I Am Pushing You Away So You Dont Hurt Me

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    Near Me.

    Don't come near me, I don't want to shed any more tears tonight or ever for that matter.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
    Oct 20, 2010

    I am pushing you to see how far I can push you

    before you leave. Nobody wants to be pushed to there breaking point but that's where I push them, I push you away because I don't want to dissapoint you and because I don't want to get hurt I push you away because iv learned to not let you get close I'm sorry I push you away but...
    ripevan ripevan
    18-21, F
    Feb 8, 2014


    When I become depressed, and when I feel like I really don't want to be around anymore, I push everyone away. I push my friends, I push the people I Love and care about, hell, I even push my Ep frineds away. I know its a bad thing to do, but I do it, not only for me, but for you...
    deleted deleted
    Apr 26, 2013

    I do this subconsciously in most cases.

    It's like I see there's chance that a guy could be amazing. You know what I'm talking about people. You know that person who you start talking to out of nowhere who in the blink of an eye has you grinning from ear to ear, laughing like crazy, and feeling like no matter how bad...
    geekychick14 geekychick14
    16-17, F
    Feb 19, 2015

    I Pushed him away

    I have had 15 boy friends I have only loved 2 of the 15 I dated the first was when I was in 1st grade and the second was when I was in 5th I dated the first for 3 years and the second i dated for 3 years but I loved the second one more. I just date and date boys just so i wont be...
    jordan1hunnit jordan1hunnit
    Aug 27, 2013

    I was abused by my godfather

    when I was 11. Then I felt like any guy who loved me would hurt me in some form of way. So I pushed them away especially because I started to feel good when I was around them. I knew something bad was gonna happen sooner or later. I won't gonna stick around till it did.
    Dynasty2000 Dynasty2000
    18-21, F
    Nov 30, 2013

    Yes, I Push And I Push Hard

    To get rid of the weak ones right away. I wanna make sure only the strong & determined people stay in my life. Most of the ones who made it past the gauntlet are still my friends..years & years of loyalty, dependability, secrets, tears & smiles.
    WindyCityCat WindyCityCat
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Sep 30, 2010

    Do Not Fall For Me

    Looking back on my life, I have pushed away EVERY single relationship whether it be good or bad.... I have even pushed away family members and friends... I have been married twice, currently going through a divorce now. I have family on each ends of the USA and 1000 miles apart...
    PandoraLucyandothers PandoraLucyandothers
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 9, 2012

    I have let a few people into my life

    and let them see the real me, however it's scaring me that they know that person. I think it's time to retreat back into my "concrete box" and put the lid back on, where is just me and nobody else can get in. I may not be happy in my "box" but at least I won't risk getting hurt...
    Forevertired23 Forevertired23
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 29, 2015

    You Wanna Get High With Me

    you reassure, me to just chillgive the blunt a puff n a blowtalk about deep stuff, sh1t other people dont knowbut see i had to postponedidnt call you back to your phonecuz im thinkin that all you wanna is to boneyou got no clue that in reality im all alonein this world, since i...
    MeAgainstDaWorld MeAgainstDaWorld
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 13, 2012


    I don't exactly push others away because they I fear they will hurt me ... I push others away because I fear I will hurt them .. You see there's this woman in my life who I love so much she's been there for me ... I keep telling her that I don't want to hurt her so she should...
    Luvn Luvn
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 28, 2013


    You took all I deservedand now you're asking to be heardI'm walking alone in desertcarrying the load I was never worthYou gave me a role I couldn't playTold me that I'm the one to blamebut no I'm not taking your shame.Hey! go dig yourself a gravethat'll be your stageyour mind is...
    deleted deleted
    Dec 11, 2011

    Stop The Hurt, Lies, And Fake Caring

    Our Friendships has been going on for 3 years, you call me your best friend and then don't care about my wants... You look at me and know their is something wrong and ask me what wrong, but i feel like you don't really care whats wrong... You push me away when things get to tough...
    fuller1919 fuller1919
    1 Response Apr 11, 2011

    Sandra Is So Beautiful ≪3

    Don't give me names, you've got it all You took it all away, drove me insane Who'd come down to earth Releasing me? Healing my wounds Why don't you close the door When you're leaving me? Now you'll run, running all the way Back to me again It's not to end in shame To fight an...
    Cosreal Cosreal
    31-35, F
    Jul 14, 2013

    I Push Everyone, And Everything Away...

    When I become depressed, and when I feel like I really don't want to be around anymore, I push everyone away. I push my friends, I push the people I Love and care about, hell, I even push my Ep frineds away. I know its a bad thing to do, but I do it, not only for me, but for you...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Jul 9, 2010

    So Much I Want To Tell You..

    .. But of course I don't. I don't want you to get the "wrong" impression, don't want to show you how much I care. Whenever I see you suffer I wanna make everything OK. I want you to believe in yourself and to make you see yourself through my eyes. You are one of the strongest...
    livingalieforsolong livingalieforsolong
    Sep 11, 2013

    It was like "i super like"

    that guy before but I pushed him away because I know at the end, he will just not good for me, he doesn't deserve me. I don't want to get hurt and feel damn hella bad with someone who's been hurting everybody's heart already.
    BarbieChan BarbieChan
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 30, 2013

    "best-friend" No More

    i'm trying to push my "best friend" away right now. we used to best friends, and we were very close, just like sisters. but she's a hypocrite and difficult to deal with especially when she's being emotional. we never fought until 15th september 2011 when she said i'm too...
    velvetbluerose velvetbluerose
    2 Responses Nov 25, 2011

    Yep, I'm currently doing

    that to "her" I wonder if she'll notice 😁😞
    KarleeJo23 KarleeJo23
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jun 1, 2014

    I actually find myself pushing him away

    because I'm so scared of him letting me down again
    R3b3llion32 R3b3llion32
    26-30, F
    Dec 30, 2013

    Pushing Away

    Don't get close you will get hurtYou will be left picking up my dirtyDon't let your heart let me inBecause everything i do is a sinDon't touch me pleaseI'll leave you in a breeze Don't try to climb my wallsI will build it with my toolsPlease just keep awayI will never stayKeep...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout
    31-35, F
    Aug 22, 2013

    I just keep pushes guys I like away.

    I just can't get hurt again, but I'm probably hurting them. ugh this hard
    Kayla0504 Kayla0504
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 23, 2015

    Also, I am pushing you away

    so I don't hurt you.
    WithClouds WithClouds
    31-35, M
    Dec 8, 2015

    Or...so I Don't Hurt You

    I'm looking into myself and I see someone who is insecure. I'm afraid of hurting people with their love. I give love so freely. I want to be open and accepting to people. When I find a true spark in someone I want to explore it. I realize that most people don't live this way...
    deleted deleted
    Apr 7, 2011

    Im trying. I'm trying to let you in

    even though It's so hard. last time I let someone get close to me, I let them to close and they used everything that they knew hurt me against me. They abused me emotionally and physically. Now here I am with you, my new boyfriend and I'm really happy. Unless I am alone.. Then...
    illmindofhayley illmindofhayley
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 26, 2014


    I don't have this issue, but the best friend I ever had does. We met in febuary 2012. She practicly moved into my house shortly after that. She never left, we did everything together, we were buds, we read eachothers minds. I never had anyone treat me the way she did. I knew she...
    oximoronjes oximoronjes
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Sep 14, 2012

    I Can't Help It

    I don't even know how i do it...I just do it. Iam an "anxious lover" according to psycology...which explains alot. My first boyfriend I was completely inlove with and I was afraid to ever loose him and because of my major insecurities I pushed him away. I don't blame him in the...
    MushroomFaerie148 MushroomFaerie148
    26-30, F
    Apr 17, 2011

    I Don't Know If I'm Still Doing This On Purpose Anymore

    This guy has been trying to hang out with me for the past 9 months. I knew him back when I was 12 and I liked him back then but he seems different now and I know you are not suppost to judge people based on social networks and things but it's a turnoff to see guys that only use...
    iameffystonem iameffystonem
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 31, 2011

    Sometimes I Don't Wanna Play Nice!!

    What do you expect from me? You betrayed me. You broke my heart. I've looked through my mental file cabinet and I've discovered your lies go back to the beginning. Now every good thing you've done or said has been wiped away. And you want me to be friendly? I know I should. I...
    MzzSoBee MzzSoBee
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

    I am so used to being hurt.

    I don't want to lose him. But what if he does decide to leave. What if one day he wakes up and decides I am no enough. That I am not worth the fight. That I am not worth his love. I can't bare to see him willingly leave. it would be easier to say I left, that I broke him. It...
    withpaincomesstrength withpaincomesstrength
    18-21, F
    Dec 27, 2014

    I want things like everyone else

    but I find that I don't ask for them. I find most interactions between me and anyone else to be stagnant or uneventful. I really don't think I have anything to offer anyone and even if I did none wants anything from me. I have pushed everyone I know away and I feel like soon I...
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jul 20, 2014

    I'm use to having negativity in my life.

    So anything that's suppose to be good for me, I tend to push away because I'm afraid and it's unfamiliar to me. It's irritating, but that's the truth. I've probably lost a few people due to this flaw.
    Philli8807 Philli8807
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Apr 7, 2014

    I know its a matter of time

    and he will hurt me again... My heart wont be able to take it if he does, am tip toeing around him, scared of saying something or doing something that will make him leave, i dont want to lose him... But in the same time, i feel like keeping him at an arms length so that i dont...
    anonymousandlost anonymousandlost
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jul 6, 2014

    when people get close to me I try

    and become close with them because i want that bond and I keep thinking that I can get close to people not everyone is the same but I've gotten too attached one time and that failed tremendously so I don't get as close to anyone. I have a friendship with someone I was truly...
    jacithepanda jacithepanda
    16-17, F
    Jun 1, 2014

    Lost Without........lost With....

    It has been almost a year since my Mom passed. She had Multiple Myeloma. A horrible cancer for which there is little treatment.Though , always holds a horrible outcome. She was and is the best friend I could ever ask for. She knew me and I her. We never had to judge to point out...
    hebby99 hebby99
    Dec 12, 2010

    Empty World

    I push you away... I push everyone away.... I'm so scared of this stupid world... I fear being hurt anymore.. i fear the slightest touch.. i fear smiles, and hugs.. i fear having a good laugh with co-workers.... I push everyone away.. my family, my few friends i used to have...
    MiremebeKamaria MiremebeKamaria
    18-21, F
    Nov 24, 2010

    I recently met you and really have got

    so close to you shared everything I been through and u also did with me. I suppose I am pushing you away in fear that you will hurt me also. Although I don't know what this is between us but I like you and it is making me crazy. So I am getting angry pushing u away incase u hurt...
    stupid28 stupid28
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jan 30, 2015

    I'm Done

    it was hell the first time i went through this with you.  i was devastated. shattered. and felt like you didn't care.  This time...i put up a wall....praying you wouldn't tear it down without me noticing.  little by little i could feel you creeping in again. ...
    KinkyFlower KinkyFlower
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Oct 26, 2010

    that my life!!!!! I sometimes don't understand

    why I do that but I do and I hate it because I push the ones that actually do care away too. ans that's sad
    lillyg96 lillyg96
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 24, 2014

    Please Go Away....

    Please...go away...leave me alone....don't come near me, don't touch me, don't even look at me. Just don't talk to me....You don't need to see my cry, and break down, and I can't let you get close....
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Oct 26, 2010

    It Was Never Intentional...

    I never meant to do it. It's just in my nature.. I can't let someone really know me and everything about me. I can't fully give myself to someone, because I know that they will never stay. But I did this for you. You cared enough to try to tear down my walls, piece by piece. You...
    Amay408 Amay408
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 30, 2011


    when i start to love someone,i slowly push them away so they dont hurt me.Ive been hurt so much in the past by guys that told me they loved me,i dont trust guys that much anymore.I hav the worst trust issues possible,il never get over my past relationships.thats why now when im...
    demonicsangel2011 demonicsangel2011
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 22, 2011

    I Truly Dont Know

    It was 3 years ago, not that long ago. I still remember clearly but choose not to, Its not that it hurts but more of wanting to think that those feelings have disapeared completely. Everytime I see you I remember those butterflies and sparks that only you have ever given me. We...
    3501april 3501april
    18-21, F
    Nov 8, 2011
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