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I Am Pushing Away the People That Love Me

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 108 People

    With Every Bridge I Burn...

    I learn more and more reasons I need to stop adding bricks to the wall and start smashing holes in it. I realize I hurt so badly in the loss of the people I push away, that I have no reason to push them away out of fear in the first place.     I had a really bad...
    KarmaFred KarmaFred 18-21, F 4 Responses May 9, 2007

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    Dear Family, I'm Sorry.

    Before I say anything...I have an extremely supportive family. They have done so much for me and allowed me to (for the most part) do what I needed to do to become a successful adult. I was never hurt, abused, growing up..I've always had everything if not more than I needed while...
    lovexmetal lovexmetal 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 16, 2011

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    I ruined a relationship

    because I couldn't stop pushing and he wouldn't stop pushing back wanting me to let him in. Thank goodness we are still really good friends. I need to stop pushing others away, I'm not even sure why I do it. I have no reason to and if I could think of one it wouldn't be good...
    udamansteel udamansteel 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 28, 2014

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    juliana48 juliana48 13-15, F Jun 25, 2014

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    Someone who could potentially be my boyfriend,

    gave up on me finally after 4 years, all because i pushed them away everytime he asks for my number, wanted all things about me, now that i just realized his love, it's too late
    LilyGlass LilyGlass 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2014

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    At Arm's Length

    I am 25 years old and my life has passed me by. . . .   Growing up I knew more than I should of for my age.  My father molested my sister, was placed on house arrest and lived with us our entire lives.  He never acknowledge me or my sister unless he wanted...
    Rachael47 Rachael47 18-21 1 Response Feb 17, 2008

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    My Girlfriend...

    I really try to grab for the love that is deep inside me. My girlfriend does everything she could do to help me. She loves me. And she tells me this all the time. And still I don't do much other things than argue with her and let her know that I love other people as...
    GothGrrrl GothGrrrl 18-21, F May 6, 2007

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    It's not like my intention,

    it's more of an instinct. I guess I'm just afraid of getting hurt.
    MeaninglessMemories MeaninglessMemories 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2014

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    They Love Me... But...

    Do I love them?The concept of loving and being loved by another person is alien to me. I understand the "sentiment", so to speak, but the sensation itself is ever fleeting.I can think of two people I genuinely love. One is deceased. The love I feel for the other, living person is...
    lysergic lysergic 18-21, F 2 Responses May 6, 2013

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    I'm Angry, And I Don't Know Why.

    I'm suffering from a panic attack, which I believe may have turned into panic disorder because I still feel it sometimes. I have been to the doctor, and I even go back this week... I don't know how to explain to a doctor the way I feel, because I cannot describe it. I'm anxious...
    screambefree screambefree 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 10, 2011

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    To be honest I've been lied to,

    hurt, and broken by the people I've loved the most. I've chased my drunk father down miles of dirt road when I was 10 because I had nowhere else to go, had my drunk mother explain to me why I was a waste of a human at 14 and had to keep a knife under my pillow to keep away her...
    CallmeJerr CallmeJerr 22-25, F Jun 25, 2014

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    Better Off

    I know they love me. I know my husband loves me. I know my children and my momma love me. I can't let them. I don't deserve their love. I want them to hate me. They would be better off without me!
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 25, 2011

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    I Am the Queen of This ....

    My therapist is once again RIGHT .... When i get in a relationship or what should be a relationship and really isnt   i will give so much of myself .... then when i reach a certain point .... i cut them off and i wont let them in any further ..... and then i start to...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    Help =/

    I dont know if I believe in love, Im with a guy who loves me deeply and I cant love him back but I thought to myself he loves me so much and hes such a wonderful guy that I could learn to love him. We have been dating 4 months and we were each others first. Hes two years older...
    AbneyT AbneyT 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 19, 2011

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    highstandardAPE highstandardAPE 22-25, M a week ago

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    I have always distanced myself from people and built walls to protect myself. Every time someone would try to get close to me or discuss commitment, I would push them away, and cut...
    ThatOneGemini ThatOneGemini 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    You know what's scary? Life. Life is scary. But the scariest thing is to share it with someone. That's TWO lives intertwined forever and that's scary af. But as humans we crave...
    badbabygirl badbabygirl 18-21, F May 12

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    pushing daisies i love this show
    mrmark524 mrmark524 70+, M 1 Response May 8

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    Joy Division "Atmosphere" Walk in silence, Don't walk away, in silence. See the danger, Always danger, Endless talking, Life rebuilding, Don't walk away. Walk in silence, Don't...
    Keanu1991 Keanu1991 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I forgot when words were only words She knows the party makes me nervous In this stage we can't get hurt Don't try to understand me We're too cool to be alone But, not too crazy...
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F May 2

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    I believe the scene of Black bullet when Kisara slaughtered her brother for revenge has only been one to shove away people's expectation to see her and Rentarou as a couple. And to...
    AoNoSora AoNoSora 16-17 May 1

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    otect* my story at the age of 13 brianna lived for being someone else she hated being who she was she was ugly and wasent understanded well at least she thought anyways. whdn...
    Brianna1999donut Brianna1999donut 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    I tend to push away people and isolate myself whenever things get tough
    Open114 Open114 22-25, F 3 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    The prettiest thing about the world is that being true you can’t live a peaceful and a serene life which would falter your own existence by some mere strangers that while about...
    huntsam huntsam 18-21, M Apr 29

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    What I find interesting is people that think they know it all. The nature of man is to be disobedient every since the beginning. Some people are confused because in their heart...
    Babeondwy Babeondwy 41-45, F May 6

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    One of my mid-teen girls is going through a very rough and emotional week this week.... Shes madly in love and he BF is moving away...... I love you LIL ONE..... Pop
    ImHungry2 ImHungry2 51-55, M 1 Response Apr 27

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    Why can't people love me for me? I don't want you to love me Becuase your my Mum or my sister ect, I want you to love me because of who I am. Why can't people see me? I was hiding...
    writingforlife6 writingforlife6 18-21, F 2 Responses May 5

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    Your 6 may be someone else's 10 so don't be rude about who people find attractive and about who people love because you don't see what they do. Everyone is someone else's "10...
    cmr426 cmr426 13-15, F 1 Response May 5

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    I'll never move away. I love everything about Texas!
    ka216 ka216 18-21, F 3 Responses May 10

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    This is referring to my I am a teenage lesbian.... People are going around assuming things and so on and so on.... I'm being diverse with my writing. Most of my writing is dark...
    LeahLoveeU LeahLoveeU 13-15, F 1 Response May 12

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    People love to just judge me!! I don't know, do I look like a bad a guy. Then why is it like that XD even little brats think I am lol
    Notimeline Notimeline 18-21, M May 9

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    I find Daenerys character a little unrealistic. I know the whole series is fiction and magic and many people love her cuz she has come such a long way. Apart from Arya Stark she is...
    blasphemy666 blasphemy666 22-25, F 2 Responses May 2

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    two things... the sound of the waves crashing and the cool salty smell wind lol.. some people love to light a fire, but I don't.. well it's nt too cold here in my place.. kinda...
    FaitAccomp1i FaitAccomp1i 70+, M 3 Responses May 6

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    Many people love the idea of you, but lack the maturity to handle the reality of you.
    RestlessFlame RestlessFlame 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    People Love A Warm Hug
    lovingRIZA lovingRIZA 51-55, F 6 days ago

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    THINGS CAN CHANGE Two years ago I never thought we'd be here. Never imagined that life could be so peaceful or feel so complete. Two years ago I thought my marriage was over and I...
    staryflower staryflower 36-40, F 18 mins ago

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    "Don?t be so quick to throw away your life. No matter how disgraceful or embarrassing it may be, you need to keep struggling to find your way out until the very end."
    WarriorsHeart WarriorsHeart 22-25, M 55 mins ago

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    In the community where I live, unemployment is high, people live and sleep on the streets in parks, garages, park benches, many of these people have found themselves in this...
    wetsec1 wetsec1 31-35, F Apr 23

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    All my friends seem to be pushing me away lately.. Every single one.. I don't know what I'm doing! Meh.. :c
    ForeverKittenn ForeverKittenn 13-15, F 3 Responses May 7

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    I like fat girls. like a lot. I am thin myself, however that's down to my high metabolism. I'd love to find someone who wants to gain so they can have every food they could ever...
    same22469 same22469 22-25, F 47 mins ago

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    HELLO WORLD!! I am not "sit back and take it without complaining" woman anymore!! I am not going to spend any more time making everyone happy at the expense of myself!!! If you...
    SunAgain SunAgain 31-35, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I have never felt reciprocated love. I don't mean like the friends and family package deal that everybody gets, I mean romantically. It's not from a lack of trying, but as I look...
    monkey0506 monkey0506 26-30, M 1 Response May 9

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