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I Am Outwardly Positive I Struggle With Saddness

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    Just Keep Smiling

    Its hard when its slips , if you talk to anyone I know they will tell you the same thing , Your Bubbly , Happy and ready to help anyone. I havent met anyone I can talk to .I dont want to bother anyone with it . I should be able to deal with it .
    Siri101 Siri101 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 5, 2009

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    I Should Feel Happy

    I am moving. This really isn't a big deal but I'm just going to miss it here. This is the first place i have felt like i have belonged. Its what i have been asking the gods for but i have a job to do. its obviously time for me to move on all my efforts to stay didn't work out...
    protectthebalance protectthebalance 16-17, F Feb 19, 2013

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    Is There Another Way?

          You know, many would say that radiating artificial positiveness while almost dying from misery inside is hypocrytical, but is it really? Does the world really need to see our depressive face? Do you really think you are goingt o, say, get hired somewhere if you come to...
    Angelfire0310 Angelfire0310 22-25, F Apr 3, 2011

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    My Whole Life I Have Done This

    its never got me too far- I am not one to push myself onto people or beg or skite or demand and bully I struggle with inner sadness and I hope the world changes so that the decent people win over the animals who are pushy and vulgar and bully. I let go of the evil people in...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 17, 2011

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    Maybe This Will Help..

    I have always been a "happy" person. i smile a lot and i like talking to people i guess. but lately i haven't even feel the desire to get out of bed....or answer my phone....i just feel lonely all the time. everyone always says "i know how you feel" or things will get better...
    secretlysad secretlysad 26-30, F Feb 1, 2012

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    Life Is a Charade.

    Everything i do is geared towards keeping people from finding out about my depression. I decieve everyone i know; my friends, family and classmates because there is nothing they can do, and their concern will only make me feel worse. Largely i am successful in keeping it to...
    wardy131 wardy131 18-21, M 5 Responses Sep 5, 2009

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    It Has Become Second Nature....

    To always have a big smile on my face and to pretend that I am ok when in actual fact I am crumbling inside. I work with under 5's and so it comes with the job title, you have to be happy and positive. The children come first, there is no time for sadness. I am not allowed to be...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 5, 2011

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    They Think I'm Fine.

    All of my close friends and family and even my boyfriend think Im fine. I'm really not. I always feel so sad on the inside. Im on anti-depressents but sometimes they arent enough. Im still really sad. Im in therapy for many other reasons, but there are days where I feel so sad...
    cidcat89 cidcat89 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 5, 2009

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    Holy Cow!

    There really is an EP forum for every possible condition. I'm usually much chattier but the group name says it all. Ijusthad2join
    ijustneed2talk ijustneed2talk 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 30, 2012

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    Can No One See My Sadness?

    its sad 2 think..evry1 who i have known dosnt really kno meh...they think im happy...but on the inside? im not....i only wish dat once....sum1 cud see past my mask and try 2 see meh...the real meh...i am a human being....i do get emotional...y cant i b allowed 2 cry? wenevr i cry...
    iluvnerds12 iluvnerds12 13-15, F 6 Responses Mar 8, 2011

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    My Struggle With Dysthymia

    I have always been 'the happy' girl. All my friends tell me that I'm 'a natural high', that I always cheer them up. I sort of pride myself in that fact. Yet, I feel very alone. I can be surrounded by friends and feel like a complete stranger. I get angry, sometimes, that the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 29, 2012

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    ForeverLostPoet ForeverLostPoet 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 3

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    I'm done. I'm sick with all the negativity. I'm turning 17 in a few weeks and for once I want to control this body image im struggling. I'm 5'5 and weigh around 160 pounds (or...
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    I struggle with my body image everyday, but nobody can tell. I walk around like I have high self-esteem because I refuse to let people see me down. In reality, I hate the way my...
    XxMarxX XxMarxX 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 5

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    I've struggled with my weight for most of my life. Looking back though I really wasn't that bad, but in my mind I was disgustingly & impossibly overweight. Rather than feeling...
    dukelostboy25 dukelostboy25 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 13

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    I wouldn't say I'm ugly, but I don't think I am pretty. Id say im cute at most but not pretty and certainly not "hot". I've struggled with my weight my whole life and I've recently...
    adimarie adimarie 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I am struggling harder now with body image than I ever have in my entire life, to the point that I sometimes can't look people straight in the eye because I'm so convinced others...
    TryingToFeelGoodAboutMyself TryingToFeelGoodAboutMyself 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 11

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    I feel like the struggle gets worse by the day. I often wonder about leaving this state and just starting a new life somewhere else.
    matty83 matty83 31-35, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    Since I was 12, ( I am now 15) I have had a larger labia then everyone I know. I struggle to even feel confident enough to wear a bikini ( I'm a fairly thin girl). I don't ever let...
    lollipopsnliquor lollipopsnliquor 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 3

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    I'm torn. I'm torn about accepting the mental illness labels doctors have diagnosed me with, such as having bipolar and depression, because I don't want the labels to define me...
    JadedDivinity JadedDivinity 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 15

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    LoneDovahKiin LoneDovahKiin 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 2

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    At my best I'd like to think that I'm charismatic, a good friend, funny, with resolve. But lately it's so hard to control my temper after dating a sociopath and other things that...
    Kimbahbay Kimbahbay 16-17, F Jul 4

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    I hate everything about the way I look. I've never told anymore in person, but it kills me to see other people so happy. It makes me do terrible things to myself. All my pimples...
    NPkid97 NPkid97 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 5

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    ^ This, this picture here is a prime example of how some people are towards others with hearing loss. Usually the way they say it varies but it always means the same damn thing...
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    I'm writing this post to help people whom are struggling with there body image, specifically skin wise eg: acne ect ( I am one myself😉) . I recently discovered an AMAZING DIY...
    EmmaSheppard EmmaSheppard 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    Im 110 lbs now, i need to lose 10. Thats what happens when your roomate makes a huge *** cake in a house with only vegetables and fruit in it :/
    EffyXOXO EffyXOXO 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 11

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    I haven't cut for almost a year now because I learned that I am perfect the way I am. But I used to cut all the time a few years back. I still have scars but I show them off with...
    SamLGirl SamLGirl 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 12

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    Im 15 and have been struggling with an eating disorder for three years , i don't know how to tell my mom :(
    LeilaOlivia LeilaOlivia 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 12

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    I am 13 years old and I never use to like the way I look at school people would always call me fat and ugly and I would tell my self you are beautiful don't let those comments...
    ChaceMarie ChaceMarie 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 13

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    I wish I can be how I wish I was before I had two children it all jus happen so fast feel so uncomfortable with my body don't feel good dont look good to the point that I feel not...
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    I'm basically Michael Jackson reincarnated, except without the talent of course. Just self-hatred wise.
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