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I Am Overwhelmed By My Memories and My Scars

No matter how hard I try, how much therapy I do, I can never seem to let go of the demons in my mind 201 People

    How To Overcome Scar Deformity

    I had a car accident 3 months ago where my face went into my windscreen, i had a chunck of skin taken out from half of my eyebrow and just above my eyelid, i had to have a skin graft, so no hair will ever grow back on my eyebrow, iam only 28 years old, and i look horrible! The...
    angiesmithy angiesmithy 26-30 6 Responses May 5, 2011

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    Cry

    I never cry. It's not because I have no feelings. It's not because I'm numb or anything. Sometimes I want to cry, just to release those feelings.. But I don't know how to. Tears just don't come no matter how hard I try. I even poked myself in the eye once, just to get them...
    xSilverWillowx xSilverWillowx 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 21, 2011

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    And........

    THAT'S WHY I AM THE WAY I AM. OH, I'M MUCH BETTER NOW BUT THERE ARE STILL PARTS OF ME THAT HIDE. PARTS OF ME THAT MAY NEVER SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY OR KNOW THE WARMTH OF LOVE. THERE ARE DEMONS INSIDE THAT TIE BITS OF ME UP & I CAN NEVER GET AWAY. I NEVER USE TO CARE THAT THEY...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 9, 2009

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    I Am Over Whelmed At Times......

    I do get over whelmed at times, they take me over for a short time....then I fight and push them back. It keeps me in check at times of who I am, and how I got here, and what mes me who I am today....but sometimes they can be a bit much. My scars run deep....so when the triggers...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 23, 2010

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    Scarring Myself

    I was recently thinking about how, because of my scars and the feelings of worthlessness that was produced by them, I scar myself. I scar myself by making bad choices, getting into relationships that are bad, and self sabotage. In a way I am a "cutter" but instead of physically...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 27, 2010

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    I'm Covered In Hate

    recently I've been unable to look away from the fact that I am almost completely covered in scars. I'm getting a tattoo soon and there is only one place I can get it cuz everywhere else I'm to scarred.This is a map over my scars over my body and I haven't been able to take my...
    NoatoNoaki NoatoNoaki 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 23, 2011

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    Scars Keep Me Going

    I know why we do itthere are all different reasonsfor some it is the bloodfor some it is the releasefor some they just like the painIt’s the only pain they can controlfor others it is the sense of being in controlbut for me it is the scarsthose are what I cravefor they are...
    FinallyBeingReal FinallyBeingReal 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2012

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    I Have Seen More Then Most People

    I fight my own demons of my past. I have night terrors and nightmares every night. flash backs, wishful thinking, and feeling the pain that the past has giving me. I have scares that may never heal in my lifetime. My memories get so so so overwhelming that i have tried to commit...
    PunkCowgirl PunkCowgirl 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 5, 2009

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    I Am Not In As Bad Of A Position As Some

    My memories are mostly near and dear to me. Some are not, but most are. This is mainly why I become overwhelmed. Things are so lame now, I think back to times when things were great. I wish I could travel back and become lost in the moment, never to return. The bad memories haunt...
    TheEvilLeaper TheEvilLeaper 26-30, M Jan 16, 2011

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    This Will Help You.

    http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm watch the videos on that page with an open mind. Peace.
    tyrian69 tyrian69 22-25, M Sep 12, 2012

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    Hard.

    the scars are the memories. of how i was. of how there is a chance i could be like that again. it scares me. and it's really hard to not act on those impulses. when i feel like doing those things again, the scars are a reminder. a constant reminder.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2009

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    School Mainly

    What can I say? CHildren are cruel..they say whatever they want..not knowing or giving a damn that the things they say possibly will effect a person in the long run..
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    What Becomes Of The Broken Hearted

    Just lately a series of events has triggered of some emotions i was hoping had been put to bed.One thing has returned to my mind and is at the forefront of my attention. My chest is tight and my head is full of thought.I want to cry again as well when i think of how little she...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 8, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I have far too many scars that I've ruined myself and my body. I'll never be able to wear short-sleeved shirts ever again. or shorts, skirts or even dresses! What am I doing to...
    InMemoryOfMe InMemoryOfMe 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 29

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    I wish I could have had someone to hug me and tell me everything was gonna be all right as I got older, but instead I suffered thinking the scars inside would never heal. Now I...
    Boo37 Boo37 13-15, F Mar 30

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    I've always been insightful, having spent much of my youth chronically trapped in my overly analytic mind. Through the years I began to manifest this introspective process outwards...
    danii92 danii92 18-21, F Apr 2

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    Your scars are proof that God heals. I posted this under a different experience but think it fits here as well. Scars remind us where we've been.
    bzylady bzylady 36-40, F Mar 23

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    I can go from being in a rare good mood to hating myself again just by seeing my scars. It just makes me want to cut myself again. I stopped cutting on my arms and starting...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    I hate my self harm scars. Being a guy, I almost feel inferior, or like a total screw up around my friends when they see them. I hate the uncomfortable questions I get about the 10...
    HiImDash HiImDash 26-30, M Mar 27

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    I just hate my scars so much but it's moments like this where I feel sick with anger and self-mutilating is the only way to release these feelings. I wish my parents would just...
    completedisgrace completedisgrace 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    I have a heart surgery scar, gunshot wound, a stab wound, a slice wound, scars from torn skin from fights and I have scars from my 16 years of cutting.
    dacraww dacraww 22-25, M Apr 9

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    I dont have many scars, but the point is that I do in fact have them. All of them are self inflicted. I am currently nearly done with sophmore year, thank god! Its not that I dont...
    Livefree12 Livefree12 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I have a tendency of having too many things going on at one time. I feel like I'm taking to long to set my career in line. .. I'm overwhelmed
    Patval1933 Patval1933 18-21, M Mar 26

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    I get overwhelmed so easily it's a chain until I can't take it anymore and cry .
    adamsoweird adamsoweird 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    It makes me sad to see how people live their lives being walked all over. How they force themselves over and over to try again to make something work. Even though in the back of...
    comfortdistortion comfortdistortion 18-21, F Apr 9

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    I hate my self harm scars. I can't wear any shorts that I used to. They aren't so big or so many of them. But their all white and I don't know what to do. I don't want to tell my...
    anetteton anetteton 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    I hate my self harm scars. I can't wear any shorts that I used to. They aren't so big or so many of them. But their all white and I don't know what to do. I don't want to tell my...
    anetteton anetteton 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    I have scars and fresh cuts. I have no friends my family calls me names. I have anxiety and depression cutting is the only thing that helps.
    lilmisssme lilmisssme 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 27

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    Public changing rooms plus fresh scars on your legs is not a good mix, pretty sure someone noticed and now it's going to spread around. I can't have people know - this was the only...
    anon1995 anon1995 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    Yes I have a keloid scar in my right knee and its really embarassing cause I really cant wear shorts and some dresses like for and semi-formal dress that above the knee. Im 16...
    Swa20 Swa20 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    Okay. So I've been cutting since I was 10 years young. And as you can imagine I do have a lot of scars It really bothers me when I'm at the store paying for things, and my sleeves...
    Silentscreamsx3 Silentscreamsx3 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    I have scars on my wrists, arms, upper arms, chest, and thighs. Everyone I know has only seen the ones on my wrists. A lot of my friends were shocked to find these there. "But you...
    flinm flinm 13-15, M Apr 2

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    When I look at these scars I feel ashamed of myself and I think back to the memorises of why I did it, most of the time it's because I hate the way I look and feel inside and out...
    georgiecrouch georgiecrouch 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I have so many scars. All over my legs n waist my sides n back. :(
    bigca1697 bigca1697 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I have scars on my body from when i was beaten and attacked 2 months ago.
    wallflower365 wallflower365 16-17, M 3 Responses Apr 8

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    I have been self harming for about 2 years and im trying to recover. I have scars all over my arms and thighs. I feel like i eill never be able to wear normal clothes again. I wont...
    smellsliketeenloners smellsliketeenloners 16-17, F Apr 9

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    I have stopped self harming for sometime now but im left with these horrible scars. I hate them because i see them and i think how horrible..how ugly and disgusting... i was hoping...
    NefelibataAggression NefelibataAggression 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    Hate them so much. I haven't cut for so freaking long and it feels so freaking amazing! But, everytime I see the scars on my arm it brings back all of the emotions I was feeling...
    Jakeuk Jakeuk 16-17, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    Will my scars fade away?? What if they won't?
    rawan99 rawan99 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I managed to forget all of my bad childhood memories, until a few months back when they started resurfacing in my dreams, so now not only do I have to deal with these memories, I...
    xMina97x xMina97x 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    Just forget me, being with me nothing good can come through. But one thing I promise is, I will never forget you. The memories we shared, that went by too fast. They're all a...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M Mar 30

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    At first it started with being really good at guessing what number someonenwas thinking of. As i grew older I pretty much pushed this aside as nothing. Recently I have been seeing...
    memorylane91 memorylane91 22-25, M Apr 2

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    I been avoiding it for a very long time. I saw it on Netflix. I saw it setting on the shelf at Blockbusters. But I avoided it like the black death. It was the documentary movie...
    Glassdove Glassdove 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 4

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    As far as I can go through my childhood memories I can remember the first one… just feeling… fear. My childhood was full of it. Scared of dark, of sleeping in my own bed, of...
    Mellangela Mellangela 26-30, F Apr 11

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    I am looking for help with repressed memories. They are from 17 years ago when I was 6 years old. I started to have flashbacks 11 years ago and they only happened when triggered so...
    arsnicandlace arsnicandlace 18-21, M Apr 12

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    I take photos but I do not review it. I hate memories no matter it was happy or not. If it was happy, I am sad at the moment cannot be repeated again. If it was sad, I hope I...
    fitwealth fitwealth 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    I wish i could start as a new person. Its not like i have any good memories anyways..
    notworthitatall notworthitatall 18-21, M Mar 25

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    May these memories break our fall.
    LocketRainbow LocketRainbow 16-17, F Mar 26

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    That sad moment when you find old conversations and memories between you and someone you don't talk to anymore.
    goldengirl24 goldengirl24 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    I have memories I can never forget.. It happened last year. My teacher just announced me as her favorite student infront of my classmates. I never expect it. Back to the story...
    qaseh qaseh 13-15, F Mar 27

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    I have so much wonderful memories with my friends that sometimes I get lost in the past and it's hard to move on.
    sammylynn333 sammylynn333 16-17, F Mar 27

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    I hate embarrassing memories, they creep up on me when I least expect it . ._.
    projectgwyn101 projectgwyn101 16-17, M Apr 2

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