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I Am Pushing Away the People That Love Me

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 107 People

    I ruined a relationship

    because I couldn't stop pushing and he wouldn't stop pushing back wanting me to let him in. Thank goodness we are still really good friends. I need to stop pushing others away, I'm not even sure why I do it. I have no reason to and if I could think of one it wouldn't be good...
    udamansteel udamansteel 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 28, 2014

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    Dear Family, I'm Sorry.

    Before I say anything...I have an extremely supportive family. They have done so much for me and allowed me to (for the most part) do what I needed to do to become a successful adult. I was never hurt, abused, growing up..I've always had everything if not more than I needed while...
    lovexmetal lovexmetal 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 16, 2011

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    juliana48 juliana48 13-15, F Jun 25, 2014

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    I'm Angry, And I Don't Know Why.

    I'm suffering from a panic attack, which I believe may have turned into panic disorder because I still feel it sometimes. I have been to the doctor, and I even go back this week... I don't know how to explain to a doctor the way I feel, because I cannot describe it. I'm anxious...
    screambefree screambefree 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 10, 2011

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    Help =/

    I dont know if I believe in love, Im with a guy who loves me deeply and I cant love him back but I thought to myself he loves me so much and hes such a wonderful guy that I could learn to love him. We have been dating 4 months and we were each others first. Hes two years older...
    AbneyT AbneyT 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 19, 2011

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    They Love Me... But...

    Do I love them?The concept of loving and being loved by another person is alien to me. I understand the "sentiment", so to speak, but the sensation itself is ever fleeting.I can think of two people I genuinely love. One is deceased. The love I feel for the other, living person is...
    lysergic lysergic 18-21, F 2 Responses May 6, 2013

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    At Arm's Length

    I am 25 years old and my life has passed me by. . . .   Growing up I knew more than I should of for my age.  My father molested my sister, was placed on house arrest and lived with us our entire lives.  He never acknowledge me or my sister unless he wanted...
    Rachael47 Rachael47 21-25 1 Response Feb 17, 2008

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    Better Off

    I know they love me. I know my husband loves me. I know my children and my momma love me. I can't let them. I don't deserve their love. I want them to hate me. They would be better off without me!
    angelwings1998 angelwings1998 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 25, 2011

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    To be honest I've been lied to,

    hurt, and broken by the people I've loved the most. I've chased my drunk father down miles of dirt road when I was 10 because I had nowhere else to go, had my drunk mother explain to me why I was a waste of a human at 14 and had to keep a knife under my pillow to keep away her...
    CallmeJerr CallmeJerr 22-25, F Jun 25, 2014

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    I Am the Queen of This ....

    My therapist is once again RIGHT .... When i get in a relationship or what should be a relationship and really isnt   i will give so much of myself .... then when i reach a certain point .... i cut them off and i wont let them in any further ..... and then i start to...
    starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2007

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    With Every Bridge I Burn...

    I learn more and more reasons I need to stop adding bricks to the wall and start smashing holes in it. I realize I hurt so badly in the loss of the people I push away, that I have no reason to push them away out of fear in the first place.     I had a really bad...
    KarmaFred KarmaFred 19-21, F 4 Responses May 9, 2007

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    My Girlfriend...

    I really try to grab for the love that is deep inside me. My girlfriend does everything she could do to help me. She loves me. And she tells me this all the time. And still I don't do much other things than argue with her and let her know that I love other people as...
    GothGrrrl GothGrrrl 18-21, F May 6, 2007

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    Someone who could potentially be my boyfriend,

    gave up on me finally after 4 years, all because i pushed them away everytime he asks for my number, wanted all things about me, now that i just realized his love, it's too late
    LilyGlass LilyGlass 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2014

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    It's not like my intention,

    it's more of an instinct. I guess I'm just afraid of getting hurt.
    XxMisguidedxGhostxX XxMisguidedxGhostxX 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2014

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    Pushing away my bestfriend, my childhood friend has been hard. I almost can't believe I just did that. I haven't felt anything for a long time, till now. My cheeks are burning, my...
    AviatorHH AviatorHH 18-21, F Feb 1

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    I am pushing away the only people that I want to let in because I just don't want them to see me as a crazy person now they won't reply and I just want to break down and cry about...
    nomnommings nomnommings 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    I can't stop pushing the people that I want in my life away...
    nomnommings nomnommings 16-17, F Feb 18

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    I really regret pushing away that one person that was so important to me. We got to know each other via internet and found out we had quite a few things in common. Almost half a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 days ago

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    When we’d fight and it was my fault, I’d try and soothe the wounds by saying, “I love you.” It’s a cheap trick, isn’t it? To use “I love you” to put a band-aid on...
    MzPhoenix MzPhoenix 31-35, F 4 Responses Feb 7

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    Damn baby Just don't understand where we went wrong I gave you my heart I gave you my soul I gave you... As a matter of fact I was the one who said I love you first It was about...
    SylenaEverlasting SylenaEverlasting 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    I see friends struggle with relationships. I see people I love suffer because of various problems in their lives. All of this makes me so happy to have YOU in my life...
    Mendmyheart Mendmyheart 46-50, F 3 Responses Feb 17

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    I think the further away people are from me the better, not because I set out to hurt others. No, this is due to me being an absolute pain in arse for everyone else. I think it's...
    HelterSkelter1 HelterSkelter1 22-25, M 5 days ago

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    It just feels so nice. Like you get all tired and sore and hot and its just like you get to run away from anything and everything and you're clearing it away. I love how it makes...
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F Feb 6

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    i love a song that connects to me, and i have made a few. i made one called "i`m a loner", and a lot of others. i spend about 80% of my life listening to music, mainly "i`m just a...
    WolfsParadice WolfsParadice 36-40 Feb 9

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    I love kissing .........it is such an intimate thing to do with someone else, and has such a pretense for something more to follow...... My favourite part of a kiss is just...
    Superficialsaint Superficialsaint 31-35, F 17 Responses Feb 12

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    "Love feels no burden, thinks nothing of trouble, attempts what is above its strength, and pleads no excuse of impossibility." - Thomas A. Kempis This is so true. When two...
    FBR4536 FBR4536 41-45, F 2 Responses Feb 4

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    no matter how much it upsets me to see people love beautiful faces so much, I can't blame them. I know it's human nature and kind of inevitable.
    goodatnothing goodatnothing 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 11

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    Happy VD people! Love y'all!!
    Sparklestefffy Sparklestefffy 22-25, F Feb 14

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    Horzier take me to church. I am going to use that for our new routine in my class. The video is so just fed let's be honest but come on people love is love here I think the video...
    Sunshinegal4u Sunshinegal4u 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 18

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    Finished Unity in less than a week. That's about the expected time. I have to admit that I'm not really an Assassins Creed fan... so I didn't really enjoy the game. But I can see...
    MondRubberduck MondRubberduck 16-17, M Feb 19

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    alot of people love him for his good looking face. i heard about him by ISF and i thought 'that's a great person' and then i searched his name and it was so great, seeing a TV star...
    SabiDarrio SabiDarrio 18-21, F a week ago

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    People love to blame God for the bad things that happen like there's no such thing as satan, smh do you really think it'd be fair to force everyone to do right? No that's why there...
    slimvince slimvince 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Morning people. Love when sleep isn't interrupted. It's a beautiful thing to wake up feeling refreshed
    MeLBear133 MeLBear133 31-35, F 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    "Moth"HellYeahI've been cast out, sequestered.Pushed the **** around.Blindsided, beaten, locked up and bound.Always thought I was human but maybe I was wrong.I've been treated like...
    NewBeginnings77 NewBeginnings77 31-35, F Feb 11

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    Under Pressure - (1981) Co-written and performed by Freddie Mercury and David Bowie.I was rocking to this song as a little girl and it still moves me whenever I hear it today. More...
    SymphonyInMe SymphonyInMe 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 13

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    I have a terminal illness and no one knows how long I have and I've been pushing people away because of it. I'm a grenade and the less people in my life the less casualties when I...
    Loislane29 Loislane29 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    Can some one come stop the party - damn I want to sleep and these ppl still at it. 3 am already . Ok let me do a bed time story - once upon a time , there lived people on earth...
    Stephenrko Stephenrko 31-35, M 29 mins ago

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    LOL. This is funny, because this group is judging others who judge others. Hypocritical? Everyone judges someone's character. How many people have NOT judged Hitler?
    RationalCutie RationalCutie 22-25, F 33 mins ago

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    So much for being so honest :/ I regret it. There's a lot bunch of people from the age group 18~21, that's my trouble of socialising with them.
    iTetra iTetra 13-15, F 25 mins ago

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    I'm O type guy and I had a 4 year older success B type partner before.I never felt threaten and I was very happy when she made it.I always believe she should do whatever she want...
    rakkiseven rakkiseven 22-25, M Feb 20

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    I do this subconsciously in most cases. It's like I see there's chance that a guy could be amazing. You know what I'm talking about people. You know that person who you start...
    geekychick14 geekychick14 13-15, F Feb 19

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    I've been so depressed since I turned 17. I cried almost everyday with too much pressure and stress from the surrounding. Sometime I find no hope in life, and I just wanna end it...
    Julietxxx Julietxxx 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    I don't get why do I keep pushing people way I mean I want friends in this new town and when I'm about to make friends I ignore the person like garbage I don't want to do this I...
    Didi33 Didi33 18-21, F Feb 5

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    I just read other posts...and need to expand on my story. : I was dating a guy much younger than myself..i tried to avoid him, and told him iwas happy with my boyfriend...but he...
    ponygirl1202 ponygirl1202 46-50, F Feb 20

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    So a few weeks ago I met this great guy that I really really like, there's just one problem: I keep waiting for him to hurt me. I know it's not fair to him but I just feel this way...
    FireQueen10 FireQueen10 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I Wanna Be Committed written by Chinn & Chapman performed by Sweet Committed Committed Committed Committed Committed Committed Committed I wanna be committed I wanna be committed...
    Pyramania Pyramania 56-60, M Feb 3

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    Many years ago, I used to live near ‘Windy Wellington’ in New Zealand. One day, I caught the overland rail to town. The city lived up to its nickname – the wind must have...
    Billowingskirts Billowingskirts 51-55, M 1 Response Feb 7

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