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I Am Overwhelmed By My Memories and My Scars

No matter how hard I try, how much therapy I do, I can never seem to let go of the demons in my mind 312 People

    This Will Help You.

    http://video.server.dhamma.org/video/intro/vintro.htm watch the videos on that page with an open mind. Peace.
    tyrian69 tyrian69 22-25, M Sep 12, 2012

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    Scarring Myself

    I was recently thinking about how, because of my scars and the feelings of worthlessness that was produced by them, I scar myself. I scar myself by making bad choices, getting into relationships that are bad, and self sabotage. In a way I am a "cutter" but instead of physically...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 27, 2010

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    What Becomes Of The Broken Hearted

    Just lately a series of events has triggered of some emotions i was hoping had been put to bed.One thing has returned to my mind and is at the forefront of my attention. My chest is tight and my head is full of thought.I want to cry again as well when i think of how little she...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 8, 2012

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    How To Overcome Scar Deformity

    I had a car accident 3 months ago where my face went into my windscreen, i had a chunck of skin taken out from half of my eyebrow and just above my eyelid, i had to have a skin graft, so no hair will ever grow back on my eyebrow, iam only 28 years old, and i look horrible! The...
    angiesmithy angiesmithy 26-30 7 Responses May 5, 2011

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    I Am Not In As Bad Of A Position As Some

    My memories are mostly near and dear to me. Some are not, but most are. This is mainly why I become overwhelmed. Things are so lame now, I think back to times when things were great. I wish I could travel back and become lost in the moment, never to return. The bad memories haunt...
    TheEvilLeaper TheEvilLeaper 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 16, 2011

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    when I try to look back

    or whenever I happen to pass by memories, I just can't help but draw a smile on my face...
    pitchy28 pitchy28 13-15, F Dec 26, 2014

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    when I was 4 or 5 years old I found my 6 month

    old sister dead.. it always haunts me...
    fOrEvErYoURs321 fOrEvErYoURs321 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    School Mainly

    What can I say? CHildren are cruel..they say whatever they want..not knowing or giving a damn that the things they say possibly will effect a person in the long run..
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 24, 2009

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    Sometimes, you find yourself somewhere you

    never expected to be. Sometimes life forks and you have to make a decision then and there. Sometimes, the choice isn't a choice, but an eventuality. I'm happy with where I am. Even if I'm not where I want to be. It's where I need to be.
    mansfieldtaco99 mansfieldtaco99 22-25, M 1 Response Feb 22

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    Hard.

    the scars are the memories. of how i was. of how there is a chance i could be like that again. it scares me. and it's really hard to not act on those impulses. when i feel like doing those things again, the scars are a reminder. a constant reminder.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 12, 2009

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    I Am Over Whelmed At Times......

    I do get over whelmed at times, they take me over for a short time....then I fight and push them back. It keeps me in check at times of who I am, and how I got here, and what mes me who I am today....but sometimes they can be a bit much. My scars run deep....so when the triggers...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 2 Responses Aug 23, 2010

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    Just bought myself a hungry man turkey dinner

    for thanksgiving. Will be alone this year.
    lionessstrong lionessstrong 46-50, F Nov 14, 2014

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    I Have Seen More Then Most People

    I fight my own demons of my past. I have night terrors and nightmares every night. flash backs, wishful thinking, and feeling the pain that the past has giving me. I have scares that may never heal in my lifetime. My memories get so so so overwhelming that i have tried to commit...
    PunkCowgirl PunkCowgirl 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 5, 2009

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    Down Beckley Ave. she's prolly 16,

    maybe younger, little malnourished body, stomach growling from hunger, she's posted on the corner waiting to get paid, by nasty n***@$ looking to get suc*3d up or l@!d, they tell her what she's worth, ten, maybe five, she takes it cuz out here, we're tought anything to...
    heysmellthis heysmellthis 26-30, M Dec 27, 2014

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    I'm Covered In Hate

    recently I've been unable to look away from the fact that I am almost completely covered in scars. I'm getting a tattoo soon and there is only one place I can get it cuz everywhere else I'm to scarred.This is a map over my scars over my body and I haven't been able to take my...
    NoatoNoaki NoatoNoaki 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 23, 2011

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    And........

    THAT'S WHY I AM THE WAY I AM. OH, I'M MUCH BETTER NOW BUT THERE ARE STILL PARTS OF ME THAT HIDE. PARTS OF ME THAT MAY NEVER SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY OR KNOW THE WARMTH OF LOVE. THERE ARE DEMONS INSIDE THAT TIE BITS OF ME UP & I CAN NEVER GET AWAY. I NEVER USE TO CARE THAT THEY...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 9, 2009

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    Cry

    I never cry. It's not because I have no feelings. It's not because I'm numb or anything. Sometimes I want to cry, just to release those feelings.. But I don't know how to. Tears just don't come no matter how hard I try. I even poked myself in the eye once, just to get them...
    xSilverWillowx xSilverWillowx 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 21, 2011

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    Scars Keep Me Going

    I know why we do itthere are all different reasonsfor some it is the bloodfor some it is the releasefor some they just like the painIt’s the only pain they can controlfor others it is the sense of being in controlbut for me it is the scarsthose are what I cravefor they are...
    FinallyBeingReal FinallyBeingReal 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8, 2012

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    The first cut is the deepest opening your soul

    for the others to come in and to rob you of your peace of mind making every second hell.
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M Dec 26, 2014

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    I have many scars, but I think they are beautiful because they are unique to me and tell my story. I have a scar on my forehead, where my head was busted open at five years old...
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    I love my Scars. Because they tell of the past, of what I once went through. Of what I still go through. Emotion, physical, and mental abuse. The scars also show old addictions I...
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    Maybe too vivid. The details I'm able to retain of events regardless of time is uncanny, especially considering I often have trouble recalling what I had for lunch. These memories...
    PerpetualDreamers PerpetualDreamers 31-35, M 1 Response Feb 8

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    I awoke today with heartache and pain, so deep today. I don't if the word is overwhelmed or if I sad, depressed, disappointed, scared, or just don't know. Am suppose to be moving...
    Luuz Luuz 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 14

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    I have major commitment issues, daddy issues and the thought of being with the same person for the rest of my life scares the crap out of me. I hate seeing the same person every...
    SydneyLockwood SydneyLockwood 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    Right now I feel so overwhelmed... As I cry into my pillow, the urge to hurt myself grows strong and stronger... I'm not happy.. I've acted happy so well that I've fooled myself...
    catho catho 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 16

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    I am overwhelmed with everything, I recently had a bad experience with marijuana. I was with a few of my friends and we we're smoking, and suddenly everything went wrong for me. I...
    qwernia qwernia 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Well maybe not really exactly like that, but my memories or what I think is my memories definitely feel like they don't exist or... like they're just dreams. Sometimes my dreams...
    UnfinishedStar UnfinishedStar 18-21, F Feb 12

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    I'm not sure if this is something that becomes more important to us as we get older, or whether it is simply a way of thinking, of living. But for me, it is all about the memories...
    Chrye Chrye 51-55, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm needing to lovingly kiss all of my beautiful girlfriend's scars XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
    vinvicau vinvicau 66-70, M Feb 6

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    My lovely girlfriend’s scars from cutting herself are exquisitely beautiful because they are inherently part of her ~ part of Ellie's intrinsic inner and visual beauty ~ her...
    vinvicau vinvicau 66-70, M Feb 7

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    Covered with them! Feet, Ankles,Shins, Knees, Thighs, Waist, Buttocks, Abdomen, Back, Chest, Hands, Forearms, Shoulders, Neck, Chin, Both Eyes, Forehead...Internal Scar tissue in...
    Extant1 Extant1 51-55, M 5 Responses Feb 11

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    scars earned of a hard life are tattoos with better stories to be worn with pride.
    ramvan ramvan 36-40, M Feb 12

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    Many of them are self-inflicted... Back from when I was deeply depressed. That depression lasted for about 4 years, and still kinda lingers. Some of my scars have healed and...
    Protonyx Protonyx 16-17, M 3 Responses Feb 17

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    And I do... A few of my friends have scars and there is nothing wrong with them, I see beauty in them
    catho catho 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 18

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    The song scars by Allison Iraheta is what I thought of when I saw this :) it's an old favourite song I like
    krystalkool84 krystalkool84 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 22

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    i scars on left hand.. wen dey fade i make new one to remind myself y i cut myself in the first place so dat i do not repeat the same mistake i made from which i suffer till now...
    mannankaur3 mannankaur3 18-21, M Feb 23

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    I scared of making friends, liking or even loving anyone because of this what's if they see and they hate me because of it. What if they chose to throw me away cuz they don't want...
    Darkerthanlightash Darkerthanlightash 16-17, F Feb 24

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    They're like snakes on my back, run from my neck downwards, from left to right, the length of a belt. The pain of your skin bursting isn't something you forget easily. Hearing your...
    Michalb Michalb 41-45, M 5 days ago

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    I have a lot of scars, the cuts feel like nothing and the blood no longer feels warm. usually my arms but lately I grabbed my face and just raked it. It felt good and I finally...
    crabspanner crabspanner 36-40, M 1 day ago

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