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I Am Often Scared of What I Will Become

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 319 People

    Ive been becoming really sick lately.

    My mom think i might be allergic to gluten (Wheat) cuz when i eat that kind of food i what to puke and i have a really bad headache. I have been having this headache in to stop of my head for a very long time but it kept getting worst. My mom cant take me to the doctor cuz we...
    indigoangel3 indigoangel3 13-15, F 6 Responses Oct 9, 2014

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    Guilty As Charged

    I am guilty of fearing what I feel I could become if given a sufficient number of rejections, disappointments, betrayals and outright manipulations. I fear becoming everything I am not: a manipulator, an abuser, a calculating disappointment with a temper that could make Lucifer...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 10, 2009

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    The Crazy Ol' Cat Lady

    I am scared of not achieving my goals, becoming who I want to be, I am already cynical of people so too late for that :/ Maybe become what my enemies expected of me the crazy old lady with hundreds of cats- or some drug addict on the corner. Life is full of ****, can't argue...
    LittleSunGirl LittleSunGirl 18-21 May 27, 2011

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    It Often Scares Me....

    to think that I will become like my parents. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents. But my dad isn't really a people person and he isn't really big on family get togethers. I on the other hand am a people person and I love my family so much and I want to continue to be like...
    xxBreakingTheSilencexx xxBreakingTheSilencexx 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2007

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    The Lonely One

     I am often scared that in the end this is what i will become someone that has noone, someone that the world left behind in the dark and never cared to come back, to check if i was still there, if i still existed. I dont want to become nothing. that from all the people i knew...
    Lencho3 Lencho3 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 30, 2011

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    Scared

    I'm scared I'll end up so bitter about life just like my mum. I know she had  lot of bad things go on but she took it out on us kids, I hope if I ever have any that I wouldn't do that. She's the main reason I don't want children, I always feel that I'll never be a good...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 31, 2008

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    My mom was an addict.

    .. She most likely had a personality disorder as well. I am scared, because I see her in me. And... I see myself in the mirror... And I hate me. I carve scars into my skin as punishment for being horrible. But, I was born horrible. I feel like depression is knocking at...
    TubaAtheist TubaAtheist 18-21, F Feb 25, 2014

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    I Have Become...

    what i feared. I have become a failure.
    reset reset 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 26, 2010

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    Nothing Happens

    i try so hard at things and quite often things dont work out for me. I would hate to become nothing, i want to live achieve and succeed
    Donalh Donalh 22-25, M Sep 5, 2008

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    No, Not At All, I Am In Contro...

    No, not at all, I am in control of my own destiny
    dawnmarie dawnmarie 18-21, F Feb 1, 2007

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    Hobo!

    my life has changed so much in the past year.. depression has gotten worse and my head just isnt thinking str8... im scared that ill become a high skool  drop out and have to find a low paying job and i wont be able to move out of my parents house.  my procrastination...
    applescruffs applescruffs 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2008

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    But That's a Motivator....

    well, once again i mention here my 'rents. the way they treat my sister and i, and ppl around them - they aren't always the friendliest ppl. i get freaked out when i think about growing up to become them: often cold, unforgiving, holding too high expectations of ppl, etc, etc. i...
    BowsAndBones BowsAndBones 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2007

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    Fail

    I'm terrified that I will one day end up homeless and alone.  I can't seem to fend for myself and I'm not very strong.  I can't keep jobs and I'm becoming more withdrawn with each passing year.  I'm terrified that I will never have a family of my own.  Such...
    PollyPrissyPants PollyPrissyPants 26-30 5 Responses Mar 26, 2010

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    It's a Terrible Feeling

    Fear of the unknown can cast a dark shadow on those who are obsessed with it.  I know.  I'm one of those people. I get scared of the future.  I get scared of making mistakes multiple times.  I get scared of the possibility of being alone with no one there...
    debmichelle debmichelle 36-40 1 Response Aug 17, 2008

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    Withdrawls.

    This past week will be the last time I will ever forget to get refils before they run out. At least I sincerely hope so.I knew it was coming. Not how long it would last. Or how bad it would be. I was smart enough to get everything that could be hurt or scared AWAY from me when I...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 1 Response Jan 31, 2012

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    Stale Witch

    I wonder who I will be tomorrow, I hope it's not someone thats hated. I hope that I don't grow to be an old cranky, stale witch.
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F Jul 8, 2008

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