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I Am Often Scared of What I Will Become

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    Withdrawls.

    This past week will be the last time I will ever forget to get refils before they run out. At least I sincerely hope so.I knew it was coming. Not how long it would last. Or how bad it would be. I was smart enough to get everything that could be hurt or scared AWAY from me when I...
    luckypickle luckypickle 26-30 1 Response Jan 31, 2012

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    It's a Terrible Feeling

    Fear of the unknown can cast a dark shadow on those who are obsessed with it.  I know.  I'm one of those people. I get scared of the future.  I get scared of making mistakes multiple times.  I get scared of the possibility of being alone with no one there...
    debmichelle debmichelle 36-40 1 Response Aug 17, 2008

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    I Have Become...

    what i feared. I have become a failure.
    reset reset 18-21, F 6 Responses Oct 26, 2010

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    Nothing Happens

    i try so hard at things and quite often things dont work out for me. I would hate to become nothing, i want to live achieve and succeed
    Donalh Donalh 22-25, M Sep 5, 2008

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    The Crazy Ol' Cat Lady

    I am scared of not achieving my goals, becoming who I want to be, I am already cynical of people so too late for that :/ Maybe become what my enemies expected of me the crazy old lady with hundreds of cats- or some drug addict on the corner. Life is full of ****, can't argue...
    LittleSunGirl LittleSunGirl 18-21 May 27, 2011

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    Scared

    I'm scared I'll end up so bitter about life just like my mum. I know she had  lot of bad things go on but she took it out on us kids, I hope if I ever have any that I wouldn't do that. She's the main reason I don't want children, I always feel that I'll never be a good...
    AWUK AWUK 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 31, 2008

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    No, Not At All, I Am In Contro...

    No, not at all, I am in control of my own destiny
    dawnmarie dawnmarie 21-25, F Feb 1, 2007

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    Stale Witch

    I wonder who I will be tomorrow, I hope it's not someone thats hated. I hope that I don't grow to be an old cranky, stale witch.
    LylaRocks LylaRocks 26-30, F Jul 8, 2008

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    It Often Scares Me....

    to think that I will become like my parents. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents. But my dad isn't really a people person and he isn't really big on family get togethers. I on the other hand am a people person and I love my family so much and I want to continue to be like...
    xxBreakingTheSilencexx xxBreakingTheSilencexx 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2007

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    Hobo!

    my life has changed so much in the past year.. depression has gotten worse and my head just isnt thinking str8... im scared that ill become a high skool  drop out and have to find a low paying job and i wont be able to move out of my parents house.  my procrastination...
    applescruffs applescruffs 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 25, 2008

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    The Lonely One

     I am often scared that in the end this is what i will become someone that has noone, someone that the world left behind in the dark and never cared to come back, to check if i was still there, if i still existed. I dont want to become nothing. that from all the people i knew...
    Lencho3 Lencho3 18-21, M 2 Responses Nov 30, 2011

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    But That's a Motivator....

    well, once again i mention here my 'rents. the way they treat my sister and i, and ppl around them - they aren't always the friendliest ppl. i get freaked out when i think about growing up to become them: often cold, unforgiving, holding too high expectations of ppl, etc, etc. i...
    BowsAndBones BowsAndBones 16-18, F 1 Response Jun 23, 2007

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    Guilty As Charged

    I am guilty of fearing what I feel I could become if given a sufficient number of rejections, disappointments, betrayals and outright manipulations. I fear becoming everything I am not: a manipulator, an abuser, a calculating disappointment with a temper that could make Lucifer...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 10, 2009

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    Ive been becoming really sick lately.

    My mom think i might be allergic to gluten (Wheat) cuz when i eat that kind of food i what to puke and i have a really bad headache. I have been having this headache in to stop of my head for a very long time but it kept getting worst. My mom cant take me to the doctor cuz we...
    indigoangel3 indigoangel3 13-15, F 6 Responses Oct 9, 2014

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    My mom was an addict.

    .. She most likely had a personality disorder as well. I am scared, because I see her in me. And... I see myself in the mirror... And I hate me. I carve scars into my skin as punishment for being horrible. But, I was born horrible. I feel like depression is knocking at...
    TubaAtheist TubaAtheist 18-21, F Feb 25, 2014

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    Fail

    I'm terrified that I will one day end up homeless and alone.  I can't seem to fend for myself and I'm not very strong.  I can't keep jobs and I'm becoming more withdrawn with each passing year.  I'm terrified that I will never have a family of my own.  Such...
    PollyPrissyPants PollyPrissyPants 26-30 5 Responses Mar 26, 2010

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    It's a question I've always asked myself in the past when I was comitted. Only to find out I'm just too nice. Go figure. So much thought put into my worries to get a lame answer...
    MichaelS41074 MichaelS41074 36-40, M Jan 18

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    To me your the world Your one of my closest friends who I can talk with about anything Yet outside of school we barely speak I message you, but no reply When you break down and...
    Funnychase66 Funnychase66 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 19

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    I wish I really knew how he felt. the things he says to me, oh wow...would be so wonderful to believe. but the things he does makes me feel as if I could stop breathing and he...
    dkemama dkemama 31-35, F Jan 21

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    Fabulousbitch123 Fabulousbitch123 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    So very scared, I get attached to random people I feel I need. Random people get attached to me. For instance one insecure and very nice gal wanted to be friends. OK well we...
    YeahthatsMylife YeahthatsMylife 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 22

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    Its not so much scared, its more worried. We're going to have a natural birth when we get pregnant. I'm kind of high risk (I have epilepsy and anemia) so there's one thing to be...
    WildFlowerChild19 WildFlowerChild19 18-21, F Jan 4

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    The one and only woman in my life that I really do love and care about is going through a real difficult time and I am failing her by not being there for her when she needs me...
    Sirwithherkey Sirwithherkey 31-35, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    You can find lots of environmental dilemmas whose invoices will become due in the following fifty years. We lack the resources and technology to meet the challenges of those costs...
    Darronbanksso0 Darronbanksso0 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    ...why is my life so hard? Why is everyone that I care about leaving me? I don't think I can live anymore. I can't continue to live like this forever. Why does everyone hate me so...
    iwanttodieRB iwanttodieRB 18-21, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    I will sacrifice myself at any moment, for what i will become. Sacrifice internet for my future, sacrifice my hobbies for my future, sacrifice love....... Well, maybe not love ^.^
    RageGod RageGod 16-17, M Jan 5

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    I believe that the people of North Korea will become a democracy and the answer will come from them.
    tryingagainII tryingagainII 56-60, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I'm talking about the world. I'm guessing that more and more people are going to start killing themselves. Normal people will get concerned after my life is over. They will try to...
    Supercat8835 Supercat8835 13-15, M Jan 6

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    I often wonder what people see when they look at me. I wonder if they see someone that's stupid and in need of guidance because EVERYONE seems to feel the need to give me step by...
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