Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

I Am Pushing Away the People That Love Me

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 108 People

    Dear Family, I'm Sorry.

    Before I say anything...I have an extremely supportive family. They have done so much for me and allowed me to (for the most part) do what I needed to do to become a successful adult. I was never hurt, abused, growing up..I've always had everything if not more than I needed while...
    lovexmetal lovexmetal 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 16, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel
    juliana48 juliana48 13-15, F Jun 25, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Better Off

    I know they love me. I know my husband loves me. I know my children and my momma love me. I can't let them. I don't deserve their love. I want them to hate me. They would be better off without me!
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 25, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My Girlfriend...

    I really try to grab for the love that is deep inside me. My girlfriend does everything she could do to help me. She loves me. And she tells me this all the time. And still I don't do much other things than argue with her and let her know that I love other people as...
    GothGrrrl GothGrrrl 18-21, F May 6, 2007

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Help =/

    I dont know if I believe in love, Im with a guy who loves me deeply and I cant love him back but I thought to myself he loves me so much and hes such a wonderful guy that I could learn to love him. We have been dating 4 months and we were each others first. Hes two years older...
    AbneyT AbneyT 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 19, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Someone who could potentially be my boyfriend,

    gave up on me finally after 4 years, all because i pushed them away everytime he asks for my number, wanted all things about me, now that i just realized his love, it's too late
    LilyGlass LilyGlass 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I ruined a relationship

    because I couldn't stop pushing and he wouldn't stop pushing back wanting me to let him in. Thank goodness we are still really good friends. I need to stop pushing others away, I'm not even sure why I do it. I have no reason to and if I could think of one it wouldn't be good...
    udamansteel udamansteel 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 28, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm Angry, And I Don't Know Why.

    I'm suffering from a panic attack, which I believe may have turned into panic disorder because I still feel it sometimes. I have been to the doctor, and I even go back this week... I don't know how to explain to a doctor the way I feel, because I cannot describe it. I'm anxious...
    screambefree screambefree 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 10, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    To be honest I've been lied to,

    hurt, and broken by the people I've loved the most. I've chased my drunk father down miles of dirt road when I was 10 because I had nowhere else to go, had my drunk mother explain to me why I was a waste of a human at 14 and had to keep a knife under my pillow to keep away her...
    CallmeJerr CallmeJerr 22-25, F Jun 25, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    At Arm's Length

    I am 25 years old and my life has passed me by. . . .   Growing up I knew more than I should of for my age.  My father molested my sister, was placed on house arrest and lived with us our entire lives.  He never acknowledge me or my sister unless he wanted...
    Rachael47 Rachael47 18-21 1 Response Feb 17, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    They Love Me... But...

    Do I love them?The concept of loving and being loved by another person is alien to me. I understand the "sentiment", so to speak, but the sensation itself is ever fleeting.I can think of two people I genuinely love. One is deceased. The love I feel for the other, living person is...
    lysergic lysergic 18-21, F 2 Responses May 6, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    With Every Bridge I Burn...

    I learn more and more reasons I need to stop adding bricks to the wall and start smashing holes in it. I realize I hurt so badly in the loss of the people I push away, that I have no reason to push them away out of fear in the first place.     I had a really bad...
    KarmaFred KarmaFred 18-21, F 4 Responses May 9, 2007

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Am the Queen of This ....

    My therapist is once again RIGHT .... When i get in a relationship or what should be a relationship and really isnt   i will give so much of myself .... then when i reach a certain point .... i cut them off and i wont let them in any further ..... and then i start to...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2007

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    I love my married teacher do you think he does to ?! I'm 19 and he is 33 he is married with 2 kids i liked him from day one but just as a big brother because his name is like my...
    supertommy supertommy 18-21, F 32 mins ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I used to deny what and who she actually is. I would allow her to do what ever she wanted to regardless of how it made me felt. Now today, I'm accepting her at face value and she...
    theotherversionofme theotherversionofme 51-55, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Girls, I need your take on this. At this point, I do not care what anyone tells me. I have sent this teacher a message FOUR MONTHS AGO, of which he did not reply back to. Typical...
    XOAfraaXO XOAfraaXO 18-21, F 2 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Sometimes I wish I were that sweet little innocent girl again with those large blue eyes that were always full of mischief and loving smiles. My long blonde pigtails flying out...
    sensualbeauty1 sensualbeauty1 46-50, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I've met a ton of people on here. I've been friends with someone who was unusual because she was so normal and down to earth. I've also been great friends with someone who was a...
    Allforaview Allforaview 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I've always liked him before and enjoyed his movies, but I didn't really care that much, I mean I didn't consider him one of my favorites or something like that. I had only seen...
    Noralicious Noralicious 22-25, F 4 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    “Everyone is born creative; everyone is given a box of crayons in kindergarten. Then when you hit puberty they take the crayons away and replace them with dry, uninspiring books...
    Chrye Chrye 51-55, F 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My high school sweetheart and I went away to college together and in her second year she developed non hodgkins lymphoma and was gone in less than 18 months. I was a typical...
    trak4ever trak4ever 41-45, M 6 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I got away from the house today.I needed a release of my pent up anger and sadness.I had went up to one of my favorite fishing haunts.Not to fish today,but,to take in the beauty of...
    Duckygirl2 Duckygirl2 46-50, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Love it when I try to ask people for help and they give me options that I can't use... such as; I have been trying to get a job for almost 4 months now but due to medical reasons I...
    MammaWolfie MammaWolfie 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    when I dream its still of her. my fantasies are still of her. but she's gone, gone away, gone forward, gone from me
    Polis195 Polis195 36-40, M 7 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Its like this. when you stick your hand out and get bitten. you learn very quickly not to stick your hand out anymore. I've been "bitten" so many times by people who are supposed...
    suthrngal suthrngal 31-35, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    While reading outside a butterfly landed on my penis and it stayed there for several minutes. By the time my wife got the camera it flew away. It came back several times, but the...
    FNUMNULNU FNUMNULNU 66-70, M 7 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    You know those kind of people that just send you the best vibe? It's like they're so calm that they bring you into their serenity with them without even trying.. And you feel so at...
    chanelroe chanelroe 18-21, F 7 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    ok after putting away my laptop and focusing on it without distractions this time.....super mario kart is fun......i didnt realise since its old game that all characters have their...
    drawingwithapassion drawingwithapassion 22-25, M 7 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I moved to a new town after my parents divorced, and he was one of the first people I met. Even then, there was something about this boy that drew people in, made them want to be...
    lindsayannee lindsayannee 13-15, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I want to run away. I live in Colorado if you want to join me. Any tips on running away?
    Glacieum Glacieum 13-15, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It's been six years since i've heard her voice. Seen her smile. I fell in love with her so deeply I scared her away. I dont think she was ready for what i had in mind. But i loved...
    naomiXO naomiXO 18-21, F 10 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I love the both versons of " this is halloween "! There's the rock and roll versons and the nightmare before Christmas verson! If you don't knot the lyrics here they are: Boys and...
    Lizandavan Lizandavan 13-15, F 11 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Sitting here working in my home office and all I hear over and over again is...... Do you wanna build a snowman? C'mon out lets go and play I never see you anymore Come out the...
    KristanDanyelle KristanDanyelle 26-30, F 4 Responses 12 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I am deeply in love with those beings that are called "fictional characters". I have loved fictional characters all my life, from my earliest childhood. I believe that what we...
    Lylyth Lylyth 26-30, F 13 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    So I've been watching a Youtuber named Roman Atwood, love watching his vlogs and he always posts daily videos about his family and I love it. What I love the most that he is so...
    Adam352 Adam352 18-21, M 2 Responses 14 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    how stupid you feel when you've fallen in love with someone who isnt right for you. when you knew from the start that it wasn't right. and you let yourself fall anyways.. and then...
    queenpowow queenpowow 18-21, F 16 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    If I could save time in a bottle The first thing that I'd like to do Is to save every day till eternity passes away Just to spend them with you If I could make days last forever...
    NobodyFrvr NobodyFrvr 22-25, M 3 Responses 16 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Am I the only one who thinks disney actually has some terrifying deaths for their villains which 'die' at the end of the movies?? For some reason I ended up on a video of Tarzan...
    Daniellevn Daniellevn 18-21, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I know as a society we tend to accept people for who they are and how they hold their beliefs. I recently came out to my mom as a bisexual male. She has no problem. She understands...
    cjqueen2014 cjqueen2014 36-40, M 2 Responses 19 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It's not exactly a holiday but I'm away in London today and tomorrow. So that means I won't have wifi for two days so please excuse the lack of replies :)
    Frankiehw Frankiehw 16-17, F 3 Responses 21 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    As the years pass and time moves on.....the love I have in my heart for a lost love never fades away. There's a part of my heart that will forever be his. He's irreplaceable...
    hadyourchance hadyourchance 36-40, F 16 Responses 22 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I was attached to you because you were sweet to me. You were the sweetest of all guys I knew. I thought no one could be sweeter. I went online again and I realized that I have...
    jwl9119 jwl9119 22-25, F 7 Responses 23 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Gonna start saving up again... Gonna save enough to move away... People say you can't run away from your problems... Maybe I'll just run with them instead.. It may not solve my...