I Am Not the Same Person I Used to Be

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    I Guess Its Me That Changed

    I used to be a trusting, understanding, and innocent person. I no longer any of those things. The past ninteen years have gave me a fast and hard look into the reality of lfe. Helping to raise a little girl while caring for my ailing grandma untill she got ill went to hospital...
    thenewestdaughter thenewestdaughter
    36-40, F
    Aug 6, 2012

    This topic definitely matches.

    I used to be this really shy kid who would cry once my mom would go out of my sight. I remember I would run out if class in school and go look for my mom. I used to cry a lot too. But I was constantly protected by this strong and nice people call friends and family...
    SugarDoughnut SugarDoughnut
    13-15, M
    Sep 7, 2014

    Thank You!!!

    I thank God that I am not the same person that I use to be. When I first came to EP I was very angry and bitter from from a divorce I did not want from a woman who did not love me. Since then I have found the grace and love to be able to forgive her and to get rid of all the...
    LateNightGuy LateNightGuy
    41-45, M
    3 Responses Nov 23, 2009

    Flip-turn Upside-down

    Sure, on the exterior, I'm the same old happy go lucky, hyper me.  But whiles ago, I used to be one of those religious people that are all about "God" and making the right choices.  I used to be so caught up in doing everything that was dubbed by society...
    XCRevolution XCRevolution
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 21, 2009

    I used to be the meanest

    and most self-serving person. Friends from that time refuse to associate with me, even when I contact them with sincere apologies. I'm much better now - completely different in my actions. I still have the angry thoughts and selfish desires, but they don't get acted upon because...
    LifeDispenser LifeDispenser
    36-40, M
    1 Response Sep 7, 2014

    When you look back over

    who you are now and who you once was, it can either be rewarding or heartbreaking... I am so disappointed in myself. I've turned into everything I once hated. But, the thing is, the person I once was, she was boring... who I am now, well I don't plan everything, I take...
    ItsThatGirl0x0 ItsThatGirl0x0
    18-21, F
    Feb 10, 2015

    Change

    I always think about this, but always feel the same way in the end - that there is this inner core that is still the same and may always be the same. I've picked up experiences throughout my short time here and I might seem different, but I'm still me. Nothing ever really goes...
    ForestSong ForestSong
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 7, 2010

    I Have Only Gotten Worse

    Starting off with my physical self, well it's only deterioration from there. My eye sight has gotten a lot worse, especially since I have started wearing glasses.  My hearing gets worse, especially since I started listening to music.  My sense of taste, I dunno...  Nothing is...
    XxJamberxX XxJamberxX
    18-21, F
    Dec 25, 2012

    You Wouldn't Have Liked Me Very Much.

    I was selfish,mean and devious.I went after whatever I wanted and took it consequences be damned.Friendship and loyalties meant nothing to me. I never thought about how my actions would hurt others and when I did think about it ,well it was to bask in the awfulness of revenge...
    februarydays februarydays
    51-55, F
    1 Response May 18, 2012

    Once upon a time ago,

    I was a messed up, hurtful person, head full of trouble, cars from an un-human past that has made me the monster I was, people took all my innocence, abused me in ways you just do not abuse people, their hatred destroyed me, always told all growing up I would be nothing...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jun 3, 2015

    In Some Ways At Least...

    ~ In other ways, I am still very much the same. I'm not as quick to put myself down, but I still carry a lot of blame around. I'm not as quick to stuff my feelings down, but I do still internalize anger. I'm not as full of self hatred, but I do tend to have a hard time...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 18, 2009

    I do everything for myself

    and my kids now. I bear my responsibility as a dad and provider now and joyfully. I have a God that empowers this and backs me up. I am the man only a fool would leave . Consequences is a good teacher. Grateful for the change I havr made. I love me !
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Apr 26, 2015

    Back When I Was Myself

    There used to be weeks at a time when I felt high on life and I was foolish enough to think that life would always feel perfect. Smiles didn't crack my face, my words didn't betray me so easily. I used to laugh constantly and be friends with everyone. The world used to glitter...
    lostinwunderland lostinwunderland
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 20, 2012

    The Lion Rests

    Hindsight is always 20/20. I was a hellraiser and a heartbreaker in my youth. I was an addict, cocaine was my first love, speed, weed, and mushrooms were my mistresses, coming between me and anyone else that I cared for and I was always supplied with coke in great...
    zillaron zillaron
    51-55, M
    1 Response Sep 6, 2009

    I'm Not Who I Use To Be (poem)

    Yes I have sold drugs & yes I held guns . I've done a lot of thing that I'm not really proud of. I've been locked up ya I spent time behind bars. I've been in so many fights you can tell by my scars. I've committed strong arm robberies sorry to all my victims. Special the one...
    Caliboy23 Caliboy23
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Jan 4, 2012

    I befriended a person,

    I shouldn't be friends with:/!! Now, we can trust each other.
    Giselle1023 Giselle1023
    18-21, F
    Nov 4, 2014

    The person I used to be.

    I can´t even really remember who that was? I see pictures of it and I see the things I used to write and the way my mind worked. I know that was me. But I don´t know that person anymore. I used to be Naive. I was what you call "The other Woman" Over three years of my life I...
    xBambi xBambi
    22-25, F
    Apr 5, 2015

    But I Am Better For It

     when i was younger i was angry because of the way my life had been.but through the years so many nice and caring people have entered my life,it changed.my mom and dad when i was a kid would help people any way they could.and through the years i have noticed it rubbed off on...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself
    36-40
    Oct 22, 2009
    DELETEDANDGONE DELETEDANDGONE
    70+, T
    Sep 1, 2014

    I honestly hate who I was.

    Though now I like, and some people love, who I am. So at least I'm moving in the right direction.
    mcc1109 mcc1109
    18-21, F
    Apr 7, 2014

    Back then, I would have to get dolled up

    and be wearing "nice" clothes just to be comfortable enough to get out of my house. I wanted to look nice for others, to receive their acceptance. Although I still have some issues, now I can go out with shorts, an old stained t-shirt, no makeup on, hair not done, and feel...
    rumblingheart rumblingheart
    18-21, F
    Aug 18, 2014

    No Longer The Class Clown

    When I was in school, I was always the class clown. Always doing something for attention, drawing eyes toward me and childish behavior. I was friendly toward others, had lots of friends and was always at parties. I was in fistfights, and I made fun of others. Somewhere...
    ImToolazyforaWittyUseName ImToolazyforaWittyUseName
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jun 10, 2012

    Grateful

    Today I am so grateful for where I am. I came from a world where I truly believed that gratitude was for poor people and losers. I had actually never had someone talk to me about gratitude until about 7 years ago. I worked hard to get where I am at and I am still achieving my...
    AnonymousDiva AnonymousDiva
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 8, 2012

    Definetly Not The Same, But Tired Of Transforming

    I used to be a worthless drug addictI became a shaky recovering addictThen became an educated PersonThen came into Motherhood in all its glory and lessonsI moved into the teacher phaze and became a counselorI then got married and had another childNow I am a stay at home Mom so...
    boomerang73 boomerang73
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Jan 18, 2010

    I've Changed a Lot Over the Years

    When I turned 18 I became totally different in a great way because for the first time I was allowed to be myself. I got to get away from my mos house and the crap of high school. And after that, I changed more and more and more. Now I am 24. Things different about me: I believe...
    SummerWind18 SummerWind18
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Jul 21, 2009

    I'm not the same damn fool I was two years ago -

    or for that matter, two months ago. I've never felt better about it.
    achilles3456 achilles3456
    22-25, M
    Jul 1, 2015

    Used To Be

    I used to be functional..going to work every day..being out...talking to people....now I stay inside constantly and am useless...everytime I think of what I used to be and what I am now I want to give up...I feel weak..like I'll never be like I was
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Nov 23, 2009

    Im Not

    im not the same person i used to be i used to be happy content with life but now ive seen the horrors of life the demons of myself and others i cannot go back to that place i used to be i cannot smile as easily or experience joy with as much freedom i just have...
    plagued0g plagued0g
    18-21, F
    Feb 24, 2010

    I was a really happy normal person.

    Had friends. Then panic attacks changed my life.
    maurylight maurylight
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 6, 2014

    People always thought of me

    as a nerdy girl. People used to take adventage of my naive self...You know.. i'm the kind of person who no matter what the others did for them, it's just i keep forgiving people for hurting me and stuff... When me and a friend or something fight..i'm the one that always had to...
    Taniaberd Taniaberd
    13-15, F
    Feb 17, 2014

    I was a bitter angry person.

    Betrayal was a common theme. My parents neglected me, my ex wife was a version of them only cruel to me, the justice system failed me. Betrayal after betrayal. I carried anger, guilt, and shame like an anchor weighing me down. Today I am in the best place I have ever been as...
    Onewithone Onewithone
    46-50, M
    1 Response Dec 9, 2014

    I was very courageous

    when I was younger. I would challenge people, defy authority, and venture into unknown areas without being terrified. Now I'm more soft-spoken. I am terrified of confrontation. I do everything I can to please the world. In simple words, I have become a coward. I am definitely...
    kalila37 kalila37
    18-21, F
    Sep 1, 2014

    My life has not been easy.

    It made me hard. Selfish. Emotionless. I trusted no one. But then things changed and I trusted someone. And it's been downhill ever since. I wish I could to back to being emotionless. I have too many emotions. Too many feelings. Too much love. If I can't turn it off, how...
    dissolution dissolution
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 18, 2015

    A few of years ago, if I was angry,

    it was because someone made me angry, and I would then let my anger blind my judgment. Since then, I've realized that I've been allowing myself to be angry and giving others power over me, and that just won't happen anymore.
    rumblingheart rumblingheart
    18-21, F
    Sep 6, 2014

    From Ashes To Flight.

    I have failed at so many things in my life, and so many things in my life have failed me. From April to June, I didn't think I'd even be able to "make it"--ever. I was in a tunnel of ****: lonely, jobless, recently car-less, and with no real vision of what a better life could...
    likeyoumeanit likeyoumeanit
    18-21, M
    Dec 2, 2011

    Self-hugging

    When I read things that I wrote when I was younger (even just a year ago!) I feel as though I'm reading someone else's private thoughts and feelings. I still remember being that person in my mind, in my memories, but it seems so far away when there's tangible evidence of it in...
    ForestSong ForestSong
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 9, 2010

    I realized today just how much my online

    friends mean to me. I was talking with someone in person that was attempting to help me today and although she meant well, I just saw how far I've come from that way of thinking. I have good friends in person, that are sweet-tempered and kind but they just don't understand this...
    myheaven myheaven
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 11, 2015

    Not Again

    I am 31 and followed the same pattern most of my life. From the time I started dating at 14 I always needed a boyfriend. I didnt care the quality of the guy, just I needed a boyfriend. I had several bad relationships, the worst was a guy I dated in high school and part of...
    jencpa jencpa
    31-35, F
    10 Responses Nov 27, 2012

    I did a lot of reflecting at the end of last

    year. While I feel old, I have to say, I would not want to be that person I was so many years ago. I may be far from perfect, but I've come a long way in life. And I love who I am more and more every day.
    thenicholasexperience thenicholasexperience
    31-35, M
    Jan 9

    I'm Starting To Think That California Is Trying To Tell Me Something...

    My American husband and I met while he was visiting Toronto, Canada ( my hometown ) on business... Long story short, we hit it off right away  and as he was only in town until his flight left the very next next morning I, along with my 3 girlfriends decided to kidnap him and...
    palevixen palevixen
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Oct 9, 2010

    I never used to have all of this rage in me it

    a new emotion and I've got a lot of it and it sucks is just want to kill a lot of guys
    rushman5 rushman5
    16-17, M
    Sep 17, 2014

    Through My Eyes

    I remember a time when everything had color vivid, lovely, beautiful and meaningful  Everything seen behind the eyes of a child  A land of make believe, innocence love and trust. .......... How reality and life can destroy the beauty of youth and hope. ........... With eyes...
    lifesize lifesize
    22-25, F
    Mar 1, 2013

    Feels So Good!

    When I first came to EP, I was extremely depressed...feeling rather worthless...hating life and wishing I could leave it.  Soon after I joined, I was diagnosed as a fast cycling manic-depressive bipolar type 2.  Yay for me, right?  Just one more thing to have...
    dyin2live dyin2live
    31-35, F
    7 Responses Apr 20, 2010

    :(

    all i wanna say is i wanna have the strenth to tell my story without being judje im takin it slow i feel so alone ..
    nicolecooper1991 nicolecooper1991
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Dec 29, 2012

    I used to be awesome.

    That was when I lived in Oregon. I lived with friends, worked at the adult shop, partied, lots of sex, weighed less, had more energy, my back hurt less and I loved life. I love my husband and my baby girl of course but my life is pretty boring now. I also kind of miss the...
    FIeener FIeener
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

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