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I Am Not Where I Wanted to Be At This Age

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    This morning I woke up

    and showered with my husband like I do every morning. We get ready together every morning, even though we hardly say a word to each other as we do. We shower silently, share the sink as we brush our teeth silently, and he heats himself up some breakfast as I wake our kids up...
    katinbell katinbell 22-25, F 10 Responses Oct 30

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    At age 31 I hoped to be married with kids.

    I don't have either. I still live at home with my parents and 2 younger sisters. I work at a job that I hate. I am miserable and it gets so tiring faking it, like I'm okay. I have so many issues but I swear to you, at age 31 I thought they would be gone. Who knew 11 years later...
    Hopeless314 Hopeless314 31-35, F 19 Responses Oct 15

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    18 years old. Im supposed to be at the

    University of Memphis. Undergrad. Major in biology. Preparing myself for medical school and becoming a neurologist. Im supposed to be in advanced yoga classes and doing contortion work. Stretching. Im suppose to be driving. Im supposed to be going to ballet, hip hop, zumba...
    Acebo Acebo 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 30

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    I should have been a musician.

    I finish my house in a week and this is exactly what i intend to strive toward and if i fail i am going to have a friggin awesome time trying. ?? I am 47
    pedroantonius pedroantonius 46-50, M Nov 12

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    i wanted to have a job in (tech savvy) silicon

    valley and buy a nice house there. now I'm staying in this socialist (tax savvy) place called the netherlands and I'm afraid of making such big step to move.
    xxperience xxperience 26-30, M 3 Responses Nov 7

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    I was always the smart one growing up had huge

    aspirations of getting a PH.D,traveling the world, never having children. But at 18 fell in love with a guy in the military got knocked up at 19 before he left for Iraq got married and he left me a week after our kid's 1st birthday. I worked my *** off graduated community...
    Sunflowerhazedays Sunflowerhazedays 26-30, F 6 Responses Nov 1

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    I never thought I would be almost twenty

    and still never had a relationship. I know I'm young but the majority Of the people I know my age have had a relationship. I'm just not sure what to do anymore cause I've even tried online dating and a lot of girls won't even message me back. I try to be as nice as I can be. I'm...
    baseball4040 baseball4040 18-21, M 7 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    Yesterday I was digging through some old stuff

    in the back of my closet when I came across my diary from Highschool. I cringed at some of the things I wrote! It was like watching that MTV VMA comeback performance Britney Spears had a few years ago (Die hard Britney fans know what I'm talking about). Let's just say I never...
    Refugeblue83 Refugeblue83 31-35, F 4 Responses Nov 10

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    Cgbva Cgbva 31-35, M Nov 7

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    anasteel2 anasteel2 41-45, F 16 Responses Aug 4

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    So my friend and I are officially homeless in

    LA...thankful I at least have a phone and a car.
    wonderful892 wonderful892 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 5

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    I saw myself as a successful,

    thin girl with clear skin, long hair and a straight-toothed smile to match. A girl with a high school diploma in one hand and my soulmates fingers completing the other... But nah, I'd rather drop out and move to Colorado. At least I have long hair now am I right...
    alexandr4 alexandr4 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 5

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    Im not to happy about

    where im at in this stage of my life. I know people tend to say it all depends on YOURSELF to change your situation but sometimes I just feel helpless.
    donydonderson donydonderson 26-30, M 4 Responses Nov 7

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    Why does it seem like I'm going nowhere

    and I'm almost 30. Every aspect of my life is just a mess right now.
    mlia48 mlia48 26-30, F 31 Responses Aug 19

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    Had a blood test at a health fair about a year

    ago and found out I had advanced prostate cancer.
    n2hawgs n2hawgs 51-55, M 5 Responses Nov 11

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    I'm twenty two years old

    and I still live with my mother, I know it isn't exactly uncommon but it's not what I want. At this age I always thought I'd be off on my own with apartment somewhere but with what I make, that's just impossible. Not everyone peeks in their twenties but I still envy those who do...
    Theorion32 Theorion32 22-25, M 4 Responses Sep 29

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    It seems like everyone at my age is becoming

    successful... Wish I can just rewind back time to when I was 16 and start over..
    SleepyRose22 SleepyRose22 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 21

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    I hate drinking alone.

    I'm in a bar and feel like I'm by myself.
    jayg63 jayg63 41-45, M 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I should have been a musician.

    I finish my house in a week and this is exactly what i intend to strive toward and if i fail i am going to have a friggin awesome time trying. ?? I am 47
    pedroantonius pedroantonius 46-50, M 1 Response Nov 12

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    I wanted to be a world traveler

    and learn new languages. Now I only travel to the store and work. I have never left the Midwest. Married and pregnant at seventeen put s bump in the road. Don't get me wrong. I love my family. Been married for twenty-five years and have great successful kids and a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Sep 28

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    I thought I'd be at the top of my career,

    travel the world,I'd be married to the love of my life, buy a house andstart a family! None of that has happened!
    ira01 ira01 26-30, F Nov 1

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    Working Hard Struggling Hard I don't have big

    dreams, but am not where I wanted to be. Seems luck is bigger than honesty and hard work.
    Raajan71 Raajan71 41-45, M 4 Responses Nov 13

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    Not where I thought I'd be

    but I'm grateful...I've been blessed with a determination that keeps me going even when circumstances say I'm not supposed to. I'm just thankful.
    easynuh easynuh 26-30, F 8 Responses Sep 11

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    I need a ******* job.

    how do people expect you to have experience if they won't allow you to gain experience?!
    evynray evynray 18-21, F 9 Responses Nov 16

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    I am 33 and married for 4 years.

    We have 2 perfect kids ages 2 & 3. I do not think I love my husband anymore. To be perfectly honest, I am not really sure why we got married. I get annoyed with every single things he does. He is lazy and chooses a very unhealthy and inactive lifestyle. Being a mother and a...
    Luckymomof2boys Luckymomof2boys 31-35, F 15 Responses Oct 27

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    Stupid Genius

    When I was a kid, I was constantly told how smart I was and how one day I'm going to make it.  When I was 8 years old I was put into the G.A.T.E. (Gifted And Talented Education) program and had to attend a new school.  I was a little worried about what was going to be...
    TheIdeaOfMe TheIdeaOfMe 31-35, F 60 Responses Oct 6, 2009

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    I thought I'd be at the top of my career,

    travel the world,I'd be married to the love of my life, buy a house andstart a family! None of that has happened!
    ira01 ira01 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 1

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    I wanted to be a famous singer,

    but I guess that's not what was meant for me to be at this age...ces't la vie I guess.
    JuleSinger JuleSinger 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 1

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    I am 25 and I am a trucker

    that doesn't drive because I hate driving, honestly don't know where my life is going. I gave up my job and apartment to move down to Texas and nothing is working out the way it should and I just want to go back home but I don't want to be labeled as a quitter
    cmsullivan cmsullivan 22-25, M 7 Responses Aug 12

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    Im divorcing my abusive husband

    and I'm terrified of life
    EMG1258 EMG1258 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 18

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    Usually I am a very kind

    and gentle person when I am not drinking. I have had issues with my bf of 1.5 years where whenever I drink I get so angry and cannot control it. This has happened with ex boyfriends as well and I am just wondering why I am like this and cannot control how angry I get if I drink...
    relw3841 relw3841 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 3

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    I always thought that I'd be married

    and have another child and a family. That obviously isn't in the cards for me. I'm accepting that and looking forward to the freedom I will have. It's sad that I won't have anyone to take care of soon but for once in my life perhaps I can find someone to take care of me....who...
    455cargirl 455cargirl 36-40, F 8 Responses Oct 21

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    Hope For The Future

    Just as I was beginning to feel completely worthless and like a waste of space, a miracle happened! I was cleaning the mirror in the bathroom, and contemplating what a failure I am, when out of the corner of my eye I spotted it; a completely empty roll of toilet paper. I knew...
    MyNameIsHurl MyNameIsHurl 31-35, F 14 Responses Feb 29, 2012

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    People are always asking about our short term

    and long term goals. Where we'll see ourselves in 5 years, in 10 years. In high school , if you asked me where I would want to be by this time, I would've said, "Engaged." Finishing college and getting ready to marry the love of my life. But where am I really? I am finishing...
    ismalbergher ismalbergher 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 21

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    sealbeachguy sealbeachguy 36-40, M 3 Responses Nov 1

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    I wish my parents pushed me into doing more

    things before it was too late.
    Ashash146 Ashash146 13-15, F 14 Responses Jul 24

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    Ok I am not where I thought I would be at this

    age. I am making changes. Owning my financial problems that I did not create but have to resolve. I have a part time with our local Jc penny. This will help with Christmas in many ways. This will teach me to be more independent too. I am a bit proud of myself.
    Gingersmiles Gingersmiles 41-45, F 9 Responses Oct 22

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    I had so much hopes for myself

    when I was younger I thought by 19 I would have my **** together I am no where where I want to be and I am not reaching it any time soon. I thought I would have a better life and be happier in so many aspects, I can't help but feel that my life turned out to be a failure.
    melonladyy melonladyy 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 4

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    I am definitely not where I wanted to be at my

    age. Ive had 2 broken relationships and I feel like a few years of my life have been eaten away by scum. I wonder where I would be had I kept things simple. Of this I am certain: I would have been better off. I would not be posting this on EP
    tan54321 tan54321 31-35, F 11 Responses Oct 29

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    Stuck In A High Paying Job

     I am not where I wanted to be at this age.  I"m 49, divorced with 3 adult kids that live with me.  I have a great job and earn a great salary but I end up spending most of my income on my kids, my ex-wife, and the house.  At work, I am an "in charge...
    preston95842 preston95842 46-50, M 11 Responses Dec 29, 2009

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    I am only 14 but i thought i would be doing

    something more in my life than just living high school, i want to be someone, i want to follow my dreams now. but how?
    neverweather neverweather 13-15, F 8 Responses Oct 2

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    At this age I thought

    that I would have been graduated high school and almost in a career but I didn't and I'm not and I have a child and it kills me everyday just knowing how hard I'm trying and I'm not getting anywhere I wanted to be greater than this I feel worthless
    jasmine2016 jasmine2016 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I'm 27 years old. My boyfriend of a year

    and a half broke up with me almost a month ago. After that I started thinking I have a degree in criminal justice but can't find a job. I live with my parents. I've never been engaged. I want to be married with a house maybe kids and a better job that pays more than minimum wage...
    NikLee1987 NikLee1987 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 1

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    Remember, kid, there's heroes

    and there's legends. Heroes get remembered, but legends never die. Follow your heart, kid, and you'll never go wrong.
    ChangingFaces5 ChangingFaces5 22-25 1 Response Nov 6

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    I got my ACT score back today.

    I got a 22 which is a 64%. I'm so disappointed in myself and I feel like such an idiot. I'll never be able to get into the colleges of my dreams.
    daisywanders daisywanders 16-17, F 10 Responses Nov 18

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    I have struggled working hard half of my life

    honestly but I guess it needs enough money as well with you to succeed. Mere hard work doesn't pay. I am educated person in business but earning hand to mouth with so many liabilities. I did job for few years but guess Am not fit for job coz of my problem with denial to obey...
    Raajan71 Raajan71 41-45, M 1 Response Oct 29

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    I thought I might have a career

    and a plan. I have neither.
    catsNbooks catsNbooks 26-30, F 9 Responses Oct 12

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    I want something better out of life.

    I want happiness and to be surrounded by people who feed that happiness. Instead I have been surrounded my whole life by people who bring out the worst in me. Then I married someone who is grumpy and pessimistic and seems to have no idea who I am sometimes. I want someone who...
    nvragain1024 nvragain1024 31-35, F 9 Responses Nov 6

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    i spend all of my days with hope,

    ,but i am tired ,,i need something ,,i am not happy ,,i don't like be depress i wanna be positive and make other happy,, but i cant do it any more..what should i do..i know all of the advice about happiness ,,i don't need advice,,i need just change something in my life,,but what...
    CassieJess CassieJess 18-21, F 8 Responses Aug 28

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    Starting yesterday. I swore to myself,

    i will no longer seek company from women. I lost my mom around age of two. I know this is the root of my issues. I just want to hear what i never heard as a kid. I love you from a female. Well anyone for that matter. Time and time again i find women with so many issues. The more...
    NarratorAkaTylerDurden NarratorAkaTylerDurden 31-35, M 6 Responses Nov 16

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    Just had a birthday. I'm 38

    and while some parts of my life (professional) are getting where I had hoped they would be when I was 34/35 - other parts of my life are not. Each year I promise to make myself healthier and I don't. I thought I'd have a kid or two by now, but my husband isn't working now and...
    been2 been2 36-40, F 4 Responses Oct 18

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