I Am Really Hard On Myself Sometimes

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    Or So I Am Told

    Growing up I guess I seemed to strive for perfection in all things academic not because of pushy parents or anything like that but simply because I thought that it was how it was supposed to be. Then I got to secondary school and still had the same work ethic and positive...
    Blueskies22 Blueskies22
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 7, 2013

    A Whole New Level

    I'm a habitual self critic. I think everyone is to some degree, but I take it to a whole new level. It does not border on self loathing and self hate, it's right in the center of the camp. It's like there is this Ring Leader in my brain, orchestrating this massive bout of...
    CaptainPeachFuzz CaptainPeachFuzz
    31-35, T
    2 Responses Feb 21, 2013

    ... Okay. Most Of The Time.

    Why? I don't know. My reasons are countless. Who doesn't look at their reflection and see imperfection? Too this, too that. Not enough of this, I wish I had that. My fault really comes down to how much it really digs into me. The sadness and just the pain of feeling bad about...
    InSydious InSydious
    22-25, F
    Jul 29, 2013

    Whats Wrong With Me?

    Why do I feel the need to be perfect all the time? When I make a stupid mistake, I beat myself up. Literally. I lash out on myself. I had a problem a couple years back where I tried to die. I know, I know. I took about 10 percocets and planned to take the remaining 10 when my...
    likeaprayerxo likeaprayerxo
    31-35, F
    1 Response Aug 29, 2013

    Never Enough

    since i was a child ive been tough on myself and i think it stems from my disability i was born with only a quater of my heart working. because of that i have alot of restrictions. now my parents are awesome with 3 other kids they never treated my diff but that made me work...
    KronX KronX
    22-25, M
    Dec 29, 2012

    I'M Not Sure About This One

    Can anyone tell me what this one means please ? I first thought it had something to do with Pleasing ones self. So I say that I no longer do it, not because I don't want to . I leave that to my Sheila. No seriously I'm not a goose. Sure I set my bar too high. Oops there I go...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 28, 2013

    hardwork is like stairs

    and luck is like lift some times lift may fail but stairs will always take you at the top...............
    isabelarao isabelarao
    18-21, F
    Mar 14, 2014
    Terrabdp3 Terrabdp3
    41-45, M
    Mar 23

    I Tried All My Life To Show My Family I'Ve Succeeded On My Own.

    Don't read this posting EP lovers/ readers if you think I'm always funny with my sometimes too encrypted humor. It's not always been like that . My WHOLE blood family, meaning, my mom / dad, siblings. Being the last born , I was always trying to prove myself . I know that's not...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 24, 2013

    More Like All Of The Time

    Im always hard on myself. i always have been, and i always will be. ive never been happy with who i am, but im learning to accept myself and understand that this is who i am and i csnt change that. hopefully, in the future ill learn to be easier on myself.
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery
    18-21, F
    Sep 8, 2013

    I should give my self a break one day.

    I've always wanted to check my self into a hotel for a night
    hecticeuphony hecticeuphony
    18-21, M
    Sep 28, 2015

    I'm so hard on myself,

    especially when it comes to academics. I just received a poor grade on my paper, but I'm needing some advice on how to accept it, and not allow this one mark to colour the rest of the course experience. Someone please fill me with some enlightening thoughts!
    drunkinlove23 drunkinlove23
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 31, 2014

    Love yourself now, because in 10 years you will

    marvel at how beautiful you once were. Savor it. NOW. You’ll wish you did.
    Femmeheartsoul Femmeheartsoul
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jul 13, 2014

    My Breakdown Over My Mom

    When I was younger my older sister commented to me stating that my mom is depressed... I never noticed until then, a very big realization. Then I was thinking over how are relationship was & I thought maybe I was a litter hard on he, I convinced myself that i was a lot worse then...
    MulletMacSween MulletMacSween
    22-25
    1 Response Jan 11, 2013

    Ok, so, I am a student,

    going to school full-time. I am almost done. After tomorrow, I will be entering my final term before going out on externship. Tomorrow is a final. Up till now, I have been able to maintain my 4.0 GPA, but this term, I almost lost that. It has been a really difficult term...
    aaaagggghhhh aaaagggghhhh
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Mar 13, 2014

    Never "Good Enough"...

    Growing up, I was never quite "good enough" to suit my dad. I didn't study enough, I didn't make good enough grades, I didn't practice my instrument enough, and on and on. I was never an outstanding student, even though I was smart enough, I was too lazy. My dad was a hard...
    pipermac pipermac
    56-60, M
    1 Response Apr 19, 2013

    As I get prepared for a big presentation my

    inner child surfaces. Be perfect, impress them so they love you.
    Femmeheartsoul Femmeheartsoul
    36-40, F
    1 Response May 20, 2014

    People

    People tell me I need to be more skinny... That I need to be more diligent with my grades... That I need to be less shy... That I need to be nicer... Even that I need to be less hard on myself. How am I supposed to do that when people don't think I'm good enough? I try my best...
    animallover110293 animallover110293
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 28, 2013

    Always

    I'm always hard on myself probably always will be
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 1, 2013

    I am 60+ and after years of substance abuse,

    I have been clean and sober for 2 months. The 1st couple of weeks were extremely rough but I joined a recovery program at my church and for the past few weeks I've have never felt better. I woke up extremely depressed this morning (I am also Bipolar) and am beating myself up...
    jgintexas jgintexas
    61-65, M
    1 Response May 2, 2014

    When I look at my moms family,

    I try and Be hard on myself because I don't want to grow up and accept less. when I grow up, I want to be happy with the career I chose instead of relying on other people. my dad always taught me to be independent and that's what I want to do. It sucks that my family and my...
    ILoveBacon23 ILoveBacon23
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 28, 2015

    I Am My Harshest Critic

    I know what is going on inside, and therefore, I know that I deserve harsh criticism. I am usually pretty careful to hide the dark side of me from other people, so who else is going to be hard on me? It is my job to judge and to police my actions.
    Serenitree Serenitree
    70+, F
    1 Response Jan 28, 2013

    Why Do I Do That?

    Practically everyday of my life some way some how I get told im beautiful, pretty, gorgeous, sexy, hot, ect... and most times when I look in the mirror after I do my hair and make up I feel that way, but some times I still feel like I could look better if I changed some things...
    sweetpea053190 sweetpea053190
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 11, 2013

    I feel like everything

    that happens to me is my fault. People tell me its not always my fault but i still feel like it is
    TheWanderingWarrior TheWanderingWarrior
    26-30, M
    1 Response Dec 17, 2014

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