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I Am Not Who I Used to Be

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    I'm James Alcock, I've lived

    for 20 years. None of them have been good, I've made many mistakes in the past. But I'm gonna make sure that I make no more in the future. It's time I start living. :D
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 15, 2015

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    This goes out to that great Canadian Lady

    Katii31991 :) 5 reasons why she is beyond awesome... 5) She calls me an *** and can get away with it :) 4) With her beautiful heart and soul, all of her is more than enough for a real man 3) I can already tell she has a spot where, if kissed properly, will give her...
    Bostonrules Bostonrules 46-50, M 1 Response Nov 3, 2015

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    2011 Changed Me

    I fell deeper into my addictions of choice last year: men, alcohol. My life completely spun out of control. I tried to deny the feelings and fear that I had towards the man I was dating. We tried going on vacation together and this is when I realized that stuffing my feelings...
    NeopolitanSkye NeopolitanSkye 36-40, F 5 Responses Feb 19, 2012

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    Always Changeing

    i am not who i use to be, i changed, we all change. some change for better, some for worse, we're always changing, no matter what anyone else says, I just hope my changes are for better and not worse...
    wannaelectrodance wannaelectrodance 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 16, 2013

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    Today an old friend told me

    that I was a cheerful person, positive and enthusiast in friendship, around me the world were sunshine and happiness. I never thought someone could think of me that way, I don't even like myself back then.. :) and he wishes that he will see me like that again someday..
    defiantmisfit defiantmisfit 36-40, F 6 Responses Feb 24, 2014

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    There's a really neat life changing experience

    in the living word of GOD . It states that has given us the things of life and godliness by knowledge of him that had called to glory and virtue . Virtue is the outward showings of the inward workings of God in us that bring about change . It also states that by this...
    pastormike pastormike 41-45, M 1 Response Feb 15, 2014

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    I'm Not The Same

    I'm not who I used to be. I'm different now. A better person actually. Use to... I would let people take advantage of me. I let people control me, and be mean to me and care about it. But not no more. I control myself, and I defend myself, and do as I wish. Use to... I was...
    magicianguy magicianguy 18-21, M Oct 9, 2013

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    not so long ago someone asked me about you,

    I guess not everyone has noticed that we are not together. It's been a few weeks since I last saw you, and i can't remember the last time we spent so much time apart. It's hard not miss you when everything reminds of you, of us, of who we were and the ones we wanted to be.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 18

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    allamericanloser allamericanloser 13-15, F 1 Response May 30, 2014

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    TheDemonsWithin TheDemonsWithin 16-17, M 2 Responses Mar 14, 2015

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    No one is who they used to be,

    we all change, consciously or not, for better or worse - it's called evolution.
    Xenox Xenox 31-35, M Jul 30, 2015

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    I Am Not Who I Used To Be.

    For years i lived in solitude, avoiding social contact because of my insecurities and miss-trust of people. I lived in my own little prison, afraid to let anyone get close to me because my childhood had left me feeling like i wasn't good enough and all the torment and anguish...
    DiesSomnium DiesSomnium 31-35 4 Responses Oct 11, 2011

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    I shudder when I think of my past self.

    Although I strongly dislike that person, i've come to accept it as a part of what made me who I am today. One of the greatest lessons that took me years to learn is that violence is no form of power. True power comes from smashing your barriers down and destroying all of your...
    Quietanalysis Quietanalysis 22-25, M Jan 22

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    i used to be afraid. i was scared of everything

    from failing tests to during l dying alone. i let my fear consume and control me on a daily basis, and i had no idea. i often gave up on things before they even started for fear that they would fail. i can't even think of how many opportunities i missed out on. don't get me...
    buckoe buckoe 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 15

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    Pink and red hair. Piercings everywhere.

    Always getting into some sort of mischief and trying to strike someone's fancy ;) eventually, life forces you to grow up. All the tackle was removed from my face but I get to keep the select few piercings no one knows about. I think as I was forced to grow out of that...
    Luckylotus013 Luckylotus013 26-30, F Mar 13, 2014

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    Getting rid of negative influences in my life

    was the best decision I've ever made. I left behind verbally abusive people, bad habits, painful memories and my anxiety and I've been so happy ever since.
    pinkfleshbows pinkfleshbows 18-21, F Jul 12, 2014

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    Because Of You

    a heart alone a soul torn a dream gone hope turned to stone tears fall spirits droop energy sags thoughts stall courage arrives wisdom steers support comes ideas strive the heart beats the soul shines dreams form hope completes the day is new but I am not and yet I am because of...
    neuilly neuilly 61-65, F 2 Responses Sep 20, 2011

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    I remember in grade school damn I was a devil

    skipping school cursing at teachers cursing at students but it wasn't just because I wanted to I was going through a faze I guess. I thought wow these teachers really act like children so arrogant and close minded what gives them the right to tell me what to do. So as the witty...
    BackToBiege BackToBiege 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 8

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    Threw everything I've been threw,

    it messed up some important things in my life. I can't express how I keep, afraid to be open, afraid to go out and have fun sometimes. I wish I could just forget, take this load off of me! but. it has changed me in good and bad ways
    Bryona Bryona 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 15, 2015

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    I used to be so happy with

    who I was, funny, confident, didn't have a care in the world. After my first love used me I was soo heartbroken I completely lost who I was. It was like I lost my soul, this was like when I was 14. I'm now 20 and I've built myself up, but I'm not the person who I used to be. I'm...
    littlefox6 littlefox6 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 7, 2014

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    I Been Throuqh Alott So Iff Youu Thinkk I

    Changedd Yourr Probarlyy Riqhtt .
    conniee3 conniee3 18-21, F Mar 15, 2015

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    From this day on, I will fix myself.

    Someone on here has shown me that there is good in the world. :) I will repay her back from becoming a better person and helping others like she helped me. All my negative posts in the past mean nothing to me now. (Deleted them)
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ 2 Responses Feb 25, 2015

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    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 1 Response Nov 24, 2015

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    A Moment Of Silence

    Tonight when I got home, I decided I did not want the TV....or music...or really any form of noise other than the thoughts in my head.  My world seems to be a mass of over stimulation and I have decided to embrace this moment of silence and just allow myself to take a little bit...
    evolving2010 evolving2010 36-40, M 3 Responses Jan 16, 2011

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    I used to be a very irritable,

    moody, and spoiled little boy, and I guess I matured, and now I save animals' lives when I can, I help people when I can, let's just say I have changed drastically.
    Wolflover1999 Wolflover1999 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 21, 2015

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    I used to be this girl

    that would always be happy and wear dresses and skirts and do girly things you know? Shy and never spoke up in class. I've changed, I'm not wearing dresses or skirts now, I despite them, I've spoken up so much more (that's a good thing, in class basically). I'm not shy as I...
    Elfis Elfis 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 29, 2015

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    This one is actually a good thing,

    I am glad I am not the person I used to be, I was rude, always had something to say (horrible) I hated the old me, I was experimenting drugs everything I shouldn't do I done, now my life is a lot easier without the label on me
    NoUsernameInserted NoUsernameInserted 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 29, 2015

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    Stronger?

    The past 6 years haven't been the greatest. I was dependant on other people, timid, quiet as a mouse, walked over and had no self-respect. I felt I didn't deserve happiness due to things I'd done or that I just simply couldn't be happy because I'd only end up ruining things for...
    LeaveAndTakeMeWithYou LeaveAndTakeMeWithYou 18-21, F 11 Responses Apr 26, 2009

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    I'm really not. That innocent girl

    that I used to be was murdered the day I turned 9. I will never believe in the same stuff I use to, little did I know I would be changed forever that day. She was killed when I got home that day and I was never the same. I know what pain is despite my age and I know it effects...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 15, 2013

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    I don't even in the saying "people can change".

    ... Once you become a rapist your always going to be a rapist. Once you start beating on women, your always going to be beat up on women weather or not you get therapy or not. I look at people all the time when they say "my man or girl is not what he or she used to be"..... Once...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 26, 2015

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    What A Difference A Decade Makes!

    10 years ago, I left an abusive marriage. I had been with him for 11 years, and the only thing that got me out was my beautiful daughter. I didn't want her to grow up thinking that this was okay. So I dragged all the broken pieces of myself together enough to take her and run...
    amethystrose1972 amethystrose1972 36-40, F 5 Responses Oct 4, 2010

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    I Didntt Chanqee, I Jstt Greww Upp.

    I Learnedd Whats Bestt Forr Mee . Iff I Havee To Losee Ppl To Gett Wheree I Need Too Bee, Thenn Im Okayy Withh Thttt .
    conniee3 conniee3 18-21, F Apr 25, 2015

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    I had friends in the past

    that aided me in my self destruction. I was on a dark path leading me to no where, far from God and far from light. It took the loss of those friends and the loss of my self, or who I thought was my self, to find out who I truly was. I forgave them, I forgave my self, and I...
    Scarlett13 Scarlett13 18-21, F Apr 8, 2015

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    A Brand New Life Given To Me Again

     I am about to share a true life experience that happened to me more than Ten Years ago. I was born into a family that could afford me luxury and comfort; I was privileged to attend one of the best schools in my country. Life for me was exciting and at its...
    joerio joerio 36-40, M Jul 28, 2010

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    I used to use this website under another

    username because I felt so lonely and out of place. My depression got the best of me, but currently I'm so much better. I used drugs, alcohol, self harmed, and had sex to cope with my depression. I've been in therapy for 3 months and it has helped tremendously. I was in a...
    nostalgiaa nostalgiaa 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 29, 2015

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    Not By A Long Shot...

    ...I am better than I used to be!
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 28, 2011

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    Who I Am Hates Who I've Been, Who I've Been Hates Who I Am

    I am not who I used to be. Is anyone though? Who here can still look at their life through the eyes of a child, where everything is interesting and everything is new. Where you can trust people, and being mean is your mom not letting you buy dunkaroos this time at a shopping trip...
    WeAllFallDown WeAllFallDown 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2012

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    The New Me

    the last four months of my life have been very hard for me. i always thought i was the problem an alot of time i am it but this time it wasnt me. my family has ignored every call every text and kinda been very mad at me for the last 4 months but mostly the last month specially...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 30, 2013

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    I sit and I listen to the words you speak to me

    out your mouth. The continue to break me down with every syllable. I look at you as though I don't know who you are anymore. You used to be my caring, loving husband who spoke nice things to me. Now it's all anger and yelling. You want me to want to spend time with you and...
    SallyJones005 SallyJones005 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 23, 2014

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    Doing things for myself,

    then my family is the biggest lesson ever. Learning delayed gratification is the real measure of character. Learning to sacrifice has been the source of my change with the enabling presence and power of God
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M Mar 19, 2015

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 18, 2015

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    I'm not sure if I actually like being alone

    or if I have just convinced myself that I am okay being alone.
    sunshine1221 sunshine1221 22-25, F May 18, 2014

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    The caption pretty much says it all

    and I wish I didn't feel so lost and frustrated with myself trying to figure life and things.
    bloomish bloomish 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 28, 2015

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    Amoryberlin Amoryberlin 26-30, M Dec 26, 2015

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    WarriorsHeart WarriorsHeart 22-25, M Jun 15, 2015

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