I Am Not Who I Used to Be

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    2011 Changed Me

    I fell deeper into my addictions of choice last year: men, alcohol. My life completely spun out of control. I tried to deny the feelings and fear that I had towards the man I was dating. We tried going on vacation together and this is when I realized that stuffing my feelings...
    NeopolitanSkye NeopolitanSkye
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Feb 19, 2012

    I used to be a very irritable,

    moody, and spoiled little boy, and I guess I matured, and now I save animals' lives when I can, I help people when I can, let's just say I have changed drastically.
    Wolflover1999 Wolflover1999
    18-21, M
    1 Response Dec 21, 2015

    I am letting go of a lot of things from the past

    that I have been holding on to for way too long. I am starting to face one of my fears and I am working on my weaknesses... The way I deal with problems and failure is so different and more effective. I dont give up so quickly anymore. I try my hardest to keep going.. I dont...
    58maria85 58maria85
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 16, 2016

    The New Me

    the last four months of my life have been very hard for me. i always thought i was the problem an alot of time i am it but this time it wasnt me. my family has ignored every call every text and kinda been very mad at me for the last 4 months but mostly the last month specially...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 30, 2013

    I'm really not. That innocent girl

    that I used to be was murdered the day I turned 9. I will never believe in the same stuff I use to, little did I know I would be changed forever that day. She was killed when I got home that day and I was never the same. I know what pain is despite my age and I know it effects...
    deleted deleted
    Dec 15, 2013

    Well. I just found out,

    yesterday, that my uncle who lived most of his life in Colombia (half a world away from where I grew up), and who I've always felt closer to than my own mum and dad, lost a baby boy. He was born roughly when I was. And so, it is my firm belief that I was pushed away from them as...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife
    31-35, M
    Apr 13, 2016

    I Lied All the Time

    I used to lie all the time about the simplest things. Not because I was a liar but because I wanted to not only fit in but because I wanted to be better than anyone around me. I realize now that this came from a traumatic childhood school experience of being called names because...
    shaw8537 shaw8537
    36-40, F
    1 Response Sep 24, 2009

    There's a really neat life changing experience

    in the living word of GOD . It states that has given us the things of life and godliness by knowledge of him that had called to glory and virtue . Virtue is the outward showings of the inward workings of God in us that bring about change . It also states that by this...
    pastormike pastormike
    41-45, M
    1 Response Feb 15, 2014
    deleted deleted
    Aug 18, 2015

    not so long ago someone asked me about you,

    I guess not everyone has noticed that we are not together. It's been a few weeks since I last saw you, and i can't remember the last time we spent so much time apart. It's hard not miss you when everything reminds of you, of us, of who we were and the ones we wanted to be.
    deleted deleted
    Jan 18, 2016

    Not By A Long Shot...

    ...I am better than I used to be!
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Mar 28, 2011

    I am so different.. Its crazy.

    . The funny thing is I'll probably post the same thing in a few months. I go through these stages where I change the way I am. I change the way I dress,my makeup, the music I listen to, what I eat, the way I talk, think, life "routine", the people I interact with, but the wierd...
    58maria85 58maria85
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 11, 2016

    A Moment Of Silence

    Tonight when I got home, I decided I did not want the TV....or music...or really any form of noise other than the thoughts in my head.  My world seems to be a mass of over stimulation and I have decided to embrace this moment of silence and just allow myself to take a little bit...
    evolving2010 evolving2010
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Jan 16, 2011
    allamericanloser allamericanloser
    16-17, F
    May 30, 2014

    Less naive? I don't know.

    More on my own side I am definitely.
    mercedes810 mercedes810
    26-30, F
    Mar 17, 2016

    TD Jakes has a good message about letting go.

    Even if you're not a believer, or you're not a fan of his, it's still a good message. http://youtu.be/CO6ClvOf92A
    Lilyroselove Lilyroselove
    51-55, F
    Mar 21, 2016

    I used to be this girl

    that would always be happy and wear dresses and skirts and do girly things you know? Shy and never spoke up in class. I've changed, I'm not wearing dresses or skirts now, I despite them, I've spoken up so much more (that's a good thing, in class basically). I'm not shy as I...
    Elfis Elfis
    13-15, F
    1 Response Oct 29, 2015

    Pink and red hair. Piercings everywhere.

    Always getting into some sort of mischief and trying to strike someone's fancy ;) eventually, life forces you to grow up. All the tackle was removed from my face but I get to keep the select few piercings no one knows about. I think as I was forced to grow out of that...
    Luckylotus013 Luckylotus013
    31-35, F
    Mar 13, 2014

    this will most likely be my last post

    before the pause... it was really nice knowing you all.... this is probably goodbye
    Natrista Natrista
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 26, 2016

    I sit and I listen to the words you speak to me

    out your mouth. The continue to break me down with every syllable. I look at you as though I don't know who you are anymore. You used to be my caring, loving husband who spoke nice things to me. Now it's all anger and yelling. You want me to want to spend time with you and...
    SallyJones005 SallyJones005
    36-40, F
    Nov 23, 2014
    Barbiebased1 Barbiebased1
    16-17, F
    May 3, 2015

    I remember days of the past

    where I was always thinking about how to have fun when off work or when I could enjoy beers or how I had to find a woman to take home and coulda cared less how I treated people . Now throughout my day conviction I areas where I fall short , how did I behave , how did I treat...
    pastormike pastormike
    41-45, M
    Mar 10, 2014

    I used to use this website under another

    username because I felt so lonely and out of place. My depression got the best of me, but currently I'm so much better. I used drugs, alcohol, self harmed, and had sex to cope with my depression. I've been in therapy for 3 months and it has helped tremendously. I was in a...
    nostalgiaa nostalgiaa
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jul 29, 2015
    LeanMamii LeanMamii
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 11, 2015

    I used to be so happy with

    who I was, funny, confident, didn't have a care in the world. After my first love used me I was soo heartbroken I completely lost who I was. It was like I lost my soul, this was like when I was 14. I'm now 20 and I've built myself up, but I'm not the person who I used to be. I'm...
    littlefox6 littlefox6
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Feb 7, 2014

    If you scroll down my posted experiences you

    will see the first experience I ever posted on here was a year ago, and it was "I will do anything to make you happy". I said how happy I always am and I laugh at almost anything and I love making people laugh. Now I am almost the opposite of that. I do love making my friends...
    AnonymousJSS AnonymousJSS
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 1, 2015

    A Brand New Life Given To Me Again

     I am about to share a true life experience that happened to me more than Ten Years ago. I was born into a family that could afford me luxury and comfort; I was privileged to attend one of the best schools in my country. Life for me was exciting and at its...
    joerio joerio
    36-40, M
    Jul 28, 2010

    I remember in grade school damn I was a devil

    skipping school cursing at teachers cursing at students but it wasn't just because I wanted to I was going through a faze I guess. I thought wow these teachers really act like children so arrogant and close minded what gives them the right to tell me what to do. So as the witty...
    BackToBiege BackToBiege
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 8, 2016

    Everything is getting harder

    and harder. I don't know how to deal with this life anymore. I want to rest in peace. :(
    Natureismagic Natureismagic
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 26, 2016

    Getting rid of negative influences in my life

    was the best decision I've ever made. I left behind verbally abusive people, bad habits, painful memories and my anxiety and I've been so happy ever since.
    pinkfleshbows pinkfleshbows
    18-21, F
    Jul 12, 2014

    What A Difference A Decade Makes!

    10 years ago, I left an abusive marriage. I had been with him for 11 years, and the only thing that got me out was my beautiful daughter. I didn't want her to grow up thinking that this was okay. So I dragged all the broken pieces of myself together enough to take her and run...
    amethystrose1972 amethystrose1972
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Oct 4, 2010

    This one is actually a good thing,

    I am glad I am not the person I used to be, I was rude, always had something to say (horrible) I hated the old me, I was experimenting drugs everything I shouldn't do I done, now my life is a lot easier without the label on me
    NoUsernameInserted NoUsernameInserted
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 29, 2015

    That's the only EP group

    that describe me in one sentence. (0.0)
    Care2Love Care2Love
    16-17, F
    Mar 16, 2016

    From this day on, I will fix myself.

    Someone on here has shown me that there is good in the world. :) I will repay her back from becoming a better person and helping others like she helped me. All my negative posts in the past mean nothing to me now. (Deleted them)
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove
    2 Responses Feb 25, 2015

    I Am Not Who I Used To Be.

    For years i lived in solitude, avoiding social contact because of my insecurities and miss-trust of people. I lived in my own little prison, afraid to let anyone get close to me because my childhood had left me feeling like i wasn't good enough and all the torment and anguish...
    DiesSomnium DiesSomnium
    4 Responses Oct 11, 2011

    Looking back a year ago,

    I notice I have changed. It used to be that a fly could be buzzing in my face and it would send me into a rage. Milk could spill and I would try to rip myself apart. But I am no longer overtaken by such little things and no longer see everything through eyes of anger and hatred...
    FreshFelixx FreshFelixx
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 21, 2016

    Always Changeing

    i am not who i use to be, i changed, we all change. some change for better, some for worse, we're always changing, no matter what anyone else says, I just hope my changes are for better and not worse...
    wannaelectrodance wannaelectrodance
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jan 16, 2013

    Because Of You

    a heart alone a soul torn a dream gone hope turned to stone tears fall spirits droop energy sags thoughts stall courage arrives wisdom steers support comes ideas strive the heart beats the soul shines dreams form hope completes the day is new but I am not and yet I am because of...
    neuilly neuilly
    61-65, F
    2 Responses Sep 20, 2011


    The past 6 years haven't been the greatest. I was dependant on other people, timid, quiet as a mouse, walked over and had no self-respect. I felt I didn't deserve happiness due to things I'd done or that I just simply couldn't be happy because I'd only end up ruining things for...
    LeaveAndTakeMeWithYou LeaveAndTakeMeWithYou
    18-21, F
    11 Responses Apr 26, 2009

    I'm not sure if I actually like being alone

    or if I have just convinced myself that I am okay being alone.
    sunshine1221 sunshine1221
    26-30, F
    May 18, 2014
    WarriorsHeart WarriorsHeart
    22-25, M
    Jun 15, 2015
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire
    41-45, M
    Nov 24, 2015

    I remember when I was just a tiny little boy.

    Innocent and free. Then some people came and broke me. Now I can only wish for the joyful and innocent mind I once had. I long for the feeling of life being perfect. When just existing was thrilling and enough. I was once happy.
    NihilityPO NihilityPO
    16-17, M
    Mar 22, 2016

    I seemed more vulnerable

    and clueless back then. Even then I knew this was fake, but I refused to accept it. Then one day I broke.
    DreamOfAFox DreamOfAFox
    16-17, F
    Apr 20, 2016

    Who I Am Hates Who I've Been, Who I've Been Hates Who I Am

    I am not who I used to be. Is anyone though? Who here can still look at their life through the eyes of a child, where everything is interesting and everything is new. Where you can trust people, and being mean is your mom not letting you buy dunkaroos this time at a shopping trip...
    WeAllFallDown WeAllFallDown
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 13, 2012

    I'm not really me anymore.

    I feel like I have changed and idk who I am.
    Kayla0504 Kayla0504
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 7, 2016
    Natrista Natrista
    16-17, F
    Mar 17, 2016
    Amoryberlin Amoryberlin
    26-30, M
    Dec 26, 2015

    There is some things is hard to let go

    and there are things I try to improve. I use to hate everyone because I never understood anyone. I use to cures a lot of people and the only people loved is my family. I webt to this life changing to positive to worse. and then it went smooth I guess. Im not gonna bother telling...
    AnonymousF5 AnonymousF5
    26-30, M
    Mar 16, 2016

    The caption pretty much says it all

    and I wish I didn't feel so lost and frustrated with myself trying to figure life and things.
    bloomish bloomish
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 28, 2015

    I shudder when I think of my past self.

    Although I strongly dislike that person, i've come to accept it as a part of what made me who I am today. One of the greatest lessons that took me years to learn is that violence is no form of power. True power comes from smashing your barriers down and destroying all of your...
    Quietanalysis Quietanalysis
    22-25, M
    Jan 22, 2016

    This goes out to that great Canadian Lady

    Katii31991 :) 5 reasons why she is beyond awesome... 5) She calls me an *** and can get away with it :) 4) With her beautiful heart and soul, all of her is more than enough for a real man 3) I can already tell she has a spot where, if kissed properly, will give her...
    Bostonrules Bostonrules
    46-50, M
    1 Response Nov 3, 2015

    I am starting to prepare

    for being a great lover! My tool has more indurance. I'm feeling pleased
    JjKr88 JjKr88
    26-30, M
    Feb 24, 2016
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