I Am Over 30 And I Self Harm

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 33 People

    Are any of the cutters here fascinated by the

    blood? I even like to take photos ( yeah yeah i know im sick)
    aMutebyChoice aMutebyChoice
    2 Responses Apr 29, 2014

    I feel like I'm too educated to continue to

    want to hurt myself and should have better coping skills by this age. I feel embarrassed. I haven't in a few months but I want to so much today because I'm disappointed in where my life is. 😖
    mytrueself113 mytrueself113
    31-35, F
    Apr 3, 2015

    I'm afraid the only way to make my self harm

    area not disfigured is plastic surgery. I just keep opening the same place up over and over. To me it looks damaged, yes, but the one person who has seen it gasped. I think after a while you just get used to how it looks so it's not really shocking.
    PinkBunnyBlackHeart PinkBunnyBlackHeart
    41-45, F
    Nov 10, 2014

    I haven't cut myself

    since February 5, 2009. For a while I thought that meant that I was done with self-harm. When I'm honest with myself, I don't think that I ever stopped self-harming. Currently I rip at my fingernails and cuticles until they bleed. I'm here because I'm really lonely. I'm...
    notatamelioness notatamelioness
    31-35, F
    Jun 22, 2015

    I Had To

    last night, the loneliness was so unbearable, i hadn't spoken a word or heard a word spoken in over 52 hours. my T was supposed to call me, but he didn't i needed to do something and didn't want to end up in the hospital cuz i cut too deep now and when you cut to the bone, they...
    P13C35 P13C35
    41-45, F
    Oct 1, 2011

    Sometimes I Feel So Left Out

    I have seen so many groups about self harm. I see it everywhere, groups for teens needing to reach out. I feel like I am old enough to be the mother of most of the people I have met that self-harm. I was really hoping to find some peers in this struggle. I am not minimizing the...
    prncesspain prncesspain
    36-40, F
    7 Responses Feb 18, 2011

    Its sad but after ten years i have started self

    harm again..i thought i had won with this addiction when i stopped at 20 but i guess i was wrong..i still feel the same..worthless,lost,messed up and completely screwed...when i was in my teens i use to cut my arm and on couple of occasions i drank bleach,ink and what not ...the...
    stranger11 stranger11
    31-35, F
    Jan 18, 2014

    I am 35. Tonight I burned myself.

    I don't exactly know why I did. I think it just felt like the right thing to do. When I was younger I used to cut myself, and then for a long time I didn't do anything, and then tonight I decided I should burn myself so that I could feel something. Anyway, I wasn't sure why I...
    stephendonaldson stephendonaldson
    36-40, M
    Apr 20, 2014

    Guys I get it. Here is a quote

    that is one that I made for myself In this and only this current moment where are my thoughts and fellings on the issue of my self harm (cutting and suicide). As powerful as they may be thoughts are just thoughts as a feeling is nothing more then a feeling they are not a thing...
    mlcockrell mlcockrell
    41-45, M
    Dec 8, 2013
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