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I Am Overwhelmed By My Memories and My Scars

No matter how hard I try, how much therapy I do, I can never seem to let go of the demons in my mind 313 People

    The first cut is the deepest opening your soul

    for the others to come in and to rob you of your peace of mind making every second hell.
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M Dec 26, 2014

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    I'm Covered In Hate

    recently I've been unable to look away from the fact that I am almost completely covered in scars. I'm getting a tattoo soon and there is only one place I can get it cuz everywhere else I'm to scarred.This is a map over my scars over my body and I haven't been able to take my...
    NoatoNoaki NoatoNoaki 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 23, 2011

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    School Mainly

    What can I say? CHildren are cruel..they say whatever they want..not knowing or giving a damn that the things they say possibly will effect a person in the long run..
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    And........

    THAT'S WHY I AM THE WAY I AM. OH, I'M MUCH BETTER NOW BUT THERE ARE STILL PARTS OF ME THAT HIDE. PARTS OF ME THAT MAY NEVER SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY OR KNOW THE WARMTH OF LOVE. THERE ARE DEMONS INSIDE THAT TIE BITS OF ME UP & I CAN NEVER GET AWAY. I NEVER USE TO CARE THAT THEY...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 9, 2009

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    This Will Help You.

    http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm watch the videos on that page with an open mind. Peace.
    tyrian69 tyrian69 22-25, M Sep 12, 2012

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    Cry

    I never cry. It's not because I have no feelings. It's not because I'm numb or anything. Sometimes I want to cry, just to release those feelings.. But I don't know how to. Tears just don't come no matter how hard I try. I even poked myself in the eye once, just to get them...
    xSilverWillowx xSilverWillowx 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 21, 2011

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    Scars Keep Me Going

    I know why we do itthere are all different reasonsfor some it is the bloodfor some it is the releasefor some they just like the painIt’s the only pain they can controlfor others it is the sense of being in controlbut for me it is the scarsthose are what I cravefor they are...
    FinallyBeingReal FinallyBeingReal 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2012

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    I Am Over Whelmed At Times......

    I do get over whelmed at times, they take me over for a short time....then I fight and push them back. It keeps me in check at times of who I am, and how I got here, and what mes me who I am today....but sometimes they can be a bit much. My scars run deep....so when the triggers...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 23, 2010

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    Sometimes, you find yourself somewhere you

    never expected to be. Sometimes life forks and you have to make a decision then and there. Sometimes, the choice isn't a choice, but an eventuality. I'm happy with where I am. Even if I'm not where I want to be. It's where I need to be.
    mansfieldtaco99 mansfieldtaco99 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 22

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    Just bought myself a hungry man turkey dinner

    for thanksgiving. Will be alone this year.
    lionessstrong lionessstrong 46-50, F Nov 14, 2014

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    Scarring Myself

    I was recently thinking about how, because of my scars and the feelings of worthlessness that was produced by them, I scar myself. I scar myself by making bad choices, getting into relationships that are bad, and self sabotage. In a way I am a "cutter" but instead of physically...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 27, 2010

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    when I try to look back

    or whenever I happen to pass by memories, I just can't help but draw a smile on my face...
    pitchy28 pitchy28 13-15, F Dec 26, 2014

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    I Have Seen More Then Most People

    I fight my own demons of my past. I have night terrors and nightmares every night. flash backs, wishful thinking, and feeling the pain that the past has giving me. I have scares that may never heal in my lifetime. My memories get so so so overwhelming that i have tried to commit...
    PunkCowgirl PunkCowgirl 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 5, 2009

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    What Becomes Of The Broken Hearted

    Just lately a series of events has triggered of some emotions i was hoping had been put to bed.One thing has returned to my mind and is at the forefront of my attention. My chest is tight and my head is full of thought.I want to cry again as well when i think of how little she...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 8, 2012

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    I Am Not In As Bad Of A Position As Some

    My memories are mostly near and dear to me. Some are not, but most are. This is mainly why I become overwhelmed. Things are so lame now, I think back to times when things were great. I wish I could travel back and become lost in the moment, never to return. The bad memories haunt...
    TheEvilLeaper TheEvilLeaper 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 16, 2011

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    How To Overcome Scar Deformity

    I had a car accident 3 months ago where my face went into my windscreen, i had a chunck of skin taken out from half of my eyebrow and just above my eyelid, i had to have a skin graft, so no hair will ever grow back on my eyebrow, iam only 28 years old, and i look horrible! The...
    angiesmithy angiesmithy 26-30 7 Responses May 5, 2011

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    Hard.

    the scars are the memories. of how i was. of how there is a chance i could be like that again. it scares me. and it's really hard to not act on those impulses. when i feel like doing those things again, the scars are a reminder. a constant reminder.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2009

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    when I was 4 or 5 years old I found my 6 month

    old sister dead.. it always haunts me...
    fOrEvErYoURs321 fOrEvErYoURs321 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    Down Beckley Ave. she's prolly 16,

    maybe younger, little malnourished body, stomach growling from hunger, she's posted on the corner waiting to get paid, by nasty n***@$ looking to get suc*3d up or l@!d, they tell her what she's worth, ten, maybe five, she takes it cuz out here, we're tought anything to...
    heysmellthis heysmellthis 26-30, M Dec 27, 2014

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    Related Experiences

    I like them, but I don't. On one side they make me feel weak, troubled and disgusting. They remind of the time I felt the need to carve the word 'failure' in my arm, so I'd never...
    absenceofsound absenceofsound 13-15, F Mar 17

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    I have many scars, but I think they are beautiful because they are unique to me and tell my story. I have a scar on my forehead, where my head was busted open at five years old...
    BeyondGreenEyes BeyondGreenEyes 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 1

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    I love girls with scars, with cuts, I find them sexy, but I don't know why. I love kissing scars and touching them, fresh scars cuts, old scars, healing cuts.
    fiendishcandy fiendishcandy 18-21, M Mar 20

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    today i am overwhelmed with my life. i wish i had a close girlfriend to talk to but i don't. i feel very overwhelmed in my personal life. i feel unhappy in my current relationship...
    db174 db174 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 11

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    I just saw the new "Cinderella" movie, and it was hella fine 👍 But now, I'm so overwhelmed. It's insane - watching any version of Cinderella makes me emotional, but this one...
    luna1912 luna1912 18-21, F Mar 15

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    Been cut free for about four years I still live with the scars, four from wrist to elbow on my left arm lots on my chest and a couple on my thighs. I still get cravings for it when...
    toreybella toreybella 18-21, F Mar 20

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    I'm quite lucky I suppose, in that my physical scars fully healed and there's no trace of them left. My legs and arms look clean, and I'm able to wear short sleeves again. But...
    Randomguy2001 Randomguy2001 18-21, M Mar 17

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    I have scars, but not fresh ones. I'm not ashamed of what I did in the past because it only made me stronger as a person. I hate when people stereotype the ones with scars on their...
    bemyforeverlove97 bemyforeverlove97 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    I have scars been cut free for a long time I would burn myself to im so glad I am done w all that been 18 yrs now and still feel the need some time but I resist no regrets tho the...
    unionall4one unionall4one 36-40, M Mar 19

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    Memories can be hard to remember. It can cause me so many pain. The ones I share these memories with are gone. They forgot about me. They ignored me, or stopped talking to me, and...
    RhinosaurusRex RhinosaurusRex 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    I'm not sure if this is something that becomes more important to us as we get older, or whether it is simply a way of thinking, of living. But for me, it is all about the memories...
    Chrye Chrye 51-55, F 3 Responses Mar 1

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    They're like snakes on my back, run from my neck downwards, from left to right, the length of a belt. The pain of your skin bursting isn't something you forget easily. Hearing your...
    Michalb Michalb 41-45, M Mar 1

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    I have a lot of scars, the cuts feel like nothing and the blood no longer feels warm. usually my arms but lately I grabbed my face and just raked it. It felt good and I finally...
    crabspanner crabspanner 36-40, M Mar 4

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    i don't now how to hide my scars when i have physical education. i need help, can anyone tell me some ideas?
    valen01 valen01 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 17

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    When people find scars attractive or show them off as if they're something to be proud of it makes me ******* sick. little kids cutting because they can, for absolutely no good...
    gandalfssandals gandalfssandals 18-21, M 3 Responses Mar 17

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    Sometimes a absolutely hate everything about my scars and wounds, and sometimes they're my very best friends who help me to get trough this...
    Raicyn Raicyn 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    I have been there I still have my scars and I want them to go away😒
    Alejandra13 Alejandra13 13-15, F Mar 18

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    I had been cut free for 6 years and had a few faint scars, until 2 months ago. Now I don't know how many I have and can't seem to stop cutting myself.
    HopelessXV HopelessXV 22-25, F Mar 19

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    I don't regret the painful times; I bare my scars as if they were medals...
    Brunette4U Brunette4U 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 19

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    My 5 year old sister likes to touch my scars, today she asked to put lotion on them. She doesn't look at me like I'm disgusting or crazy. This is what love is.
    TickleMeCell TickleMeCell 16-17, T 4 days ago

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    I cherish memories which are close to my heart ....with the people who care and love me for who I am- love you all
    spicycook spicycook 41-45, M Mar 6

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    Today i went to the playground with my son Kaiden :) It just reminded me of the time my mom took me to the same exact playground ;P memories... Kaiden loves the playground! He...
    MommyToKaiden MommyToKaiden 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 7

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    Life is a rough biography. Memories smooth out the edges
    TCL009 TCL009 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    I remember seeing my daughters living conditions before I adopted her. I still have nightmares and I'm sure she does too. I also have memories of my mother kicking me out of her...
    Retro5NAF Retro5NAF 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 18

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