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I Am Outwardly Positive I Struggle With Saddness

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 122 People

    Is There Another Way?

          You know, many would say that radiating artificial positiveness while almost dying from misery inside is hypocrytical, but is it really? Does the world really need to see our depressive face? Do you really think you are goingt o, say, get hired somewhere if you come to...
    Angelfire0310 Angelfire0310 22-25, F Apr 3, 2011

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    I Should Feel Happy

    I am moving. This really isn't a big deal but I'm just going to miss it here. This is the first place i have felt like i have belonged. Its what i have been asking the gods for but i have a job to do. its obviously time for me to move on all my efforts to stay didn't work out...
    protectthebalance protectthebalance 16-17, F Feb 19, 2013

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    My Whole Life I Have Done This

    its never got me too far- I am not one to push myself onto people or beg or skite or demand and bully I struggle with inner sadness and I hope the world changes so that the decent people win over the animals who are pushy and vulgar and bully. I let go of the evil people in...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 17, 2011

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    Holy Cow!

    There really is an EP forum for every possible condition. I'm usually much chattier but the group name says it all. Ijusthad2join
    ijustneed2talk ijustneed2talk 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 30, 2012

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    Just Keep Smiling

    Its hard when its slips , if you talk to anyone I know they will tell you the same thing , Your Bubbly , Happy and ready to help anyone. I havent met anyone I can talk to .I dont want to bother anyone with it . I should be able to deal with it .
    Siri101 Siri101 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 5, 2009

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    They Think I'm Fine.

    All of my close friends and family and even my boyfriend think Im fine. I'm really not. I always feel so sad on the inside. Im on anti-depressents but sometimes they arent enough. Im still really sad. Im in therapy for many other reasons, but there are days where I feel so sad...
    cidcat89 cidcat89 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 5, 2009

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    It Has Become Second Nature....

    To always have a big smile on my face and to pretend that I am ok when in actual fact I am crumbling inside. I work with under 5's and so it comes with the job title, you have to be happy and positive. The children come first, there is no time for sadness. I am not allowed to be...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 5, 2011

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    Life Is a Charade.

    Everything i do is geared towards keeping people from finding out about my depression. I decieve everyone i know; my friends, family and classmates because there is nothing they can do, and their concern will only make me feel worse. Largely i am successful in keeping it to...
    wardy131 wardy131 18-21, M 5 Responses Sep 5, 2009

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    Maybe This Will Help..

    I have always been a "happy" person. i smile a lot and i like talking to people i guess. but lately i haven't even feel the desire to get out of bed....or answer my phone....i just feel lonely all the time. everyone always says "i know how you feel" or things will get better...
    secretlysad secretlysad 26-30, F Feb 1, 2012

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    Can No One See My Sadness?

    its sad 2 think..evry1 who i have known dosnt really kno meh...they think im happy...but on the inside? im not....i only wish dat once....sum1 cud see past my mask and try 2 see meh...the real meh...i am a human being....i do get emotional...y cant i b allowed 2 cry? wenevr i cry...
    iluvnerds12 iluvnerds12 13-15, F 6 Responses Mar 8, 2011

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    My Struggle With Dysthymia

    I have always been 'the happy' girl. All my friends tell me that I'm 'a natural high', that I always cheer them up. I sort of pride myself in that fact. Yet, I feel very alone. I can be surrounded by friends and feel like a complete stranger. I get angry, sometimes, that the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 29, 2012

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    So many people struggle with their body image, I don't think many people can say they are truly happy with what they look like. I envy people who can. In an age were a lot of...
    Superficialsaint Superficialsaint 31-35, F 3 Responses Feb 15

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    benforce benforce 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 31

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    I struggle with being an adult college student, trying to raise my children, be good son (failed that today), be good for my fiancee, etc. My sense of self-worth is hindering me. I...
    MollyToni MollyToni 41-45 Jan 28

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    None of u know this and it might seem stupid to some but I have struggles with to much loss. Last year I lost my great grandma. She ment so much to me. I cried for months. I lost...
    kpfoster1985 kpfoster1985 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 9

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    I struggle with an addiction that's pretty overwhelming yet embarrassing... I have tried to overcome it but unfortunately I can't
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    ive always struggled with being incredibly insecure about my body. one day i couldnt take it anymore and cut my thighs. ive been clean for about four days, but im always...
    anotherfailure anotherfailure 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    Although I do not think about it ceaselessly, body image is something I ponder from time to time. Before I hit puberty, I was very skinny and underweight which made me extremely...
    Deedle81 Deedle81 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm always switching it up. Someday I'll stop eating period. Maybe breakfast. Some chocolate too keep me calm. Then I'll just drink water and call it a day. I've been back at it...
    IvyRed15 IvyRed15 16-17, F Jan 29

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    I get sad at remembering how excited I use to be by life, everything was an adventure or magical, I saw beauty in all kinds of unexpected places and people that weren't deemed...
    Alwaysundecided Alwaysundecided 22-25, F Feb 11

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    I can't handle my drink and have had some bad experiences while being drunk. So I'm trying my best to be more sensible. When I'm out with friends it's constantly on my mind to make...
    Mollybonnie Mollybonnie 26-30 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I've become so used to hating myself, that it feels safer to hate myself. Whatever I do, I always try to blame myself for everything that goes wrong and I always feel like I haven...
    Darejani Darejani 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Its so crazy because I've always been very athletic and skinny. 5'8 130lbs... but I still struggle! For a long time it was because I had small breast, but I recently got them done...
    KenziY KenziY 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Something isn't right, but I don't know what it is. I want to ask my psychology professor to diagnose me, but I'm afraid to. I can't just look in a DSM and diagnose myself, it...
    MollyToni MollyToni 41-45 1 Response Jan 28

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    when i was 17 I was put in an intensive care unit for youth witch specialized in depression physios and many other mental health issues when the doctor asked me what are you in...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 4

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    after I had left the hospital my past had caught up with me my so called friends abondoned me and shunned my for leaving them How could i tell them that i coulden't do drugs with...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 5

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    Im struggling with having a mature body.. Its doesnt fit on my age.. I got a lot of attention and i like to cry from having big boobs.. People always thought that im 18 or 19 which...
    mrsalpacino mrsalpacino 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    I find it difficult to be social. I would try and make conversation however they always end up dead and dry. With this I don't have any ' real' friends. I think of them as good...
    bobbystz bobbystz 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 9

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    Well I did and now i am healed and it was the hardest most terrible thing i have ever gone through and i thought it would never end but through a lot of hard work it did. i want...
    anniebomb anniebomb 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    Ever since I was born things were really **** for me..im now 19 and it's getting worse well for starters I've never told this to anyone but when I was 10 years old i ended up being...
    Imacrazybiatch Imacrazybiatch 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 18

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    It's something I just haven't realized for the longest time.... I think I suffer from this. I first heard of the disease a while back and since then I've compared it to myself...
    TheMasterMan1 TheMasterMan1 16-17, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I am uncomfortable with my body
    tourdeforce tourdeforce 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    After 5 years of being clean. I broke it. sometimes cutting myself is all I can do. For no reasons. Just to cover the pain of my heart with the pain in my wrist.
    mihochancullen mihochancullen 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    This addiction isn't ok , it's not healthy . My scars are fading and it's making me want to cut more , I've been safe for about 4 months safe . I've been so proud . But when you're...
    holdontome holdontome 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    There I said it, I'm addicted to food and I can't stop. When I try to kick the addiction sometimes it works for a few days, even maybe a week but then when I feel an overwhelming...
    TheHogwartzJanitor TheHogwartzJanitor 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    That feeling comes and goes, but when you've been struggling with it for so long, it's hard to let it go.
    XxFuckYouxX XxFuckYouxX 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    So my anxiety has been that bad that I picked up a box of cigs to help with the nerves... Good thing is that it helps, bad thing is it's a terrible habit -.-
    catho catho 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I have been struggling with body image for pretty much as long as I can remember, and have been trying to improve it over the last year. I've lost 35lbs (still have plenty to go...
    RiseFromTheAshes RiseFromTheAshes 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    Can I just have small boobs and skinny legs? Because that's be great. I hate how my calves are thick. My stomach and waist are small but my chest and thighs widen and isn't...
    vaashapenin vaashapenin 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    I when my body image starts to haunt me and I cant sleep at night. I guess thats just what I have to deal with when I have Borderline Personality Disorder
    ALivingTeenIdle ALivingTeenIdle 13-15, T 2 days ago

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    In this post, I want to share why and how I have finally stopped my video game addiction. First of all let me introduce myself, I am a normal student in a state university and...
    rayx123 rayx123 18-21, M 19 hrs ago

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    I love my mother but she's always pointing out anything that's wrong with me. The last time I got on a scale it said I weighed 115 pounds and all she said was "you gained five...
    EmotionallyWrecked EmotionallyWrecked 16-17, F 6 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I loathe the sight facing me, Inadequacies magnified in the light, Unbearable burden of sins committed, Cowering at the pointed fingers, Accepting rebuke for ever mistake real and...
    urbannomad6699 urbannomad6699 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 27

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    I don't know how to find that middle ground. I am either emotionally distant or about to put my fists into something.
    WeKnightsPaladin WeKnightsPaladin 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 31

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    I have been struggling for a long time and I'm starting to get better, but sometimes, I just feel so down.
    ericadeniseunderwood ericadeniseunderwood 16-17, F Jan 31

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    Today I popped a few pills again. It's something I haven't done in months. I'm trying not to give into it again. It's way harder than people think. But I have no reason to whine. I...
    IngensImpetum IngensImpetum 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 5

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