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I Am Not Who I Used to Be

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    I remember days of the past

    where I was always thinking about how to have fun when off work or when I could enjoy beers or how I had to find a woman to take home and coulda cared less how I treated people . Now throughout my day conviction I areas where I fall short , how did I behave , how did I treat...
    pastormike pastormike 41-45, M Mar 10, 2014

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    Who I Am Hates Who I've Been, Who I've Been Hates Who I Am

    I am not who I used to be. Is anyone though? Who here can still look at their life through the eyes of a child, where everything is interesting and everything is new. Where you can trust people, and being mean is your mom not letting you buy dunkaroos this time at a shopping trip...
    WeAllFallDown WeAllFallDown 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2012

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    I Lied All the Time

    I used to lie all the time about the simplest things. Not because I was a liar but because I wanted to not only fit in but because I wanted to be better than anyone around me. I realize now that this came from a traumatic childhood school experience of being called names because...
    shaw8537 shaw8537 36-40, F 1 Response Sep 24, 2009

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    As a ten-year-old, I wanted to "save the world.

    " I wanted to save it from corruption, immorality, and stupidity. But I've learned that's impossible. So I decided to join the corrupt, immoral, and stupid....It's much less stressful XD
    ACuriousAnomaly ACuriousAnomaly 16-17, F 9 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I am rethinking everything I

    once thought about myself, it's devastating and riveting. Connections between my abuse, addictions, and assaults all seem so clear as I finally can see there intertwined aspect. It took 8 years but I feel like I'm stepping into a new stage and that I can finally see the past in...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 1

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    I'm not sure if I actually like being alone

    or if I have just convinced myself that I am okay being alone.
    sunshine1221 sunshine1221 22-25, F May 18, 2014

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    I'm James Alcock, I've lived

    for 20 years. None of them have been good, I've made many mistakes in the past. But I'm gonna make sure that I make no more in the future. It's time I start living. :D
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 15

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    Not By A Long Shot...

    ...I am better than I used to be!
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 28, 2011

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    Getting rid of negative influences in my life

    was the best decision I've ever made. I left behind verbally abusive people, bad habits, painful memories and my anxiety and I've been so happy ever since.
    pinkfleshbows pinkfleshbows 18-21, F Jul 12, 2014

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    The New Me

    the last four months of my life have been very hard for me. i always thought i was the problem an alot of time i am it but this time it wasnt me. my family has ignored every call every text and kinda been very mad at me for the last 4 months but mostly the last month specially...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 30, 2013

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    Pink and red hair. Piercings everywhere.

    Always getting into some sort of mischief and trying to strike someone's fancy ;) eventually, life forces you to grow up. All the tackle was removed from my face but I get to keep the select few piercings no one knows about. I think as I was forced to grow out of that...
    Luckylotus013 Luckylotus013 26-30, F Mar 13, 2014

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    Nobody ever is, as we experience different

    things, we grow and evolve into someone new.
    KinkyIntellectual KinkyIntellectual 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 11, 2014

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    I'm not the sweet little girl I used to be.

    I'm no longer the person that tried to earn love points pleasing others and changing in every situation to be what people wanted me to be. After years of dedication to knowing myself on a deeper level I have become more centered. I have self-respect and self-love. I don't do...
    Emilyleahywho Emilyleahywho 26-30, F Dec 30, 2014

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    I Am Not Who I Used To Be.

    For years i lived in solitude, avoiding social contact because of my insecurities and miss-trust of people. I lived in my own little prison, afraid to let anyone get close to me because my childhood had left me feeling like i wasn't good enough and all the torment and anguish...
    DiesSomnium DiesSomnium 31-35 4 Responses Oct 11, 2011

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    allamericanloser allamericanloser 13-15, F 2 Responses May 30, 2014

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    Stronger?

    The past 6 years haven't been the greatest. I was dependant on other people, timid, quiet as a mouse, walked over and had no self-respect. I felt I didn't deserve happiness due to things I'd done or that I just simply couldn't be happy because I'd only end up ruining things for...
    LeaveAndTakeMeWithYou LeaveAndTakeMeWithYou 18-21, F 11 Responses Apr 26, 2009

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    Barbiebased1 Barbiebased1 13-15, F May 3

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    I am trying to figure out just

    who i am.. As a young girl i was shy.. But strong.. Took care of my family.. Lied to protect them.. But cried when bymyself.. Wishing for somebody to take care of me... I grew into a teenager.. Still shy but in my element spunky... Full of life.. Eager to be independant and go...
    sunpea sunpea 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 27, 2014

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    I had friends in the past

    that aided me in my self destruction. I was on a dark path leading me to no where, far from God and far from light. It took the loss of those friends and the loss of my self, or who I thought was my self, to find out who I truly was. I forgave them, I forgave my self, and I...
    Scarlett13 Scarlett13 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I'm not who I used to be at all.

    Even recently. I was very wounded. Very hurt. Very shy. Very quiet. Very not myself. Very hurting. Very sad. Very lonely. Very alone. I've changed a lot. Went inside. Found myself. I don't even know who I am anymore, or what I can do, or what I will do. But I know this, I like...
    chimbie88 chimbie88 36-40, M Mar 16, 2014

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    Threw everything I've been threw,

    it messed up some important things in my life. I can't express how I keep, afraid to be open, afraid to go out and have fun sometimes. I wish I could just forget, take this load off of me! but. it has changed me in good and bad ways
    Bryona Bryona 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    I sit and I listen to the words you speak to me

    out your mouth. The continue to break me down with every syllable. I look at you as though I don't know who you are anymore. You used to be my caring, loving husband who spoke nice things to me. Now it's all anger and yelling. You want me to want to spend time with you and...
    crafty36 crafty36 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 23, 2014

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    A lot of things change.

    For the better and for the worse.
    lostluxray lostluxray 70+ Jan 10

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    Because Of You

    a heart alone a soul torn a dream gone hope turned to stone tears fall spirits droop energy sags thoughts stall courage arrives wisdom steers support comes ideas strive the heart beats the soul shines dreams form hope completes the day is new but I am not and yet I am because of...
    neuilly neuilly 61-65, F 2 Responses Sep 20, 2011

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    Moved country when 14.

    Smoked a ton of weed (live in pnw, surrounded by stoners). Hate where I live, what I became and everyone I associate with daily. Don't want to talk to anyone, depressed, struggling with anxiety, in need of a new start and new understanding friends
    cjr54 cjr54 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 21, 2014

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    conniee3 conniee3 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 1

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    Always Changeing

    i am not who i use to be, i changed, we all change. some change for better, some for worse, we're always changing, no matter what anyone else says, I just hope my changes are for better and not worse...
    wannaelectrodance wannaelectrodance 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 16, 2013

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    This one is actually a good thing,

    I am glad I am not the person I used to be, I was rude, always had something to say (horrible) I hated the old me, I was experimenting drugs everything I shouldn't do I done, now my life is a lot easier without the label on me
    NoUsernameInserted NoUsernameInserted 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am better. At what?

    EVERYTHING! j/k :)
    MyChemicalBreakup MyChemicalBreakup 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2014

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    Today an old friend told me

    that I was a cheerful person, positive and enthusiast in friendship, around me the world were sunshine and happiness. I never thought someone could think of me that way, I don't even like myself back then.. :) and he wishes that he will see me like that again someday..
    defiantmisfit defiantmisfit 36-40, F 6 Responses Feb 24, 2014

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    No one is who they used to be,

    we all change, consciously or not, for better or worse - it's called evolution.
    Xenox Xenox 31-35, M 17 hrs ago

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    2011 Changed Me

    I fell deeper into my addictions of choice last year: men, alcohol. My life completely spun out of control. I tried to deny the feelings and fear that I had towards the man I was dating. We tried going on vacation together and this is when I realized that stuffing my feelings...
    NeopolitanSkye NeopolitanSkye 36-40, F 5 Responses Feb 19, 2012

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    When I was younger, I used to be much more

    confident. I was daring and I walked up straight. I could talk to anybody with full ease. I didn't take no shyts. Not saying that I'm now exactly the opposite, but I think bad experiences and moments have engrossed me this much that I have to put a big effort to be like how I...
    MienaMena MienaMena 26-30, F Jun 18

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    I look back on who I was

    as a child. I loved the classic Disney princess movies. I grew up on The Little Mermaid, Beauty and the Beast, Pocahontas, Cinderella. I loved making up my own adventures and dreaming of a handsome prince to save me. Going on adventures with my sister in our large back yard...
    xxdublifexx xxdublifexx 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 27

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    WarriorsHeart WarriorsHeart 22-25, M Jun 15

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    There's a really neat life changing experience

    in the living word of GOD . It states that has given us the things of life and godliness by knowledge of him that had called to glory and virtue . Virtue is the outward showings of the inward workings of God in us that bring about change . It also states that by this...
    pastormike pastormike 41-45, M 1 Response Feb 15, 2014

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    I'm really not. That innocent girl

    that I used to be was murdered the day I turned 9. I will never believe in the same stuff I use to, little did I know I would be changed forever that day. She was killed when I got home that day and I was never the same. I know what pain is despite my age and I know it effects...
    Frozensilence Frozensilence 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 15, 2013

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    Seems Like I'm Not

    Deep down inside I know that I will always have certain traits and act a certain way, when faced with different situations, but I am stronger and happier than I was before and that is a huge change in its self. I grew tired of feeling like I did, who wants to feel like they don't...
    invisiblyreal invisiblyreal 18-21, F 1 Response May 10, 2012

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    I used to use this website under another

    username because I felt so lonely and out of place. My depression got the best of me, but currently I'm so much better. I used drugs, alcohol, self harmed, and had sex to cope with my depression. I've been in therapy for 3 months and it has helped tremendously. I was in a...
    nostalgiaa nostalgiaa 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I Been Throuqh Alott So Iff Youu Thinkk I

    Changedd Yourr Probarlyy Riqhtt .
    conniee3 conniee3 18-21, F Mar 15

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    Doing things for myself,

    then my family is the biggest lesson ever. Learning delayed gratification is the real measure of character. Learning to sacrifice has been the source of my change with the enabling presence and power of God
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M Mar 19

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    I'm Not The Same

    I'm not who I used to be. I'm different now. A better person actually. Use to... I would let people take advantage of me. I let people control me, and be mean to me and care about it. But not no more. I control myself, and I defend myself, and do as I wish. Use to... I was...
    magicianguy magicianguy 18-21, M Oct 9, 2013

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    I Didntt Chanqee, I Jstt Greww Upp.

    I Learnedd Whats Bestt Forr Mee . Iff I Havee To Losee Ppl To Gett Wheree I Need Too Bee, Thenn Im Okayy Withh Thttt .
    conniee3 conniee3 18-21, F Apr 25

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    I used to be so happy with

    who I was, funny, confident, didn't have a care in the world. After my first love used me I was soo heartbroken I completely lost who I was. It was like I lost my soul, this was like when I was 14. I'm now 20 and I've built myself up, but I'm not the person who I used to be. I'm...
    littlefox6 littlefox6 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 7, 2014

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    realizing its better to live

    as king of beasts, then to run amongst the sheep....
    MattyIce36 MattyIce36 36-40, M Jan 26

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    A Brand New Life Given To Me Again

     I am about to share a true life experience that happened to me more than Ten Years ago. I was born into a family that could afford me luxury and comfort; I was privileged to attend one of the best schools in my country. Life for me was exciting and at its...
    joerio joerio 36-40, M Jul 28, 2010

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