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I Am Often Scared of What I Will Become

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 316 People

    No, Not At All, I Am In Contro...

    No, not at all, I am in control of my own destiny
    dawnmarie dawnmarie 18-21, F Feb 1, 2007

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    The Lonely One

     I am often scared that in the end this is what i will become someone that has noone, someone that the world left behind in the dark and never cared to come back, to check if i was still there, if i still existed. I dont want to become nothing. that from all the people i knew...
    Lencho3 Lencho3 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 30, 2011

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    Guilty As Charged

    I am guilty of fearing what I feel I could become if given a sufficient number of rejections, disappointments, betrayals and outright manipulations. I fear becoming everything I am not: a manipulator, an abuser, a calculating disappointment with a temper that could make Lucifer...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 10, 2009

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    Withdrawls.

    This past week will be the last time I will ever forget to get refils before they run out. At least I sincerely hope so.I knew it was coming. Not how long it would last. Or how bad it would be. I was smart enough to get everything that could be hurt or scared AWAY from me when I...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 1 Response Jan 31, 2012

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    Stale Witch

    I wonder who I will be tomorrow, I hope it's not someone thats hated. I hope that I don't grow to be an old cranky, stale witch.
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F Jul 8, 2008

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    Ive been becoming really sick lately.

    My mom think i might be allergic to gluten (Wheat) cuz when i eat that kind of food i what to puke and i have a really bad headache. I have been having this headache in to stop of my head for a very long time but it kept getting worst. My mom cant take me to the doctor cuz we...
    indigoangel3 indigoangel3 13-15, F 6 Responses Oct 9, 2014

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    Hobo!

    my life has changed so much in the past year.. depression has gotten worse and my head just isnt thinking str8... im scared that ill become a high skool  drop out and have to find a low paying job and i wont be able to move out of my parents house.  my procrastination...
    applescruffs applescruffs 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2008

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    Nothing Happens

    i try so hard at things and quite often things dont work out for me. I would hate to become nothing, i want to live achieve and succeed
    Donalh Donalh 22-25, M Sep 5, 2008

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    Fail

    I'm terrified that I will one day end up homeless and alone.  I can't seem to fend for myself and I'm not very strong.  I can't keep jobs and I'm becoming more withdrawn with each passing year.  I'm terrified that I will never have a family of my own.  Such...
    PollyPrissyPants PollyPrissyPants 26-30 5 Responses Mar 26, 2010

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    I Have Become...

    what i feared. I have become a failure.
    reset reset 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 26, 2010

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    But That's a Motivator....

    well, once again i mention here my 'rents. the way they treat my sister and i, and ppl around them - they aren't always the friendliest ppl. i get freaked out when i think about growing up to become them: often cold, unforgiving, holding too high expectations of ppl, etc, etc. i...
    BowsAndBones BowsAndBones 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2007

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    It Often Scares Me....

    to think that I will become like my parents. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents. But my dad isn't really a people person and he isn't really big on family get togethers. I on the other hand am a people person and I love my family so much and I want to continue to be like...
    xxBreakingTheSilencexx xxBreakingTheSilencexx 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2007

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    The Crazy Ol' Cat Lady

    I am scared of not achieving my goals, becoming who I want to be, I am already cynical of people so too late for that :/ Maybe become what my enemies expected of me the crazy old lady with hundreds of cats- or some drug addict on the corner. Life is full of ****, can't argue...
    LittleSunGirl LittleSunGirl 18-21 May 27, 2011

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    It's a Terrible Feeling

    Fear of the unknown can cast a dark shadow on those who are obsessed with it.  I know.  I'm one of those people. I get scared of the future.  I get scared of making mistakes multiple times.  I get scared of the possibility of being alone with no one there...
    debmichelle debmichelle 36-40 1 Response Aug 17, 2008

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    My mom was an addict.

    .. She most likely had a personality disorder as well. I am scared, because I see her in me. And... I see myself in the mirror... And I hate me. I carve scars into my skin as punishment for being horrible. But, I was born horrible. I feel like depression is knocking at...
    TubaAtheist TubaAtheist 18-21, F Feb 25, 2014

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    Scared

    I'm scared I'll end up so bitter about life just like my mum. I know she had  lot of bad things go on but she took it out on us kids, I hope if I ever have any that I wouldn't do that. She's the main reason I don't want children, I always feel that I'll never be a good...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 31, 2008

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    I wonder a lot of things. Like if I was born into a different family would I be the same person i now? If I had chosen a different road where would I be? I think to much :p But...
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    I might not be something all that big now. But one day I will strive to do my best in whatever I put my heart to.
    DLaPratt DLaPratt 13-15, M 2 Responses Apr 7

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    I'm not over confident I just believe that in order to achieve greatness you must believe in yourself- competition to do well is tough but I want everyone to remember that...
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    Often I wonder how many couples I ruined out of pure mean spiteful and jealousy. In the end they are at each other's throat, while I sit here and laugh. I know, I'm mean.
    DeeplyLoves DeeplyLoves 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    By the time you read this, I will be gone. I will be lost to the Halls of History and time may one day forget me, but I leave this to you all and I hope you read carefully and don...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 19

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    What if I put a prank on my friends, me and my friends will go to the mall and I'll tell them i'll treat them and they just sit in the table and i'll order the food, and while they...
    shrid shrid 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 23

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    If he hadn't chose to listen to his stupid sisters lies. . . would we still be friends? If I hadn't cared what others thought would we still be as close as we were before? If I...
    TokioDoll TokioDoll 16-17, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    People say that they regret their mistakes, but why regret something that taught you a lesson? I like to believe that, though I've made stupid decisions, I do not regret what has...
    marleynarley marleynarley 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 18

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    what if a time traveler killed his mother so he did not exist but if he does not exist he never killed his mom? wait what the what!
    xlderp xlderp 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 22

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    Not in a doomy gloomy way, I just wonder what's the point in it all. I worked before I left school delivering milk then worked in a hardware shop, then left school at sixteen and...
    dustydaisy dustydaisy 51-55, F 2 Responses Apr 26

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    What if Romeo and Juliet were ghetto .
    xxtina15 xxtina15 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    what if... hate lonely nights.
    lostandforgotten75 lostandforgotten75 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    Growing up sheltered is not a good thing. I wonder if I did not believe in second chances- or giving others second chances. Not falling in love with a closeted addict. Now I know...
    complex7 complex7 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 22

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    What if I could go back in my past and change that time I screwed my cousin's wife?
    hamtex hamtex 36-40, M 3 Responses Apr 24

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    I felt it since I was little. I have so much to offer. I know I am.
    piperweant piperweant 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 8

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    "I can't do that....yet" add one word "yet" to every I can't ... It's being process oriented praise: "Wow you really put your all into that ! You really tried hard I praise your...
    MrHeartaFire MrHeartaFire 41-45, M 1 Response Apr 27

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    And occasionally I think it may be to serve as a warning to others
    Abilohman Abilohman 26-30 Apr 9

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    literally I have no idea I feel like life is over for me
    harleymufin harleymufin 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 11

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    heck was having fun typing a typical convo from absolute strangers... disappeared.. weird how some people want to know ALL about you without even making the effort of KNOWING...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 days ago

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    I'm scared of who I'm becoming :/ there is literally 2 distinct different sides to me... 1) is a wreckless, careless girl, who doesn't value much at all, doesn't want much for her...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 21

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    I will be turning 23 this month and I've still never been in a relationship. I'm so lonely. I live by myself in a very remote area and I don't have enough money to move, I've lived...
    batjokes batjokes 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    I have been having a lot of family issues and they are getting worse. I came home from a week away to not being welcome in anyway. My mother still cooked me dinner but because of...
    SecretAbby SecretAbby 18-21, F Apr 16

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    I am scared to meet someone new that almost takes my breath away, that makes me pause, think longer, and take a breath before I proceed. I am afraid to meet this "perfect" being...
    74Kitty 74Kitty 22-25, F Apr 13

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    It's those strange feelings that constantly run through my head. Suicide.... I have imagined and played out 101 different scenarios. I am not depressed, I don't have a mental...
    Silthill Silthill 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 9

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    Being in a tough situation is not easy especially if that situation is still existing. Each one of us has our own ordeals, ghosts from the past and our down moments that sometimes...
    ShadesofWhite67 ShadesofWhite67 26-30, F Apr 14

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