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I Am Pushing Away the People That Love Me

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    At Arm's Length

    I am 25 years old and my life has passed me by. . . .   Growing up I knew more than I should of for my age.  My father molested my sister, was placed on house arrest and lived with us our entire lives.  He never acknowledge me or my sister unless he wanted...
    Rachael47 Rachael47 21-25 1 Response Feb 17, 2008

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    I'm Angry, And I Don't Know Why.

    I'm suffering from a panic attack, which I believe may have turned into panic disorder because I still feel it sometimes. I have been to the doctor, and I even go back this week... I don't know how to explain to a doctor the way I feel, because I cannot describe it. I'm anxious...
    screambefree screambefree 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 10, 2011

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    With Every Bridge I Burn...

    I learn more and more reasons I need to stop adding bricks to the wall and start smashing holes in it. I realize I hurt so badly in the loss of the people I push away, that I have no reason to push them away out of fear in the first place.     I had a really bad...
    KarmaFred KarmaFred 19-21, F 4 Responses May 9, 2007

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    I Am the Queen of This ....

    My therapist is once again RIGHT .... When i get in a relationship or what should be a relationship and really isnt   i will give so much of myself .... then when i reach a certain point .... i cut them off and i wont let them in any further ..... and then i start to...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    They Love Me... But...

    Do I love them?The concept of loving and being loved by another person is alien to me. I understand the "sentiment", so to speak, but the sensation itself is ever fleeting.I can think of two people I genuinely love. One is deceased. The love I feel for the other, living person is...
    lysergic lysergic 18-21, F 1 Response May 6, 2013

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    My Girlfriend...

    I really try to grab for the love that is deep inside me. My girlfriend does everything she could do to help me. She loves me. And she tells me this all the time. And still I don't do much other things than argue with her and let her know that I love other people as...
    GothGrrrl GothGrrrl 18-21, F May 6, 2007

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    Better Off

    I know they love me. I know my husband loves me. I know my children and my momma love me. I can't let them. I don't deserve their love. I want them to hate me. They would be better off without me!
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 25, 2011

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    Help =/

    I dont know if I believe in love, Im with a guy who loves me deeply and I cant love him back but I thought to myself he loves me so much and hes such a wonderful guy that I could learn to love him. We have been dating 4 months and we were each others first. Hes two years older...
    AbneyT AbneyT 16-17, F Aug 19, 2011

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    Dear Family, I'm Sorry.

    Before I say anything...I have an extremely supportive family. They have done so much for me and allowed me to (for the most part) do what I needed to do to become a successful adult. I was never hurt, abused, growing up..I've always had everything if not more than I needed while...
    lovexmetal lovexmetal 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 16, 2011

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    courtneyxchaos courtneyxchaos 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 22

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    I've been pushing away. I do like some guys, but when they actually take on the urge to ask me out. I get scared, afraid. So i reject them on the spot regardless if i hurt them or...
    Dapperness Dapperness 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    BARRY MANILOW "Mandy" I remember all my life Raining down as cold as ice. Shadows of a man, A face through a window cryin' in the night, The night goes into Morning just another...
    sherrianna sherrianna 18-21, F Apr 4

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    Look Up Your Birthday And See What You Are..... January 01 - 09 ~ Dog January 10 - 24 ~ Mouse January 25 - 31 ~ Lion February 01 - 05 ~ Cat February 06 - 14 ~ Dove February 15 - 21...
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    I work at a medical office and sometimes I have patients who will flirt with me but I just brush them off because I'm at work and I need to be professional. One day I was on the...
    soul711 soul711 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    "I hope they cannot see the limitless potential, living inside of me, to murder everything. I hope they cannot see; I am the great destroyer." - Trent Reznor (The Great Destroyer...
    Lullacus Lullacus 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    Know Thyself.me was just scrolling through the experiences here and accidentally joined in. Did try to leave the group with the hope to read the message - "We are sorry for You...
    mejj mejj 36-40, F 6 Responses Apr 1

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    One more depending on a prayer, and we all look away People pretending everywhere, its just another day Theres bullet flying through the air, and they still carry on We watch it...
    Ned72 Ned72 16-17, M Mar 21

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    The Wheel Turns Thinking of a dear friend tonight whose father passed away today. As he makes arrangements for the funeral, I'm at a loss for what to do for him. He's miles away...
    livelaughlovedream3 livelaughlovedream3 41-45, F 3 Responses Mar 27

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    Heartland - I Loved Her First Look at the two of you dancing that way Lost in the moment and each others face So much in love your alone in this place Like there's nobody else...
    sherrianna sherrianna 18-21, F Apr 7

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    BRAVO! Nothing worst than someone conforming to peer pressure and being like "sisters" by copying and being exactly like their friends - imitating the same behavior and do what...
    MilweePisces MilweePisces 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    Ah hugs ♥ I loved them since my childhood. But who doesn't? Well, not everyone loves them... I think they are scared of that “weird” feeling they don't understand. Poor...
    TsukiyoChan TsukiyoChan 22-25, F 5 Responses Mar 27

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    Okay, some people need to understand something. Yes, I love One Direction. But guess what? I love all genres of music. I was raised listening to bands like Metallica, Def Leppard...
    LittleListener LittleListener 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    My name is worthless like you told me I once was My name is empty cause you drained away the love My name is searching since you stole my only soul My name is hatred and the...
    shyguy38 shyguy38 18-21, M Apr 6

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    "In this world life is hard people hate u people love u. The people who love u, love you because their smart and can see how unique and awesome u are. Haters are too stupid to see...
    mahnouls mahnouls 16-17 a week ago

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    Im very attracted to funny people, love watching comedians on you tube.... Suggestions anyone? I love watching - Katt Williams - Russell Peters - Kevin Hart
    tatem tatem 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    Why can't people love other people for Christ sake!!!! We can't all be the same, we were made to be different, how can you hate a black, a white, Mexican. It's just so annoying...
    mrij mrij 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 27

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    I read a lot. And I read fast. I was surrounded by books since birth. My parents and my grandparents were all bookworms. When I was a teenager, I was going through some 200 and up...
    fakehotairbaloon fakehotairbaloon 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 1

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    I love to build and create things. There is an intense joy that comes from starting with nothing, or just some raw shapes, and making them into something people love.
    Itsalwaysdarkbeforedawn Itsalwaysdarkbeforedawn 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 4

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    I am a Chinese Lingerie seller on Aliexpress. I know that these days many people love shopping online. So I open an online store to sell lingerie which are directly from...
    chowonion chowonion 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    For those that has this issue, we will learn the hard way that this is the last thing we will want to do. Admitting this is one thing, but when you push away that person who can...
    Trainedheart Trainedheart 26-30, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    I recently got into a very emotional relationship with a friend and it started off one-sided, with him showing a lot of interest in me. He would always compliment me and call me...
    FaintSmile FaintSmile 22-25, F Apr 9

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    Invested in 19 new succulents and cacti today! All different kinds I haven't got yet. Can't wait to pot them out and have them all pup and propagate so I can use them in my...
    caraacakes caraacakes 16-17, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I wrote this a while ago, it seems such a long time. I was reading it again, and I'm so much happier now. I am where I'm supposed to be. I thought I was in Love. To forgive and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 29

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    Hello guys, I hope you're all doing well. I sort of hesitated about the idea of posting my experience here but I decided to do so. I sort of think that I have been a schizoid my...
    Bloodyshrines Bloodyshrines 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    I am writing this experience because of the guilt, shame, and pain I feel about pushing someone away... If you can relate to this, please comment... I could use your support... I...
    Shoutittotheworld23 Shoutittotheworld23 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 8

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    I saw this news article and just had to share it. Go here to read the article, see pictures and get a link to a more detailed article. NASHPORT, Ohio (AP) — A couple who held...
    blossomingbeauti blossomingbeauti 36-40, F 3 hrs ago

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    After my birthday nothing major has happened. Wednesday: all that happened was that after lunch, i had maths. Maths class is right in front of his office. I was sitting outside...
    Missinghim99 Missinghim99 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 30

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    FAITH... Well I guess it would b nice, if I could touch your body oh not everybodys got a body like you. But I gotta think twice bfore I give myheart away, and I know all the games...
    prettyflamingo prettyflamingo 41-45, F 2 hrs ago

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    I've been seeing this guy for over 5 months. He is married but not living with his wife. They have two children together. She uses the kids to get back at him for leaving her. She...
    Tyrea31 Tyrea31 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    I was on here before, but my account got deleted by accident. The name was YouAreTheOnlyExpection. Anyway a breif overview before I tell you what has happened. Since I started...
    RedIsTheRose RedIsTheRose 16-17, F Mar 21

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    I'm not feeling great today. What's worse is that I'm acting up. I'm anxious, frustrated, I am worried about money and I'm still suffering from the dull sickening ache of pmt. My...
    sumsmit sumsmit 26-30 1 Response Mar 25

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    I'm use to having negativity in my life. So anything that's suppose to be good for me, I tend to push away because I'm afraid and it's unfamiliar to me. It's irritating, but that's...
    Philli8807 Philli8807 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    I definitely have to go away for a while. Cool things down I need loving But I'm not getting it
    CoolDad59 CoolDad59 51-55, M 1 hr ago

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    I have been on & off with this guy since the 7th grade. I finally told him a couple months ago I had feelings for him again & he said the same. Three weeks ago my friend had a...
    ohitsgracee ohitsgracee 13-15, F Mar 30

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    So not long after I got over the last person that I had an obsession with, I soon caught myself craving companionship from someone else. I was just getting really attached to her...
    chips24 chips24 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 4

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    Heeeey people! I'm Donna, only started ep like two days ago. I want a group of people from all around the world to so stuff together. Photography, talking about culture and...
    iwishitall iwishitall 16-17, F 18 mins ago

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    I can't describe my feeling about her I can only think of it and think of it. This feeling is so frustrating and yet so calming. When you show someone what you feel and she is only...
    RedUnderground RedUnderground 16-17, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Match Report I am in my school junior football team, what my American friends call soccer. It is for girls 16 years and younger. This time of year, we would normally be...
    yulico yulico 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    Match Report I am in my school junior football team, what my American friends call soccer. It is for girls 16 years and younger. This time of year, we would normally be...
    yulico yulico 13-15, F Mar 23

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    The bird and the worm by The usedHe wears his heartsafety pinned to his backpackHis backpack is all that he knowsShot down by strangerswhose glances can cripplethe heart and devour...
    Alisaperne6446 Alisaperne6446 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    that my life!!!!! I sometimes don't understand why I do that but I do and I hate it because I push the ones that actually do care away too. ans that's sad
    lillyg96 lillyg96 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

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