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I Am Pushing Away the People That Love Me

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 106 People

    To be honest I've been lied to,

    hurt, and broken by the people I've loved the most. I've chased my drunk father down miles of dirt road when I was 10 because I had nowhere else to go, had my drunk mother explain to me why I was a waste of a human at 14 and had to keep a knife under my pillow to keep away her...
    CallmeJerr CallmeJerr 22-25, F Jun 25

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    I Am the Queen of This ....

    My therapist is once again RIGHT .... When i get in a relationship or what should be a relationship and really isnt   i will give so much of myself .... then when i reach a certain point .... i cut them off and i wont let them in any further ..... and then i start to...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    Dear Family, I'm Sorry.

    Before I say anything...I have an extremely supportive family. They have done so much for me and allowed me to (for the most part) do what I needed to do to become a successful adult. I was never hurt, abused, growing up..I've always had everything if not more than I needed while...
    lovexmetal lovexmetal 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 16, 2011

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    Someone who could potentially be my boyfriend,

    gave up on me finally after 4 years, all because i pushed them away everytime he asks for my number, wanted all things about me, now that i just realized his love, it's too late
    LilyGlass LilyGlass 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    I ruined a relationship

    because I couldn't stop pushing and he wouldn't stop pushing back wanting me to let him in. Thank goodness we are still really good friends. I need to stop pushing others away, I'm not even sure why I do it. I have no reason to and if I could think of one it wouldn't be good...
    udamansteel udamansteel 16-17, F Apr 28

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    It's not like my intention,

    it's more of an instinct. I guess I'm just afraid of getting hurt.
    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    juliana48 juliana48 13-15, F Jun 25

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    At Arm's Length

    I am 25 years old and my life has passed me by. . . .   Growing up I knew more than I should of for my age.  My father molested my sister, was placed on house arrest and lived with us our entire lives.  He never acknowledge me or my sister unless he wanted...
    Rachael47 Rachael47 21-25 1 Response Feb 17, 2008

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    Help =/

    I dont know if I believe in love, Im with a guy who loves me deeply and I cant love him back but I thought to myself he loves me so much and hes such a wonderful guy that I could learn to love him. We have been dating 4 months and we were each others first. Hes two years older...
    AbneyT AbneyT 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 19, 2011

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    With Every Bridge I Burn...

    I learn more and more reasons I need to stop adding bricks to the wall and start smashing holes in it. I realize I hurt so badly in the loss of the people I push away, that I have no reason to push them away out of fear in the first place.     I had a really bad...
    KarmaFred KarmaFred 19-21, F 4 Responses May 9, 2007

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    Better Off

    I know they love me. I know my husband loves me. I know my children and my momma love me. I can't let them. I don't deserve their love. I want them to hate me. They would be better off without me!
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 25, 2011

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    My Girlfriend...

    I really try to grab for the love that is deep inside me. My girlfriend does everything she could do to help me. She loves me. And she tells me this all the time. And still I don't do much other things than argue with her and let her know that I love other people as...
    GothGrrrl GothGrrrl 18-21, F May 6, 2007

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    They Love Me... But...

    Do I love them?The concept of loving and being loved by another person is alien to me. I understand the "sentiment", so to speak, but the sensation itself is ever fleeting.I can think of two people I genuinely love. One is deceased. The love I feel for the other, living person is...
    lysergic lysergic 18-21, F 2 Responses May 6, 2013

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    I'm Angry, And I Don't Know Why.

    I'm suffering from a panic attack, which I believe may have turned into panic disorder because I still feel it sometimes. I have been to the doctor, and I even go back this week... I don't know how to explain to a doctor the way I feel, because I cannot describe it. I'm anxious...
    screambefree screambefree 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 10, 2011

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    So my ex that I'm in love with told me he loves my " best friend" (but I moved schools,he developed those feeling because I kept pushing him away )) but he says he loves me more...
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    I just read a post about a woman who was constantly falling in love with married men... She analysed the situation she was in and realised why this was happening to her. Now I...
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    My heart won't let me love someone. I met someone think their great but then after a couple of days the feeling go away. Was I born to be single and live alone ?
    88rickyroses 88rickyroses 22-25, F 3 hrs ago

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