I Am Prone to Dark Moods

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 329 People

    Right at this moment I'm stuck in a dark place

    where I can't even force myself to smile. I've been sitting in the same spot for five hours and moved once. My friends are with me but I don't feel like being social. And I don't think they understand. Yesterday was Valentines Day. I forced my self to go out. I spent a lot of...
    Brokenpanda Brokenpanda
    22-25, F
    Feb 15, 2014

    -.-

     I would like to die.Right now.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    22-25
    1 Response Jan 31, 2012

    I'm in a dark place again.

    Caught in a web of negativity and self hate, I can't break away. Every bad thought, every bad name clings to my mind. I fear they'll never let go. Like a small child hiding the covers, I close my eyes tightly, praying the monsters in my head go away. I want run, I want to hide...
    Brokenpanda Brokenpanda
    22-25, F
    Mar 12, 2014

    Usually I can tell when I am going to spiral

    into the darkness. Its a feeling I get on average 4 times a year and I will just crash for 5-7days. Its something I am used to now and given my extensive problems I just count myself lucky its only 20days per year. I am fine after that for another 4mths or so.
    ultimatehacker ultimatehacker
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Nov 7, 2014

    I get depressed so easily

    and change moods. I often wonder if I have another disorder besides depression. I know I have that but I wonder if there is more. I wish I didn't get upset so easily. I am sure it frustrates those around me to see me being so hard on myself. It almost feels like another person...
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Nov 4, 2015
    cashetty69 cashetty69
    51-55, M
    Nov 5, 2015

    Like Being A Teenager All Over Again

    I'm in one now. I dont know why or how, but I was just laying here and the memories just started rolling in. My douchiness will have to be put on hold tonight.
    Nunyabuziness Nunyabuziness
    31-35, M
    5 Responses Aug 11, 2010

    Definitely....

    Sometimes I get caught up in this. I think of everything I don't have...no social life, no friends left anymore, no partner, jobs a bit rubbish at the moment and feel unsupported, can't afford to move out etc. I know I am a good person and I try so hard but sometimes it feels...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 21, 2011

    The world says "Be positive

    or look on the bright", and I get it but some days I say f*** it. F*** it all, I'm going to be wild and negative. I don't care. (Can you tell? :) I'm in one right now.)
    Ricesha Ricesha
    18-21, F
    Nov 7, 2015

    Really Dark

    I'm in a really dark place again. I can't remember the last time I was this dark like this. I feel like I'm a ******* teenager who is all emotional. I hate it, but right now its kinda just there. `
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 18, 2012

    Sour Mash

    Sometimes my head feels like the entire cast of 'Cat on a Hot Tin Roof' squabbling.  The mendacity, the repression and rejection; the what the **** am I bothering for?  The tip-toeing around impending doom.  Pour me a Bourbon and I'll elucidate at length. 
    CrookedMan CrookedMan
    46-50
    1 Response Nov 25, 2011

    I started off feeling really optimistic today.

    I went to the university alone and felt brave and determined, came home to prepare further college, still okay but then later it all shattered. My bf had something on his phone that concerned me, and (unrelated matter) then later he had his friend stop by with his friend's...
    krazylilmeow krazylilmeow
    26-30, F
    Dec 10, 2014

    I say "I don't know" to everything

    when I'm in a bad mood.
    forefront forefront
    41-45, M
    Jan 31

    My Moods Are So Unpredictable...

    One minute I'm really happy and the next I'm ready to kill someone(or myself). I really hate my mood swings, but sometimes they're really helpful. For example, when I was in one of my "dark moods", I realized how much it scared people and how I much I could use it to my advantage...
    girlanonymous girlanonymous
    18-21, F
    Dec 20, 2010
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