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I Am Really Hard On Myself Sometimes

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    I Hate Myself

    I hate the way I look, I hate the fact I'm alive. Sometimes if I do something wrong I want to punish myself by cutting. I wish I was like everybody else sometimes.
    Maggotgirl Maggotgirl 16-17, F Mar 16, 2013

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    A Whole New Level

    I'm a habitual self critic. I think everyone is to some degree, but I take it to a whole new level. It does not border on self loathing and self hate, it's right in the center of the camp. It's like there is this Ring Leader in my brain, orchestrating this massive bout of...
    CaptainPeachFuzz CaptainPeachFuzz 31-35, T 2 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    I Am My Harshest Critic

    I know what is going on inside, and therefore, I know that I deserve harsh criticism. I am usually pretty careful to hide the dark side of me from other people, so who else is going to be hard on me? It is my job to judge and to police my actions.
    Serenitree Serenitree 70+, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2013

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    I am really hard on myself about grades at

    school because I always feel like Im not trying my best. I am also really hard on myself when im riding (I ride horses) because I feel like i can do better and that I need to be the best and always win. I hate this part of me but I cant seem to make it go away.
    horsecrazy3 horsecrazy3 18-21, F Feb 17

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    People

    People tell me I need to be more skinny... That I need to be more diligent with my grades... That I need to be less shy... That I need to be nicer... Even that I need to be less hard on myself. How am I supposed to do that when people don't think I'm good enough? I try my best...
    animallover110293 animallover110293 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2013

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    I am 60+ and after years of substance abuse,

    I have been clean and sober for 2 months. The 1st couple of weeks were extremely rough but I joined a recovery program at my church and for the past few weeks I've have never felt better. I woke up extremely depressed this morning (I am also Bipolar) and am beating myself up...
    jgintexas jgintexas 61-65, M 1 Response May 2

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    hardwork is like stairs

    and luck is like lift some times lift may fail but stairs will always take you at the top...............
    isabelarao isabelarao 18-21, F Mar 14

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    ... Okay. Most Of The Time.

    Why? I don't know. My reasons are countless. Who doesn't look at their reflection and see imperfection? Too this, too that. Not enough of this, I wish I had that. My fault really comes down to how much it really digs into me. The sadness and just the pain of feeling bad about...
    InSydious InSydious 22-25, F Jul 29, 2013

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    Or So I Am Told

    Growing up I guess I seemed to strive for perfection in all things academic not because of pushy parents or anything like that but simply because I thought that it was how it was supposed to be. Then I got to secondary school and still had the same work ethic and positive...
    Blueskies22 Blueskies22 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 7, 2013

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    Can'T Decide What I Feel For Him

    So there's this boy name Chris, and I really like him. We've been texting for a long time now. Problem is, I cannot talk to him in person. All I can say is, "Oh, hi." If he says hello. He goes to a different school, but our schools are combined in sports. I can see him at...
    bookworm77 bookworm77 16-17, F Mar 10, 2013

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    I Tried All My Life To Show My Family I'Ve Succeeded On My Own.

    Don't read this posting EP lovers/ readers if you think I'm always funny with my sometimes too encrypted humor. It's not always been like that . My WHOLE blood family, meaning, my mom / dad, siblings. Being the last born , I was always trying to prove myself . I know that's not...
    JohnCrighton JohnCrighton 51-55, M 2 Responses Sep 24, 2013

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    As I get prepared for a big presentation my

    inner child surfaces. Be perfect, impress them so they love you.
    Littlelionwoman81 Littlelionwoman81 36-40, F 1 Response May 20

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    Whats Wrong With Me?

    Why do I feel the need to be perfect all the time? When I make a stupid mistake, I beat myself up. Literally. I lash out on myself. I had a problem a couple years back where I tried to die. I know, I know. I took about 10 percocets and planned to take the remaining 10 when my...
    likeaprayerxo likeaprayerxo 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 29, 2013

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    Never "Good Enough"...

    Growing up, I was never quite "good enough" to suit my dad. I didn't study enough, I didn't make good enough grades, I didn't practice my instrument enough, and on and on. I was never an outstanding student, even though I was smart enough, I was too lazy. My dad was a hard...
    pipermac pipermac 56-60, M 1 Response Apr 19, 2013

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    I Hate Myself

    I hate the way I look, I hate the fact I'm alive. Sometimes if I do something wrong I want to punish myself by cutting. I wish I was like everybody else sometimes.
    Maggotgirl Maggotgirl 16-17, F Mar 16, 2013

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    Pressure

    I'm the eldest sibling and cousin and I always had to set and "example" to the young ones I hate it because I know I'm not good enough
    Numbing65 Numbing65 13-15, F 1 Response May 18, 2013

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    My Breakdown Over My Mom

    When I was younger my older sister commented to me stating that my mom is depressed... I never noticed until then, a very big realization. Then I was thinking over how are relationship was & I thought maybe I was a litter hard on he, I convinced myself that i was a lot worse then...
    MulletMacSween MulletMacSween 22-25 1 Response Jan 11, 2013

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    More Like All Of The Time

    Im always hard on myself. i always have been, and i always will be. ive never been happy with who i am, but im learning to accept myself and understand that this is who i am and i csnt change that. hopefully, in the future ill learn to be easier on myself.
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F Sep 8, 2013

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    School can be stressful

    and a bit strenuous. I suffer from extreme stress sometimes and it annoys the hell out of me. The last test I got (biology) was a D and it literally just lowered my view on myself. I have very high expectations in myself and my parents as well. I want to go to a good college so...
    goddessoffab goddessoffab 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 30

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    Never Enough

    since i was a child ive been tough on myself and i think it stems from my disability i was born with only a quater of my heart working. because of that i have alot of restrictions. now my parents are awesome with 3 other kids they never treated my diff but that made me work...
    KronX KronX 22-25, M Dec 29, 2012

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    Love yourself now, because in 10 years you will

    marvel at how beautiful you once were. Savor it. NOW. You’ll wish you did.
    Littlelionwoman81 Littlelionwoman81 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 13

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    I'M Not Sure About This One

    Can anyone tell me what this one means please ? I first thought it had something to do with Pleasing ones self. So I say that I no longer do it, not because I don't want to . I leave that to my Sheila. No seriously I'm not a goose. Sure I set my bar too high. Oops there I go...
    JohnCrighton JohnCrighton 51-55, M Sep 28, 2013

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    Why Do I Do That?

    Practically everyday of my life some way some how I get told im beautiful, pretty, gorgeous, sexy, hot, ect... and most times when I look in the mirror after I do my hair and make up I feel that way, but some times I still feel like I could look better if I changed some things...
    sweetpea053190 sweetpea053190 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 11, 2013

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    Always

    I'm always hard on myself probably always will be
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 1, 2013

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    Cut

    I'm only eleven annoyed I lied about my age cuz I need to talk and I need to talk to someone plz don't criticize me for my age I do cut and its not for attention trust me if it was for attention I would do it on my arms not thighs an legs
    Need2cut Need2cut 13-15, F Jan 13, 2013

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    Ok, so, I am a student,

    going to school full-time. I am almost done. After tomorrow, I will be entering my final term before going out on externship. Tomorrow is a final. Up till now, I have been able to maintain my 4.0 GPA, but this term, I almost lost that. It has been a really difficult term...
    aaaagggghhhh aaaagggghhhh 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 13

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    i just cant stop.. even tho i go to a psychologist, everything is just getting worse the more i think and talk about it, the worse i feel and the more i cut i just really hate...
    Elienseys Elienseys 16-17, F Jul 9

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    Whatever I do/try, I cannot keep a lasting relationship with people, friends OR boyfriends. This one guy started texting me a few weeks ago and he'd call me beautiful, tell me I'm...
    shlumbug shlumbug 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    It's totally ridiculous! First of all,i want to tell you that i am a muslim girl. You see, it's totally hard to grow up to be a muslim teenage girl. First, i always hurt my mum. I...
    MyTruthLife MyTruthLife 13-15 1 Response Jun 29

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    I mean, I totally love myself all the way. I accept who I am, and I like the person I am right now. Still, I feel scared sometimes, because I get really dark. I'm graduating...
    Celal Celal 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    Like last night. It was a really odd night... I had been driving all day... I stopped at another gas station and got back on the road. Then it got dark... And suddenly I felt so...
    LEMONkinks LEMONkinks 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 6

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    I just feel like I can't be good enough for anyone, nobody how hard I try..
    CaysenB12 CaysenB12 16-17, M Jul 1

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    Why do people get offended if they get blocked ? Why take it personally ? We don't all know each other anyway . O_O I mean if " jackoffdude "is trying to send me a message , of...
    AEHeroine AEHeroine 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 29

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    When I study it's like I have more than one brain and I can't control the way I talk to myself like three different people. I also argue with myself a lot
    jenn133 jenn133 13-15, F a week ago

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    i am born as a male. i don't like my my body. sometimes i disgust it. i don't know why i feel that way.. but i feel comfortable with any gender socially. i cant understand my self...
    leftaalone leftaalone 22-25 1 Response Jun 25

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    I hate my body so much that sometimes I just want to peel my skin off and find a new body.
    LittleBeelzebub LittleBeelzebub 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 16

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    I hate guys. I really do. What the heck do they think when talking to girls? Sex, sex, sex and sex?! Why does every boys that i'm trying to befriend with are perverts? There are so...
    thousandroses thousandroses 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 4

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    Definitely NOT All Guys! I just hate the ones who act like jerks and think they're better than everyone else when they're really total morons and the kinds of losers my mother...
    FR3DR1CKA FR3DR1CKA 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    my eyes r blue ! why yyyyyy!!! i loved my green eyes now there blue help how can i make them go back to green
    siofrafay siofrafay 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    The first true sign of love is anger: What we need, we're likely to resent. Each needing, needed, leaned on, leaning, No longer free standing stone and white. The wistful, tender...
    silvermoon9619 silvermoon9619 16-17, F Jun 27

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    When you miss him so much to the point where you just want to ran and go find him kiss him and hug him and tell him you love him I miss you so much Robert I can't live with out you...
    nikkismith15 nikkismith15 13-15, F Jun 30

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    I just look at other people's lives and seeing them with their friends just breaks my heart constantly. :'(
    whatupdoc54 whatupdoc54 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 3

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    "Give me a ******* reason not to look down on you" ^ So tell me:what am I supposed to do with that statement?
    Naty14 Naty14 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 10

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    I am disturbed with my self.
    Rogerxxx Rogerxxx 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 16

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    So I've asked my boyfriend for sex 12 times, anal 18 and asked if I could give him a blow job 13 times over the last 3 days and still isn't "in the mood". Maybe I'm just not...
    LittleBeelzebub LittleBeelzebub 18-21, F 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    Ignorance is a bliss that I have not been fortunate enough to fall into
    renguard renguard 16-17, M 1 day ago

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    I am just a teenage girl and I want to practise my English. Maybe I'd like to have a pen-friend. But, please, don't hope to realize or share your sex dreams with me.
    kindcarrot kindcarrot 13-15, F Jul 5

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    If a guy makes you feel like crap then sweetheart he is not worth your time.
    FindingDiana FindingDiana 13-15, F Jul 6

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    The looks man, the looks. I guess I'll embrace the 'older man' persona that people have given me. Maybe it's the beard.
    nayas2 nayas2 18-21, M Jun 25

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    the title says it all I am into anime and I don't care what any of you guys think. I am a gamer anything from FPS to bullet hell I enjoy music anything except rap and country I...
    anime25 anime25 22-25, M Jul 10

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