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    I dont feel anything anymore.

    ...its hard for me to explain but everything i had a care for no long means anything to me. I dont care anymore, dont feel love or emotions. The depression and demons are eating me alive..the worst part, im letting them and theres no way to stop it. Im so numb that i dont even...
    musicismysalvation musicismysalvation 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 4, 2014

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    My caring stopped caring!

    My son is dead to me.
    WarriorPrincess862 WarriorPrincess862 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 31, 2014

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    Mom & Dad

    They are suffocating me. Sometimes I don't wanna let go, subconsciously of course. Sometimes I don't care about being ill, I just sit there & keep at being depressed. But all the strength I have in me keeps telling me to make the jump, to just fucken do it already, to get...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 3, 2011

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    I can't feel anything anymore.

    Somebody just take a knife and stab into me,right into my shattered heart,and just let the blood flow out of my worthless body as I take my dying breaths...
    PullTheFuckingTrigger PullTheFuckingTrigger 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 15, 2014

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    It's weird really. Sometimes I feel like I'm

    so good at hiding my emotions, that I can't tell if I'm hiding them anymore or if they just aren't there. If that makes any sense? I don't know. I mean I know I have emotions, we all do. But I never learned how to express them, convey them. It's been so damn long since I've been...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 9, 2014

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    I Am Numb....

      I feel so damn numb right now. I went to bed crying. I woke up crying. I lost so much last night. I thought when I went to bed last night, that it was all just a really bad nightmare. But when I woke up, and reaized it wasn't, it just hurts so bad. I just can't...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 22, 2009

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    Zero.

    Im not sure if i am depressed. I mean, Im not sad. But im not exactly happy either. I can laugh , joke, and smile during the day, but sometimes when i am alone at night I forget how to feel....
    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2013

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    I flip the switch. I stop caring

    because when you care, that's how you get hurt. Your emotions are vulnerable, so I just turn it off.
    Yasmin8 Yasmin8 13-15, F Jul 5, 2014

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    Im so ******* boring

    so boring that im makin myself bored.. I guess my friends who are supposed to be my 'real' friends got over me replaced me. I hate 9 grade and i hate that high school is next year. I feel empty and sad and this feeling isnt fading away like it supposed to.
    gaypanda gaypanda 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    I want to feel help,

    paralysis please assist sometimes its good i don't feel for i know the hate that will rise won't help heal beware of this it does exist i warned u heed and hide for the demons will come outside
    HoTmOuThBaBe HoTmOuThBaBe 18-21, F Dec 15, 2013

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    The only thing i can think of is numbness.

    Thats all i can feel too. Nothing makes me smile anymore. I just feel drained all the time and i have lost the will to go on. I cant see a future. Im not cutting anymore. Thats a plus. But im not, not harming either. I dont know what to do. I have all the means of an escape and...
    prettybrowneyes1993 prettybrowneyes1993 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 8, 2014

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    I have lost so many people

    so close to me, but still i don't cry. All i can feel is emptyness.. I just can't seem to understand that they're gone... I still believe they're there..
    aria321 aria321 13-15, F Nov 6, 2014

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    Guess that's what happens

    when people **** you over enough times. I give the **** up. Numb is nice.
    ofthisgirl90 ofthisgirl90 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    So lately I've just been empty.

    I am out of my comfort zone, out of my usual environment (i'm pretty ok with that though); I don't know anybody here and I've lost interest in meeting people. I don't feel exceptionally depressed or anything like that, I'm just emotionless. Quite unlike me actually. Now you...
    Hedonisticmisanthrope Hedonisticmisanthrope 26-30, F Dec 25, 2013

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    Slow Death

    combine alcohol with depression that's a mix that is dangerous it does things to people that human beings should not be capable of doing .......it turns people into ruthless nasty , angry, non caring and dangerous , it takes every hing away from you kids ,work morals love and god...
    winchester51 winchester51 51-55, M Feb 1, 2011

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    I'm so good at this feeling.

    Here we go again
    mariatheresae mariatheresae 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9, 2014

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    I guess they call it depression,

    you know, feeling numb. Sometimes I think it's better to feel numb, to feel nothing. Then I remember how amazing it felt to feel. To feel happiness, to feel excitement and nerves. I can try to tell myself to be happy but when I try I can't get my body to remember what happy felt...
    ohaleakala ohaleakala 18-21, F Jan 3

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    I hate being numb. it's a social barrier.

    I begin to numb my emotions when I was eleven, after emotional trauma, and at first it was a relief, and I felt strong. only a few months ago did it dawn on me. there are moments where I could be happy, but instead there's an empty feeling. and I've begun to miss my depression...
    floweing floweing 13-15, F Jul 5, 2014

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    I guess,Im just indifferent to lots of things

    in my life and life in general and I like to numb myself out from all the bs in my mind..sometimes being numb can feel good better than facing reality a sh*itty reality at least so hear I am writing this when it's waay past my bed time..I dont know why I sabotage my chance of...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 30, 2014

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    I wouldn't say I'm completely numb.

    When it comes to romance, I am. I suppose the worst part of the whole thing is that there's going to come a time when I actually do want to remove all barriers and actually feel something for someone, but I'm afraid that I won't be able to..
    goaldigger goaldigger 22-25, F Feb 21, 2014

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    My Spirit Is Numb

    I am feeling so numb on the inside and out. My fingers even feel numb typing this. My thoughts, my hopes, my wants, my needs all seem unimportant to me at this moment and this feeling consumes me. I'm going to lay here on the couch and let my numb brain consume t.v. Every once in...
    nurse2nice nurse2nice 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2008

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    Every time I start to notice things get better

    and I start smiling more easily and I can look at the sun and love it and want to go outside, something happens and I'm set so far back. And it will take even longer for me to smile again. Everything gets bad. It is bad.. And I'm trying so hard to be okay and for people to not...
    TheAmityAffliction TheAmityAffliction 16-17, M Sep 14, 2014

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    Sometimes...

    Some days I wake up and feel empty. I do stupid things with the hope I get caught... but I can't stand the fallout. I know there is something broken inside, but sometimes....
    kunar12 kunar12 41-45, M Jul 31, 2012

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    I go about my days dazed,

    entranced. Sometimes, I feel I am hollow or empty, but the pain is there. The pain is always there. It's just a matter of sweeping it under the worn rug of my heart or letting it just sit there, mocking me. Many times, on my way home, I feel the sting of unrelinquished tears...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 12

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    I Really Miss Feeling Something

    It's strange how time has passed and after everything I been through, how can I feel so numb, nowadays? I wonder where is the passion, back a few years ago, everything was parties, going and having fun, in all kinds of ways, with all kind of different people. now is all grey...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 26, 2012

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    Help me, I've been like this

    for too long it's going to kill me, I just can't express what I am feeling. my brain is screaming for an escape, I try to say what I feel but I never can. I try and write my stories on EP but it's hard to say. I just can't word the feelings - and I'm scared someone will...
    neutralwalrus neutralwalrus 70+, M Jan 21

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    Does it count when I'm psychotic the other half

    of the time? It's like, maybe my whole is just like "yeah, I'm tired, time to be numb now!!" It drives me...well, nowhere, because I don't feel anything. People claim to "love me" so much, but they get all defensive when I don't act the same, because I could give two effs less...
    RexxTheDinosawr RexxTheDinosawr 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 2, 2014

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    I Am Comfortably Numb

    Not only is comfortably numb a catchy Pink Floyd song, but I've been living the comfortably numb life for what feels like ages now. When someone breaks your heart you have everything you needed & loved ******** from you; the very core. You're left feeling shocked and...
    mswhistle mswhistle 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    Yes.right now...meds didn't work last night.

    my sholder is stiff...i can't get out of this...tired.
    JerryJerryA JerryJerryA 31-35, F Feb 16

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    I sometime feels like I have no feeling at.

    ..nothing really make me happy anymore, I feel like I'm walking in a dark forest with no way out....
    darkJJ darkJJ 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 26, 2014

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    I don't know what to feel right now.

    I got lied to again by a guy and like it doesn't seem like anyone will miss me when I'm gone. I hate these feelings. I have been acting out again since the lie, but not as much as I want to. I wouldn't mind sleeping around every night right now, actually. I act out any time a...
    drummergrl06 drummergrl06 26-30, F Jan 11

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    And then it came. It finally hit me like a ton

    of bricks just this morning. I realized that there will be no more late night calls, no more 'I love you"s, no more kisses, no more guitar, no more "wee dote/pet", no more silly jokes and faces, no more you making me feel better and making me laugh, no more seeing me smile...
    alexis3000 alexis3000 18-21, F Dec 16, 2014

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    I find it hard to say yes

    or accept someone's heart. I have to say no without breaking their heart. But all I do is avoid them. Don't talk to them and act like they're invisible to me. What shall I do? Talk to them directly and say what I really wanna say ( I don't kinda wanna get into some relationship...
    lovischka lovischka 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2014

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    I'm not new to EP but this is a new profile.

    I'm looking for finding my "groove" again through writing and reading stories initially. I've gotten into a funk where I was causing additional pain to someone dear to me. I think it's time that I work on understanding myself better and overcoming destructive tendencies. If...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 27, 2014

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    Have been a long time

    now doubt if ill ever meet me right people that accept me for me problems and all there not ie PTSD walking problems so kind of accepted being free as that's what I have but maybe if I could get a fllar that treats right accepts me for me and don't want sex then great
    aromantic2012 aromantic2012 31-35 Aug 29, 2014

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    I have become numb. My emotions had been through

    so much in a short amount of time that now they have burned out. I have found it is better to feel little than feel constant, intense emotion.
    theboywhocouldfly31 theboywhocouldfly31 13-15, F Mar 21, 2014

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    There's much to be said

    for feeling numb. Time passes more quickly. You eat less, and because numbness encourages laziness, you do fewer things, good or bad, and the world's probably a better place for it. --Douglas Coupland
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jan 9, 2014

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    I Don't Care Anymore

    I have started to notice that I am losing interest in everything around me. Things that used to matter to me now are just slight annoyances, and people that I used to enjoy seeing are simply mandatory get-togethers. I am moving through life without much purpose. I noticed it...
    mjb716 mjb716 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 3, 2012

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    The World

    so tonight I got into a talk with a friend's cousin, which in fact is a therapist, it was kinda funny until the obvious targeting from his emtional talk about empathy and feelings was directed towards me. So he asked me about a few things, from the reason I didn't had anymore a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 28, 2012

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    After winning every battle I have lost the war.

    With every single issue in my life I bottle it up and put on smile and say I'm fine. That's a lie for so many years I was sad and fearful. Now I am just numb I don't care anymore I use to smile for others now I can't even do that. I am numb, I don't care, and I think I'm giving...
    sophilla sophilla 13-15, F Feb 22

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    Comfortably Numb?

    I have read it, in novels: being numb, but never, ever did i understand what they meant. Today, i find myself writing this sentence and feeling it. I am numb. Just numb. I laugh emptily, i feign anger. I swear, i'm not happy, but i'm not sad. Nothing matters anymore. The books i...
    bittersweetmakebelieve bittersweetmakebelieve 16-17, F Apr 25, 2011

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    After today I will no longer be on this site

    and my account will be deactivated. I came here looking for friends and support while I was in the closet. I appreciate those who I've met and were there for me to talk to. But I have no reason to be here no longer. I am also glad that I met a great girl here who I fell for. I...
    Mickey2021 Mickey2021 18-21, F Mar 6, 2014

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    Oh Mister Daniels Say What?

    Of course every one has feelings. Sometimes its just to much to take. An overload that you cant take. Some are good at breaking down and letting the world see how their emotions have them setting off like a fire work show on the fourth of july. Some are silently swimming in a...
    Katarina2012 Katarina2012 22-25, F Apr 18, 2012

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    There are 1,013,913 words in the English

    language and I can't even think of one to say 💔👼 RIP Megan...
    Cottoncandykitty Cottoncandykitty 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 18, 2013

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    Emotionally

    I guess that I've been through so much **** this past school year that I no longer give a crap what goes on in my life. For example, my grandfather died almost two months ago. I didn't really cry or feel depressed or anything even though I went to his house in the summer ...
    dancer2011 dancer2011 18-21, F Jul 23, 2008

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