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I Am Pushing Away the People That Love Me

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    To be honest I've been lied to,

    hurt, and broken by the people I've loved the most. I've chased my drunk father down miles of dirt road when I was 10 because I had nowhere else to go, had my drunk mother explain to me why I was a waste of a human at 14 and had to keep a knife under my pillow to keep away her...
    CallmeJerr CallmeJerr 22-25, F Jun 25, 2014

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    Better Off

    I know they love me. I know my husband loves me. I know my children and my momma love me. I can't let them. I don't deserve their love. I want them to hate me. They would be better off without me!
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 25, 2011

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    I ruined a relationship

    because I couldn't stop pushing and he wouldn't stop pushing back wanting me to let him in. Thank goodness we are still really good friends. I need to stop pushing others away, I'm not even sure why I do it. I have no reason to and if I could think of one it wouldn't be good...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 28, 2014

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    My Girlfriend...

    I really try to grab for the love that is deep inside me. My girlfriend does everything she could do to help me. She loves me. And she tells me this all the time. And still I don't do much other things than argue with her and let her know that I love other people as...
    GothGrrrl GothGrrrl 18-21, F May 6, 2007

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    I Am the Queen of This ....

    My therapist is once again RIGHT .... When i get in a relationship or what should be a relationship and really isnt   i will give so much of myself .... then when i reach a certain point .... i cut them off and i wont let them in any further ..... and then i start to...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    At Arm's Length

    I am 25 years old and my life has passed me by. . . .   Growing up I knew more than I should of for my age.  My father molested my sister, was placed on house arrest and lived with us our entire lives.  He never acknowledge me or my sister unless he wanted...
    Rachael47 Rachael47 18-21 1 Response Feb 17, 2008

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    Dear Family, I'm Sorry.

    Before I say anything...I have an extremely supportive family. They have done so much for me and allowed me to (for the most part) do what I needed to do to become a successful adult. I was never hurt, abused, growing up..I've always had everything if not more than I needed while...
    lovexmetal lovexmetal 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 16, 2011

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    Someone who could potentially be my boyfriend,

    gave up on me finally after 4 years, all because i pushed them away everytime he asks for my number, wanted all things about me, now that i just realized his love, it's too late
    LilyGlass LilyGlass 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2014

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    juliana48 juliana48 16-17, F Jun 25, 2014

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    I'm Angry, And I Don't Know Why.

    I'm suffering from a panic attack, which I believe may have turned into panic disorder because I still feel it sometimes. I have been to the doctor, and I even go back this week... I don't know how to explain to a doctor the way I feel, because I cannot describe it. I'm anxious...
    screambefree screambefree 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 10, 2011

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    They Love Me... But...

    Do I love them?The concept of loving and being loved by another person is alien to me. I understand the "sentiment", so to speak, but the sensation itself is ever fleeting.I can think of two people I genuinely love. One is deceased. The love I feel for the other, living person is...
    lysergic lysergic 18-21, F 2 Responses May 6, 2013

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    With Every Bridge I Burn...

    I learn more and more reasons I need to stop adding bricks to the wall and start smashing holes in it. I realize I hurt so badly in the loss of the people I push away, that I have no reason to push them away out of fear in the first place.     I had a really bad...
    KarmaFred KarmaFred 18-21, F 4 Responses May 9, 2007

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    Help =/

    I dont know if I believe in love, Im with a guy who loves me deeply and I cant love him back but I thought to myself he loves me so much and hes such a wonderful guy that I could learn to love him. We have been dating 4 months and we were each others first. Hes two years older...
    AbneyT AbneyT 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 19, 2011

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    Although my moms been pushing me to lose weight, nothings happened- probably the opposite. I'm constantly hungry, and because I've been forced to stick to three meals a day, when i...
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    To be honest I feel like I've been betrayed by every person I know. The only person who didn't betray me and was consistent through and through was a weed smoking democrat and he...
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    Yep, I'm a grand Star Wars fan. I'm not particularly crazy about it because I'm more of the type to look at things in the bigger picture. That being said; I appreciate the...
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    "The greatest thing you'll ever learn, is just to love and be loved in return." I find myself unable to agree or disagree with this quote... I think it can be quite painful when...
    sophiebelle27 sophiebelle27 26-30, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I've known my husband for almost 5 years now and I can honestly say that I am pushing him away. It's not that I don't love him, it's that he hurts me so much that I am trying to...
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    I don't know why I have kept going for wrong people--those who don't care about me or how I feel. They use me and throw me away. Of course, I have been hurt and miserable. Still, I...
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    It's actually pretty fun finding out what will burn and what will not. You start to lose your fear of getting burnt, you learn how to push through your limits and most people love...
    xXverlorenXx xXverlorenXx 22-25, M a week ago

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    I don't know if it's pushing. we have all suffered loss, some of us many losses at a very young age. I just try not to get too close to anyone. because dealing with...
    snoopymg snoopymg 36-40, F Feb 2

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    a long time ago I used to be social and like people from like the 90s until like 2002 but then I became depressed and really shy and mentally ill and around 02 all my friends just...
    chexmixgod86 chexmixgod86 26-30, M Jan 30

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    I feel lonely, but here I am, pushing people away from me. It's just that the friends I have don't understand anything I say, and I'm tired of comparing myself to them.
    MaliciousInternet MaliciousInternet 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    I just started watching this show last year. I just finished season 3. Now I know people love this. I'm still confused on what's going on, but I love it. I don't have HBO, so I can...
    CoolKid77 CoolKid77 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 30

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    I used to at least but now I am all confused. I moved countries and the tea i so dearly love is not available here. Have not been able to find a good substitution in USA yet. What...
    TwigOfLife TwigOfLife 22-25, F Jan 28

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    this might be slightly offensive ... I'm known by many people in person and also online (if you exclude this site) as a nice guy. One that doesn't judge a person for who they are...
    Ichki Ichki 22-25, M Jan 28

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    OPEN HEAVENS FELLOWSHIP DAILY DEVOTION DON'T MISS THE WHOLE POINT! Songs of Solomon 2:10 (NLT) My lover said to me, “Rise up, my darling! Come away with me, my fair one...
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    I push people away. And I try figure out what to do about it. I can't really decide who was hurting me. So I began to push people away... It could be my dad who lived far away and...
    realcomplicated realcomplicated 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 27

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