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I Am Not Who They Think I Am

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    When I feel like crying,

    I wait until everyone is asleep so that no one will hear me. I will put a mask on and smile all day until it's time for bed and then it always hits me. This overwhelming feeling of emptiness.
    ComplicatedGirl18 ComplicatedGirl18 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    The Truth

    Potential employers always seem to see me as a confident, smart woman who can deal with responsibilities. They see a woman with two degrees who is articulate and smiles and has a firm handshake, and is keen to work. My family think I am so brave to take on any job that is offered...
    DancingFox DancingFox 31-35, F 18 Responses Dec 13, 2012

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    This is who I am in the inside: http://www.

    jukani.co.za/userfiles/content/grp13/wlmale2.jpg This is who I am on the outside: http://fc07.deviantart.net/fs71/f/2012/315/b/c/black_lion_witch_red_eyes_by_reconreno-d5ko14y.jpg That pretty much sums it up.
    JohnVBlackburn JohnVBlackburn 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 22

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    I keep a smile on my face

    so that people will think I'm okay. They don't know that I have suicidal thoughts so that they won't have to worry about me. I skip lunch. I cut somewhere in my body usually my hips. But during the day, I'm a happy girl. Joking around and stuff. Talking about my favorite songs...
    Dinden123 Dinden123 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 6, 2013

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    People look at me and think they have me all

    figured out but nobody knows the real me. I let you see what you want to see in me. People think I'm so tough and that I never cry but little do they know I'm weak and every single night I cry myself to sleep. I just want to be loved in the way I give love. I'm so lonely and I...
    Opapiplease Opapiplease 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 3, 2014

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    Some know what I really am,

    and some don't. They all think "Look at that girl who laughs at everything and the smile that could break a heart." "Look at that girl who lives with no care, who has the life with no flares." "She's always happy." "Always laughing." "Never crying always clapping." But if they...
    TheLoner1234 TheLoner1234 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2014

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    Im Not Who They Think I Am

    that's a lil misleading actually. I live my life being who "they" think I am. im an innocent small town good girl. that's how they see me and that's how I am. but if they were to ever look deeper... if they were to ever read my mind and see my inner thoughts, fantasies, desires...
    RUBYR0SE RUBYR0SE 18-21, F 18 Responses Apr 30, 2013

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    Lost Soul..

    Not sure why I'm here on this site...I guess I'm searching for someone who can understand me and actually listen.  A life built on lies is what I have.  I'm a lost soul that is losing myself...I'm drowning each day.  Little by little I loose me.  But the...
    nikoriley nikoriley 41-45 49 Responses Apr 21, 2009

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    No One Knows Me

    Sometimes I look in the mirror and wonder if I even know myself. Some people are clueless; they think they can see into your soul upon first glance. Everyone thinks I'm a calm, caring, kind, intelligent person. I guess you could say that I am, but they don't know what goes on in...
    Yikez Yikez 13-15, F 15 Responses Jun 3, 2012

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    they have no clue. i dutifully put on my mask

    everyday and carry on with the endless game of pretend. the charade that i'm the good little boy they all think i am. the delusion that i'm not overtaken with dark and evil desires most of the time. desires that have haunted my very soul since i was 6. the reality would terrify...
    Tinman76 Tinman76 36-40, M 5 Responses Jan 15

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    The Real Me

    As I get dressed for work this morning I slip on my panties and then my pants. How I wish I could dress completely as the woman I really feel like I am and not as the man people see on the outside:(
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jul 23, 2012

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    My brother's getting married soon,

    so that means all my siblings will be bringing their partners while I have something planned like..a fake date for the day. I know, sad but..it's hard to find someone for the position because I need to fill him with the 411 cos I know everyone will ask about "when we'll tie the...
    misyblue misyblue 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 22

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    I'M That Girl

    I'm the girl sitting next to you in class laughing and smiling. I'm the girl you just walked past in the mall that was walking with her head down. I'm the weirdo with my headphones in my ears blocking out the world by blaring Marilyn Manson. I'm the one with blood stained wrists...
    FeraOubre FeraOubre 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 28, 2013

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    Yeah. I'm Bi. ...

    Yeah. I'm bi. they don't know that yet... :/
    wycomper wycomper 22-25, M 15 Responses Jan 28, 2007

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    It's hard when you have to hold onto secrets to

    stay safe...to stay alive. It's a daily battle that wears on the heart and soul. I dream of the day that I can truly be myself again and not live in a world of fear.
    stellaluna81 stellaluna81 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    I go to a Christian University

    and when people meet me they think I'm this sweet innocent girl. Little do they know I'm a sex freak and I like to do kinky things with boys and girls. They just see a nice smart girl in nursing school but they don't know what I do at night. I'm going to hell for sure
    skylar327 skylar327 22-25, F 6 Responses Dec 1, 2013

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    Could It Be That I'm Just Two-faced ?

    I’m so broken. It has become so obvious. I’m emotionally destroyed and there's nothing to do except watch me slowly fall apart. Each day it gets worse nothing ever gets better. I’m so alone in this world that it's starting to get at me. I never have to remind myself that it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Feb 10, 2013

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    Ronaldjgossett Ronaldjgossett 46-50 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    I am not an extrovert.

    I can barely hold a conversation with a person for more than a few minutes. I dislike being around people or rather I dislike people for being near me. I prefer to be alone, which is the exact opposite of my internet alter-ego. I am not what people think I am. I am me, this...
    TheMisanthropeOtaku TheMisanthropeOtaku 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 12

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    You Are...

    It seems as though people enjoy defining who their peers are...especially high school students! My friends and classmates tell me who I am. This is not right, but what can I do about it? I am merely another student among 3,000 private school students. I tried to show the "real...
    KilieLove KilieLove 18-21, F 9 Responses Apr 1, 2010

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    I think we all have many different sides to

    ourselves for different people....be honest to yourself that's all that matters
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 31, 2013

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    I Live More In My Head,

    Than I Do On The Outside World I Made Up This Character Who Died, And I Can't Even Say His Name Without Getting Upset. And he's not even real. My Main Character In The Series In My Head Is Named 'Riley'. I Can't Even Explain Her. She's Who I Wish I Was. She's Me, In...
    DarkOnTheInside13 DarkOnTheInside13 13-15, F Dec 6, 2014

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    I love over hearing my male friends talk about

    attractive women.. I love hearing them talking about how hot she is and how nice her *blah blah* is! No one knows this about me though!
    Jessicaliners Jessicaliners 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 19

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    Being Nice

    I recently read something that alternately disturbed, intrigued, and scared me.  To risk sounding egotistical, I'm constantly told that I'm nice.  Isn't it nice how I think of everyone else, only putting myself in the number one position when it's absolutely necessary...
    goddessone goddessone 41-45, F 67 Responses Sep 18, 2008

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    My Darkest Secret of 12 Years

    bet th title caught ur attention. this will be difficult to, well, type, b/c i have told no one in the world. we moved when i was 5 years old. but b4 that my dad and mum were busy in th day, wot with jobs and such. and my new little sister. they sent me across th hall (we lived...
    wildlark wildlark 18-21, F 7 Responses Apr 24, 2007

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    No One Has Ever Seen The Real Me.

    It is 6:52 in the morning as I write this, I have had no sleep. I enjoy it, this is when I get into my somber state of mind and I feel the need to express myself. This Experience caught my eye and I knew I had to write. I am so much more than what meets the eyes, yes at first I...
    AreYouMadCool AreYouMadCool 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 15, 2013

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    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M Mar 22

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    I'm Nice, I'm Polite, I Listen Well...

    ...but I also count the number of people I really trust on single digits. It's not that I don't like people, I just like them in small doses.  I don't trust most people at all, though I've gotten quite good at concealing this fact from most everyone. The first thing I ask...
    Timebender Timebender 31-35 79 Responses Jun 2, 2010

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    To many im strong, proud,

    and bold. The other 5% think im lame and a non socialist. To me i dont care what they think because i am my own vocalist. To me im a leader just ready to my plant seeds and leak right through the branches of the impossible tree. Enlighten all the people that never believed in...
    keyleeee keyleeee 18-21, F Jan 1

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    enjoy all the s3xually depraved things ud like

    to happen to me. I love that thought. oh how I love it! Giving in to it. seeing the delight in ur eyes as i take all that u can dish out, either by ur own hands or another. ;)
    WickedlilAngel WickedlilAngel 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2014

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    I act totally different to my friends here in

    Austria, but it's really not who I really am. It's just a cover because I'm very different to them and I think I would not fit in their lifestyle or friends circle of I acted like me. I think I wouldn't have any friends here at all hahah
    itsmekar itsmekar 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    It's Hard to Break Their Image of You

    the way i dress, the way i speak and the way i treat others, it all contributes to a misinterpretation of me. obviously, different ppl have different angles of looking at me. some have me firmly cast as a shopaholic - which is only ONE part of "me", and others believe i...
    BowsAndBones BowsAndBones 16-17, F 3 Responses May 3, 2007

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    thelatintwist thelatintwist 36-40, F 5 Responses Feb 18, 2014

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    When ppls look at my profile

    and see my experiences and profile pic and my name, I know what they might or surely think! But I'm not what they actually think I am, I am different and I have stories I can never tell, I never blame anyone about anything they think but I hate how people see me and I hate...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Dec 24, 2014

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    little did they know

    that im actually not a good girl lol..
    Unstableteen Unstableteen 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 28

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    MorticansDaughter98 MorticansDaughter98 16-17, F 4 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    So I wanted to start writing about my story

    because I just feel like if there was one person out there who understood what I was going through it would be easier. I can't tell you everything at once so I will just add a little bit until you get the whole picture. I don't know if you know what it is like to have almost...
    JaneEbony JaneEbony 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 4, 2014

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    No One Knows Me...

    I'm the one girl who people talk about but no one knows....the girl who people judge for the rumors they hear....the girl no one even tries to get to know....the girl that sits back and watches the world happen in front of her....the girl who wants so badly to be liked...the girl...
    Sydneyc97 Sydneyc97 16-17, F 5 Responses Sep 30, 2013

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    My family has no idea what kind of stuff I have

    done in my life on the road to adult hood. Big Christian family go to church every Sunday. I am the biggest freak in the closet haha
    pantiesandstockins pantiesandstockins 31-35, F 5 Responses Jan 20, 2014

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    my friends and teachers keep on telling me

    that im Smart. Well, for me its not true!! i always fail!! i always ask God why things happened? i hate them all! for not understanding the sadness behind my smiles ..... plsss...somebody help me? i cant explain my sorrow... i think im useless......
    queebe queebe 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 10

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    Who The **** Are You Then?

    Stop Being Pathetic And Make Something Of Yourself. Easier Said Than Done? Then What The **** Are You Supposed To Be Doing Right Now.
    Gabster27 Gabster27 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 28

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    Just An Act

    everyone once thought i was so happy. everything in my life was great. i never had a struggle. never had to worry. nothing. anything. they either made fun of me or wanted to be my friend, a happy friend. then they came to know me, or came to my house. and got to know that i had a...
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme 18-21, F 9 Responses Oct 29, 2011

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    I appear to be easygoing

    and happy. Truly, I am quiet and shy. I value my time alone and always have. I feel like being alone makes me happier than being surrounded by people who don't understand who I really am underneath the mask that I wear.
    GreenEyess GreenEyess 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 4

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    When someone tells me "no,

    " it doesn't mean I can't do it, it simply means I can't do it with them...
    Brunette4U Brunette4U 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    Wittytitty.

    Just spent a few hours chatting with a friend on here, well laughing for most of it, he was on excellent form. One of the subjects discussed was why I get some friends' requests from people who are extremely sexual (well going from their profile at least). Nothing wrong with that...
    pixelbest pixelbest 46-50, F 19 Responses Sep 20, 2012

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    Everyone seems to think they know me,

    whether it be those I work with or my family. I have been engaged for 4 years and I love my fiancee who will call Adam. But I have been talking to my brothers friend who will call William. Adam is 12 years my elder where as William is my age. I am 22 years old. Adam has shown...
    Sarahissad Sarahissad 22-25, F 7 Responses Feb 23

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    I have come across some troubles in my life

    with a drug addiction and everything that goes along with a drug addiction, I've made some bad choices in men and have made mistakes. I lost all my friends and don't really have anyone to rely on but I want them and whoever to know that I'm not the person I was and who they...
    skipper596 skipper596 22-25, F 1 Response