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I Am Not Where I Wanted to Be At This Age

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    I am 36, single mom and seriously loath my job.

    I am away from my son more than I am with him. I have toxic relationships all around me especially my family. I am working towards my dreams but living on one income keeps it at a snail's pace. I know there is better than this.
    infinitymdc79 infinitymdc79 36-40, F 11 Responses Jun 23, 2015

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    Grrrrr!! I'm 45, and am

    so poor! At 35, I sustained a career ending injury while working in Afghanistan. I was on track to retire at 40. Boy did all that change when I had to go on SSDI. Now, I'm poor, live in Section 8 housing, have no car and just barely get by. What a disappointing turn of events...
    Pauly1904 Pauly1904 41-45, M 3 Responses Jan 23

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    i was never really afraid of getting old

    as a kid but i still wasnt looking forward to it. so i wanted everything done while i was young. i wanted to have a baby by the time i was 20, so i also wanted to be married with a house by then too. my reasoning for this was that i didnt want to be old while my child was...
    cillasavage cillasavage 18-21, F 10 Responses Nov 9, 2015

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    Did I want to be 15 and a mom no

    but God's will is not always our plans. I wouldn't give up my son for anything though. Neither would his dad.
    sassygirl15 sassygirl15 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 27, 2015

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    Why does it seem like I'm going nowhere

    and I'm almost 30. Every aspect of my life is just a mess right now.
    mlia48 mlia48 26-30, F 27 Responses Aug 19, 2014

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    lovelybrigid lovelybrigid 41-45, F 6 Responses Apr 29, 2015

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    I'm such a failure...

    I was supposed to go through Job Corps to get get training for Office Administration and get a good job so I could move out and start my life. I only lasted a week there, before I had to leave because the whole center was just horrible. None of the staff know how to or want to...
    IcySongBird IcySongBird 18-21, F 7 Responses Jan 24

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    At this moment I wanted to be

    where I belong among the other dragons. Not only talk with some on a network. but really be free and fly alone or together with them trough the air above the mountains.
    JustADragon JustADragon 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 9

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    anasteel2 anasteel2 41-45, F 19 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    Where do I start! Im turning 27 in april,

    and I still live with my parents. Yes I have a job temporary employee at a job I don't want. I am depressed and toying with the idea of committing suicide, I won't but the thought creeps in now and then. I have never had a girlfriend or even a "best friend"! I'm an open and...
    grungie13 grungie13 26-30, M 6 Responses Jan 24

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    I could not be farther from

    where I wanted to be or thought I would be at this age. Wow, I never would have guessed, honestly.
    CharryICT CharryICT 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 1

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    I still live at my mom's house,

    I don't have a car yet, but I actually have a job so that's good, I'll get an income every month. Unfortunately I have to pay rent to live at my mom's house which sucks.
    myghostsayshi myghostsayshi 18-21, M 4 Responses Jan 13

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    Very frustrated with my life at the moment.

    I never taught I would be ere at this age. I have accomplished nothing I have been having major set backs. everything I try to do jus never works out. I jus need some new opportunities
    kimberlee1876 kimberlee1876 22-25, F 9 Responses May 9, 2015

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    I just realized I have to do something

    innovative before I have to go to college. If I don't then I will go to college and be an economic slave for the rest of my life. Don't panic, I got this. Maybe.
    NameIsMailbox NameIsMailbox 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 3

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    well, I just reached my six month anniversary

    at my job. I work in a factory, which is odd seeing as how I have 3 degrees, several years of teaching experience and am a veteran of Iraq and Afghanistan. Most people think I'm not living up to my potential but here's the thing- I make way more money and have a lot more job...
    jstephens4 jstephens4 31-35, M 9 Responses Feb 14, 2015

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    I thought that by now I would be married with

    at least one child. Unfortunately, my life didn't turn out that way. I don't have anyone special in my life and had I not make a decision I thought was best for me at the time, I'd at least have a child to love. I've been on my job for nearly 20 years, which I am very grateful...
    deleted deleted 26-30 12 Responses Apr 21, 2015

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    Never been married, never

    even had a long-term partner. No kids, no career, nothing to my name. But I still have my whole life ahead of me, so I can make it happen.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic 26-30, F 15 Responses Nov 3, 2015

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    I am 24 years old. I have never dated

    before (besides the man I married a little over a year ago who is 30 years older than I am). I lost my mom when I was 16. I may be fixing to lose my job. I just want a re-do so that I don't make the same mistakes that got me where I am right now.
    PeyMae PeyMae 22-25, F 6 Responses Jan 27

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    Behind in my career plan.

    Studying medicine is asking to get burnt out and most likely some level of depression. The journey to becoming a doctor is where the casualties occur. It's fraught with academic hurdles that are depression and anxiety inducing. One wrong move, one low score, you can screw...
    TwistedCognition TwistedCognition 36-40, M 4 Responses Jan 5

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    It would be so easy to just stop existing at

    this point. I literally cannot even think of where to start fixing my life. I have got to stop wallowing I know. But I have got to the point where I can't even be bothered with life right now. Back to bumbling and floating around.
    js246 js246 22-25, F 6 Responses Jan 2

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    But then, who is? It's very rare to find anyone

    who actually gets to where they wanted to go by this point. No reason to moan about it, though. When I was a little kid I'd imagine myself sticking to my girly roots, wearing pretty dresses and skirts to school, making new friends, etc, etc, life was good. As it was, my mother...
    HuntressX23 HuntressX23 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    I am 18. Now I know I have my whole life ahead

    of me but hear me out first. I'm just now graduating high school. I was supposed to last year at the latest. I'm insanely bright so I know I could have graduated at 16. But I didn't. I got held back. Why? I was getting bumped around family's because everyone I got put in after I...
    ToughLoveKitten ToughLoveKitten 18-21, F 7 Responses Jan 30

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    I really am not I figured I would have gone to

    collage and be done with school by now have a career and ascend the corporate ladder eventually loll I'm no where near close to that but I plan to turn things around this year. failure is really never the end, your life is like a rocket ship and you can turn it around anytime...
    hellokitty206 hellokitty206 22-25 3 Responses Jan 22

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    I am 23 year old married loser.

    I thought by now that I would hVe a great group of friends and have overcame this depression. I have never had friends and no one seems to like me... Idk maybe it has to do with my lack of personality. I try and try but my husband seems to be the one people want to be around and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Jan 1

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    16 years ago, I blew up my life.

    Not intentionally ........ well not with conscious intention, that is. I felt empty, invisible, and lonely in a 10 year relationship. But we had a good life. We traveled, had good friends, and good jobs. We were on the right track for a long future together. I knew my SO...
    vermontsurfer vermontsurfer 51-55, F 12 Responses Aug 8, 2015

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    Almost 53, single, rent,

    no car, and work retail. Not at all what I had planned. Not sure what went wrong.
    jefl jefl 51-55, M 18 Responses Jul 24, 2015

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    I was born into a family

    that is very unfortunate for the career I'm hoping for (NASCAR driver). The reason it's unfortunate is because racing is pretty much the single most expensive sport to get into and compete in, and we don't have an over abundance of money. I've done some go-kart leagues at an in...
    LifesProtaginist LifesProtaginist 18-21, M Jan 3

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    I was 19 & graduated nursing school

    as an LPN. I was proud to be the youngest in my class, & proud to be the youngest nurse in my facility. Well, now I'm 23. And still an LPN. Some say I'm doing well, others only ask when I'm going back to school. I don't want to offend any LpNs, I just feel bad that I'm not an RN...
    Fiftypercent Fiftypercent 18-21 2 Responses Dec 27, 2015

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    It just saddens me. I am a 14 year old freshman

    girl who should be out and about with her friends on the weekend, but instead is in her room all the time trying not to think because thinking leads to dark places. Im too young to be feeling this way. Normalcy is all I want, but it's a struggle trying to fit in or do my work...
    Rucbrar Rucbrar 13-15, F 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    I need a ******* job.

    how do people expect you to have experience if they won't allow you to gain experience?!
    evynray evynray 22-25, F 8 Responses Nov 16, 2014

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    Stupid Genius

    When I was a kid, I was constantly told how smart I was and how one day I'm going to make it.  When I was 8 years old I was put into the G.A.T.E. (Gifted And Talented Education) program and had to attend a new school.  I was a little worried about what was going to be...
    TheIdeaOfMe TheIdeaOfMe 31-35, F 60 Responses Oct 6, 2009

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    rantStart(){ I'm a little pissed.

    Teachers need to learn that they are not necessary to my education. School is not for learning it is merely a requirement. They teach us worthless **** we could learn with a click of a button and they somehow thinks that buys them authority. Not that I would ever disrespect a...
    NameIsMailbox NameIsMailbox 16-17, M 10 Responses 1 day ago

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    At 24- I just want to die- to sleep,

    forever. No job, SSI, my life has no purpose.
    worthlessdeficit worthlessdeficit 22-25, M 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I just feel like no matter how old I

    get I'm always in some type of childhood position. All I've done in my life and yet still I feel I am back to square one. I seriously have to progress. Living a life almost by default. Not actively making decisions just dealing with whatever comes from my day to day actions. I...
    lovelife84 lovelife84 31-35, F 9 Responses May 30, 2015

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    I'm sorry but it seems everyone here is in

    their 20s and have so much ahead of them. You all still have lots of time to change things, to make your lives better. I am almost 50 and look back on my life wondering what went wrong. I am divorced, still living with my ex because I have no money and nowhere to go. I am...
    PressPToPlay PressPToPlay 46-50, F 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    49 years of age. Not only that,

    but closing on halfway to the Big 5-0! The time in a person's life – especially a man's, by today's cultural norms – when I ought to be nearing the peak of my wealth, power, and productivity: closing on the top of the corporate ladder, or at least securely established in a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Feb 15, 2015

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    I should rephrase this to "I'm not

    where I thought I would be right now" it's less negative. If you'd have told me I'd throw away my dreams, I would have argued with you till the end. If you would have told me I'd be a mother right now, a single mother at that - I would have laughed. If you'd told me I would...
    lozenbee lozenbee 26-30, F 6 Responses Oct 19, 2015

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    I am worth more dead

    than alive. I cosigned my daughters student loans and now we are trying to consolidate and no one will help us. Our debt to income ratio is too high. I am so stressed that I could lose everything because I helped my child to better herself. I feel like I am being punished for...
    Whateverinmo Whateverinmo 46-50, F 3 Responses Jan 6

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    We never get, what we want.

    We never want what we get. We never have, what we like. We never like, what we have. Still we live, still we love, still we hope.
    visaforlove visaforlove 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 27, 2015

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    A good article to ponder http://www.

    huffingtonpost.com/jamie-varon/to-anyone-who-thinks-theyre-falling-behind_b_9190758.html
    PressPToPlay PressPToPlay 46-50, F 5 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    I'm going to run for president.

    I can see it now... Mailbox! Make America great again! Yes... everyone would vote for me right?
    NameIsMailbox NameIsMailbox 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 14

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    In four months I will be turning 40.

    I feel time just slipping away and the chances of me getting to where I want to be becoming slimmer and slimmer. Ugh nobody wants to be that hamster stuck in the turning wheel; running its little heart out and never getting anywhere. I work hard....very hard. I want to be...
    snowberry75 snowberry75 36-40, F 14 Responses Jun 5, 2015

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    I know we shouldn't compare ourselves to others.

    However, one of the worst things for me is reconnecting with childhood friends on Facebook(or other social media) & Seeing how much they have going for them. How great their lives turned out. I mean, I am happy for others! I guess I'm a bit ashamed that I'm not doing more in my...
    moniekita1988 moniekita1988 31-35, F 9 Responses Aug 11, 2015

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    I'm 14. I hate to admit it

    but I oftentimes think about suicide and drugs. I've vaped before and really enjoyed it. I wish I ha never vaped for the first time. this isn't where I want my life to go.
    sxvenfxld sxvenfxld 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 10

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    Sometimes hearing about people's successes

    makes me realize how much I've failed in life.
    Eechay Eechay 31-35, M 10 Responses Jan 12, 2015

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