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I Am Not Where I Wanted to Be At This Age

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    every knows im like this

    but my bff is me,myself,and,Iyea im to popular everyone knows me by name it sucks
    mythlover mythlover 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    Throughout my life I have been bullied

    and have not had many friends. I went to a small catholic school from grades k-8 with the same 30 kids. When I was little I thought when I reached high school I could finally make friends. I did make a friend in high school. I am in 11th grade now and I have failed suicide...
    wxvx wxvx 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 7

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    Life has not been good to me

    and I feel that the most at Christmas. Born to a bipolar father and a manipulative mother, who loved me a bit nevertheless I guess, Christmas is usually associated with the worst times in my childhood. Now after having been laid off twice and moved countries twice in a year...
    thewanderess thewanderess 31-35, F 9 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    I had so much hopes for myself

    when I was younger I thought by 19 I would have my **** together I am no where where I want to be and I am not reaching it any time soon. I thought I would have a better life and be happier in so many aspects, I can't help but feel that my life turned out to be a failure.
    melonladyy melonladyy 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    I'm 28 years old with a 2 year degree working

    for a large corporation selling mobile plans and this is definitely not where I wanted to be. I have no idea what I want to do with this life. I survived 4 years in the military. I've worked over seas after the military. I'd like to go back to college but I refuse to bury myself...
    justanotherguy86 justanotherguy86 26-30, M 8 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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    I'm not where I thought I would be at this age,

    but that's OK because I'm not dead yet. That means I still have time to change life. It's not too late unless you're either dead or in a nursing home. Up until a month ago I was really depressed about it but then I realized something. What is stopping me from doing the...
    Calcetines Calcetines 36-40, M 2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    NameIsMailbox NameIsMailbox 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 22, 2014

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    I got fired today. In the worst moment possible,

    at least I already have 2 interviews lined up.
    manx91 manx91 22-25, M 8 Responses Jan 7

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    Stupid Genius

    When I was a kid, I was constantly told how smart I was and how one day I'm going to make it.  When I was 8 years old I was put into the G.A.T.E. (Gifted And Talented Education) program and had to attend a new school.  I was a little worried about what was going to be...
    TheIdeaOfMe TheIdeaOfMe 31-35, F 60 Responses Oct 6, 2009

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    Damn! I'm nearing 27 years old

    and I've still yet to get my GED. I had it almost complete last year but I failed the math portion of it and could not retake it due to everyone taking test near the end. Well, when 2014 rolled around, the GED test changed, so if you didn't have it done before January 1 2014...
    TJPink TJPink 26-30, F 11 Responses Dec 19, 2014

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    I'm 17, I've lost my sports,

    I left public school due to depression/eye surgeries/anxiety/bad teachers/ect so I don't have a social life, I don't have any kind of job and I don't even leave the house.. Now I can't even decide what I want to do in college..
    akaShaun akaShaun 16-17, M 10 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    Starting yesterday. I swore to myself,

    i will no longer seek company from women. I lost my mom around age of two. I know this is the root of my issues. I just want to hear what i never heard as a kid. I love you from a female. Well anyone for that matter. Time and time again i find women with so many issues. The more...
    NarratorAkaTylerDurden NarratorAkaTylerDurden 31-35, M 6 Responses Nov 16, 2014

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    I'm in an aimless state right now.

    Theoretically my life should be pretty good, I have parents who will support just about any life path I choose to take, and they can fund university if that's what I want... but I have no idea what I want. My life up to this point has been mostly scripted. Elementary school...
    distantlurker distantlurker 18-21, M 6 Responses Jan 11

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    Why does it seem like I'm going nowhere

    and I'm almost 30. Every aspect of my life is just a mess right now.
    mlia48 mlia48 26-30, F 31 Responses Aug 19, 2014

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    Saying my age now is like swallowing vinegar.

    I use to be on a path to somewhere, now i am not, and the people that were long behind me moved way pass. I cant help but be bitter when I should be glad I still have time but the lost time stings.
    Krystean Krystean 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    I drive a big rig. it pays the bills.

    But, with a college degree, experience in sales and management, owned a successful business and a high school football coach for many years, this is not where I expected to be at this stage of my life. Live in a box 5 days and home on the weekend. Very lonely and depressing...
    metrucker metrucker 56-60, M 2 Responses Jan 19

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    I am 30 years old, living with my mother still,

    working at a restaurant with $7.00 in my bank account and $11.00 in my wallet. I just recently got put into the friend zone with the one I love because I am not doing anything to better myself to get to be with her and her boys. I am exceedingly above average in the brains area...
    bpbeard84 bpbeard84 26-30, M 14 Responses Dec 2, 2014

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    Starting over is hard.

    .. That moment when the happily ever after ends and you find that life does indeed go on. Not entirely sure if I'm wiser for the ware... Or just tired :) hope I'm not making the same old mistakes. Or worse ones
    BellaDonna138 BellaDonna138 31-35, F 6 Responses Jan 14

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    Hope For The Future

    Just as I was beginning to feel completely worthless and like a waste of space, a miracle happened! I was cleaning the mirror in the bathroom, and contemplating what a failure I am, when out of the corner of my eye I spotted it; a completely empty roll of toilet paper. I knew...
    MyNameIsHurl MyNameIsHurl 31-35, F 15 Responses Feb 29, 2012

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    CrossCresentCreed CrossCresentCreed 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    I don't know what to do anymore.

    I used to be so confident and sure of myself but I can never let people see the real me anymore... Maybe it's because I'm not 100% sure who I am. I know who I want to be. I still seem like I have it together but anyone who really looks can see that's not the case. I'm still...
    missinvisible97 missinvisible97 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 10

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    I am 16. What I want to be at right now,

    is more muscular having more upper body strength, smarter and having As in every class, (I am a junior) and have a friend I can tell anything to and a very nice girlfriend. I have the girlfriend. everything else isn't here yet. I am not motivated enough.
    TheDaringWolf TheDaringWolf 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 5

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    I want something better out of life.

    I want happiness and to be surrounded by people who feed that happiness. Instead I have been surrounded my whole life by people who bring out the worst in me. Then I married someone who is grumpy and pessimistic and seems to have no idea who I am sometimes. I want someone who...
    nvragain1024 nvragain1024 31-35, F 9 Responses Nov 6, 2014

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    Not where I thought I'd be

    but I'm grateful...I've been blessed with a determination that keeps me going even when circumstances say I'm not supposed to. I'm just thankful.
    easynuh easynuh 26-30, F 8 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    I need a ******* job.

    how do people expect you to have experience if they won't allow you to gain experience?!
    evynray evynray 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 16, 2014

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    I'm one step away from the edge.

    I don't think I can handle one more thing going wrong. The past two years has been full of very unfortunate events. More bad things have happened in the past 2 years than most people experience in a lifetime and I think If one more thing goes wrong I will lose my Mind.
    fighter07 fighter07 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 23, 2014

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    People are always asking about our short term

    and long term goals. Where we'll see ourselves in 5 years, in 10 years. In high school , if you asked me where I would want to be by this time, I would've said, "Engaged." Finishing college and getting ready to marry the love of my life. But where am I really? I am finishing...
    ismalbergher ismalbergher 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 21, 2014

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    anasteel2 anasteel2 41-45, F 17 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    I have so much i want to i just want to look

    perfect & start my life but its so complicated to take the first couple of steps
    godessd godessd 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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    Yesterday I was digging through some old stuff

    in the back of my closet when I came across my diary from Highschool. I cringed at some of the things I wrote! It was like watching that MTV VMA comeback performance Britney Spears had a few years ago (Die hard Britney fans know what I'm talking about). Let's just say I never...
    Refugeblue83 Refugeblue83 31-35, F 5 Responses Nov 10, 2014

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    I always thought that I'd be married

    and have another child and a family. That obviously isn't in the cards for me. I'm accepting that and looking forward to the freedom I will have. It's sad that I won't have anyone to take care of soon but for once in my life perhaps I can find someone to take care of me....who...
    455cargirl 455cargirl 36-40, F 8 Responses Oct 21, 2014

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    I'm 20 Can't drive Still living at home Not

    having much friends as I would like to have Not fit
    90slove 90slove 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    I wish my parents pushed me into doing more

    things before it was too late.
    Ashash146 Ashash146 13-15, F 13 Responses Jul 24, 2014

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    I miss my mom and dad

    and my home. I hate dorming at this university :'( I feel like I don't even belong here honestly I'd be happier working as a cashier even
    AkilaHM AkilaHM 18-21, M 6 Responses Jan 20

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    i spend all of my days with hope,

    ,but i am tired ,,i need something ,,i am not happy ,,i don't like be depress i wanna be positive and make other happy,, but i cant do it any more..what should i do..i know all of the advice about happiness ,,i don't need advice,,i need just change something in my life,,but what...
    CassieJess CassieJess 22-25, F 8 Responses Aug 28, 2014

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    I am 33 and married for 4 years.

    We have 2 perfect kids ages 2 & 3. I do not think I love my husband anymore. To be perfectly honest, I am not really sure why we got married. I get annoyed with every single things he does. He is lazy and chooses a very unhealthy and inactive lifestyle. Being a mother and a...
    Luckymomof2boys Luckymomof2boys 31-35, F 13 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    I am a 36 year old with a respected,

    though underpaid job and a series of advanced and perhaps relatively useless advanced degrees. I live in NYC and can barely scrape enough to pay rent. Massive credit card debt. Everything is unstable. If I had a "dislike" button I would press it on this update.
    bellejarred bellejarred 36-40, F 5 Responses Jan 17

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    charlessteven1967 charlessteven1967 46-50, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    crhulk3 crhulk3 26-30, M 9 Responses 5 days ago

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    Apparently education doesn't end

    after U go to uni. Sigh
    ilikemovies172 ilikemovies172 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 23, 2014

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    I re-connected with a boyfriend from my teenage

    years, he was 5 years older than me, and thought that this time around I was finally meant to be happy. I gave up everything and moved from Montana to Seattle. Just me, my cat, my clothes and my car. Things didn't go as planned and all the promises made turned out to be just...
    Kaufi701 Kaufi701 36-40, F 5 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    Just had a birthday. I'm 38

    and while some parts of my life (professional) are getting where I had hoped they would be when I was 34/35 - other parts of my life are not. Each year I promise to make myself healthier and I don't. I thought I'd have a kid or two by now, but my husband isn't working now and...
    been2 been2 36-40, F 4 Responses Oct 18, 2014

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    18 years old. Im supposed to be at the

    University of Memphis. Undergrad. Major in biology. Preparing myself for medical school and becoming a neurologist. Im supposed to be in advanced yoga classes and doing contortion work. Stretching. Im suppose to be driving. Im supposed to be going to ballet, hip hop, zumba...
    Acebo Acebo 18-21, F 13 Responses Jul 30, 2014

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    l've neglected all my friends.

    After college I got depressed, anxiety ridden and physically out of shape (more so than I ever was). I gradually isolated myself. I tried to visit now and then. I felt I had to "fix" myself before I ever could show my face again, I still feel that way. Most of my friends have...
    grungie13 grungie13 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    I am a 41 year old mom of 3 children ages 11,

    14, and 16. I don't have a college degree and I don't have a driver's license. Did I plan on being totally dependent on my husband and family members? Did I plan on having to give up on friendships because I couldn't drive to any get togethers? Did I plan on living paycheck to...
    rrj1012 rrj1012 36-40, F 15 Responses Jan 2

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    If I looked back on my life to a younger age

    and saw what I've become now....I wouldn't believe it.I'm a 17 year old depressed girl with bad anxiety, biopolar disorder type 1, traumatized and i self harm.At this age I expected to have a part time job and borrow my grandparents car to wherever I wanted and to have many...
    LilahWolf LilahWolf 16-17, F 7 Responses Jan 5

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    I wanted to be a world traveler

    and learn new languages. Now I only travel to the store and work. I have never left the Midwest. Married and pregnant at seventeen put s bump in the road. Don't get me wrong. I love my family. Been married for twenty-five years and have great successful kids and a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Sep 28, 2014

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    Sometimes hearing about people's successes

    makes me realize how much I've failed in life.
    Eechay Eechay 31-35, M 9 Responses Jan 12

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    Im not to happy about

    where im at in this stage of my life. I know people tend to say it all depends on YOURSELF to change your situation but sometimes I just feel helpless.
    donydonderson donydonderson 26-30, M 3 Responses Nov 7, 2014

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    well I'm 17 jobless huge unemployed gaps

    depressed by past expiriences which I had no control and had been in a state of shock ever since BUT I'm starting to slowly display some emotion gain some confidence and have one real friend
    AlexanderGarcia AlexanderGarcia 16-17, M 12 Responses Jan 8

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    I always thought I'd be an artist growing up.

    At a young age, I was told by teachers and counselors that I showed immense potential. But I've come to learn that that's not enough to be successful. My parents were engineers and I was the first one in the family that you could call an artist--the total black sheep. They...
    SMArchangel SMArchangel 36-40, M 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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