I Am Not Who They Think I Am Forum & Chat Board | Who really knows you?

My best friend, I would have to say. We have been friends since 4th grade. About 16 years.(wow) And I have been able to tell her everything. All my deep dark secrets that I haven't told anyone else.

I also find I make friends with men so much easier then women. I hate how women like to talk behind your back when you are not around. I only have a couple close girl friends. A lot more close guy friends.

true, who really knows anyone?

I don't even know who I am most of the time, I don't share my feelings, hopes, dreams, problems with anyone, I live in fear of being a burden and people will turn their backs on me ... but I guess that wouldn't matter anyway because I feel and am alone. a never ending cycle as it seems ...

No one really knows me.  I feel like I have been living a lie.  I don't know who I am so how would I expect anyone else to know who I am. 

there are very few people who really know me. I have told a select few people who I really am, but i think its only my one closest friend who actually understands who I am and what I going through.

I don't think anyone can ever know you. Everyone has a secret self, so to speak - a side of them that most people, or even no-one ever sees. I think what's important is that one is happy with it or at the very least accepts it. I have many secrets, some of which I used to be deeply ashamed of but I eventually decided that I had to make a choice to either stop behaving or thinking in a certain 'negative' way or to deal with the effects that those actions had on me. I chose the latter. Whether that's the right choice I don't know - it feel right to me at this stage in my life so that will have to do for the time being.

I could of wrote your post. Thats exactly how I feel. I am a mother of four and a business owner...I have had these flashes of thought and a feeling of being alone wondering ...where are you?  where have you gone?  Nobody knows the real me anymore.  Not even myself.

I put my self out there all the time and still feel that my close people dont know me.

No one really knows me. At all. I can't be honest with anyone in my life about anything in my life & haven't been able to be for most of my life. I have serious social anxiety that has left me virtually without a life, in most ways, for years, so there are very few people in my life to begin with. I've been working on my anxiety a lot over the past year, but because of my complete lack of life experience, I am still unable to get to know people. I am terrified of negative reactions toward my inexperience in a lot of areas, & tend to push people away so that I do not become the one who is ridiculed & the butt of everyone's jokes. 

I am already the "wierd" one in my family & elsewhere for so many different reasons, all of them related to my social anxiety, & I don't want to be the "wierd" one to everyone else too. I do hope, though, more than anything, that I will be able to find people I can be open & honest with who will love & accept me as I am & realize that I AM a person, though I have differences in some areas. 

I am a very good writer, because I'm imaginative and very intelligent. This also makes me an accomplished liar. As a result, my entire life is a product of my own active mind. Nobody knows the truth except me, and sometimes that is very lonely.

i would say other than my mom who passed away in 2003,my childhood friend TW. and another friend mira who i met like 5 yrs ago and she really seems to connect with me. its like she is in my brain when she replies back to me.

It takes me a really long time for someone to really get to know me. The only person who really knows me is my sister, and even she doesn't know everything about me. So I'm the only person who really knows everything about me.