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I Am Overwhelmed By My Memories and My Scars

No matter how hard I try, how much therapy I do, I can never seem to let go of the demons in my mind 198 People

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    the scars are the memories. of how i was. of how there is a chance i could be like that again. it scares me. and it's really hard to not act on those impulses. when i feel like doing those things again, the scars are a reminder. a constant reminder.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2009

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    School Mainly

    What can I say? CHildren are cruel..they say whatever they want..not knowing or giving a damn that the things they say possibly will effect a person in the long run..
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    I Am Over Whelmed At Times......

    I do get over whelmed at times, they take me over for a short time....then I fight and push them back. It keeps me in check at times of who I am, and how I got here, and what mes me who I am today....but sometimes they can be a bit much. My scars run deep....so when the triggers...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 23, 2010

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    Scars Keep Me Going

    I know why we do itthere are all different reasonsfor some it is the bloodfor some it is the releasefor some they just like the painIt’s the only pain they can controlfor others it is the sense of being in controlbut for me it is the scarsthose are what I cravefor they are...
    FinallyBeingReal FinallyBeingReal 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2012

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    Scarring Myself

    I was recently thinking about how, because of my scars and the feelings of worthlessness that was produced by them, I scar myself. I scar myself by making bad choices, getting into relationships that are bad, and self sabotage. In a way I am a "cutter" but instead of physically...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 27, 2010

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    I'm Covered In Hate

    recently I've been unable to look away from the fact that I am almost completely covered in scars. I'm getting a tattoo soon and there is only one place I can get it cuz everywhere else I'm to scarred.This is a map over my scars over my body and I haven't been able to take my...
    NoatoNoaki NoatoNoaki 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 23, 2011

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    I Am Not In As Bad Of A Position As Some

    My memories are mostly near and dear to me. Some are not, but most are. This is mainly why I become overwhelmed. Things are so lame now, I think back to times when things were great. I wish I could travel back and become lost in the moment, never to return. The bad memories haunt...
    TheEvilLeaper TheEvilLeaper 26-30, M Jan 16, 2011

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    And........

    THAT'S WHY I AM THE WAY I AM. OH, I'M MUCH BETTER NOW BUT THERE ARE STILL PARTS OF ME THAT HIDE. PARTS OF ME THAT MAY NEVER SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY OR KNOW THE WARMTH OF LOVE. THERE ARE DEMONS INSIDE THAT TIE BITS OF ME UP & I CAN NEVER GET AWAY. I NEVER USE TO CARE THAT THEY...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 9, 2009

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    What Becomes Of The Broken Hearted

    Just lately a series of events has triggered of some emotions i was hoping had been put to bed.One thing has returned to my mind and is at the forefront of my attention. My chest is tight and my head is full of thought.I want to cry again as well when i think of how little she...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 8, 2012

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    How To Overcome Scar Deformity

    I had a car accident 3 months ago where my face went into my windscreen, i had a chunck of skin taken out from half of my eyebrow and just above my eyelid, i had to have a skin graft, so no hair will ever grow back on my eyebrow, iam only 28 years old, and i look horrible! The...
    angiesmithy angiesmithy 26-30 6 Responses May 5, 2011

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    Cry

    I never cry. It's not because I have no feelings. It's not because I'm numb or anything. Sometimes I want to cry, just to release those feelings.. But I don't know how to. Tears just don't come no matter how hard I try. I even poked myself in the eye once, just to get them...
    xSilverWillowx xSilverWillowx 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 21, 2011

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    I Have Seen More Then Most People

    I fight my own demons of my past. I have night terrors and nightmares every night. flash backs, wishful thinking, and feeling the pain that the past has giving me. I have scares that may never heal in my lifetime. My memories get so so so overwhelming that i have tried to commit...
    PunkCowgirl PunkCowgirl 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 5, 2009

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    This Will Help You.

    http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm watch the videos on that page with an open mind. Peace.
    tyrian69 tyrian69 22-25, M Sep 12, 2012

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    shasharokuhs shasharokuhs 26-30 3 hrs ago

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    Scars on my body after an accident...scars on my soul after emotional damage. The scars on my body are easier to cope with. The scars in my mind and soul go deep.
    00flyaway 00flyaway 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 1

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    JustOldLight JustOldLight 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Lets see... For the innocent ones, I've got a big patch on my right shin, an arrow shape on my left thigh, and a small one on my right ring finger. For the ones I did myself, I've...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 16

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    If you have self harms scars I just want to tell u It's ok U r beautiful UR SCARS are amazing they show that u are alive that u survived So be proud They show that u are...
    Hiddenamoungus Hiddenamoungus 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    I have self harm scars (new cuts and old scars), and I have no idea how to hide them from my parents and elders who will constantly question them. Currently, I wear bracelets, long...
    Dascenequeen Dascenequeen 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I have scars all over my left arm, and some on my thighs, and i really just wish theyd dissapear. My friend and i made a deal, i had to quit cutting and she had to eat something...
    PoncePower PoncePower 13-15, F Jul 1

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    My scars :( I have 70+ scars and it keeps on growing
    CatWithScars CatWithScars 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 8

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    I can never wear a bathing suit without having to also wear basketball shorts. The worst part about it is that I did it to myself. My thighs have the deepest wounds on them. There...
    Jessica4729 Jessica4729 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    All of those turned into scars. But multiply that by 5 or 6 and that's how my body looks now. It's basically 65% self harm scars but I know there are more coming because self...
    XxbixtchybellaxX XxbixtchybellaxX 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    I have scars all over both of my thighs. These scars are a dark pink color; not the less noticeable white lines. When I first cut myself I did not think that there was going to be...
    megan523 megan523 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    They are not visible to the eye, but I have many scars. they haunt me now and then, and I just push them away back in their place. They try to remind me, but I push them back...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F Jul 17

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    I have scars all over both my arms and legs and I started cutting on my stomach an hips. I've been 4 months clean but the scars are still there to remind me of the habit that I...
    ashricard ashricard 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    I got in a car wreck 2 years ago august 21st. This man ran a red light, and ran into our car. Our light had just turned green and I wasn't wearing a seat belt. Hit the wind shield...
    chase1990 chase1990 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    I have two fairly visible scars on my left forearm. I have more scars on my right leg. I try to wear long sleeves as much as possible to avoid questions. I stopped self-harming...
    dourpenguin dourpenguin 18-21, M Jul 19

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    I have a lot of scars on my arms and my parents don't know and I'm meant be dying my hair but my mom said that i have to do the allergy test first which is putting the dye on your...
    straylii straylii 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    Alright I have a legitimate question here. I have some scars on my arm. I'm not going into detail about what they're from how old they are or anything. But I'm trying to get a job...
    memoriesofthepast124 memoriesofthepast124 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Alright I have a legitimate question here. I have some scars on my arm. I'm not going into detail about what they're from how old they are or anything. But I'm trying to get a job...
    memoriesofthepast124 memoriesofthepast124 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Alright I have a legitimate question here. I have some scars on my arm. I'm not going into detail about what they're from how old they are or anything. But I'm trying to get a job...
    memoriesofthepast124 memoriesofthepast124 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Having emotional scars doesn't mean you've done anything wrong, or that your stupid. It means you told the truth and nobody would believe what you had to say. My emotional scars...
    jetetter jetetter 41-45, M 3 days ago

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    They are the worst ******* thing! I mean, don't get me wrong, (and call me crazy but) i kind of find the thin red lines really pretty, however summer is coming up now and...
    DarlinYoullBeOkay DarlinYoullBeOkay 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 1

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    I quit giving a crap today about if people see my scars. I'm tired of having to keep them covered. I'm worried about people seeing them, but today I didn't wear my wristband all...
    KimTin33 KimTin33 22-25, F Jul 5

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    I cut a lot. I have been trying to stop but it is very hard. It has become somewhat of an addiction for me, whenever I feel upset that is what I do. It is my form of therapy which...
    RubyTuesday413 RubyTuesday413 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 5

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    My scars is not really visible unless someone was focused they would miss it, but I still wish I didn't have any its from physical fights when I was younger.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 10

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    On both of my thighs I have scars. Some are white and small and most are pink. I am going to the beach next week and I'm not sure what to do.
    Kaleymorgan Kaleymorgan 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 11

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    I have 4 scars on my body that tell about my past. There's one on my forehead from when I was only 3 years old: my mother was punishing me for god-knows-what and sent me to the...
    PrincessPolarBear PrincessPolarBear 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 15

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    Lets start with the more innocent ones: I've got a white arrow shaped on my left thigh, one on my right hand ring finger and a huge one on my right shin. Then I've got words on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 15

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    I have scars on my upper thighs, from the times when I couldn't cut on my wrists. They're the stories nobody knows better than I do.
    AnonMily AnonMily 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    I used to cut myself when I was younger. For me it was the only way to survive the day. It has been years since the last cut, but the scars Are still wisible. They are a daily...
    Kirsebaera Kirsebaera 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 18

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    I really wanna cover my scars with tattoos. I'm a little ashamed of those parts of my past. I don't want people to see me as stupid or naive. They hold a painful past. I want to...
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 18

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    I have scars on my left arm, you can see in the sun a lot but i try to hide them
    xJamix xJamix 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 18

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    Well actually only a few, not a lot. But I have a few scars on my legs and one small one on my cheek. I live near a park and one time a kid accidentally threw a baseball through my...
    ElizaKate ElizaKate 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    I started self mutilating when i was 8 years old. I quit cutting when i was 14. I used other methods. But now i have found more "conventional" ways of dealing with my needs. Been...
    ambular1006 ambular1006 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 23

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    I've been in such a bad mood lately I think it's constantly having to look at my scars
    averylynnx averylynnx 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    Boiling a pan of water may seem like the most innocuous activity and in fact it's something I do every day but there is the rush of bad memories that came from that. Sometimes I...
    lauren71 lauren71 41-45, F Jul 24