I Am Overwhelmed By My Memories and My Scars

No matter how hard I try, how much therapy I do, I can never seem to let go of the demons in my mind 460 People

    energymustmove energymustmove
    18-21, F
    Apr 21, 2015

    when you love someone !

    ! but when she says move on .. Your life is in hell
    smaimran smaimran
    22-25, M
    Dec 18, 2015

    I don't know why but everything I did in the

    past has come back and is really upsetting me.. and everything good I've done feels like a lie now. everyone says this makes you stronger but it hasn't it's only disappeared and then came back worse...
    SSxREAPERx1998 SSxREAPERx1998
    18-21, M
    1 Response Dec 14, 2015

    School Mainly

    What can I say? CHildren are cruel..they say whatever they want..not knowing or giving a damn that the things they say possibly will effect a person in the long run..
    lostprophet lostprophet
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 24, 2009

    The first cut is the deepest opening your soul

    for the others to come in and to rob you of your peace of mind making every second hell.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 26, 2014

    I Have Seen More Then Most People

    I fight my own demons of my past. I have night terrors and nightmares every night. flash backs, wishful thinking, and feeling the pain that the past has giving me. I have scares that may never heal in my lifetime. My memories get so so so overwhelming that i have tried to commit...
    PunkCowgirl PunkCowgirl
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Apr 5, 2009

    Scars Keep Me Going

    I know why we do itthere are all different reasonsfor some it is the bloodfor some it is the releasefor some they just like the painIt’s the only pain they can controlfor others it is the sense of being in controlbut for me it is the scarsthose are what I cravefor they are...
    FinallyBeingReal FinallyBeingReal
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 8, 2012

    I Am Over Whelmed At Times......

    I do get over whelmed at times, they take me over for a short time....then I fight and push them back. It keeps me in check at times of who I am, and how I got here, and what mes me who I am today....but sometimes they can be a bit much. My scars run deep....so when the triggers...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 23, 2010

    I still suffer daily from the things

    that have happened to me. You never forget, you just learn to cope with them. There's a lot of things I wish I could forget though. So many things..
    purpleglitter01 purpleglitter01
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Feb 16

    And........

    THAT'S WHY I AM THE WAY I AM. OH, I'M MUCH BETTER NOW BUT THERE ARE STILL PARTS OF ME THAT HIDE. PARTS OF ME THAT MAY NEVER SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY OR KNOW THE WARMTH OF LOVE. THERE ARE DEMONS INSIDE THAT TIE BITS OF ME UP & I CAN NEVER GET AWAY. I NEVER USE TO CARE THAT THEY...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 9, 2009

    I Am Not In As Bad Of A Position As Some

    My memories are mostly near and dear to me. Some are not, but most are. This is mainly why I become overwhelmed. Things are so lame now, I think back to times when things were great. I wish I could travel back and become lost in the moment, never to return. The bad memories haunt...
    TheEvilLeaper TheEvilLeaper
    26-30, M
    Jan 16, 2011

    when I try to look back

    or whenever I happen to pass by memories, I just can't help but draw a smile on my face...
    hummingtree hummingtree
    16-17, F
    Dec 26, 2014

    Most of the time I'm fine with myself,

    but there are some days where everything comes rushing back and I need my alone time to cry it out
    GCWhiskey GCWhiskey
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jul 9, 2015

    I need to go back to therapy becuase I almost

    broke my record of no self harm. I took a dry erase marker and started drawing on my leg when the urge was strong but I ended up just jabbing the tip into my leg to make scar like marks. I was shaking when I realized what happened. I don't like therapy, but I'll be damned before...
    Arkiex Arkiex
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 29

    when I was 4 or 5 years old I found my 6 month

    old sister dead.. it always haunts me...
    foReverYOURS3211 foReverYOURS3211
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Dec 26, 2014

    How To Overcome Scar Deformity

    I had a car accident 3 months ago where my face went into my windscreen, i had a chunck of skin taken out from half of my eyebrow and just above my eyelid, i had to have a skin graft, so no hair will ever grow back on my eyebrow, iam only 28 years old, and i look horrible! The...
    angiesmithy angiesmithy
    26-30
    6 Responses May 5, 2011

    Down Beckley Ave. she's prolly 16,

    maybe younger, little malnourished body, stomach growling from hunger, she's posted on the corner waiting to get paid, by nasty n***@$ looking to get suc*3d up or l@!d, they tell her what she's worth, ten, maybe five, she takes it cuz out here, we're tought anything to...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 27, 2014

    What Becomes Of The Broken Hearted

    Just lately a series of events has triggered of some emotions i was hoping had been put to bed.One thing has returned to my mind and is at the forefront of my attention. My chest is tight and my head is full of thought.I want to cry again as well when i think of how little she...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 8, 2012

    Damn, what am I going to do?

    I have worried myself sick, I am overwhelmed nauseous and heartbroken. I am innocent, but accused of all sorts of evil. I try to cope by reciting bible scriptures and positivity and by living a good fulfilling life and by keeping a high degree of integrity even in thought and...
    cutiepitunia cutiepitunia
    70+
    2 Responses Dec 23, 2015

    Just bought myself a hungry man turkey dinner

    for thanksgiving. Will be alone this year.
    lionessstrong lionessstrong
    46-50, F
    Nov 14, 2014

    Sometimes, you find yourself somewhere you

    never expected to be. Sometimes life forks and you have to make a decision then and there. Sometimes, the choice isn't a choice, but an eventuality. I'm happy with where I am. Even if I'm not where I want to be. It's where I need to be.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 22, 2015

    I'm Covered In Hate

    recently I've been unable to look away from the fact that I am almost completely covered in scars. I'm getting a tattoo soon and there is only one place I can get it cuz everywhere else I'm to scarred.This is a map over my scars over my body and I haven't been able to take my...
    NoatoNoaki NoatoNoaki
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Sep 23, 2011

    Cry

    I never cry. It's not because I have no feelings. It's not because I'm numb or anything. Sometimes I want to cry, just to release those feelings.. But I don't know how to. Tears just don't come no matter how hard I try. I even poked myself in the eye once, just to get them...
    xSilverWillowx xSilverWillowx
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 21, 2011

    Hard.

    the scars are the memories. of how i was. of how there is a chance i could be like that again. it scares me. and it's really hard to not act on those impulses. when i feel like doing those things again, the scars are a reminder. a constant reminder.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 12, 2009

    Scarring Myself

    I was recently thinking about how, because of my scars and the feelings of worthlessness that was produced by them, I scar myself. I scar myself by making bad choices, getting into relationships that are bad, and self sabotage. In a way I am a "cutter" but instead of physically...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 27, 2010

    This Will Help You.

    http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm watch the videos on that page with an open mind. Peace.
    tyrian69 tyrian69
    22-25, M
    Sep 12, 2012

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