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I Am Really Hard On Myself Sometimes

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    I Hate Myself

    I hate the way I look, I hate the fact I'm alive. Sometimes if I do something wrong I want to punish myself by cutting. I wish I was like everybody else sometimes.
    Maggotgirl Maggotgirl 16-17, F Mar 16, 2013

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    I am really hard on myself about grades at

    school because I always feel like Im not trying my best. I am also really hard on myself when im riding (I ride horses) because I feel like i can do better and that I need to be the best and always win. I hate this part of me but I cant seem to make it go away.
    horsecrazy3 horsecrazy3 13-15, F Feb 17

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    I Hate Myself

    I hate the way I look, I hate the fact I'm alive. Sometimes if I do something wrong I want to punish myself by cutting. I wish I was like everybody else sometimes.
    Maggotgirl Maggotgirl 16-17, F Mar 16, 2013

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    Or So I Am Told

    Growing up I guess I seemed to strive for perfection in all things academic not because of pushy parents or anything like that but simply because I thought that it was how it was supposed to be. Then I got to secondary school and still had the same work ethic and positive...
    Blueskies22 Blueskies22 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 7, 2013

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    A Whole New Level

    I'm a habitual self critic. I think everyone is to some degree, but I take it to a whole new level. It does not border on self loathing and self hate, it's right in the center of the camp. It's like there is this Ring Leader in my brain, orchestrating this massive bout of...
    CaptainPeachFuzz CaptainPeachFuzz 31-35, T 2 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    Cut

    I'm only eleven annoyed I lied about my age cuz I need to talk and I need to talk to someone plz don't criticize me for my age I do cut and its not for attention trust me if it was for attention I would do it on my arms not thighs an legs
    Need2cut Need2cut 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 13, 2013

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    School can be stressful

    and a bit strenuous. I suffer from extreme stress sometimes and it annoys the hell out of me. The last test I got (biology) was a D and it literally just lowered my view on myself. I have very high expectations in myself and my parents as well. I want to go to a good college so...
    goddessoffab goddessoffab 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 30

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    More Like All Of The Time

    Im always hard on myself. i always have been, and i always will be. ive never been happy with who i am, but im learning to accept myself and understand that this is who i am and i csnt change that. hopefully, in the future ill learn to be easier on myself.
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F Sep 8, 2013

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    Never Enough

    since i was a child ive been tough on myself and i think it stems from my disability i was born with only a quater of my heart working. because of that i have alot of restrictions. now my parents are awesome with 3 other kids they never treated my diff but that made me work...
    KronX KronX 22-25, M Dec 29, 2012

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    Always

    I'm always hard on myself probably always will be
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 1, 2013

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    ... Okay. Most Of The Time.

    Why? I don't know. My reasons are countless. Who doesn't look at their reflection and see imperfection? Too this, too that. Not enough of this, I wish I had that. My fault really comes down to how much it really digs into me. The sadness and just the pain of feeling bad about...
    InSydious InSydious 22-25, F Jul 29, 2013

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    hardwork is like stairs

    and luck is like lift some times lift may fail but stairs will always take you at the top...............
    isabelarao isabelarao 18-21, F Mar 14

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    I'M Not Sure About This One

    Can anyone tell me what this one means please ? I first thought it had something to do with Pleasing ones self. So I say that I no longer do it, not because I don't want to . I leave that to my Sheila. No seriously I'm not a goose. Sure I set my bar too high. Oops there I go...
    JohnCrighton JohnCrighton 51-55, M Sep 28, 2013

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    People

    People tell me I need to be more skinny... That I need to be more diligent with my grades... That I need to be less shy... That I need to be nicer... Even that I need to be less hard on myself. How am I supposed to do that when people don't think I'm good enough? I try my best...
    animallover110293 animallover110293 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2013

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    Can'T Decide What I Feel For Him

    So there's this boy name Chris, and I really like him. We've been texting for a long time now. Problem is, I cannot talk to him in person. All I can say is, "Oh, hi." If he says hello. He goes to a different school, but our schools are combined in sports. I can see him at...
    bookworm77 bookworm77 16-17, F Mar 10, 2013

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    I Am My Harshest Critic

    I know what is going on inside, and therefore, I know that I deserve harsh criticism. I am usually pretty careful to hide the dark side of me from other people, so who else is going to be hard on me? It is my job to judge and to police my actions.
    Serenitree Serenitree 70+, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2013

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    Ok, so, I am a student,

    going to school full-time. I am almost done. After tomorrow, I will be entering my final term before going out on externship. Tomorrow is a final. Up till now, I have been able to maintain my 4.0 GPA, but this term, I almost lost that. It has been a really difficult term...
    aaaagggghhhh aaaagggghhhh 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 13

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    Pressure

    I'm the eldest sibling and cousin and I always had to set and "example" to the young ones I hate it because I know I'm not good enough
    Numbing65 Numbing65 13-15, F 1 Response May 18, 2013

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    Whats Wrong With Me?

    Why do I feel the need to be perfect all the time? When I make a stupid mistake, I beat myself up. Literally. I lash out on myself. I had a problem a couple years back where I tried to die. I know, I know. I took about 10 percocets and planned to take the remaining 10 when my...
    likeaprayerxo likeaprayerxo 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 29, 2013

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    My Breakdown Over My Mom

    When I was younger my older sister commented to me stating that my mom is depressed... I never noticed until then, a very big realization. Then I was thinking over how are relationship was & I thought maybe I was a litter hard on he, I convinced myself that i was a lot worse then...
    MulletMacSween MulletMacSween 22-25 1 Response Jan 11, 2013

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    Why Do I Do That?

    Practically everyday of my life some way some how I get told im beautiful, pretty, gorgeous, sexy, hot, ect... and most times when I look in the mirror after I do my hair and make up I feel that way, but some times I still feel like I could look better if I changed some things...
    sweetpea053190 sweetpea053190 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 11, 2013

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    I Tried All My Life To Show My Family I'Ve Succeeded On My Own.

    Don't read this posting EP lovers/ readers if you think I'm always funny with my sometimes too encrypted humor. It's not always been like that . My WHOLE blood family, meaning, my mom / dad, siblings. Being the last born , I was always trying to prove myself . I know that's not...
    JohnCrighton JohnCrighton 51-55, M 2 Responses Sep 24, 2013

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
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    I sometimes hate myself because I'm a lesbian. I was bullied really badly when I was younger because people suspected me. Now it's a lot more accepted at my school, but I still...
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    Sometimes I hate guys and sometimes I like them. It's a love and hate relationship. Well anyways when I was in my political science class today in the morning I was putting my...
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    I've had so many people come and go throughout my life. Whether it's something they did or something I felt I've never had any interest in trying to hold on to them. I've never...
    DarknessWolf DarknessWolf 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 4

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    I think everyone does sometimes. But then, I think that if I had the opportunity to change anything, I wouldn't because one little fix could change everything about yourself...
    taylor468 taylor468 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    In the past year I have pulled away from all of the friends that I ever had, even the few that I made attending college. My communication skills are terrible, I have have really...
    whatwasthatpromisethatyoumade whatwasthatpromisethatyoumade 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    I don't know why sometimes I do sometimes I don't . When I'm alone it's so sad and boring.
    adamsoweird adamsoweird 18-21, M Mar 26

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    I have a great life, I life as a European in a 'paradise.' however sometimes I just wonder what life is in general, I mean i'm at school talking about a subject to my friend and...
    TheObserverr TheObserverr 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    When im drunk and out with friends I totally let go and dont care what I look like but the next day I hate myself! Im so ashamed of the way I behaved I want to hurt myself. I feel...
    misindecisive misindecisive 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 6

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    I hate myself. But I smile an laugh. I donn't want people to know I'm unhappy. The people in my school are judgmental. If I said I'm not happy, they think I'm depressed. Life seems...
    hockeytho121 hockeytho121 13-15, F Mar 25

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    My emotions be all over the place. One minute I'm for sure leavin this guy and the next he show me the side of him that I love and I'm back 2nd guessing myself. Ugh !
    aries1214 aries1214 22-25, F Apr 4

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    It's just one of those days where I ask myself too many questions , seems like I don't have a definite answer to them . I feel confused a lot these days , don't know who I am...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 7

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    I get so angry I hate that about myself this anger just takes over .. I ask god please take this anger from me .. I notice how I get mad over stupid stuff . I get angry start...
    port524 port524 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    Every time I do say no, I always regret it..but I never flat out say "NO Dammitttt, get away from me!." I've never been able to say a flat out NO. I find a way to get around saying...
    karmadarling77 karmadarling77 13-15, F Mar 30

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    I hate how people think I'm weird and stupid. I hate that I'm indifferent about my existence. I hate not having the strength to do anything with my life. I hate how i've let down...
    prescriptionesteem prescriptionesteem 22-25 1 Response Mar 28

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    I love too easily. People take advantage of me all the time.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 29

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    I feel as though I have lost friends because I am not able to deal with what I am going thru. If feels as if I am daily getting sucker punched by things I didn't expect. Phone...
    RoseReg RoseReg 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    Wow I feel like the world's biggest *******
    mayorMax mayorMax 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 9

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    I'm a pretty ok person, but I can be the worlds biggest ****. I'm my father on the inside and the only use for that is in the workplace. : /
    Twichl Twichl 18-21, F Apr 15

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    I just remembered something. It's so weird, and maybe disgusting? Um, when I was about 7-8, I wrote and illustrated an entire novel. However, it had sexually explicit material...
    SimplyZero SimplyZero 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I hate guys who think it's funny to call people fat.
    Wishingtobegone Wishingtobegone 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    A lot of times, I wish I can change myself. Sometimes I wish I had a different body shape, different eyebrows, that my skin looked cleaner. Sometimes I wish I was smarter, more...
    almaera almaera 18-21, F Apr 12

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    My whole life I was told by the people i love that I am ugly. The sad thing is I really believe I am too. Sometimes it's really hard to look in the mirror without becoming...
    Marquinta Marquinta 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 16

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    I work. Get home. 23. Live with my mother. Not sure what to do with my life. No College. No Car. No Motivation for life. I am not sure why. It could be my addiction to video games...
    SuohSin SuohSin 22-25, M 1 day ago

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    I started to really hate myself when I was about 9 or 10. I don't know why but as I was going through the day I realized all of the stupid things I do, how pathetic I am and I...
    skinnylittlewrists skinnylittlewrists 16-17, F 6 Responses Mar 31

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    Lately I've been crying a lot. The past year has been rough. I'm in a long-term live-in relationship (12 years) and the past 6 years our sex life has been getting less and less...
    SmartKat SmartKat 46-50, F 11 Responses Apr 4

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    I like seriously almost got to the point of thinking about killing myself. Sometimes my thoughts are good, and sometimes they're bad. It just depends I guess. It's not from anybody...
    PureWhiteMoonlight PureWhiteMoonlight 16-17, F Apr 6

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    More like always. I am a high school student and at school I reay do feel like I do not belong anywhere. Everyone is doing better on tests then me, everyone is making friends way...
    Girlinthefloweredskirt Girlinthefloweredskirt 16-17, F 3 days ago

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