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I Am Often Scared of What I Will Become

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 321 People

    Guilty As Charged

    I am guilty of fearing what I feel I could become if given a sufficient number of rejections, disappointments, betrayals and outright manipulations. I fear becoming everything I am not: a manipulator, an abuser, a calculating disappointment with a temper that could make Lucifer...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 10, 2009

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    Ive been becoming really sick lately.

    My mom think i might be allergic to gluten (Wheat) cuz when i eat that kind of food i what to puke and i have a really bad headache. I have been having this headache in to stop of my head for a very long time but it kept getting worst. My mom cant take me to the doctor cuz we...
    indigoangel3 indigoangel3 16-17, F 6 Responses Oct 9, 2014

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    No, Not At All, I Am In Contro...

    No, not at all, I am in control of my own destiny
    dawnmarie dawnmarie 18-21, F Feb 1, 2007

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    I Have Become...

    what i feared. I have become a failure.
    reset reset 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 26, 2010

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    But That's a Motivator....

    well, once again i mention here my 'rents. the way they treat my sister and i, and ppl around them - they aren't always the friendliest ppl. i get freaked out when i think about growing up to become them: often cold, unforgiving, holding too high expectations of ppl, etc, etc. i...
    BowsAndBones BowsAndBones 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2007

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    Withdrawls.

    This past week will be the last time I will ever forget to get refils before they run out. At least I sincerely hope so.I knew it was coming. Not how long it would last. Or how bad it would be. I was smart enough to get everything that could be hurt or scared AWAY from me when I...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 1 Response Jan 31, 2012

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    Fail

    I'm terrified that I will one day end up homeless and alone.  I can't seem to fend for myself and I'm not very strong.  I can't keep jobs and I'm becoming more withdrawn with each passing year.  I'm terrified that I will never have a family of my own.  Such...
    PollyPrissyPants PollyPrissyPants 26-30 5 Responses Mar 26, 2010

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    The Crazy Ol' Cat Lady

    I am scared of not achieving my goals, becoming who I want to be, I am already cynical of people so too late for that :/ Maybe become what my enemies expected of me the crazy old lady with hundreds of cats- or some drug addict on the corner. Life is full of ****, can't argue...
    LittleSunGirl LittleSunGirl 18-21 May 27, 2011

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    It Often Scares Me....

    to think that I will become like my parents. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents. But my dad isn't really a people person and he isn't really big on family get togethers. I on the other hand am a people person and I love my family so much and I want to continue to be like...
    xxBreakingTheSilencexx xxBreakingTheSilencexx 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2007

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    The Lonely One

     I am often scared that in the end this is what i will become someone that has noone, someone that the world left behind in the dark and never cared to come back, to check if i was still there, if i still existed. I dont want to become nothing. that from all the people i knew...
    Lencho3 Lencho3 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 30, 2011

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    Nothing Happens

    i try so hard at things and quite often things dont work out for me. I would hate to become nothing, i want to live achieve and succeed
    Donalh Donalh 22-25, M Sep 5, 2008

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    Stale Witch

    I wonder who I will be tomorrow, I hope it's not someone thats hated. I hope that I don't grow to be an old cranky, stale witch.
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F Jul 8, 2008

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    My mom was an addict.

    .. She most likely had a personality disorder as well. I am scared, because I see her in me. And... I see myself in the mirror... And I hate me. I carve scars into my skin as punishment for being horrible. But, I was born horrible. I feel like depression is knocking at...
    TubaAtheist TubaAtheist 18-21, F Feb 25, 2014

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    It's a Terrible Feeling

    Fear of the unknown can cast a dark shadow on those who are obsessed with it.  I know.  I'm one of those people. I get scared of the future.  I get scared of making mistakes multiple times.  I get scared of the possibility of being alone with no one there...
    debmichelle debmichelle 36-40 Aug 17, 2008

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    Hobo!

    my life has changed so much in the past year.. depression has gotten worse and my head just isnt thinking str8... im scared that ill become a high skool  drop out and have to find a low paying job and i wont be able to move out of my parents house.  my procrastination...
    applescruffs applescruffs 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    Well. It all started when I was in the tenth grade. Things begin to get better in high school and for the first time things were getting amazing. I met a boy and we begin to click...
    MarquiB MarquiB 18-21, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    When people first meet me I'm a quit person untill I get to know you .. Alot of people took that as I was stuck up.. it was hard to get boyfriends when I was younger cause they...
    lovelee83 lovelee83 26-30, F 6 hrs ago

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    christ i dont know what to do anymore.. I've just been talking to this guy from the internet for about 2 months and we've met up and gone on 2 dates so far.. we're trying to take...
    cupcakes1995 cupcakes1995 18-21, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    Finding the balance of myself and the other person, that line can become blurry when one loses oneself in the other person. Initially in the first stages where every moment your...
    helmsdeep helmsdeep 31-35, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    When I first started applying to colleges, no one would accept me. Apparently my grades were "abysmal" and proved that I was "a lazy student." So I moved on, started my Youtube...
    anonyme23 anonyme23 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Right now I'm a slave to finance, family and location. But soon, I'm gonna corner my market and creatively bombard the **** out of it!
    OJhickley21 OJhickley21 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    Woooahh there when you get accepted to 3 universities in one week, ah they keep rolling in. Best week everrr :)
    Cleopatra05 Cleopatra05 18-21, F 10 Responses 2 days ago

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    I mean I would love to be in a relationship. I want to know what it's like to be in a relationship. But for as long as I can remember, I was one to never be able to keep a long...
    MrIppikodoku MrIppikodoku 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    ... This is a planet of just paybacks. Take. Give. Leave. Maybe there is another world where one is free of one's actions... Where there is no consequence of one's acts because...
    kasiyat kasiyat 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I guess I am not ready for one. I don't know how to get to a place where I will be ready for one. This really sweet and attractive and lovely guy clearly wants to get to know me...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I am 23 years old, and I recently moved downtown into a sublet until April. Up until last week, I lived at home with my family. My family lives outside the city and moved there 5...
    blackdove3746 blackdove3746 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    It's all I ever want in life. I want people to love my music and maybe that will help me feel loved.
    lymerence lymerence 16-17, M 5 days ago

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    Do you ever find yourself wondering how much you exists in other people's lives ? I am curious if people think of me when a certain song comes on, or when they pass through a...
    ExquisiteMind ExquisiteMind 70+, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    It all started quite early, I don't remember when. He wanted to "teach" me how to do stuff, like chopping wood, splitting it into manageable chunks and the like. I thought he was...
    FluttersJay FluttersJay 18-21, T 5 days ago

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    Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow. Just give me a few months :) I promise you will be hearing my name. 😊😌 I REFUSE to NOT be great
    MickxLove MickxLove 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    Working on it right now.
    savoy2 savoy2 46-50, M 6 days ago

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    I'm often outspoken, say what I feel but say it when I'm not in the best state of mind. for example when I'm angry I'll drag up every feeling I've compressed in my head and an...
    samanthaannemccann samanthaannemccann 16-17, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    It's my birthday! And I'm already great!
    savoy2 savoy2 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 30

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    I'm really scared of relationships, but I'm desperate for one. Just to feel that love and have someone to focus on. I hope one day it can happen, if I were religious I'd pray for...
    AlphaGoat AlphaGoat 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 29

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    At one moment everything is crystal clear in front of me. I know what to do , and I realise this is where I belong and all I have everything planned in front of me.But then the...
    charley00 charley00 16-17, F Jan 29

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    I?m looking for a man who can be caring and romantic with a sense of adventure to start out as friends with and see where it takes us. A man who faer GOD and. Am man who knows what...
    sherristory2015 sherristory2015 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    I don't know what to do or say anymore. I awoke this morning with the skin hanging off my toes, just a little, with this deep laceration. It does not look deep, as it was side...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F Jan 27

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    1. What is your favorite color? Green 2. Have you ever missed anyone? Umm, yeah one I guess 3. What is your favorite animal? The wolf 4. Do you always eat breakfast foods? Well...
    SonofPaddy121 SonofPaddy121 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 26

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    But first I'm going to enjoy this GREAT bowl of pasta. A guy's gotta eat.
    savoy2 savoy2 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 26

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    I always say that to myself but now I'm 19 yo I didn't went to college cause it's complicated in this country I'm foreign and that's what make it hard:(. I hope I can be able to go...
    jjajaaa jjajaaa 18-21, F Jan 26

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    Right now I'm going to eat breakfast. I'll decide on what great thing I'm going to become after that.
    savoy2 savoy2 46-50, M Jan 25

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    Hello there people. I just need a place to vent for a bit. Lets start. I have this best girl friend whom i used to flirt with since i was in fifth grade. Now we're already in our...
    Nilanno19 Nilanno19 18-21, F Jan 25