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I Am Often Scared of What I Will Become

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    Stale Witch

    I wonder who I will be tomorrow, I hope it's not someone thats hated. I hope that I don't grow to be an old cranky, stale witch.
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F Jul 8, 2008

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    Hobo!

    my life has changed so much in the past year.. depression has gotten worse and my head just isnt thinking str8... im scared that ill become a high skool  drop out and have to find a low paying job and i wont be able to move out of my parents house.  my procrastination...
    applescruffs applescruffs 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2008

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    Im Trying To Avoid

    Becoming an ******* like the people I went to school with and the way my parents once were in my life. I wont let it happen I wont be like them EVER!
    MysteriousShadow MysteriousShadow 18-21, F Oct 31, 2013

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    Withdrawls.

    This past week will be the last time I will ever forget to get refils before they run out. At least I sincerely hope so.I knew it was coming. Not how long it would last. Or how bad it would be. I was smart enough to get everything that could be hurt or scared AWAY from me when I...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 1 Response Jan 31, 2012

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    It's a Terrible Feeling

    Fear of the unknown can cast a dark shadow on those who are obsessed with it.  I know.  I'm one of those people. I get scared of the future.  I get scared of making mistakes multiple times.  I get scared of the possibility of being alone with no one there...
    debmichelle debmichelle 36-40 1 Response Aug 17, 2008

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    It Often Scares Me....

    to think that I will become like my parents. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents. But my dad isn't really a people person and he isn't really big on family get togethers. I on the other hand am a people person and I love my family so much and I want to continue to be like...
    xxBreakingTheSilencexx xxBreakingTheSilencexx 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2007

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    Scared

    I'm scared I'll end up so bitter about life just like my mum. I know she had  lot of bad things go on but she took it out on us kids, I hope if I ever have any that I wouldn't do that. She's the main reason I don't want children, I always feel that I'll never be a good...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 31, 2008

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    Guilty As Charged

    I am guilty of fearing what I feel I could become if given a sufficient number of rejections, disappointments, betrayals and outright manipulations. I fear becoming everything I am not: a manipulator, an abuser, a calculating disappointment with a temper that could make Lucifer...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 10, 2009

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    I Have Become...

    what i feared. I have become a failure.
    reset reset 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 26, 2010

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    But That's a Motivator....

    well, once again i mention here my 'rents. the way they treat my sister and i, and ppl around them - they aren't always the friendliest ppl. i get freaked out when i think about growing up to become them: often cold, unforgiving, holding too high expectations of ppl, etc, etc. i...
    BowsAndBones BowsAndBones 16-18, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2007

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    No, Not At All, I Am In Contro...

    No, not at all, I am in control of my own destiny
    dawnmarie dawnmarie 21-25, F Feb 1, 2007

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    Nothing Happens

    i try so hard at things and quite often things dont work out for me. I would hate to become nothing, i want to live achieve and succeed
    Donalh Donalh 22-25, M Sep 5, 2008

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    Fail

    I'm terrified that I will one day end up homeless and alone.  I can't seem to fend for myself and I'm not very strong.  I can't keep jobs and I'm becoming more withdrawn with each passing year.  I'm terrified that I will never have a family of my own.  Such...
    PollyPrissyPants PollyPrissyPants 26-30 5 Responses Mar 26, 2010

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    The Lonely One

     I am often scared that in the end this is what i will become someone that has noone, someone that the world left behind in the dark and never cared to come back, to check if i was still there, if i still existed. I dont want to become nothing. that from all the people i knew...
    Lencho3 Lencho3 18-21, M 3 Responses Nov 30, 2011

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    My mom was an addict.

    .. She most likely had a personality disorder as well. I am scared, because I see her in me. And... I see myself in the mirror... And I hate me. I carve scars into my skin as punishment for being horrible. But, I was born horrible. I feel like depression is knocking at...
    TubaAtheist TubaAtheist 18-21, F Feb 25

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    I often wonder what would happen if i ran, if i left this place would anyone care enough to find me, would my life become a book of them trying to reunite with me. Would they leave...
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    I often ponder "what if" what if I don't make my dreams reality, what if I die poor, what if I never lose weight, what if I don't graduate, what if.. What if. **** "WHAT IF?" I...
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    I often wonder what if......and i think later why not? You must think before action not always,you must act before you think not always. Many times i want leave my mind behind and...
    blackweirdcat blackweirdcat 46-50, F 2 Responses Apr 1

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    I have been with a boyfreind for seven mouths, he says he loves me and i believe him. i love him too. he tells me how much he loves me, and what will happen later on if we stay...
    SadAliceSaid13 SadAliceSaid13 13-15, F Apr 13

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    I wonder if you miss me. I wonder if you ever think of me. I wonder if I will ever hear from you again. I wonder if I am right. I wonder if I am wrong. I wonder if you are happy...
    MsRack MsRack 36-40 1 Response 3 days ago

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    What if money didn't exist? Would everyone finally be equal? Would the world be a more peaceful place? Would there be less criminals? Would people study and get jobs in subjects...
    xmer831x xmer831x 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    It is said that dogs are angels fallen from the sky, while cats do not live in our world.They just visit us.These are Gods!
    Kaddath Kaddath 41-45, M 15 mins ago

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    ...everyone was telepathic. Would people be nicer to each other?
    BlueCedarTree BlueCedarTree 46-50 1 Response Apr 13

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    Bow down and start to sing His praises for all the world to hear.
    Ranchsavvy16 Ranchsavvy16 16-17, F Mar 23

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    I always have a light on. I cannot go to sleep with out one on. I am scared of what can hide in the dark since i know what i can hide in the dark side of me. I am terrified of...
    0neUp 0neUp 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    Seriously. I'm not scared for myself, but for our earth. Our world is overpopulated and resources will become extinct. I've grown up on a farm, with a closeness to nature only few...
    anni17music anni17music 16-17, F Apr 6

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    I was doing some internet research for a friend of mine. An anonymous call has been placed to the DCS regarding her ability to raise her children. I read for several hours and what...
    pafforda pafforda 31-35, F 4 Responses Apr 1

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    Why do we hold on even though we know in our hearts the bitter truth? Why do we cling to a fake image that we have created in our minds even though we know the person we love is...
    shurei shurei 41-45, F Apr 3

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    I Wonder!!! I wonder what will happen when the day returns to night! I wonder what will happen as one year follows the next! I wonder what will happen when my kids grow up and...
    Sandyshaw13 Sandyshaw13 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    I don't know if I should post this here.I often come across people who are very outspoken.Saying often what we mean may hurt others.On the other hand,we can understand better what...
    mona87 mona87 46-50, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hey! I'm new here at EP and I really need someone to talk to, good advice, experiences and such.. I don't know what to do! My boyfriend did do drugs and tried to take his own life...
    lilcarey lilcarey 22-25, F 6 Responses Mar 27

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    I just turned 18, I know I'm still young, but I'm scared nobody will ever truly love me. I've only had one serious bf and he ended up hurting me.
    1brokenemo 1brokenemo 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    I don't know what to do anymore. I feel really confused on what will happen to me later in life. I'm doing bad in school I try my hardest to do good but I just can't. Nothing...
    Gesly Gesly 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    I just want to break down and cry loud and sob, I don't think it will become alright, I'm stuck, I feel like I can't breath. Why can't she understand how much she hurt me? Why do I...
    sthelse sthelse 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    We'll I'm on the track team at my school,and at our first track meet I met a boy named koby😍. My bestfriend Jordan introduced us. Ever since then we have been talking and I like...
    rainee12 rainee12 13-15 Apr 6

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    Idk if I can do this but I'll try! 1• What you look for in a boyfriend? - At least 175cm (5"9) tall, humor and doesn't lie to me. 2• Are you childish? - I don't think I am...
    Planetweird Planetweird 16-17, F Mar 29

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    Or do I? I think i have pretty good idea what i must do in future, to fulfill my duty to family. And i have very firm view on what i want to happen. But i do not know what will...
    yulico yulico 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    After losing such a close friend it has become more evident that the stigma that comes with someone being mentally ill needs to be removed. Depression, anxiety, panic attacks etc...
    kiara95 kiara95 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    it's weird when the world keeps turning to oneside then decide to turn the other way and you don't know whether this new turn will keep revolving or just stop completely
    AfshaFH AfshaFH 18-21, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    I am scared but now I think I am...
    CharleighBrazil CharleighBrazil 16-17, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Throughout my teens and early 20's i considered myself to be a moderately social person, i worked and was able to hold a job, i partied even though im a really bed dancer, i...
    Dale1987 Dale1987 26-30, M Apr 9

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    My girlfriend and I have been exclusive for six months now. Not saying that we have a particular problem, but things just feel weird. When we started dating she was pretty clingy...
    skatesa207 skatesa207 26-30, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Always when I do something it will eventually always end the same with me feeling worse then at the beginning. It doesn't matter what I do or how much fun it is I will always...
    RedUnderground RedUnderground 16-17, M 4 Responses Apr 13

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    Once raised to be a good christian, and after being in this lifestyle for 20+ years of my life, I walked away. Some friends were lost, while others loosely linger. I felt it...
    brainbroodling brainbroodling 26-30, M 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    Just for fun I again used both my real name and my username Wraithorn. Again I received rather similar results. The first is for Wraithorn, although i must say that i do not...
    wraithorn wraithorn 41-45, M Mar 26

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    I'm a 16 year old girl. My whole life I have been trying to make my parents proud, but I've never been able to socialize properly with kids my age, I was always numb or upset...
    AGirlSearchingForAnswers AGirlSearchingForAnswers 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 10

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    I literally just HATE the person I've turned into. I know that I'm young and all, anyways, here's my story. Since the third grade, I've always been at the top of my class. I've...
    mintlover mintlover 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    I don't think I'm scared of death. I was there when my Grandpa was in his deathbed. I watched his hard working body of 90+ years grow tired and go to rest. I was there as he took...
    Philli8807 Philli8807 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    I am 18 now, going to graduate some sort of vocational school in a few months. I will be allowed to study at universities of applied sciences but not at general universities (oh...
    zyakkui zyakkui 18-21, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Michael Snyder Economic Collapse April 7, 2014 The level of employment in the United States has been declining since the year 2000. There have been moments when things have...
    Brooke01 Brooke01 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 7

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    I am finally living for myself. No longer scared of what others might think of me. It's the only way you can really get through your life the fullest. As I've gotten older I have...
    SylenaEverlasting SylenaEverlasting 13-15, F Apr 7

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