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I Am Overwhelmed By My Memories and My Scars

No matter how hard I try, how much therapy I do, I can never seem to let go of the demons in my mind 221 People

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    What can I say? CHildren are cruel..they say whatever they want..not knowing or giving a damn that the things they say possibly will effect a person in the long run..
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    This Will Help You.

    http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm watch the videos on that page with an open mind. Peace.
    tyrian69 tyrian69 22-25, M Sep 12, 2012

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    I'm Covered In Hate

    recently I've been unable to look away from the fact that I am almost completely covered in scars. I'm getting a tattoo soon and there is only one place I can get it cuz everywhere else I'm to scarred.This is a map over my scars over my body and I haven't been able to take my...
    NoatoNoaki NoatoNoaki 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 23, 2011

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    And........

    THAT'S WHY I AM THE WAY I AM. OH, I'M MUCH BETTER NOW BUT THERE ARE STILL PARTS OF ME THAT HIDE. PARTS OF ME THAT MAY NEVER SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY OR KNOW THE WARMTH OF LOVE. THERE ARE DEMONS INSIDE THAT TIE BITS OF ME UP & I CAN NEVER GET AWAY. I NEVER USE TO CARE THAT THEY...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 9, 2009

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    I Am Over Whelmed At Times......

    I do get over whelmed at times, they take me over for a short time....then I fight and push them back. It keeps me in check at times of who I am, and how I got here, and what mes me who I am today....but sometimes they can be a bit much. My scars run deep....so when the triggers...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 23, 2010

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    I Have Seen More Then Most People

    I fight my own demons of my past. I have night terrors and nightmares every night. flash backs, wishful thinking, and feeling the pain that the past has giving me. I have scares that may never heal in my lifetime. My memories get so so so overwhelming that i have tried to commit...
    PunkCowgirl PunkCowgirl 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 5, 2009

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    Just bought myself a hungry man turkey dinner

    for thanksgiving. Will be alone this year.
    lionessstrong lionessstrong 46-50, F 1 Response Nov 14

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    Hard.

    the scars are the memories. of how i was. of how there is a chance i could be like that again. it scares me. and it's really hard to not act on those impulses. when i feel like doing those things again, the scars are a reminder. a constant reminder.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2009

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    Scarring Myself

    I was recently thinking about how, because of my scars and the feelings of worthlessness that was produced by them, I scar myself. I scar myself by making bad choices, getting into relationships that are bad, and self sabotage. In a way I am a "cutter" but instead of physically...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 27, 2010

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    How To Overcome Scar Deformity

    I had a car accident 3 months ago where my face went into my windscreen, i had a chunck of skin taken out from half of my eyebrow and just above my eyelid, i had to have a skin graft, so no hair will ever grow back on my eyebrow, iam only 28 years old, and i look horrible! The...
    angiesmithy angiesmithy 26-30 6 Responses May 5, 2011

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    Cry

    I never cry. It's not because I have no feelings. It's not because I'm numb or anything. Sometimes I want to cry, just to release those feelings.. But I don't know how to. Tears just don't come no matter how hard I try. I even poked myself in the eye once, just to get them...
    xSilverWillowx xSilverWillowx 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 21, 2011

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    What Becomes Of The Broken Hearted

    Just lately a series of events has triggered of some emotions i was hoping had been put to bed.One thing has returned to my mind and is at the forefront of my attention. My chest is tight and my head is full of thought.I want to cry again as well when i think of how little she...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 8, 2012

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    I Am Not In As Bad Of A Position As Some

    My memories are mostly near and dear to me. Some are not, but most are. This is mainly why I become overwhelmed. Things are so lame now, I think back to times when things were great. I wish I could travel back and become lost in the moment, never to return. The bad memories haunt...
    TheEvilLeaper TheEvilLeaper 26-30, M Jan 16, 2011

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    Scars Keep Me Going

    I know why we do itthere are all different reasonsfor some it is the bloodfor some it is the releasefor some they just like the painIt’s the only pain they can controlfor others it is the sense of being in controlbut for me it is the scarsthose are what I cravefor they are...
    FinallyBeingReal FinallyBeingReal 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2012

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    While i understand that scars can represent a whole different meaning to others, I think scars look awesome on myself and other people. I like the way they look, feel, and that...
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    Slowly I'm becoming her. The one who lies distant within my own memories. My memories distant but so clear. Questions still run wild inside my messed up mind. They lie with...
    BeautifulSin BeautifulSin 16-17, F Nov 20

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    uhhh i hate it!!!! it makes me feel so powerless.. when i cant control my feelings & thoughts... & then i just shut verything out & get rid of anything that makes me feel...
    Bayzoo Bayzoo 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 18

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    Sometimes I just have so much to do I can't think straight and end up with a song bouncing around my head and I don't even notice it and I can't figure out why I'm seeing in colors...
    whaliaj whaliaj 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 21

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    I get overwhelmed by housework. For some reason it really stresses me out and I get criticized that whatever I do is never enough by my parents. It's exhausting to have them judge...
    TheWicked TheWicked 26-30, F Nov 24

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    I just feel like I should have done things differently. I'm 22, married, have a baby, a house, a cat and dog, I'm a full time student, and a full time employee. I'm stressed. To...
    laDamedeFer laDamedeFer 22-25, F Nov 24

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    When I get overwhelmed I tend to shut down. I also tend to overwhelm others and not know when to slow my pace down to an acceptable level. As Paul Simon said, "the nearer your...
    tryingagainII tryingagainII 56-60, M Nov 30

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    I seriously feel overwhelmed that I stopped talking to the loved ones who are ill. I am a big crier, so I know that I won't be able to talk to them and I will only end up crying. I...
    Trishhh Trishhh 22-25, F Dec 1

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    Good memories are the most important thing in my life right now. Without good memories, the silence will be a deadly rain that I must take shelter from. Although my life has not...
    FunnyLookingCorpse FunnyLookingCorpse 18-21, M Dec 9

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    If you pointed to any one of my scars I could tell you exactly when I did it and why I did it. A year and a half ago my self-harm was worse than it was now. I'm slowly geting...
    Jessica4729 Jessica4729 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 28

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    Hi , I'm new here . I not actually new to this website as I have read some of the post before . I remember how I find it so sick when I read someone post about how they cut...
    triplexA triplexA 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    I feel the memories flow past me like when the wind catches strains of my hair and the feeling of an uplifting from the heavens as I gaze out the window at the mountians, I feel...
    hartbri12 hartbri12 31-35, F Nov 22

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    So it's raining now. I was late today,about 15mins..Not good,I arrived at 6.45 am. Weird dream, that's the culprit. I'm on duty with my female colleague today so its kinda...
    DNightTrain DNightTrain 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 21

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    I had a rotten dad that was "there" but we all wished he wasn't, because all he did was yell, and beat us with belts and put us down. But because he stayed and "took care of us...
    borielis borielis 61-65, M Nov 30

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    I've decided I will always do the things that scare me most so that I can look back on my life without regrets. I will travel the world and meet people, learn about their culture...
    thisISalessa thisISalessa 16-17, F Dec 2

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    Ah yes. Whitehorse cadet summer training Center, July 20th-August 4th 2014. Best time of my life. Even the bad parts! Domino dancing by Petshop boys brings back some great memories...
    louisrcac louisrcac 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 10

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    From long long time i like old stuff( cars,guns,desert)And i am always atracted to redneck's....i mean their life.WHen i play PC games i always buy the old cars like 30's cars.And...
    doomster123 doomster123 13-15, M Dec 10

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    Ever saw something that triggered so many memories and made you cry?
    whyusteens whyusteens 13-15, F 6 Responses 3 days ago

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    This afternoon, I cut her initial E into the front of my upper right thigh, in her writing style. I’m hoping I’ve cut myself deeply enough so the scar will be permanently...
    vinvicau vinvicau 66-70, M 2 hrs ago

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    Gah! Someone please just hug me. I can't take it anymore. Make it all stop and on pause. :'(
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 18

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    Too many sounds can cause me to be overstimulated to touch. http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sensory_overload
    JJjenniejones JJjenniejones 41-45, F Nov 20

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    Right now there is too damn much going on in my life. I can't take one more thing going wrong. And I know I sound like a broken record because I hit the same wall over and over. I...
    Ludavin Ludavin 46-50, F 2 Responses Nov 21

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    Costco is the worst for this.
    SunshineOverClouds SunshineOverClouds 26-30, F Nov 23

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    Hello! This is all very new to me , as far as being open about this. I never really had a word for the problems I had till I finally did some research . It's been a constant...
    thepaintingstared thepaintingstared 18-21 Nov 23

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    I was in college when my neck started to get stuck in a left tilt; my head was bent to the left for a day. I was in a stressful field and thought it was due to overnight projects...
    llatfortyj llatfortyj 36-40, M 1 Response Nov 25

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    This is both the most beautiful blessing, and the most soul crushing curse. I am struggling to find a balance between the polar opposites of this gift. Thanks to a Sea Salt bath...
    innervoiceoutloud innervoiceoutloud 36-40, F Dec 1

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    Really who doesn't? Being in fourth year of a bachelor's can be pretty stressful, especially when you agree to write term papers for a group project by yourself (I've had to do...
    JackMann JackMann 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 2

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    A lot of people are crazy, cruel and negative. They got a little too much time on their hands to discuss everybody else. I have a limited amount of energy to blow in a day. I'd...
    DavidG1986i DavidG1986i 26-30, M a week ago

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    I've just broken up with my partner of 10 years and I don't know how to feel I have mixed feelings
    Dondouglas Dondouglas 36-40, F 4 days ago

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