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I Am Not Who I Used to Be

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    I sit and I listen to the words you speak to me

    out your mouth. The continue to break me down with every syllable. I look at you as though I don't know who you are anymore. You used to be my caring, loving husband who spoke nice things to me. Now it's all anger and yelling. You want me to want to spend time with you and...
    crafty36 crafty36 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 23, 2014

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    A Brand New Life Given To Me Again

     I am about to share a true life experience that happened to me more than Ten Years ago. I was born into a family that could afford me luxury and comfort; I was privileged to attend one of the best schools in my country. Life for me was exciting and at its...
    joerio joerio 36-40, M Jul 28, 2010

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    I used to be so happy with

    who I was, funny, confident, didn't have a care in the world. After my first love used me I was soo heartbroken I completely lost who I was. It was like I lost my soul, this was like when I was 14. I'm now 20 and I've built myself up, but I'm not the person who I used to be. I'm...
    littlefox6 littlefox6 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 7, 2014

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    That moment when you're chopping food

    and you imagine how easy it world be to cut into yourself.
    MasqueradeMe MasqueradeMe 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 4, 2014

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    I'm not who I used to be at all.

    Even recently. I was very wounded. Very hurt. Very shy. Very quiet. Very not myself. Very hurting. Very sad. Very lonely. Very alone. I've changed a lot. Went inside. Found myself. I don't even know who I am anymore, or what I can do, or what I will do. But I know this, I like...
    chimbie88 chimbie88 31-35, M Mar 16, 2014

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    realizing its better to live

    as king of beasts, then to run amongst the sheep....
    DevilbehindMyeyes DevilbehindMyeyes 31-35, M Jan 26

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    Sometimes I feel like I don't know myself

    anymore...I've changed...I miss my old self...I used to be quiet, I was living in my own head and thoughts, but now I'm sharing everything with my friends and I became this open person...It's not a bad thing, but sometimes is better to not even say anything...
    Teodora27 Teodora27 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 23, 2014

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    Because Of You

    a heart alone a soul torn a dream gone hope turned to stone tears fall spirits droop energy sags thoughts stall courage arrives wisdom steers support comes ideas strive the heart beats the soul shines dreams form hope completes the day is new but I am not and yet I am because of...
    neuilly neuilly 61-65, F 2 Responses Sep 20, 2011

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    I am rethinking everything I

    once thought about myself, it's devastating and riveting. Connections between my abuse, addictions, and assaults all seem so clear as I finally can see there intertwined aspect. It took 8 years but I feel like I'm stepping into a new stage and that I can finally see the past in...
    peytonkay peytonkay 22-25, F Jan 1

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    Nobody ever is, as we experience different

    things, we grow and evolve into someone new.
    KinkyIntellectual KinkyIntellectual 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 11, 2014

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    I Feel Myselff Chanqinq.

    I Dontt Lauqh Thee Samee, Smilee Thee Samee, Orr Talkk Thee Samee Im Jstt Soo Triedd Of Everythinn ...
    conniee3 conniee3 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 4, 2014

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    acrehood acrehood 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 15, 2014

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    I Been Throuqh Alott So Iff Youu Thinkk I

    Changedd Yourr Probarlyy Riqhtt .
    conniee3 conniee3 18-21, F Mar 15

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    Doing things for myself,

    then my family is the biggest lesson ever. Learning delayed gratification is the real measure of character. Learning to sacrifice has been the source of my change with the enabling presence and power of God
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M Mar 19

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    Getting rid of negative influences in my life

    was the best decision I've ever made. I left behind verbally abusive people, bad habits, painful memories and my anxiety and I've been so happy ever since.
    pinkfleshbows pinkfleshbows 18-21, F Jul 12, 2014

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    TheDemonsWithin TheDemonsWithin 13-15, M 2 Responses Mar 14

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    2011 Changed Me

    I fell deeper into my addictions of choice last year: men, alcohol. My life completely spun out of control. I tried to deny the feelings and fear that I had towards the man I was dating. We tried going on vacation together and this is when I realized that stuffing my feelings...
    NeopolitanSkye NeopolitanSkye 36-40, F 5 Responses Feb 19, 2012

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    I don't even in the saying "people can change".

    ... Once you become a rapist your always going to be a rapist. Once you start beating on women, your always going to be beat up on women weather or not you get therapy or not. I look at people all the time when they say "my man or girl is not what he or she used to be"..... Once...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 26

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    I Lied All the Time

    I used to lie all the time about the simplest things. Not because I was a liar but because I wanted to not only fit in but because I wanted to be better than anyone around me. I realize now that this came from a traumatic childhood school experience of being called names because...
    shaw8537 shaw8537 36-40, F 1 Response Sep 24, 2009

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    Im Ntt Sadd Orr Depressedd Orr Anythinn,

    Btt Im Ntt Happyy Eitherr & Thtss Watss Reallyy Botherin Mee ...
    conniee3 conniee3 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 6, 2014

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    My life was horrible I used to have a older

    profile onto here but I had to delete it because the more I had the same depressing thing the more darker and deeper I would go I used to think about blood guts and gore n **** like that but I don't I used to think that one day I would flip out onto everybody and kill or go...
    ghostbeautiy ghostbeautiy 13-15, F Nov 3, 2014

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    I am trying to figure out just

    who i am.. As a young girl i was shy.. But strong.. Took care of my family.. Lied to protect them.. But cried when bymyself.. Wishing for somebody to take care of me... I grew into a teenager.. Still shy but in my element spunky... Full of life.. Eager to be independant and go...
    sunpea sunpea 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 27, 2014

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    I like to think I'm not

    who I used to be, now I'm more tolerant, patient, bigger, stronger... I can go on and on. But I'll never stop changing, onwards and upwards, right?
    diegosauns diegosauns 18-21, M Nov 17, 2014

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    Not By A Long Shot...

    ...I am better than I used to be!
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 28, 2011

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    I Am Not Who I Used To Be.

    For years i lived in solitude, avoiding social contact because of my insecurities and miss-trust of people. I lived in my own little prison, afraid to let anyone get close to me because my childhood had left me feeling like i wasn't good enough and all the torment and anguish...
    DiesSomnium DiesSomnium 31-35 4 Responses Oct 11, 2011

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    From this day on, I will fix myself.

    Someone on here has shown me that there is good in the world. :) I will repay her back from becoming a better person and helping others like she helped me. All my negative posts in the past mean nothing to me now. (Deleted them)
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 1 Response Feb 25

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    So for the last year of my life I've crashed

    and burned and gone through hell and back again and back again and you get the point. Now I am slowly trying to get back up on my feet. All my problems were mental. It started with an eating disorder then went to anxiety then went to a phobia of going out in public then it went...
    GetYourFreakOn GetYourFreakOn 18-21, F Sep 25, 2014

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    Almost all of last year was a defining moment

    in my life. I've definitely become a lot stronger and independent than I used to be because of it. I still have a lot to work on, but, for the most part, I'm a better person now. :)
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 18-21, M Aug 29, 2014

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    Always Changeing

    i am not who i use to be, i changed, we all change. some change for better, some for worse, we're always changing, no matter what anyone else says, I just hope my changes are for better and not worse...
    wannaelectrodance wannaelectrodance 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 16, 2013

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    conniee3 conniee3 18-21, F Oct 5, 2014

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    Seems Like I'm Not

    Deep down inside I know that I will always have certain traits and act a certain way, when faced with different situations, but I am stronger and happier than I was before and that is a huge change in its self. I grew tired of feeling like I did, who wants to feel like they don't...
    invisiblyreal invisiblyreal 18-21, F 1 Response May 10, 2012

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    I'm Not The Same

    I'm not who I used to be. I'm different now. A better person actually. Use to... I would let people take advantage of me. I let people control me, and be mean to me and care about it. But not no more. I control myself, and I defend myself, and do as I wish. Use to... I was...
    magicianguy magicianguy 18-21, M Oct 9, 2013

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    Moved country when 14.

    Smoked a ton of weed (live in pnw, surrounded by stoners). Hate where I live, what I became and everyone I associate with daily. Don't want to talk to anyone, depressed, struggling with anxiety, in need of a new start and new understanding friends
    cjr54 cjr54 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 21, 2014

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    A Moment Of Silence

    Tonight when I got home, I decided I did not want the TV....or music...or really any form of noise other than the thoughts in my head.  My world seems to be a mass of over stimulation and I have decided to embrace this moment of silence and just allow myself to take a little bit...
    evolving2010 evolving2010 36-40, M 3 Responses Jan 16, 2011

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    A lot of things change.

    For the better and for the worse.
    lostluxray lostluxray 70+ Jan 10

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    allamericanloser allamericanloser 13-15, F 2 Responses May 30, 2014

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    Who I Am Hates Who I've Been, Who I've Been Hates Who I Am

    I am not who I used to be. Is anyone though? Who here can still look at their life through the eyes of a child, where everything is interesting and everything is new. Where you can trust people, and being mean is your mom not letting you buy dunkaroos this time at a shopping trip...
    WeAllFallDown WeAllFallDown 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2012

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    I'm not the sweet little girl I used to be.

    I'm no longer the person that tried to earn love points pleasing others and changing in every situation to be what people wanted me to be. After years of dedication to knowing myself on a deeper level I have become more centered. I have self-respect and self-love. I don't do...
    Emilyleahywho Emilyleahywho 26-30, F Dec 30, 2014

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    conniee3 conniee3 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    What A Difference A Decade Makes!

    10 years ago, I left an abusive marriage. I had been with him for 11 years, and the only thing that got me out was my beautiful daughter. I didn't want her to grow up thinking that this was okay. So I dragged all the broken pieces of myself together enough to take her and run...
    amethystrose1972 amethystrose1972 36-40, F 5 Responses Oct 4, 2010

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    Threw everything I've been threw,

    it messed up some important things in my life. I can't express how I keep, afraid to be open, afraid to go out and have fun sometimes. I wish I could just forget, take this load off of me! but. it has changed me in good and bad ways
    Bryona Bryona 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    I'm stuck in this place.

    I don't know who I am anymore or what happen to the person I used to be. I think about who I used to be and I've realize I was only living a life pleasing others and my life was pretty much hidden away. I believe as we mature and get wiser there are stages in life and we learn...
    ADonya ADonya 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 23, 2014

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    I once was very kind hearted

    and open to a relationship........ When I turned.....I think i was 14 or 15....anyways, 9th grade, i discovered that I was attracted to men and not women. I was raised to be Christian and I truly did call it my faith at the time. I despised what I liked and tried to change...
    andrew24601 andrew24601 18-21, M 5 Responses Oct 16, 2014

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    There's a really neat life changing experience

    in the living word of GOD . It states that has given us the things of life and godliness by knowledge of him that had called to glory and virtue . Virtue is the outward showings of the inward workings of God in us that bring about change . It also states that by this...
    pastormike pastormike 41-45, M 1 Response Feb 15, 2014

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    Stronger?

    The past 6 years haven't been the greatest. I was dependant on other people, timid, quiet as a mouse, walked over and had no self-respect. I felt I didn't deserve happiness due to things I'd done or that I just simply couldn't be happy because I'd only end up ruining things for...
    LeaveAndTakeMeWithYou LeaveAndTakeMeWithYou 18-21, F 11 Responses Apr 26, 2009

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    I Feel Myselff Chanqinq.

    I Dontt Lauqh Thee Samee, Smilee Thee Samee, Orr Talkk Thee Samee Im Jstt Soo Triedd Of Everythinn .
    conniee3 conniee3 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 3, 2014

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