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I Am Pushing Away the People That Love Me

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    I know they love me. I know my husband loves me. I know my children and my momma love me. I can't let them. I don't deserve their love. I want them to hate me. They would be better off without me!
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 25, 2011

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    I ruined a relationship

    because I couldn't stop pushing and he wouldn't stop pushing back wanting me to let him in. Thank goodness we are still really good friends. I need to stop pushing others away, I'm not even sure why I do it. I have no reason to and if I could think of one it wouldn't be good...
    udamansteel udamansteel 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 28

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    Dear Family, I'm Sorry.

    Before I say anything...I have an extremely supportive family. They have done so much for me and allowed me to (for the most part) do what I needed to do to become a successful adult. I was never hurt, abused, growing up..I've always had everything if not more than I needed while...
    lovexmetal lovexmetal 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 16, 2011

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    With Every Bridge I Burn...

    I learn more and more reasons I need to stop adding bricks to the wall and start smashing holes in it. I realize I hurt so badly in the loss of the people I push away, that I have no reason to push them away out of fear in the first place.     I had a really bad...
    KarmaFred KarmaFred 19-21, F 4 Responses May 9, 2007

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    At Arm's Length

    I am 25 years old and my life has passed me by. . . .   Growing up I knew more than I should of for my age.  My father molested my sister, was placed on house arrest and lived with us our entire lives.  He never acknowledge me or my sister unless he wanted...
    Rachael47 Rachael47 21-25 1 Response Feb 17, 2008

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    They Love Me... But...

    Do I love them?The concept of loving and being loved by another person is alien to me. I understand the "sentiment", so to speak, but the sensation itself is ever fleeting.I can think of two people I genuinely love. One is deceased. The love I feel for the other, living person is...
    lysergic lysergic 18-21, F 2 Responses May 6, 2013

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    To be honest I've been lied to,

    hurt, and broken by the people I've loved the most. I've chased my drunk father down miles of dirt road when I was 10 because I had nowhere else to go, had my drunk mother explain to me why I was a waste of a human at 14 and had to keep a knife under my pillow to keep away her...
    CallmeJerr CallmeJerr 22-25, F Jun 25

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    I'm Angry, And I Don't Know Why.

    I'm suffering from a panic attack, which I believe may have turned into panic disorder because I still feel it sometimes. I have been to the doctor, and I even go back this week... I don't know how to explain to a doctor the way I feel, because I cannot describe it. I'm anxious...
    screambefree screambefree 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 10, 2011

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    Someone who could potentially be my boyfriend,

    gave up on me finally after 4 years, all because i pushed them away everytime he asks for my number, wanted all things about me, now that i just realized his love, it's too late
    LilyGlass LilyGlass 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    I Am the Queen of This ....

    My therapist is once again RIGHT .... When i get in a relationship or what should be a relationship and really isnt   i will give so much of myself .... then when i reach a certain point .... i cut them off and i wont let them in any further ..... and then i start to...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    juliana48 juliana48 13-15, F Jun 25

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    My Girlfriend...

    I really try to grab for the love that is deep inside me. My girlfriend does everything she could do to help me. She loves me. And she tells me this all the time. And still I don't do much other things than argue with her and let her know that I love other people as...
    GothGrrrl GothGrrrl 18-21, F May 6, 2007

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    Help =/

    I dont know if I believe in love, Im with a guy who loves me deeply and I cant love him back but I thought to myself he loves me so much and hes such a wonderful guy that I could learn to love him. We have been dating 4 months and we were each others first. Hes two years older...
    AbneyT AbneyT 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 19, 2011

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    It's not like my intention,

    it's more of an instinct. I guess I'm just afraid of getting hurt.
    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    "pinky swear" i followed you along the silent train tracks in the dark cold rain stepping on photographs of sunshine watching the world wash away the graffiti of possibility cause...
    mudmen mudmen 46-50 Nov 28

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    Sometimes, I just need love to be reinforced. I come from a family that takes away their love when they are angry or diss appointed in you. I need constant reinforcement. I can't...
    JJjenniejones JJjenniejones 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 29

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    I don't care what kind of "be hopeful it'll happen" BULLSHIT people decide to throw at me in response to this post. When I love, I love 100 times more intensely than other people...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 29

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    I love this woman, she is by far my favorite artist. It's quite unusual for a 19 year old guy to love her, but i do. I'm not very up to date on current music as the last 2 albums i...
    MATTJ95 MATTJ95 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 14

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    amberlxl amberlxl 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 29

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    It is hard to understand people. Love can be fun and helpful to us if we would just give it a chance. I have been loved and hurt before. I think it's good to try to be optimistic...
    Christian02 Christian02 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    George called it, 'a game that I can't play, this is where the Cowboy rides away" bye love
    extant1 extant1 46-50, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    The words he spoke to me are forever etched in my memory. Today, for completely unrelated reasons, those words are haunting me. My first love and I met in elementary school. In...
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    Besides for the fact that she was gorgeous, why do people love her so much? This isn't hate I'm just curious because she died decades ago and people are still frolicking on the...
    BlueGrande BlueGrande 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 13

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    Любовь, похожая на сон, (English transaltion by me) Love that is like a dream I look into your eyes like in the mirror I'm afraid of losing my reflection in...
    azanun azanun 18-21, F Dec 17

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    even myself... i am trying to.... but i Tell myself I have no friends Believe I am a worse person than I am Do not know that people love me Why?
    clarkee clarkee 51-55 2 Responses Dec 18

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    Eminem is really an inspiration to me, he started at the bottom with a drug addicted mom and no dad all the way to having millions of people love him. Without all of those...
    ChloeLTFU ChloeLTFU 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 4

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    Love shouldnt hurt. Love is if two people love each other and not reject and hurt them. Unfortunatelly i never expirienced love. I feel like a teenage still being at home and has...
    angel8i angel8i 31-35 Dec 4

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    I absolutely love soccer. I'll play soccer anywhere. I remember getting rides into Milan to play soccer with friends and acquaintances, it was nice to know that so many people...
    ItalianLion ItalianLion 13-15, M Dec 5

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    I have only felt this way about one guy. and it ended very very badly. I honestly don't know if I'll ever be able to feel that way again. I know people love more that once in their...
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F Dec 15

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    People love to judge, or point the finger at something or someone a individual desires to entertain, or have relations with. Yet, trying to understand or becoming knowledgable of...
    xyxo xyxo 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I stare down at this empty page I want to fill with black Black to match the inside And fill the hole in my soul Daily I'm pushing people away I hope they don't take it personally...
    JustLittleMeee JustLittleMeee 16-17, F 17 hrs ago

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    I am so used to being hurt. I don't want to lose him. But what if he does decide to leave. What if one day he wakes up and decides I am no enough. That I am not worth the fight...
    withpaincomesstrength withpaincomesstrength 16-17, F 10 hrs ago

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    This is a story on finding love ... One of the things I've been chasing my whole life ... Maybe through the business of my life on things that don't really matter concerning my...
    Juiceyangel333 Juiceyangel333 22-25, F 4 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I love books so much that whenever someone says throw a book away, I go berserk. I completely freak out and get really pissed off. Why? Because when I was about 10, I had a lot of...
    Good4It Good4It 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    I have this idea at some point I will run away, the only thing holding me back is my favourite kid in the world (my little brother) who understands me, in a family of 7 people, my...
    Guanabana Guanabana 18-21, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    December 27. Near the Top. I know you're tired. I know you feel overwhelmed. You may feel as though this crisis, this problem, this hard time will last forever. It won't. You are...
    zeeva70 zeeva70 41-45, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    The Hics-All We'll Know I've met these thoughts before, Uncharted waters rising I feel it in my bones Too deep for me to ignore These cross roads Held back by what I thought was...
    Asia06 Asia06 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    Oh yes, I do. And with wireless technology, people no longer think car singers are nuts talking to themselves like when I was a kid. Lol. I don't even think most people know I'm...
    JJjenniejones JJjenniejones 41-45, F 32 mins ago

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    I have a bad habit of pushing people away. I try not to though. When I go through hard times of numerous sorts, my first instinct is to push people away. I have this mad desire...
    topsykrit topsykrit 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 19

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    Bleh, I’m utterly and completely tired of presenting the friendly aspects of my personality to people in my life who are if not complete arseholes, pretty close to that category...
    morea morea 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Last night was the worst night of my life I didn't sleep at all and it was all my own fault you sent me a pic which was a massive thing for you and instead of just taking it and...
    Sirwithherkey Sirwithherkey 31-35, M 2 Responses Dec 7

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    They say that after the pain comes the worse – something much more terrifying than being drowned into memories of lost feelings and forever broken dreams and much more...
    AnnaJackson12345 AnnaJackson12345 18-21, F 7 hrs ago

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