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I Am Overwhelmed By My Memories and My Scars

No matter how hard I try, how much therapy I do, I can never seem to let go of the demons in my mind 281 People

    How To Overcome Scar Deformity

    I had a car accident 3 months ago where my face went into my windscreen, i had a chunck of skin taken out from half of my eyebrow and just above my eyelid, i had to have a skin graft, so no hair will ever grow back on my eyebrow, iam only 28 years old, and i look horrible! The...
    angiesmithy angiesmithy 26-30 7 Responses May 5, 2011

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    Scars Keep Me Going

    I know why we do itthere are all different reasonsfor some it is the bloodfor some it is the releasefor some they just like the painIt’s the only pain they can controlfor others it is the sense of being in controlbut for me it is the scarsthose are what I cravefor they are...
    FinallyBeingReal FinallyBeingReal 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2012

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    School Mainly

    What can I say? CHildren are cruel..they say whatever they want..not knowing or giving a damn that the things they say possibly will effect a person in the long run..
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    Scarring Myself

    I was recently thinking about how, because of my scars and the feelings of worthlessness that was produced by them, I scar myself. I scar myself by making bad choices, getting into relationships that are bad, and self sabotage. In a way I am a "cutter" but instead of physically...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 27, 2010

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    Cry

    I never cry. It's not because I have no feelings. It's not because I'm numb or anything. Sometimes I want to cry, just to release those feelings.. But I don't know how to. Tears just don't come no matter how hard I try. I even poked myself in the eye once, just to get them...
    xSilverWillowx xSilverWillowx 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 21, 2011

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    when I try to look back

    or whenever I happen to pass by memories, I just can't help but draw a smile on my face...
    pitchy28 pitchy28 13-15, F Dec 26, 2014

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    I'm Covered In Hate

    recently I've been unable to look away from the fact that I am almost completely covered in scars. I'm getting a tattoo soon and there is only one place I can get it cuz everywhere else I'm to scarred.This is a map over my scars over my body and I haven't been able to take my...
    NoatoNoaki NoatoNoaki 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 23, 2011

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    when I was 4 or 5 years old I found my 6 month

    old sister dead.. it always haunts me...
    fOrEvErYoURs321 fOrEvErYoURs321 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    Just bought myself a hungry man turkey dinner

    for thanksgiving. Will be alone this year.
    lionessstrong lionessstrong 46-50, F 1 Response Nov 14, 2014

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    And........

    THAT'S WHY I AM THE WAY I AM. OH, I'M MUCH BETTER NOW BUT THERE ARE STILL PARTS OF ME THAT HIDE. PARTS OF ME THAT MAY NEVER SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY OR KNOW THE WARMTH OF LOVE. THERE ARE DEMONS INSIDE THAT TIE BITS OF ME UP & I CAN NEVER GET AWAY. I NEVER USE TO CARE THAT THEY...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 9, 2009

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    I Am Over Whelmed At Times......

    I do get over whelmed at times, they take me over for a short time....then I fight and push them back. It keeps me in check at times of who I am, and how I got here, and what mes me who I am today....but sometimes they can be a bit much. My scars run deep....so when the triggers...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 23, 2010

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    I Am Not In As Bad Of A Position As Some

    My memories are mostly near and dear to me. Some are not, but most are. This is mainly why I become overwhelmed. Things are so lame now, I think back to times when things were great. I wish I could travel back and become lost in the moment, never to return. The bad memories haunt...
    TheEvilLeaper TheEvilLeaper 26-30, M Jan 16, 2011

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    Down Beckley Ave. she's prolly 16,

    maybe younger, little malnourished body, stomach growling from hunger, she's posted on the corner waiting to get paid, by nasty n***@$ looking to get suc*3d up or l@!d, they tell her what she's worth, ten, maybe five, she takes it cuz out here, we're tought anything to...
    heysmellthis heysmellthis 26-30, M Dec 27, 2014

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    I Have Seen More Then Most People

    I fight my own demons of my past. I have night terrors and nightmares every night. flash backs, wishful thinking, and feeling the pain that the past has giving me. I have scares that may never heal in my lifetime. My memories get so so so overwhelming that i have tried to commit...
    PunkCowgirl PunkCowgirl 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 5, 2009

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    What Becomes Of The Broken Hearted

    Just lately a series of events has triggered of some emotions i was hoping had been put to bed.One thing has returned to my mind and is at the forefront of my attention. My chest is tight and my head is full of thought.I want to cry again as well when i think of how little she...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 8, 2012

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    The first cut is the deepest opening your soul

    for the others to come in and to rob you of your peace of mind making every second hell.
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M Dec 26, 2014

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    Hard.

    the scars are the memories. of how i was. of how there is a chance i could be like that again. it scares me. and it's really hard to not act on those impulses. when i feel like doing those things again, the scars are a reminder. a constant reminder.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2009

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    This Will Help You.

    http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm watch the videos on that page with an open mind. Peace.
    tyrian69 tyrian69 22-25, M Sep 12, 2012

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    I didn't think scars would be left since it wasn't even deep, but who knew the tiniest thing would last a long time. More bad memories to stay with me. I just want it to be time to...
    plantgoddess plantgoddess 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    It has occurred to me how profound of a depression I've been in. I have been since the inevitable collapse in June 2012, due to starvation for intimacy, rest, and nourishment...
    Ajushi Ajushi 36-40, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    They tell stories. I feel lost without them. I see them fading then cut again because I don't know what to do with out my scars. Every morning I wake up look at my scars and think...
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 27, 2014

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    I feel like everyone has scars. maybe not on their wrist, inner thighs, knees, stomach, or visible scars. But, on their hearts, souls, between the cracks and crevices of the...
    SweeterThanFiction SweeterThanFiction 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    I can't show my ankle cuz of my scars. I bruised my knee about a month and a half ago while skating...and it still hurts to touch it. I want to get it checked out, but I can't...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F a week ago

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    I am feeling overwhelmed. I'm trying to find a new house. My job is demanding right now and I will only be at work one day this week. Thankful I've banked so much sick and vacation...
    JustConnie JustConnie 36-40, F 6 days ago

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    I hate when people say high school relationships aren't real. "It's just puppy love" and "high school relationships mean nothing" are phrases that make any love struck teenager...
    ohaleakala ohaleakala 18-21, F Dec 29, 2014

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    1) Wing-like scar on my chest - surgery to take out a bullet. 2) Scar on my waist - very personal. And other tiny scars from my life in Syria. I like it that way :)
    Alpha8Wolf Alpha8Wolf 18-21, M Dec 29, 2014

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    I have lots of scars.. Big ones and small ones. They tell a story.. I love to share my scar stories.
    horneybear79912 horneybear79912 36-40, M Jan 5

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    I love to show you my scars.. They are awesome
    horneybear79912 horneybear79912 36-40, M Jan 5

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    I have lots of scars ( on my wrist) they tell lots of stories. I'd love to share my stories!
    valerybmv valerybmv 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    yeah stay up all night thinking bout the scars sometimes
    mythlover mythlover 13-15, F Jan 6

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    I have cuts, burns and scars, each set tell something new
    Ashthewolf7601 Ashthewolf7601 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 14

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    Scars on both sides of my chest that remind me everyday to fight and never give up
    jgeorge68 jgeorge68 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 14

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    It's great that there's an experience for this. But, I would like to add that self-harm is a serious thing. Don't go posting pictures of your cuts, because you give those with a...
    Franse Franse 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 17

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    I haven't cut in years but the evidence is still there it depresses me sometimes. They're all over my arms so I wear jackets a lot. It's so embarrassing when I get asked about them...
    Annamania1 Annamania1 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I want to cut again because my scars are fading and I feel lost. But I promised so many people. I'm soooo stupid.
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I would love to erase more than half of the past. Meeting certain people to prevent all the heartbreak they would cause for me down the road. I never saw it coming, I don't even...
    Thefightingangel Thefightingangel 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    Should I be grateful I saw myself even before I was myself today? Anyway, to the main point. During another counsel session today, medical expertise tried to help me out by using...
    iTetra iTetra 13-15, F Jan 11

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    Some people are hard to forget.I remember the memories we shared though,with both of you,I remember what you would tell me K you seemed so wise to me sometimes knowledgeable,smart...
    simpleandpossible simpleandpossible 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    There is no way to substantiate what I am about to say, but then I guess this is not about proof. Through the help of others, I have learned that I have been around for a little...
    Drachona Drachona 18-21 Jan 17

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    I hate this. I struggle with depression but I don't have any medicine because I know I'm strong enough. But I'm not. I try to make it all better but the memories knock me down. The...
    kpfoster1985 kpfoster1985 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 27, 2014

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    Because of my past I relive these memories, in some form, every night. For the past 11 years I have suffered night terrors that grow increasingly worse once my "tolerance" matches...
    MsBree01 MsBree01 22-25, F Dec 29, 2014

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    Do you ever find yourself almost instantly attracted to someone who reminds you of the one you really love? You become intrigued by them. You want to be close. Your heart is...
    Carissimi Carissimi 56-60, F 4 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    whatever memories are ...........good or bad they are really troublesome for me when they are good it gives me nostalgia and when they are bad it gives me pain so i just live my...
    silsax silsax 16-17, F Dec 31, 2014

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    what makes memories flash into your mind, when they come they can make you smile or they can make you cry, but I am so glad that I have each and every one of them, just had one...
    Shamrock40 Shamrock40 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 3

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    They are great memories I'd never trade for anything. Camp fires, girlfriends, kindergarden, my first school dance, my first kiss. I can never forget them nor would I want to
    NewBeginnings5 NewBeginnings5 22-25 2 Responses Jan 8

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    I want to forget, but can't. I'm haunted by them and the ripple effect it had on my life. I've experienced the darkest side of people, people I thought I could trust, people I...
    fracturedforever fracturedforever 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 9

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    Those perfect memories with always stay in my heart. And I'm sure there are so many more coming soon!
    dariada dariada 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 10

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