I Am Pushing Away the People That Love Me

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    At Arm's Length

    I am 25 years old and my life has passed me by. . . .   Growing up I knew more than I should of for my age.  My father molested my sister, was placed on house arrest and lived with us our entire lives.  He never acknowledge me or my sister unless he wanted...
    Rachael47 Rachael47
    22-25
    1 Response Feb 17, 2008

    I'm Angry, And I Don't Know Why.

    I'm suffering from a panic attack, which I believe may have turned into panic disorder because I still feel it sometimes. I have been to the doctor, and I even go back this week... I don't know how to explain to a doctor the way I feel, because I cannot describe it. I'm anxious...
    screambefree screambefree
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 10, 2011

    Help =/

    I dont know if I believe in love, Im with a guy who loves me deeply and I cant love him back but I thought to myself he loves me so much and hes such a wonderful guy that I could learn to love him. We have been dating 4 months and we were each others first. Hes two years older...
    AbneyT AbneyT
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 19, 2011

    I ruined a relationship

    because I couldn't stop pushing and he wouldn't stop pushing back wanting me to let him in. Thank goodness we are still really good friends. I need to stop pushing others away, I'm not even sure why I do it. I have no reason to and if I could think of one it wouldn't be good...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 28, 2014
    juliana48 juliana48
    16-17, F
    Jun 25, 2014

    Better Off

    I know they love me. I know my husband loves me. I know my children and my momma love me. I can't let them. I don't deserve their love. I want them to hate me. They would be better off without me!
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 25, 2011

    Someone who could potentially be my boyfriend,

    gave up on me finally after 4 years, all because i pushed them away everytime he asks for my number, wanted all things about me, now that i just realized his love, it's too late
    LilyGlass LilyGlass
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jun 25, 2014

    They Love Me... But...

    Do I love them?The concept of loving and being loved by another person is alien to me. I understand the "sentiment", so to speak, but the sensation itself is ever fleeting.I can think of two people I genuinely love. One is deceased. The love I feel for the other, living person is...
    lysergic lysergic
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 6, 2013

    With Every Bridge I Burn...

    I learn more and more reasons I need to stop adding bricks to the wall and start smashing holes in it. I realize I hurt so badly in the loss of the people I push away, that I have no reason to push them away out of fear in the first place.     I had a really bad...
    KarmaFred KarmaFred
    18-21, F
    4 Responses May 9, 2007

    Dear Family, I'm Sorry.

    Before I say anything...I have an extremely supportive family. They have done so much for me and allowed me to (for the most part) do what I needed to do to become a successful adult. I was never hurt, abused, growing up..I've always had everything if not more than I needed while...
    lovexmetal lovexmetal
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 16, 2011

    I Am the Queen of This ....

    My therapist is once again RIGHT .... When i get in a relationship or what should be a relationship and really isnt   i will give so much of myself .... then when i reach a certain point .... i cut them off and i wont let them in any further ..... and then i start to...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 28, 2007

    To be honest I've been lied to,

    hurt, and broken by the people I've loved the most. I've chased my drunk father down miles of dirt road when I was 10 because I had nowhere else to go, had my drunk mother explain to me why I was a waste of a human at 14 and had to keep a knife under my pillow to keep away her...
    CallmeJerr CallmeJerr
    22-25, F
    Jun 25, 2014

    My Girlfriend...

    I really try to grab for the love that is deep inside me. My girlfriend does everything she could do to help me. She loves me. And she tells me this all the time. And still I don't do much other things than argue with her and let her know that I love other people as...
    GothGrrrl GothGrrrl
    18-21, F
    May 6, 2007

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