I Am Not Who I Want to Be And Probably Never Will Be

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    Life Will Pass Me By

    i will never be one who says "i've had a great life, no regrets" etc.... i hear ppl say that and i envy them. i guess because of my disorder i won't ever have a "dream" job, i will never have many friends, i'll never travel where i might want to see (and i do...
    prettyinpink prettyinpink
    46-50, F
    5 Responses Jul 21, 2007

    I'm Very Different

    I don't know. I have a boyfriend, I have a best friend. But nothing seems right. My life is messed up! I don't know who to be. This or That person? Nice or Confused person? Quiet or Loud person? I don't know! It just feels like I am just another leaf in the wind but I'm blue. "It...
    TopKitten TopKitten
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 22, 2012

    I'm home alone and my first inclination upon

    sitting down in the kitchen was to make vanilla pudding and put sprinkles on it. I took twenty uninterrupted minutes to do this. I took ten minutes to eat said confection. I didn't take pictures or anything. Just made and ate it for my own gratification. Is something wrong with...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Mar 4, 2016

    I Was Going to Be Big

    When I was young I thought that I'd be a film director or a writer. That was all I could think of. I even started to write some stories and everyone said I had talent and a big imagination. I was also a straight A student so it looked like life was going to be kind. But when I...
    moviefan13 moviefan13
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Oct 12, 2008

    Story of My Life.  But, I...

    Story of my life.  But, I might turn out to be something else much better than I ever wanted to be.  So - I keep pluggin.
    moxiesurvivor moxiesurvivor
    66-70, F
    2 Responses May 26, 2007

    Looking For Content

    I've been thinking lately and been baking lately..I've realized I wouldn't mind going into cooking as a career. My dad was a cook for the navy, he still cooks lots to this day. I didn't realize it today while baking that it's been what I've enjoyed for quite some time. I just...
    Arual Arual
    22-25, F
    Nov 27, 2007

    But I will never stop trying.

    Everyday, even if it's just that tiny 0.1%, I'm getting closer. I have a long way to go. But I've come so far from where I was. And I'm proud of that. :D
    ThatAwkwardPanda ThatAwkwardPanda
    Aug 2, 2014


    Who was I then? Who am I now? Who do I want to be and how do I get there? I want to be a mother...I want to own a coffee shop...I want to be the best lover I can possibly be, always remembering to make her happy. I will be 30 soon and I feel like it's becoming too late to...
    BeautyEvolving BeautyEvolving
    26-30, F
    Mar 16, 2012

    Probably - I want to be smart,

    pretty, athletic, extrovert, and popular, everything that I'm not
    PinksTheNewBlack PinksTheNewBlack
    16-17, F
    4 Responses Apr 8, 2014

    A Work In Progress

    I am a work in progress. I think we all are. Human beings are flawed. Doesn't mean we're bad, though. We're just a work in progress. Unless we give-up on ourselves, and believe we are unable to change. Then progress stops. If we are unwilling to change then we are unable to...
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo
    31-35, M
    7 Responses Apr 28, 2009

    Probably Never Will Be

    I never thought, I would be in such a place and I am not who I want to be and probably never will be.  Ouch, that hurts even typing it!!!  :(
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr
    36-40, F
    1 Response May 16, 2011

    Oh Well..

    I wanted to be happy, smart and beautiful. I wanted to travel around the world and do amazing things I wanted to get a good job and have my own place and everything. I just wanted to be someone. Instead I'm just a mess... I can't seem to get anything right. If I can't even be...
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 3, 2010


    I wanna be an artist, but I can't seem to get myself motivated lately, all i've done is screwed around for a month. >_< I'm so frustrated right now.
    LylaRocks LylaRocks
    26-30, F
    Jun 19, 2008

    professionally I Am Not Who...

    professionally i am not who i would like to be.  chances are, due to my medical condition, i will not get to be that i person i dreamt of as a child.  but ... we will see ... who i am as a human, has changed immensely in the past 3 years.  it was a time filled...
    AbbyNormal AbbyNormal
    31-35, F
    5 Responses May 26, 2007


    It  is  hard  to  confess  but  again  it  is a  fact  that    I am  not who  i want to  be   and probably never will  be due  to my many shortcomings as  mortal human  being    or  natural   causes   that I   have no  control over .. 
    shap36 shap36
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Jan 5, 2011

    I'm very overweight and want to hide from the

    world in shame . I get criticized everyday from my children's father . I can't stop eating even if I can tell you every diet and how many calories and carbs are in everything . I just feel too much comfort from food but wish I didn't . I'm disgusting and am reminded every...
    phat1 phat1
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Mar 16, 2014

    No I'm Not...

    I'm not even close to being what I want to be.. I wanted to be this out going, cheerful, responiable, smart, in college type of girl.. but boy did I take the wrong path...  I took the competely wrong path that I was intending on going... I will probably never be that kind of...
    XLunaXLovegoodX XLunaXLovegoodX
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 12, 2008

    my parents are very overprotective.

    Like to the point where my opinion doesnt matter. Its hard to explain but I'm not really allowed to be myself until I'm 18. But at least this feelings not forever :)
    allytoledo allytoledo
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 21, 2014
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