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I Am Pushing Away the People That Love Me

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    juliana48 juliana48 13-15, F Jun 25, 2014

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    Help =/

    I dont know if I believe in love, Im with a guy who loves me deeply and I cant love him back but I thought to myself he loves me so much and hes such a wonderful guy that I could learn to love him. We have been dating 4 months and we were each others first. Hes two years older...
    AbneyT AbneyT 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 19, 2011

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    Dear Family, I'm Sorry.

    Before I say anything...I have an extremely supportive family. They have done so much for me and allowed me to (for the most part) do what I needed to do to become a successful adult. I was never hurt, abused, growing up..I've always had everything if not more than I needed while...
    lovexmetal lovexmetal 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 16, 2011

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    I Am the Queen of This ....

    My therapist is once again RIGHT .... When i get in a relationship or what should be a relationship and really isnt   i will give so much of myself .... then when i reach a certain point .... i cut them off and i wont let them in any further ..... and then i start to...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    My Girlfriend...

    I really try to grab for the love that is deep inside me. My girlfriend does everything she could do to help me. She loves me. And she tells me this all the time. And still I don't do much other things than argue with her and let her know that I love other people as...
    GothGrrrl GothGrrrl 18-21, F May 6, 2007

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    Better Off

    I know they love me. I know my husband loves me. I know my children and my momma love me. I can't let them. I don't deserve their love. I want them to hate me. They would be better off without me!
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 25, 2011

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    They Love Me... But...

    Do I love them?The concept of loving and being loved by another person is alien to me. I understand the "sentiment", so to speak, but the sensation itself is ever fleeting.I can think of two people I genuinely love. One is deceased. The love I feel for the other, living person is...
    lysergic lysergic 18-21, F 2 Responses May 6, 2013

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    With Every Bridge I Burn...

    I learn more and more reasons I need to stop adding bricks to the wall and start smashing holes in it. I realize I hurt so badly in the loss of the people I push away, that I have no reason to push them away out of fear in the first place.     I had a really bad...
    KarmaFred KarmaFred 18-21, F 4 Responses May 9, 2007

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    At Arm's Length

    I am 25 years old and my life has passed me by. . . .   Growing up I knew more than I should of for my age.  My father molested my sister, was placed on house arrest and lived with us our entire lives.  He never acknowledge me or my sister unless he wanted...
    Rachael47 Rachael47 18-21 1 Response Feb 17, 2008

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    I ruined a relationship

    because I couldn't stop pushing and he wouldn't stop pushing back wanting me to let him in. Thank goodness we are still really good friends. I need to stop pushing others away, I'm not even sure why I do it. I have no reason to and if I could think of one it wouldn't be good...
    udamansteel udamansteel 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 28, 2014

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    Someone who could potentially be my boyfriend,

    gave up on me finally after 4 years, all because i pushed them away everytime he asks for my number, wanted all things about me, now that i just realized his love, it's too late
    LilyGlass LilyGlass 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2014

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    I'm Angry, And I Don't Know Why.

    I'm suffering from a panic attack, which I believe may have turned into panic disorder because I still feel it sometimes. I have been to the doctor, and I even go back this week... I don't know how to explain to a doctor the way I feel, because I cannot describe it. I'm anxious...
    screambefree screambefree 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 10, 2011

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    To be honest I've been lied to,

    hurt, and broken by the people I've loved the most. I've chased my drunk father down miles of dirt road when I was 10 because I had nowhere else to go, had my drunk mother explain to me why I was a waste of a human at 14 and had to keep a knife under my pillow to keep away her...
    CallmeJerr CallmeJerr 22-25, F Jun 25, 2014

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    Two years ago, i met this girl, a girl i didn't even pay attention to. We never had a proper conversation, we only talked because we were classmates in some of our classes. For one...
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    It makes me wonder.. For as long as I can remember, I’ve always been an outsider. Almost all the girls and most of the guys everywhere I’ve been, have always hated me for some...
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    I really do, but it's so hard. I even get into these weeks where I become extra antisocial (if that's even possible) I won't leave my room unless it's for 3 reasons. -restroom...
    MarcyMay MarcyMay 13-15, F Aug 27

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    Wanna why I push people away? It's only because I've been hurt too many times. So many damn people have gone in and out of my life. Some because of stupid reasons and some with no...
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    I just want to explore and get away from everything be with a cool group of people love life and feel free. Anyone down ? Want to make some amazing memories !
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    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Aug 27

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    AKoolGuy AKoolGuy 18-21, M Aug 27

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    stampoutbullying stampoutbullying 22-25, M Aug 26

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    A hundred days have made me older Since the last time that I saw your pretty face A thousand lies have made me colder And I don't think I can look at this the same But all the...
    BeachGypsy BeachGypsy 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    My husband and I have been together since we were 15 years old. We married at 20. I am now pushing 28. We have three young kids (5,3,2). I am not in love with him like I once was...
    PurpleOrchids PurpleOrchids 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 25

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    I don't like to push people away. but I have done it before. sometimes I have to be apart from people I love and when I really need them the most. It's because I'm afraid. I'm...
    evewalter evewalter 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 25

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    Today I visited my partner in prison for the second time, I left feeling very confused and unwanted, I feel that my partner is pushing me away or trying to at least, he said that...
    leavana0215 leavana0215 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    Thanks so much I really love holding as well and pushing my poor bladder to its max! I love fighting so hard to keep it in just a little bit longer! I love that pain you get when...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 25

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    Eir89 Eir89 36-40, F 2 Responses Aug 24

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    Maybe it's just me, but I think it's odd that the second the butterflies go away people think that they're losing that spark. I rarely feel butterflies around my boyfriend, but...
    lizkw lizkw 16-17, F Aug 23

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