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I Am Really Hard On Myself Sometimes

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    Or So I Am Told

    Growing up I guess I seemed to strive for perfection in all things academic not because of pushy parents or anything like that but simply because I thought that it was how it was supposed to be. Then I got to secondary school and still had the same work ethic and positive...
    Blueskies22 Blueskies22 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 7, 2013

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    Why Do I Do That?

    Practically everyday of my life some way some how I get told im beautiful, pretty, gorgeous, sexy, hot, ect... and most times when I look in the mirror after I do my hair and make up I feel that way, but some times I still feel like I could look better if I changed some things...
    sweetpea053190 sweetpea053190 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 11, 2013

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    I Tried All My Life To Show My Family I'Ve Succeeded On My Own.

    Don't read this posting EP lovers/ readers if you think I'm always funny with my sometimes too encrypted humor. It's not always been like that . My WHOLE blood family, meaning, my mom / dad, siblings. Being the last born , I was always trying to prove myself . I know that's not...
    JohnCrighton JohnCrighton 51-55, M 1 Response Sep 24, 2013

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    My Breakdown Over My Mom

    When I was younger my older sister commented to me stating that my mom is depressed... I never noticed until then, a very big realization. Then I was thinking over how are relationship was & I thought maybe I was a litter hard on he, I convinced myself that i was a lot worse then...
    MulletMacSween MulletMacSween 22-25 1 Response Jan 11, 2013

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    Ok, so, I am a student,

    going to school full-time. I am almost done. After tomorrow, I will be entering my final term before going out on externship. Tomorrow is a final. Up till now, I have been able to maintain my 4.0 GPA, but this term, I almost lost that. It has been a really difficult term...
    aaaagggghhhh aaaagggghhhh 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 13

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    More Like All Of The Time

    Im always hard on myself. i always have been, and i always will be. ive never been happy with who i am, but im learning to accept myself and understand that this is who i am and i csnt change that. hopefully, in the future ill learn to be easier on myself.
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F Sep 8, 2013

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    As I get prepared for a big presentation my

    inner child surfaces. Be perfect, impress them so they love you.
    Littlelionwoman81 Littlelionwoman81 36-40, F 1 Response May 20

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    School can be stressful

    and a bit strenuous. I suffer from extreme stress sometimes and it annoys the hell out of me. The last test I got (biology) was a D and it literally just lowered my view on myself. I have very high expectations in myself and my parents as well. I want to go to a good college so...
    goddessoffab goddessoffab 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 30

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    I Hate Myself

    I hate the way I look, I hate the fact I'm alive. Sometimes if I do something wrong I want to punish myself by cutting. I wish I was like everybody else sometimes.
    Maggotgirl Maggotgirl 16-17, F Mar 16, 2013

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    Can'T Decide What I Feel For Him

    So there's this boy name Chris, and I really like him. We've been texting for a long time now. Problem is, I cannot talk to him in person. All I can say is, "Oh, hi." If he says hello. He goes to a different school, but our schools are combined in sports. I can see him at...
    bookworm77 bookworm77 16-17, F Mar 10, 2013

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    I am really hard on myself about grades at

    school because I always feel like Im not trying my best. I am also really hard on myself when im riding (I ride horses) because I feel like i can do better and that I need to be the best and always win. I hate this part of me but I cant seem to make it go away.
    horsecrazy3 horsecrazy3 18-21, F Feb 17

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    A Whole New Level

    I'm a habitual self critic. I think everyone is to some degree, but I take it to a whole new level. It does not border on self loathing and self hate, it's right in the center of the camp. It's like there is this Ring Leader in my brain, orchestrating this massive bout of...
    CaptainPeachFuzz CaptainPeachFuzz 31-35, T 2 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    ... Okay. Most Of The Time.

    Why? I don't know. My reasons are countless. Who doesn't look at their reflection and see imperfection? Too this, too that. Not enough of this, I wish I had that. My fault really comes down to how much it really digs into me. The sadness and just the pain of feeling bad about...
    InSydious InSydious 22-25, F Jul 29, 2013

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    Love yourself now, because in 10 years you will

    marvel at how beautiful you once were. Savor it. NOW. You’ll wish you did.
    Littlelionwoman81 Littlelionwoman81 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 13

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    Never Enough

    since i was a child ive been tough on myself and i think it stems from my disability i was born with only a quater of my heart working. because of that i have alot of restrictions. now my parents are awesome with 3 other kids they never treated my diff but that made me work...
    KronX KronX 22-25, M Dec 29, 2012

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    My brain has this thing where

    if something's not perfect or I mess up or I fail, it just shuts down and won't let me pick myself up and move on. Not everything can be perfect, and I accept that, but apparently some part of me doesn't.
    Seblett Seblett 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 30

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    Whats Wrong With Me?

    Why do I feel the need to be perfect all the time? When I make a stupid mistake, I beat myself up. Literally. I lash out on myself. I had a problem a couple years back where I tried to die. I know, I know. I took about 10 percocets and planned to take the remaining 10 when my...
    likeaprayerxo likeaprayerxo 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 29, 2013

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    People

    People tell me I need to be more skinny... That I need to be more diligent with my grades... That I need to be less shy... That I need to be nicer... Even that I need to be less hard on myself. How am I supposed to do that when people don't think I'm good enough? I try my best...
    animallover110293 animallover110293 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2013

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    Cut

    I'm only eleven annoyed I lied about my age cuz I need to talk and I need to talk to someone plz don't criticize me for my age I do cut and its not for attention trust me if it was for attention I would do it on my arms not thighs an legs
    Need2cut Need2cut 13-15, F Jan 13, 2013

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    I'M Not Sure About This One

    Can anyone tell me what this one means please ? I first thought it had something to do with Pleasing ones self. So I say that I no longer do it, not because I don't want to . I leave that to my Sheila. No seriously I'm not a goose. Sure I set my bar too high. Oops there I go...
    JohnCrighton JohnCrighton 51-55, M Sep 28, 2013

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    hardwork is like stairs

    and luck is like lift some times lift may fail but stairs will always take you at the top...............
    isabelarao isabelarao 18-21, F Mar 14

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    I Am My Harshest Critic

    I know what is going on inside, and therefore, I know that I deserve harsh criticism. I am usually pretty careful to hide the dark side of me from other people, so who else is going to be hard on me? It is my job to judge and to police my actions.
    Serenitree Serenitree 70+, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2013

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    I Hate Myself

    I hate the way I look, I hate the fact I'm alive. Sometimes if I do something wrong I want to punish myself by cutting. I wish I was like everybody else sometimes.
    Maggotgirl Maggotgirl 16-17, F Mar 16, 2013

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    I am 60+ and after years of substance abuse,

    I have been clean and sober for 2 months. The 1st couple of weeks were extremely rough but I joined a recovery program at my church and for the past few weeks I've have never felt better. I woke up extremely depressed this morning (I am also Bipolar) and am beating myself up...
    jgintexas jgintexas 61-65, M 1 Response May 2

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    Never "Good Enough"...

    Growing up, I was never quite "good enough" to suit my dad. I didn't study enough, I didn't make good enough grades, I didn't practice my instrument enough, and on and on. I was never an outstanding student, even though I was smart enough, I was too lazy. My dad was a hard...
    pipermac pipermac 56-60, M 1 Response Apr 19, 2013

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    Pressure

    I'm the eldest sibling and cousin and I always had to set and "example" to the young ones I hate it because I know I'm not good enough
    Numbing65 Numbing65 13-15, F 1 Response May 18, 2013

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    Always

    I'm always hard on myself probably always will be
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 1, 2013

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    There are days when I won't be able to do anything but feel. (I say only "feel" because I can't quite find the words. I feel bad about myself and everything else, but not really...
    TwoWastedCigarettes TwoWastedCigarettes 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    like i wonder sometimes why ive allowed u in so close to me. why have i tried to make u a best friend, when i dont think u really care. sometimes i wish i could go away for a while...
    SadisticBitch SadisticBitch 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 29

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    More like most of the times. Idk either im happy or not. Idk why sometimes i cry and get sad with no reasons. Its not like im not being grateful with my life but i really really...
    saffaismail saffaismail 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 8

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    There's this guy. We hung out the other day and he was really nice to me and all. I had tons of fun and he was such a gentleman. But then he tried to kiss me. Being the blonde I am...
    JustAskAnything JustAskAnything 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 8

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    dont know why but all of a sudden sometimes i just have 0 respect for myself and feel like a meaningless waste of space
    Builda47 Builda47 22-25, M Aug 28

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    When did I go from outgoing and fun loving to an introverted shut in? I just sort of realized that I have systematically become a boring homebody. I used to be a social butterfly...
    Therealabbeyroad Therealabbeyroad 22-25, F Aug 21

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    I really wish I could disappear.
    NegativePulse NegativePulse 18-21, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I hate that im not perfect and full of flaws. I hate that im not good enough for everybody. I hate that i cant make someone feel good or even make them laugh and happy because of...
    saffaismail saffaismail 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    Just went I think about myself. Like being around a lot of people makes me feel ugly, so my mind snaps and I start to believe it and then I hate myself
    jeaaane jeaaane 13-15, F 19 hrs ago

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    I'm feeling a lot of dislike for myself at the moment, I have no one to vent to anymore because everyone's gone and the only ones here are too weak or not on the same mental level...
    othell00 othell00 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 23

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    I find myself thinking and dreaming of all the things I could do in this world. The problem is, my mind starts to wonder of all the things that could go wrong. How can I want...
    GetYourFreakOn GetYourFreakOn 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 29

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    I did it again. I hurt my friends's feelings. Not the normal "I didn't think that it would hurt them". What I said would hurt anyone in their situation. I just didn't care at the...
    Savi0r Savi0r 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 2

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    Well, it has finally came to a head. My husbands business which has been struggling for a couple of years has gone. This company which he ran for 10 years has been going down...
    Mylifesover Mylifesover 46-50 3 Responses Sep 10

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    Making decisions that makes me regret in the end. I don't know!!! >.<
    ElleFrancene ElleFrancene 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    It happened again. Whenever I try helping I manage to inflict pain. It keeps happening.
    Untrustworthy117 Untrustworthy117 16-17, M Aug 23

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    I'm done. I'm done. I'm done.
    CaysenB12 CaysenB12 16-17, M Sep 9

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    Right now, I just feel so worthless & ugly 😒. No lie. I can't even explain how I'm exactly feelings...
    jeaaane jeaaane 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    My head hurts!!!!! Stupid, stupid, stupid.
    stephiwayland stephiwayland 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 26

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    I'm depressed and it's hard. It's gotten bad enough that I started cutting myself for tons of different reasons. Sometimes I feel so numb inside that I cut myself so I can feel...
    benjamintkw benjamintkw 13-15, M Sep 10

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    For some reason, I've been much more open about what's happened to me, than about what I've done to myself.. I feel like sharing that with you guys now.. I've been cutting since I...
    Betruetoyourselfxx Betruetoyourselfxx 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Sometimes I feel worthless, unwanted and unloved, especially unloved. For the last few weeks it's getting more often. But why is that? Don't get me wrong, not everything in my life...
    Gammler Gammler 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    So, today I had my birthday party for family and friends, my real birthday is tomorrow. I invited my family and 2 of my closest friend. I have a form of social anxiety and I find...
    esmeek27 esmeek27 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    I was looking for the page "I Am Ashamed of Being Myself," and I could have sworn that I clicked on it, but instead Firefox led me here. So what I'm going to do is tell the story...
    Kurokagi Kurokagi 18-21 Sep 2

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