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I Am Really Hard On Myself Sometimes

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    I get these flashbacks

    that make me cringe every time they come. It's usually nothing really bad but I start hating myself for acting just the way I am! Any way to handle this self hatred for just being me??
    liveurbestlifenow liveurbestlifenow 31-35, F Feb 23

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    Whats Wrong With Me?

    Why do I feel the need to be perfect all the time? When I make a stupid mistake, I beat myself up. Literally. I lash out on myself. I had a problem a couple years back where I tried to die. I know, I know. I took about 10 percocets and planned to take the remaining 10 when my...
    likeaprayerxo likeaprayerxo 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 29, 2013

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    Don't know why I hate myself

    so much. It's almost become an addiction, where bc I can't stand myself so much that I participate in activities that cause me to hurt myself, to the point where I can't look in the mirror and see a beautiful woman, much less a G-m. O love of God, boundless and unrelenting...
    liveurbestlifenow liveurbestlifenow 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    hardwork is like stairs

    and luck is like lift some times lift may fail but stairs will always take you at the top...............
    isabelarao isabelarao 18-21, F Mar 14, 2014

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    I'm so hard on myself,

    especially when it comes to academics. I just received a poor grade on my paper, but I'm needing some advice on how to accept it, and not allow this one mark to colour the rest of the course experience. Someone please fill me with some enlightening thoughts!
    drunkinlove23 drunkinlove23 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 31, 2014

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    Always

    I'm always hard on myself probably always will be
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 1, 2013

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    More Like All Of The Time

    Im always hard on myself. i always have been, and i always will be. ive never been happy with who i am, but im learning to accept myself and understand that this is who i am and i csnt change that. hopefully, in the future ill learn to be easier on myself.
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F Sep 8, 2013

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    I Am My Harshest Critic

    I know what is going on inside, and therefore, I know that I deserve harsh criticism. I am usually pretty careful to hide the dark side of me from other people, so who else is going to be hard on me? It is my job to judge and to police my actions.
    Serenitree Serenitree 70+, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2013

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    I'm always thinking that I owe people

    explanations for the way I act. I feel like they have the right to know so no one will think any less of me. But in reality, regardless of what problems I may presently have, either way no one would understand anyway. Either you like me or you don't. I must learn self-acceptance...
    SentimentalMood SentimentalMood 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 28

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    Never "Good Enough"...

    Growing up, I was never quite "good enough" to suit my dad. I didn't study enough, I didn't make good enough grades, I didn't practice my instrument enough, and on and on. I was never an outstanding student, even though I was smart enough, I was too lazy. My dad was a hard...
    pipermac pipermac 56-60, M 1 Response Apr 19, 2013

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    I am 60+ and after years of substance abuse,

    I have been clean and sober for 2 months. The 1st couple of weeks were extremely rough but I joined a recovery program at my church and for the past few weeks I've have never felt better. I woke up extremely depressed this morning (I am also Bipolar) and am beating myself up...
    jgintexas jgintexas 61-65, M 1 Response May 2, 2014

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    Never Enough

    since i was a child ive been tough on myself and i think it stems from my disability i was born with only a quater of my heart working. because of that i have alot of restrictions. now my parents are awesome with 3 other kids they never treated my diff but that made me work...
    KronX KronX 22-25, M Dec 29, 2012

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    People

    People tell me I need to be more skinny... That I need to be more diligent with my grades... That I need to be less shy... That I need to be nicer... Even that I need to be less hard on myself. How am I supposed to do that when people don't think I'm good enough? I try my best...
    animallover110293 animallover110293 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 28, 2013

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    Or So I Am Told

    Growing up I guess I seemed to strive for perfection in all things academic not because of pushy parents or anything like that but simply because I thought that it was how it was supposed to be. Then I got to secondary school and still had the same work ethic and positive...
    Blueskies22 Blueskies22 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 7, 2013

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    Why Do I Do That?

    Practically everyday of my life some way some how I get told im beautiful, pretty, gorgeous, sexy, hot, ect... and most times when I look in the mirror after I do my hair and make up I feel that way, but some times I still feel like I could look better if I changed some things...
    sweetpea053190 sweetpea053190 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 11, 2013

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    As I get prepared for a big presentation my

    inner child surfaces. Be perfect, impress them so they love you.
    Femmeheartsoul Femmeheartsoul 36-40, F 1 Response May 20, 2014

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    Ok, so, I am a student,

    going to school full-time. I am almost done. After tomorrow, I will be entering my final term before going out on externship. Tomorrow is a final. Up till now, I have been able to maintain my 4.0 GPA, but this term, I almost lost that. It has been a really difficult term...
    aaaagggghhhh aaaagggghhhh 41-45, F 3 Responses Mar 13, 2014

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    Love yourself now, because in 10 years you will

    marvel at how beautiful you once were. Savor it. NOW. You’ll wish you did.
    Femmeheartsoul Femmeheartsoul 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 13, 2014

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    My Breakdown Over My Mom

    When I was younger my older sister commented to me stating that my mom is depressed... I never noticed until then, a very big realization. Then I was thinking over how are relationship was & I thought maybe I was a litter hard on he, I convinced myself that i was a lot worse then...
    MulletMacSween MulletMacSween 22-25 1 Response Jan 11, 2013

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    A Whole New Level

    I'm a habitual self critic. I think everyone is to some degree, but I take it to a whole new level. It does not border on self loathing and self hate, it's right in the center of the camp. It's like there is this Ring Leader in my brain, orchestrating this massive bout of...
    CaptainPeachFuzz CaptainPeachFuzz 31-35, T 2 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    I feel like everything

    that happens to me is my fault. People tell me its not always my fault but i still feel like it is
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 17, 2014

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    I'M Not Sure About This One

    Can anyone tell me what this one means please ? I first thought it had something to do with Pleasing ones self. So I say that I no longer do it, not because I don't want to . I leave that to my Sheila. No seriously I'm not a goose. Sure I set my bar too high. Oops there I go...
    JohnCrighton JohnCrighton 51-55, M Sep 28, 2013

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    ... Okay. Most Of The Time.

    Why? I don't know. My reasons are countless. Who doesn't look at their reflection and see imperfection? Too this, too that. Not enough of this, I wish I had that. My fault really comes down to how much it really digs into me. The sadness and just the pain of feeling bad about...
    InSydious InSydious 22-25, F Jul 29, 2013

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    I Tried All My Life To Show My Family I'Ve Succeeded On My Own.

    Don't read this posting EP lovers/ readers if you think I'm always funny with my sometimes too encrypted humor. It's not always been like that . My WHOLE blood family, meaning, my mom / dad, siblings. Being the last born , I was always trying to prove myself . I know that's not...
    JohnCrighton JohnCrighton 51-55, M 1 Response Sep 24, 2013

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