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I Am Numb

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    I'm not new to EP but this is a new profile.

    I'm looking for finding my "groove" again through writing and reading stories initially. I've gotten into a funk where I was causing additional pain to someone dear to me. I think it's time that I work on understanding myself better and overcoming destructive tendencies. If...
    Wooddragonfan Wooddragonfan 46-50, M 1 Response Feb 27

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    I wouldn't say I'm completely numb.

    When it comes to romance, I am. I suppose the worst part of the whole thing is that there's going to come a time when I actually do want to remove all barriers and actually feel something for someone, but I'm afraid that I won't be able to..
    goaldigger goaldigger 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    Who Has A Cure For Numbness

    Days of monotony have revived.  It wasn't but a month ago that emotions aligned to an event in my life.  Ephemeral may be used to describe the length in which I felt.  My friend died; I shed tears that I did not know I had.  Two days later her death...
    fujipearl fujipearl 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 13, 2009

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    Mom & Dad

    They are suffocating me. Sometimes I don't wanna let go, subconsciously of course. Sometimes I don't care about being ill, I just sit there & keep at being depressed. But all the strength I have in me keeps telling me to make the jump, to just fucken do it already, to get...
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 3, 2011

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    The World

    so tonight I got into a talk with a friend's cousin, which in fact is a therapist, it was kinda funny until the obvious targeting from his emtional talk about empathy and feelings was directed towards me. So he asked me about a few things, from the reason I didn't had anymore a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 28, 2012

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    After today I will no longer be on this site

    and my account will be deactivated. I came here looking for friends and support while I was in the closet. I appreciate those who I've met and were there for me to talk to. But I have no reason to be here no longer. I am also glad that I met a great girl here who I fell for. I...
    Mickey2021 Mickey2021 18-21, F Mar 6

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    I dont feel anything anymore.

    ...its hard for me to explain but everything i had a care for no long means anything to me. I dont care anymore, dont feel love or emotions. The depression and demons are eating me alive..the worst part, im letting them and theres no way to stop it. Im so numb that i dont even...
    musicismysalvation musicismysalvation 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 4

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    The Abused Will Become The Abuser Love

    "Your Good In bed But Your Numb Af babe", he said. Wtf does that suppose to me? Well my ex girlfriend and I dated for 2 whole years and I was so in love with her I started to kiss her *** even when she was in the wrong I forgave her no matter how bad she treated me because I didn...
    defton3 defton3 18-21, F Jun 2, 2013

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    I Am Comfortably Numb

    Not only is comfortably numb a catchy Pink Floyd song, but I've been living the comfortably numb life for what feels like ages now. When someone breaks your heart you have everything you needed & loved ******** from you; the very core. You're left feeling shocked and...
    mswhistle mswhistle 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 18, 2013

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    I'm so good at this feeling.

    Here we go again
    mariatheresae mariatheresae 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    I Really Miss Feeling Something

    It's strange how time has passed and after everything I been through, how can I feel so numb, nowadays? I wonder where is the passion, back a few years ago, everything was parties, going and having fun, in all kinds of ways, with all kind of different people. now is all grey...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 26, 2012

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    There are 1,013,913 words in the English

    language and I can't even think of one to say 💔👼 RIP Megan...
    Cottoncandykitty Cottoncandykitty 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 18, 2013

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    I Am Here.

    thats about all i can say, im here. i have no feelings what so ever. i cant cry, i cant smile. i dont know whether to welcome the numbness or not. i dont hurt but i dont feel happiness or joy. i cant even feel love. i am so shut off from the world and my family. there is nothing...
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998 26-30, F 4 Responses Sep 23, 2009

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    Lately...

    I'm not sure what's going on, but lately, I can't feel emotions anymore. I know what I'm supposed to feel in the moment I'm supposed to feel it, but I just can't really...feel it.  It's strange since I'm usually not like this, but I can't feel anger, I can't feel sadness or...
    CrystalCelestria CrystalCelestria 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 4, 2013

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    Sometimes...

    Some days I wake up and feel empty. I do stupid things with the hope I get caught... but I can't stand the fallout. I know there is something broken inside, but sometimes....
    kunar12 kunar12 41-45, M Jul 31, 2012

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    Numb.

    Everyone thinks I'm your average happy teenage girl. I'm not. Every one of my emotions is forced. I never actually feel happy, depressed, jealous, or angry. I just do because I'm supposed to. In all reality, I'm nothing but a puppet. I'm numb. I can feel it settling in, the...
    vicspen vicspen 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 27, 2013

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    My Spirit Is Numb

    I am feeling so numb on the inside and out. My fingers even feel numb typing this. My thoughts, my hopes, my wants, my needs all seem unimportant to me at this moment and this feeling consumes me. I'm going to lay here on the couch and let my numb brain consume t.v. Every once in...
    nurse2nice nurse2nice 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 3, 2008

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    Emotionally

    I guess that I've been through so much **** this past school year that I no longer give a crap what goes on in my life. For example, my grandfather died almost two months ago. I didn't really cry or feel depressed or anything even though I went to his house in the summer ...
    dancer2011 dancer2011 18-21, F Jul 23, 2008

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    There's much to be said

    for feeling numb. Time passes more quickly. You eat less, and because numbness encourages laziness, you do fewer things, good or bad, and the world's probably a better place for it. --Douglas Coupland
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jan 9

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    Just...completely...numb

    What is this? Why am i feeling this? I am so used to feeling SOMETHING, even if it's the pain.  I can't even cry, all of the feelings, completely dissapeared. I don't care anymore, about anything or anyone, nothing upsets me, neither anything makes me happy. It's been like...
    TheLostPoet TheLostPoet 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 22, 2010

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    Sometimes...

    I truly feel numb, and have been feeling that way over the last few days. I think of the days to come and what they may bring both good and bad. I look forward to challenges and figuring out how to overcome them......although lately the feelings stirred around in me have caused...
    MegJgeM MegJgeM 31-35, F Oct 6, 2008

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    Goals.

    My goal for the remainder of this semester is to train myself to become a mute unless spoken to. I feel that this will give me a better opportunity to observe the actions and words of others. The problem? I feel the need to correct all of the mindless teenagers who don't care...
    vicspen vicspen 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 29, 2013

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    I have become numb. My emotions had been through

    so much in a short amount of time that now they have burned out. I have found it is better to feel little than feel constant, intense emotion.
    theboywhocouldfly31 theboywhocouldfly31 13-15, F Mar 21

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    Numb

    Sad to admit but I have been numb for over a year.
    boss21519 boss21519 31-35, M Nov 16, 2012

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    Well Actually

    My bootyy is!! uqqh, i was sitting in this uncomfortable/comfortable way   and now my butt fell asleep like the top idk felt like sharing now it hurts lol   oh well!!, BYiiE FOR NOW =]
    SourLove SourLove 18-21, F Mar 9, 2008

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    I Don't Care Anymore

    I have started to notice that I am losing interest in everything around me. Things that used to matter to me now are just slight annoyances, and people that I used to enjoy seeing are simply mandatory get-togethers. I am moving through life without much purpose. I noticed it...
    mjb716 mjb716 22-25, M 3 Responses Jan 3, 2012

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    Bhmb

    F.UCK   i   wish.bmhjnm,nm,nkhkjhjkghfghfgjghkhgukghjghjgyufrgj
    nicky9090 nicky9090 18-21, F Dec 21, 2010

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    Emotionally Numb

    I listen for signs of life. I carefully feel my pulse, I catch my breath and understand that I have a breath to catch I watch my belly full of air and I see life going in and out as it rises and falls. I feel my blood trickling downwards and upwards along the avenues of my body...
    40ishgirl 40ishgirl 41-45, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2012

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    I Am Numb....

      I feel so damn numb right now. I went to bed crying. I woke up crying. I lost so much last night. I thought when I went to bed last night, that it was all just a really bad nightmare. But when I woke up, and reaized it wasn't, it just hurts so bad. I just can't...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 22, 2009

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    It's weird really. Sometimes I feel like I'm

    so good at hiding my emotions, that I can't tell if I'm hiding them anymore or if they just aren't there. If that makes any sense? I don't know. I mean I know I have emotions, we all do. But I never learned how to express them, convey them. It's been so damn long since I've been...
    Plexer Plexer 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 9

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    Today It All Went Cold

    Today wasthe day my father tried to kill himself. I am his only daughter, my mom died in my delivery, he and my mom were only children, and therearents are both now dead. My dad tired to slit his own throat, left me a note at school, and when i got it I ran home. I got there just...
    kanga9856 kanga9856 13-15 1 Response Aug 25, 2012

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    It's a scary thing when the pain settles down

    and doesn't burn so much. For a long time pain was all I knew, it would be so strong it would knock my breath away and I would struggle to breath, letting out crys just screaming myself to sleep.. but now the fire has been replaced with ice. I'm so cold. I feel nothing, not for...
    sarahgxo sarahgxo 16-17, F Feb 27

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    Oh Mister Daniels Say What?

    Of course every one has feelings. Sometimes its just to much to take. An overload that you cant take. Some are good at breaking down and letting the world see how their emotions have them setting off like a fire work show on the fourth of july. Some are silently swimming in a...
    Katarina2012 Katarina2012 22-25, F Apr 18, 2012

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    Numb

    It's not hard to feel numb, in my opinion it is sort of comfortable, but maybe that is the numbness talking. I am not numb by choice, it does get hard to never feel anything, especially towards my partner. It's so hard to lye with someone that you are sexually attracted to but...
    tiffanyxsparkles tiffanyxsparkles 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 4, 2012

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    He's Gone.

    one of my greatest friends just left ep. without saying a word. wow. i didnt think it would hurt this much. i miss him already.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 4, 2009

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    Tired Of Crying Tired Of Caring Tired Of People Telling Me You Are Good Looking Why Are You Single?

    The truth is whenever I let someone get close to me I always got hurt...now I have stopped hurting and I don't feel anything. I felt this way once before when I was 15 and tried to OD on tranquilizers. I don't feel anything for anyone and I feel like a flesh shell going...
    snowblindblue snowblindblue 31-35, F 3 Responses Nov 18, 2013

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    Zero.

    Im not sure if i am depressed. I mean, Im not sad. But im not exactly happy either. I can laugh , joke, and smile during the day, but sometimes when i am alone at night I forget how to feel....
    ProfessorPsycho ProfessorPsycho 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 7, 2013

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    Slow Death

    combine alcohol with depression that's a mix that is dangerous it does things to people that human beings should not be capable of doing .......it turns people into ruthless nasty , angry, non caring and dangerous , it takes every hing away from you kids ,work morals love and god...
    winchester51 winchester51 51-55, M Feb 1, 2011

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    Most Of The Time

    Most of the time I don't feel sad, happy, angry, worried, I feel numb. I hardly ever get angry anymore and when I do have an argument with someone and walk away still feeling numb. I pretend to get angry sometimes just so I come across as "normal" but I won't be feeling like...
    ForeverAutumn80 ForeverAutumn80 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 21, 2013

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    So lately I've just been empty.

    I am out of my comfort zone, out of my usual environment (i'm pretty ok with that though); I don't know anybody here and I've lost interest in meeting people. I don't feel exceptionally depressed or anything like that, I'm just emotionless. Quite unlike me actually. Now you...
    Hedonisticmisanthrope Hedonisticmisanthrope 26-30, F Dec 25, 2013

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    I want to feel help,

    paralysis please assist sometimes its good i don't feel for i know the hate that will rise won't help heal beware of this it does exist i warned u heed and hide for the demons will come outside
    HoTmOuThBaBe HoTmOuThBaBe 18-21, F Dec 15, 2013

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    Is There A Way To Fix This?

    the only things I seem to feel anymore are absolute pain and crushing numbness, it's getting so bad that I've started cutting myself where no one will be able to see, and half the time I don't even feel that anymore. If things don't start getting better I think I'm not going to...
    BloodBane BloodBane 22-25 Aug 13, 2012

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    Threading Water

    I numb myself from the world, from myself and from everyone around me. Not with drugs or alcohol, nothing really, I don't know how it's done, but it just happens. I have to be constantly kept in a numb state. Obviously this numb state cannot always be maintained, during times...
    Mediocre Mediocre 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 2, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    Okay everybody I'm going to give you guys my phone number so you won't have to message me for it! :) It's going to be hidden with the words so look VERY carefully. I hope you know...
    SammieSweetheart687 SammieSweetheart687 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    Throughout the Bible we see that God loves numbers! He’s an architect and engineer; He made the universe! He loves to show off, show His glory, make us marvel! - For over a year...
    jackyb jackyb 70+, M 6 days ago

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    The little red metal number dispenser. The digital display of numbers on the wall. "26?" HERE!
    jeresey jeresey 56-60, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    My number is two. I was engaged to the first one, and I married the second one. Hopefully that number will go up, though, because I am unfortunately ending my marriage.
    couldbeheaven couldbeheaven 26-30, F Apr 1

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    I have been seeing this number for about two years now. I see the number 33 on my watch, alarm clock, etc, I even awake in the middle of the night and awaken at exactly 33 on the...
    Voloagnosco Voloagnosco 36-40, M Apr 4

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    It is said that most people, when given the choice of the above number sequence, will always pick a certain number. To see if this is a true fact, I am asking anyone who would like...
    IM5688 IM5688 56-60, M 3 Responses Apr 10

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    If you really love a person you didn't fall in love with them because if there number but because the person they are in and out
    4801792915M 4801792915M 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 24

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    Pinch me, I'm dreaming. It's become a nightmare, a living hell. 3 months ago I was the happiest person I felt I could have possibly been. I had friends, I went to a better school...
    hopecatcher hopecatcher 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    Kay, so a while back my parents got divorced. It was sad but i got to so them both sense they lived in the same state. I was okay. I have decided to go to school in my dads city...
    bluegirl16 bluegirl16 13-15, F Mar 30

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    my depression seems to be getting worse, but thats okay. there isnt anything i can do anyway. nothing hurts anymore. im numb, emotionally and physically. but i dont get why all...
    untamedperrie untamedperrie 13-15, F Mar 30

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    I am relieved to see that there are so many others seeing 9:11. I too have had a couple of personal encounters with these numbers and was getting worried because they can both have...
    KarlieArrow5 KarlieArrow5 31-35 Apr 2

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    my hockey number <3
    LandonS LandonS 16-17, M Apr 4

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