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I Am Pushing Away the People That Love Me

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    It's not like my intention,

    it's more of an instinct. I guess I'm just afraid of getting hurt.
    XxBadXVibesxX XxBadXVibesxX 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2014

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    I'm Angry, And I Don't Know Why.

    I'm suffering from a panic attack, which I believe may have turned into panic disorder because I still feel it sometimes. I have been to the doctor, and I even go back this week... I don't know how to explain to a doctor the way I feel, because I cannot describe it. I'm anxious...
    screambefree screambefree 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 10, 2011

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    juliana48 juliana48 13-15, F Jun 25, 2014

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    They Love Me... But...

    Do I love them?The concept of loving and being loved by another person is alien to me. I understand the "sentiment", so to speak, but the sensation itself is ever fleeting.I can think of two people I genuinely love. One is deceased. The love I feel for the other, living person is...
    lysergic lysergic 18-21, F 2 Responses May 6, 2013

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    Better Off

    I know they love me. I know my husband loves me. I know my children and my momma love me. I can't let them. I don't deserve their love. I want them to hate me. They would be better off without me!
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 25, 2011

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    Someone who could potentially be my boyfriend,

    gave up on me finally after 4 years, all because i pushed them away everytime he asks for my number, wanted all things about me, now that i just realized his love, it's too late
    LilyGlass LilyGlass 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2014

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    To be honest I've been lied to,

    hurt, and broken by the people I've loved the most. I've chased my drunk father down miles of dirt road when I was 10 because I had nowhere else to go, had my drunk mother explain to me why I was a waste of a human at 14 and had to keep a knife under my pillow to keep away her...
    CallmeJerr CallmeJerr 22-25, F Jun 25, 2014

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    I Am the Queen of This ....

    My therapist is once again RIGHT .... When i get in a relationship or what should be a relationship and really isnt   i will give so much of myself .... then when i reach a certain point .... i cut them off and i wont let them in any further ..... and then i start to...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    I ruined a relationship

    because I couldn't stop pushing and he wouldn't stop pushing back wanting me to let him in. Thank goodness we are still really good friends. I need to stop pushing others away, I'm not even sure why I do it. I have no reason to and if I could think of one it wouldn't be good...
    udamansteel udamansteel 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 28, 2014

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    At Arm's Length

    I am 25 years old and my life has passed me by. . . .   Growing up I knew more than I should of for my age.  My father molested my sister, was placed on house arrest and lived with us our entire lives.  He never acknowledge me or my sister unless he wanted...
    Rachael47 Rachael47 21-25 1 Response Feb 17, 2008

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    With Every Bridge I Burn...

    I learn more and more reasons I need to stop adding bricks to the wall and start smashing holes in it. I realize I hurt so badly in the loss of the people I push away, that I have no reason to push them away out of fear in the first place.     I had a really bad...
    KarmaFred KarmaFred 19-21, F 4 Responses May 9, 2007

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    My Girlfriend...

    I really try to grab for the love that is deep inside me. My girlfriend does everything she could do to help me. She loves me. And she tells me this all the time. And still I don't do much other things than argue with her and let her know that I love other people as...
    GothGrrrl GothGrrrl 18-21, F May 6, 2007

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    Help =/

    I dont know if I believe in love, Im with a guy who loves me deeply and I cant love him back but I thought to myself he loves me so much and hes such a wonderful guy that I could learn to love him. We have been dating 4 months and we were each others first. Hes two years older...
    AbneyT AbneyT 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 19, 2011

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    Dear Family, I'm Sorry.

    Before I say anything...I have an extremely supportive family. They have done so much for me and allowed me to (for the most part) do what I needed to do to become a successful adult. I was never hurt, abused, growing up..I've always had everything if not more than I needed while...
    lovexmetal lovexmetal 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 16, 2011

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    It's hard to admit that I am a sheep in wolfs clothing. Life has been unfair to me in my ways, it gives me people that I love and care for and then it cruelly snatches them away...
    Izzy143 Izzy143 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 20

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    I can see your picture in my mind a vision the seems so very real I miss you every night in my dreams time and space we never keep by so separate your loveĀ“s keeping me...
    MollyMarie14 MollyMarie14 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm a loser and I'm ashamed of my life and because of that I pushed away people even when I needed them the most. I don't answer calls nor text from my friends and it's been almost...
    almasolitaria312 almasolitaria312 31-35, F 4 Responses Jan 19

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    Everyone leaves eventually, nothing last forever. I tend to push away people that could actually end up being really good friends for me because I get scared. I don't like being...
    moshinocherryxx moshinocherryxx 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I hope you know by now how much I love you. It's innocent and unconditional love; the same I feel for my dogs. I've never felt so protective of a human before. I can't help feeling...
    Levi1 Levi1 13-15, M 5 Responses Jan 14

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    Caaaalllllggggooonnnn, please take me away, how lovely it would be to bathe in morning glories and find my way into South Africa... To have heat and the sun bathe me... Birds...
    OrchidsNuBlu OrchidsNuBlu 36-40, F 8 Responses Jan 20

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    I smoke when I roll out of bed in the morning like some people drink coffee. I smoke for breakfast, lunch, and dinner than a smoke before bed. I love marijuana like some people...
    xxdublifexx xxdublifexx 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Eddie Rabbit - Driving my life away :D love it!
    GhostOfTheGreenRoom GhostOfTheGreenRoom 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    well TBH majority Of The People love chatting online including me Coz it improves your self confidence and on the other hand helps you make new friends
    waris1 waris1 16-17, M 2 Responses Jan 1

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    http://www.blogthings.com/whatloveactuallycoupleareyouquiz/ You Are Peter and Juliet. You aren't the type to wear your heart on your sleeve, and no one really ever knows what's...
    Vetrov Vetrov 51-55, M Jan 2

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    People love good ones But bad ones do come You're guaranteed to get some So take them and run They will get things done What are they?
    Reading247 Reading247 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 12

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    I love hugs I'm a big huger a lot of people love my hugs
    luvps luvps 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 17

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    i try to believe when my family or husband tell me they love me but there are days where i don't feel like they love me cause how can people love me if i don't love myself
    sefphera sefphera 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    Be love, Be joy... Wrap yourself in happiness and let it shine through you completely. Loveliness is like a magnet. Be that magnet people love to be around. Make yourself joyful...
    Summerandroses Summerandroses 22-25, F 14 hrs ago

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    You have to think of pushing someone away, as literally pushing them out of a door. It's harder to push, than to not push. Pushing is blunt, bold force. You've been pushing them...
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 2 Responses Jan 6

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    The only problem with this, is when I end up hurting myself by pushing someone away who I really care about. I don't want to get hurt, but I also don't want to keep pushing people...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Reading through this website helped me so much with my recent situation, that I felt the need to contribute somehow and hope it helps others in return. A little background about...
    guywithnoname guywithnoname 26-30, M 1 day ago

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    I feel my boyfriend is pulling away from me and we haven't been together that long. We had a talk the other night and he reassured me if he met someone else he would tell me. Over...
    gymgirl71 gymgirl71 36-40, F 1 Response 32 mins ago

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    What happens to a frog's car when it breaks down? It gets toad away.
    charmingcutie charmingcutie 18-21, M 5 hrs ago

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    Q: Why did Cinderella get kicked off the soccer team? A: Because she ran away from the ball.
    charmingcutie charmingcutie 18-21, M 5 hrs ago

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    Man, the varieties of labels I'd be reading. It would be nice though. I would know who to stay away from and who to risk it with.
    TheRogueWolf TheRogueWolf 18-21, F 2 hrs ago

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    Decided to try be a nicer person for 2015... it didn't last long. In fact by January 2nd I had managed to push away one of the people who meant the most to me. I know myself that I...
    RachiiM RachiiM 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Come away with me in the night...come away with me and i will write you a song...
    vhh1996 vhh1996 18-21, M 41 mins ago

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    Working late at the Aerodynamics Lab /* HowlingLonesome wrote the story and I made the pics. I want to thank HowlingLonesome for supervising my work and helping me making the...
    wgsoup wgsoup 26-30, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I usually keep people at a distance and when I notice they're getting closer and starting to break down the wall I put up I start pushing them away. I push them away because just...
    cklein245 cklein245 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    Dear romantic interests, I'm sorry in advance. I'm sorry for all I will put you through. It will be an up and down roller-coaster, but it will be worth it if you stay and push...
    findingfae findingfae 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 19

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    Been hurt emotionally so much by everyone, even loved ones that now I'm too scared to let anyone get close to me anymore. I can't help by keep everyone at arm's length, I feel...
    EightEggyEggs EightEggyEggs 18-21, M Jan 4

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    Beowulf: a ripple in time Beowulf and Grendel charge at each other. The glow from the torches showing Grendel's teeth barred ready to strike, meanwhile Beowulf's muscles bulge as...
    Funnychase66 Funnychase66 16-17, M 6 days ago

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    I'm on the brink of falling in love but holding back. For good reason too. And it's not uncomfortable at all. Everything seems to make perfect sense. Getting to know him and enjoy...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 22-25, F 3 hrs ago

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    I've had this friend since I was in kindergarden. I was in Puerto Rico at that time and left when I was 10, came back when I was turning 13 left again to Fl & now at age 17 I live...
    Kalel17 Kalel17 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    im always pushing people away i never let anyone in
    Becca1369 Becca1369 13-15, F Jan 4

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    I've spent so much time pushing people away and new that I've opened my eyes I see how much I've really missed out on
    sweetshadows15 sweetshadows15 16-17, F Jan 19

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