I Am Not Who I Once Was

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    Thank god. Then, I was a sad,

    confused, girl who didn't know what to believe or what to feel. Now, I've grown up and know who I am. It truly gets better.
    awesomefallenangel awesomefallenangel
    18-21, F
    Feb 29, 2016

    Trough the storm I will stay,

    my entire lifetime. Because it isn't about the person I once was, it's about the person I am now, I am ready to face the future and I am going to do it now...
    GentleReader GentleReader
    16-17, M
    Apr 15, 2016

    I haven't been on here lately,

    but now that school is out. I've been focusing more on my meditation and self awareness and mental health. I've realized how important this app really is to me, so I'll be sure to be on this more. I love you guys.
    qwernia qwernia
    22-25, F
    Jun 24, 2015

    This stupid dark cloud is circling my life.

    It's the same thing, same none sense same mood same habits same stupid things. I'm performing less than 60% now. I need something, love, care, someone I could have physical contact with. And a just enjoy their company, it could be a relationship or just a close best friend. So...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 31, 2015

    I saw my brother and it was disconcerting

    almost surreal. He showed no anger or rage no yelling or lectures.....just a quite understanding and a sad look in his eyes it felt like he almost expected it. I suppose I wanted him to hit me, or show his anger but we just talked as we would have as brothers do. I'm back to...
    deleted deleted
    Jun 13, 2014

    I remember when I had my small group of friends,

    all those moments I shared with them... That was the real me. Now I pass by the hallways at school and different people are always saying 'hi' to me, I turn and flash them a smile. I have more friends and I can literally eat lunch with whoever I feel like and they'll welcome...
    Jkabstmnijno Jkabstmnijno
    18-21, F
    Oct 19, 2015

    I am NOT who I once was

    because I feel like all my life people try to change me people always had to put their two cents in my life they make me feel like I was never good enough to begin with and I look in the mirror everyday and I'm not happy with myself or the way I look
    sixcolorz sixcolorz
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 4, 2015

    Yes, growing up, I was

    that quiet, fat kid with the outdated clothes, messed up teeth stuttering problem that the "cool kids" picked on. Yes, I was the "in between" boyfriend (the rebound guy; the one that girls ran to when they were either trying to bait their exes back or use to get who they really...
    deleted deleted
    Oct 20, 2015

    when your not impressed by the cuteness of the

    little ones in halloween costumes its time to invest in anti~aging serum....
    deleted deleted
    Oct 23, 2015

    I have come along way from

    who I once was. I have still ways to go. I have always been away to nice. People who hurt me, I would just keep letting them. Now I will only take so much, I go completely by actions. I still try to always be nice, but when I need to I speak up...but politely :) If...
    APerfectMess APerfectMess
    36-40, F
    May 4, 2015

    When i was young, i am outgoing.

    But now, i am introverted, defending myself from being hurt and finding people who love me enough to break my wall.
    twodemons twodemons
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 16, 2015

    is anyone? i know i am constantly evolving

    as a person. the person i am today will not be the same person i will be.
    callmenathan callmenathan
    22-25, F
    Apr 30, 2015

    Past Friendships

    A long long time ago. I used to be so emotionally uncontrollable that most of my friendships that involved people who I liked or people who liked me or people who I suspected were gay would end badly. I have accustomed myself to being satisfied with the bare minimum...
    autumnsparrow autumnsparrow
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 30, 2013

    Broken. Your heart, your mind - shattered.

    Forever. There's no escaping it. You're messed up for life. Your moral code, your sense of normality, all gone haywire. You want to tell your story, but don't know where to begin. You don't want it to define you, to control you. So you lie. You create this pretense of a happy...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 2, 2015

    I have changed so much

    after the separation from my husband. I became really cold. It's not easy anymore for me to give affection to a man. It's like, I put a shield on my heart for me not to be hurt again. I don't know, when can I open up my heart to somebody else again. Time will tell. I hope one...
    walkawayifyoudontlikeme walkawayifyoudontlikeme
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Mar 1, 2016

    but I like myself now.

    than before.
    yayepisoverimsad yayepisoverimsad
    26-30, F
    Apr 16, 2016
    kotamonsterbear kotamonsterbear
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 18, 2015

    It has been four and a half years

    since I left my husband. He's getting married this weekend. Isn't that great? I say to those who ask that I am very happy about this fact, the truth is that I am indifferent. He's not my problem any longer. We barely communicate except for brief text messages about our son...
    ijustneed2talk ijustneed2talk
    46-50, F
    5 Responses Mar 12, 2016

    I used to be so sweet

    now I'm just bitchy...sour patch kid
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses May 8, 2015

    I was once very unstable,

    emotionally and mentally, and not very reliable. After years of mental health issues, sometimes severe, I could be paranoid, manipulative, jealous, possessive, erratic, and delusional, and I descended into a maelstrom of lies and unscrupulous behaviour as I deteriorated further...
    TheBookAddict TheBookAddict
    41-45, M
    4 Responses May 14, 2015

    How many woman think men should get vasectomies

    to elevate unwanted pregnancies and they don't have to stuff their system with birth control?
    deleted deleted
    May 8, 2015

    My mom once told me that

    when we would go out to eat, she noticed that I tended to watch my dinner table and food; while my wife at that time checked almost every one out. Now that she is my ex-wife, and a serial cheater, I find myself looking around and checking people out. I am not sure why. I don't...
    Longlegs2014 Longlegs2014
    51-55, M
    3 Responses Sep 28, 2015

    I use to be humble, lovely,

    friendly and just good company. Now I'm miserable, lonely, friendless and not so friendly. After the tragedies that have occurred in my life I'm just not who i once was. All my life I've felt with loss at a young age, my cousin amd Grandpa dotted the same year a couple...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Apr 30, 2015

    I use to be a hardcore drug addict

    and alcoholic. I had severe depression I hurt my self ever day. but one day someone told guidance on me. that was the day my life changed. I mean yeah I still have moments here and there but I've gotten so much better than I use to be I have been clean for six months going on to...
    chrislawson141 chrislawson141
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Oct 20, 2015

    I used to be a person

    who lived life on their own terms. I used to be so lively. Life was not easy but I used to laugh. I used to be happy for small things but YOU killed me. Transformed me into a person who cannot laugh. I hope you will realise one day that you were wrong in doing this to me. May be...
    littlestars littlestars
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 4, 2015

    I've learnt from my pain my sorrow I've

    used it to shape my future to be stronger to be someone future me will be proud of
    deleted deleted
    Apr 30, 2015

    Like I was the most innocent girl ever

    but when I got older, I changed and it's really because I decided to change. I wanted to be different. I think I miss the person I used to be before I started dating and stuff. But slowly I am turning back into that person I once was.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 13, 2014

    Hey, young me. Don't worry,

    the words won't hurt as much. You will one day be able to brush away those words, or at least blunt the damage they cause. And you'll do it with a smile. Don't fear, it will get better. Your friends have left but you will learn to make new ones; friendships that will last...
    deleted deleted
    Oct 20, 2015

    Although, I am still quite shy,

    and perhaps always will be so, I have made many improvements in my self. The biggest one was to stop being what I thought others wanted me to be. I no longer hate myself, like I did once and am willing to take more chances and leave my comfort zones more often. I like these...
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    1 Response Jan 2, 2015

    so ive changed my whats app status from hi too

    "sale petit jeu jouet' (dirty sex toy)! its how i feel!! i know my hubby looks at younger girls than me and sometimes ask myself if he imagines them whilst we are being intimate. hes always nagging me too gain weight because he wants my *** to be bigger yet im a 5ft 31 yo lady...
    daddysgirl50 daddysgirl50
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 18, 2016

    To those in my life who have shown me what

    abandonment is. I am who I've always been, it's just that I've finally shown it. I think deep down you all knew what kind of person I was, but you ignored it because you didn't want me to be me. You wanted me to be your pet. I never really realized it until now, but it's true...
    BlackDaisee BlackDaisee
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jun 13, 2014

    I was in the this horrible hell hole of

    depression and craziness but some how I managed to claw my way out of it. I literally thought I was going insane. I didn't take any meds or any therapy. I just looked at myself in the mirror and realized that my life is worth living and precious. just like everyone else's. I am...
    sanchessica sanchessica
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 2, 2016

    ... and I know you're not

    who you were either so why do I care?
    deleted deleted
    Oct 19, 2015

    So many versions of myself come

    and gone. A part of me wishes I could find my way back to the version of me before I saw the darkness of this world; the depths of despair another could hurl you into. I sometimes wonder how I would have turned out if she hadn't corrupted my soul/spirit/heart/mind. I wonder if I...
    kk1874 kk1874
    31-35, F
    Mar 1, 2016

    I'm torn between enjoying be high

    and berating myself for smoking. I can't keep doing this weird self-sabotage sh*t. I either need to commit myself to a life like my mother's or getting it together enough to rub my success as a human being in her face. I don't like this feeling of wanting to forget. If I don't...
    FoolOfATook FoolOfATook
    18-21, F
    Nov 19, 2015
    7t5HATgirl 7t5HATgirl
    41-45, F
    1 Response Dec 16, 2015

    Obviously considering everything about me has

    changed-except for my hair color.
    Mrskatearch Mrskatearch
    31-35, F
    1 Response Mar 16, 2016

    You're in love with the idea of me,

    who I used to be....not who I am now. You don't even know me!
    funsized1 funsized1
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jul 1, 2015

    Not long ago I was shy,

    a pushover, quiet, nerdy.... A lot of people don't like who I've become, others are extremely proud. I'm still me but I'm not a pushover anymore, I'm not as quiet and frankly I'm a ***** sometimes. I really don't mind it. The change came somewhere between suicide graduation and...
    Cerci575 Cerci575
    22-25, F
    Mar 7, 2014

    And I probably will never be

    who I once was again.
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jul 4, 2015
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