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I Am Pushing You Away So You Dont Hurt Me

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    when people get close to me I try

    and become close with them because i want that bond and I keep thinking that I can get close to people not everyone is the same but I've gotten too attached one time and that failed tremendously so I don't get as close to anyone. I have a friendship with someone I was truly...
    jacithepanda jacithepanda 13-15, F Jun 1

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    It was like "i super like"

    that guy before but I pushed him away because I know at the end, he will just not good for me, he doesn't deserve me. I don't want to get hurt and feel damn hella bad with someone who's been hurting everybody's heart already.
    BarbieChan BarbieChan 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2013

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    Do Not Fall For Me

    Looking back on my life, I have pushed away EVERY single relationship whether it be good or bad.... I have even pushed away family members and friends... I have been married twice, currently going through a divorce now. I have family on each ends of the USA and 1000 miles apart...
    PandoraLucyandothers PandoraLucyandothers 26-30, F 1 Response May 9, 2012

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    I Don't Know If I'm Still Doing This On Purpose Anymore

    This guy has been trying to hang out with me for the past 9 months. I knew him back when I was 12 and I liked him back then but he seems different now and I know you are not suppost to judge people based on social networks and things but it's a turnoff to see guys that only use...
    iameffystonem iameffystonem 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 31, 2011

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    Please Go Away....

    Please...go away...leave me alone....don't come near me, don't touch me, don't even look at me. Just don't talk to me....You don't need to see my cry, and break down, and I can't let you get close....
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Oct 26, 2010

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    Stop The Hurt, Lies, And Fake Caring

    Our Friendships has been going on for 3 years, you call me your best friend and then don't care about my wants... You look at me and know their is something wrong and ask me what wrong, but i feel like you don't really care whats wrong... You push me away when things get to tough...
    fuller1919 fuller1919 18-21 1 Response Apr 11, 2011

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    I actually find myself pushing him away

    because I'm so scared of him letting me down again
    R3b3llion32 R3b3llion32 22-25, F Dec 30, 2013

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    I'm Done

    it was hell the first time i went through this with you.  i was devastated. shattered. and felt like you didn't care.  This time...i put up a wall....praying you wouldn't tear it down without me noticing.  little by little i could feel you creeping in again. ...
    KinkyFlower KinkyFlower 31-35, F 5 Responses Oct 26, 2010

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    Im Working On It!

    I kind of push people away mostly women because I feel that I wanted to hurt myself when I was around girls and even just class mates that were next to me you know don’t give me wrong am not emo or anything like that I dress like must teens but when I get close to girls I feel...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 20, 2011

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    Hurt

    I don't have this issue, but the best friend I ever had does. We met in febuary 2012. She practicly moved into my house shortly after that. She never left, we did everything together, we were buds, we read eachothers minds. I never had anyone treat me the way she did. I knew she...
    oximoronjes oximoronjes 26-30, F 2 Responses Sep 14, 2012

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    Sorry

    when i start to love someone,i slowly push them away so they dont hurt me.Ive been hurt so much in the past by guys that told me they loved me,i dont trust guys that much anymore.I hav the worst trust issues possible,il never get over my past relationships.thats why now when im...
    demonicsangel2011 demonicsangel2011 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 22, 2011

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    I'm use to having negativity in my life.

    So anything that's suppose to be good for me, I tend to push away because I'm afraid and it's unfamiliar to me. It's irritating, but that's the truth. I've probably lost a few people due to this flaw.
    Philli8807 Philli8807 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 7

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    Or...so I Don't Hurt You

    I'm looking into myself and I see someone who is insecure. I'm afraid of hurting people with their love. I give love so freely. I want to be open and accepting to people. When I find a true spark in someone I want to explore it. I realize that most people don't live this way...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 7, 2011

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    So Much I Want To Tell You..

    .. But of course I don't. I don't want you to get the "wrong" impression, don't want to show you how much I care. Whenever I see you suffer I wanna make everything OK. I want you to believe in yourself and to make you see yourself through my eyes. You are one of the strongest...
    livingalieforsolong livingalieforsolong 31-35 Sep 11, 2013

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    Yes, I Push And I Push Hard

    To get rid of the weak ones right away. I wanna make sure only the strong & determined people stay in my life. Most of the ones who made it past the gauntlet are still my friends..years & years of loyalty, dependability, secrets, tears & smiles.
    WindyCityCat WindyCityCat 41-45, F 2 Responses Sep 30, 2010

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    For those that has this issue,

    we will learn the hard way that this is the last thing we will want to do. Admitting this is one thing, but when you push away that person who can break through your barriers and you don't allow it because of the fear and insecurities... You will regret it for the rest of your...
    Trainedheart Trainedheart 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 20

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    Im trying. I'm trying to let you in

    even though It's so hard. last time I let someone get close to me, I let them to close and they used everything that they knew hurt me against me. They abused me emotionally and physically. Now here I am with you, my new boyfriend and I'm really happy. Unless I am alone.. Then...
    illmindofhayley illmindofhayley 16-17, F Jan 26

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    Pushing Away

    Don't get close you will get hurtYou will be left picking up my dirtyDon't let your heart let me inBecause everything i do is a sinDon't touch me pleaseI'll leave you in a breeze Don't try to climb my wallsI will build it with my toolsPlease just keep awayI will never stayKeep...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 22, 2013

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    I Truly Dont Know

    It was 3 years ago, not that long ago. I still remember clearly but choose not to, Its not that it hurts but more of wanting to think that those feelings have disapeared completely. Everytime I see you I remember those butterflies and sparks that only you have ever given me. We...
    3501april 3501april 16-17, F Nov 8, 2011

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    Sandra Is So Beautiful ≪3

    Don't give me names, you've got it all You took it all away, drove me insane Who'd come down to earth Releasing me? Healing my wounds Why don't you close the door When you're leaving me? Now you'll run, running all the way Back to me again It's not to end in shame To fight an...
    Cosreal Cosreal 26-30, F Jul 14, 2013

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    that my life!!!!! I sometimes don't understand

    why I do that but I do and I hate it because I push the ones that actually do care away too. ans that's sad
    lillyg96 lillyg96 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    Empty World

    I push you away... I push everyone away.... I'm so scared of this stupid world... I fear being hurt anymore.. i fear the slightest touch.. i fear smiles, and hugs.. i fear having a good laugh with co-workers.... I push everyone away.. my family, my few friends i used to have...
    MiremebeKamaria MiremebeKamaria 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2010

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    Lost Without........lost With....

    It has been almost a year since my Mom passed. She had Multiple Myeloma. A horrible cancer for which there is little treatment.Though , always holds a horrible outcome. She was and is the best friend I could ever ask for. She knew me and I her. We never had to judge to point out...
    hebby99 hebby99 36-40 Dec 12, 2010

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    "best-friend" No More

    i'm trying to push my "best friend" away right now. we used to best friends, and we were very close, just like sisters. but she's a hypocrite and difficult to deal with especially when she's being emotional. we never fought until 15th september 2011 when she said i'm too...
    velvetbluerose velvetbluerose 13-15 2 Responses Nov 25, 2011

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    I know its a matter of time

    and he will hurt me again... My heart wont be able to take it if he does, am tip toeing around him, scared of saying something or doing something that will make him leave, i dont want to lose him... But in the same time, i feel like keeping him at an arms length so that i dont...
    anonymousandlost anonymousandlost 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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    I Pushed him away

    I have had 15 boy friends I have only loved 2 of the 15 I dated the first was when I was in 1st grade and the second was when I was in 5th I dated the first for 3 years and the second i dated for 3 years but I loved the second one more. I just date and date boys just so i wont be...
    jordan1hunnit jordan1hunnit 13-15 Aug 27, 2013

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    Shove

    I have to push you away so I don't get hurt and the pseudo EP friendships I have remain just that. I don't choose this with pryde but if I let you in just like that, what respect would I gain from you? You would take me for granted along with all my affections, you'd have your...
    RoaringFlameLostinShadow RoaringFlameLostinShadow 31-35, M 9 Responses May 10, 2011

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    I do that to everyone

    but God, Jesus and my angel. I don't fully trust anyone... Not even myself.
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    A Terrible Habit

    You scare me more than you ever will and do realize. You have open apart of me, most people have never seen or experience. When you get close, I feel like shutting down or stop all communication but I'm totally drawn to you for one reason or another.I can be as vulnerable as I...
    enchantedebonybutterfly enchantedebonybutterfly 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 25, 2013

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    Rotten.

    You took all I deservedand now you're asking to be heardI'm walking alone in desertcarrying the load I was never worthYou gave me a role I couldn't playTold me that I'm the one to blamebut no I'm not taking your shame.Hey! go dig yourself a gravethat'll be your stageyour mind is...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 11, 2011

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    I am pushing you to see how far I can push you

    before you leave. Nobody wants to be pushed to there breaking point but that's where I push them, I push you away because I don't want to dissapoint you and because I don't want to get hurt I push you away because iv learned to not let you get close I'm sorry I push you away but...
    ripevan ripevan 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    I was abused by my godfather

    when I was 11. Then I felt like any guy who loved me would hurt me in some form of way. So I pushed them away especially because I started to feel good when I was around them. I knew something bad was gonna happen sooner or later. I won't gonna stick around till it did.
    Dynasty2000 Dynasty2000 13-15, F Nov 30, 2013

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    You Wanna Get High With Me

    you reassure, me to just chillgive the blunt a puff n a blowtalk about deep stuff, sh1t other people dont knowbut see i had to postponedidnt call you back to your phonecuz im thinkin that all you wanna is to boneyou got no clue that in reality im all alonein this world, since i...
    MeAgainstDaWorld MeAgainstDaWorld 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    Growing up every little girl is told

    that one day we will meet our Prince Charming. The countless princess movies showing us that true love does exist SOMEWHERE. But what they don't teach girls is all the heartbreak and baggage that comes along with love, then later they tell us "oh it's okay it's apart of growing...
    Vickypearl Vickypearl 13-15, F Jul 18

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    I want things like everyone else

    but I find that I don't ask for them. I find most interactions between me and anyone else to be stagnant or uneventful. I really don't think I have anything to offer anyone and even if I did none wants anything from me. I have pushed everyone I know away and I feel like soon I...
    STSFK STSFK 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 20

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    I Push Everyone, And Everything Away...

    When I become depressed, and when I feel like I really don't want to be around anymore, I push everyone away. I push my friends, I push the people I Love and care about, hell, I even push my Ep frineds away. I know its a bad thing to do, but I do it, not only for me, but for you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jul 9, 2010

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    Opposite

    I don't exactly push others away because they I fear they will hurt me ... I push others away because I fear I will hurt them .. You see there's this woman in my life who I love so much she's been there for me ... I keep telling her that I don't want to hurt her so she should...
    Luvn Luvn 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 28, 2013

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    Yes

    When I become depressed, and when I feel like I really don't want to be around anymore, I push everyone away. I push my friends, I push the people I Love and care about, hell, I even push my Ep frineds away. I know its a bad thing to do, but I do it, not only for me, but for you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 26, 2013

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    Yep, I'm currently doing

    that to "her" I wonder if she'll notice 😁😞
    KarleeJo23 KarleeJo23 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 1

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    Sometimes I Don't Wanna Play Nice!!

    What do you expect from me? You betrayed me. You broke my heart. I've looked through my mental file cabinet and I've discovered your lies go back to the beginning. Now every good thing you've done or said has been wiped away. And you want me to be friendly? I know I should. I...
    MzzSoBee MzzSoBee 41-45, F 2 Responses Oct 19, 2013

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    It Was Never Intentional...

    I never meant to do it. It's just in my nature.. I can't let someone really know me and everything about me. I can't fully give myself to someone, because I know that they will never stay. But I did this for you. You cared enough to try to tear down my walls, piece by piece. You...
    Amay408 Amay408 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 30, 2011

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