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I Am Outwardly Positive I Struggle With Saddness

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 119 People

    Is There Another Way?

          You know, many would say that radiating artificial positiveness while almost dying from misery inside is hypocrytical, but is it really? Does the world really need to see our depressive face? Do you really think you are goingt o, say, get hired somewhere if you come to...
    Angelfire0310 Angelfire0310 22-25, F Apr 3, 2011

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    Holy Cow!

    There really is an EP forum for every possible condition. I'm usually much chattier but the group name says it all. Ijusthad2join
    ijustneed2talk ijustneed2talk 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 30, 2012

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    Can No One See My Sadness?

    its sad 2 think..evry1 who i have known dosnt really kno meh...they think im happy...but on the inside? im not....i only wish dat once....sum1 cud see past my mask and try 2 see meh...the real meh...i am a human being....i do get emotional...y cant i b allowed 2 cry? wenevr i cry...
    iluvnerds12 iluvnerds12 13-15, F 6 Responses Mar 8, 2011

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    My Whole Life I Have Done This

    its never got me too far- I am not one to push myself onto people or beg or skite or demand and bully I struggle with inner sadness and I hope the world changes so that the decent people win over the animals who are pushy and vulgar and bully. I let go of the evil people in...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Apr 17, 2011

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    It Has Become Second Nature....

    To always have a big smile on my face and to pretend that I am ok when in actual fact I am crumbling inside. I work with under 5's and so it comes with the job title, you have to be happy and positive. The children come first, there is no time for sadness. I am not allowed to be...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 5, 2011

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    Life Is a Charade.

    Everything i do is geared towards keeping people from finding out about my depression. I decieve everyone i know; my friends, family and classmates because there is nothing they can do, and their concern will only make me feel worse. Largely i am successful in keeping it to...
    wardy131 wardy131 18-21, M 5 Responses Sep 5, 2009

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    My Struggle With Dysthymia

    I have always been 'the happy' girl. All my friends tell me that I'm 'a natural high', that I always cheer them up. I sort of pride myself in that fact. Yet, I feel very alone. I can be surrounded by friends and feel like a complete stranger. I get angry, sometimes, that the...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 29, 2012

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    Maybe This Will Help..

    I have always been a "happy" person. i smile a lot and i like talking to people i guess. but lately i haven't even feel the desire to get out of bed....or answer my phone....i just feel lonely all the time. everyone always says "i know how you feel" or things will get better...
    secretlysad secretlysad 26-30, F Feb 1, 2012

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    They Think I'm Fine.

    All of my close friends and family and even my boyfriend think Im fine. I'm really not. I always feel so sad on the inside. Im on anti-depressents but sometimes they arent enough. Im still really sad. Im in therapy for many other reasons, but there are days where I feel so sad...
    cidcat89 cidcat89 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 5, 2009

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    Just Keep Smiling

    Its hard when its slips , if you talk to anyone I know they will tell you the same thing , Your Bubbly , Happy and ready to help anyone. I havent met anyone I can talk to .I dont want to bother anyone with it . I should be able to deal with it .
    Siri101 Siri101 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 5, 2009

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    I Should Feel Happy

    I am moving. This really isn't a big deal but I'm just going to miss it here. This is the first place i have felt like i have belonged. Its what i have been asking the gods for but i have a job to do. its obviously time for me to move on all my efforts to stay didn't work out...
    protectthebalance protectthebalance 16-17, F Feb 19, 2013

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    I once remember being a very care free and happy kid with so much to look forward to. I never thought about what i looked like, or what was considered to be attractive, and not...
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    I'm perfectly fine with the way I look, maybe not the way I act though. I just don't like being bullied by others because of my appearance and clumsiness. I guess for this reason...
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    I am a 20 year old girl who has just recently hit the mark 195 pounds in weight...I never thought I would get to this. I was hanging around 170 for the longest time and feeling...
    mylovelyshadow mylovelyshadow 18-21, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    I used to have an ED. Growing up as a girl in America is so difficult on one's self-esteem. I suffered with societies idealistic image, and constantly compared myself to models and...
    mauii44 mauii44 18-21, F 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    My body image has never been what I wanted... I always thought that nobody will like me and that I'll never escape it. Fortunately, I did lose some weight in the past year or...
    Boggr Boggr 13-15, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    When I get worse I have no energy to get in touch with anyone. This in turn makes me feel very guilty for obvious reasons. The guilt I can absolutely NOT cope with makes me even...
    becomeinvisible becomeinvisible 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I struggle with my body image since i was 9 i hated my bodyy. At 11 I started being anorexic At 12 I battled bulmia It was on and of throught the year At 13 I tried stopping and im...
    Itsnessaye Itsnessaye 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    people tell me you're fine others tell me they love my body shape but i'm not convinced i hate my body so so much every time i look in the mirror i get so emotional and sometimes...
    Agirlwithissues Agirlwithissues 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    No one so many people struggle with their body image, because all I seem to see is people shaming body types! Every body type is beautiful in someone's eyes. Whether you're thin...
    xItsChelsx xItsChelsx 16-17, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Hmmm That would be myself. I am my worst enemy, Ha, I suppose I'm actually sleeping with the enemy. She is DANGEROUS and loses everything. If God himself were I. A closed room...
    LadyGallivanter LadyGallivanter 41-45, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    U & Me forever this way www.nidhisuraj.com There are so many Love Stories in this world. Few stories become so famous but few are unsaid and been buried with time. Few...
    evan003 evan003 18-21, F a week ago

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    When I was younger I use to have a problem with my body image. I always thought I was fat or wasn't pretty enough. I know that I will never be super skinny because that not my body...
    AmorTiana AmorTiana 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 20

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    ok, not with bulimia thankfully...but with anorexia in a very serious form...lol, I still hate myself for this, hate how much trouble I caused to my family...My parents deserve...
    AmarieOfTheVanyar AmarieOfTheVanyar 18-21, F Jul 20

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    Many people do not consider this self-harm, but I mostly harm my mouth. It's intrinsic and it feels right, I tried cutting and it does not. The other day I bit the tip of my tongue...
    Chrossy Chrossy 22-25, F Jul 20

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    tbh it really hurts me when people say hurtful things to me today I was at the park with my friend and this guy called me a fat *** apple and it hurts because I feel like I'm fat...
    justicechild justicechild 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 19

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    I have no idea what triggers it. Sometimes it's depression, sometimes it's happiness. Right now I cant seem to keep food down without feeling guilty or wanting to throw it back up...
    YouKnowWho15 YouKnowWho15 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 19

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    Yes, It's cliché. Here we go with the 19 year old girl who doesn't like the way she looks. I disgusting. I can't look at myself in the mirror without crying anymore. i try to...
    thissworld thissworld 18-21, F 10 Responses Jul 18

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    So earlier on i was making a cappuccino and decided that **** it, for a day im gonna actually step out of my comfort zone. For the very first time ever, Im gonna just take off my...
    Sublevarse Sublevarse 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 18

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    Started taking Opiates when I was 14 and was never addicted just did drugs occasionally to unwind. Few years later and I've struggled with opiate addiction ever since. A few years...
    AyeJay6 AyeJay6 26-30, M 3 Responses Jul 17

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    "I want to help women Discover and accept what their best body looks like, without having to kill themselves to get there. And once they discover that, I want to help them have...
    Bythelight0fthemoon Bythelight0fthemoon 36-40, F Jul 16

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    I don't know about other guys, but I hate how I look most days. Not my weight, not my height, but my actual body image. I've always struggled with my weight, I was "blessed" with a...
    browncoat93 browncoat93 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 16

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    Okay, so, I have very big issues with my body. The biggest issue I have is that my boobs are very, very different sizes. I know that it is natural for our boobs to be different...
    alligryda alligryda 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    my friend suggested that I should work out with a "butt lifter", at first I was confused until I googled it...yeaaaaa..looks like yoga pants with the butt cut out
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    Out of curiosity I took a test for BDD. I've scored extremely high for it and now I feel nothing but like utter **** with high anxiety. I'm planning to go visit a shrink soon and...
    Brogann Brogann 16-17 1 Response Jul 14

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    Some people struggle with addictions, wars, or even other people. I struggle with an idea, a standard of impossibility. An image ingrained into the mind of every creature. The idea...
    pinkromance pinkromance 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    I feel ive ****** everything up. That moment when someone you care about to the point you hurt when they dont talk to you is real. I feel its all over and i have no hope left. Thry...
    LoveNoteForARainyDay LoveNoteForARainyDay 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 13

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    I am overweight I'm not ashamed of it but when I wear what I like to people judge me because whatever in wearing doesn't look good to them I try to loose weight but it's hard with...
    hashtagbitch hashtagbitch 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 13

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