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I Am Overwhelmed By My Memories and My Scars

No matter how hard I try, how much therapy I do, I can never seem to let go of the demons in my mind 383 People

    The first cut is the deepest opening your soul

    for the others to come in and to rob you of your peace of mind making every second hell.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 26, 2014

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    I'm Covered In Hate

    recently I've been unable to look away from the fact that I am almost completely covered in scars. I'm getting a tattoo soon and there is only one place I can get it cuz everywhere else I'm to scarred.This is a map over my scars over my body and I haven't been able to take my...
    NoatoNoaki NoatoNoaki 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 23, 2011

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    Most of the time I'm fine with myself,

    but there are some days where everything comes rushing back and I need my alone time to cry it out
    GCWhiskey GCWhiskey 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 9

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    And........

    THAT'S WHY I AM THE WAY I AM. OH, I'M MUCH BETTER NOW BUT THERE ARE STILL PARTS OF ME THAT HIDE. PARTS OF ME THAT MAY NEVER SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY OR KNOW THE WARMTH OF LOVE. THERE ARE DEMONS INSIDE THAT TIE BITS OF ME UP & I CAN NEVER GET AWAY. I NEVER USE TO CARE THAT THEY...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 9, 2009

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    Scars Keep Me Going

    I know why we do itthere are all different reasonsfor some it is the bloodfor some it is the releasefor some they just like the painIt’s the only pain they can controlfor others it is the sense of being in controlbut for me it is the scarsthose are what I cravefor they are...
    FinallyBeingReal FinallyBeingReal 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2012

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    How To Overcome Scar Deformity

    I had a car accident 3 months ago where my face went into my windscreen, i had a chunck of skin taken out from half of my eyebrow and just above my eyelid, i had to have a skin graft, so no hair will ever grow back on my eyebrow, iam only 28 years old, and i look horrible! The...
    angiesmithy angiesmithy 26-30 7 Responses May 5, 2011

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    This Will Help You.

    http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm watch the videos on that page with an open mind. Peace.
    tyrian69 tyrian69 22-25, M Sep 12, 2012

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    I Am Over Whelmed At Times......

    I do get over whelmed at times, they take me over for a short time....then I fight and push them back. It keeps me in check at times of who I am, and how I got here, and what mes me who I am today....but sometimes they can be a bit much. My scars run deep....so when the triggers...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 23, 2010

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    when I was 4 or 5 years old I found my 6 month

    old sister dead.. it always haunts me...
    fOrEvErYoURs321 fOrEvErYoURs321 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    Scarring Myself

    I was recently thinking about how, because of my scars and the feelings of worthlessness that was produced by them, I scar myself. I scar myself by making bad choices, getting into relationships that are bad, and self sabotage. In a way I am a "cutter" but instead of physically...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 27, 2010

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    I Am Not In As Bad Of A Position As Some

    My memories are mostly near and dear to me. Some are not, but most are. This is mainly why I become overwhelmed. Things are so lame now, I think back to times when things were great. I wish I could travel back and become lost in the moment, never to return. The bad memories haunt...
    TheEvilLeaper TheEvilLeaper 26-30, M Jan 16, 2011

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    energymustmove energymustmove 18-21, F Apr 21

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    Down Beckley Ave. she's prolly 16,

    maybe younger, little malnourished body, stomach growling from hunger, she's posted on the corner waiting to get paid, by nasty n***@$ looking to get suc*3d up or l@!d, they tell her what she's worth, ten, maybe five, she takes it cuz out here, we're tought anything to...
    heysmellthis heysmellthis 26-30, M Dec 27, 2014

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    Just bought myself a hungry man turkey dinner

    for thanksgiving. Will be alone this year.
    lionessstrong lionessstrong 46-50, F Nov 14, 2014

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    Cry

    I never cry. It's not because I have no feelings. It's not because I'm numb or anything. Sometimes I want to cry, just to release those feelings.. But I don't know how to. Tears just don't come no matter how hard I try. I even poked myself in the eye once, just to get them...
    xSilverWillowx xSilverWillowx 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 21, 2011

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    when I try to look back

    or whenever I happen to pass by memories, I just can't help but draw a smile on my face...
    hummingtree hummingtree 16-17, F Dec 26, 2014

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    School Mainly

    What can I say? CHildren are cruel..they say whatever they want..not knowing or giving a damn that the things they say possibly will effect a person in the long run..
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    Sometimes, you find yourself somewhere you

    never expected to be. Sometimes life forks and you have to make a decision then and there. Sometimes, the choice isn't a choice, but an eventuality. I'm happy with where I am. Even if I'm not where I want to be. It's where I need to be.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 22

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    Hard.

    the scars are the memories. of how i was. of how there is a chance i could be like that again. it scares me. and it's really hard to not act on those impulses. when i feel like doing those things again, the scars are a reminder. a constant reminder.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2009

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    What Becomes Of The Broken Hearted

    Just lately a series of events has triggered of some emotions i was hoping had been put to bed.One thing has returned to my mind and is at the forefront of my attention. My chest is tight and my head is full of thought.I want to cry again as well when i think of how little she...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 8, 2012

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    I Have Seen More Then Most People

    I fight my own demons of my past. I have night terrors and nightmares every night. flash backs, wishful thinking, and feeling the pain that the past has giving me. I have scares that may never heal in my lifetime. My memories get so so so overwhelming that i have tried to commit...
    PunkCowgirl PunkCowgirl 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 5, 2009

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    My memories of 5th grade are for the most part negative. I started at a new school when I was in 5th grade and I was 10 years old at the time and wore dresses and white pantyhose...
    allisonhashope allisonhashope 13-15, F 20 hrs ago

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    i just cant forget the horrible memories :'(:'(:'(
    lillyross lillyross 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I think scars are cool, I have this one scar on my forehead that I got when I was in the 4th grade, it's barely even noticeable now, but funny how one of my classmates at the time...
    Gabe1997 Gabe1997 18-21, T 1 day ago

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    i care about you guys but sometimes i need someone to just be there for me when i am hurting.... i hate to say this....but i miss you tamara...you turned out to be such a &itch...
    katariffik katariffik 31-35, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    My certificate has arrived today after months of waiting, and I found myself unconsciously playing this song on YouTube -  Few years back, I started my studies again, I was...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I have literal scars on my body. Whenever my Dad gets pissed, he takes it out verbally on the rest of his family. Throws things, breaks them. Punched a hole in a wall, twice. I...
    Arkiex Arkiex 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    my father left my mother befor i was born i sah him for the first time when i was 14 years old and the second time 4 years later. the last time i sah him was 3 month after my...
    sundina sundina 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I'm still trying to figure out how to cope with not having a father in my life. I have 3 older siblings, the oldest being 25. My father left when I was almost 2 years old. And...
    alittleloveandsunshine alittleloveandsunshine 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    If my father had been a daddy also I would still have a little respect for him..
    0210love 0210love 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I hate the types of dads that think that they can buy their child's love. My dad being one. He can go months without speaking a word to me and suddenly I could be at his parents...
    Ridingtonewyork Ridingtonewyork 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Memories which have long since turned into nightmares . horrible dreams that plague the very pits of my subconscious that night i lost my beloved while years ago feels as if...
    Sladetgx58 Sladetgx58 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    If you're a Fatherless like me, feel free to message me and let share our story!!
    noa27 noa27 22-25, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My dad has been in and out and completely out after maybe 12 or 13 yrs old for me. I didn't even get calls for my birthday. Now he occasionally texts me maybe 1-2 times every other...
    FutureVet2014 FutureVet2014 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My son is 4yrs old and is starting to ask alot of questions which is fair enough. I just dont know how to answer them. Me and his dad were engaged when I fell pregnant but at...
    Tileesi Tileesi 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    They don't show on the outside unless I let them flow past my fingertips and sink into the illusion that I'm okay with it all. They're there and they're apart of me that will...
    Littlemisssomebody Littlemisssomebody 31-35, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I have a photographic memory. My parents considered it a gift when they found out about it when I was in early preschool. I believe it is both a gift and a curse. I am not writing...
    bluepinky12 bluepinky12 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    People don't worry I'm one of the Hogward (wait....was it with T or D, it couldn't be T right? If T it'll wart lol) I'm a wizardddddd I'll help you erase the unwanted memories. XD...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 20

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    it's really the worst feeling when I'm laying alone in bed and I feel my body , but instead of feeling the smoothness of skin I feel the bumps of my scars . I think about what made...
    weakandalone weakandalone 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 20

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    When I was 8 my sister was born and my mom had really bad postpartum depression .She would constantly hit me and she never tended to me ,I basically raised myself .I resent her...
    jcat09 jcat09 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 19

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