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I Am Numb

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    nicky9090 nicky9090 18-21, F Dec 21, 2010

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    There's much to be said

    for feeling numb. Time passes more quickly. You eat less, and because numbness encourages laziness, you do fewer things, good or bad, and the world's probably a better place for it. --Douglas Coupland
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jan 9

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    Well Actually

    My bootyy is!! uqqh, i was sitting in this uncomfortable/comfortable way   and now my butt fell asleep like the top idk felt like sharing now it hurts lol   oh well!!, BYiiE FOR NOW =]
    SourLove SourLove 18-21, F Mar 9, 2008

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    The World

    so tonight I got into a talk with a friend's cousin, which in fact is a therapist, it was kinda funny until the obvious targeting from his emtional talk about empathy and feelings was directed towards me. So he asked me about a few things, from the reason I didn't had anymore a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 28, 2012

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    I want to feel help,

    paralysis please assist sometimes its good i don't feel for i know the hate that will rise won't help heal beware of this it does exist i warned u heed and hide for the demons will come outside
    HoTmOuThBaBe HoTmOuThBaBe 18-21, F Dec 15, 2013

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    Does it count when I'm psychotic the other half

    of the time? It's like, maybe my whole is just like "yeah, I'm tired, time to be numb now!!" It drives me...well, nowhere, because I don't feel anything. People claim to "love me" so much, but they get all defensive when I don't act the same, because I could give two effs less...
    RexxTheDinosawr RexxTheDinosawr 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 2

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    I'm so good at this feeling.

    Here we go again
    mariatheresae mariatheresae 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    Who Has A Cure For Numbness

    Days of monotony have revived.  It wasn't but a month ago that emotions aligned to an event in my life.  Ephemeral may be used to describe the length in which I felt.  My friend died; I shed tears that I did not know I had.  Two days later her death...
    fujipearl fujipearl 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 13, 2009

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    Zero.

    Im not sure if i am depressed. I mean, Im not sad. But im not exactly happy either. I can laugh , joke, and smile during the day, but sometimes when i am alone at night I forget how to feel....
    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2013

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    Every time I start to notice things get better

    and I start smiling more easily and I can look at the sun and love it and want to go outside, something happens and I'm set so far back. And it will take even longer for me to smile again. Everything gets bad. It is bad.. And I'm trying so hard to be okay and for people to not...
    LittleBlackSubmarine LittleBlackSubmarine 16-17, M Sep 14

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    I guess,Im just indifferent to lots of things

    in my life and life in general and I like to numb myself out from all the bs in my mind..sometimes being numb can feel good better than facing reality a sh*itty reality at least so hear I am writing this when it's waay past my bed time..I dont know why I sabotage my chance of...
    seeminglypossible seeminglypossible 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 30

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    I'm not new to EP but this is a new profile.

    I'm looking for finding my "groove" again through writing and reading stories initially. I've gotten into a funk where I was causing additional pain to someone dear to me. I think it's time that I work on understanding myself better and overcoming destructive tendencies. If...
    Wooddragonfan Wooddragonfan 46-50, M Feb 27

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    The only thing i can think of is numbness.

    Thats all i can feel too. Nothing makes me smile anymore. I just feel drained all the time and i have lost the will to go on. I cant see a future. Im not cutting anymore. Thats a plus. But im not, not harming either. I dont know what to do. I have all the means of an escape and...
    prettybrowneyes1993 prettybrowneyes1993 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 8

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    I can't feel anything anymore.

    Somebody just take a knife and stab into me,right into my shattered heart,and just let the blood flow out of my worthless body as I take my dying breaths...
    WhySufferxx WhySufferxx 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 15

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    I Am Comfortably Numb

    Not only is comfortably numb a catchy Pink Floyd song, but I've been living the comfortably numb life for what feels like ages now. When someone breaks your heart you have everything you needed & loved ******** from you; the very core. You're left feeling shocked and...
    mswhistle mswhistle 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    There are 1,013,913 words in the English

    language and I can't even think of one to say 💔👼 RIP Megan...
    Cottoncandykitty Cottoncandykitty 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 18, 2013

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    So lately I've just been empty.

    I am out of my comfort zone, out of my usual environment (i'm pretty ok with that though); I don't know anybody here and I've lost interest in meeting people. I don't feel exceptionally depressed or anything like that, I'm just emotionless. Quite unlike me actually. Now you...
    Hedonisticmisanthrope Hedonisticmisanthrope 26-30, F Dec 25, 2013

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    Mom & Dad

    They are suffocating me. Sometimes I don't wanna let go, subconsciously of course. Sometimes I don't care about being ill, I just sit there & keep at being depressed. But all the strength I have in me keeps telling me to make the jump, to just fucken do it already, to get...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 3, 2011

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    Emotionally

    I guess that I've been through so much **** this past school year that I no longer give a crap what goes on in my life. For example, my grandfather died almost two months ago. I didn't really cry or feel depressed or anything even though I went to his house in the summer ...
    dancer2011 dancer2011 18-21, F Jul 23, 2008

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    Comfortably Numb?

    I have read it, in novels: being numb, but never, ever did i understand what they meant. Today, i find myself writing this sentence and feeling it. I am numb. Just numb. I laugh emptily, i feign anger. I swear, i'm not happy, but i'm not sad. Nothing matters anymore. The books i...
    bittersweetmakebelieve bittersweetmakebelieve 16-17, F Apr 25, 2011

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    Have been a long time

    now doubt if ill ever meet me right people that accept me for me problems and all there not ie PTSD walking problems so kind of accepted being free as that's what I have but maybe if I could get a fllar that treats right accepts me for me and don't want sex then great
    aromantic2012 aromantic2012 31-35 Aug 29

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    I dont feel anything anymore.

    ...its hard for me to explain but everything i had a care for no long means anything to me. I dont care anymore, dont feel love or emotions. The depression and demons are eating me alive..the worst part, im letting them and theres no way to stop it. Im so numb that i dont even...
    musicismysalvation musicismysalvation 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 4

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    I find it hard to say yes

    or accept someone's heart. I have to say no without breaking their heart. But all I do is avoid them. Don't talk to them and act like they're invisible to me. What shall I do? Talk to them directly and say what I really wanna say ( I don't kinda wanna get into some relationship...
    lovischka lovischka 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    I have become numb. My emotions had been through

    so much in a short amount of time that now they have burned out. I have found it is better to feel little than feel constant, intense emotion.
    theboywhocouldfly31 theboywhocouldfly31 13-15, F Mar 21

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    I wouldn't say I'm completely numb.

    When it comes to romance, I am. I suppose the worst part of the whole thing is that there's going to come a time when I actually do want to remove all barriers and actually feel something for someone, but I'm afraid that I won't be able to..
    goaldigger goaldigger 22-25, F Feb 21

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    I hate being numb. it's a social barrier.

    I begin to numb my emotions when I was eleven, after emotional trauma, and at first it was a relief, and I felt strong. only a few months ago did it dawn on me. there are moments where I could be happy, but instead there's an empty feeling. and I've begun to miss my depression...
    floweing floweing 13-15, F Jul 5

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    It's a scary thing when the pain settles down

    and doesn't burn so much. For a long time pain was all I knew, it would be so strong it would knock my breath away and I would struggle to breath, letting out crys just screaming myself to sleep.. but now the fire has been replaced with ice. I'm so cold. I feel nothing, not for...
    sarahsx sarahsx 16-17, F Feb 27

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    I Don't Care Anymore

    I have started to notice that I am losing interest in everything around me. Things that used to matter to me now are just slight annoyances, and people that I used to enjoy seeing are simply mandatory get-togethers. I am moving through life without much purpose. I noticed it...
    mjb716 mjb716 22-25, M 3 Responses Jan 3, 2012

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    It's weird really. Sometimes I feel like I'm

    so good at hiding my emotions, that I can't tell if I'm hiding them anymore or if they just aren't there. If that makes any sense? I don't know. I mean I know I have emotions, we all do. But I never learned how to express them, convey them. It's been so damn long since I've been...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jan 9

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    Goals.

    My goal for the remainder of this semester is to train myself to become a mute unless spoken to. I feel that this will give me a better opportunity to observe the actions and words of others. The problem? I feel the need to correct all of the mindless teenagers who don't care...
    vicspen vicspen 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 29, 2013

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    Lately...

    I'm not sure what's going on, but lately, I can't feel emotions anymore. I know what I'm supposed to feel in the moment I'm supposed to feel it, but I just can't really...feel it.  It's strange since I'm usually not like this, but I can't feel anger, I can't feel sadness or...
    ForgottenCelestria ForgottenCelestria 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 4, 2013

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    Numb.

    Everyone thinks I'm your average happy teenage girl. I'm not. Every one of my emotions is forced. I never actually feel happy, depressed, jealous, or angry. I just do because I'm supposed to. In all reality, I'm nothing but a puppet. I'm numb. I can feel it settling in, the...
    vicspen vicspen 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 27, 2013

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    Tired Of Crying Tired Of Caring Tired Of People Telling Me You Are Good Looking Why Are You Single?

    The truth is whenever I let someone get close to me I always got hurt...now I have stopped hurting and I don't feel anything. I felt this way once before when I was 15 and tried to OD on tranquilizers. I don't feel anything for anyone and I feel like a flesh shell going...
    snowblindblue snowblindblue 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 18, 2013

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    Slow Death

    combine alcohol with depression that's a mix that is dangerous it does things to people that human beings should not be capable of doing .......it turns people into ruthless nasty , angry, non caring and dangerous , it takes every hing away from you kids ,work morals love and god...
    winchester51 winchester51 51-55, M Feb 1, 2011

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    I Really Miss Feeling Something

    It's strange how time has passed and after everything I been through, how can I feel so numb, nowadays? I wonder where is the passion, back a few years ago, everything was parties, going and having fun, in all kinds of ways, with all kind of different people. now is all grey...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 26, 2012

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    Sometimes...

    Some days I wake up and feel empty. I do stupid things with the hope I get caught... but I can't stand the fallout. I know there is something broken inside, but sometimes....
    kunar12 kunar12 41-45, M Jul 31, 2012

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    I flip the switch. I stop caring

    because when you care, that's how you get hurt. Your emotions are vulnerable, so I just turn it off.
    Yasmin8 Yasmin8 13-15, F Jul 5

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    I Am Numb....

      I feel so damn numb right now. I went to bed crying. I woke up crying. I lost so much last night. I thought when I went to bed last night, that it was all just a really bad nightmare. But when I woke up, and reaized it wasn't, it just hurts so bad. I just can't...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 22, 2009

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    Oh Mister Daniels Say What?

    Of course every one has feelings. Sometimes its just to much to take. An overload that you cant take. Some are good at breaking down and letting the world see how their emotions have them setting off like a fire work show on the fourth of july. Some are silently swimming in a...
    Katarina2012 Katarina2012 22-25, F Apr 18, 2012

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    After today I will no longer be on this site

    and my account will be deactivated. I came here looking for friends and support while I was in the closet. I appreciate those who I've met and were there for me to talk to. But I have no reason to be here no longer. I am also glad that I met a great girl here who I fell for. I...
    Mickey2021 Mickey2021 18-21, F Mar 6

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    The Abused Will Become The Abuser Love

    "Your Good In bed But Your Numb Af babe", he said. Wtf does that suppose to me? Well my ex girlfriend and I dated for 2 whole years and I was so in love with her I started to kiss her *** even when she was in the wrong I forgave her no matter how bad she treated me because I didn...
    defton3 defton3 18-21, F Jun 2, 2013

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    Sometimes...

    I truly feel numb, and have been feeling that way over the last few days. I think of the days to come and what they may bring both good and bad. I look forward to challenges and figuring out how to overcome them......although lately the feelings stirred around in me have caused...
    MegJgeM MegJgeM 31-35, F Oct 6, 2008

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    Numb

    I've found out how hard it is to really change.. Even hell can get comfy once you've settled in I just wanted the numb inside me to leave.. No matter how ****** up you get, there's always hell when you come back down.. The funny thing is all I ever wanted..I'll never have Yet...
    StarkButcher StarkButcher 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 24, 2013

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    I sometime feels like I have no feeling at.

    ..nothing really make me happy anymore, I feel like I'm walking in a dark forest with no way out....
    darkJJ darkJJ 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 26

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    My Spirit Is Numb

    I am feeling so numb on the inside and out. My fingers even feel numb typing this. My thoughts, my hopes, my wants, my needs all seem unimportant to me at this moment and this feeling consumes me. I'm going to lay here on the couch and let my numb brain consume t.v. Every once in...
    nurse2nice nurse2nice 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2008

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    I Am Here.

    thats about all i can say, im here. i have no feelings what so ever. i cant cry, i cant smile. i dont know whether to welcome the numbness or not. i dont hurt but i dont feel happiness or joy. i cant even feel love. i am so shut off from the world and my family. there is nothing...
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998 26-30, F 4 Responses Sep 23, 2009

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