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I Am Overwhelmed By My Memories and My Scars

No matter how hard I try, how much therapy I do, I can never seem to let go of the demons in my mind 339 People

    Just bought myself a hungry man turkey dinner

    for thanksgiving. Will be alone this year.
    lionessstrong lionessstrong 46-50, F Nov 14, 2014

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    when I was 4 or 5 years old I found my 6 month

    old sister dead.. it always haunts me...
    fOrEvErYoURs321 fOrEvErYoURs321 26-30, F 4 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    Cry

    I never cry. It's not because I have no feelings. It's not because I'm numb or anything. Sometimes I want to cry, just to release those feelings.. But I don't know how to. Tears just don't come no matter how hard I try. I even poked myself in the eye once, just to get them...
    xSilverWillowx xSilverWillowx 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 21, 2011

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    School Mainly

    What can I say? CHildren are cruel..they say whatever they want..not knowing or giving a damn that the things they say possibly will effect a person in the long run..
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    when I try to look back

    or whenever I happen to pass by memories, I just can't help but draw a smile on my face...
    hummingtree hummingtree 13-15, F Dec 26, 2014

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    Down Beckley Ave. she's prolly 16,

    maybe younger, little malnourished body, stomach growling from hunger, she's posted on the corner waiting to get paid, by nasty n***@$ looking to get suc*3d up or l@!d, they tell her what she's worth, ten, maybe five, she takes it cuz out here, we're tought anything to...
    heysmellthis heysmellthis 26-30, M Dec 27, 2014

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    I Have Seen More Then Most People

    I fight my own demons of my past. I have night terrors and nightmares every night. flash backs, wishful thinking, and feeling the pain that the past has giving me. I have scares that may never heal in my lifetime. My memories get so so so overwhelming that i have tried to commit...
    PunkCowgirl PunkCowgirl 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 5, 2009

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    Scars Keep Me Going

    I know why we do itthere are all different reasonsfor some it is the bloodfor some it is the releasefor some they just like the painIt’s the only pain they can controlfor others it is the sense of being in controlbut for me it is the scarsthose are what I cravefor they are...
    FinallyBeingReal FinallyBeingReal 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2012

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    I'm Covered In Hate

    recently I've been unable to look away from the fact that I am almost completely covered in scars. I'm getting a tattoo soon and there is only one place I can get it cuz everywhere else I'm to scarred.This is a map over my scars over my body and I haven't been able to take my...
    NoatoNoaki NoatoNoaki 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 23, 2011

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    Scarring Myself

    I was recently thinking about how, because of my scars and the feelings of worthlessness that was produced by them, I scar myself. I scar myself by making bad choices, getting into relationships that are bad, and self sabotage. In a way I am a "cutter" but instead of physically...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 27, 2010

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    Sometimes, you find yourself somewhere you

    never expected to be. Sometimes life forks and you have to make a decision then and there. Sometimes, the choice isn't a choice, but an eventuality. I'm happy with where I am. Even if I'm not where I want to be. It's where I need to be.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 22

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    This Will Help You.

    http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm watch the videos on that page with an open mind. Peace.
    tyrian69 tyrian69 22-25, M Sep 12, 2012

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    I Am Not In As Bad Of A Position As Some

    My memories are mostly near and dear to me. Some are not, but most are. This is mainly why I become overwhelmed. Things are so lame now, I think back to times when things were great. I wish I could travel back and become lost in the moment, never to return. The bad memories haunt...
    TheEvilLeaper TheEvilLeaper 26-30, M Jan 16, 2011

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    And........

    THAT'S WHY I AM THE WAY I AM. OH, I'M MUCH BETTER NOW BUT THERE ARE STILL PARTS OF ME THAT HIDE. PARTS OF ME THAT MAY NEVER SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY OR KNOW THE WARMTH OF LOVE. THERE ARE DEMONS INSIDE THAT TIE BITS OF ME UP & I CAN NEVER GET AWAY. I NEVER USE TO CARE THAT THEY...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 9, 2009

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    energymustmove energymustmove 18-21, F Apr 21

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    Hard.

    the scars are the memories. of how i was. of how there is a chance i could be like that again. it scares me. and it's really hard to not act on those impulses. when i feel like doing those things again, the scars are a reminder. a constant reminder.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2009

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    What Becomes Of The Broken Hearted

    Just lately a series of events has triggered of some emotions i was hoping had been put to bed.One thing has returned to my mind and is at the forefront of my attention. My chest is tight and my head is full of thought.I want to cry again as well when i think of how little she...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 8, 2012

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    How To Overcome Scar Deformity

    I had a car accident 3 months ago where my face went into my windscreen, i had a chunck of skin taken out from half of my eyebrow and just above my eyelid, i had to have a skin graft, so no hair will ever grow back on my eyebrow, iam only 28 years old, and i look horrible! The...
    angiesmithy angiesmithy 26-30 7 Responses May 5, 2011

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    The first cut is the deepest opening your soul

    for the others to come in and to rob you of your peace of mind making every second hell.
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M Dec 26, 2014

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    I Am Over Whelmed At Times......

    I do get over whelmed at times, they take me over for a short time....then I fight and push them back. It keeps me in check at times of who I am, and how I got here, and what mes me who I am today....but sometimes they can be a bit much. My scars run deep....so when the triggers...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 23, 2010

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    I remember a birthday of mine were I was blowing out the candles and accidentally spit all over the cake... 😓
    Youcanthandlemyusername Youcanthandlemyusername 22-25, M 2 hrs ago

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    How will you know I am Hurting, if you cannot see my Pain? To wear it on my body, tells what words Cannot Explain.... You don't see the scars....you don't see the tears....because...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    When I get hurt, or when my emotions are played with, and I have to back away, and look at things from a different point of view, and people ask me for their help, and to be there...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I have over 40 scars, one on each wrist and more than 20 on the outside of each thigh. The ones on my wrists are hardly visible. The ones on my thighs are a different story. The...
    quirkygirl520 quirkygirl520 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I have plenty on my wrist , thighs , waist The ones on my wrist aren't that bad On my tights they are really bad so I hardly wear shorts The ones on my waist are very horrible...
    liliovoxo liliovoxo 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    memories of YOU will never be forgotten... simple or not..there You will always be... you are such a preacher but not a good follower... but i know You just wanted me to be better...
    realhappiness realhappiness 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    My memories help me to cope with the those that I have lost, I have not seen my daughters in nearly four years, but those memories that I have of them when they were little help me...
    shamrock40 shamrock40 51-55, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Which ones? My self harm scars tell the story of my depression and adventure of diving off the deep end and my medical scars show the physical pain I've suffered. Then there's...
    Spfxartist13 Spfxartist13 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I think I was about 5 when this happened but I remember it being hot and my sister and I being young used to walk around in our undies ( as kids do ) and mum called us for dinner I...
    Mistycat99 Mistycat99 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    I just spent part of my morning with my Dad whom I haven't seen properly in like 4 years since he and my Mum separated. It was so awkward, he acted as if we were really close...
    mizzcomplicated mizzcomplicated 22-25, F Jun 27

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    I don't really have memories or the sure knowledge that I have had a past life but I get feelings. I remember the feeling of dying. I was old and it seemed like I was dying of a...
    Shade3711 Shade3711 18-21, M Jun 27

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    I doubt there is anyone who doesn’t… We’re human and all humans go through some sort of pain. And wounds don’t have to be physical, most for us humans are unseen… I’ve...
    JadeKnight JadeKnight 26-30, T Jun 27

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    My kitty scratched me... It's alright though, I held her paws and rubbed her belly, she got kinda mad.. And then 😾💥💥😱
    DoorMattress DoorMattress 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 26

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    Sometimes it just feels like nobody really cares anymore. Every friend you once thought you had fades into the darkness. You're left to face each battle, standing as a lone wolf...
    xmoody25 xmoody25 18-21, M Jun 26

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    Fathers day was such an awkward moment and hurtful time for me. His seated right there, as people go all "to all fathers" and i fake puke in my head. Dude hasn't done **** for us...
    suziewuzie suziewuzie 22-25, F Jun 26

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    I found this really awesome. Aside from the fact that it looks like this person is smearing poop across their stomach with their finger...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, T 1 Response Jun 26

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    Not self harm, just falling down and scrapes and stuff like that
    DoorMattress DoorMattress 13-15, M Jun 25

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    Jess table saws ann such I wanna sang yall a song Mostly to the women folk Here it goes .... I in dee mood fer love Jess cause yer arrr near me Thankie
    wolffive wolffive 51-55, M 1 Response Jun 22

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    I have severe depression. This past year, I have been in remission, but ever since a mechanic mechanically totaled my car (and doesn't want to fix or take responsibility for it), I...
    LazyEyeCrazyI LazyEyeCrazyI 18-21, F Jun 22

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    I'm so sick of being left out. I live in such a small area with so few people and the few friends I have are the only way I have to get out of the house. But I get left out all the...
    papayalyn papayalyn 16-17, F Jun 19

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    Some smells always bring back certain memories. like every time I smell gardenia. I remember bringing my great uncle gardenia flowers the morning before he died. I was at my...
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F Jun 19

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    I have always had to be so strong my entire life and I always toughed it out with my head up. I'm wondering now, why won't it just be easy for me sometimes?
    Pk3456 Pk3456 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 19

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    Clean laundry and Vanilla bring my grandma back to life, at least in my memories. Whenever I am doing my laundry I take a moment to smell and hug the fluffiest item, just to feel...
    ThatGirlIsPoison23 ThatGirlIsPoison23 26-30, F Jun 19

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