I Am Not What I Used To Be

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 272 People

    School years 4-8 were the absolute worst five

    years of my life. I remember being so embarrassed in P.E because I couldn't run as fast or as long as the other kids. In the locker room the first day of middle school, we were all changing into our gym clothes. I took my shirt off and instantly felt twenty eyes lock onto my...
    NattieD123 NattieD123
    18-21, F
    Jun 1, 2015

    I used to be an infant 20 years ago.

    .. Now I'm no longer an infant... What the hell happened?
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits
    22-25, M
    Oct 21, 2014

    Sometimes I literally look back

    and just regret everything. I miss when I was happy and had a smile on my face everyday. Waking up wanting to go to school, wanting to socialize, wanting to be me...
    dandanbear dandanbear
    22-25, F
    Oct 20, 2014

    I used to be blase about life,

    thinking that I'd go through life participating, out of reluctant necessity, in the rather comforting routines of family and duty. But someone came into my little cubicle of life, lit a light bulb and sat down with me to talk about teaching and pedagogy, about philosophy and...
    novembermoon novembermoon
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Sep 3, 2014

    I don't know if there is on EP a group called

    "I exist". If not, this is the most obvious group here. Everybody is not what they used to be, we are changing all the time.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Sep 30, 2014

    I am WAY better now! I never used to act this

    kool, I articulate my perspicacity with style, I have better fashion sense, I look better and have a much better body. I don't care what people think of me and I have no problem now, in being the bigger man and walking away from volatile or toxic situations... J No matter how...
    LowercaseN LowercaseN
    41-45, M
    Jul 20, 2015

    I used to have a huge belief in doing

    everything the right way. Keep on the straight and narrow path. I realized life is too short. Have fun! Enjoy your crazy nights and love the person you are. Funny, creative, crazy, weird, smart, quiet,shy,outspoken. Whatever you are you are you. Speak for yourself and don't let...
    gingybread123Ash gingybread123Ash
    18-21
    1 Response Oct 25, 2014

    I'm less trusting, more jaded

    and sarcastic - I'm still very broken. I know there are aspects of myself that are forever changed, and not necessarily for the better. I alternate between blaming myself and blaming you - I have to have somewhere to direct my anger and depression, and can only take so much of...
    iFortiTude iFortiTude
    31-35
    1 Response Jan 12, 2015

    I'm so different from

    who I was last summer. I am really pursuing a relationship with God like never before. I used to just live life day by day, mildly concerned at the very real fact many people are lost souls. I just started really getting into the Bible this month and already I feel so different...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 30, 2015

    Used to be the innocent,

    perfect, goody-two-shoes girl. Now I'm soooo not, and I'm glad :)
    HappyHart5 HappyHart5
    18-21, F
    Oct 22, 2014
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