I Am Not

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 65 People

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    I am not what anyone wants to be around, to know.   At least, not in my experience.  It hurts, but you get used to it. 
    britze321 britze321
    18-21, F
    Jun 6, 2012

    I Am Not...

    I am not a liar... or a cheater... or a thief... I am not what everyone had "hoped" I'd  be... I'm not PERFECT... I'm not gorgeous by society's standards (I actually have meat on my bones - my bad... hahaha)... I'm not tall... I'm not happy all the time... I am not...
    phidget phidget
    31-35, F
    Jun 16, 2008

    "What I Am, And What I Will Never Be"

      i am a loyal friend, a devoted wife, and a loving mother.   I will never be a back stabbing, gossiping hypocrite, a cheating, adulterous wife,nor a mother who doesn't care about my children and what choices they make in life.   I am a person that doesn't trust easily, but...
    TwilightDream TwilightDream
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jan 1, 2012

    I'm Not

    comfortable being nude.  I don't know why   I just don't feel right when nude.
    aquarius3 aquarius3
    66-70
    May 5, 2012

    A Lot of Things

    I am not perfect I am not a Barbie I am not secure with myself I am not a positive person I am not happy...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Oct 20, 2007

    Strength

    I was born. I was abandoned. I was adopted. I was lucky. Was. My parents are wonderful. The rest of the family I was adopted into isn't so wonderful. My first memories are of being raped. I was three. I still have occasional nightmares from those 8 years. Nightmares...
    eyes eyes
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Sep 29, 2007

    It's true. I am not. OK?

    ??????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    IAmNot IAmNot
    18-21
    Feb 16, 2015

    I Am Not A Liar

    I will not back down from the truth... and people must pay for their sins against me... joyce poorter did abuse me. ken carey did rape me... my cousins did abuse me my uncle did abuse me my aunty did abuse me ... and I am not changing my story... if you can't bear the...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    Jul 22, 2011

    We Lie To Ourselves About Ourselves

      I was born more than sixty years ago, and as I was later told, you almost didn't survive. I weighed about 4 pounds and while in the hospital care lost a pound. I lived not with my mother or at her breast or womb. I lived in a mechanical and isolated box called an incubator...
    jaysbarn jaysbarn
    61-65
    Jul 17, 2011

    I Am Not A Very Good Person

    I lie, I cheat, I used to steal from the school canteen when I was a kid. I am incredibly lazy and I am writing this when I am supposed to be writing an essay due tomorrow afternoon. I hate myself and I love myself and I can't decide what to do with my life. I sometimes wonder...
    statickandy statickandy
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 20, 2012

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