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I Am Pushing You Away So You Dont Hurt Me

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    I Truly Dont Know - It was 3 years ago, not that long ago. I still remember clearly but choose not to, Its not that it hurts but more of wanting to think that those feelings have...
    3501april 3501april 16-17, F Nov 8, 2011

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    I'm Done - it was hell the first time i went through this with you.  i was devastated. shattered. and felt like you didn't care.  This time...i put up a wall....praying...
    KinkyFlower KinkyFlower 31-35, F 5 Responses Oct 26, 2010

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    Issues Expressing My Appreciation :/ - I recently moved 3 and 1/2 hours away to assist my brother for the summer. I get to go home nearly every weekend. At the end of this month I...
    Renae93 Renae93 18-21, F Jul 28, 2011

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    I was abused by my godfather when I was 11. Then I felt like any guy who loved me would hurt me in some form of way. So I pushed them away especially because I started to feel good...
    Dynasty2000 Dynasty2000 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 30, 2013

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    Guarded - i ran into an old friend from the past and we chatted and she seemed anxious to exchange numbers but i hesitated. not to be mean it's just that i'm very guarded now on...
    sultrynight sultrynight 31-35, F 1 Response May 28, 2013

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    Im trying. I'm trying to let you in even though It's so hard. last time I let someone get close to me, I let them to close and they used everything that they knew hurt me against...
    illmindofhayley illmindofhayley 16-17, F Jan 26

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    It was like "i super like" that guy before but I pushed him away because I know at the end, he will just not good for me, he doesn't deserve me. I don't want to get hurt and feel...
    BarbieChan BarbieChan 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2013

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    It Was Never Intentional... - I never meant to do it. It's just in my nature.. I can't let someone really know me and everything about me. I can't fully give myself to someone...
    Amay408 Amay408 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 30, 2011

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    So Much I Want To Tell You.. - .. But of course I don't. I don't want you to get the "wrong" impression, don't want to show you how much I care. Whenever I see you suffer I wanna...
    livingalieforsolong livingalieforsolong 31-35 Sep 11, 2013

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    Sorry - when i start to love someone,i slowly push them away so they dont hurt me.Ive been hurt so much in the past by guys that told me they loved me,i dont trust guys that much...
    demonicsangel2011 demonicsangel2011 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 22, 2011

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    Distant Dreams - I dont know where I went so wrong in this short life... Where my trust evaporated and where my hope vanished, at what turn did I Crash all my emotions... Some...
    twilighteyes twilighteyes 22-25 Apr 5, 2011

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    Empty World - I push you away... I push everyone away.... I'm so scared of this stupid world... I fear being hurt anymore.. i fear the slightest touch.. i fear smiles, and hugs.. i...
    MiremebeKamaria MiremebeKamaria 18-21, F Nov 24, 2010

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    Pushing Away - Don't get close you will get hurtYou will be left picking up my dirtyDon't let your heart let me inBecause everything i do is a sinDon't touch me pleaseI'll leave...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 22, 2013

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    I Pushed him away - I have had 15 boy friends I have only loved 2 of the 15 I dated the first was when I was in 1st grade and the second was when I was in 5th I dated the first for...
    jordan1hunnit jordan1hunnit 13-15 Aug 27, 2013

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    A Terrible Habit - You scare me more than you ever will and do realize. You have open apart of me, most people have never seen or experience. When you get close, I feel like...
    enchantedebonybutterfly enchantedebonybutterfly 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 25, 2013

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    Sandra Is So Beautiful ≪3 - Don't give me names, you've got it all You took it all away, drove me insane Who'd come down to earth Releasing me? Healing my wounds Why don't you...
    Cosreal Cosreal 26-30, F Jul 14, 2013

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    Or...so I Don't Hurt You - I'm looking into myself and I see someone who is insecure. I'm afraid of hurting people with their love. I give love so freely. I want to be open and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 7, 2011

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    I Do This - I can't help it. I know everyone preaches about how the only way to love is to open fully and let people love you for who you are, and all of that... but I've never...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 5, 2011

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    Hurt - I don't have this issue, but the best friend I ever had does. We met in febuary 2012. She practicly moved into my house shortly after that. She never left, we did everything...
    oximoronjes oximoronjes 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 14, 2012

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    I am pushing you to see how far I can push you before you leave. Nobody wants to be pushed to there breaking point but that's where I push them, I push you away because I don't...
    ripevan ripevan 16-17, F Feb 8

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    Sometimes I Don't Wanna Play Nice!! - What do you expect from me? You betrayed me. You broke my heart. I've looked through my mental file cabinet and I've discovered your lies go...
    MzzSoBee MzzSoBee 41-45, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    Opposite - I don't exactly push others away because they I fear they will hurt me ... I push others away because I fear I will hurt them .. You see there's this woman in my life...
    Luvn Luvn 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 28, 2013

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    Suckers - This is why as those with the power to love need to be careful. I have in the past pushed people away fearing that they would hurt me,but only because that was there only...
    afaintreflection afaintreflection 26-30, M 4 Responses Mar 25, 2011

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    "best-friend" No More - i'm trying to push my "best friend" away right now. we used to best friends, and we were very close, just like sisters. but she's a hypocrite and...
    velvetbluerose velvetbluerose 13-15 2 Responses Nov 25, 2011

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    You Wanna Get High With Me - you reassure, me to just chillgive the blunt a puff n a blowtalk about deep stuff, sh1t other people dont knowbut see i had to postponedidnt call you...
    MeAgainstDaWorld MeAgainstDaWorld 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    Do Not Fall For Me - Looking back on my life, I have pushed away EVERY single relationship whether it be good or bad.... I have even pushed away family members and friends... I...
    PandoraLucyandothers PandoraLucyandothers 26-30, F 1 Response May 9, 2012

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    I'm use to having negativity in my life. So anything that's suppose to be good for me, I tend to push away because I'm afraid and it's unfamiliar to me. It's irritating, but that's...
    Philli8807 Philli8807 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    Old Habits Are Hard To Break. - I am so scared to get close to people. I do like to make friends and have people to support me but I am afraid that they will hurt me. Fear keeps me...
    MysteriousShadow MysteriousShadow 18-21, F Oct 9, 2011

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    Shove - I have to push you away so I don't get hurt and the pseudo EP friendships I have remain just that. I don't choose this with pryde but if I let you in just like that, what...
    RoaringFlameLostinShadow RoaringFlameLostinShadow 31-35, M 9 Responses May 10, 2011

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    Please Go Away.... - Please...go away...leave me alone....don't come near me, don't touch me, don't even look at me. Just don't talk to me....You don't need to see my cry, and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 26, 2010

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    I Can't Help It - I don't even know how i do it...I just do it. Iam an "anxious lover" according to psycology...which explains alot. My first boyfriend I was completely inlove with...
    MushroomFaerie148 MushroomFaerie148 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 17, 2011

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    I Push Everyone, And Everything Away... - When I become depressed, and when I feel like I really don't want to be around anymore, I push everyone away. I push my friends, I push...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 9, 2010

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    I Don't Know If I'm Still Doing This On Purpose Anymore - This guy has been trying to hang out with me for the past 9 months. I knew him back when I was 12 and I liked him back...
    iameffystonem iameffystonem 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 31, 2011

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    You Have Been Pushed!! - I push people away because i hate being hurt time after time, i think the only person who has't time after time is my husband and now i don't push him away...
    BrokenAngel35 BrokenAngel35 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 4, 2013

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    Near Me. - Don't come near me, I don't want to shed any more tears tonight or ever for that matter.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 18-21, F Oct 20, 2010

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    Stop The Hurt, Lies, And Fake Caring - Our Friendships has been going on for 3 years, you call me your best friend and then don't care about my wants... You look at me and know...
    fuller1919 fuller1919 18-21 1 Response Apr 11, 2011

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    Yes, I Push And I Push Hard - To get rid of the weak ones right away. I wanna make sure only the strong & determined people stay in my life. Most of the ones who made it past the...
    WindyCityCat WindyCityCat 41-45, F 2 Responses Sep 30, 2010

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    I actually find myself pushing him away because I'm so scared of him letting me down again
    R3b3llion32 R3b3llion32 22-25, F Dec 30, 2013

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    that my life!!!!! I sometimes don't understand why I do that but I do and I hate it because I push the ones that actually do care away too. ans that's sad
    lillyg96 lillyg96 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    Lost Without........lost With.... - It has been almost a year since my Mom passed. She had Multiple Myeloma. A horrible cancer for which there is little treatment.Though , always...
    hebby99 hebby99 36-40 Dec 12, 2010

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    I did it again... I let someone in, Expecting them not too hurt me. Everything was fine.. Until that moment.. That moment Of impact when everything hits. It sinks in you. It hurts...
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    To part in death is a lesser evil. But to part and live, there... there is the torment. I miss you so much. I was an idiot to push you away, you made me feel the emotional waves...
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    when you are sad and depressed, i will be here to put a smile on your face when you are angry and frustrated, i will be here to calm you down when you are hurt and in tears, i...
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    This feeling is hurting my heart and I don't know if you even do like me... I'm too afraid to ask, and if I do ask I'm afraid you'll become disgusted and won't ever talk to me...