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I Am Pushing Away the People That Love Me

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    juliana48 juliana48 13-15, F Jun 25

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    With Every Bridge I Burn...

    I learn more and more reasons I need to stop adding bricks to the wall and start smashing holes in it. I realize I hurt so badly in the loss of the people I push away, that I have no reason to push them away out of fear in the first place.     I had a really bad...
    KarmaFred KarmaFred 19-21, F 4 Responses May 9, 2007

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    I ruined a relationship

    because I couldn't stop pushing and he wouldn't stop pushing back wanting me to let him in. Thank goodness we are still really good friends. I need to stop pushing others away, I'm not even sure why I do it. I have no reason to and if I could think of one it wouldn't be good...
    udamansteel udamansteel 16-17, F Apr 28

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    Dear Family, I'm Sorry.

    Before I say anything...I have an extremely supportive family. They have done so much for me and allowed me to (for the most part) do what I needed to do to become a successful adult. I was never hurt, abused, growing up..I've always had everything if not more than I needed while...
    lovexmetal lovexmetal 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 16, 2011

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    Someone who could potentially be my boyfriend,

    gave up on me finally after 4 years, all because i pushed them away everytime he asks for my number, wanted all things about me, now that i just realized his love, it's too late
    LilyGlass LilyGlass 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    I'm Angry, And I Don't Know Why.

    I'm suffering from a panic attack, which I believe may have turned into panic disorder because I still feel it sometimes. I have been to the doctor, and I even go back this week... I don't know how to explain to a doctor the way I feel, because I cannot describe it. I'm anxious...
    screambefree screambefree 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 10, 2011

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    Help =/

    I dont know if I believe in love, Im with a guy who loves me deeply and I cant love him back but I thought to myself he loves me so much and hes such a wonderful guy that I could learn to love him. We have been dating 4 months and we were each others first. Hes two years older...
    AbneyT AbneyT 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 19, 2011

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    At Arm's Length

    I am 25 years old and my life has passed me by. . . .   Growing up I knew more than I should of for my age.  My father molested my sister, was placed on house arrest and lived with us our entire lives.  He never acknowledge me or my sister unless he wanted...
    Rachael47 Rachael47 21-25 1 Response Feb 17, 2008

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    They Love Me... But...

    Do I love them?The concept of loving and being loved by another person is alien to me. I understand the "sentiment", so to speak, but the sensation itself is ever fleeting.I can think of two people I genuinely love. One is deceased. The love I feel for the other, living person is...
    lysergic lysergic 18-21, F 2 Responses May 6, 2013

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    To be honest I've been lied to,

    hurt, and broken by the people I've loved the most. I've chased my drunk father down miles of dirt road when I was 10 because I had nowhere else to go, had my drunk mother explain to me why I was a waste of a human at 14 and had to keep a knife under my pillow to keep away her...
    CallmeJerr CallmeJerr 22-25, F Jun 25

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    Better Off

    I know they love me. I know my husband loves me. I know my children and my momma love me. I can't let them. I don't deserve their love. I want them to hate me. They would be better off without me!
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 25, 2011

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    My Girlfriend...

    I really try to grab for the love that is deep inside me. My girlfriend does everything she could do to help me. She loves me. And she tells me this all the time. And still I don't do much other things than argue with her and let her know that I love other people as...
    GothGrrrl GothGrrrl 18-21, F May 6, 2007

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    It's not like my intention,

    it's more of an instinct. I guess I'm just afraid of getting hurt.
    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    I Am the Queen of This ....

    My therapist is once again RIGHT .... When i get in a relationship or what should be a relationship and really isnt   i will give so much of myself .... then when i reach a certain point .... i cut them off and i wont let them in any further ..... and then i start to...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    I think I might be in love with myself... Is that a good thing or a bad thing? Well, I don't really care. I am most important to me. Of course, I don't always put myself first. I...
    ashfaaqb ashfaaqb 18-21, M 12 hrs ago

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    You know when you think of someone you used to know and then it feels like a slap in the face when you realize they are gone or left your life.... That's how I feel right now. I...
    Lilique Lilique 13-15, F 9 hrs ago

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    I have a group of friends across the US and we all want to run away together,is there anyone with a car that can seat 8 people wanting to go on a road trip and run away with us?
    CalistoCarter CalistoCarter 13-15, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    Redcurlss Redcurlss 31-35, F Sep 16

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    I don't want to be an Atheist again. I've been there on that path before where i dont pray. And its years ago. Busy working everyday. At night i'm so tired. Just focused on money...
    yodatheching yodatheching 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 9

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    The story of my life. I push people away to protect myself ..it may seem selfish but getting hurt has taught me a lot of lessons . Now , you would think those lessons would have...
    EricTheHooper EricTheHooper 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I love hearing the ladies sing the blues... "I'd Rather Go Blind" Than see you walk away from me - Etta James http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u9sq3ME0JHQ "I'd Rather Go Blind...
    AveryWhite AveryWhite 41-45, M 13 hrs ago

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    Simone143 Simone143 26-30, F 16 hrs ago

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    I keep pushing people away when all I really want is a hug
    InternetKid905 InternetKid905 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 10

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    Shades of Grey Life used to have such value, before I wasted it all that day , Now an empty shell named Scott, lives life in shades of gray , I act like life is ok, my smile...
    SRayne SRayne 41-45 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    i am still glowing from my art class today. i am in ap studio art, which means there is a very high standard that we are held to. i went up for my critique, trembling and full of...
    daydreamer27 daydreamer27 16-17, F 5 hrs ago

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    It has affected my relationships so much and not just my love type of relationships but friendships as well...I just can't seem to open up am bubbly,life of the party but I can't...
    CurvyandChic CurvyandChic 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 15

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    I found out how much I've isolated myself from others due to my recent issues where my partner of 6 years moved out im not sure if we can work things out he tells me we can but it...
    heather81 heather81 31-35, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    i hate it when my close friends get me mad and i say 'u r so dirty, never touch me, please' :( i hate myself for putting people away but also hate myself for letting them into my...
    lynncaulfield lynncaulfield 18-21, F 12 hrs ago

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    I told my family " i don't ever want to depend on some kind of machine and fluids to keep me alive " that's when they took away my computer and coffee maker
    Crazychick123456 Crazychick123456 13-15, F 9 hrs ago

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