I Am Numb

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 440 People

    Inside a cell on the sea of hidden paina

    laborious kind of celebrationA birthing awaits...Each  laboured pain more frequent and unmatched of the last in the scope of its intensity,No imaginary abstersion of this souls bleak absolution,So far fallen away from, and so locked inside ofstone cold affliction and the...
    LadyGallivanter LadyGallivanter
    7 Responses Jun 12, 2015
    trent128 trent128
    31-35, M
    May 27, 2015

    ...Today was supposed to be

    so good and it turned out to be hell.
    will1982 will1982
    18-21, M
    Sep 7, 2015

    Guess that's what happens

    when people **** you over enough times. I give the **** up. Numb is nice.
    Safetysuit96 Safetysuit96
    26-30, F
    Dec 29, 2014

    Last night, the night

    that I wanted to die the most, was the night that a family member of mine passed away. I didn't even know it until the next morning, when I was supposed to be in school but I stayed home because my eye swelled overnight for some odd reason and I overslept anyways. I didn't even...
    WaNd3ReR WaNd3ReR
    18-21, F
    Jan 19, 2016

    So much weight on my shoulders,

    sometimes I think of what it would be like to die and I regret having those thoughts, it seems like the only reason I enjoy living now is because it's so fun running away, I don't know how to feel anymore I don't know how to name my emotions, I'm just tired.
    Insecuritykills1 Insecuritykills1
    18-21, F
    May 20, 2015


    Im not sure if i am depressed. I mean, Im not sad. But im not exactly happy either. I can laugh , joke, and smile during the day, but sometimes when i am alone at night I forget how to feel....
    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Nov 7, 2013

    Not all the times but there are times

    when I'll be cold and I would just listen to you but won't respond with any emotional sign And I'm misunderstood a lot for this. When my grand father passed away 2 years ago(maybe he rest in peace) I faked tears and I wasn't feeling anything atall,Infact inwas getting tired...
    Scorpio95117 Scorpio95117
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jun 15, 2015

    This creep from Italy said something

    that reminded me of my first abusive ex and it brought back flash backs , I'm trying not to cry idk I rather feel numb then feel the pain of my past horrible memories .
    unlovedbbw3085 unlovedbbw3085
    31-35, F
    Oct 21, 2015

    Stress, anger, hurt and rejection.

    I don't care any more! It's easier this way. To be numb allows me to function without the world touching me. Survival even prosperity, at the cost of happiness is a small price to pay.
    ausofbounds ausofbounds
    46-50, M
    1 Response May 7, 2015

    I Don't Care Anymore

    I have started to notice that I am losing interest in everything around me. Things that used to matter to me now are just slight annoyances, and people that I used to enjoy seeing are simply mandatory get-togethers. I am moving through life without much purpose. I noticed it...
    mjb716 mjb716
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Jan 3, 2012

    Today is the fourth anniversary of my mother's

    suicide. Every year I relive those devastating moments I learned news. I'm at work and my cell phone rings. I see it's my sister, so I answer. Me: Hello My sister: She hung herself. I knew right away what she was saying, but in that instant I was numb, not devastated but just...
    BrokeBandit BrokeBandit
    41-45, F
    Apr 5, 2016

    Help me, I've been like this

    for too long it's going to kill me, I just can't express what I am feeling. my brain is screaming for an escape, I try to say what I feel but I never can. I try and write my stories on EP but it's hard to say. I just can't word the feelings - and I'm scared someone will...
    neutralwalrus neutralwalrus
    18-21, M
    Jan 21, 2015
    Justforgetaboutme Justforgetaboutme
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 24, 2015

    Ugh I'm hurt so bad I just can't feel pain

    anymore. And thank you for all who care
    Justforgetaboutme Justforgetaboutme
    16-17, F
    Aug 24, 2015

    Yet she tried to hurt me again.

    But it did little good. I can't feel hardly any emotional pain any more.
    Justforgetaboutme Justforgetaboutme
    16-17, F
    Aug 28, 2015

    I used to swear and be angry

    when I got hurt, like when I hit my head against something. Now, I kind of go cold and realize that I deserved a lot more pain than that. I am trash.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Aug 24, 2015

    There's much to be said

    for feeling numb. Time passes more quickly. You eat less, and because numbness encourages laziness, you do fewer things, good or bad, and the world's probably a better place for it. --Douglas Coupland
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Jan 9, 2014

    That moment, where something happens,

    and you know your upset, but you cant feel it. That moment, when the tears are there, but they wont come out, because you just doubt it. That moment, when you wish you would really feel again, but the emotions- They wont submit.
    Aws0meSauce Aws0meSauce
    18-21, F
    Jul 18, 2015
    trvpicide trvpicide
    18-21, F
    Mar 24, 2016

    I haven't been able to cry

    for a couple years. I have so much emotions screaming inside of me, and I wish I could let them out in another way besides screaming them out of my mouth when I'm alone in my room. I want God to give me tears. Because my vocal chords can get them out, but my heart can't. I...
    Silent711 Silent711
    31-35, F
    Jul 23, 2015

    I have become numb. My emotions had been through

    so much in a short amount of time that now they have burned out. I have found it is better to feel little than feel constant, intense emotion.
    theboywhocouldfly31 theboywhocouldfly31
    18-21, F
    Mar 21, 2014

    The pain can't get in

    that way. It's survival.
    Sunnflower00408 Sunnflower00408
    31-35, F
    Mar 18, 2016

    Yes.right now...meds didn't work last night.

    my sholder is stiff...i can't get out of this...tired.
    JerryJerryA JerryJerryA
    31-35, F
    Feb 16, 2015

    I want to feel help,

    paralysis please assist sometimes its good i don't feel for i know the hate that will rise won't help heal beware of this it does exist i warned u heed and hide for the demons will come outside
    HoTmOuThBaBe HoTmOuThBaBe
    22-25, F
    Dec 15, 2013

    I Really Miss Feeling Something

    It's strange how time has passed and after everything I been through, how can I feel so numb, nowadays? I wonder where is the passion, back a few years ago, everything was parties, going and having fun, in all kinds of ways, with all kind of different people. now is all grey...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Apr 26, 2012

    I hate being numb. it's a social barrier.

    I begin to numb my emotions when I was eleven, after emotional trauma, and at first it was a relief, and I felt strong. only a few months ago did it dawn on me. there are moments where I could be happy, but instead there's an empty feeling. and I've begun to miss my depression...
    floweing floweing
    16-17, F
    Jul 5, 2014

    Ever heard Linkin Park's song "Numb"?

    It totally describes me. I feel like I'm not really living in this world. Its like a fog I can't get out of. So many times I sit with people and they'll talk for hours to each other while I'm in the corner, non-existent, tuning out, escaping to another world it seems. People...
    BurnTheDreams BurnTheDreams
    18-21, F
    Jul 26, 2015

    Oh Mister Daniels Say What?

    Of course every one has feelings. Sometimes its just to much to take. An overload that you cant take. Some are good at breaking down and letting the world see how their emotions have them setting off like a fire work show on the fourth of july. Some are silently swimming in a...
    Katarina2012 Katarina2012
    26-30, F
    Apr 18, 2012

    The World

    so tonight I got into a talk with a friend's cousin, which in fact is a therapist, it was kinda funny until the obvious targeting from his emtional talk about empathy and feelings was directed towards me. So he asked me about a few things, from the reason I didn't had anymore a...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses May 28, 2012

    I'm numb by hate loneliness

    and depression and I love how I feel
    cameroncampbell cameroncampbell
    22-25, M
    2 Responses May 14, 2015

    I can't handle myself anymore.

    I'm either feeling way too much or nothing at all. There is no in between.
    bubblebubba bubblebubba
    16-17, F
    Jun 26, 2015

    Mom & Dad

    They are suffocating me. Sometimes I don't wanna let go, subconsciously of course. Sometimes I don't care about being ill, I just sit there & keep at being depressed. But all the strength I have in me keeps telling me to make the jump, to just fucken do it already, to get...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    4 Responses Jun 3, 2011

    I wouldn't say I'm completely numb.

    When it comes to romance, I am. I suppose the worst part of the whole thing is that there's going to come a time when I actually do want to remove all barriers and actually feel something for someone, but I'm afraid that I won't be able to..
    goaldigger goaldigger
    26-30, F
    Feb 21, 2014

    I'm so good at this feeling.

    Here we go again
    mariatheresae mariatheresae
    22-25, F
    Apr 9, 2014
    Islamujer Islamujer
    46-50, F
    Mar 6, 2016

    feeling empty :/ just floating around.

    ...it's getting worse the highs and lows are less consistent. the highs are shorter and the lows crash harder than ever
    kwrc kwrc
    18-21, F
    Aug 24, 2015

    Its like all my emotions are suddenly gone

    and i feel so empty... Sighs
    Depressedgirlxxx Depressedgirlxxx
    18-21, F
    Aug 15, 2015

    I Am Comfortably Numb

    Not only is comfortably numb a catchy Pink Floyd song, but I've been living the comfortably numb life for what feels like ages now. When someone breaks your heart you have everything you needed & loved ******** from you; the very core. You're left feeling shocked and...
    mswhistle mswhistle
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 18, 2013

    I find it hard to say yes

    or accept someone's heart. I have to say no without breaking their heart. But all I do is avoid them. Don't talk to them and act like they're invisible to me. What shall I do? Talk to them directly and say what I really wanna say ( I don't kinda wanna get into some relationship...
    Lovischka Lovischka
    2 Responses Jul 10, 2014

    A morning of crying and pleading

    and not wanting to break the hug because you know that once you do, that person will walk away and it's very likely you will never see them again. It's over, it's done, and you can't force someone to be safe and quit walking back into their personal hell. I'm tired. I get it...
    Anonomdeplume Anonomdeplume
    70+, F
    Dec 8, 2015


    Some days I wake up and feel empty. I do stupid things with the hope I get caught... but I can't stand the fallout. I know there is something broken inside, but sometimes....
    kunar12 kunar12
    41-45, M
    Jul 31, 2012

    There's just a day or a couple of days

    when I suddenly lose myself. By that, I meant suddenly being quieter, staring into blank space, or getting unproductive. At first I thought it was just my personality... being alone sometimes, not having someone to talk to, just there... alone. But I had friends, and we do hang...
    talkinginstringcups talkinginstringcups
    18-21, F
    Sep 19, 2015

    Do you ever feel numb It's

    that feeling when your whole world Seems to fall apart right in front of you And there's nothing you can do about it It's that feeling when you're all choked up And the words just won't seem to come out The tears are stuck, and they strangle you And all you feel is sole...
    xmoody25 xmoody25
    18-21, M
    Jul 8, 2015

    Comfortably Numb?

    I have read it, in novels: being numb, but never, ever did i understand what they meant. Today, i find myself writing this sentence and feeling it. I am numb. Just numb. I laugh emptily, i feign anger. I swear, i'm not happy, but i'm not sad. Nothing matters anymore. The books i...
    bittersweetmakebelieve bittersweetmakebelieve
    18-21, F
    Apr 25, 2011

    I'm not new to EP but this is a new profile.

    I'm looking for finding my "groove" again through writing and reading stories initially. I've gotten into a funk where I was causing additional pain to someone dear to me. I think it's time that I work on understanding myself better and overcoming destructive tendencies. If...
    deleted deleted
    Feb 27, 2014

    After winning every battle I have lost the war.

    With every single issue in my life I bottle it up and put on smile and say I'm fine. That's a lie for so many years I was sad and fearful. Now I am just numb I don't care anymore I use to smile for others now I can't even do that. I am numb, I don't care, and I think I'm giving...
    sophilla sophilla
    16-17, F
    Feb 22, 2015

    Slow Death

    combine alcohol with depression that's a mix that is dangerous it does things to people that human beings should not be capable of doing .......it turns people into ruthless nasty , angry, non caring and dangerous , it takes every hing away from you kids ,work morals love and god...
    winchester51 winchester51
    51-55, M
    Feb 1, 2011

    "Silly little girl Don't fool yourself They've

    seen your scars Just don't want to help Little do they know How much could change With three little words 'Are you okay' " -unknown
    deleted deleted
    Dec 13, 2015

    Well, just sneaking around on Facebook( you all

    know you do it too lol), and I see Marcello's post wedding reception picture on his wall. Um...yeah. It just hit me like a ton of bricks like it's real. It actually happened. I...just don't know. It's my fault, I went looking for trouble. ughh hate my life.
    GarnetRoses GarnetRoses
    26-30, F
    Aug 4, 2015

    It's weird really. Sometimes I feel like I'm

    so good at hiding my emotions, that I can't tell if I'm hiding them anymore or if they just aren't there. If that makes any sense? I don't know. I mean I know I have emotions, we all do. But I never learned how to express them, convey them. It's been so damn long since I've been...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 9, 2014

    There are 1,013,913 words in the English

    language and I can't even think of one to say 💔👼 RIP Megan...
    Cottoncandykitty Cottoncandykitty
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 18, 2013

    I only love it it when you touch me not feel me.

    When I'm ****** up, that's the real me babe
    FadedAwayForever FadedAwayForever
    18-21, M
    1 Response Sep 4, 2015

    After today I will no longer be on this site

    and my account will be deactivated. I came here looking for friends and support while I was in the closet. I appreciate those who I've met and were there for me to talk to. But I have no reason to be here no longer. I am also glad that I met a great girl here who I fell for. I...
    Mickey2021 Mickey2021
    22-25, F
    Mar 6, 2014
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