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I Am Overwhelmed By My Memories and My Scars

No matter how hard I try, how much therapy I do, I can never seem to let go of the demons in my mind 336 People

    Cry

    I never cry. It's not because I have no feelings. It's not because I'm numb or anything. Sometimes I want to cry, just to release those feelings.. But I don't know how to. Tears just don't come no matter how hard I try. I even poked myself in the eye once, just to get them...
    xSilverWillowx xSilverWillowx 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 21, 2011

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    How To Overcome Scar Deformity

    I had a car accident 3 months ago where my face went into my windscreen, i had a chunck of skin taken out from half of my eyebrow and just above my eyelid, i had to have a skin graft, so no hair will ever grow back on my eyebrow, iam only 28 years old, and i look horrible! The...
    angiesmithy angiesmithy 26-30 7 Responses May 5, 2011

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    This Will Help You.

    http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm watch the videos on that page with an open mind. Peace.
    tyrian69 tyrian69 22-25, M Sep 12, 2012

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    when I try to look back

    or whenever I happen to pass by memories, I just can't help but draw a smile on my face...
    hummingtree hummingtree 13-15, F Dec 26, 2014

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    And........

    THAT'S WHY I AM THE WAY I AM. OH, I'M MUCH BETTER NOW BUT THERE ARE STILL PARTS OF ME THAT HIDE. PARTS OF ME THAT MAY NEVER SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY OR KNOW THE WARMTH OF LOVE. THERE ARE DEMONS INSIDE THAT TIE BITS OF ME UP & I CAN NEVER GET AWAY. I NEVER USE TO CARE THAT THEY...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 9, 2009

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    when I was 4 or 5 years old I found my 6 month

    old sister dead.. it always haunts me...
    fOrEvErYoURs321 fOrEvErYoURs321 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    School Mainly

    What can I say? CHildren are cruel..they say whatever they want..not knowing or giving a damn that the things they say possibly will effect a person in the long run..
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    The first cut is the deepest opening your soul

    for the others to come in and to rob you of your peace of mind making every second hell.
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M Dec 26, 2014

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    Down Beckley Ave. she's prolly 16,

    maybe younger, little malnourished body, stomach growling from hunger, she's posted on the corner waiting to get paid, by nasty n***@$ looking to get suc*3d up or l@!d, they tell her what she's worth, ten, maybe five, she takes it cuz out here, we're tought anything to...
    heysmellthis heysmellthis 26-30, M Dec 27, 2014

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    energymustmove energymustmove 18-21, F Apr 21

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    Hard.

    the scars are the memories. of how i was. of how there is a chance i could be like that again. it scares me. and it's really hard to not act on those impulses. when i feel like doing those things again, the scars are a reminder. a constant reminder.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2009

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    What Becomes Of The Broken Hearted

    Just lately a series of events has triggered of some emotions i was hoping had been put to bed.One thing has returned to my mind and is at the forefront of my attention. My chest is tight and my head is full of thought.I want to cry again as well when i think of how little she...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 8, 2012

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    I Have Seen More Then Most People

    I fight my own demons of my past. I have night terrors and nightmares every night. flash backs, wishful thinking, and feeling the pain that the past has giving me. I have scares that may never heal in my lifetime. My memories get so so so overwhelming that i have tried to commit...
    PunkCowgirl PunkCowgirl 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 5, 2009

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    Scarring Myself

    I was recently thinking about how, because of my scars and the feelings of worthlessness that was produced by them, I scar myself. I scar myself by making bad choices, getting into relationships that are bad, and self sabotage. In a way I am a "cutter" but instead of physically...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 27, 2010

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    I'm Covered In Hate

    recently I've been unable to look away from the fact that I am almost completely covered in scars. I'm getting a tattoo soon and there is only one place I can get it cuz everywhere else I'm to scarred.This is a map over my scars over my body and I haven't been able to take my...
    NoatoNoaki NoatoNoaki 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 23, 2011

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    I Am Over Whelmed At Times......

    I do get over whelmed at times, they take me over for a short time....then I fight and push them back. It keeps me in check at times of who I am, and how I got here, and what mes me who I am today....but sometimes they can be a bit much. My scars run deep....so when the triggers...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 23, 2010

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    Scars Keep Me Going

    I know why we do itthere are all different reasonsfor some it is the bloodfor some it is the releasefor some they just like the painIt’s the only pain they can controlfor others it is the sense of being in controlbut for me it is the scarsthose are what I cravefor they are...
    FinallyBeingReal FinallyBeingReal 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2012

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    I Am Not In As Bad Of A Position As Some

    My memories are mostly near and dear to me. Some are not, but most are. This is mainly why I become overwhelmed. Things are so lame now, I think back to times when things were great. I wish I could travel back and become lost in the moment, never to return. The bad memories haunt...
    TheEvilLeaper TheEvilLeaper 26-30, M Jan 16, 2011

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    Just bought myself a hungry man turkey dinner

    for thanksgiving. Will be alone this year.
    lionessstrong lionessstrong 46-50, F Nov 14, 2014

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    Sometimes, you find yourself somewhere you

    never expected to be. Sometimes life forks and you have to make a decision then and there. Sometimes, the choice isn't a choice, but an eventuality. I'm happy with where I am. Even if I'm not where I want to be. It's where I need to be.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 22

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    Related Experiences

    I actually wanted to share this very personal message to everyone with self-harm scars... This isn't anything to prevent you to get more or anything like that, but it's a haunting...
    HighEndofYourLow HighEndofYourLow 18-21, F 2 Responses May 7

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    They cover my forearms, which I have put tattoos over to cover some of the scars. Not all the scars on my forearms are from me, such as an eraser burn scar (although I have given...
    dontyouunderstand dontyouunderstand 18-21 May 3

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    My little sister crying because she saw that I had scars on my wrists too.
    Franse Franse 22-25, M May 10

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    After almost 1 1/2 years of being married to my husband who has two children, 5 and 8 years old, respectively, from a previous marriage with 50/50 shared custody, I have to...
    SoCalStepmom SoCalStepmom 36-40, F Apr 27

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    Everyone talks about depression as if they know it. But what they don’t know is that depression is a hooded figure standing just outside of a wooden doorway, it’s feeling...
    Sorao88 Sorao88 22-25, M 1 Response May 4

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    I have always thought my entire life that i had severe social anxiety, but i found out today that i was wrong. i read the 22 signs of being a psychic empath on this site: http...
    Otokonoko Otokonoko 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 28

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    I just feel overwhelmed... I'm looking for a job... Kind of half-assing it, because I'm uncertain of where I want to live and I'm not confident in my education or my abilities...
    Orangerocket Orangerocket 36-40, F 3 Responses May 7

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    I used to self harm but I don't anymore. I have scars that I am so insecure about. I'm starting to wear shorts again and when people ask I tell them I was in a four wheeling...
    AttachmentIssues AttachmentIssues 16-17, F 2 Responses May 3

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    my entire left arm is riddled in various scars that I caused except for maybe two. funny thing is I completely forgot about them.
    Cosmicmutt Cosmicmutt 18-21, M May 3

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    A little thing I learned over the past few years... I would like to remind you all that scars can be a beautiful thing. They show people that you know what it's like to hurt.. but...
    HaleyJG HaleyJG 18-21, F 1 Response May 5

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    Ok so, some scars are literally just from a mosquito bite or something small like that from when i was younger, but i have a few, on my arms that are from when i self harmed, i...
    pizzaandmusicarebae pizzaandmusicarebae 22-25, F May 5

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    Scars are beautiful. They show you who is strong and brave enough to stay On this fu#ked up place called life.
    K33024W K33024W 13-15 May 9

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    Yeah I do. It tells stories behind it. I have scars of my own so yep. Got two more to join the collection
    TheKDoomsday TheKDoomsday 16-17, F 1 Response May 12

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    I can't do anything where my legs are shown because if they're shown all I see are scars and nasty words and symbols carved in my skin
    polarbearlove polarbearlove 13-15, F 1 Response May 17

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    I've got keloid scars on my chest and shoulders and their super embarrassing I've let them control my life I'm 25 now how do I overcome this and try and get into a relqtionship? I...
    reaper7021020 reaper7021020 18-21 May 18

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    i think scars and cuts makes you a better person
    DontKnow2013 DontKnow2013 18-21, F 1 Response May 19

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    there are some memories that haunt me , memories i don't like at all, they make it hard for me to stay focused and calm.
    mistywillow mistywillow 22-25, M 1 Response May 8

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    Some times I wish time could erase everything... The feelings, the memories, the faces, the losses...everything.
    GalacticMind GalacticMind 13-15, M 1 Response Apr 30

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    I really wish I could though....all of it. The good ones and bad ones....when I remember the memories I only feel one thing...hurt...past is past...because people like me are gone...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 3

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    I hold on to memories. I let them control me.. I should stop because its just making me so terrible. I remember the good times.. and I Cant move on from them.
    Vanessyi Vanessyi 18-21, F 1 Response May 9

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    London Grammar — Strong This will always bring me back to that room I stayed in an airbnb flat in Bath, England on that cold January day. My host had her music on out loud in...
    littlemisslight littlemisslight 26-30, F May 12

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    Memories are so confusing.The happy moments make us cry and the sad moments make us laugh..
    MaddyBale MaddyBale 18-21, F 1 Response May 16

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    I wish I could just put in a new brain. My PTSD can drive me up the wall with flashbacks. I still don't know all my triggers yet stil...but the ganja bud chill you out && the...
    PartyGuy21 PartyGuy21 18-21, M 3 days ago

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