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I Am Often Scared of What I Will Become

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 321 People

    It's a Terrible Feeling

    Fear of the unknown can cast a dark shadow on those who are obsessed with it.  I know.  I'm one of those people. I get scared of the future.  I get scared of making mistakes multiple times.  I get scared of the possibility of being alone with no one there...
    debmichelle debmichelle 36-40 1 Response Aug 17, 2008

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    My mom was an addict.

    .. She most likely had a personality disorder as well. I am scared, because I see her in me. And... I see myself in the mirror... And I hate me. I carve scars into my skin as punishment for being horrible. But, I was born horrible. I feel like depression is knocking at...
    TubaAtheist TubaAtheist 18-21, F Feb 25, 2014

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    Guilty As Charged

    I am guilty of fearing what I feel I could become if given a sufficient number of rejections, disappointments, betrayals and outright manipulations. I fear becoming everything I am not: a manipulator, an abuser, a calculating disappointment with a temper that could make Lucifer...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 10, 2009

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    Fail

    I'm terrified that I will one day end up homeless and alone.  I can't seem to fend for myself and I'm not very strong.  I can't keep jobs and I'm becoming more withdrawn with each passing year.  I'm terrified that I will never have a family of my own.  Such...
    PollyPrissyPants PollyPrissyPants 26-30 5 Responses Mar 26, 2010

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    Scared

    I'm scared I'll end up so bitter about life just like my mum. I know she had  lot of bad things go on but she took it out on us kids, I hope if I ever have any that I wouldn't do that. She's the main reason I don't want children, I always feel that I'll never be a good...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 31, 2008

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    The Crazy Ol' Cat Lady

    I am scared of not achieving my goals, becoming who I want to be, I am already cynical of people so too late for that :/ Maybe become what my enemies expected of me the crazy old lady with hundreds of cats- or some drug addict on the corner. Life is full of ****, can't argue...
    LittleSunGirl LittleSunGirl 18-21 May 27, 2011

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    Ive been becoming really sick lately.

    My mom think i might be allergic to gluten (Wheat) cuz when i eat that kind of food i what to puke and i have a really bad headache. I have been having this headache in to stop of my head for a very long time but it kept getting worst. My mom cant take me to the doctor cuz we...
    indigoangel3 indigoangel3 13-15, F 6 Responses Oct 9, 2014

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    Hobo!

    my life has changed so much in the past year.. depression has gotten worse and my head just isnt thinking str8... im scared that ill become a high skool  drop out and have to find a low paying job and i wont be able to move out of my parents house.  my procrastination...
    applescruffs applescruffs 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2008

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    Stale Witch

    I wonder who I will be tomorrow, I hope it's not someone thats hated. I hope that I don't grow to be an old cranky, stale witch.
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F Jul 8, 2008

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    But That's a Motivator....

    well, once again i mention here my 'rents. the way they treat my sister and i, and ppl around them - they aren't always the friendliest ppl. i get freaked out when i think about growing up to become them: often cold, unforgiving, holding too high expectations of ppl, etc, etc. i...
    BowsAndBones BowsAndBones 16-18, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2007

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    I Have Become...

    what i feared. I have become a failure.
    reset reset 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 26, 2010

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    It Often Scares Me....

    to think that I will become like my parents. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents. But my dad isn't really a people person and he isn't really big on family get togethers. I on the other hand am a people person and I love my family so much and I want to continue to be like...
    xxBreakingTheSilencexx xxBreakingTheSilencexx 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2007

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    Withdrawls.

    This past week will be the last time I will ever forget to get refils before they run out. At least I sincerely hope so.I knew it was coming. Not how long it would last. Or how bad it would be. I was smart enough to get everything that could be hurt or scared AWAY from me when I...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 1 Response Jan 31, 2012

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    No, Not At All, I Am In Contro...

    No, not at all, I am in control of my own destiny
    dawnmarie dawnmarie 21-25, F Feb 1, 2007

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    Nothing Happens

    i try so hard at things and quite often things dont work out for me. I would hate to become nothing, i want to live achieve and succeed
    Donalh Donalh 22-25, M Sep 5, 2008

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    The Lonely One

     I am often scared that in the end this is what i will become someone that has noone, someone that the world left behind in the dark and never cared to come back, to check if i was still there, if i still existed. I dont want to become nothing. that from all the people i knew...
    Lencho3 Lencho3 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 30, 2011

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    As older I get I learn to see the beauty and the special in the people I meet! Since I was a little girl my dad have alway made me feel special and different from the others! And...
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    Every year something happens, We're betrayed, we're challenged emotionally and we're slapped around. We become apart Of another year of goals, accomplishments and unachievements...
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    yes I will. ......a memory........somerhing that willl be remembered......maybe an angel.....hardly.....but I wil become part of the eternal energy.........tonight.........15 feb...
    huckleberrybunches huckleberrybunches 36-40, M 3 Responses Feb 15

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    When I was four years old, family members would ask,"Samantha, what do you want to be when you grow up?" I told them, "I'm moving to Hollywood to be an actress." Allow me to remind...
    butterflyxhope butterflyxhope 22-25, F 9 Responses 2 days ago

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    Most people that I know aren't ambitious at all... I know one girl who wants to be a receptionist at her dad's office! When I leave school my goal is to go to the Royal...
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    I want to become a world famous artist!!! And for right now, I want this fellowship at Penn State. My ambitions are huge, but I want them regardless.
    shantel25 shantel25 31-35, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Another day, started all over the same why as yeaturday. Did someone hit the reset button? I can't even understand how to achieve my greatness and grow in this crazy world, and...
    undefinable1295 undefinable1295 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I will because God already set the future. I need to align myself to it though, and I need to work hard and be wise with my decisions.
    KIDiz24 KIDiz24 22-25, F Feb 8

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    What is a mind without its simplicity, What is a soul without its complexity, What is passion without its intensity, What is a heart without its sincerity, And what are hands...
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    "Didn't we almost have it all?" This song was playing as I typed this post. And this got me thinking about the what ifs, the what could've beens, parallel timelines or whatever...
    thecasualdilettante thecasualdilettante 22-25, F Feb 9

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    I wonder what if I gotten in the big awesome resource rich school With good looking people with better attitudes A school where I can't really be known by almost all grade level...
    amongstleshadows amongstleshadows 16-17, M Feb 11

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    About 15 years ago I was attending a dear friend's bachelorette party in New Orleans. We were at a club on Bourbon Street. Dancing to the music of an amazing DJ, who was also a...
    Joyfullness Joyfullness 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    So today was really fun but know i need people to talk to 😀😀😀😀
    shelby2001 shelby2001 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 7

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    We're all destined to be something, someone, great. We just have to find the path we we're meant to travel.
    ThatGuyDalton ThatGuyDalton 13-15, M Feb 13

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    My Dad has loved eating figs since he was a kid. He cant eat them anymore since he was diagnosed with diabetes. He still grows them in the garden and makes people eat them just so...
    ruscared85 ruscared85 26-30, M Feb 21

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    people are always in rush with time, wishing time would go faster, not realising that would with time comes, WAIT FOR It... AGE!!!!!!!! Next time you wanna think twice. Enjoy your...
    backerR backerR 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 22

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    When she sleeps she makes little "peeps" and she rolls around, she's so cute :3
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    There are a number of principal events in a human being’s life, one of them is marriage which is a sacred divine ritual of man and woman complementing each other while the woman...
    harmony226 harmony226 26-30, M Feb 16

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    Wonder how long it would take people to notice if I just disappeared
    bleedingouttheeyes bleedingouttheeyes 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 17

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    Patronising people in the name of kindness when the truth is an empty bond is the greatest evil
    FaitAccomp1i FaitAccomp1i 70+, M 3 days ago

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    I have Depersonalization disorder for almost a year now.It never stops I dont feel anything, my thoughts are racing In my had and I am lost all the time.It started when I was in a...
    Dusan1234 Dusan1234 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 8

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    Abusers are toxic. Abuse happens in many different forms. Emotional manipulation is one of the most destructive ways a person can be abusive towards you. It's hard to recognize...
    sartur sartur 36-40, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    I need help on how to tell my dad my bf is in high school because im scared he will make me break up with him but I really love him and like him
    relapsing14 relapsing14 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 8

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    1) I’m a twin… I have a fraternal twin brother 2) I’m a girly girl 3) I am outgoing 4) I love sushi 5) I hate driving in the snow, even an inch 6) I wear lip gloss 24/7 7) I...
    ifoundhim ifoundhim 36-40, F 2 Responses Feb 15

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    Unlike the first world nations the third world nations hav e a different story when finding love and getting married to the person of your life. Its not the once you are 18 you...
    FightingTillTheEnd FightingTillTheEnd 31-35, M Feb 17

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    who are you? I am no one, what are you? I am nothing. what will you be? I will be as naught. can you see? obviously i am blind. do you feel? no, I dont even "feel" nothing. where...
    deleriously deleriously 41-45, M Feb 14

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