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I Am Overwhelmed By My Memories and My Scars

No matter how hard I try, how much therapy I do, I can never seem to let go of the demons in my mind 432 People

    I Am Over Whelmed At Times......

    I do get over whelmed at times, they take me over for a short time....then I fight and push them back. It keeps me in check at times of who I am, and how I got here, and what mes me who I am today....but sometimes they can be a bit much. My scars run deep....so when the triggers...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 23, 2010

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    Cry

    I never cry. It's not because I have no feelings. It's not because I'm numb or anything. Sometimes I want to cry, just to release those feelings.. But I don't know how to. Tears just don't come no matter how hard I try. I even poked myself in the eye once, just to get them...
    xSilverWillowx xSilverWillowx 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 21, 2011

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    Scars Keep Me Going

    I know why we do itthere are all different reasonsfor some it is the bloodfor some it is the releasefor some they just like the painIt’s the only pain they can controlfor others it is the sense of being in controlbut for me it is the scarsthose are what I cravefor they are...
    FinallyBeingReal FinallyBeingReal 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2012

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    The first cut is the deepest opening your soul

    for the others to come in and to rob you of your peace of mind making every second hell.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 26, 2014

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    energymustmove energymustmove 18-21, F Apr 21, 2015

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    Sometimes, you find yourself somewhere you

    never expected to be. Sometimes life forks and you have to make a decision then and there. Sometimes, the choice isn't a choice, but an eventuality. I'm happy with where I am. Even if I'm not where I want to be. It's where I need to be.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 22, 2015

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    I Am Not In As Bad Of A Position As Some

    My memories are mostly near and dear to me. Some are not, but most are. This is mainly why I become overwhelmed. Things are so lame now, I think back to times when things were great. I wish I could travel back and become lost in the moment, never to return. The bad memories haunt...
    TheEvilLeaper TheEvilLeaper 26-30, M Jan 16, 2011

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    How To Overcome Scar Deformity

    I had a car accident 3 months ago where my face went into my windscreen, i had a chunck of skin taken out from half of my eyebrow and just above my eyelid, i had to have a skin graft, so no hair will ever grow back on my eyebrow, iam only 28 years old, and i look horrible! The...
    angiesmithy angiesmithy 26-30 7 Responses May 5, 2011

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    I don't know why but everything I did in the

    past has come back and is really upsetting me.. and everything good I've done feels like a lie now. everyone says this makes you stronger but it hasn't it's only disappeared and then came back worse...
    SSxREAPERx1998 SSxREAPERx1998 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 14, 2015

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    I Have Seen More Then Most People

    I fight my own demons of my past. I have night terrors and nightmares every night. flash backs, wishful thinking, and feeling the pain that the past has giving me. I have scares that may never heal in my lifetime. My memories get so so so overwhelming that i have tried to commit...
    PunkCowgirl PunkCowgirl 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 5, 2009

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    Most of the time I'm fine with myself,

    but there are some days where everything comes rushing back and I need my alone time to cry it out
    GCWhiskey GCWhiskey 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 9, 2015

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    Just bought myself a hungry man turkey dinner

    for thanksgiving. Will be alone this year.
    lionessstrong lionessstrong 46-50, F Nov 14, 2014

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    Down Beckley Ave. she's prolly 16,

    maybe younger, little malnourished body, stomach growling from hunger, she's posted on the corner waiting to get paid, by nasty n***@$ looking to get suc*3d up or l@!d, they tell her what she's worth, ten, maybe five, she takes it cuz out here, we're tought anything to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 27, 2014

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    Damn, what am I going to do?

    I have worried myself sick, I am overwhelmed nauseous and heartbroken. I am innocent, but accused of all sorts of evil. I try to cope by reciting bible scriptures and positivity and by living a good fulfilling life and by keeping a high degree of integrity even in thought and...
    cutiepitunia cutiepitunia 70+ 2 Responses Dec 23, 2015

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    Scarring Myself

    I was recently thinking about how, because of my scars and the feelings of worthlessness that was produced by them, I scar myself. I scar myself by making bad choices, getting into relationships that are bad, and self sabotage. In a way I am a "cutter" but instead of physically...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 27, 2010

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    Hard.

    the scars are the memories. of how i was. of how there is a chance i could be like that again. it scares me. and it's really hard to not act on those impulses. when i feel like doing those things again, the scars are a reminder. a constant reminder.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2009

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    This Will Help You.

    http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm watch the videos on that page with an open mind. Peace.
    tyrian69 tyrian69 22-25, M Sep 12, 2012

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    when you love someone !

    ! but when she says move on .. Your life is in hell
    smaimran smaimran 18-21, M Dec 18, 2015

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    I'm Covered In Hate

    recently I've been unable to look away from the fact that I am almost completely covered in scars. I'm getting a tattoo soon and there is only one place I can get it cuz everywhere else I'm to scarred.This is a map over my scars over my body and I haven't been able to take my...
    NoatoNoaki NoatoNoaki 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 23, 2011

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    What Becomes Of The Broken Hearted

    Just lately a series of events has triggered of some emotions i was hoping had been put to bed.One thing has returned to my mind and is at the forefront of my attention. My chest is tight and my head is full of thought.I want to cry again as well when i think of how little she...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 8, 2012

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    And........

    THAT'S WHY I AM THE WAY I AM. OH, I'M MUCH BETTER NOW BUT THERE ARE STILL PARTS OF ME THAT HIDE. PARTS OF ME THAT MAY NEVER SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY OR KNOW THE WARMTH OF LOVE. THERE ARE DEMONS INSIDE THAT TIE BITS OF ME UP & I CAN NEVER GET AWAY. I NEVER USE TO CARE THAT THEY...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 9, 2009

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    when I try to look back

    or whenever I happen to pass by memories, I just can't help but draw a smile on my face...
    hummingtree hummingtree 16-17, F Dec 26, 2014

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    when I was 4 or 5 years old I found my 6 month

    old sister dead.. it always haunts me...
    foReverYOURS3211 foReverYOURS3211 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    School Mainly

    What can I say? CHildren are cruel..they say whatever they want..not knowing or giving a damn that the things they say possibly will effect a person in the long run..
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    I have had bad memories of almost rape and wish I could just forget about it.
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    I was born in 1957 and so the 1960's were very formative years for me. Free milk was given at school each morning in 1/3 pint bottles with a waxy straw, we had black and white TV...
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    Hmmm. When I saw this title I was thinking 'wanna compare scars?' Like kids showing each other their badges of 'daringness' and risk taking ability. Wasn't thinking emotional...
    Nipper66 Nipper66 46-50, F 7 Responses 3 days ago

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    I'm slipping into a downward spiral, I feel like I can no longer cope, I'm being driven back to where I once was, a dark place, blade in hand, unable to reason my way out of it any...
    alphapuppy alphapuppy 18-21, T 5 days ago

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    Having borderline personality disorder makes me depressed. I thought finding out what was wrong with me would help me get better, but it turns out I am narcissistic, dramatic...
    Makochi Makochi 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I think that the only reason people hold onto memories so tight is because memories are the only things that dont change; when everybody else does.
    Poisonprincess2 Poisonprincess2 36-40, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I have the worst luck with cars...
    Fryok Fryok 22-25, M 6 days ago

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    I just want to began recovering... I don't know how hard this is going to be
    annabearrr annabearrr 16-17, F a week ago

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    Hey people today I want to share my experience. I have a scar on the left side of my face from my nose thrue the eyebrow and even tho everyone says you don't notice it unless you...
    DalyLifeOfDee DalyLifeOfDee 18-21, M a week ago

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    Have scars on my both legs as cons of having eczema. Currently working on it by taking supplement. Hoping to get an advice. Can't imagine to have sex with those scars anyway..
    hichoco hichoco 26-30, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Well, puberty hit me like a ton of bricks. And its just now that I learned ho to take care of my skin. Also I have hyper pigmentation, so if I get a bug bite, acne, or a cut or...
    Lacrimosadies Lacrimosadies 18-21, F Jan 31

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    "But you'd be surprised what you can live through..." you get points if it rings true and you know where it came from. If you google it... well you suck bit thank you playing our...
    TowerJimmyDabzs TowerJimmyDabzs 31-35, M Jan 31

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    My scars are expressed through my ink work.... there is no upside-down frown on me.
    TowerJimmyDabzs TowerJimmyDabzs 31-35, M Jan 31

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    32 stitches on the my right arm remind me daily of what I'm capable of doing. Tattoos cannot hide what I have really done in my past. My scars remind me of who I need to become.
    TowerJimmyDabzs TowerJimmyDabzs 31-35, M Jan 31

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    Every scar tells a story They're a medal of Honor to me:)
    nihiless nihiless 36-40, F 2 Responses Jan 31

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    Some amazing memories of the years gone by. Dancing the night away in the rain with the love of my life and waking up to the most amazing morning. Would not trade it for anything...
    Poisonprincess2 Poisonprincess2 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    going to family day trips to the beach .when my son was born. and when I met my friend Emma when I was 13 had some good laughs. and meeting you for very first time Friday 30th of...
    deadbyaprilpromiseme deadbyaprilpromiseme 31-35, F Jan 31