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I Am Overwhelmed By My Memories and My Scars

No matter how hard I try, how much therapy I do, I can never seem to let go of the demons in my mind 378 People

    Most of the time I'm fine with myself,

    but there are some days where everything comes rushing back and I need my alone time to cry it out
    GCWhiskey GCWhiskey 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 9

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    I'm Covered In Hate

    recently I've been unable to look away from the fact that I am almost completely covered in scars. I'm getting a tattoo soon and there is only one place I can get it cuz everywhere else I'm to scarred.This is a map over my scars over my body and I haven't been able to take my...
    NoatoNoaki NoatoNoaki 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 23, 2011

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    i had a decent life compared to most

    yet i feel annoyed and smothered,, as free as i am i feel suppressed lied to for some strange reason,out of place ,unfamiliar with my reality
    miimii0069 miimii0069 26-30, F Jul 12

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    This Will Help You.

    http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm watch the videos on that page with an open mind. Peace.
    tyrian69 tyrian69 22-25, M Sep 12, 2012

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    when I try to look back

    or whenever I happen to pass by memories, I just can't help but draw a smile on my face...
    hummingtree hummingtree 13-15, F Dec 26, 2014

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    The first cut is the deepest opening your soul

    for the others to come in and to rob you of your peace of mind making every second hell.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 26, 2014

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    I Am Over Whelmed At Times......

    I do get over whelmed at times, they take me over for a short time....then I fight and push them back. It keeps me in check at times of who I am, and how I got here, and what mes me who I am today....but sometimes they can be a bit much. My scars run deep....so when the triggers...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 23, 2010

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    Scarring Myself

    I was recently thinking about how, because of my scars and the feelings of worthlessness that was produced by them, I scar myself. I scar myself by making bad choices, getting into relationships that are bad, and self sabotage. In a way I am a "cutter" but instead of physically...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 27, 2010

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    when I was 4 or 5 years old I found my 6 month

    old sister dead.. it always haunts me...
    fOrEvErYoURs321 fOrEvErYoURs321 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    How To Overcome Scar Deformity

    I had a car accident 3 months ago where my face went into my windscreen, i had a chunck of skin taken out from half of my eyebrow and just above my eyelid, i had to have a skin graft, so no hair will ever grow back on my eyebrow, iam only 28 years old, and i look horrible! The...
    angiesmithy angiesmithy 26-30 7 Responses May 5, 2011

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    Scars Keep Me Going

    I know why we do itthere are all different reasonsfor some it is the bloodfor some it is the releasefor some they just like the painIt’s the only pain they can controlfor others it is the sense of being in controlbut for me it is the scarsthose are what I cravefor they are...
    FinallyBeingReal FinallyBeingReal 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2012

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    I Have Seen More Then Most People

    I fight my own demons of my past. I have night terrors and nightmares every night. flash backs, wishful thinking, and feeling the pain that the past has giving me. I have scares that may never heal in my lifetime. My memories get so so so overwhelming that i have tried to commit...
    PunkCowgirl PunkCowgirl 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 5, 2009

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    Just bought myself a hungry man turkey dinner

    for thanksgiving. Will be alone this year.
    lionessstrong lionessstrong 46-50, F Nov 14, 2014

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    What Becomes Of The Broken Hearted

    Just lately a series of events has triggered of some emotions i was hoping had been put to bed.One thing has returned to my mind and is at the forefront of my attention. My chest is tight and my head is full of thought.I want to cry again as well when i think of how little she...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 8, 2012

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    And........

    THAT'S WHY I AM THE WAY I AM. OH, I'M MUCH BETTER NOW BUT THERE ARE STILL PARTS OF ME THAT HIDE. PARTS OF ME THAT MAY NEVER SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY OR KNOW THE WARMTH OF LOVE. THERE ARE DEMONS INSIDE THAT TIE BITS OF ME UP & I CAN NEVER GET AWAY. I NEVER USE TO CARE THAT THEY...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 9, 2009

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    School Mainly

    What can I say? CHildren are cruel..they say whatever they want..not knowing or giving a damn that the things they say possibly will effect a person in the long run..
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    Down Beckley Ave. she's prolly 16,

    maybe younger, little malnourished body, stomach growling from hunger, she's posted on the corner waiting to get paid, by nasty n***@$ looking to get suc*3d up or l@!d, they tell her what she's worth, ten, maybe five, she takes it cuz out here, we're tought anything to...
    heysmellthis heysmellthis 26-30, M Dec 27, 2014

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    energymustmove energymustmove 18-21, F Apr 21

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    Hard.

    the scars are the memories. of how i was. of how there is a chance i could be like that again. it scares me. and it's really hard to not act on those impulses. when i feel like doing those things again, the scars are a reminder. a constant reminder.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2009

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    Sometimes, you find yourself somewhere you

    never expected to be. Sometimes life forks and you have to make a decision then and there. Sometimes, the choice isn't a choice, but an eventuality. I'm happy with where I am. Even if I'm not where I want to be. It's where I need to be.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 22

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    Cry

    I never cry. It's not because I have no feelings. It's not because I'm numb or anything. Sometimes I want to cry, just to release those feelings.. But I don't know how to. Tears just don't come no matter how hard I try. I even poked myself in the eye once, just to get them...
    xSilverWillowx xSilverWillowx 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 21, 2011

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    I Am Not In As Bad Of A Position As Some

    My memories are mostly near and dear to me. Some are not, but most are. This is mainly why I become overwhelmed. Things are so lame now, I think back to times when things were great. I wish I could travel back and become lost in the moment, never to return. The bad memories haunt...
    TheEvilLeaper TheEvilLeaper 26-30, M Jan 16, 2011

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    Teamouse Teamouse 26-30, F 15 hrs ago

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    (Not doing it for attention or whatever.. Just sharing my own story) They just remind me of times where it just got too much for me :/ I hate it.. I hate the feeling of put down...
    k33024w k33024w 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I sometimes have these strange memories of certain shows I use to watch as a child. One memory I have is an episode of punky brewster where the school was having a dress up where...
    jbm1984 jbm1984 31-35, F 2 days ago

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    I have quite a few. Is there any natural technique to make them fade? Just curious.
    MaddieIsOdd MaddieIsOdd 16-17, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    Hi.im a 29 year old male and this is my story.iv started getting acne from the age 13 up until 24.i wasnt bad looking at all.school was torture,i hated going to school and would...
    bluemetalx bluemetalx 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    I was 17 years old and 3 months pregnant when I met him. I was all alone and so scared. We immediately took to each other and fell in love quick. It wasn't until after I had my son...
    onlyhuman1 onlyhuman1 26-30, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    My own father told me in my face when I was 19 that he didn't want to raise a disabled child. So he's prejudiced over me? Nice wonderful Dad. He is not my dad, and He will never be...
    noaht43 noaht43 41-45, T 4 days ago

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    I've never met my father. We live in the same country and I've spoken with him on phone,but he's refused to meet me. I don't know what my father looks like and don't know what...
    Fenicethered Fenicethered 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    You know what I hate the most is that my dad dissent smoke weed or get drunk all of the time and beat me. He is completely sober when he beats me. To think that he hates me that...
    misprisy101 misprisy101 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Cue the daddy issues haha **** those bastards who don't have the ability to take responsibility for their actions You don't need him :)
    mel7leo mel7leo 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I last saw my dad at the age of four, and I only have a few memories of him. Mainly involving his addiction to alcohol, he loved it more than me I could say. Honestly, his...
    blazinbree blazinbree 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm covered in scars , not that I'm a tough guy or anything , just accident prone lol
    wishingwellguy wishingwellguy 36-40, M a week ago

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    I just want to forget all those memories and finally move on. If there's any short cut to this I will take it.
    Asereht Asereht 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    I'm considering surgery. it's my left arm. Anyone who got surgery wants to share experience? cost wise etc side effects blah blah.
    stabbedtoceasersalad stabbedtoceasersalad 18-21, F Jul 21

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    I have so many memories tucked away inside. A few that I could throw away and care to relive but most of them I would repeat over and over again. When asked my most memorable...
    HiddenGems HiddenGems 46-50, F Jul 21

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    Hi everyone. My dad passed away last year and I'm still finding it hard to cope with his loss. Unfortunately he took on a a woman who was to take on the role has his carer, only...
    othello70 othello70 41-45, M Jul 19

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    I remember childish hopes And impromptu dances Moments that have faded now Left are but memories of what I had And regret of what could have been.
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 18

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    scars only Christ can heal. mine are deep and from time to time they reopen.
    amymayoral01 amymayoral01 51-55, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    "Those with the deepest scars are the strongest people you know."----Me Those words describe me well. I'm amazing because all I've overcome. Some of my scars run deep, but I...
    RhombusInTheSquare RhombusInTheSquare 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    I am going to take the opportunity right now to vent. I am aware that there are many other people going through more stressful things in their lives. And because of that I have a...
    dreamingquietly04 dreamingquietly04 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    **Definite Trigger Warning** I struggle with depression, bipolar disorder, mood swings, and PTSD every day. It was getting better for awhile, but I screwed up. I messed up my...
    Whobody Whobody 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 16

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    Its hard when you feel unconfident about your body let alone adding the fact you have marks/burns/scars that you do not wish for others to notice. I have numerous over random...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 16