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I Am Not Who I Used to Be

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    Ok so i told my boyfriend

    that i wasnt a virgin. Im still a virgin and getting scared if he would want to do more 'adult' stuff. Me and him are only 12 but hes not a virgin. What should i do because i really have deep feelings for him and he has deep feelings for me. What should i do?
    appleasher appleasher 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 24

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    I called Mum last night,

    panicked at what I was facing this morning. Could she maybe come with me, offer moral support, be at my side to offer peace of mind? I heard the crushing, yet composed despair in her voice, telling me she had an important legal appointment of her own she couldn't reschedule...
    designbycassandra designbycassandra 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 12

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    Always Changeing

    i am not who i use to be, i changed, we all change. some change for better, some for worse, we're always changing, no matter what anyone else says, I just hope my changes are for better and not worse...
    wannaelectrodance wannaelectrodance 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 16, 2013

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    My last relationship was an abusive one.

    He would call me fat and always think I'm cheating on him. He would pick fights with me all the time. We would be good for one day and then all of a sudden he would ask what's my problem when I was smiling. He wouldn't show up if we had plans, he would tell me who I can't and...
    premadonnagirl premadonnagirl 18-21, F 8 Responses Mar 15

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    Who I Once Was Is Forever Gone

    There are change's that await each person as they travel through life. Many of these change's are expected with age and you can somwhat prepair for them but some can come out of nowhere and change you in way's that are impossible to brace for. For me it was depression and forever...
    Robert1256 Robert1256 51-55, M 1 Response Dec 14, 2010

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    A Brand New Life Given To Me Again

     I am about to share a true life experience that happened to me more than Ten Years ago. I was born into a family that could afford me luxury and comfort; I was privileged to attend one of the best schools in my country. Life for me was exciting and at its...
    joerio joerio 36-40, M Jul 28, 2010

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    Today an old friend told me

    that I was a cheerful person, positive and enthusiast in friendship, around me the world were sunshine and happiness. I never thought someone could think of me that way, I don't even like myself back then.. :) and he wishes that he will see me like that again someday..
    defiantmisfit defiantmisfit 36-40, F 3 Responses Feb 24

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    Half A Step Back Every Step Forward I'm Getting There!!

    I have shared in previous stories of mine that I don't really fit the stereotypes for the type of person I have been and the type of life I have lived. I have also shared that overall I am a pretty discrete and modest person who does not enjoy the spotlight. Even in these...
    libra604 libra604 26-30, M 3 Responses Jul 22, 2012

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    Before I Met Neeli and Ruth

    I've changed so much, well obviously everyone changes as they grow up, but your past still stays with you, its always a part of you as you grow up. Do u ever get that feeling when you look back at something that happened to you, but it feels like it wasnt you. Thats how it was...
    ForeverOnABoat ForeverOnABoat 18-21, F 8 Responses May 18, 2011

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    I used to be the kind of person to really care

    about how i looked in public. Honestly now i could go to school in a scrubs. I think this is mainly because im beginning to start caring less of what others think. They dont know me
    elliesa elliesa 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 12

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    Well, we're obviously not

    who we used to be, parting from the obvious fact that we keep changing physically while every minute passes. But yes, we also change so much emotionally. I remember not giving a crap about anything and being the happy/fun girl everyone knew about. I don't know what happened to...
    Realitea Realitea 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 11

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    A Moment Of Silence

    Tonight when I got home, I decided I did not want the TV....or music...or really any form of noise other than the thoughts in my head.  My world seems to be a mass of over stimulation and I have decided to embrace this moment of silence and just allow myself to take a little bit...
    evolving2010 evolving2010 36-40, M 3 Responses Jan 16, 2011

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    I feel like over the last 5 years I've changed

    drastically ... I'm only 19 ..( 20 in May ) but over these last couple of years, I feel like I've evolved one step closer into the "Man" I'm supposed to be. I find myself to be more generous, caring, and to some extent more capable of showing emotion. I've just begun to realize...
    Patval1933 Patval1933 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 23

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    Stronger?

    The past 6 years haven't been the greatest. I was dependant on other people, timid, quiet as a mouse, walked over and had no self-respect. I felt I didn't deserve happiness due to things I'd done or that I just simply couldn't be happy because I'd only end up ruining things for...
    LeaveAndTakeMeWithYou LeaveAndTakeMeWithYou 18-21, F 11 Responses Apr 26, 2009

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    Because Of You

    a heart alone a soul torn a dream gone hope turned to stone tears fall spirits droop energy sags thoughts stall courage arrives wisdom steers support comes ideas strive the heart beats the soul shines dreams form hope completes the day is new but I am not and yet I am because of...
    neuilly neuilly 61-65, F 2 Responses Sep 20, 2011

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    If you can remember the experience

    that I posted about cheating, I never got to say the aftermath. Not only did I learn some lessons on reality and earned some memories but I just feel like all my love is gone. As in my romantic feelings for anyone. Call me crazy but I just feel like I can't love. I'm dating this...
    HydroChronexia HydroChronexia 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    2011 Changed Me

    I fell deeper into my addictions of choice last year: men, alcohol. My life completely spun out of control. I tried to deny the feelings and fear that I had towards the man I was dating. We tried going on vacation together and this is when I realized that stuffing my feelings...
    NeopolitanSkye NeopolitanSkye 36-40, F 5 Responses Feb 19, 2012

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    I got into a wrong relationship

    and fell into sin, I was in this relationship for about ten years, but God brought me out, and set my feet on solid ground. He is teachings to be more like him every day!
    ceruleanwaters ceruleanwaters 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 2

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    I Am Not Who I Used To Be.

    For years i lived in solitude, avoiding social contact because of my insecurities and miss-trust of people. I lived in my own little prison, afraid to let anyone get close to me because my childhood had left me feeling like i wasn't good enough and all the torment and anguish...
    DiesSomnium DiesSomnium 31-35 3 Responses Oct 11, 2011

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    Seems Like I'm Not

    Deep down inside I know that I will always have certain traits and act a certain way, when faced with different situations, but I am stronger and happier than I was before and that is a huge change in its self. I grew tired of feeling like I did, who wants to feel like they don't...
    invisiblyreal invisiblyreal 18-21, F 1 Response May 10, 2012

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    This might sound weird,

    but since a week ago I haven't felt..normal, I feel out of place and odd I don't even know why.
    PiperElizabethGx PiperElizabethGx 13-15, F Mar 31

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    I'm really not. That innocent girl

    that I used to be was murdered the day I turned 9. I will never believe in the same stuff I use to, little did I know I would be changed forever that day. She was killed when I got home that day and I was never the same. I know what pain is despite my age and I know it effects...
    Frozensilence Frozensilence 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 15, 2013

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    Metamorphosis -- My New Life

    I recently had to learn to accept myselfjust the way I am;this wasn’t easy.I didn’t like myself much thenso I didn’t like the way I looked, and my self-worthwas just flushed down the toilet.You can say I was hopeless,at least I felt that way at the time.It took me more than...
    bemyvalentine bemyvalentine 51-55, F 14 Responses Feb 10, 2011

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    I Lied All the Time

    I used to lie all the time about the simplest things. Not because I was a liar but because I wanted to not only fit in but because I wanted to be better than anyone around me. I realize now that this came from a traumatic childhood school experience of being called names because...
    shaw8537 shaw8537 36-40, F 1 Response Sep 24, 2009

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    I'm Not The Same

    I'm not who I used to be. I'm different now. A better person actually. Use to... I would let people take advantage of me. I let people control me, and be mean to me and care about it. But not no more. I control myself, and I defend myself, and do as I wish. Use to... I was...
    magicianguy magicianguy 18-21, M Oct 9, 2013

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    Pink and red hair. Piercings everywhere.

    Always getting into some sort of mischief and trying to strike someone's fancy ;) eventually, life forces you to grow up. All the tackle was removed from my face but I get to keep the select few piercings no one knows about. I think as I was forced to grow out of that...
    Luckylotus013 Luckylotus013 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 13

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    I've ****** myself up,

    I've disappointed myself every step of the way. I just wish I could start again the same way but not make all those mistakes I made in my life. I've done things that I shouldn't of had. Everyone would blame me for my mistakes as I knew I was doing but I wasn't aware of what...
    HydroChronexia HydroChronexia 13-15, F Apr 2

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    I thought I had friends in real life

    but no one ever calls so I don't have any friends. Finally I know the truth, and I'm forever changed by this fact. Not in a good way, but I'll manage by laughing at myself. I'm not crying so I'm stronger, this is what I should have known.
    GrumpyGrouchy GrumpyGrouchy 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    I Am Growing.

       It has been a long road, real long. I have been sad for so long I forgot how to be not be sad. I am still not happy but I refuse to let that ruin my life. I am praying I can keep going forward. I have started to talk more as a real person. Its hard but this change is...
    wodman1 wodman1 46-50, M 4 Responses Jun 14, 2010

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    Who I Am Hates Who I've Been, Who I've Been Hates Who I Am

    I am not who I used to be. Is anyone though? Who here can still look at their life through the eyes of a child, where everything is interesting and everything is new. Where you can trust people, and being mean is your mom not letting you buy dunkaroos this time at a shopping trip...
    WeAllFallDown WeAllFallDown 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2012

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    What A Difference A Decade Makes!

    10 years ago, I left an abusive marriage. I had been with him for 11 years, and the only thing that got me out was my beautiful daughter. I didn't want her to grow up thinking that this was okay. So I dragged all the broken pieces of myself together enough to take her and run...
    amethystrose1972 amethystrose1972 36-40, F 5 Responses Oct 4, 2010

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    My sophomore year of high school,

    I met my ex-girlfriend.. She complained about how I wasn't masculine enough... So I became a "dyke", I started off quite hardcore.. It was the worst relationship ever. She was psychotic and verbally abusive. I finally grew the courage to let go of her. I fell in love with my...
    littlemissplur littlemissplur 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    I remember days of the past

    where I was always thinking about how to have fun when off work or when I could enjoy beers or how I had to find a woman to take home and coulda cared less how I treated people . Now throughout my day conviction I areas where I fall short , how did I behave , how did I treat...
    pastormike pastormike 36-40, M 1 Response Mar 10

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    There's a really neat life changing experience

    in the living word of GOD . It states that has given us the things of life and godliness by knowledge of him that had called to glory and virtue . Virtue is the outward showings of the inward workings of God in us that bring about change . It also states that by this...
    pastormike pastormike 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 15

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    What I think changed the way I saw things was

    that someone who I loved broke my heart, since then I have low self esteem, and sometimes I feel empty like there r no emotions in my heart anymore, like nothing matters. There r some things in my life that I know I need to stop doing but I'm taking one step at a time. Being...
    marie1005 marie1005 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 2

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    I'm not who I used to be at all.

    Even recently. I was very wounded. Very hurt. Very shy. Very quiet. Very not myself. Very hurting. Very sad. Very lonely. Very alone. I've changed a lot. Went inside. Found myself. I don't even know who I am anymore, or what I can do, or what I will do. But I know this, I like...
    chimbie88 chimbie88 31-35, M Mar 16

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    Today I am me. Yesterday I was me,

    but I have not always been this person. The person that I use to be is someone that I loath but love. He was such a kind and pure person but deathly shy. Not the shy that you would normally see in a teenager. He was debilitatingly shy. To the point where social interactions were...
    Feldspare Feldspare 22-25 Mar 13

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    All people weather they willingly submit to

    change or have it forced on them, change is an inevitable part of our lives. We don't have to like it we do have to find a way to live with it. Myself? In the last half century? I have undergone countless changes,many of which were forced on me by a thing called LIFE. I was a...
    AGothicOdyssey AGothicOdyssey 46-50, M Feb 24

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    Truth be told, I'm glad I changed.

    Beforehand I was in one of those "stages." I thought I was mental, psychotic, insane. Of course, I wasn't, but I stated otherwise. A lot. At the time, I guess I thought that kind of stuff was just cool. I know it isn't, now, obviously.
    TheTogaedHail TheTogaedHail 18-21, M Mar 7

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    I used to be so happy with

    who I was, funny, confident, didn't have a care in the world. After my first love used me I was soo heartbroken I completely lost who I was. It was like I lost my soul, this was like when I was 14. I'm now 20 and I've built myself up, but I'm not the person who I used to be. I'm...
    littlefox6 littlefox6 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    I am not the same as before.

    I'm not the smiling happy person as I used to be. As I got deeper into peoples lives I realized their suffering was caused by myself! Everytime I hear my name it makes me smash a mirror or bring harm to myself. That name which stood for victory it means defeat. So I decided to...
    RogueStrikerSXA RogueStrikerSXA 13-15, M Feb 19

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    Sometimes I feel like I don't know myself

    anymore...I've changed...I miss my old self...I used to be quiet, I was living in my own head and thoughts, but now I'm sharing everything with my friends and I became this open person...It's not a bad thing, but sometimes is better to not even say anything...
    Teodora27 Teodora27 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 23

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    I guess I was your peppy high school movie girl

    that was so out going. The loudest person in a room the most never giving up and trying to make people laugh. I don't even talk I don't even know who I was or what I am I'm just a blob of confusion. I don't even understand how fast it happend it's like happiness died or it's...
    frozenkisses21 frozenkisses21 16-17, F Mar 2

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    Change In Progress

    If you were to ask people in RL who I've been, and who I am becoming, they would tell you that I am not who I once used to be anymore. It seems as though I have morphed a lot over the years. I remember who I was before I was 10 years old, before the bullying began. I know that...
    Lucidblue Lucidblue 36-40, F 3 Responses Feb 6, 2011

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    Its like I'm fitting my entire life through the

    head of a needle. Not a lot winds up coming with you when you do this. Only the most essential things. But I can feel the squeeze.
    chimbie88 chimbie88 31-35, M 1 Response Mar 17

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    Before, I wanted to dye my hair REALLY blonde,

    now I want to dye my hair black and Kool-Aid my bangs blue. And I'm a guy!
    Samcoyou Samcoyou 13-15, M 2 Responses Feb 24

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    The school I'm currently in had changed me into

    someone I don't want to be. I can't wait to get out and start anew.
    Curiouscurious123 Curiouscurious123 13-15 Feb 11

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    Thrown Through Phases..

    Simply put..the title of the story says it all. When I simply look back into my life..I don't remember being the same for more than 3 years. Always felt like I was moving from one body to another..one mind-set to another. Whenever someone asks me about my past, I honestly don't...
    B1SHOP B1SHOP 22-25, M Jul 13, 2013

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    Not By A Long Shot...

    ...I am better than I used to be!
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Mar 28, 2011

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    24LUV 24LUV 41-45, F Apr 8

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    The New Me

    the last four months of my life have been very hard for me. i always thought i was the problem an alot of time i am it but this time it wasnt me. my family has ignored every call every text and kinda been very mad at me for the last 4 months but mostly the last month specially...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 30, 2013

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    I'm not who I use to be.

    I use to be outgoing and filled with love. Now I'm losing myself. For a while I've been thinking about the same sex. Not just the same but one woman. I've never had a gf before. I remember as a child girls would kiss me. Throughout the years I've been dating men. I wonder if...
    liquorxsmile liquorxsmile 22-25, F Mar 6

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    Jenniemg Jenniemg 31-35 9 Responses Feb 12

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