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I Am Numb

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    Justforgetaboutme Justforgetaboutme 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 24, 2015

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    A morning of crying and pleading

    and not wanting to break the hug because you know that once you do, that person will walk away and it's very likely you will never see them again. It's over, it's done, and you can't force someone to be safe and quit walking back into their personal hell. I'm tired. I get it...
    Anonomdeplume Anonomdeplume 70+, F Dec 8, 2015

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    It's like something snapped.

    There's usually a switch, but this time I can't turn things back on.At this point,It's as if my humanity is nearly gone.
    iVihbes iVihbes 13-15, F Jan 29

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    Inside a cell on the sea of hidden paina

    laborious kind of celebrationA birthing awaits...Each  laboured pain more frequent and unmatched of the last in the scope of its intensity,No imaginary abstersion of this souls bleak absolution,So far fallen away from, and so locked inside ofstone cold affliction and the...
    LadyGallivanter LadyGallivanter 41-45 9 Responses Jun 12, 2015

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    Comfortably Numb?

    I have read it, in novels: being numb, but never, ever did i understand what they meant. Today, i find myself writing this sentence and feeling it. I am numb. Just numb. I laugh emptily, i feign anger. I swear, i'm not happy, but i'm not sad. Nothing matters anymore. The books i...
    bittersweetmakebelieve bittersweetmakebelieve 16-17, F Apr 25, 2011

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    There's much to be said

    for feeling numb. Time passes more quickly. You eat less, and because numbness encourages laziness, you do fewer things, good or bad, and the world's probably a better place for it. --Douglas Coupland
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 9, 2014

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    Slow Death

    combine alcohol with depression that's a mix that is dangerous it does things to people that human beings should not be capable of doing .......it turns people into ruthless nasty , angry, non caring and dangerous , it takes every hing away from you kids ,work morals love and god...
    winchester51 winchester51 51-55, M Feb 1, 2011

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    I guess,Im just indifferent to lots of things

    in my life and life in general and I like to numb myself out from all the bs in my mind..sometimes being numb can feel good better than facing reality a sh*itty reality at least so hear I am writing this when it's waay past my bed time..I dont know why I sabotage my chance of...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2014

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    I Don't Care Anymore

    I have started to notice that I am losing interest in everything around me. Things that used to matter to me now are just slight annoyances, and people that I used to enjoy seeing are simply mandatory get-togethers. I am moving through life without much purpose. I noticed it...
    mjb716 mjb716 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 3, 2012

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    "Silly little girl Don't fool yourself They've

    seen your scars Just don't want to help Little do they know How much could change With three little words 'Are you okay' " -unknown
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 13, 2015

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    Its like all my emotions are suddenly gone

    and i feel so empty... Sighs
    Depressedgirlxxx Depressedgirlxxx 16-17, F Aug 15, 2015

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    I can't handle myself anymore.

    I'm either feeling way too much or nothing at all. There is no in between.
    bubblebubba bubblebubba 16-17, F Jun 26, 2015

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    trent128 trent128 26-30, M May 27, 2015

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    I go about my days dazed,

    entranced. Sometimes, I feel I am hollow or empty, but the pain is there. The pain is always there. It's just a matter of sweeping it under the worn rug of my heart or letting it just sit there, mocking me. Many times, on my way home, I feel the sting of unrelinquished tears...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F Feb 12, 2015

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    The World

    so tonight I got into a talk with a friend's cousin, which in fact is a therapist, it was kinda funny until the obvious targeting from his emtional talk about empathy and feelings was directed towards me. So he asked me about a few things, from the reason I didn't had anymore a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 28, 2012

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    Mom & Dad

    They are suffocating me. Sometimes I don't wanna let go, subconsciously of course. Sometimes I don't care about being ill, I just sit there & keep at being depressed. But all the strength I have in me keeps telling me to make the jump, to just fucken do it already, to get...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25 4 Responses Jun 3, 2011

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    I haven't been able to cry

    for a couple years. I have so much emotions screaming inside of me, and I wish I could let them out in another way besides screaming them out of my mouth when I'm alone in my room. I want God to give me tears. Because my vocal chords can get them out, but my heart can't. I...
    Silent711 Silent711 26-30, F Jul 23, 2015

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    I really need to feel,

    I can't stand this anymore, whatever it is, I have the impression of losing my mind, I'm inexistant, I would be really grateful if someone can help.
    SpecialButReal SpecialButReal 18-21, F Mar 25, 2015

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    I find it hard to say yes

    or accept someone's heart. I have to say no without breaking their heart. But all I do is avoid them. Don't talk to them and act like they're invisible to me. What shall I do? Talk to them directly and say what I really wanna say ( I don't kinda wanna get into some relationship...
    Lovischka Lovischka 18-21 2 Responses Jul 10, 2014

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    Stress, anger, hurt and rejection.

    I don't care any more! It's easier this way. To be numb allows me to function without the world touching me. Survival even prosperity, at the cost of happiness is a small price to pay.
    ausofbounds ausofbounds 41-45, M 1 Response May 7, 2015

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    I only love it it when you touch me not feel me.

    When I'm ****** up, that's the real me babe
    xoxoxxooxoxo xoxoxxooxoxo 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 4, 2015

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    Zero.

    Im not sure if i am depressed. I mean, Im not sad. But im not exactly happy either. I can laugh , joke, and smile during the day, but sometimes when i am alone at night I forget how to feel....
    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2013

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    I Really Miss Feeling Something

    It's strange how time has passed and after everything I been through, how can I feel so numb, nowadays? I wonder where is the passion, back a few years ago, everything was parties, going and having fun, in all kinds of ways, with all kind of different people. now is all grey...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 26, 2012

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    Yet she tried to hurt me again.

    But it did little good. I can't feel hardly any emotional pain any more.
    Justforgetaboutme Justforgetaboutme 13-15, F Aug 28, 2015

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    feeling empty :/ just floating around.

    ...it's getting worse the highs and lows are less consistent. the highs are shorter and the lows crash harder than ever
    kwrc kwrc 18-21, F Aug 24, 2015

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    I hate being numb. it's a social barrier.

    I begin to numb my emotions when I was eleven, after emotional trauma, and at first it was a relief, and I felt strong. only a few months ago did it dawn on me. there are moments where I could be happy, but instead there's an empty feeling. and I've begun to miss my depression...
    floweing floweing 13-15, F Jul 5, 2014

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    I want to feel help,

    paralysis please assist sometimes its good i don't feel for i know the hate that will rise won't help heal beware of this it does exist i warned u heed and hide for the demons will come outside
    HoTmOuThBaBe HoTmOuThBaBe 18-21, F Dec 15, 2013

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    Do you ever feel numb It's

    that feeling when your whole world Seems to fall apart right in front of you And there's nothing you can do about it It's that feeling when you're all choked up And the words just won't seem to come out The tears are stuck, and they strangle you And all you feel is sole...
    xmoody25 xmoody25 16-17, M 2 Responses Jul 8, 2015

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    Ugh I'm hurt so bad I just can't feel pain

    anymore. And thank you for all who care
    Justforgetaboutme Justforgetaboutme 13-15, F Aug 24, 2015

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    Ever heard Linkin Park's song "Numb"?

    It totally describes me. I feel like I'm not really living in this world. Its like a fog I can't get out of. So many times I sit with people and they'll talk for hours to each other while I'm in the corner, non-existent, tuning out, escaping to another world it seems. People...
    BurnTheDreams BurnTheDreams 18-21, F Jul 26, 2015

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    After today I will no longer be on this site

    and my account will be deactivated. I came here looking for friends and support while I was in the closet. I appreciate those who I've met and were there for me to talk to. But I have no reason to be here no longer. I am also glad that I met a great girl here who I fell for. I...
    Mickey2021 Mickey2021 22-25, F Mar 6, 2014

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    Help me, I've been like this

    for too long it's going to kill me, I just can't express what I am feeling. my brain is screaming for an escape, I try to say what I feel but I never can. I try and write my stories on EP but it's hard to say. I just can't word the feelings - and I'm scared someone will...
    neutralwalrus neutralwalrus 18-21, M Jan 21, 2015

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    Yes.right now...meds didn't work last night.

    my sholder is stiff...i can't get out of this...tired.
    JerryJerryA JerryJerryA 31-35, F Feb 16, 2015

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    It's weird really. Sometimes I feel like I'm

    so good at hiding my emotions, that I can't tell if I'm hiding them anymore or if they just aren't there. If that makes any sense? I don't know. I mean I know I have emotions, we all do. But I never learned how to express them, convey them. It's been so damn long since I've been...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 9, 2014

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    Guess that's what happens

    when people **** you over enough times. I give the **** up. Numb is nice.
    Safetysuit96 Safetysuit96 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    I used to swear and be angry

    when I got hurt, like when I hit my head against something. Now, I kind of go cold and realize that I deserved a lot more pain than that. I am trash.
    Whobody Whobody 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 24, 2015

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    I want to sink a knife into my stomach,

    I just need to fvcking feel !!!
    SpecialButReal SpecialButReal 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 30, 2015

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    Oh Mister Daniels Say What?

    Of course every one has feelings. Sometimes its just to much to take. An overload that you cant take. Some are good at breaking down and letting the world see how their emotions have them setting off like a fire work show on the fourth of july. Some are silently swimming in a...
    Katarina2012 Katarina2012 22-25, F Apr 18, 2012

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    I'm numb by hate loneliness

    and depression and I love how I feel
    cameroncampbell cameroncampbell 18-21, M 2 Responses May 14, 2015

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    My mind is racing but I sit barely breathing.

    An emptiness surrounds me, blows into a fog that penetrates my very being. Thoughts fall like pebbles making slow-motion waves in my memory banks. I feel no pain but somehow it still aches. What happened to me? What is happening to me? Will I see another day? Will I always be...
    lovelywarpedlemon lovelywarpedlemon 22-25, F 8 Responses Jun 1, 2015

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    So much weight on my shoulders,

    sometimes I think of what it would be like to die and I regret having those thoughts, it seems like the only reason I enjoy living now is because it's so fun running away, I don't know how to feel anymore I don't know how to name my emotions, I'm just tired.
    Insecuritykills1 Insecuritykills1 16-17, F May 20, 2015

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    There's just a day or a couple of days

    when I suddenly lose myself. By that, I meant suddenly being quieter, staring into blank space, or getting unproductive. At first I thought it was just my personality... being alone sometimes, not having someone to talk to, just there... alone. But I had friends, and we do hang...
    talkinginstringcups talkinginstringcups 18-21, F Sep 19, 2015

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    There are 1,013,913 words in the English

    language and I can't even think of one to say 💔👼 RIP Megan...
    Cottoncandykitty Cottoncandykitty 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 18, 2013

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    I Am Comfortably Numb

    Not only is comfortably numb a catchy Pink Floyd song, but I've been living the comfortably numb life for what feels like ages now. When someone breaks your heart you have everything you needed & loved ******** from you; the very core. You're left feeling shocked and...
    mswhistle mswhistle 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    Sometimes...

    Some days I wake up and feel empty. I do stupid things with the hope I get caught... but I can't stand the fallout. I know there is something broken inside, but sometimes....
    kunar12 kunar12 41-45, M Jul 31, 2012

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