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I Am Really Hard On Myself Sometimes

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    Pressure

    I'm the eldest sibling and cousin and I always had to set and "example" to the young ones I hate it because I know I'm not good enough
    Numbing65 Numbing65 16-17, F 1 Response May 18, 2013

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    People

    People tell me I need to be more skinny... That I need to be more diligent with my grades... That I need to be less shy... That I need to be nicer... Even that I need to be less hard on myself. How am I supposed to do that when people don't think I'm good enough? I try my best...
    animallover110293 animallover110293 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2013

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    My Breakdown Over My Mom

    When I was younger my older sister commented to me stating that my mom is depressed... I never noticed until then, a very big realization. Then I was thinking over how are relationship was & I thought maybe I was a litter hard on he, I convinced myself that i was a lot worse then...
    MulletMacSween MulletMacSween 22-25 1 Response Jan 11, 2013

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    Why Do I Do That?

    Practically everyday of my life some way some how I get told im beautiful, pretty, gorgeous, sexy, hot, ect... and most times when I look in the mirror after I do my hair and make up I feel that way, but some times I still feel like I could look better if I changed some things...
    sweetpea053190 sweetpea053190 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 11, 2013

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    As I get prepared for a big presentation my

    inner child surfaces. Be perfect, impress them so they love you.
    Littlelionwoman81 Littlelionwoman81 36-40, F 1 Response May 20

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    ... Okay. Most Of The Time.

    Why? I don't know. My reasons are countless. Who doesn't look at their reflection and see imperfection? Too this, too that. Not enough of this, I wish I had that. My fault really comes down to how much it really digs into me. The sadness and just the pain of feeling bad about...
    InSydious InSydious 22-25, F Jul 29, 2013

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    Never "Good Enough"...

    Growing up, I was never quite "good enough" to suit my dad. I didn't study enough, I didn't make good enough grades, I didn't practice my instrument enough, and on and on. I was never an outstanding student, even though I was smart enough, I was too lazy. My dad was a hard...
    pipermac pipermac 56-60, M 1 Response Apr 19, 2013

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    Cut

    I'm only eleven annoyed I lied about my age cuz I need to talk and I need to talk to someone plz don't criticize me for my age I do cut and its not for attention trust me if it was for attention I would do it on my arms not thighs an legs
    Need2cut Need2cut 13-15, F Jan 13, 2013

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    Can'T Decide What I Feel For Him

    So there's this boy name Chris, and I really like him. We've been texting for a long time now. Problem is, I cannot talk to him in person. All I can say is, "Oh, hi." If he says hello. He goes to a different school, but our schools are combined in sports. I can see him at...
    bookworm77 bookworm77 16-17, F Mar 10, 2013

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    School can be stressful

    and a bit strenuous. I suffer from extreme stress sometimes and it annoys the hell out of me. The last test I got (biology) was a D and it literally just lowered my view on myself. I have very high expectations in myself and my parents as well. I want to go to a good college so...
    goddessoffab goddessoffab 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 30

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    I Tried All My Life To Show My Family I'Ve Succeeded On My Own.

    Don't read this posting EP lovers/ readers if you think I'm always funny with my sometimes too encrypted humor. It's not always been like that . My WHOLE blood family, meaning, my mom / dad, siblings. Being the last born , I was always trying to prove myself . I know that's not...
    JohnCrighton JohnCrighton 51-55, M 1 Response Sep 24, 2013

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    Always

    I'm always hard on myself probably always will be
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 1, 2013

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    Never Enough

    since i was a child ive been tough on myself and i think it stems from my disability i was born with only a quater of my heart working. because of that i have alot of restrictions. now my parents are awesome with 3 other kids they never treated my diff but that made me work...
    KronX KronX 22-25, M Dec 29, 2012

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    I am 60+ and after years of substance abuse,

    I have been clean and sober for 2 months. The 1st couple of weeks were extremely rough but I joined a recovery program at my church and for the past few weeks I've have never felt better. I woke up extremely depressed this morning (I am also Bipolar) and am beating myself up...
    jgintexas jgintexas 61-65, M 1 Response May 2

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    I Hate Myself

    I hate the way I look, I hate the fact I'm alive. Sometimes if I do something wrong I want to punish myself by cutting. I wish I was like everybody else sometimes.
    Maggotgirl Maggotgirl 16-17, F Mar 16, 2013

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    I'M Not Sure About This One

    Can anyone tell me what this one means please ? I first thought it had something to do with Pleasing ones self. So I say that I no longer do it, not because I don't want to . I leave that to my Sheila. No seriously I'm not a goose. Sure I set my bar too high. Oops there I go...
    JohnCrighton JohnCrighton 51-55, M Sep 28, 2013

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    A Whole New Level

    I'm a habitual self critic. I think everyone is to some degree, but I take it to a whole new level. It does not border on self loathing and self hate, it's right in the center of the camp. It's like there is this Ring Leader in my brain, orchestrating this massive bout of...
    CaptainPeachFuzz CaptainPeachFuzz 31-35, T 2 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    Ok, so, I am a student,

    going to school full-time. I am almost done. After tomorrow, I will be entering my final term before going out on externship. Tomorrow is a final. Up till now, I have been able to maintain my 4.0 GPA, but this term, I almost lost that. It has been a really difficult term...
    aaaagggghhhh aaaagggghhhh 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 13

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    Or So I Am Told

    Growing up I guess I seemed to strive for perfection in all things academic not because of pushy parents or anything like that but simply because I thought that it was how it was supposed to be. Then I got to secondary school and still had the same work ethic and positive...
    Blueskies22 Blueskies22 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 7, 2013

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    Whats Wrong With Me?

    Why do I feel the need to be perfect all the time? When I make a stupid mistake, I beat myself up. Literally. I lash out on myself. I had a problem a couple years back where I tried to die. I know, I know. I took about 10 percocets and planned to take the remaining 10 when my...
    likeaprayerxo likeaprayerxo 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 29, 2013

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    More Like All Of The Time

    Im always hard on myself. i always have been, and i always will be. ive never been happy with who i am, but im learning to accept myself and understand that this is who i am and i csnt change that. hopefully, in the future ill learn to be easier on myself.
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F Sep 8, 2013

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    I am really hard on myself about grades at

    school because I always feel like Im not trying my best. I am also really hard on myself when im riding (I ride horses) because I feel like i can do better and that I need to be the best and always win. I hate this part of me but I cant seem to make it go away.
    horsecrazy3 horsecrazy3 13-15, F Feb 17

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    My brain has this thing where

    if something's not perfect or I mess up or I fail, it just shuts down and won't let me pick myself up and move on. Not everything can be perfect, and I accept that, but apparently some part of me doesn't.
    Seblett Seblett 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 30

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    hardwork is like stairs

    and luck is like lift some times lift may fail but stairs will always take you at the top...............
    isabelarao isabelarao 18-21, F Mar 14

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    I Am My Harshest Critic

    I know what is going on inside, and therefore, I know that I deserve harsh criticism. I am usually pretty careful to hide the dark side of me from other people, so who else is going to be hard on me? It is my job to judge and to police my actions.
    Serenitree Serenitree 70+, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2013

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    Love yourself now, because in 10 years you will

    marvel at how beautiful you once were. Savor it. NOW. You’ll wish you did.
    Littlelionwoman81 Littlelionwoman81 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 13

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    I Hate Myself

    I hate the way I look, I hate the fact I'm alive. Sometimes if I do something wrong I want to punish myself by cutting. I wish I was like everybody else sometimes.
    Maggotgirl Maggotgirl 16-17, F Mar 16, 2013

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    Ugh... Why am I so sensitive? I just feel really fragile today... I keep holding back the tears... Then all these negative feelings surface all at once... All the reasons I shouldn...
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    I feel like I am all alone in the world. My mother passed 15 years ago. My daughter is 18 and has moved 400 miles away. My husband is an ***. I live over 600 miles away from all my...
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    I hate myself right now. I'm so stupid. why do I even try? I mean it's not like I'm worth anything. I don't even understand why he would love me. All I do is mess everything up...
    whispywind whispywind 13-15, F a week ago

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    I have a hard time saying no really to my friends. Well 'friends.' Seems like they are always running all over me.
    KDshea KDshea 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 9

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    Hello to all I'm just wondering you all well not all ask something on your profile and I try to help others and yes I be a smat *** to but I will take time answer or just put...
    daddylove4u daddylove4u 51-55, M 10 hrs ago

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    I don't understand. Like I just don't bloody understand. I can talk to perfect strangers without any hesitation. I can talk to anybody here without the slightest regard of self...
    heylookineededanameok heylookineededanameok 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 21

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    So I was talking to this girl for a while and was just about to ask her out, and she turns around and goes out with a freshman that was obsessed with her. He also started talking...
    TylerReed TylerReed 13-15, M Sep 21

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    You have things clear...you understand all is gone and done,yet you still feel.Why? There is no use,it is something wasted,trush to the garbage...why we keep going on with non...
    4biandu 4biandu 26-30, F Sep 27

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    Why do i keep acting so happy? When deep down i'm falling apart. I don't understand why i keep pretending and why i still do.
    DreamingSouls DreamingSouls 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    Now my thoughts are so cloudy and my heart is so filled with hate. 😣 I am so frustrated, like my soul's been taken away. 😲 I don't know what to do anymore.. These people...
    SunshineH316 SunshineH316 22-25, F a week ago

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    Hi everyone! My name is Javaneh and this means 'young sprout'. Most people just call me Java and I'm okay with this. I'm bisexual and hope you don't mind. I've had one boyfriend...
    Javaneh Javaneh 18-21, F 40 mins ago

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    I always thought that I was lazy because I really didn't want to do anything. But lately, I've been noticing the real reason why I am lazy, and this reason makes me feel so mad and...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 3 Responses Oct 4

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    It's a hard thing to do improving yourself. I try to be a very open minded person. I think that's why I'm easy to get along with most of the time. I do have my faults though. I'm...
    Plungeintoadream Plungeintoadream 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 27

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    Like you're carrying the world atop your shoulders. That's how I always felt, with friends, family, work. I somehow always blame myself when something goes wrong. I act all...
    lonelydinosaur lonelydinosaur 26-30, F Sep 27

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    I constantly think negative thoughts about myself, I hardly consider myself human and I put everything and everyone before myself. It's gotten to the point where I don't even...
    caseys22 caseys22 22-25, M 5 days ago

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    I have a serious problem comparing myself to others. I try really hard not to, but I do. It seems that I am really slow at learning things. Its like everything I look at something...
    TurkeyBacon TurkeyBacon 18-21, M Sep 28

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    My mom wanted to check my grades today. She checked my sister's first and she has all A's and B's. i checked mine without her knowing and I have A's and B's and two C+'s. Im pretty...
    secrets1can2be3told secrets1can2be3told 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    Im 24 years old, and I have a pretty face, I have gorgeous boyfriend, I know I am intelligent, on the outside people think that I am so lucky. It's so easy to pretend, but I...
    lostinthisnightmare lostinthisnightmare 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 8

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    Larva feed completely on milkweed and take in protecting cardiac glycosides. Toxin stages in Asclepias sp.range. Not all monarchs are unpalatable, but exibit Batesian or automimics...
    Willy52yt Willy52yt 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 24

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    I have a running monologue with other people in my head. Sometimes I like to phrase the words properly, see how they sound and come together, gauge how it will be perceived, what...
    Quietly40 Quietly40 41-45, M Sep 25

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