98 KT98 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Im Not

    im a stronger person i dont let just anyone in i set boundries,wen ppl cross thm i gt rid of thm not in a evil way but they sure aint gonna be mi friend....ive had to bad realationships and they were serious relationships so mi solution dnt gt serious dnt fall in love nd tht way...
    Alwaysandforever29 Alwaysandforever29 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 19, 2011

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    Notice, I Have Changed

    It has been a year since I signed up for Experience Project, and I have changed.  My attitude towards myself and life, has improved.  Life is much more easier than it use to be.   However, I reflected about my past and learned to let go of the...
    BellaFairy BellaFairy 22-25, F 7 Responses Apr 28, 2010

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    Nothing More Than A Cold Shadow Of My Former Self

    I am no longer the jovial innocent little girl I can barely recall. I've grown into this perverse, intellectual young woman with nothing left to lose and a lot to gain. I desire nothing more than to go back and undo the madness I've wrought upon myself. Simply for the sake of...
    MadamSinwell MadamSinwell 18-21, F Jul 13, 2013

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    Different.

    I am not the same person that I was last year. Or even last month. Every day is changing me. Every challenge, a fight that I get every day is a step. I am grateful for life, destiny. I am grateful for everything that I've gone through. Those moments made me who I am today. A...
    different33 different33 18-21, F Jul 1, 2012

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    Turn Turn Turn

      After nigh on 30 years in a profession that causes one to see the darker side of peoples characters I have changed so much from that vulnerable innocent lad that I was once was.I have made every effort NOT to allow my profession to change my character however that proved...
    garvan garvan 46-50, M 4 Responses Mar 27, 2012

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    Who Is?

    Again, lol, see title.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 30, 2010

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    Drain Bamaged Part 2

      I have been through emotional and psychological hell in my life. Constant repetionion of moving ( 78 times) and losing everything I own over and over.   Since the attack and subsequent brain damage I've noticed something. I no longer get depressed for any length...
    bitterdregs bitterdregs 46-50, F 7 Responses Mar 22, 2010

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    Life Changes People

    school, marriage, kids, careers, family, friends. just a few things that makes people change. i am not who i use to be. i am a new and improved me. a better person who has learned a lot in life. one who has lived. one who is still living with different views now. is anyone really...
    chey20002001 chey20002001 26-30, F 38 Responses Mar 7, 2011

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    Not The Inner Me

    Have you ever been surrounded by a crowd of friends but yet you couldn't feel more alone ? I feel like this alot it's like they couldn't be more far away but yet their so close by. Laughing along but dyeing alittle more with each laugh. Contributing to the conversation but that...
    Underthesurface13 Underthesurface13 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 5, 2012

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    Experience Changed Me

    There was a time I would cry if you wanted to leave me, but now I say go ahead, I deserve better.
    LordVoldemort LordVoldemort 36-40, F 23 Responses Nov 7, 2009

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    I was normal and healthy

    but then suddenly my world crushed down i got narcolepsy it ruined my life im only 15 and my school starts to go worser cause im so tired and sad.i was depressed when i was thirteen but i gladly am over it but sometimes that depress come back like for a day and then it goes away...
    Dumle Dumle 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    Hypnosis

    I had an experience with hypnosis when I was in my late teens.  It unblocked many memories that were previously blocked.  Even though I was aware of these experiences the hypnosis had an effect on my personality and I was never the same afterwards.  Unfortunately...
    IamGone IamGone 41-45, M 4 Responses Nov 18, 2009

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    Things Won't Be The Same Again

    I haven't been on a walk, or baked one cookie in I don't know how long... Me and my dad used to go on walks ALL the time. For NO particular reason. If we were bored, we'd charge up our music, and go. It was that simple. Sometimes we talked. I remember we both had got tired of...
    CharleeLuv CharleeLuv 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 12, 2013

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    I Am Very Happy.

    I am so thankful to God that I am not the same person anymore.It is for the better. I have changed and I am very much so at peace. This was along time coming. I have really been reading and studying and spending time with God. I have decreed things into my life. In Matthew Jesus...
    iamchanging iamchanging 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 17, 2010

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    This **** has changed me.

    To suddenly find myself completely alone at my age has hit me hard. I feel like no one cares. I feel like I do not matter. I feel no purpose. I feel like I do not matter to anyone. I do not even know why I am still alive. I mean, what's the point?
    campcrazy campcrazy 46-50, M 7 Responses Dec 28, 2013

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    Not The Same Anymore And Loving It...

    My outlook on life is amazing these days. I battled depression and anxiety for years because of a life I wasn't happy living. I had an abusive marriage and surrounded myself with people I thought were friends, only to find they loved belittling me behind my back. After going...
    candace56 candace56 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 7, 2012

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    And when I see people

    who act stupid like I used to, I try and help. But I can't lay them bring me down to their level.
    Swiitchiix Swiitchiix 22-25, F Dec 28, 2013

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    I Changed For The Better

    So Ill be honest my teen years were kind rough for me I mean the first obstacle I had to face was that I had a learning disability and to be honest at first it didn't make me feel so good and I just totally gave up. I also faced bullies at school who would make fun of me all the...
    Liz5589 Liz5589 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 8, 2010

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    Change Back

    Once upon a time... There was a young fairy who lived in the world of creatures and beasts. The black dragons who blind with their acid breaths; the leviathans who attack and crushes; the gremlins who would work against you; the trolls who use unintelligent means of onslaught...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 82 Responses Apr 4, 2010

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    The Day My Music Died

    I woke up this morning from a horrible dream. I feel empty inside, my soul seems to have left with you. Worse of all, you took my music with you. I made promises to you and to myself and don't seem to be able to keep, but I wonder why? It seems to me that If I made everything...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 31, 2013

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    I was here before and i was

    so different.. i was very depressed. I met someone who helped me, she lifted my spirits with her kindness and i was inspired. I was everywhere here, answering questions commenting on stories. I found i had something to give. words of support and encouragement. I helped people...
    onestarrynight onestarrynight 51-55, M 3 Responses Mar 2

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    No I Guess Im Not

    but I dont think Id have it any other way. Im not saying Ive changed for the better, because I still have a lot of bad qualities, but Ive come to accept who and what Ive become. Things happen for a reason and Im begining to become ok with that I guess. In the next few years I...
    hardc0recandy hardc0recandy 22-25, F Jul 1, 2012

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    Take Places

    Now I feel conflicting feelings against my thinking Convergence after 4 months of work together. Starting in dating. Friendship of two years. Marriage is declared. Traveling with her parents and the dimension for a year. She comes back to Egypt and our marriage legitimate. The...
    mataroly mataroly 31-35, M Jul 27, 2012

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    I Am Who I Am

    Two years ago I wouldn't be writing this with a positive attitude. I have been through something that changed my life forever. Thats okay though because I love who I am I love who I am becoming. After my traumatic experience I wasn't the same. I was so sad and always depressed. I...
    shellzz shellzz 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 29, 2012

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    Experience Is The Best Teacher

      It has been a bit since I have posted here. This was one of those spur of the moment things that I was grasping rather frantically for something to pour some energy into. I was hoping to find a sanctuary for my thoughts. Someplace to come to, and unwind. It has now...
    unanimously unanimously 26-30, M Dec 23, 2012

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    Reactions, Changes And Growing Concerns

    I am different since the earthquake. Some things that used to bother me just really don't anymore. I have a perspective that isn't as short sighted as it was before. I guess thats not a bad thing. I don't take for granted in quite the same way the things I took for granted...
    jellibeanz jellibeanz 26-30, F 14 Responses Apr 23, 2011

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    I Just Want To Be Who I Really Am

    No one knows about me, I am afraid to come out to anyone, I am married with 2 children, i'm not in love with my husband anymore, I am attracted to women. Most days I feel like no one will ever love me, I might as well just die. I just want to love another woman, accept me for who...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 19, 2013

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    She Is Gone....

    Once happy go lucky, her energy would flow around her, so much people around her would feel it and feel her warmth, made them feel good. Laughter and smiles across her face, showing everyone life was okay, as she would go about her day, expressions exhibited it all. She made...
    DarkThornedLilyRose43 DarkThornedLilyRose43 41-45, F Aug 8, 2013

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    Help!

    How did this happen. I used to be loving, caring, loyal, faithful. I was a great person who used to bend over backwards for anybody at anytime and help out as much as I can. My wife has said to me that I'm not the person she fell madly in love with about 20 years ago. WHAT...
    Andrew38205 Andrew38205 36-40, M Aug 2, 2012

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    I Have Changed

    I am not the same immature little girl you met when you were younger, I am not the same shy little girl who took crap from everyone I have changed, I am a Unbreakable, Mature, kindhearted, outgoing, strong, independent grown woman..  I may have changed in many ways but in...
    BadBitchMentality BadBitchMentality 18-21, F Jun 21, 2010

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    Anybody Else...

    Did one experience in your life change you so much that sometimes you react and once it's all over, ask yourself (why?). Trauma is a ***** but after a couple of years now I know it was a lesson I had to learn. Just wish it wasn't the lesson I had learned
    DYamaJii DYamaJii 22-25, M Nov 20, 2012

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    I Don't F***king Care!

    I'm done with caring.I'm NOT doing anything to please anyone else anymore!I'm JUST f***king D.O.N.E.Done.
    lisa36 lisa36 36-40, F 2 Responses May 22, 2011

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    Thats Life !!

    I have both seen, and felt myself changing  over the years, my opions, my feelings towards people, places and things. A result of living, and not only does it change you, its like prayer it changes the people around you too !! 
    libertybalanced libertybalanced 46-50, F Jun 28, 2012

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    I Wander Yet I Am Lost

    I look in the mirror and I don't recognize myself. I used to love not looking or feeling like I did before. It usually meant that I was carrying on with me life. Now, I'm just hollow...and when I try to ignore the feeling, I become emptier still. Saying "I'm not the same person...
    iamrae22 iamrae22 22-25, F Nov 3, 2013

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    I've Changed For The Better

    I am not the same anymore.  I feel lighter, hopeful, grateful,and more at peace with myself. I can finally take a compliment more easily, without having the need to bring myself down. I can finally speak to people more easily. I can finally wake up in the morning...
    ArabellaBlythe ArabellaBlythe 18-21, F 6 Responses Apr 12, 2010

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    Have I Changed?

    I enlisted in the US Marine Corp. right after high school in 1963, and, yes, I'm an old buzzard. In high school, I was the class clown and always had a smile on my face. Bu that all changed when i shipped out to Vietnam. I changed from a teenager to a man overnight, and lost my...
    fuddnuttzz fuddnuttzz 66-70, M 1 Response Sep 2, 2012

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