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I Am Not Who They Think I Am

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    "..how far have you walked

    for men who’ve never held your feet in their laps? how often have you bartered with bone, only to sell yourself short? why do you find the unavailable so alluring? where did it begin? what went wrong? and who made you feel so worthless? if they wanted you, wouldn’t they have...
    JosephinaBallerina JosephinaBallerina 36-40, F 5 Responses Sep 28, 2015

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    A neighbor from the old neighborhood had said

    very ugly words to my son about his mother many years ago, so this ugly old neighbor soon became the adulteress she once had accused me of being without any truth. Do I believe she is an adulteress? Yes, her husband has told the neighbors so. Karma is one bad *****. Do you not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jun 24, 2015

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    I knew a really cute gay guy named Mikel once.

    . I had a crush on him but didn't know I did and never got the nerve to talk to him. So I'd just throw small pebbles at him in PE and smile to myself when he looked for me.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 30, 2015

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    No One Knows Me...

    I'm the one girl who people talk about but no one knows....the girl who people judge for the rumors they hear....the girl no one even tries to get to know....the girl that sits back and watches the world happen in front of her....the girl who wants so badly to be liked...the girl...
    Sydneyc97 Sydneyc97 16-17, F 5 Responses Sep 30, 2013

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    When I am out and about,

    I have a mask on, it's a do not **** with me, mask. I do not like random people talking to me and I wish to make this clear as I enter any store. You are not my friend and I do not wish to get to know you. When you meet people face to face, they put on a facade about who they...
    JeweledGypsy JeweledGypsy 41-45, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2015

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    The Truth

    Potential employers always seem to see me as a confident, smart woman who can deal with responsibilities. They see a woman with two degrees who is articulate and smiles and has a firm handshake, and is keen to work. My family think I am so brave to take on any job that is offered...
    DancingFox DancingFox 31-35, F 17 Responses Dec 13, 2012

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    People look at me and think they have me all

    figured out but nobody knows the real me. I let you see what you want to see in me. People think I'm so tough and that I never cry but little do they know I'm weak and every single night I cry myself to sleep. I just want to be loved in the way I give love. I'm so lonely and I...
    Opapiplease Opapiplease 36-40, F 2 Responses Feb 3, 2014

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    I have to keep up this facade.

    Walk correctly, sit correctly, read my Bible and Pray...but little do they know that it takes every fiber in my being to even get up and go to church. I dislike so many people in our congregation. They mistreated my family when my dad was living and now these same people try to...
    jjboo45 jjboo45 26-30, F 5 Responses Nov 19, 2015

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    Im Not Who They Think I Am

    that's a lil misleading actually. I live my life being who "they" think I am. im an innocent small town good girl. that's how they see me and that's how I am. but if they were to ever look deeper... if they were to ever read my mind and see my inner thoughts, fantasies, desires...
    RUBYR0SE RUBYR0SE 18-21, F 16 Responses Apr 30, 2013

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    It's Hard to Break Their Image of You

    the way i dress, the way i speak and the way i treat others, it all contributes to a misinterpretation of me. obviously, different ppl have different angles of looking at me. some have me firmly cast as a shopaholic - which is only ONE part of "me", and others believe i...
    BowsAndBones BowsAndBones 16-17, F 3 Responses May 3, 2007

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    I've always used a brick wall to hide

    who I really am from my friends and family. As I grew older the wall began to crumble and fall, all from the weight of trying to hide the truth. Slowly I began to show the truth, but ultimately I had to pull back. The truth you see, caused pain, physical and mental. The true me...
    KanashiTamashi KanashiTamashi 18-21, F Dec 11, 2015

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    I'm Not What You Think I Am...i Am What I Am

    I am on the outside looking in. Other times I am inside looking out...and sometimes I'm the sheet of glass seperating the two dimensions from ever crossing paths. As you see me here is not who I am. And as I am here is not how you will see me. Fantasy Illusion and Reality is all...
    lisaree13 lisaree13 46-50, T 1 Response Sep 16, 2012

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    coronaborealis coronaborealis 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 5, 2015

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    Cheshirecupacat Cheshirecupacat 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 7, 2015

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    They judge me or stereotype me based on what I

    wear and how I look. They don't see me internally.
    Music4Us Music4Us 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 17, 2015

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    Who Am I ?

    Don't be afraid by my profile on EP. I'm married with a gentle woman. Alas, she don't understand my 'particularity'. She love me only like a 'man'. My soul is so feminine but 'crashed' in a male envelope. It's the reason why I search friend (F) who can understand my feminity. I...
    juliegirlie juliegirlie 41-45, M 26 Responses Mar 3, 2011

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    I have close and best friends

    that I like to hang out with most of the time, and a family whom I make as an inspiration in life. But if you are going to ask me if I’m 100% of myself to them, the answer is a big NO, and never even close to being 50% as myself to them. They see me as a normal person, smart...
    nbsbgal nbsbgal 22-25, F Jul 26, 2015

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    New girlfriend new expieriences .

    .. so my girl like spicy stuff ... I dont but ok cool whatever ...so for the first time in my life I find myself getting that sort of thing so I have it on hand for when she wants some . Like today for example .....she likes guacamole ... so ...imma get some ....simple right...
    fleahopper fleahopper 41-45, M 1 Response Sep 14, 2015

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    No One Has Ever Seen The Real Me.

    It is 6:52 in the morning as I write this, I have had no sleep. I enjoy it, this is when I get into my somber state of mind and I feel the need to express myself. This Experience caught my eye and I knew I had to write. I am so much more than what meets the eyes, yes at first I...
    AreYouMadCool AreYouMadCool 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 15, 2013

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    Wittytitty.

    Just spent a few hours chatting with a friend on here, well laughing for most of it, he was on excellent form. One of the subjects discussed was why I get some friends' requests from people who are extremely sexual (well going from their profile at least). Nothing wrong with that...
    pixelbest pixelbest 46-50, F 19 Responses Sep 20, 2012

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    I am not an extrovert.

    I can barely hold a conversation with a person for more than a few minutes. I dislike being around people or rather I dislike people for being near me. I prefer to be alone, which is the exact opposite of my internet alter-ego. I am not what people think I am. I am me, this...
    TheMisanthropeOtaku TheMisanthropeOtaku 22-25, M Jan 12, 2015

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    Depression,anxiety,despair,

    isolation and suicidal thoughts.Loss of senses,time,family,friends and meaning.I call this losing my will.The good news is that you can get it back just be patient and talk things out.
    Ronaldjgossett Ronaldjgossett 46-50 2 Responses Dec 12, 2015

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    My Darkest Secret of 12 Years

    bet th title caught ur attention. this will be difficult to, well, type, b/c i have told no one in the world. we moved when i was 5 years old. but b4 that my dad and mum were busy in th day, wot with jobs and such. and my new little sister. they sent me across th hall (we lived...
    wildlark wildlark 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 24, 2007

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    LAST CALL

    It was 2:30 am, i was sleeping. The call came in, single car mva (motor vehicle accident). Single car, roll over, 4 patients. We rolled and requested life flight be on stand by. On arrival we saw the car, rolled several times. Out of the squad and see 2 bodies ejected from the...
    mrmoose1947 mrmoose1947 66-70, M 26 Responses Nov 12, 2013

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    I'm married with a husband many states away at

    times so I found a boyfriend on the side .... Yet in another state . I don't want anything more than that . But the husband is never there the way he is ..,
    AliceButterfly AliceButterfly 36-40, F 2 Responses Jan 17

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    I think we all have many different sides to

    ourselves for different people....be honest to yourself that's all that matters
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 31, 2013

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    Lost Soul..

    Not sure why I'm here on this site...I guess I'm searching for someone who can understand me and actually listen.  A life built on lies is what I have.  I'm a lost soul that is losing myself...I'm drowning each day.  Little by little I loose me.  But the...
    nikoriley nikoriley 41-45 49 Responses Apr 21, 2009

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    Your head's like mine,

    like all our heads; big enough to contain every god and devil there ever was. Big enough to hold the weight of oceans and the turning stars. Whole universes fit in there! But what do we choose to keep in this miraculous cabinet? Little broken things, sad trinkets that we play...
    EndlessBummerz EndlessBummerz 26-30, M Jan 13

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    When you guys figure out the butthead

    who is a snake oil salesman ruining ep, let me know. I'll delete his file. Diecartman
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 22, 2015

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    I've seen something in me

    that not many people see. it's the little kindness and will for peace I have. I just want to show the best of me to them
    Compoundgold Compoundgold 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    Call me pathetic for wanting to get away.

    but once you get to the point where you've lost it all already, it doesn't even matter. I just want my escape. I just want to get out of this narrow jail cell I've been trapped in so long. I just need to get out, but I can't get out all alone. My solitaire is what caused all...
    ashlenamya66359 ashlenamya66359 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    My family has no idea what kind of stuff I have

    done in my life on the road to adult hood. Big Christian family go to church every Sunday. I am the biggest freak in the closet haha
    pantiesandstockins pantiesandstockins 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 20, 2014

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    people judge me on being blonde

    and a girl. few know that I'm almost a fully trained cosmetic surgeon
    linda linda 22-25, F 9 Responses Jun 9, 2015

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    I am not. I know that my grandkids see me

    as this super strong woman who will step in and save them from all things scary. I am not. My kids see me as a weak woman who has had breakdowns because I couldn't face my losses. I am no longer that person. My neighbours see me as a person who is always happy because...
    Serenitree1 Serenitree1 70+, F Dec 23, 2015

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    I think of the various people

    who know me .. And those who think they know me. Most of them know one facet of who I am, maybe even a few different facets. But does anyone really know the total of who I am? Is it possible to know all facets of anyone? I doubt it. Generally speaking, we all act a certain...
    Walkalone9000 Walkalone9000 51-55, F 12 Responses Apr 1, 2015

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    Irish0124 Irish0124 61-65, M Oct 9, 2015

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    I worry too much about others thoughts

    and feelings towards myself. Question is how can you change your state of mind when you've had that mentally for more than 13 years or so? Answer: give me 3 months to change my state of mind, give me 7 more months and I'll accomplish whatever goal I want to accomplish...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 13, 2015

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    Being Nice

    I recently read something that alternately disturbed, intrigued, and scared me.  To risk sounding egotistical, I'm constantly told that I'm nice.  Isn't it nice how I think of everyone else, only putting myself in the number one position when it's absolutely necessary...
    goddessone goddessone 41-45, F 67 Responses Sep 18, 2008

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    I am who I think I am .

    I am not who you think I am
    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow 16-17, F Sep 19, 2015

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    I am not happy like they think I am I hurt

    myself for all the bad things I feel I do and I hide all my pain with a fake smile I think I make my mom disappointed when all I wanna do is make her proud I don't know what to do to stop hurting my self
    pinkbluestar pinkbluestar 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 21, 2015

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    Whilst everyone cries

    for Paris yesterday, nobody mentions about ISIS bombing the Lebanon. I pray for both countries. #Peace4Paris #Peace4Lebanon #Peace4Syria #Peace4Palestine #Peace4Gaza #Peace4thetruth #Peace4China #Peace4Africa #Peace4Dubai #PeaceRohingya. Don't judge people by their religions...
    Pluviophilia Pluviophilia 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 15, 2015

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    They see me as a weirdo.

    All of the people who have picked on me OL seem to think i'm this disgusting weirdo with a repulsive lack of hygiene who runs around thinking they're some kind of were-creature, which i'm not. I'm really a very nice person, it's just I don't tolerate people like that who...
    Monstermaster13 Monstermaster13 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 23, 2015

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    sometimes I regret showing a person my fears

    and vulnerabilities. sometimes I regret being too open. sometimes I think about not being too nice. sometimes I regret being so available for people. that's the thing, they'll contact me when they need me but when they don't, it's like I don't even exist in this world...
    coronaborealis coronaborealis 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 10, 2015

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    I go to a Christian University

    and when people meet me they think I'm this sweet innocent girl. Little do they know I'm a sex freak and I like to do kinky things with boys and girls. They just see a nice smart girl in nursing school but they don't know what I do at night. I'm going to hell for sure
    skylar327 skylar327 22-25, F 7 Responses Dec 1, 2013

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    One of those men living

    and working in Africa on a two year contract, then expects an American woman to wait,let alone believe lies. Ian not ad man fool. Back off all your predators. As I just told the last idiot with the same story. Women talk. American women don't want someone across the planet...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 15, 2015

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