I Am Only Just Beginning To Find Out Who And What I Am

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    Hey guys I'm in a huge rut at the moment and I feel like complete crap. I've fallen in love with a girl I met online on a depression support app. She's from the US and I'm from the...
    DeanMart1n DeanMart1n
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Apr 21
    I'm 15 and live wth my grandmother and my little sister who is 13 years old and I hate it. My sister gets treated so differently. When i was my sisters age I never even had a phone...
    morgan247 morgan247
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 21
    Her name was Pidge. Well, actually her name was Lucy but she always wanted to be called Pidge. She likes pigeons. Anyway, I've known her since I was... 15? Something like that. I'm...
    Redstar86 Redstar86
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Apr 21
    "May there always be sunshine... May there always be blue skies... May there always be me..." Life sucks sometimes, but it's not about finding perfect solutions or reactions right...
    KikFindme12thNumber KikFindme12thNumber
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 21
    I took a stroll down memory lane. I skimmed through all the messages we've exchanged over the last several months that we've shared together here. They brought a smile to my face...
    TristeMuneca87 TristeMuneca87
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Apr 20
    i seem to be an isolated entity and nothing comes easy to me ....i sometimes feel like my existence is purely to struggle ....i don,t have many people around me i don,t know...
    psychicprayer psychicprayer
    36-40
    Apr 20
    so about a year ago my family went out of town but i decided to stay here "to watch the house" (i just wanted to dress up) so im home alone for 3 days after they leave i hope in...
    Pantyhoseboy1 Pantyhoseboy1
    22-25, T
    Apr 19
    This is my final story on EP. It's also a love letter of sorts, for Him... It's not something I ever in a millions years imagined myself doing, but it happened. Three days after...
    TheGoddessB TheGoddessB
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Apr 19
    I left my job a month or two ago because I couldn't stand it anymore, I was so stressed and lost I didn't understand any more what I was doing, all people complaining about their...
    Memonster Memonster
    26-30
    Apr 18
    I really want to love you. I want to feel every inch of my body crying out for you. I want to have eyes just for you, I want to love you with my soul and heart. I wish I could...
    ChrisErizo1 ChrisErizo1
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Apr 18
    I really find myself in a closed circle the same person with same conditions repeat himself over and over again with different people in my life Maybe small things are different...
    Nouf1 Nouf1
    26-30, F
    Apr 17
    I haven't written anything since last year July/August but I find I should write one last post. I thank EP for what I have learnt and for giving me the chance to help others too...
    multiplexed multiplexed
    22-25, M
    Apr 17
    With the end near and seeing some of the negativity that has been presented about EP, I wanted to take a few moments and tell everyone about the positive that EP brought to my...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    41-45, F
    12 Responses Apr 16
    He Was The Only Daddy I Ever Knew-Granddaddy, my mother's father, was a big man, about 6’4” and sturdily built,and he was as black as night with thick glasses. No that's NOT...
    ToBeDiskovered ToBeDiskovered
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 15
    In few days this journey will come to end and i cant help myself than smile how my life is still standing still on the same point. Now also i have to be loud to speak my heart.No...
    trappedwings trappedwings
    26-30, F
    Apr 15
    This year started off horrible but it was inevitable. Life would have taken this path no matter how hard I fought. I am a single mom and doing just fine. I'm doing it alone and I...
    WastedShadedDaylight WastedShadedDaylight
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Apr 14
    Once upon a time, there was a girl. A small skinny girl. She had purple hair and blue striking eyes. She walked so certain, as if she knew exactly where she was going. I felt those...
    nikolatasic nikolatasic
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 14
    You Never Allow Me To Express My Sadness When You Betrayed Me I'm sorry if you think that I am selfish even my friends didn't knew about this relationship I hope you can see what...
    SnowOnFleek SnowOnFleek
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 14
    I say everyone in the world is special and uniquely beautiful. Which is true, but maybe I should elaborate what I mean by that. Everyone is equal in my eyes, there are some...
    FieryWolf FieryWolf
    16-17, F
    Apr 13
    Well, the biggest problem in the world right now is... I spoke to my cousin last night. I was fishing for a problem in the world right now, one she might want to solve. She is...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife
    26-30, M
    Apr 13
    I have my moments but when you find out the full truth about someone over the last two years to be heartless, manipulative piece of scum is really a gut kicker :/ glad to finally...
    SubmissiveKitty09 SubmissiveKitty09
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 13
    When you let someone have the power of your state of mind, that’s when you realise you’re in such a dangerous space. Letting them protrude every corridor of your mind to the...
    trying2forgetyou trying2forgetyou
    22-25, F
    Apr 12
    I've spent most of my life . people don't like me because I chose to be my own personal and not who they wanted me to be. I was never invited to things and people often avoided me...
    SladeBolinLeaderofEp SladeBolinLeaderofEp
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Apr 10
    (I refer this to Christians going through TRIALS or/and TEMPTATIONS, lest a fellow wishes to wrongly counter the write-up)  Dear Christians and whomever this may concern, God...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Apr 10
    I live with a girl who copies everything I do, from what I eat, to what I wear etc.. It's extreme, and just flat out creepy. We were friends when we first started law school for...
    NorwegianBelle NorwegianBelle
    18-21, F
    Apr 10
    I will copy and paste our texting convo! Please tell me if you feel like she's trying to hint she doesn't want to go with me or if I'm paranoid! Her: About that, I want to make...
    sm1ttay sm1ttay
    16-17, M
    1 Response Apr 9
    Y'know...I try not to judge people here on EP because I know that some people are just spouting out fantasies that they would never try, but some do. Maybe its just me and my...
    thesilentchef thesilentchef
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 9
    The one person who is always a constant denominator in my life, is my brother. We have basically grown up as twins despite our two year age difference. When we were younger we...
    lbokete lbokete
    18-21, M
    Apr 8
    Dont know when it started. I had become an emotional nightmare over the last year or so. I know it started when I just started to cry over all kinds of family deaths. Not when they...
    boldtimer boldtimer
    66-70, M
    Apr 8
    I'm a 20 year old male college student and I'm not sure what I'm feeling right now, especially since I always assumed that I was 100% straight. Coming from a pretty religious...
    ProxyVox ProxyVox
    18-21, M
    5 Responses Apr 7
    I've been in love before. I was in love for three years with the same wonderful man. Sadly, I still love him. We clicked from the beginning. It was so easy with him. Everything...
    Anonylyn Anonylyn
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 7
    The only man to have touched me in the last year has been the trainer at the gym. I don't do anything fancy, I just discovered the free classes that no one takes advantage of and I...
    ijustneed2talk ijustneed2talk
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Apr 7
    I read the announcement about Experience Project ending on April 21st if u didn't read the announcement basically this place where people have made friends and shared stories will...
    Loving1234 Loving1234
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 7
    Sometimes, reaching out and taking someone's hand is the beginning of a journey. At other times, it is allowing another to take yours.
    Mcinacann Mcinacann
    41-45, F
    Apr 7
    You think that you knew the way my heart was shaped, every vein mapped and memorized the exact beat against yours. But you only measure in rhythm, never the precision in pitch...
    LadyHeartnMind LadyHeartnMind
    31-35, F
    1 Response Apr 7
    Yeah I made a big mistake. A HUGE one. I married for the wrong reasons. It was so stupid too, when you consider that I was always so picky. I really loved my first husband. We got...
    BananaMouth BananaMouth
    56-60, F
    7 Responses Apr 6
    I've dated a few women in my life but I finally found the right one two years ago. She's the sweetest, most thoughtful person I've ever met. She's intelligent, honest, caring, and...
    Lukas2727 Lukas2727
    22-25
    1 Response Apr 6
    Ran across this site while looking for some information & feel like it would be worth it to at least put 1 post out there & say hi. Basically, I am 38 single mom of a teenager but...
    meowkittys2002 meowkittys2002
    36-40, F
    7 Responses Apr 6
    I was sent an email from a friend that had me read a study of the reasons for my crazy mood swings that has basically cause the young lady I met here, so many problems with me. I...
    boldtimer boldtimer
    66-70, M
    Apr 6
    Found a directive from EP headquarters. From your home page. Just read fresh off confidential material! Open line to transmission: UNDERSTAND TRANSMIT STATE ORIGIN project EP...
    Sparrowhawk1161 Sparrowhawk1161
    51-55
    Apr 6
    I thought that going to school and getting good grades was how I could be successful and happy. I thought I would be an academic success, get a degree, and find a steady job. I was...
    Lukas2727 Lukas2727
    22-25
    Apr 4
    So you've disappeared again. I realize you are a drug I'm addicted to and I just came out of a relapse. You probably don't see me that way... You probably just see me as a...
    saraandherfoxes saraandherfoxes
    26-30, F
    Apr 4
    From StarLily : I've been told that love happens when you least expect it, and in the most unexpected way. I believe this is true because it perfectly describes how I found my...
    BigAsset BigAsset
    41-45, M
    6 Responses Apr 4
    So I have gone through a lot my whole life. I have dealt with different chronic illnesses and in the beginning I was able to keep it under control and still be happy. Now it's...
    Shastagirl17 Shastagirl17
    16-17, F
    Apr 4
    So, call me ignorant, but I honestly have no ideal who hitler was until a few years ago. we dont get taught this kind of stuff at school. (well at my school) but I watched to...
    ItsSafaaAgain ItsSafaaAgain
    16-17, F
    Apr 3
    I hope you forget about me, about all of this. I hope the burden on your shoulders lift and it's not so hard anymore, and you don't notice the cruelty or sorrow in people, as much...
    yaweitree yaweitree
    18-21, F
    Apr 3
    Science teachers seem to be the best I ever had! One from school and the other from college made a huge impact in my education journey. I remember back at school when i was doing...
    LittleMilwee LittleMilwee
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 3
    If only I could really feel whatever i wrote for years truly. if only i could really understand why i did what i did. if only i could alter my honest feelings and wrong timing much...
    winterfall winterfall
    41-45
    Apr 3
    From BigAsset... I connected with Starlily online for the first time on May 18 2014. It all started with a simple post from her under the group 'I'm looking to make genuine...
    StarLily71 StarLily71
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Apr 3
    i hav actually slowly . found a few . maybe they dont understand evrything of me . but they understand major bits n pieces . which counts a lot like .. a lot .. :) <3 thankew...
    cdwishimatgurlCalandraBelle cdwishimatgurlCalandraBelle
    36-40, T
    Apr 3
    Nobody understands me I talk to my mom and any family members but they still don't understand I cry every day,I hold my feelings in because what's the who point,I'm just the only...
    Aracely686 Aracely686
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Apr 3
    no lady wanna date with me may be because I am rich and have sporty body .handsome and romantic ????????????
    omaniwolf omaniwolf
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 3
    Everyday, I wake up. I wake up and even if it's for a split second, he crosses my mind. It's been a year since me and my ex broke up. We met on the Ps3 in May 2011, and had been...
    TiedToReality TiedToReality
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 3
    I think it's because I prefer older women, I don't think they take me seriously sometimes
    happytimesahead happytimesahead
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Apr 2
    EP is ending, sadly. But I want to "celebrate" having 720+ experiences, 35400+ profile views and 10,000+ Circle friends. Yes, I'm one of few maybe many who cares about these...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee
    70+, F
    9 Responses Apr 2
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    Cocrispy Cocrispy
    22-25, M
    Apr 2
    if any male 13 14 or 15 wants to date message me if you live near Alex drive or silver lake Wilmington NC
    Slenderman23 Slenderman23
    13-15, F
    Apr 2
    There is a temptation to point out how bold a mother who breastfeeds her child, especially in public, is overall. But why should an act of nurturing that is one of the core...
    WellFrog WellFrog
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Apr 2
    02/04/2016 - With the year being 3 months in I'm not really sure whether this year is going to be the year for new beginnings or not. All I can do is think positive and see what...
    shecanonlydream shecanonlydream
    26-30, F
    Apr 2
    " The perfect life is not the faraway, impossible thing that men and women who are in darkness imagine it to be, it is supremely possible , and very near and real. " - arises...
    Tsgirl86 Tsgirl86
    26-30, T
    1 Response Apr 2
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