I Am Not Who I Used to Be

a heart alone
a soul torn
a dream gone
hope turned to stone
tears fall
spirits droop
energy sags
thoughts stall
courage arrives
wisdom steers
support comes
ideas strive
the heart beats
the soul shines
dreams form
hope completes
the day...

I fell deeper into my addictions of choice last year: men, alcohol. My life completely spun out of control. I tried to deny the feelings and fear that I had towards the man I was dating. We tried going on vacation together and this...

Every 2-3 years I sort of, switch. My personality, what I do, my actions, whether I'm remorseful or not. From good to bad to good to bad, over and over and over again. With each bad cycle I get worse. I'm in the middle of a good "cycle...

People I've known for a while are always going to associate me with who I used to be, which is why newer people tend to understand me better. I've changed, but people never forget the past.
Old Self:
-Always depressed, usually suicidal...

i am not who i use to be, i changed, we all change.
some change for better, some for worse,
we're always changing, no matter what anyone else says,
I just hope my changes are for better and not worse...

A year ago I considered myself a very kind easy going caring low keyed person, someone that would do anything for anybody, never let thinks bother me and so on

The years threw a series of horrible events my life has changed. I can be...

The past 6 years haven't been the greatest. I was dependant on other people, timid, quiet as a mouse, walked over and had no self-respect. I felt I didn't deserve happiness due to things I'd done or that I just simply couldn't be happy...

10 years ago, I left an abusive marriage. I had been with him for 11 years, and the only thing that got me out was my beautiful daughter. I didn't want her to grow up thinking that this was okay. So I dragged all the broken pieces of...

I'm not perfect - who is ? I cant figure out what I want or how I became the person I am right now. I am certainly not the same person I was even 5 years ago. A switch went off - a trigger so to speak and its catapulted from there...

Good. Old me was pathetic.Honestly, I've just spent some time going through my old stories and I...Urgh. Not sure how I ever coped being so weak.Well, I don't want to come across as a deep, dark, brooding and emotionally-closed...

this life that i have been blessed to live has carried me down so many roads.
Wow when i think of where i started and look at where i am .....
failed marriages, building a life with the right one, and death takes him away.
Who am i now...

I am tall, handsome, and have captivating eyes. Ready to yuke yet? Don't worry, I have a self loathing that makes most of the positive descriptions about myself entirely moot. At least, to me. I am 20 years old, due for my first...

I am about to share a true life experience that happened to me more than Ten Years ago. I was born into a family that could afford me luxury and comfort; I was privileged to attend one of the best schools in my...

I used to lie all the time about the simplest things. Not because I was a liar but because I wanted to not only fit in but because I wanted to be better than anyone around me. I realize now that this came from a traumatic childhood...

the last four months of my life have been very hard for me. i always thought i was the problem an alot of time i am it but this time it wasnt me. my family has ignored every call every text and kinda been very mad at me for the last 4...

But the long detour into inanity is over, I think. Perhaps I will recover the better parts of my youth and undo the damage I did to myself over the years. Perhaps I can regain the self-control I had. Maybe even the dignity and self...

Tonight when I got home, I decided I did not want the TV....or music...or really any form of noise other than the thoughts in my head.  My world seems to be a mass of over stimulation and I have decided to embrace this moment of...

I recently had to learn to accept myselfjust the way I am;this wasn’t easy.I didn’t like myself much thenso I didn’t like the way I looked, and my self-worthwas just flushed down the toilet.You can say I was hopeless,at least I...

For years i lived in solitude, avoiding social contact because of my insecurities and miss-trust of people.
I lived in my own little prison, afraid to let anyone get close to me because my childhood had left me feeling like i wasn't...

When my sisters were doing a school program at a church, we were praying and I didn't listen to my mom, and she was getting mad so I yelled saying, "Mommy, are you going to put pepper in my mouth?" while we were walking out of the room...