I try not to classify myself within the pagan world, but I do have a very strong connection to my Goddess, use prayer and meditation and only very rarely use 'spells.' Part of my spiritual world is strongly connected to 'mediumship,' and with it comes both the good and the bad.
I am currently struggling with something that's a little out of my knowledge range: I had a vision of a thing that looked like a banana shaped purse, but fatter, made of leather or metal, with grass 'fringe' and small coin items hanging from the bottom. The 'handle' was twine. It could have been a necklace, too. I thought it might have been a talisman looking for me, or something strange.
This was before my travels to the ABC islands in the Caribbean. Now, on a frequent basis, months later, I keep dreaming about being altered by a spell. It could be a curse, but I dont know. The part I am not sure of is the origin, but I am often in an island vacation (the real vacation was 6 months ago) and I am being treated for this spell. At the same time the origin of the spell, which seems to be of concern to my 'doctors' comes from the same culture. The people in my dream are all black islanders, and they seem to be fighting for my sanity without letting me know what is really going on, as if they dont want me to know why they are even interested in my well or ill being.
I am white, but my Goddess figure appears to me in meditation as a older black woman, so I am not surprised at the spiritual/racial issue. It just happens to be of very unusual prominence... My question is, is this part of hoodoo/voodoo/African spiritualism (as defined by the treatment of spirits and the dead as ongoing influences in life)?
What is the meaning of any of this? Last night, my left wrist and a grafted vein within it was of great interest to the 'doctor' in my dream. he kept offering teas, but wouldnt tell me what they were for. Two nights ago it was my right hip, right at the socket.
Any info would be helpful, either regarding the meaning of the dream content, the 'talisman' object or of the type of magic I am possibly experiencing. I have dealt with negative spirits before and been able to get rid of them but I feel a little out of my league with this stuff.
Thanks for any help.