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I Am Not Where I Wanted to Be At This Age

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    So I've finished dental assisting school & want

    to go further to become a dental hygienist. I'm getting married this summer & I'm ecstatic about it! However, my fiancé wants to start a family sooner than I. I really want to get school out of the way before we bring another child into our family. (I have a daughter) I'm torn...
    NekkiaB NekkiaB 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 22

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    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Mar 22

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    I feel like a total loser.

    I'm not trying to be one of those really annoying emotional people on the Internet but I just can't stop thinking how I should die. If anyone feels the same please tell me. I feel for you. It feels that I don't belong in this world and as if I need to rely on someone ALL the...
    HermioneGlasse HermioneGlasse 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 18

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    Stupid Genius

    When I was a kid, I was constantly told how smart I was and how one day I'm going to make it.  When I was 8 years old I was put into the G.A.T.E. (Gifted And Talented Education) program and had to attend a new school.  I was a little worried about what was going to be...
    TheIdeaOfMe TheIdeaOfMe 31-35, F 60 Responses Oct 6, 2009

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    I graduated college with a bachelors in

    communication and now work at a restaurant with disrespectful coworkers and demeaning management.
    bomvida bomvida 18-21, F Mar 22

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    I thought that by now I would be married with

    at least one child. Unfortunately, my life didn't turn out that way. I don't have anyone special in my life and had I not make a decision I thought was best for me at the time, I'd at least have a child to love. I've been on my job for nearly 20 years, which I am very grateful...
    sanntay7334 sanntay7334 46-50, F 11 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm not in a band like I've wanted

    since age four. I dropped out of college twice. Most of the people I considered friends seemed to vanish out of the blue. Got a part-time minimum wage job. Boyfriend lives almost eight hours away. But on the bright side, I'm becoming a better musician, trying to get back into...
    CasvalEarth CasvalEarth 22-25, T 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    These past few months I have been thinking

    about life, the feeling that it is passing me by. Time, always moves forward, and we only have a few precious hours of this irreclaimable commodity. How can anyone put a price tag on it? Somehow we have managed to do so, selling our lives in an attempt to put food on the table...
    Einwulf Einwulf 26-30, M 3 Responses Mar 18

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    It seems like everyone at my age is becoming

    successful... Wish I can just rewind back time to when I was 16 and start over..
    SweetRose22 SweetRose22 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 21, 2014

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    I didn't think I would be a 31 year old virgin

    who only been on his first date a year ago.
    Clasher2103 Clasher2103 31-35, M 3 Responses Mar 24

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    Starting yesterday. I swore to myself,

    i will no longer seek company from women. I lost my mom around age of two. I know this is the root of my issues. I just want to hear what i never heard as a kid. I love you from a female. Well anyone for that matter. Time and time again i find women with so many issues. The more...
    NarratorAkaTylerDurden NarratorAkaTylerDurden 31-35, M 6 Responses Nov 16, 2014

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    Just turned 25. Spent almost 10 years of my

    life in a field of work that I ended up absolutely hating. Lost my job a few months ago and haven't really been able to bounce back. I spend a lot of time on my couch. I haven't really been proactive about finding a job either. Who wants to hire someone who is miserable? I used...
    melanist melanist 22-25, F 7 Responses Mar 8

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    Hope For The Future

    Just as I was beginning to feel completely worthless and like a waste of space, a miracle happened! I was cleaning the mirror in the bathroom, and contemplating what a failure I am, when out of the corner of my eye I spotted it; a completely empty roll of toilet paper. I knew...
    MyNameIsHurl MyNameIsHurl 31-35, F 14 Responses Feb 29, 2012

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    This song has been on my mind

    for awhile now because it so clearly speaks to my heart, my wishes, hopes and dreams. "Good Mother" by Jann Arden I've got money in my pocket I like the color of my hair I've got a friend who loves me Got a house, I've got a car I've got a good mother and her voice is what...
    snowberry75 snowberry75 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 21

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    I abuse sleeping aids

    and it's not good. Not good at all.
    Collster Collster 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 16

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    Have you ever had that sudden I've made a mess

    of it all moment? I had that last night. I woke around 2 am from a bad dream and thought to myself: when did everything turn sour, a few years back everything seemed to be going well, my life was on track but I dunno i guess somewhere between then and now i got knocked down and...
    xCoinx xCoinx 22-25, M 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have no job, no car,

    no money, too much bills & too much pride to admit I need help.
    kathornes kathornes 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 27

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    Literally just enrolled in driving school.

    I'm 17. I shoulda been on that **** months ago.
    Stargirl227 Stargirl227 16-17, F 8 Responses Apr 9

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    Not where I thought I'd be

    but I'm grateful...I've been blessed with a determination that keeps me going even when circumstances say I'm not supposed to. I'm just thankful.
    easynuh easynuh 26-30, F 8 Responses Sep 11, 2014

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    I always thought that I'd be married

    and have another child and a family. That obviously isn't in the cards for me. I'm accepting that and looking forward to the freedom I will have. It's sad that I won't have anyone to take care of soon but for once in my life perhaps I can find someone to take care of me....who...
    455cargirl 455cargirl 36-40, F 8 Responses Oct 21, 2014

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    Sometimes hearing about people's successes

    makes me realize how much I've failed in life.
    Eechay Eechay 31-35, M 10 Responses Jan 12

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    I need a ******* job.

    how do people expect you to have experience if they won't allow you to gain experience?!
    evynray evynray 22-25, F 9 Responses Nov 16, 2014

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    I'm in my 30s married with 3 kids.

    We are stuck in my parents home. just don't have the money to leave right now. I am stuck in a town I have hated since I was about 5 years old. I'm not sure what to do to get out of here.
    Mindella Mindella 31-35, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    easynuh easynuh 26-30, F 6 Responses Apr 11

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    well, I just reached my six month anniversary

    at my job. I work in a factory, which is odd seeing as how I have 3 degrees, several years of teaching experience and am a veteran of Iraq and Afghanistan. Most people think I'm not living up to my potential but here's the thing- I make way more money and have a lot more job...
    jstephens4 jstephens4 31-35, M 9 Responses Feb 14

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    I'm living with my bf

    but I don't wanna b wit him anymore he's cheated verbally abused me and I want to leave but now I'm unemployed no money no place to go talk about being unhappy I love it daily
    jannelr1 jannelr1 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 1

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    I feel for everyone in this group.

    I thought getting my master's in English would put me a step ahead of everyone in my generation with a bachelor's. It has not done that, however, so it's hard to go to a job every day that I could've gotten with a high school diploma. Don't get me wrong, I'm appreciative of...
    midnightmeow83 midnightmeow83 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 23

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    Im not to happy about

    where im at in this stage of my life. I know people tend to say it all depends on YOURSELF to change your situation but sometimes I just feel helpless.
    donydonderson donydonderson 26-30, M 3 Responses Nov 7, 2014

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    Divorce, kids grown, parents gone,

    in my early 50's and was just diagnosed with ADD. Always knew something was up but didn't know what. Thought I was either just lazy or a genius lol. Know I know why I lose interest easily and have never really accomplished anything worthy except raising my kids although I feel I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    “I have come to accept the feeling of not

    knowing where I am going. And I have trained myself to love it. Because it is only when we are suspended in mid-air with no landing in sight, that we force our wings to unravel and alas begin our flight. And as we fly, we still may not know where we are going to. But the miracle...
    rescueme99 rescueme99 41-45 3 Responses Apr 17

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    I always wanted to be a dancer.

    .. But then I got fat
    silverxrose silverxrose 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 13

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    For a 15 year old, people expect

    that being depressed is just a phase but sometimes I feel like this is a "non-ending phase" :/ anyone else?
    mennawashere mennawashere 13-15, F 7 Responses Apr 11

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    I am definitely not where I wanted to be at my

    age. Ive had 2 broken relationships and I feel like a few years of my life have been eaten away by scum. I wonder where I would be had I kept things simple. Of this I am certain: I would have been better off. I would not be posting this on EP
    tan54321 tan54321 31-35, F 9 Responses Oct 29, 2014

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    People are always asking about our short term

    and long term goals. Where we'll see ourselves in 5 years, in 10 years. In high school , if you asked me where I would want to be by this time, I would've said, "Engaged." Finishing college and getting ready to marry the love of my life. But where am I really? I am finishing...
    ismalbergher ismalbergher 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 21, 2014

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    I am having those "worthless" thoughts again.

    Here I am 38 years old and completely miserable. As far as I can remember I have had confidence issues and lack of backbone. Because of this I make the worst decisions and often follow what others do. I'm an indecisive, procrastinator and I hardly ever speak up. At this...
    MsWrong MsWrong 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 7

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    When I found out I was pregnant a year

    and a half ago, I was scared to be in this position I am now. This is where I feared my life being. Everyone tried to warn me that my babydad would leave me, that he didn't care. But I believed every lie he told. Now I'm the single parent with no help and he's out partying...
    krmdr krmdr 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 4

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    I feel frustrated in my career

    and feel I need to progress more .. I feel sad about having to cut my younger sister out of my life and now my family are taking her side as she manipulates them. I feel sad that I've grown up to realise that my family are so dysfunctional and controlling .. I feel like I have...
    ozgirl77 ozgirl77 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    I don't know... I just thought I'd be doing my

    own thing by now. Moved out, have some sort of handle on where I want to go, have a couple of friends maybe a boyfriend. Then I remember I'm almost 20 and haven't been out of high school for an entire year. But I feel like I'm 25 and that I've had time to figure myself out.. I'm...
    Twichl Twichl 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 16

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    anasteel2 anasteel2 41-45, F 16 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    I just turned 21 and moved back in with my

    parents on my birthday, because my neighbours were pissed that I wouldn't babysit for them (for free) and filed false complaints to the landlords, which got me evictes (even after explaining to the landlord what was going on). So now I'm 21, living with my parents with no job or...
    dontyouunderstand dontyouunderstand 18-21 3 Responses Apr 13

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    49 years of age. Not only that,

    but closing on halfway to the Big 5-0! The time in a person's life – especially a man's, by today's cultural norms – when I ought to be nearing the peak of my wealth, power, and productivity: closing on the top of the corporate ladder, or at least securely established in a...
    Oldr4SubGrrl1965 Oldr4SubGrrl1965 46-50, M 7 Responses Feb 15

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    As a 16 year old Junior in high school,

    I feel I am too mature for my crowd, and I have good grades and everything but I cannot stand the teachers or students as they take it all as a joke and everything there is pointless knowledge in which they try to teach... That won't benefit me in the future what I learn in...
    ashleeeyv ashleeeyv 16-17, F 7 Responses Apr 12

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    Hello everyone. I just stumbled upon this

    website this morning and am looking forward to trying it out and getting involved. I am 32, married and have a beautiful baby boy. While, I'm so fortunate to have all that, I'm unhappy and not comfortable in my own skin. I have felt this way for years and have made many attempts...
    restartnow restartnow 31-35, F 4 Responses Mar 22

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    18 years old. Im supposed to be at the

    University of Memphis. Undergrad. Major in biology. Preparing myself for medical school and becoming a neurologist. Im supposed to be in advanced yoga classes and doing contortion work. Stretching. Im suppose to be driving. Im supposed to be going to ballet, hip hop, zumba...
    Acebo Acebo 18-21, F 12 Responses Jul 30, 2014

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    i always figured that on my 18th birthday i

    would have left my miserable life behind and started having some real fun but it turns out that my miserable life is firmly attached to me. 😢
    Cubeball Cubeball 18-21, M 3 Responses Apr 9

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    I'm 28 years old with a 2 year degree working

    for a large corporation selling mobile plans and this is definitely not where I wanted to be. I have no idea what I want to do with this life. I survived 4 years in the military. I've worked over seas after the military. I'd like to go back to college but I refuse to bury myself...
    justanotherguy86 justanotherguy86 26-30, M 7 Responses Dec 14, 2014

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