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I Am Really Hard On Myself Sometimes

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    More Like All Of The Time

    Im always hard on myself. i always have been, and i always will be. ive never been happy with who i am, but im learning to accept myself and understand that this is who i am and i csnt change that. hopefully, in the future ill learn to be easier on myself.
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F Sep 8, 2013

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    Never "Good Enough"...

    Growing up, I was never quite "good enough" to suit my dad. I didn't study enough, I didn't make good enough grades, I didn't practice my instrument enough, and on and on. I was never an outstanding student, even though I was smart enough, I was too lazy. My dad was a hard...
    pipermac pipermac 56-60, M 1 Response Apr 19, 2013

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    As I get prepared for a big presentation my

    inner child surfaces. Be perfect, impress them so they love you.
    Littlelionwoman81 Littlelionwoman81 36-40, F 1 Response May 20

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    My Breakdown Over My Mom

    When I was younger my older sister commented to me stating that my mom is depressed... I never noticed until then, a very big realization. Then I was thinking over how are relationship was & I thought maybe I was a litter hard on he, I convinced myself that i was a lot worse then...
    MulletMacSween MulletMacSween 22-25 1 Response Jan 11, 2013

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    Whats Wrong With Me?

    Why do I feel the need to be perfect all the time? When I make a stupid mistake, I beat myself up. Literally. I lash out on myself. I had a problem a couple years back where I tried to die. I know, I know. I took about 10 percocets and planned to take the remaining 10 when my...
    likeaprayerxo likeaprayerxo 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 29, 2013

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    Or So I Am Told

    Growing up I guess I seemed to strive for perfection in all things academic not because of pushy parents or anything like that but simply because I thought that it was how it was supposed to be. Then I got to secondary school and still had the same work ethic and positive...
    Blueskies22 Blueskies22 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 7, 2013

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    Can'T Decide What I Feel For Him

    So there's this boy name Chris, and I really like him. We've been texting for a long time now. Problem is, I cannot talk to him in person. All I can say is, "Oh, hi." If he says hello. He goes to a different school, but our schools are combined in sports. I can see him at...
    bookworm77 bookworm77 16-17, F Mar 10, 2013

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    School can be stressful

    and a bit strenuous. I suffer from extreme stress sometimes and it annoys the hell out of me. The last test I got (biology) was a D and it literally just lowered my view on myself. I have very high expectations in myself and my parents as well. I want to go to a good college so...
    goddessoffab goddessoffab 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 30

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    I am 60+ and after years of substance abuse,

    I have been clean and sober for 2 months. The 1st couple of weeks were extremely rough but I joined a recovery program at my church and for the past few weeks I've have never felt better. I woke up extremely depressed this morning (I am also Bipolar) and am beating myself up...
    jgintexas jgintexas 61-65, M 1 Response May 2

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    I Tried All My Life To Show My Family I'Ve Succeeded On My Own.

    Don't read this posting EP lovers/ readers if you think I'm always funny with my sometimes too encrypted humor. It's not always been like that . My WHOLE blood family, meaning, my mom / dad, siblings. Being the last born , I was always trying to prove myself . I know that's not...
    JohnCrighton JohnCrighton 51-55, M 2 Responses Sep 24, 2013

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    hardwork is like stairs

    and luck is like lift some times lift may fail but stairs will always take you at the top...............
    isabelarao isabelarao 18-21, F Mar 14

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    People

    People tell me I need to be more skinny... That I need to be more diligent with my grades... That I need to be less shy... That I need to be nicer... Even that I need to be less hard on myself. How am I supposed to do that when people don't think I'm good enough? I try my best...
    animallover110293 animallover110293 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2013

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    Ok, so, I am a student,

    going to school full-time. I am almost done. After tomorrow, I will be entering my final term before going out on externship. Tomorrow is a final. Up till now, I have been able to maintain my 4.0 GPA, but this term, I almost lost that. It has been a really difficult term...
    aaaagggghhhh aaaagggghhhh 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 13

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    Why Do I Do That?

    Practically everyday of my life some way some how I get told im beautiful, pretty, gorgeous, sexy, hot, ect... and most times when I look in the mirror after I do my hair and make up I feel that way, but some times I still feel like I could look better if I changed some things...
    sweetpea053190 sweetpea053190 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 11, 2013

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    I am really hard on myself about grades at

    school because I always feel like Im not trying my best. I am also really hard on myself when im riding (I ride horses) because I feel like i can do better and that I need to be the best and always win. I hate this part of me but I cant seem to make it go away.
    horsecrazy3 horsecrazy3 18-21, F Feb 17

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    Pressure

    I'm the eldest sibling and cousin and I always had to set and "example" to the young ones I hate it because I know I'm not good enough
    Numbing65 Numbing65 13-15, F 1 Response May 18, 2013

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    Never Enough

    since i was a child ive been tough on myself and i think it stems from my disability i was born with only a quater of my heart working. because of that i have alot of restrictions. now my parents are awesome with 3 other kids they never treated my diff but that made me work...
    KronX KronX 22-25, M Dec 29, 2012

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    I'M Not Sure About This One

    Can anyone tell me what this one means please ? I first thought it had something to do with Pleasing ones self. So I say that I no longer do it, not because I don't want to . I leave that to my Sheila. No seriously I'm not a goose. Sure I set my bar too high. Oops there I go...
    JohnCrighton JohnCrighton 51-55, M Sep 28, 2013

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    Love yourself now, because in 10 years you will

    marvel at how beautiful you once were. Savor it. NOW. You’ll wish you did.
    Littlelionwoman81 Littlelionwoman81 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 13

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    I Am My Harshest Critic

    I know what is going on inside, and therefore, I know that I deserve harsh criticism. I am usually pretty careful to hide the dark side of me from other people, so who else is going to be hard on me? It is my job to judge and to police my actions.
    Serenitree Serenitree 70+, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2013

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    Always

    I'm always hard on myself probably always will be
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 1, 2013

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    My brain has this thing where

    if something's not perfect or I mess up or I fail, it just shuts down and won't let me pick myself up and move on. Not everything can be perfect, and I accept that, but apparently some part of me doesn't.
    Seblett Seblett 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 30

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    I Hate Myself

    I hate the way I look, I hate the fact I'm alive. Sometimes if I do something wrong I want to punish myself by cutting. I wish I was like everybody else sometimes.
    Maggotgirl Maggotgirl 16-17, F Mar 16, 2013

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    ... Okay. Most Of The Time.

    Why? I don't know. My reasons are countless. Who doesn't look at their reflection and see imperfection? Too this, too that. Not enough of this, I wish I had that. My fault really comes down to how much it really digs into me. The sadness and just the pain of feeling bad about...
    InSydious InSydious 22-25, F Jul 29, 2013

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    Cut

    I'm only eleven annoyed I lied about my age cuz I need to talk and I need to talk to someone plz don't criticize me for my age I do cut and its not for attention trust me if it was for attention I would do it on my arms not thighs an legs
    Need2cut Need2cut 13-15, F Jan 13, 2013

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    A Whole New Level

    I'm a habitual self critic. I think everyone is to some degree, but I take it to a whole new level. It does not border on self loathing and self hate, it's right in the center of the camp. It's like there is this Ring Leader in my brain, orchestrating this massive bout of...
    CaptainPeachFuzz CaptainPeachFuzz 31-35, T 2 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    I Hate Myself

    I hate the way I look, I hate the fact I'm alive. Sometimes if I do something wrong I want to punish myself by cutting. I wish I was like everybody else sometimes.
    Maggotgirl Maggotgirl 16-17, F Mar 16, 2013

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    I literally was just crying my gut out (to the point where i was coughing and choking on nothing) and shouting how much I hate myself. Ugh it's getting unbearable. There is only so...
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    After that embarrassing experience with my cat, I finally cut myself near my wrists. I've also stabbed myself in the leg with a pencil and I'm pretty sure the led is still there...
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    I'm pissed that I'm not as empathetic as I want to be. Sometimes I just truly don't are and think people shouldn't dwell on things so much and should just move on and that's...
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    I wish I could have saved you and stopped you. I hate what you did but I hate myself more because I wasn't enough.
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    I'm feeling a lot of dislike for myself at the moment, I have no one to vent to anymore because everyone's gone and the only ones here are too weak or not on the same mental level...
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    Like for example, I used to say that I would never like rock bands but then I loved musics from My Chemical Romance, Panic! At The Disco, Fall Out Boy. Still do.
    Artz4Life Artz4Life 16-17, F Aug 17

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    I could have saved his life if I had just gotten there 3 minutes earlier. I feel like it's my fault he's gone.
    LittleBeelzebub LittleBeelzebub 18-21, F Jul 31

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    Why didn't I just leave the time that I said I did? I could have stopped you :'(
    LittleBeelzebub LittleBeelzebub 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 31

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    I'm ******* done with bullshit. Took 16 panadeines. Hope I pass out and don't ******* wake up this time.
    LittleBeelzebub LittleBeelzebub 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 31

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    Just to feel okay. Or if i remember something funny or i'm watching alone a funny movie.
    yodatheching yodatheching 22-25, F Jul 31

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    I've tried cutting before, but it was so painful I couldn't do it. Instead I just pissed off my cat and let him rip my arms to shreds. I'm such a ******* embarrassment.
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    Does anyone else bite the skin around there nails? Lol i dont know if its stress or anything i just do it
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    All I want is somebody to love me as I come- a jackass. Ugh. I'm doing it all wrong
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    Negative Belief System: Trauma based Beliefs "I am a flawed, worthless person" TRUTH: I am a creation of God and worthy of love and respect! "No one will love me as I...
    MostArdently MostArdently 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 16

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    i found some clothes that fit me perfectly last year, and were even big on me. no i can't even get them past my tummy or my thighs or bum. i don't understand why I've gained as...
    LittleBeelzebub LittleBeelzebub 18-21, F Aug 18

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    Making decisions that makes me regret in the end. I don't know!!! >.<
    Ellalovesss Ellalovesss 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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